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somestansomewhere · 3 years

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Debbie Gallagher: ALL Love Interests RANKED

Okay! I tried to rank all of Debs’ love interests and it was hard to do because I am not set on that ONE PERSON that I ship her with above all else, but these are my thoughts! Keep in mind that these are all MY OPINIONS and you are entitled to yours as well! Let’s talk about it! If you read all this ILY.

Here we go:

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23. The Guy At The Pool (Season 5)

He thought Debs was special needs and she tried to flirt with him...

22. Kelly (Season 9-10)

I LOVE Kelly so much but she was not into Debbie! I really love her with Carl and Debbie should not have tried to interfere! I will however say that I really really REALLY enjoy their friendship and I wish that that would have continued on. They had some really good moments together.

20/21. Eugene (Season 6) & Board Game Guy (Season 7)

Alright so these two don’t technically count because Frank tried to set Debbie up with Eugene so that she’d be written into his will. And the Board Game Guy was from a deleted scene as one of Debbie’s “life partners” from that flyer she made. So enough said.

18/19. Tyler (Season 6) & Erika (Season 6)

Again, Frank attempted to set Debbie up with Tyler and while that “potential relationship” wasn’t as bad as what happened between her and Erika, I am grouping them together because Debbie wasn’t technically into either of them and it was set up to fail right from the start.

17. Larry (Season 6)

The pregnancy fetish guy! I’m not quite sure what the intentions were for this character in the long run but it was a funny joke in the episode he was in. Even in the beginning Larry gave off red flags, but Debbie was happy... until the truth was revealed. Weird.

16. Jared (Season 11)

Another irrelevant love interest: the gay guy that cheated on his husband with Debbie after giving her cocaine. Obvious issues with this encounter/plot line aside, I did feel that their interactions at the bar were flirtatious and I didn’t hate him.

15. Calista (Season 11)

ANOTHER irrelevant character that was used and never brought back!!! I didn’t totally hate her either, she was upfront about her ex-girlfriend and that whole situation. She helped Debbie and didn’t take advantage of her but the second she came on screen; I’m sorry but I did not give a fuck. Her last episode built up a potential friend/relationship opportunity for Debbie and they just did nothing with it. Idfk what else to say, not a fan but I did appreciate Calista trying to take care of Debbie when she clearly was drinking too much.

14. Sandy (Season 10-11)

Oh boy, everyone’s favorite partner of Debbie’s... Yeah, Sandy is so low on this list not necessarily because I didn’t like her for Debbie, or that I have beef with Elise (b/c I love her as an actor sm). I personally just hate the sheer fact that this character EXISTS in the first place. I never understood the hype, but I know that people only like her because she’s a Milkovich ie. related to Mickey. That’s the hard truth this fandom isn’t willing to admit. My disliking Sandy should be a post of its own but lemme get into her relationship with Debbie.

You could tell that Emma and Elise liked working together so the chemistry was sorta there (definitely not soulmate shit tho). Each time that they interacted in s10 I was over it. S11 was better in the sense that whether I would like to admit it or not, they did have some “cute moments” (mainly just Sandy calling Debbie babe/babes). The second shit hit the fan in regards to Sandy’s history, I immediately understood Debbie’s issue with her and why her character would not want to be with Sandy. But, with that being said, Debbie was also in the wrong because she made everything about herself throughout the entire course of this relationship! Sandy did call her out, ex: “who was supposed to take Franny to school?”, and things like that were nice. HOWEVER I am sorry to say, this relationship felt like a massive waste of time and it felt like they were trying to force something that shouldn’t have existed to begin with. I don’t have the patience to even analyze this anymore, but maybe down the line because clearly there is SO MUCH to delve into!

13. Alex (Season 9)

Omg I did not like this relationship/plotline at all. Alex had issues but Debbie was so inconsiderate! I never saw the appeal here! It was nice that Alex had the decency to go and help Debs with Ford after the fact. I just feel “meh” about this tho. They had moments but ultimately I personally wasn’t into it and Debbie’s random newfound self discovery of “lesbianism”.

12. Kyle (Season 3)

Emma Kenney’s first kiss! Kyle was a one episode character that did have the potential to be more than that. I didn’t hate the kid as Debbie’s love interest, but there also wasn’t anything special about him. He was just kinda there and then he left. Debbie really seemed to like him though, spelling his name in her peas, etc.. I do like that one line about cigarettes that Kyle had but again he was such a short lived character and when he turned out not to be related to Kevin it became unnecessary to keep him around... even if the episode alluded to him returning. They were sorta cute!

11. Claudia (Season 10)

So I didn’t like this relationship much either but there was a certain kind of stability in the relationship that felt organic and nice. Partly because I enjoyed watching Constance Zimmer and she made Claudia likeable. Do I ship it? No. Was it a problematic dynamic? Yes. Was it a tolerable relationship? Eh. I didn’t hate it entirely though. Debbie, being a Gallagher, eventually fucked it up. And while I did like the drama, Debbie wasn’t REALLY into Claudia as much as she may have believed she was. So, it totally felt like a one off that would end with Claudia not returning... and it was. So there was no time for an investment of any kind.

10. Hedi (Season 11)

Gosh... Debbie’s endgame(?). Hedi was introduced too late for me to care enough about her (At this point it would have made sense for Debbie to wind up with Calista because at least she was already introduced!). I don’t necessarily like Hedi as a character and quite frankly it was a “who tf does SHE think she is” kinda deal for me. At first I was interested and didn’t hate her (and I don’t), but then she “thought she was Jimmy” and I instantly got annoyed (LOL I GUESS it was a nice nod to him tho... I guess).

My (several) problems with Hedi as a character aside, there IS something about Hedi being presented as this “dangerous badass” who is (somehow) WORSE than Debbie, that worked well. I’m not a fan of the ship, but it is an interesting dynamic in the sense that Debbie could potentially be “living on the edge”. I fear for what trouble this could cause Debbie BUT it’s like Frank referenced: Monica vibes. I don’t think it’s “true love” like Debbie said to Franny. A constant storyline for Debbie has been “why can’t anyone ever love me” and so she falls in quickly. Maybe Hedi will leave her but that’s the thing, “she’s done worse” so idk, either way I don’t think it’s meant to last! But I guess I don’t mind them being together! Karma’s a bitch! Will Carl tell her what Arthur found? Would it even make a difference?

9. Julia (Season 10)

I would have actually rather preferred her with Carl too! It was never love between Debbie and Julia, but the relationship did create good conflict for my viewing pleasure. UNPOPULAR OPINION, I didn’t mind Julia as a character at all. She was fine for me. I also enjoyed how ultimately SHE was only using Debbie in the end. Julia does admit later on that she was experiencing with her sexuality so maybe she did have feelings for Debbie at one point, which I thought was interesting. Debbie got herself into this one. At least Julia was more age appropriate than Claudia... (which is ironic since Debbie got in trouble for being with Julia when the age gap is MUCH bigger between Claudia and Debbie LOL I love it)! I also found Julia annoying Debbie to be amusing, that’s not to say that I liked her a lot either cuz I don’t!

8. Matty (Season 4-5)

Man do I feel bad for Matty! Debbie raped him and it was horrible. From the get-go when Matty was introduced the relationship was hella awkward!! And not only that but Debbie was a MINOR! Matty did do the right thing and said they couldn’t be together but a part of me will always feel strange that he WAS INITIALLY attracted to Debbie before learning her age. That to me is still wildly inappropriate. He shoulda cut it off. He did try to be her friend and took her to that dance which was cute but ahhh this was just a MESS all around. Cringe. At least he didn’t take advantage.

7. Henry (Season 4)

Speaking of Matty and that dance, Henry was supposed to take her. He asked her as a joke in order for Seama to inflict revenge on Debbie. If that weren’t the case however... DAMN THEY WERE CUTE! The potential that this relationship could have had! If only it wasn’t all an act! It was a “day worth of love” and sure that’s not enough for two people to REALLY be IT, yet there was something charming about their connection that I wish was real. Or idk maybe Henry could have reconnected with her later and apologized and it could have been revealed that he did actually like her... but that wasn’t the case. Fuck him!

6. Simon (Season 1-2)

Debbie was NOT interested in Simon at all but at the time he was almost like the male version of her. Their banter back and forth was fun to watch and he probably would have treated her well. It’s unfortunate that we didn’t get to even see their friendship progress. Their interactions were funny and he was a good guy!

5. Batiste (Season 10)

Y’all may not understand why this guy is so high on the list but a part of me wishes this character wasn’t a one off. Batiste is the dude Debbie tried to return her “unused” shoes to. If you can recall, he wanted a blowjob to take advantage of her. While this was a dick move (and the plot went nowhere) a part of me would have liked to see more! He did have an arc where he acted like an ass and realized that it is wrong to degrade women. I just think it could have been built upon and Emma may have had chemistry with this actor. There was something here that I didn’t hate and I felt it could have been expanded upon.

4. Little Hank (Season 2-3)

Debbie’s first real crush! It was interesting to see how he didn’t like her at first and then a “friendship/relationship” slowly started to develop after he gave her flowers. IT JUST NEVER CONTINUED! Little Hank was in no way the most upstanding, but it was cool to see Carl have a friend that Debbie crushed on (when she was little she wasn’t intentionally taking something away from Carl ie. Kelly, so I support it). Their interactions were fun to watch too! The fandom definitely has a soft spot for Little Hank! And at one point everyone was rooting for them to be together. Too bad we never discovered what ended up happening to this character!

3. Neil (Season 7-8)

The bathtub scene tho! Adorable! There was a short moment within this relationship that was super cute where the two of them really did seem to care about each other and may have both been in love. It goes without saying that Debbie was only using him, but they did have SOME potential and they found a common ground where they each benefited each other’s needs. Debbie once again was TOO controlling and self absorbed to make it work, but I don’t think she was entirely happy in a relationship with him. He deserved more respect!

2. Derek (Season 5-8)

Baby Daddy! I really did enjoy them together until Debbie took advance of him and Franny came into the picture, but at the same time that’s one of the reasons that Derek, as a character, has a deeper connection to Debbie and the audience. I always enjoyed their flirting back and forth and the relationship they had (the deleted scene with the card/push up game ahh my heart)! Debbie really did mess up due to her desperation to “belong to a family”, which is another one of her consistent character traits. She just went too far and tried to trap him. Then shit got messed up between their families. Derek did eventually ask for parcial custody and did have a desire to be a part of Franny’s life. Debbie said no and that plot line died until s10. Pepa!! Ahh! RIP to Derek, it was sad to me that he died. Definitely a character and relationship that I wish was incorporated more because I truly enjoyed them together.

1. Duran (Season 8)

Besties with benefits! Stop! Nobody talks about my guy Duran! Sure they both said that this relationship was of a sexual nature and that they were just a couple of friends but damn! The chemistry and dynamic was palpable! It is truly a shame that we didn’t get to see more of this friendship! They were on common ground and really did care about each other! I don’t know why but I really just LOVED them together! Duran was also in her friend group with Farhad and that was a group that seemed to have a positive impact on Debbie as a person. S8 Debbie was cool! These two complemented each other so nicely! Duran wasn’t by any means the best influence on her because he almost lead Debbie down a “Monica path” but come on, Hedi is worse in that department. He was getting his life together like Debbie was with her profession. Just think of the hair convos Duran and Tami could have had Lol. Idk, I just like Debbie with him a lot! It was healthy to an extent and he was supportive of Debs with Franny.

#I could write so much more for each of these but I’ll spare you #guys nobody talks about the AMOUNT of love interests Debbie had over the course of this damn show #I miss characters with a lot of depth!#I want to do more of these relationship lists for other characters #my lists #my favs #shameless #gallavich #debbie gallagher #franny gallagher #sandy milkovich #debbie x sandy

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theseerasures · 3 years

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Conspicuous Media Consumption, 2020

it’s that time of year again! *saddest toot from the party horn*

for those of you just joining us: it’s a “consume a different content every week for 48 weeks of the year” challenge. for a longer explanation, check out last year’s write-up here, and as always, feel free to pop in and ask questions about any and all of this content.

(same disclaimer as last year too: content for this project ONLY here, and not certain...*looks at my billion Sad Cop Lady posts*...hyperfixations.)

(man remember when i was big into X-Men comics earlier this year? better times than these, if only because no one's discoursing about Emma Frost’s woobie/war criminal ratio anymore--her w/w, if you will)

(...i swear at one point i didn’t exclusively like platinum blondes but alas)

Bitter Root (comic, 1 issue finished 1/1/2020): still very cool on a basic concept level, but runs into the Image Comics problem of just not having enough content to keep my interest beyond that. part of that is on me, for picking it up again BEFORE the second arc rolled out, but the first five issues didn’t really follow (or resolve) any cohesive story either, so...meh.

Immortal Hulk (comic, 3 trades finished 1/17/2020): still not gonna be something i care deeply about (maybe one of Bruce’s Hulksonas dyed his hair???), but i do want to give kudos to Al Ewing for sheer consistency in terms of sustaining this level of quality storytelling month by month for more than two years now. working with the dense archive of the Hulk mythos and managing to make it interesting and thoughtful is impressive even if i personally would not expend the same effort.

Disco Elysium (game, finished 1/18/2020): honestly i should have twigged onto what this year was gonna be like when the third thing i drew from the barrel was pure uncut Eastern European flavored depression. i faintly recall people ragging on it for being pretentiously cynical, but i actually thought its core slid more towards idealism than people give it credit for. also gratified that i haven’t heard anything about Robert Kurvitz using slave labor to finish it, which is a thing we have to say about our video games now!!! fun.

Watchmen (TV, 7 episodes finished 1/27/2020): i am a fool who wants to believe in Damon Lindelof and I WAS RIGHT!!! honestly still cannot believe that he pulled off this highwire act with such deft aplomb. might be my favorite TV this year, which is a pretty high bar given how much TV i ended up watching.

On a Sunbeam (comic, finished 2/1/2020): Tillie Walden rightly deserves all the praise for inventive queer storytelling, but i will say that on reread--since i first read this as a webcomic--there ARE some issues with pacing here that clearly come from the foibles of its original intended medium. still just excellent, even if after some plot significant haircuts i was having trouble telling a few folks apart.

Lazarus (comic, 1 trade finished 2/8/2020): it’s so good and i want moooooorrrreee--though obviously Rucka and Lark have the right to take all the time they need. the newer longer issues work really well with the epic prestige drama vibes of the story! i’m into it.

The Good Place (TV, 4 seasons finished 2/18/2020): i’m gonna be super honest: i actually wasn’t a big fan of the finale, nor the last season as a whole. it felt like all of Eleanor’s flaws vanished for a majority of the season, and the Chidi-centric episode where they tried to give a legible justification for why he’s Like This was...i didn’t care for it. still, it’s so good and unique on the WHOLE that we’ll literally never get anything like this ever again, and that counts for a lot.

The Old Republic (game, finished 2/21/2020): it’s an MMO so it will never actually Be Finished so long as the servers aren’t shut down, but i caught up on the content i’d missed in the intervening months. Onslaught thus far has mostly been...kinda bland tbh; going back to Imps vs. Rebs after all the shakeups in the previous expansions feels like a waste.

High Road (album, finished 2/22/2020): someone should tell Kesha not to say that word!! otherwise i was very happy with this album, and happy FOR her even though we don’t know each other. being able to find joy again in the same genre of music you made while you were being horrifically exploited is very cool.

Young Justice (TV, 13 episodes finished 2/28/2020): given how much the middle stuff dragged--STOP KILLING YOUR HIJABI CHARACTER IN HORRIFIC WAYS--i was...actually kinda mad by how the end managed to stick the landing anyway. the day being saved by Vic’s self-acceptance and Violet’s sublime compassion was A+, and even the Brion/Tara switchup was a pleasant surprise, though it relied on me caring about Brion MUCH MORE than i actually did.

Manic (album, finished 2/29/2020): do people still care for/about Halsey? i feel like even That One Song that was on every tumblr gifset ever has kinda faded into obscurity at this point. this album was...okay. i feel like people give Halsey a pass for extremely obvious lyrical turns that they wouldn’t for other folks because of her subject material--which is fine. not really my cup of tea, but i also listened to lots of Relient K this year, so that’s probably a good thing.

Jade Empire (game, 3/10/2020): the only 3D-era Bioware game that didn’t franchise out, and for good fucking reason!!! the Orientalism and appropriation really haven’t aged well, and even beyond that the story was...standard Bioware faire. even my usual “my wife’s a bitch i love her” Bioware type didn’t do it for me, and i just ended up romancing no one. it did make me think a lot about what level of cultural borrowing is accepted nowadays, and why: people still look fondly at Avatar and talk about how ~accurate and respectful it was, for example, despite it being staffed almost entirely by white folks, and the Orientalism ALL OVER the monk class in DND is still fine for some reason.

Alif the Unseen (book, finished 3/31/2020): interesting to have read this AFTER reading The Bird King last year, because it highlights how the intervening years have shifted G. Willow Wilson’s thematic interest and improved her craft. i’m actually quite fond of how her characterization work is rougher here--Alif is extremely flawed to the point of being insufferable, but it makes his development by the end more satisfying. Dina is also just good and i love her

Baldur’s Gate (2 games, finished 5/31/2020): well, having finally finished the series i’m happy to say that it...still doesn’t really do it for me, sorry. any awesome story moments were overshadowed by the EXCRUCIATING inventory management system and the combat (i still don’t know what a THAC0 is and at this point i’m afraid to find out). these games crucially lack the Home Base that later Bioware games were so good about, and that (coupled with the huge cast of characters you can drop off and never see again) really hurts the intimacy for me. by the time we finally did get one it was the Hell Dimension in Throne of Bhaal, and i was just...trying to get through it. (yes, i did just say that about one of the most beloved expansions ever to one of the most beloved games ever.) THIS particular iteration of “my wife’s a bitch i love her” was very good, but the game wouldn’t let me romance her :(

The Underground Railroad (book, finished 6/19/2020): honestly what is there even left to say at this point! it was exactly as good as every critic on the planet said it was, even with my usual aversion to hype. draining and horrifying in turns but still insistent upon a future for Black folks.

Steven Universe (6 seasons and a mooooooviiieeee, finished 7/11/2020): yes, i DID finish the show and almost immediately begin a rewatch. this series is now one of my top five most formative things, and the amount of love and respect i have for it is incalculable. that said: i once again did not love how the central conflict of Future was resolved (just the resolution--i loved the finale just fine). for all of Steven’s breakdown was built up, resolving it with “EVERYONE HUG HIM UNTIL HE CRIES” felt...cheap, especially since up until this point the show had been so good about treating trauma and mental illness with the respect and nuance it deserves. it made me wish some of the earlier, less substantial episodes had been cut so we could spend more time at the end.

What It Is (comic, finished 8/19/2020): y’all i love Lynda Barry SO MUCH. for the longest time i was worried that One Hundred Demons was more a lightning in a bottle situation but every book of hers i pick up makes me feel obscure emotions i didn’t even realize existed. the compassionate way she’s able to describe her child self and how weird and fucked up she was (and still is) is honestly aspirational.

She-Ra and the Princesses of Power (TV, 5 seasons finished 9/26/2020): so here’s a reversal of what i’ve been complaining about with other shows: i was mostly lukewarm-to-warm about She-Ra, but the later seasons and the finale made me much more into it as a whole. more shows should improve in stakes and overall quality as they age tbh!! i still don’t actively love Catradora (my sole quibble with season 5 actually has to do with the way Adora kept backsliding as a character to make certain Plot/Relationship things happen), but i’m very happy for them nonetheless. i can certainly appreciate a show that will go for High Feeling over tight plot. dark horse standout moments: trees growing everywhere proving that Perfuma Was Right, and Hordak and Adora seeing each other--that weirdly intimate moment of recognition.

Fetch the Bolt Cutters (album, finished 10/7/2020): again i find myself not having much to say that no one else has said. it’s good! once again love it when an artist reclaims something they’d attached with negative affect (anxiety, depression, disordered eating) for better and brighter things.

Solutions and Other Problems (comic, finished 10/25/2020): i was very into Allie Brosh’s ambition with this book, which feels weird to say but i stand by it. it’s cool to see an artist try to make a new medium work for them instead of just sticking to what already works. not all the experimentation was 100% effective, but it was still delightful and occasionally devastating to read, so.

Legend of Zelda (3 games: Ocarina of Time, Majora’s Mask, Link Between Worlds, finished 11/1/2020): this was the third time i’d played Ocarina of Time, which made it the nice, comforting groove i settled into before Majora’s Mask blatted me in the face. i’m not usually a completionist Zelda person because...the gameplay in Zelda is bad, do not at me it just is, but i really felt like i HAD to be one for Majora’s Mask since the whole point is to get attached to the banalities of the town. i’m sure nobody’s surprised that i loved it, even if it gave me an existential crisis about how life goes on in the game for NPCs when you’re not there to save them from it, and there’s not enough time to save them all all the time (also not a surprise to anyone: Romani and Cremia gave Personal Feelings). Link Between Worlds...bad. not like in a “this is a bad story by every measurable gauge” way, but i was already struggling with the 2D playstyle shift enough that for the whole story to end with some “yes it’s v sad that Lorule is Like This but trying to steal Hyrule’s privilege is Even Worse Actually” noblesse oblige bullshit left a VERY poor taste in my mouth, this year of all years. i did audibly gasp when Ravio took off his mask, though. i’m currently playing Breath of the Wild in cautious increments; it’s the first time i’ve enjoyed early Zelda gameplay, but if they wanted fully voiced cutscenes i wish they got voice actors who...knew what words sound like.

folklore (album, finished 11/6/2020): my belief that Taylor Swift is Just Fine continues, i’m afraid. i LIKED this album, don’t get me wrong, and respect her constant drive to innovate, but i didn’t love it substantially more or less than any other Taylor Swift album. mostly i’m just tickled by how she thinks leaning into the indie aesthetic means borrowing Vita Sackville-West’s entire wardrobe, though i will admit to feeling Something when she swore in a song. i think it was like. savage vindication?? you go ahead and swear, Taylor Swift. you deserve it.

Shore (album, finished 11/19/2020): do people still care about the Fleet Foxes? i think there was some Drama with Josh Tillman a while back but i don’t remember where the discourse landed with who was being more problematic. it was nostalgic for me to listen to their new album--made me remember being an undergrad who exclusively listened to men who mumbled and played acoustic guitar all over again.

Star Wars (3 movies: original trilogy, finished 11/27/2020): there is So Much bad Star Wars these days that every time i rewatch the original trilogy i’m afraid that they will suddenly be bad, but guess what! they’re not. i love these children and their hot mess stories, i love that Lando doesn’t know how to say his best friend’s name. what stood out to me this time was the way Obi-Wan described the Force in A New Hope, which strongly implied that ANYONE can be Force Sensitive; that obviously faded with each subsequent movie, but part of me does wish they’d kept it.

X of Swords (comics, 22 issues finished 12/5/2020): i am enjoying Hickman’s X-lines!!! not so much here for the Grand Conspiracy or whatever, but the character work and highkey weirdness is fabulous--they FEEL like X-Men, despite all the shakeups in-universe. this crossover is a nice microcosm of all that: grandiloquently all over the place, but still full of cool standout moments and genuine hilarity. ILLYANA DOESN’T KNOW HOW TO SPELL MAGIC.

Fire Emblem (4 games: Sacred Stones, Path of Radiance, Radiant Dawn, Awakening, finished 12/14/2020): this was the thing that i was closest to giving up early on, but i ended up hyperfixating on it instead. that’s a credit to what the gameplay does to my lizard brain more than anything else, because the story and character writing is...insipid. it was very bizarre to witness this franchise blunder around with its animal-people racism allegory around the same time i was getting back into RWBY, and ITS animal-people racism allegory blunders. Awakening was the first time i felt anything for the franchise beyond “teehee red units disappear make exp bar go up and brain go ding,” so i’m excited for more mature storytelling in subsequent games (they MUST get better. they MUST). the child husbandry thing is...very bad tho, and Apotheosis being “challenging” entirely through the game changing all the rules is also bad.

once again no vidya games that came out this year--i’ll probably pick up Spiritfarer or Hades after the New Year, though (or maybe TLOU II! but probably not. sry Laura and Ashley). more TV and franchises this year, which made me feel In Touch with the Children but was also kinda exhausting. nothing was so egregiously terrible i dropped it without finishing! in a year like this that feels almost like an accomplishment

#conspicuous media consumption

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howlingwind · 5 years

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01. what’s your name/alias you go by ??

my name is jeff !! lmfao (i don’t let memes die) it’s not my real name but i’ve gone by cody on tumblr for a long time

02. what’s your age ??

twenty. jfc i’m old. but also apparently a fetus??

03. what’s your zodiac sign ??

aries, which couldn’t feel further from correct lmfao

04. what’s your ethnicity ??

uhh mostly italian & sicilian, but you could probably point to any white place in europe and i’ll have a little bit of that in me. i’m also 1/16th native american but it’s such a small amount and sadly i don’t even know which tribe to learn more about them.

05. what’s your nationality ??

‘murican

06. what’s your favorite band and/or musical artist ??

i’m super indecisive about everything, so it’s difficult for me to pick faves (as you’ll see in a sec) but… mac miller, post malone, johnny cash, eminem, tenacious d, colter wall, kehlani, bruno mars, snoop dogg, elvis presley, justin timberlake, sublime, the rolling stones, etc etc there’s probably a lot i’m forgetting tho. i like most types of music except country. well, modern country anyway.

07. what’s your dream job ??

uh, i don’t have one? i mean yeah, i’d love to be a writer, or game dev, or a narrative director on a game, or direct, write, or act in movies or television, but like…i could live without any of that stuff. i just want to make a decent living, be able to own a house, not completely hate my job. yknow, not a glamorous life but a good one.

08. what’s one place you would love to visit ??

idk there’s a lot of places i’d like to go, but i’d most like to visit alpha centauri, even tho that’ll never happen lol

09. what’s your favorite tv show ??

i can’t pick that! but i love a lot of shows. general hospital, lucifer, the 100, supernatural, stranger things, izombie, south park, legends of tomorrow, once upon a time, arrow (at times), dragon ball, big brother, riverdale, chilling adventures of sabrina, that 70′s show, the ranch, umm… i could probably keep listing forever.

10. what’s your favorite movie ??

hmmmm, again i’ve got a list but… joe dirt, the new guy, why him, the waterboy, 50 first dates, all the spider-man movies, thor ragnarok, man of steel, 21 jump street, 22 jump street ,and a fuckton more lol

11. what’s your favorite song ??

constantly in flux, but the current faves are — creep by radiohead, stay by post malone, no below by speedy ortiz, unshaken by d’angelo, cruel cruel world by willie nelson, wanksta by 50 cent, shooter by lil wayne & robin thicke, stressed out by 21 pilots, self care by mac miller (along with practically everything on his final album), and i will always, un-ironically love only in america by riff raff. he’s not the greatest ever but that song is hilarious and always puts me in a good mood.

12. what’s your favorite sport ??

can i say rocket league? lol

13. what’s your favorite food ??

pizza, unquestionably. cereal is a damn close second tho. or pot stickers. damn, i’m hungry…

14. what’s your favorite face claim to use ??

typically, i’ve always really liked using paul wesley, chris wood, and matt daddario. i’m using lindsey morgan for the first time now though, and i really like her as an fc too.

15. what’s your least favorite face claim ??

to use?? um pretty much any singer or model just bc their resources aren’t too great. i really didn’t enjoy using pete davidson as much as i thought i would, either lol

to see… uh probs emma roberts or andy biersack. emma for obvs reasons but also bc i once had a really bad experience with people using those fcs. idm people using whoever they feel like using tho.

16. what’s your favorite character of yours to play ?? which do you think you’re most like ??

oh man, uhh i really enjoy writing chrissy & theo. they both speak to me. but tbh i’m not much like any of my characters? i’m boring af so i tend not to make any like me lol. i am kinda like theo in the sense that i’m quiet, and really just try to be a good person. other than that i’m most like jason solely based on the fact we’re both human lol

17. what’s your sexuality ??

danversexual. attracted only to fictional danvers women, examples including carol, kara, and alex danvers.

lmfao but nah i’m just a boring straight boy. well, like 99.9% straight. jensen ackles makes me question shit.

18. what’s the last movie you saw in a cinema/theater ??

captain marvel (thanks to dani lol). only two months late but it was worth the experience haha.

19. what’s the worst injury you’ve ever had ??

thankfully i’ve never really hurt myself too terribly except for a broken wrist, but between the ages of 10-17 i’d occasionally hurt my back by sitting weird, usually in an attempt to play video games without the glasses i desperately needed lol. once when i was like 11 i laid belly down on the couch with my elbows up on the arm of it for like three hours, which messed me up for days, then a few other times i hurt myself, but another bad one when i was 17, i had my back curved while sitting and propping my laptop up on my knee, tried to move and literally just cried, crawled on the floor, and laid there all night until i forced myself to move in the morning. lol luckily it hasn’t happened since i lost a little weight.

20. what’s a random or interesting fact about you ??

uhm, nothing? i literally can’t think of one, i’m dull af. i uh.. i replaced my own cpu cooler once? lmfao

21. do you listen to music while you write ??

sometimes. a lot of time i just like the silence or ambient background noise, but if i’ve got a fitting playlist for the vibe of what i’m trying to write, i’ll use it!

22. are you a morning, day, evening, or night writer ??

i’m a never writer, apparently v___v but lol ideally a night writer, my best work is between the hours of 12am & 4am, but my sleeping schedule is so inconsistent, and so is my dad’s who spends literally every waking moment of his telling me different stuff he wants done, so it’s tough to hit that sweet spot. i write whenever i get a chance tho.

23. have you ever roleplayed intoxicated ??

lol nah i’ve never even had a drink. like what teenager doesn’t have a drink at some point?? i told you i’m lame.

24. what language or languages do you speak ??

english, barely. and assassin’s creed 2 taught me some italian swears. and ac: odyssey has had me occasionally dropping “malaka” bombs since the day i first played it haha.

25. how long have you roleplayed ??

officially, about 9 years. i started at 11 on myspace, rping dragon ball z stuff. but basically about 12 years, if you count how from the ages of 8-11 i’d put an anime pic up on my myspace, pretend i was older, and talk to roleplayers i didn’t realize were roleplayers lmfao.

26. favorite roleplay genre ??

i like pretty much anything, tbh. as long as it’s well thought out, has an interesting plot, or whatever. sometimes it doesn’t even need that, it just needs to catch my eye or line up with something i’m looking for. but yeah, supernatural, multi-fandom, sci-fi, romance, town rps, high school/college rps, anime rp (well, pokemon mostly), harry potter… i’ve done it all tbh and don’t particularly have a favorite.

27. one sound you hate & one you love ??

the sound of cotton stretching is the absolute worst thing to me. or scratching cotton. idk, it just sends chills up and down my spine and makes my hands feel weak lmfao. i’m weird. i really love the sound of rain, or fire crackling, or like “ambient” harp or ukulele music.

28. do you believe in ghosts ??

short answer, yes. long answer… i’m pretty sure i was friends with a ghost girl as a kid?? like no joke, even looking back at it through rational “adult” eyes, i’m still convinced. my fam moved into a new apartment, and pretty much right after that i started having dreams about a girl my age at the time (11-12). i’d never seen her before but the dreams would be like just conversations, like i was visiting a friend or something. i don’t remember them much, but i do remember the feeling of someone else in my room all the time, like you know how if someone else is around you just know even if you’re not looking at them? like that. there was even one night i was getting in bed, laid there a minute, and then i could have absolutely sworn somebody came in the room and sat down next to me on the bed because i felt the bed sink a little under their weight, but i looked and no one was there. i had a really vivid conversation/dream/thing that night. then a few nights later, for the first time since moving there i didn’t have one. the next morning my dad was really freaked out and said he fell asleep in the chair, but woke up and couldn’t breathe, and felt cold little hands over his mouth. he rationalized it as just waking up from a nightmare but i didn’t think so, so that night when i went to sleep and saw her i got really upset, yelled at her for it, and woke up right after. then i never saw or heard anything even remotely similar again, like she left or disappeared or something. it’s so weird, and i know how crazy it sounds, but yeah. don’t get me started on the topic of ghosts lmfao. THEN AGAIN, like a year later we had a carbon monoxide scare, but i really doubt the two were related because that would mean there was an entire year that we were breathing it in and the monitor didn’t do anything lol

29. do you believe in aliens ??

no alien story, thankfully, but it just makes no sense not to believe in them to me. like, we probably don’t have them on earth, and we’ve probably never encountered any, but it’s as close as you can get to a mathematical certainty that there’s some other life out there in the universe.

30. do you believe in true love ??

like, people who are just meant for each other, like romantic soulmates? nah not really. but i believe that two people can grow to truly love one another. whether it’s based off an initial attraction/infatuation, or a friendship, or both. i’d actually argue that’s a simple explanation of the biological science behind the feeling of love, but that’s an essay i’m not gonna write lol. but there’s apparently a lot of different types of love, so i guess “true love” is suggestive?

also slightly unrelated but i don’t-quite-believe-in-but-am-open-to-the-idea-of soulmates, not necessarily as two souls who are just meant for each other romantically and always end up together, but more as two or more souls that gravitate toward each other to make up the important people in each other’s lives, like family members, lovers, or close friends. but that’s more of a theoretical idea/possibility than an actual belief of mine.

31. do you hold grudges ??

um, yes. lol i try not to, and i really do want everyone to be their best/happiest selves, but some people man… some people can take a long walk off a short pier lmao

32. do you have any obsessions right now ??

PO KE MON GOTTA CATCH EM ALLLLL. also… life is strange (thanks dani lol). supernatural. stranger things (thanks dani & steph) the 100 / clexa / becho (thanks steph). lucifer. captain marvel (thanks dani). the song “creep” by radiohead and all its covers (tom ellis, haley reinhart, etc). cyberpunk 2077 (thanks dani). as you can see, i’m easily influenced lmfao.

33. do you drive & if so, have you ever been in a crash ??

nope i don’t drive, precisely because i’d definitely end up in a crash lol

34. do you like the smell of gasoline ??

uh that’s a big fat no from me, chief

35. do you prefer writing fluff, angst, or smut ??

i like it all equally, i think. i just really like writing & rp in general. i did run a smut rp once in the past tho. it gets old quick tbh and is the one of the three i can live without lol

36. are you in a relationship ??

bahahahahahahaha no.

37. grab the nearest book to you and turn to page 23, what is the 17the line ??

❝ “and why would that be?” kronos’s golden eyes glittered. ❞

— the last olympian by rick riordan.

38. put your playlist on shuffle and list the first four songs that pop up:

1. season of the witch – donovan 2. riot van – arctic monkeys 3. busta rhymes – qveen herby 4. der kommissar – after the fire

also i gotta cheat because it’s too perfect that the next two are

5. stay – mac miller (one of my favorites ever that i forgot to mention above) 6. only in america – riff raff (i just love this ok. the video is hilarious but tw james franco for those that don’t like him)

#pandemonium: task #// i’m always last 😔 lmfao #// also this is like a mile long idek why so if you actually read this?? you’re a saint lol #→ por queue

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I just...I literally feel like I get wronged so often. I’m not even sure if it’s to do with me as a person or I just have shit luck. I mean I just read back some of the posts and I realised I copped it at IGA. I copped it at headspace when I wasn’t able to apply for the job the first time. And now I’m copping it with this gym friend shit. This is probably the worst because it’s just soo like how it was at school. And I think I’d be more ok with it if they were already friends and I joined the gym. But seriously it’s the fact that I introduced liv to the gym and we were ‘gym wives’ and then she’s literally gone and made more interesting friends and starting hanging out with them without me. It’s the really clear rejection I think that’s getting to me. And like...she wouldn’t have had those friends if it wasn’t for me. It’s the fact that now *i* have to consider moving gyms even though I was the one who introduced her to the gym in the first place. And of course!! It’s me this happens to. I mean Bec has kinda been removed too but that was definitely more her decision. I was always happy to go to any events they planned (unles I physically couldn’t) but goodness forbid I don’t talk to them every hour of the day so they just start hanging out anyway

I have to consider Emma wasn’t there too. But she wa away for the weekend. I have to consider that liv and bel were probably already out (a bit of a sting but whatever) and then just decided to spontaneously go to Lucy’s bc they know where her house is (which is clear from the what’s app post). I am curious as to what the fresh fuck they were thinking it would make me feel, especially making story after story on Instagram.

That being said, from the moment they starting saying things like “she doesn’t look like a dancer” or planning to go to lunch even when I couldn’t go, or when I started to feel like I couldn’t be myself around them when they were all together with bel (it was fine when she left...just saying 😂) I was really starting to consider whether these are good friends for me or people I want to surround myself with. So maybe they’ve picked up on the vibes that I’ve already starting to clock out without intentionally trying to hurt me.

The thing is, I don’t really want to be talking to people constantly. With my anxiety that’s absolutely exhausting. So if liv is talking to them constantly bc that’s just who she is then of course things like this are going to happen and it’s unreasonable for them to just be like ‘invite Meg’. If I was in this situation I wouldn’t have thought to invite Emma, for example. And I don’t want to randomly go to someone’s house with no notice, that is not my vibe. I don’t want to spend time with people that I have to fight to be heard or people that clearly just don’t want me there. I do have friends and people in my life that appreciate me for me and I don’t have to fight to pay attention to me. I always thought if I didn’t have these friends I’d be fine, the only thing I lose is that sense that I finally had friends in the mountains and from gym. But that’s not worth fighting for if the people I’m trying to be friends with are toxic friends for me.

I’m really curious to see how the next two weeks go, if we can stay friendly with each other at the gym and for the occasional get together. Tbh I’d be happy if we don’t meet up outside of the gym at all, like that planned trip to QLD sounds like it’ll be a fucking train wreck for me. Maybe just like get coffee after gym.

But ok, if I’m honest I feel really awkward around bel. I honestly feel like she’s just replaced me bc she’s so interesting instead of joining the group that was already there. And ever since I suggested we be partner for the partner WOD last Saturday and she just like looked awkward and didn’t say anything I got the sense she really didn’t want to do that. BUT her liv and Lucy obviously get along really well and I love that for them, but it makes it hard for me to spend time with them or have it feel like it used to because literally when they’re together they just ignore me. Such a fucking weird dynamic. But like...if I organise coffee at Fed bc liv is such good friends with bel I’d feel like I’d have to invite her, but I literally can’t get a word in when she’s there. And I mean liv and bel get together by themselves (....and then go to Lucy’s and forget I exist...but I digress 😂) so I COULD just invite liv, but if we’re going to be a ~group~ i don’t think that’s right. I don’t want liv to feel like she has to only hang out with me when we get together. This whole thing gives me serious Blake vibes and I really don’t want anyone to feel like they have to tip toe around me or feel like they have to invite me to everything.

At the end of the day I don’t have to surround myself with people that make me feel like shit. If people are going to exclude me, that sucks but i DONT have to put up with it. I feel angry that this even happened, I feel angry that they wouldn’t even be hanging out if it wasn’t for me but when I reflect, I didn’t even WANT to be there. Literally sitting on the couch with josh watching survivor is literally the idea of my ideal night. Like same with the QLD trip, I literally heard them organising it and was like “yeahhh nah”. I think sometimes you can become friends with people wayyy to quickly and it just becomes a train wreck. I knew from the start I was the odd one out being the only introvert.

I feel like Emma is the only one who actually cares about how others might feel. I don’t think she probably has even thought what that would have been like for me, perhaps just assumed I couldn’t be there. But I feel like if I told her she’d be heartbroken for me.With liv it’s like as soon she’s with bel she’s completely forgotten we used to joke about being codepend gym wives 😂 Lucy I do wonder what she’s thinking or even noticed how I might have felt, especially given it obviously wasn’t her decision and she posted on the what’s app group like “ANY of you can come to my house any time”.

Liv, I’m really not sure. I feel like she has a heart and would be upset if she knew I was upset, but I don’t think she’s ever experienced any like this before so just wouldn’t get how I felt. Like I don’t think she understands that flaunting that she’s hanging out with people I more or less introduced to her (mind you, she definitely made her own friends with them bc I wasn’t super close to them before she started. Like I’m the reason they KNOW each other but she’s the reason we are now all hanging out). I honestly don’t think she thinks there was anything wrong with that, it was just a ✨spontaneous ✨ night for her and nothing else.

Bel, I literally think she doesn’t give a fresh fuck but how I’d be feeling 😂 I could be wrong but usually my intuitions about people are correct.

Basically, if people make me feel shit about myself, whether intentionally or not, it’s not worth my time. Maybe I can be at the gym and be friendly with them (I mean like, Ali wasn’t there for example but they’d still be friendly with her) but if I can’t because of my ✨anxiety✨ then that’s ok too. They likely won’t exactly miss me 😂😂😂 so I don’t think it’ll be that bad if I just leave. I was already considering leaving bc F45 fits better in my schedule but didn’t want to bc of this group. Really ironic that as soon as I decided “no ok I’ll stay with CrossFit” this happens 😂 PLUS I ALMOST left CrossFit when i first started and only stayed literally bc of liv. Literally, this WHOLE thing wouldn’t have happened if I left before. So interesting!

It’s hard not to take this personally because it’s so similar to high school, but maybe the universe is telling me this CAN happen, but also not to surround myself with people that are going to be toxic for me. Not toxic in general, they are all good people, but for me. Because of what I’ve been through, I’m not going to chose to be friends with just whoever, like someone like Liv might be. We’ve all been though our own battles, and this is one of mine. Yes I broke down because of this because it feels unfair that this constant rejection isn’t a thing of the past anymore, but fuck. The fact I can face shit like this again again and again and still be standing, still feel confident makes me fucking strong. I’ve been excluded, rejected and treated like shit by ‘friends’ ALL of my childhood and I’m still fucking standing, but also I’m SUCCESSFUL. This is a fucking blessing, the opportunity to become stronger and more resilient. If I can make the decision early to not surround myself with people that make me feel like ✨shit✨ then that shows that I’m resilient. I’m strong. I can still feel the painful emotions, I can fucking grieve the fact that I thought I was in a community that finally accepted me. But I can chuck a pheonix like I have done in the past and rise above. No painful emotion I’ve ever felt has lasted forever. In fact I’ve spent a good few years since I was like 21 where I haven’t had to overthink my friendships at all. I know it’s not personal at all. I was happy before I had these people in my life and I can be happy after

Anyway Josh had left so time for me to feel this emotion 😭

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Current Music Obsessions: January 16 - 31, 2018

It's time for the last CMO for January, AND I'M ACTUALLY EARLY! I have A LOT to get through in this one because I'm doing an intense purge of my watch later playlist. So let's see those honorable mentions.

Awaken Solace - Moon Over the Mountain Annatar - Reflection Eve's Fall - Enough Edenbridge - A Turnaround in Art Sozos Michael - Life Finds a Way (Helion Prime cover) Aastraal - Majesty of the Nightfall Dragonfly - Silent Scream Nyx Aether - Odyssey of the Forlorn Acid Deathtrip - The Aftermath A Dream of Poe - Lady of Shalott Silent Descent - Voices Origins - The Power Inside Septicflesh - Martyr Kyle Morrison - Mammoth feat. Sean Zatorsky (Sinsaenum), Adrienne Cowan (Light & Shade) Fourth Circle - Iron Drops Dawn of Morgana - Embers Fade Nightmarer - Skinner Eric Hazebroek & Gogo Melone - Winter is Coming Crimfall - Mother of Unbelivers The End Party - Debutante Gary Numan - Ghost Nation Tristania - Pale Enchantress Vanguard - Hyper1one The Sins of Thy Beloved - My Love Shade Empire - Map of Scars The Dark Element - Only One Who Knows Me Meden Agan - The Purge Starset - Frequency Dust in Mind - Anesthesia Dust in Mind - Coward Heilung - Othan (live) The Murder of My Sweet - Echoes of the Aftermath Camila Cabello - Crying in the Club Skies Collide - This Divide

Now for the excessive amount of real obsessions.

1) Edenbridge - The Die is Not Cast

The Great Momentum turned out so much better than I thought it would be. Such a powerful symphonic power metal album with such a strong symphonic element. It's also a lot more aggressive (riff wise) than I was expecting it to be. The chorus is so dramatic and I love it so much. Just an amazing song all the way through.

2) Alwaid - Amphisbaena

This is their latest single off their new album and it's pretty good. It takes a dramatic turn near the end of the song which I really enjoy. It starts out strong and continues to bring throughout the track. I'm definitely am gonna have to give the new album a listen.

3) The Classic Crime - Driftwood

This is a gorgeous atmospheric rock track. If you need something beautiful to chill to, this is it. The singer's voice is so lovely and pleasant and really suits the instrumentals. A very pleasant song.

4) Crystal Gates - Dreamers (Revisited)

This is the second song I've heard from them and holy tits is it amazing. It starts out seeming like it's going to be a pretty ballad track, then it escalates into the chorus and turns into the gorgeous symphonic metal track. And the vocal lines after the first chorus. Gurl. Yes. So good.

5) Adeia - Architect

Found these guys while browsing the metal archives in the Netherlands section. The Dutch prog scene has always been amazing to me, but this band is so different from the ones I've heard in the past. This song is really great and has such a cool vibe to it. I love the subtle symphonic touches to it in the instrumentals.

6) After Forever - My Choice

How am I so late on finding this music video??? I found it out of nowhere one day and got hooked. I've always been a huge fan of After Forever and this is a traditional song of theirs. Very strong vocals as always, but I mean it's Floor Jansen, of course they're gonna be strong. Also I LOVE the bodysuit that Floor wears in this video. It's so cool and funky.

7) Zoe Nash - Rather Die

I have no clue how I found this song, but I absolutely love it. It's so catchy a fun, but with such a dark-ish twist. The way that the background singers sing "I'd rather die" is just a bit to happy sounding. This girl has such a different voice. It's kinda raspy and strange, but so pretty at the same time, which is what has me hooked.

8) Blessed with Rage - Nightfall

This is one of those songs that catch you off guard as to how good it is. I've always have loved bands with a great electronic element to them. I LOVE the edm bit in the bridge. Such a fun touch. It reminds me a bit of We Butter the Bread with Butter, just not as intense and in your face.

9) Lovelorn Dolls - Dead Sea

This song is so great. I'm not too familiar with them, but everything I've heard has been wonderful. The chorus is so simple, but it's so powerful at the same time. It's so weird how that works out. Definitely give this song if you're into gothic metal. Definitely a great jam.

10) Swallow the Sun - Weight of the Dead

I heard this song on Pandora one day a few months ago and finally got around to listening to it on my own time. What a great gothic doom metal track. It really takes off around the last 3 minutes and just evolves into this gorgeous and haunting doom track. It's so powerful. I really need to check out more from them.

11) Banks - Goddess

I haven't heard a bad song from her yet and I'm kinda scared for the day I find something that I don't like. This song is absolutely gorgeous and so fucking pretty. I still don't really know how to label her music. Modern pop? Trip-hop? Experimental? I don't know, but who cares, it's fucking beautiful.

12) Dream Ocean - Forever feat. Jake E. (ex-Amaranthe)

Found this song through a friend on Facebook and it's so pretty. I'm definitely gonna check out more from them, because their singer has such a pretty voice and she herself is really pretty. I mean look at her hair! Anyways, definitely digging this.

13) Unleash the Archers - Ten Thousand Against One

Apex is how their last album should've sounded. I know I keep saying that, but this album is MILES better than the last one. This and Cleanse the Bloodlines have to be my favorites. It's powerful, dramatic and heavy. What more could you ask from an aggressive power metal band?

14) Jucifer - The Mountain

Found these guys when digging through the metal archives to see what the metal scene is like here in Atlanta. Turns out it's not active, just as I expected. But I did find this sludge band here. This song is pure sludge/stoner metal and I love it. I wonder if they'll release any new material any time soon.

15) Dawn of Morgana - Revelations

I found these guys while searching for symphonic metal bands based here in the States that are listed on the metal archives and gurl are they good. It's so hard for me to actually like symphonic metal bands from the States since so many aren't good, but these guys are dramatic and powerful as all get out. Don't sleep on these guys.

16) Tigersclaw - Princess of the Dark

Randomly found this song one day on the recommended videos on YT. It's a pretty good symphonic power metal track. Their singer has a really pretty and high pitched voice and girl can hit a note. It is a bit cheesy, especially since the chorus is repetitive, but it's a great song nonetheless.

17) Amber Asylum - Cardinal Sin (Dead Can Dance cover)

This is the second song I've heard from them and it's absolutely gorgeous. They did a really great job with this cover and making it their own. My question is though is do these guys have any "metal" songs? I found out about these guys while trying to find some prog bands from the States, but this and the other song I've found aren't even metal songs. But besides that, really beautiful and haunting stuff.

18) DRMCTHR - Get Lost

Found this through Spaceuntravel and really dig it. It's almost as if alternative rock and shoegaze had a baby and this song was made. I'm really interested in possibly checking out more from these guys, because this song is really lovely and great to chill to.

19) Crimfall - Wayward Verities

I decided to listen to Amain after hearing a few great songs off it (and also because the cover art features a "naked" dude on it) and this is one of my favorites off it. The bridge is on some other level because it completely shifts tone. It just turns into this epic track in that moment with the choir bits. I also LOVE the yodeling in the intro. Such a great touch.

20) Trail of Tears - Empty Room

Decided to try to find a song off this album after reading an interview Ailyn (ex-Sirenia) did in which she talked about how Emma worked with Trail of Tears before, so I had to find out what exactly she did. That's how I came across this gorgeous and powerful gothic metal track. I honestly prefer Emma here over Sirenia. It just seems as if her voice is more well suited for this kind of music. Definitely check this song out.

21) Gali - Dancing to Another Love Song

Discovered this song through Hellvetika's IG story one day when she posted about having to listen to this song at the gym. I can't remember if she liked it or not, but I decided to give it a go and needless to say I fucking love it. VERY reminiscent of mid 2000's electronica, which was my shit as a tween. I still love it to this day. Such a fun song and girl has some pipes.

22) MILCK - This is Not the End

I discovered her through her song Quiet, so when I saw she dropped a new track, I decided to give it a listen. This song is also a really empowering track and is so lovely. The chorus is rather catchy, but that's necessary when creating a song that's going to be treated as an anthem. The burst of emotion right as the final chorus starts is so wonderful.

23) Sanguine Glacialis - Monsters

Discovered them through their record label and I am so hyped for their upcoming album after hearing this. This song is such a ballbuster. It's been so long since I've found a promising female fronted death metal band. This a bit of an avant-garde metal flare to them that I'm really digging. Oh, and she sounds fucking insane and ferocious.

24) Shade Empire - Lecter (Welcome)

This song is so amazing and is a wonderful start to an amazing album. If you enjoy symphonic black metal, definitely give Poetry for the Ill-Minded a listen. This, Anti-Life Savior and Map of Scars are my favorites. They're all so powerful and leave such a huge impression. I never once thought I'd hear a song about Hannibal Lecter, but here we are with this track.

25) Starset - Unbecoming

This and Satellite have to be my favorites off their new album. It has such a cool vibe and is slightly haunting. The electronic element is so strong and adds this really cool dimension to the music that I am absolutely in love with. Definitely a great jam.

26) Diablo Swing Orchestra - Interruption

Pacifisticuffs is such a fun album and this is one of the many cheesy songs off it. It's cheesy, but in the best way possible. That's how this band works with its cheese. The chorus starts with a strong "ohhhh wah-ohhh" that just sucks you in. So much fun. Definitely can't wait for the day I can see these guys live.

27) Fairy Bones - Killing Me

This is their latest single and it's so fun. I LOVE the blend of psychedelic rock with punk. Such a cool and fun sound. They're always bringing some new vibe in with their music and I always love it. Definitely give these guys a listen.

And that's it for this month! Hopefully next month won't be too long. ANYWAYS, enjoy these great tunes!

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The Intervention Team - CS AU Week 2K17 - Day 2: Crossover AU - OUAT/Glee

Ok. I’m posting this a day late mainly because I don’t like it. I decided to hell with it though! I think I want to do a serious rewrite of this at some point though.

This isn’t even really a “crossover au” per-se. But I’ve know decided that I really want to write OUAT and Glee crossover fics. FTR: It has been a while since I watched the season of Glee with them in NY with Adam Lambert and all that so my continuity with canon is not good. But there’s other things I’m just ignoring anyway. So that’s that.

“What did you forget now Elliott?” Kurt slid the door to his apartment open, expecting his friend and bandmate to be the one knocking.

Well, the blond girl standing in front of him most definitely was not Elliott Gilbert.

She stood on the other side of his door, a huge smile across her face. She didn’t look like Kurt remembered, but it was definitely her. “Emma!” he shouted happily as he pulled her into a hug. “What are you doing here?”

She smiled at him even brighter. “I got into NYU! I’m transferring in for the second semester. I just arrived in New York today and there wasn’t a single thing better I could think to do then go visit Kurt Hummel.”

Kurt shook his head slowly. He was still amazed that she was even here! “Emma Swan, I am so happy you are getting out of Lima,”

She laughed as she made her way inside. “Trust me, no one could possibly be happier than I am.” She did a small little twirl. “This is a pretty nice place.”

“The place is nice, but I could definitely use some better roommates,” Kurt said with an eyeroll.

“Oh,” Emma made a wincing face. “That’s right, isn't it? You have the pleasure of living with the amazing Miss Rachel Berry and the most satanic of all devils, Santana Lopez.”

“God, I’ve missed you Emma Swan.”

“Oh me too!” She hugged him again. “Now tell me what’s new in the world of Kurt Hummel!”

They plopped down on the couch, Emma stripping off her red leather jacket as they did. “Well,” he began, “you know that NYADA was a bust.”

“Don’t be silly Kurt. NYADA’s the one missing out. There’s no way you’re not getting in if you apply again. No. Way.”

Kurt hummed noncommittally. “You’re one to talk. You were absolutely convinced that I was guaranteed to get into NYADA the first time around and just as convinced that no college would ever accept you. Now look where we are.” He raised an eyebrow.

“Alright. I’ll admit that I was wrong. I know you though. I know that you wouldn’t have let a rejection from NYADA keep you from taking NYC by storm. Tell me what you’ve been doing!”

“Well, I have a job at a diner. It’s real cute. You’ll have to come by sometime. I’ve also got an internship at Vogue.”

“You do not!” Emma whacked his arm.

“I do.” He shrugged and held back a smile. “I also started a band.”

“You have been one busy bee Kurt Hummel. I wish I could say the same about me.”

“Oh come on Emma. I know Lima’s not the most exciting place in the world, but you're special. Something must have happened, especially if you decided to head on here to New York.”

Emma hesitated. She’d always been a very private person. But this was Kurt. He’d always been there for her. He was the one who’d convinced her to join Glee. He was the one who found out she was pregnant. He was the one who had stood by her through everything. He would be happy for her. “I-” she took a breath. “I broke up with Neal. For real this time. And forever.”

Kurt reached out and took her hand. “Are you okay?”

She nodded quickly. “Yeah, of course.”

“I thought Neal had left Lima.”

“He did. He came back though.” She shrugged. “He’s working for his dad now. It seems like he’s going to be staying in Lima for a while. I’m not though.”

“I’m glad.” Kurt gave her a small smile. “I’m so happy you're here.”

“Me too,” she sighed happily.

There was a knock at the door. Kurt rolled his eyes but got up to open it. “I swear, Santana if you forget your keys one more time-” It wasn’t Santana behind the door. “Oh! Elliott,”

“Hey Kurt,” the other man greeted cheerfully. “I’m not Santana,” he laughed, a small smirk pulling at his lips. Kurt just raised an eyebrow. “I’m sorry but I think I left my phone here. At least I’m hoping I did. I got back to my place and couldn’t find it anywhere.”

“Come on in. Look around.”

“Thanks, Kurt. Oh!” Elliott had spotted Emma. He looked between Emma and Kurt. “Sorry. Am I interrupting something?” he joked.

“This is Emma Swan. She’s a friend from high school. She’s moving to New York. And Emma, this is Elliott Gilbert. He’s one of my bandmates.”

“Kurt has mentioned you so many times. It’s nice to have a face to go with the name.” Elliott walked over to Emma and offered his hand. “And welcome to New York!”

“Thanks.” She hesitated for a moment but did shake Elliott’s hand. She and Kurt hadn’t talked much since he left for New York, but she was certain that there had never been any mention of an Elliott Gilbert. He certainly wasn’t the type that she would have expected Kurt to hang out with. Although he was cute and Emma would bet anything that he was gay. “So, how did you and Kurt meet? Do you go to NYADA or work at the diner?”

Elliott laughed. “A huge no to both of those. Kurt and I meeting was purely because of the band. It was all chance really. I’m a student at NYU and I honestly never even thought about going to that diner until I knew Kurt worked there.”

“You go to NYU?”

“Yeah,” Kurt interjected. “Emma’s starting at NYU. There you go Em, you’re already making friends.”

Emma eyed Elliott a bit warily, but he just smiled at her. “I would love to talk to you both, but I seriously do need to find my phone and run. I need to see a guy about a gig.” He turned to Kurt. “I’ve got this friend, he’s my tattoo artist actually, and he works at this bar that hires local bands to play live music. I think this might be a chance for us.”

“I’m going to trust your judgement on this one.”

Elliott wore an exaggerated look of surprise on his face.”Kurt Hummel is letting someone else make a decision? Did I step into an alternate dimension somewhere?”

Kurt whacked him playfully. “Get your phone and go. I want some time with my friend.”

After Elliott had raised his phone in the air accompanied by a triumphant shout, he had quickly hugged Kurt, waved goodbye to Emma, and left with a promise to call Kurt as soon as he had news on the gig.

“So,” Emma started after Elliott left, “what’s going on there?”

“Where?” Kurt looked at her, bewildered. Emma nodded toward the door where Elliott had left. “Elliott? You think there’s something going on between Elliott and I?”

Emma’s eyes answered well, duh!

“Elliott and I are just friends. We’re good friends.”

“Hmm. Is he gay?”

“Yes.” Kurt answered begrudgingly.

“And single?”

Kurt sighed but nodded his head, resigned.

“You know me Kurt. I believe that all romance ends in heartbreak. Guys simply aren’t worth it. I also know you, though. I know you believe in all that romantic drivel. I also know that the confident Kurt Hummel I knew back in senior year wouldn’t be letting that slip through his fingers.”

“There’s a lot of gay guys in New York, Emma. Elliott is a friend.”

“Alright, alright. But, you do remember my superpower don’t you?”

Pamela Lansbury officially had a gig two weeks later. Kurt insisted that Emma come along. She wanted to. First of all, seeing Kurt perform again would be worth a trip to New York even if she weren’t transferring. And maybe there was a small part of her that wanted to support Rachel and Santana. Also, Elliot had made a decent first impression, but if he was a potential boyfriend for her best friend, then she was going to need to find out a bit more about “Starchild”.

That’s how Emma Swan had found herself sitting in a bar (despite being under 21 and having no desire to drink) on a Tuesday night.

Somehow, she’d also ended up sitting right next to a friend of Elliott Gilbert. She just hadn’t known it at first.

“They’re actually pretty good,” he remarked beside her after they had played their first couple songs.

“Of course they’re good,” she’d said.

He looked over at her. “Is that so, love?”

His endearment definitely rubbed her the wrong way. “Why shouldn’t they be good?” She turned to face him. “Just because they’re students doesn’t mean they can’t be good. More than half of the music you hear on the radio nowadays is by artists who made it big before they were even 21.”

“Woah, woah, lassie. I never said I expected them to be bad. Quite on the contrary, I was hoping they’d be this good. It’s just my first time seeing them is all.” He gave her a weird look. “What are you? Some groupie?”

“No!” she said, insulted. “I just have friends in the band.”

“Really?” he quirked an eyebrow. “So do I.”

She looked him over. He was obviously handsome. He definitely had a certain style though. He wore dark eyeliner and a good amount of leather. His ears were pierced and most of the skin Emma could see was covered in tattoos. So, was he Dani’s friend? Or Elliott’s? “Who?” she asked simply.

“The tall dark haired one,” he pointed to Elliott. “Elliott Gilbert. I’ve known him for years now. Half of his tattoos are my art. You know him?”

Emma wasn’t sure what to say. “We’ve only met briefly. I really haven’t talked to him. I was hoping to get to know him better tonight.”

“So who are you here for?”

“Kurt Hummel. I guess I’m also here for Rachel and Santana, but it’s really just for Kurt.”

Killian nodded his head. “So that’s why you want to know more about Elliott.”

Emma was surprised but tried to school her features back to neutral. “What do you mean?”

Killian laughed. “You want to know if Elliott is good enough for you friend. Don’t worry. I won’t tell either of them. After all, part of the reason I wanted them to have a gig here is so I could observe your friend Kurt. Elliott’s been bringing him up quite a bit lately.”

Emma eyed him again. “So are you getting the same vibes from the two of them that I am?”

“Are you getting the “just friends” line?”

Emma and Killian shared a look.

“Maybe they really are just friends. The, shall we call it chemistry, on stage is a bit difficult to ignore though.”

Emma snorted. “They can deny it all they want, but eventually they’re going to have to face the truth. Even if it means we have to stage some type of intervention.”

“Killian Jones,” he stuck out his hand. “Your devilishly handsome Kelliott teammate.”

“You have got to be kidding me.”

“Of course not love. I am most definitely devilishly handsome.”

So yeah. That was barely any CS. Emma is also super OOC. This needs a rewrite so badly!!!! (maybe next week?)

I also have a graphic for this universe that I will hopefully get up tomorrow.

#cs au week 2k17 #cs #captain swan #ouat #fanfiction #once upon a time #fanfic #crossover #crossover au #glee #kelliot #there wasn't suppose to be this much kelliot #emma swan #killian jones #kurt hummel #elliott gilbert #crossover fic

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Finally!!! Missed you and these posts! Do 1 through 100!!! :)

Is a kiss considered cheating? Yes.

Have you ever faked orgasm? Yep, with my ex-boyfriend.

If you could have one superpower, what would it be? Invisibility.

Do you think you are going to be rich in 7-8-9 years? I sure hope so.

Tell us some funny drunk story. One time freshman year, I was going to a frat party and I slipped on ice and cut my ass cheek. I still have the scar lol.

Why are you no longer together with your ex? He’s a cheater and I like girls.

If you had to choose one way to die, what would it be? Peacefully in my sleep.

What are your current goals? Finish putting the apartment together and successfully complete my phlebotomy class. Go to nursing school next fall.

Do you like someone? My girl.

Who was the last person to disappoint you? Myself.

Do you like your body? No.

Can you keep a diet? Depending on how strict it is.

If the whole world listened to you right now, what would you say? Start cleaning up after yourselves and stop using so many disposables. Take care of the beautiful world around us. Take care of each other.

Do you work? Yes, 40+ hours a week.

If you could choose only one food to eat to the rest of your life, what would it be? Either chicken or pasta because you can do so much with both of them.

Would you get a tattoo? I have 2.

Something you don’t mind spending all your money on? Travel.

Can you drive? Yes

When was the last time someone told you you were beautiful? Idk lol probably within the last few days.

What was the last thing you cried for? My anxiety.

Do you keep a journal? Yes.

Is life fun? It can be.

Is farting in front of people irrelevant? Yes, but there are some places you probably shouldn’t do it. People get offended easily now days.

What’s your dream car? Idk I like SUV’s. Probably a pretty sky blue one.

Are grades in school important? Yes but they shouldn’t be. Schools should be more focused on whether people are actually learning the material instead of getting the grade.

Describe your crush. She lives with me.

What was the last book/movie that really impressed you? The last book was The Princess Saves Herself In This One by Amanda Lovelace. It’s a poetry book and it’s truly amazing! I read it within an hour or two, it was so fantastic! The last movie was the new Beauty and the Beast! Just everything about it was so incredibly amazing. I’m so in love with it.

What was your last lie? Telling people at work that I’m doing okay.

Dumbest lie you ever told? Idk probably #28.

Is crying in front of people embarrassing? Yes. I hate crying in front of people.

Something you did and you are proud of? Making it this far fairly successfully.

What’s your favourite cocktail? Sex on the beach.

Something you are good at? Stressing myself out over fairly irrelevant things.

Do you like small kids? Yes.

How are you feeling right now? I’m pretty decent.

What would you name your daughter/son? I really like the name Mercedes for a girl and idk about a boy’s name because I hope to have a little girl someday.

What do you need to be happy? My girl, our animals, and a good book.

Is there some you want to punch in the face right now? Yes.

What was the last gift you received? I honestly don’t know.

What was the last gift you gave? I honestly don’t know.

What was the last concert you went to? Sam Hunt with my girl.

Favourite place to shop at? I’ve really started to like Forever 21 and Charlotte Russe. But I also loooove Bath and Body Works.

Who inspires you? JK Rowling .Emma Watson. My little Ciara.

How old were you when you first got drunk? 18.

How old were you when you first got high? 19.

How old were you when you first had sex? 16.

When was your first kiss? 13.

Something you want to do until the end of this year? Grow within myself and radiate positivity.

Is there something in the past you wish you hadn’t done? Yes.

Post a selfie. Check me out.

Who are you most comfortable around? My girl. My family. Her family.

Name one thing that terrifies you. FAILURE.

What kind of books do you read? I’ve really begun to like poetry style books lately but mostly fiction.

What would you tell your 12 year old self? Learn to grow within yourself and radiate positive vibes, no matter what situations try to bring you down.

What is your favourite flower? Sunflowers.

Any bad habits you have? Biting my nails.

What kind of people are you attracted to? My girl.

What was the last thing you cried for? My anxiety.

Is there something you don’t eat? Some food that truly disgust you? Yes. I’m picky, so there’s plenty of food I don’t eat.

Are you in love? Yes.

Something you find romantic? Coming home to candles spelling out I love you.

How long was your longest relationship? 11 months.

What are 3 things that irritate you about the same sex? Cheaters, liars, cunts.

What are 3 things that irritate you about the opposite sex? Cheaters, liars, dicks.

What are you saving money for? To go back to school.

How would you describe your bad side? BITCH.

Are you actually a good person? Why? Yes, because I try my hardest in everything I do.

What are you living for? Myself.

Have you ever done anything illegal? Yes. I drank underage and smoked once.

Do you like your body? No.

Have you ever made someone feel bad about themselves intentionally? No, I don’t think so.

Ever sent nudes? Yes.

Have you ever cheated on someone? No.

Favourite candy? Reese. Sour Patch Kids. Oreo chocolate bars.

Is there a blog you visit every day, or almost every day? Tag it! I don’t know right off the top of my head. I really like Cammie Scott though.

Do you play any computer games? What is your favourite game? Sims.

Favourite TV series? Gossip Girl. SVU. Orange Is The New Black. Degrassi. NCIS.

Are you religious? Does God exist? No. Possibly.

What was the last book you read? Did it impress you and why? The Princess Saves Herself In This One by Amanda Lovelace. It’s truly so amazing! She’s such a talented writer, and I wholeheartedly think that everyone needs to read it.

What do you think about vegetarianism/veganism? I was more vegan than Kala and I wasn’t even trying.

How long have you been on Tumblr? I’ve had a few different accounts, but I’ve had one since freshman year of high school.

Do you like Chineese food? YES.

McDonalds or Subway? Subway is good for a meal and McDonald’s is good for snacks.

Vodka or whiskey? Vodka, but I’m slowly starting to like whiskey.

Alcohol or drugs? Alcohol because it’s legal.

Ever been out of your province/state/country? Yes. I’ve been to every state below PA on the east coast except DE and MD. I’ve also been to Spain and Italy.

Meaning behind your blog name? I like sunflowers and good vibes.

What are you scared of? Failure.

Last time you were insulted? Idk probably yesterday?

Most traumatic experience ? The night I was driving back to Heather’s campground and I got lost like a mile away and I had the worst panic attack I’ve had in a long time.

Perfect date idea? Cuddling up with comfy blankets, coffee/hot chocolate, and watching Beauty and the Beast.

Favourite app on your phone? I just downloaded House Escapes yesterday and I’m pretty addicted to it.

What colour are the walls in your room? They’re like a weird shade of gray.

Do you watch Youtube? Who is your favourite youtuber? Yes. Cammie Scott. Caitlin Bea. Sarah Belle.

Share your favourite quote. It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.

What is the meaning of life? I don’t know.

Do you like horror movies? Yes, I love them and I’m so sad that it’s October and Heather doesn’t like them.

Have you ever made your mum cry? What happened? Maybe? Probably because I’m gay.

Do you feel lucky or special in a way? Sometimes.

Can you keep a secret? Yes. Tell me your secrets and you’ll never have to worry.

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