#alhamdulillah always

[rueyam]

home workouts and islamic journaling helped me so much to heal

#the combo you didn’t know you needed #one for the spiritual and one for the physical #alhamdulillah always #mine #musings #prsnl

[peachiyyy]

i was planning on taking an uber home once i landed only to see my mom and cousin waiting for me at the terminal (theyve been waiting for 2 hours). Then when I went home, my aunt and sister surprised me with a red velvet cake from my favorite bakery as a welcome back. My mom cooked all of my favorite foods- her and my aunt didn’t eat all day because they wanted to eat w me. At 1am. My dad is in India right now but every hour, he kept calling my mom to see if I arrived, he stayed up all night waiting for me to land safely. My cats who hid anytime they werent being fed, immediately ran out of hiding and kept cuddling me once they realized that im back. Sometimes I take my family for granted. I loved Japan so much but it’s so much better to be at home surrounded by people who love and care for you endlessly

#personal #Alhamdulillah always

[faithful-diaries]

#Alhamdulillah always #she is evolving #I am she #deenoverdunya #enjoy the journey while keeping your eye on the destination #words to live by #islam #muslimah

[a-spell-a-rebel-yell]

October

hello everyone! just like in my own fashion: late posting again 🤣 assignments pouring in nonstop but i think i found my rhythm now, and even calling it truce with wire bending - we're cool now! school has been going well, me and my ten classmates just having fun and overcoming things together 🤩

this month has been good to me - no, scratch that - it's given me yet another surprise i didn't even dare to imagine or let alone think about... (disclaimer: not love life related lol) but i can't really talk about it now, it'll be revealed next month 😉

October marks the very last month i get to live at Panglima Polim, feeling very bittersweet about it because i've lived there for six full wholesome years, where i achieved quite a lot of things (finished my first degree, graduated as a dentist, AND got accepted for postgrad program) not to mention the house is located in the heart of South Jakarta, next to prominent public transportation stations... i'm gonna miss the house so much, though not the cleaning and maintenance part haha the only reason i don't like having grand spacious houses. if you know me, you'll guess correctly because i absolutely procrastinated packing my things up. the way that i also knew in my bones i'd finish everything in a few hours yet still i sparsed it out into two full blown weeks, ha! but i emptied my bedroom all the same, and boy oh boy. the stuffs i've forgotten and found again! i think me revisiting old memories while organizing and selecting and taking things out of my closet was taking much longer than the actual tidying up part.

i'm moving to my Brisbane cousin's home, which from now on we'll dub as Kebayoran Lama/Bendi house and is also my childhood home. it belonged to my maternal grandparents but my uncle bought it back in 1998. i lived here since i was born until i was six years old and i moved to Cibubur. the nostalgic feeling i get every single second i spend in this house though... all the happy childhood memories resurfacing, especially the ones where my maternal grandparents and my uncle were still alive are the highlights.

technically it's still quite a distance to my campus at Salemba, but it's definitely better than commuting from Cibubur. also i'm close to Pondok Indah Mall where i used to go almost every weekend during my childhood days! not far from here there's a public cemetery, train railway, and my old kindergarten... it does feel like i'm back as a child. can't believe i'm back living here again after twenty years! so many things coming back to me in this odd yet fascinating exhilarating way, many many many years later. again enforcing my belief that good things do come all in good time!

as i typed this it's my mum's birthday and ten (10!!!) days to go to Coldplay Jakarta and 83 days to Coldplay Singapore night 4! ✨ sooo excited and i will definitely update you guys!

anyway, this moving out permanently thing got me thinking. the silver lining in the cloud is that in order to 'move out', not only i have to 'carry on' i also have to 'leave behind' :) i do not need to bring along the burden of the past, i'm keeping it away at where it came from.

would like to end this post to urge everyone to talk about Palestine. call for ceasefire, donate for aid, boycott (refer to BDS Movement's instructions), share any post on Palestine. from the river to the see, Palestine will be free!

see you on the next post x

#alhamdulillah always #i feel like i've mastered the way to find happiness even in the smallest things #even when in the most desperate times #even when it seems like i have no one #alhamdulillah :)

[sabrgirl]

benefits of practising daily gratitude to Allah

more blessings in life

less reasons to complain

an increased awareness of the good in your life

lower threshold for drama

less anxiety, nervousness and stress

encourages positivity

a better relationship with Allah

a better relationship with others

helps us get through hard times

#always remember to say alhamdulillah #islam #islamic #muslim #quran #sabrgirl #sabr #muslims #tasbeeh #zikr #muslimah #islamdaily #islamic reminders #deen #Allah #allahﷻ #alhamdulillah #dua #islampost #hadith #qur'an #God #gratitude #blessings #grateful #allah

[lvstharmony]

i have been sick since the 1st october and i keep thinking about the hadith that if a muslim becomes sick, Allah expiates some sins bc of it. Allah swt. is truly the Most Merciful.

#alhamdulillah #there’s always khair in everything

[ibyul]

digital art practice // another cloud study (4 hrs 37 min)

#art #I really always underestimate how much I use art to cope #practicing clouds that one day was such a great idea #alhamdulillah #artbymali

[irhabiya]

Howdy!

Do you happen to have a link to the video of the Egyptians talking about all their mental illnesses (all of them inshallah)?

Thank you.

right here babe

#i love that video so much kolaha insha'Allah alhamdulillah u will always be famous #inbox

[nektaarr]

The heater in our office shut down and it‘s been only around 13 degrees inside the whole morning ;;

#my hand are freezing and my feet too #i‘m wearing 3 layers plus my winter jacket #uff #the heater‘s been randomly going on and off over the past few weeks #but yousually it would always go back on after 2-3 hours #but i feel like this time its different #😭 #its the worst when you‘re only sitting in front of the computer and not get to move around at all #also i lack a lot of energy bc i slept so bad last night and #i dont habe anything proper to eat for lunch #so staying warm isnt very the easiest task for my body today #what a way to start the week #;; #but alhamdulillah! #it always could be worse i guess #;-;b #yxc #(wow the amount of typos i made just shows how cold and tired i am loll) #wouldnt be too surprised if i got sick

[insomniacmelancholy]

I think about this tweet once a week

#for what it's worth I've never felt more seen by something said by a stranger on the internet as i have with this tweet #thinking about that scene in all of us strangers when he says “but I've always felt lonely” like the most banal of statements #idk what's wrong with me that no matter who's around me loved ones or otherwise #i feel excruciatingly alone #sometimes it's awful and I'm back in my bed as a teen crying myself to sleep about having no one to talk to #other times it just is what it is & my mother is referencing it casually in conversation or my sister's joking about it #the sky is blue the grass is green I'll always be lonely #alhamdulillah

[a-spell-a-rebel-yell]

June

oh my god, i think this month's monthly update is the most delayed one i've ever posted here... i'm so sorry huhu but anyways to make it up to you guys: hello friends, wherever you are i hope you guys are happy and safe.

(also a bit TMI: this is my second time writing this post. for unknown cause, while i was already 90% done with my post, Tumblr decided to crash and i lost all of the words i've written. sighs. from this second, i will always remember to do 'save as drafts' now and then)

so the reason of me going behind schedule is really just the classic excuse of me being super busy. so many things happened and it just kept me away from this website and update you guys, literally until i can only write these down 2 days into July! 🥺

June started just like any month this year. work wise, the clinic ran just like how it does normally. nothing worth noting happened. life went on as mundane as it is, just the way i like it: staying in comfort zone.

but then, at the end of first week, i received a terrible news: the passing of a second father figure, an uncle. it was so abrupt, happened at night, but that's how heart attack is. this post also serves as a public service announcement to please please learn how to do the CPR! it might save lives and prevents further serious damages. the steps leading to and during cardio-pulmonary resuscitation aren't hard to memorize and trust me when i say it will make a huge difference. there are just a few steps, simple yet effective and important that i'm sure you'll thank yourself for studying it beforehand and keeping it in mind. especially if you have family members or friends with cardiovascular disease, please take a CPR course.

what's worse was having to deliver the news to his daughter, my closest cousin, who was at Brisbane at that time. dealing with the loss will never be easy, no matter how many times we've gone through this. it doesn't even lessen the pain in the slightest, it just acts like a warning sign to brace ourselves for the surely harsh waves. it crushed and still left an irreparable dent on my heart.

my mum also got the worst impact. my uncle and her were close, they were like comrades and always trusted each other. she said it feels even depressing to realize there are only three siblings left, where originally there were seven. it brought back the topic of death, and of course my parents got me into another drill of instructions to do should their time come. i honestly can't imagine a world without my mum and dad, i've always thought them and my grandma are immortal and inseparable part of my life i will never lose. but i guess, death and losses are just like the shadow, we can never outrun it. we just learn how to live with it.

now the main and only focus is to spend as much time as i can with my loved ones. cherish everything i have with them while they're still here, and give them the best while they can still witness it. i don't care how much we have left, even if it's just a speck of time, that is ours to preserve in the best state.

on another note, i watched Broker 브로커 and Everything Everywhere All At Once at the cinema! these two movies are just awesome, pure masterpieces. i recommend you to watch it!!! i can't even really describe what i feel while watching them, i genuinely think no word can break down the emotions you get during and after watching. they just get your thinking gears move and force you to step on their shoes for a couple of hours... i think i will rewatch them from time to time. not to mention the scores oh my god!!! Jung Jaeil did Broker and Son Lux did EEAAO, and i kid you not my favorite score that i listened before watching is actually played also on my favorite scenes! Broker also got listed into Festival de Cannes competition and won Best Actor... so i think i've said enough to convince you guys to watch it 😁

on the same weekend when i watch Broker, i met my Twitter friend K! she was at Jakarta to watch her favorite athletes at the Indonesia Masters, so between her badminton matches watch party we managed to sneak in some time to watch Broker together and sit to eat, talking from A to Z! it's fascinating really, how even though when i meet my internet friends it's our first encounter ever, we interacted like lifelong best friends finally reunited 😂 she brought a friend along, so naturally i became friends with her too haha

i forgot to mention, but i bought yet another Dufan annual pass! if you guys know me, yes i go to Dufan just like i go to malls, so having this pass is like one of my most treasured lol. going back to Ancol complex and finally getting on my favorite rides, it was... cathartic. even if it was a me-time, alone Dufan date with myself, i feel so liberated, so free. my only mistake was going on a Sunday, which means a packed crowd wherever i went, it took an hour queueing for every ride 😭 but i just let it all out, scream and shout, emptying my lungs every time the ride sent me soaring high into the sky. i put my arms up, complete surrender. i even heard someone saying i was so brave to do that in Kora-Kora, because i sat aaaaall the way back so as the big boat swing i will get to the highest point in an angle where even though i'm actually seated, it forced me to go into standing position. almost like i'm flying! the adrenaline rush and all the fond memories are the reasons why i keep coming back to Dufan 😊

work wise: i'm starting to get interesting cases this month! the most memorable one is again from another pediatric tooth extraction case like last time haha. but for this one, it's not about me having to handle crying kid, but it's what happened during the extraction: the deciduous teeth i extracted has a long, perfectly fine root just like a permanent teeth!!! i swear i already did intraoral examinations before the procedure so i'm sure it is a deciduous teeth, but i have never seen a root that intact it sent me into a panic fit 😭😂 apparently it is normal, it just doesn't happen often. the next case is a mysterious diagnosis of an upper molar, it took me many discussions with my head dentists and professors to determine what to do next. last week i just had the patient in for radiograph analysis and next Tuesday i'll be starting the procedure. prayers i can deliver the best treatment for my patients 🤲🏻

also another thing to add into the pile of things i'm working on: i was writing another fiction, yes!!!! after so long not writing a fiction, i admit i become a bit rusty and have to check Thesaurus a lot, but it's fun designing the mind map, doing world building, and characterization! had to dig deep to find the right emotions and words to portray them, but i finished it. it's just a short 6.8k words, but i'm very satisfied with it hehe.

that's all, the monster update for what June has been to me. i hope anyone reading this will have a superb July!!! stay safe and healthy, see you in the next post 🥂

#phew that was long #i wrote this TWICE thanks to that Tumblr glitch smh #alhamdulillah always #a day in my life

[paperpeachy]

it's super papey mario's super sweet sixteenth

#she will be baked soon alhamdulillah #april 9th u will always b wistful

[nuuralshams]

14.04.2023 - Day 37/42

Honestly I was feeling super anxious and worried for a few days both about rational and irrational things. Worries about the future, health, etc etc. I kept it all bottled up and realized that wasn't helping anyone, had a good talk with my mom and sister and the worries are still there, but I'm feeling so much lighter and happier 🤍

📸 some old pics of the view from our office stairwell, I'm gonna miss it 🥺

Ramadan Challenge 2023

Ramadan Day 23/30: Are you making dua for anything specific? (Any dua you want us to make for you?)

A dua I always make in Ramadan is for me and my loved ones to live to experience the next and many more Ramadans to come, in good health iA. This year I'm praying for good health for everyone, and that our deeds are accepted. Also that my life (career and otherwise) is meaningful and keeps me content, and ofc for Jannah 💌 I'm also praying for my fellow challenge buddies that we keep steadfast in our ibadah 🤍

#ramadanchallenge2023 #nuuralshams #making dua feels a lot more difficult now #when i wasstudying it used to be always to get good exam results #better knowledge #and a steady job #alhamdulillah i have got those :') #but now im like what now 🥲

[ark1os]

.

I didnt know the tags woulr be so much i shouldve just wrote a long vent 😭😭😭 rip

#lol. there are still times where my brain goes omg what if you’re really a narc #and then i go out of my way to make sure my friends are as comfortable as possible and thati meet all their needs and i apologize every few #minutes for something silly or for maybe hurting them unintentionally and then i remember of #every fallout w people in my life where i was always taking responsibility for my actions n for my role to what led to the fallouts no #matter how toxic the person was and i remember all the times i geniunely apologized to my siblings for my mistakes (without them pointing #out i did smth wrong) and i remember all the tomes someone told me i hurt them and i owned up to it and apologized and then i go #oh ywa. maybe not ? #bonus: all the times i helped someone out in secret to bring some ease in their life without ever telling them or bragging eith it or #using it against them or reminding them that i did x y z for them #and then all the times where my guilt ate me up at nights and i cried and the times where i brought out the best of people because my love #is Nuturing. yea #AND I GUESS THE FACT THAT MY EX BEST FRIEND TOLD ME IM A NARC AND I STRAIGHT UP WENT OMG YEA! PROBABLY! BECAUSE I WOULDVE BELIEVED HER #ANYTHING 😭😭😭😭 BECAUSE INWAS SO SURE SHE KNEW ME BETTER THAN I KNEW MYSELF! 😭😭😭 #BECAUSE I HAD LOST MYSELF COMPLETELY IN THE FRIENDSHIP 😭😭😭😭 NOT VERY NARC OF ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #but yea. i guess abandonment issues apathy and lack of communication skills (which leads to passive aggressivness) will make you look like a #narc i get where she came from! but still. if i ever see someone diagnose other people i will simply tell them to shut up #especially based on sentences taken out of context. not very sexy #and also very stupid. #rationally seen i shouldve kicked out the thought that im probably not one when my therapist told me theres no chance i am but. when you get #treated like a freaking mondter from the people you’ve trusted deeply. it does something to you >.> #also when my therapist said that she has No rights to make Any diagnosis or statements about other people because whatever i tell her its #going to tell her more about me than them. i shouldve just dtopped believing it honestly. like freaking sideeye to those therapists thst #told my ex friends im a narc. and a big fat kiss to my therapist for being such a beautiful empathstic underztanding patient beautiful and #kind person #alhamdulillah ^-^ #kicked out the thought thst i am one * #and also a big fat sorry for being hsving no empathy. my communication skills are getting brtter and im working on my abandonment issues #(sfter being abandoned by my closest friends and family hello this is so sexy of me) and im soooo much more st peace w myself n i like and #care aboyt myself ^-^ even just writing a list of positive things ahout me is smth i wouldve never done two years ago #(also my family took me back alhamdulillah eheh)

[ibyul]

interviewed for another teaching job... will i ever even find a job lol- my brother is like. at least try it out. but i don't think I want to do any teaching job anymore it's way too much work. Anyway. I hope they find a great teacher and reject me so that I don't have to do the rejecting. What else can I say

#the job sounded okay on paper #but turned out to be just like any other teaching job aka tons and tons of work #but i mean i guess it was good interview practice #im a good interviewee alhamdulillah but im definitely rusty its been a while #the fact that ive applied to at least 40 jobs so far and have not gotten a single interview lol except for in teaching jobs #anyway. im happy with the qadr of Allah tbh #who knows maybe some wealthy husband will appear in my future and relieve me from 'working for money' and let me do passion projects instea #lol #or not #im happy with whatever honestly #its just the job application process always feels like such a big waste of time. like i could have spent that time doing smth more useful #💭.txt

[justmakeduaa]

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