#Why must I be this way

[helpolnix]

The gods know more than you think. (thinking loudly is a crime)

Before I got into Hellenism and drowned myself in it, like many people, I was into just Greek mythology. But… I.. did something a bit more..artistic.. with my love for it.

I wrote stories.

I wrote fucking stories with some gods as the main characters.

Ironically enough, it was about a girl that loves Greek gods only to then find out they’re very real.

When I started working with and worshiping deities, I was like oh man, I hope they never find out about that.

They did.

I first found out through Helios, as he made a joke that I knew his personality well because I wrote about it. I proceeded to scream in mortification, and he just said I was a good writer. Having a god call you a good writer doesn’t take away the mortification of knowing they know you wrote about them.

Then Hermes brought it up and I almost screamed again. I asked how he knew and apparently… I think loudly.

I.think.loudly.

I THINK LOUD.

If you need me, I’ll be at the nearest highway.

Thanks!

#why must i be this way #them finding it funny doesn’t help. #hellenic polytheism #deity worship #helpol #deity work #hermes deity #hellenic worship #deity dionysus #deity helios #hellenic devotion #hellenic polythiest #hellenism

[crystallizsch]

wait a min again hang on

this is a personal one

twst how could u do this to me (<- it’s my own fault and responsibility)

my fave characters’ bdays are ALL BACK TO BACK in the following months

kalim is in june

leona in july

riddle in august

and finally jamil in september (there's also ace in sept but eh)

TWST HOW COULD YOU MAKE ME PICK LIKE THIS

ACTUALLY NO THE SHEER COINCIDENCE THAT THIS WAS SET THIS UP IN THE WAY THAT OF COURSE JAMIL IS THE LAST ONE SO THAT I’LL BE TEMPTED WITH THE OTHERS’ BEFORE HIS BDAY COMES

(and not to mention the events that i may be interested in are probably gonna come in these following months i am in AGONY)

#✦ i have thoughts #why must i be this way #im sorry my beloveds #im gonna have to skip some of you 😔😔😔 #also i’m like rambling a lot today hfjdhsj #i cant draw rn as i am stuck in lectures #so i have nothing else to do but be with my own thoughts 😭😭😭

[carverl]

I wish I could properly draw so I could hobble together an animatic of Agent Phoenix reliving their past and reflecting on their "deaths" and how the physical and mental trauma has affected them despite their continual commitment to fight Zor and go on missions even though it may be at the detriment of themself as spywork slowly eats away at their soul while the Handler tries to reach out to Pheonix only for them to push him away out of fear of making any meaningful connection in a job where death is just expected all playing to the tune of Billie Eilish's No Time To Die

Alas I'll have to make do with the music videos playing in my head 😢

#i expect you to die #why must i be this way #i could just learn #but I feel like I wouldn't be good at it #animation is hard too #agent pheonix #man this guy has trauma

[traggalicious]

11 hours 29 minutes in. Im ill. Like. Im fr sick. I feel like SHIT. and im actively making it worse.

#why must i be this way #artists on tumblr #the owl house #digital art #digital artist #toh #im in pain #more tags to come #im siiiick #): #HamARTia #grimwalker oc #Tortured Darlings #traggy’s shit

[bingobongobonko]

taking a drag of smoke but its not even a cigarette its a little rolled up blunt full of nitrogen dioxide. i lost my wallet friday and i can't find it, and i lost my binder today and i found it, but also i lost my wallet. so thats not fun. im literally unsure where it could be. kind of hate myself a bit, and by a bit i mean a lot; im all for being patient with oneself but i am actually so forgetful and ditzy it pisses me off. i dont know where any of my things are, and now im missing my WALLET. why do i suck so fucking bad. whats wrong with you man like genuinely. i want to sucker punch myself the hardest humanly possible, literal fucking idiot.

does anyone have advice or tips for tracking it down, or in the future honestly, to make it harder to forget where things are?? i have a bag where my things are supposed to go. it just. sometimes never ends up in the bag (i forget to. because of course i do)

#fool's monologue #ill stop being angry in a sec im just tired #why must i be this way #its been worse because ive been spread so thin im forgetting a bunch of stuff but fuck off man. the wallet? you lost your wallet? what #do you want me to fucking tie it to your neck or something #what will make you NOT lose your fucking wallet

[nyckie]

will apparently cry just seeing mention of bunnies now

#why must i be this way #what is wrong with me #the thought of bunnies just makes me so happy #i am 100% legit crying because i saw someone mention a rabbit doing a completely ordinary rabbit thing??? #which i've seen rabbits do thousands of times?? #my chest hurts. why am i having these emotions #i have like 20+ rabbits i don't need to cry over the thought of rabbits #make it stop please i need to function i was just trying to meal plan #ny says

[blueberrymuffen-draws]

I really like this idea I want to make more and do stickers!!!

#art #nonbinary #why must i be this way #zombie #cw: gore #gore lover

[tigersorange]

writing stuff when u have a weird fetish and setting up the kink scenario like a fucking rube goldberg machine and then getting so embarrassed you just give up halfway through is so humbling

#why must i be this way

[spotsandsocks]

Damn dragon getting in my head giving me ideas… I’ve just thought of something deliciously angsty for the finale of a fic i haven’t even started yet…. Urgh! 🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉

#good knight sweet prince #sequel ideas #why must i be this way #buddie

[sillylittleravenpuff]

Hrng so many fandom so little ability to make content for all of them

#I make 3 masterpieces then go on hiatus for a month #why must i be this way

[boywhatintheheck]

why cant I stop drawing/thinking about him

#welcome home puppet show #welcome home howdy #howdy pillar #why must i be this way #art #fan art #He's just like Kevin fr

[running-in-the-dark]

haha you know when you're doing that thing where you're talking to another person, like, that's a normal thing to do right? but then you start saying things and you're like hmm maybe I shouldn't say so many weird things, right? but you keep talking because you don't know how to stop talking (or typing in this case) once you get started. right? and then suddenly your brain hits you with the Oh Fuck No ray and all of a sudden you feel like ooooh shit everything I've ever said in my whole entire life has been a mistake and I must go dig a hole and stay in it forever. right? right?? 😭

#why must I be this way #someone punch me or something #maybe that'll fix my brain #no no no everything is fine it's fine nothing even happened it's just I'm sitting here and being fine and suddenly BAM there it is #it's worse when I manage to stop it for like. hours. but then suddenly everything I've said that whole time is Actually Evil and oh no #no no I'm bad and I need to be punished. #it'll be fine I'll calm down it'll go away #but fuck I hate it #feeling baaad #bad bad bad

[siegestateofmind]

Just saw Netflix's new trailer. All I gotta say is....

Hi.

#why must i be this way #this is lunacy #the sea beast #netflix

[didisayso]

Jeongin : Gotta say, your nonsense is actually kinda making sense.

Changbin : Really?

Jeongin : Yeah to you not to me. Please, for the love of God, stop.

#why must i be this way #lee felix #yang jeongin #bang chan #lee minho #seo changbin #hwang hyunjin #han jisung #kim seungmin #stray kids #incorrect stray kids #incorrect quotes #christopher bang #lee know

[random-obsseser]

want to read pizzahead fanfics

too scared to actually try to look for them anywhere

#why must i be this way #why must i cause my own suffering

[elladan-4]

soooo...... I've tried Streaming for exactly two minutes before my social anxiety commanded me to stop. whats even worse is that I had two randoms in my stream and I just said "No, I can't" and ended the stream.

#social anxiety #streaming #pmseymourva #snom i need help #autism #why must I be this way