#also I joined like maybe a week or so

[diornies]

some of my zutara sketches from twitter!

#zutara #atla #avatar the last airbender #katara #zuko #my art #if u ignore outsider toxicity the zutara twt community is great #theyre so familial in a sense they will stick out for their people umprompted its sweet 🥹 #also I joined like maybe a week or so #and they took me in like a lost turtleduck

[skitskatdacat63]

2009 Abu Dhabi Grand Prix - Sebastian Vettel(ft. Mark Webber & Jenson Button)

#fantastic podium!! maybe my favorite of this season????? #sebmarkson podiums are my fav ever nothing can top them #and both mark and jense were being so cute with seb this race aaaahhhhhhh <333333 #theres something about seb that makes older men want to cuddle him and pick him up and pour champagne on him #haha thank you to dru for showing me seb getting drenched on this podium a few weeks and making me hype for this race!! #this race was very very good as well. like the last laps battle btwn mark and jense was insane #its very good when i already know the results of a race but the racing still makes me sit on the edge of my seat and scream a bit #i mentioned this before but i love how this race felt like an epilogue and it was nice to see everyone having fun and enjoying themseles #thank you everybody for joining me on another season journey!!! it been so much fun. ive really really enjoyed 2009 #brawn is just soooooo cool to me. their story is insane!! im glad ive gotten to watch thru this season before the docu abt them comes out #but also very fun to see the beginning of rbr getting to the top of the field. every good result just felt so rewarding and worth it #anyways dont wanna do too much commentary abt it since ive discussed it a lot. onto 2010 next!!!! i shall miss you 2009 #though i will say. it was rly interesting in this race to hear their team predictions for next season bcs a lot of it doesnt pan out #mark webber #jenson button #sebastian vettel #sebson #martian #sebmark #f1 #formula 1 #formula one #we do a little bit of f1 #2009 abu dhabi gp

[androgynouspenguinexpert]

take it up with management

some sovereign designs bc i dont think ive ever seen one of before they got nutribulleted together

#redacted audio #redacted asmr #redactedverse #art #illustration #redacted sovereigns #redacted balance #redacted carpe deus #carpe deus #i like the idea of the sovereigns being equivalent to angels yknow #bc they booted all the daemons onto elegy (fallin) #and their horns are joined at the top like halos bc i think about that tumblr post maybe once a week #about how angels have no eyes because the light of god guides them but demons break their halos and their eyes start working #also good practice for non white characters #black hair is so fun to draw!! #no a'taxim bc what the fuck is an articulate

[mazojo]

So, something very LGBTQ happened today

#The way Cartman is SO invested on the Style agenda maybe we gotta stan sometimes #not really but like. he did deliver us Style+Tolkien so maybe today is a good day guys #keep it up South Park less teggridy and r*ndy and everything will be fine #also did y'all see the .2 seconds of Crenny?? because I did. I saw it. I saw them. #an entire valentines day special dedicated to Kyle and Tolkien dating and Stan being jealous and then them all joining to hold hands what a #great week maybe everything does work out for us in the end #no creek but its okay they can come next week they just wanted the spotlight on style today #sp #south park #this is me spiraling btw if you haven't noticed. I am. spiraling I mean #style #stan #tolkien #kyle

[mossflower]

loki season two has me screaming crying throwing up trying not to get dragged back into the mcu trenches

#i am stronger than this. i am better than this!! #by the trenches i mean consuming fanfiction at an unhealthy rate. fourteen year old me was insane i think i was on ao3 more than i slept #that’s not exaggeration. i was getting four hours of sleep on school nights and frequently went to bed at 5am on weekends #it is ONE good story. one. literally not worth it. i don’t even care about ninety percent of the mcu characters #i will ignore the little voice in my head reminding of the sheer amount of fanfiction. this was my pre-tumblr days #so my fandom interaction was like. youtube and ao3. maybe instagram posts sometimes. it was so much fun like. zero drama zero discourse #i was honestly living my best life. got less interested when i joined tumblr and went full doctor who mode #and after endgame i watched i think wandavision and loki and that was it. just didnt care anymore lol #i know exactly why this is happening tho. currently the thing i am insane about is my own damn project. which i am in the process of writin #for obvious reasons no fandom there. bc it lives in my mind twenty four fucking seven #i do wonder if i’m kind of growing away from fandom anyway? the closest i’ve got since toh ended was homestuck tbh #i want to feel obsessed with something again!! everything i’m into now - tma tlt and the like - i love them #but it doesnt hit like it used to. i don’t know it’s hard to explain #like video essays that i would have loved a few years ago!! the hour long ones about representation and queer media #they just irritate me now! i got halfway through one last week and had to bail i just could not care less #how did 2020 social media have me convinced that x character being gay was super important politically economically socially etc #ofc the answer is that i was a baby lesbian getting even less social interaction than normal #like representation is important obviously but also. sometimes it was not that deep #i don’t know if i’m making sense tbh but you get my drift #morganposting

[tastywaffles]

babymetal having 18 mil streams on 'the end' and 2 mil streams on 'metali!!' makes me soooooo happy

yes streams arent everything but it is soo refreshing that theyre gaining new fans everyday esp because of their babyklok tour .. being co-headliner is doing them so good gUYSSS

#i do feel like -the other one- would have done so so well if it werent for the horrible marketing #making everything behind a paywall wasnt the move #and not making music videos (ACTUAL music videos) #only one visualiser for DA and lyric vids #the rest r live performences but with the studio audio :/ #also introducing momo as the newest member a week after the new album WAS SUCH A BAD MOVE GUYS #LIKE we could have had momo singing backup with moa in the album and if they did the whole -new babymetal- thing earlier maybe in january #and then released the album a month later would have been a better move cause they wouldve had so many eyes on them (with momo joining) #didnt mean for this to be a rant!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im just glad that it seems as if tho they kicked out their old marketing team #and hired a new one lol #babymetal

[gibbearish]

am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes

#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit #and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While #like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days #we shall see #also ajr live fucks severely #the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience #like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad #like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go #so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times #notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with #and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what #idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath #much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck #so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb #the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares. #however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least #meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion #prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got #taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert #so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school #and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player #and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap #like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible #which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up. #the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow #her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated #like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most #and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills. #like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard #fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#i spend so mad god damn time bitching on this website. its bc i dont talk to ppl. whens the last time i had a non functional conversation? #uuuuhhh last weekend or maybe the weekend before that? so like i gotta complain somewhere. so if i stop complaining u can assume i made #friends lmao. ugh. its just. im worried. im worried abt how this semester is gonna go. how this phd program is gonna go #bc i spent the last 2 years destroying myself. realized ive gotta stop doing that. haven't figured out how to stop and now im gonna triple #the amount of pressure im under while trying to do things in a more healthy way. its just like. it objectively doesnt seem like a formula #for good things to happen. im more worried for how catastrophic its gonna b on my brain than i am abt the things i think most ppl would b #concerned abt. like im not worried abt planning and executing a project or teaching beyond fear of the unknown #its like. ive done these things before. theyre difficult but u make due and tackle the problems. but when it comes to: how to maintain a #healthy school/life balance? i dont even kno where to start with that. i just dont bc when u have a learning disability things just take #more time but like how much time is too much? where does it end? i dont kno how to manage it and i dont wanna hate my project by the end #of this. i want to b excited and not paralyzed bc im afraid i cant change my behavior and its gonna kill me #and im worried bc im meeting with my advisor for the 1st time since march before i agreed to join thr lab and have i prepared for this #project which is almost complete unrelated to what i did in my last lab? no bc ive been managing data and im still not done managing data #bc i cant focus bc i collected that data in a way that was actively self destructive. and i mean i kno itll b fine. thr guy seems nice i #just hate that im showing up devoid of enthusiasm bc its all been drowned out by the fear. and thats also gonna make teaching a problem #bc its hard to b excited abt things when there's a hole in your chest and ur desperate for someone to tell u how to fix it. but idk helping #ppl does usually make me feel better so maybe itll b a good thing. forgot how much i feel like im dying when i sit in meetings and #classroom tho lol. god its been 2yrs since i was a student. classes feel like such bullshit now. and yet if i dont get all As i might die #my students better b good. i have the 1st lab section bc thr lead ta couldnt do that time. so im the trial lab and i start fucking Monday #who tf does labs the 1st week of class? ugh. also its an intro bio so like 2/3 of thr class r freshman. lil bby 18yos and some r non bio #majors. and ive been warned that sometimes there r problems with ppl who don't believe in evolution and cause problems. pls let my classes #b good. im not that worried. its just gonna b annoying as fuck. im not good at being authoritative #ugh. i should b reading papers so i dont look like too much of an idiot tomorrow. itll b fine im just an anxious freak. a lil over a week #until i can try to find a therapist. probably seek medication bc i dont kno how else to stop this bullshit. annoying. i grew up with a dad #who gets anxious abt the idea of taking too much medication when he tskes a single ibuprofen. in this household we feel pain and then we #die miserable. this is all his fault. we have the same brain.im just a lil more irradidic than him #its so funny i say that bc im like the least irradic person ever. i do the same things every god damn day. im just irradic in terms of #sometimes i feel like my brain is on fire and im a cry bby lol #whatever. enough bitching. ive got papers to read. or maybe ill just go to bed and read them tomorrow 🙄 #unrelated

[katya-goncharov]

ooh i just found a choir in my city that i could join!! but hmm it looks quite expensive... :/

#apparently it's £150 a year which i'm not sure if i could afford #but then again that's only like £3 per rehearsal if it's once a week which really isn't that much #and apparently you can go along for the first couple of weeks just to try it out #hmm... i HAVE been wanting to join a choir again for literally ages (and also feeling a bit lonely) so maybe i should consider it.....

[thegempage]

i want. to chew on tfr analysis videos. i have no time to make those videos but goddamn if i'm not thinking about them

#little rock.txt #listen. listen. i'm not going to elaborate bcus i'm supposed to be cleaning the counters rn #and this is the tags of a tumblr post and not a video essay #but i'm going to make them one day and i will maybe have my friends on if they want to join #bcus i have a lot more fun doing analysis with people than by myself #and also my friends have very good things to say #but i am moving in like. three weeks. and it is 2 a.m. and i am supposed to be cleaning the counters and i have work at 12 p.m. #so. i will have to go back to the counters

[sudden-memory-loss]

guess who finally became a zedaph patron but is now way too nervous to actually introduce himself or go onto the server!!!!!!!

#mcyt #hermitcraft #zedaph #I Will introduce myself eventually but honestly part of it is like. another person joined same day and I don't want to like. #step on their toes #I'm also the WORST at being brief and so I don't want my introduction to be super long and rambling when others' aren't #also also I'm nervous #it's a Big server actually (zed has like. 260 patrons I think?) and that's kinda intimidating #not to mention all the names I recognise from stream vods and such #but also zed's community is one of the only ones I've never recognised people!!! that's part of why I wanted to join!!!! but still #scary #but yeah it's. yeah #I'm excited but very afraid #don't really have time to hop on the server today anyway cause I have a thing at midday. but like. next week maybe. maybe #rhys' shit #edit: *ever* recognised people. why did autocorrect make that never. that completely changes the meaning of the sentence. anyway

[elytrafemme]

friendship is cool bc you get to have these funny little guys who make you happy and become a better person or whatever and laugh a lot. but then there’s the horrors (trying to see and message them frequently enough when you know you can’t possibly juggle all of them all at once and never knowing the best answer)

#nightmare.personal #maybe i tell my irls to fuck off for a week so i can just get to work repairing all my online relationships #i won't actually do that but like. my social battery is so fucked #also there's the other issues but we don't talk aboutu those <- diseased interpersonally #we do talk abt those a lot but im turning over a new leaf to be normal #this is late night confessionals. hi i know cool people. wish i fucking knew how to talk to anybody #its so stupid too bc when i message them or join a vc everyone accepts me like i was never gone and is friendly and kind and all that #but then it's like. do ppl think im not committing. do they think i don't care #and like how do i convince people i care when im barely here and barely know whats going on #idk. wish klav was here he's better at fucking online things i think #i think im doing good socializing with my irls at least. like scheduling hangouts #when my gf comes back i need to see her like asap bc my brain is fucking obliterating itself but thats unrelated #sorry this is litrally late night thoughts #dont rb btw #my irl social life is better and i think part of me sees that as more important? #like obviously all my friends are important to me diffeerently but. if i disappear on an irl for a while they'll give me shit for it #versus online that's just life you know but. i don't know. #sometimes i wonder if my online friends know how much they mean to me and i realize they probably don't and i get scared #and then i wonder how all of them have to feel about me at that point and we don't really have to go into that but like #i don't know. it's always a little a lot scary #and people seem to be so natural at doing this online but i meanwhile just fucking can't #i'm allergic to discord servers its a thing. except the one im active in which makes me happy but i still forget to talk there all the time #so im still allergic but im choosing to partake. its like the lactose intolerance of the whole group

[fabulouslygaybean]

my friend needs to stop inviting ppl to my house without at least giving me a heads up. like... dude. you're staying with us, yeah, but it's a dick move to just start inviting ppl left and right like you live here, ESPECIALLY when you lie about me confirming that it's okay

#im so tired #apparently she talked to MY MOM before she talked to me. dude!!! why!!!! #i never agreed to invite anyone over and you're telling my own mom that i agreed just so she allows it!!! that's not cool!!!! #this is exhausting #this friend has been staying with us for only about a week and a half now and she's already acting like it's her house #maybe im overreacting but my patience has been spread so thin lately #on top of not being allowed to hang out with anyone without her being there and also not being able to see any family outside of my mom - #- and sister. who i live with. im also not allowed to have any time alone and not allowed to have a say in who is able to visit in MY house #im exhausted and i need a break #kinda tempted to call it an incredibly early night just so i can get high off my ass alone in my bedroom without her begging to join in #she's one of my best friends but i spend almost every waking hour with her now and i will be doing that for a solid part of the near future

[ivy-saurs]

i have to be awake for work in 6 hours :( but what if i just want to stay home and be silly instead huh

#also one of my colleagues is constantly asking me questions and it's rly getting to me bc she's a manager and i'm not!! #can you ask someone higher up these questions if you don't know the answer to them!! #ALSO i have to go to a work event w her next week and i'm dreading it and considering calling in sick lol #i would rather do the event by myself or not go at all #i had to do those events by myself before she joined so like. why can't my colleague do it by herself #sorry i feel like a bitch but honestly my life at work has been infinitely harder since she joined the team #she's been here for 4 months and honestly she should know this stuff by now and if not then pls ask someone w more authority than me #i am literally just an assistant. i am the lowest on the ladder in our workplace lol #then again maybe she's just like 'cool i won't bother the people with important jobs i'll just bother the assistant'

[breakingjen]

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#after a teams meeting last month and a visit to a support service/training provider two weeks ago #this past monday i started a thing called ‘introduction to work’ #it means that 1.5h/day 5 days/week i’m there getting help finding my feet to eventually be ready to join the job market #lectures on two of those and independent learning on their database the other three #also those hours are meant to be increased in small amounts until i’ve reached how many hrs/day i’m capable of #maybe it’s bc it’s the first week but i don’t know if i’m ready for this yet #bc while i’ve moved back to my own home i’m still helping mom daily #and today i am /not/ doing well mentally #i feel utterly exhausted and like i just wanna lie down on the floor and completely give up #but like i said i really hope it’s just bc it’s the first week #also there were some things i read/heard during today’s independent studies that had me cry in front of my computer (in public) so idk🤷‍♀️ #basically - i’m quite tired and sad at this point

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

I want to know if you have discord. That is what i am telling you.

Hah omg this is so funny cause a few days ago I also got a non-anon message also asking me if I had a Discord! 7 years I’ve been here and only suddenly now in the space of a week I get two Discord requests it’s wild. When I first made this blog I wanted so badly to be popular here and I didn’t manage it despite being in the thick of the Super the Who AND the Lock. And now that I don’t care anymore I’m as popular as I figure it’s physically possible for someone with my personality to be. THAT is Charles’ power. His impact! 

Anyways I didn’t have a Discord but now I do, because you asked! ^_^ The only problem is Idk how to use Discord at all :( Like I’m not even sure if your Discord username is something that’s smart to give out publicly? But I will share it now with you anyways because you look very polite. My Discord username is apparently CEWIII#5581. So if ANYONE among my mutuals and followers wants to follow/add/whatever you do to people on Discord to me, PLEASE do so omg. You want to add me on Discord....... You want to add me on Discord so bad....... Yes......... Yesss........... Come closer........... 

(Also just as a disclaimer, sorry in advance for any awkwardness @anyone who interacts with me there because I'm new the the platform and also because I'm really bad at and unfamiliar with socializing. When I do talk to other people it's via email where it's normal to take a while to respond. Tumblr DMs is the only IM I've ever used and my Messaging there is not exactly Instant haha.)

Also if anyone has any tips for using Discord and servers and stuff (the same way we sometimes pass around tips for new Tumblr users on here) pls. let me know. before I accidentally @ every user in the entire thing somehow lmao. 

#Starky loves Anons #Starky loves answering questions #everyone come tell me what servers to join!! there doesn't seem to be a way to browse around for them or anything so I'm kinda Lost.gif #also fr everyone add me on there in case tumblr explodes tomorrow randomly or sth. it'll be our emergency ham radio network. #damn this post really has me talking like someone who communicates with others on the regular. one has to laugh. but still do it anyways. #I heard there was a tumblr mash fandom server which was almost enough to make a discord on its own #but then the next thing I heard about that server was that it was kinda mean & unwelcoming. and I was like ah. yeah that's mashblr alright. #but maybe there's more than one mashblr server?? anyways invite me to all of them so I can lurk and study everyone there like bugs #and NEVER actually talk <3 amen <3 #THANK YOU FOR THE QUESTION BTW ANON!!! #how to make me perform a simple action that other people can do any time entirely via their own everyday willpower: #get two (2) separate people to specifically request me to do it and then still wait 1-2 weeks for me to respond