#am i even smart enough

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

there's just... there is no reason to make yet another cop show in this day and age. copaganda is not only bullshit, it is a failure of imagination.

you want to watch brooding characters with dark pasts investigate crimes in an official capacity? just use private detectives (cops have a miserable solve rate anyway). want eccentric geniuses & their sidekicks solving mysteries? i present you with armchair detectives & neighborhood busybodies. oh, you're craving a workplace comedy-drama starring overworked protagonists doing their heartfelt best to resolve community conflicts? social worker office sitcom! bitch this is ACHIEVABLE

#i lied the one reason to make a cop show is you want a mafia show and the cops are currently by far the most powerful u.s. mafia #BUT! i cannot emphasize enough: the police have none of the aesthetics or personality of the actual mafia so why even bother #The Sopranos but in an office setting with buzzing fluorescent lighting? and half your co-workers are weekend neo-nazis? come on #no. just no #from now on i want all tv cops to be villainous side characters #but BORING villainous side characters #i like villains as much as the next queer audience member but i cannot overstate the importance of portraying cops as not just bastards #but BORING bastards #they are so boring. they are boring and hateful and also neither particularly smart nor interesting #i need to emphasize: there is NOTHING to romanticize there #i am so passionate and supportive of anti-romanticizing cops. ANTI-ROMANTICIZE THE POLICE. #the police are BORING and HATEFUL and CRUEL and BASIC AS HELL #and we should be pointing that out publicly every chance we get #the police are BORING BASIC BITCHES and mocking them publically is a patriotic service

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Introvert adoption

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #wen ning #jiang cheng #(The actual name of this season 2 extra is 'First meeting with Wen Ning' but I ran out of space.) #I am obligated to try and wiggle in Wen Ning scenes whenever I can. Our baby boy needs his screentime to grow big and strong. #This whole scene is very good and does a lot to show us several important traits about wwx: #1) He has no hesitation to put his own face or life at risk to help someone (even if they have never met). #2) He does not care for what others say or think about him; he will do what he thinks is right. #And he is smart enough to think is is always right about his judgement. This will be a problem later. #I also think the silly energy in this scene is top notch. #Wen Ning is the wild chipmunk wwx managed to catch and wants to keep as a pet. #Jiang Cheng is gently easing this boy out of wwx's extrovert maw and saying 'put him back outside'. #Can you imagine being blindsided by the full force of wwx out of nowhere? Getting his support and then archery tips? #You're done. You've been caught in his snare and you aren't getting out.

[synth-spinner]

Quick thing I rushed for father's day ^_^ Peter b and his kids :3 they r going to save the multiverse ☝️

#NOT EVEN FATHERS DAY ANYMORE HERE BUT YAYYY #slowly working my way out of artblock.. maybe.. #also cried 10 billion tears idk how to draw babies.. #the shading on mayday is rlly off hut im not smart enough to figure out how to save it😭 #also i am extremely inexperienced in drawing spiderverse miles i neeed to draw him more ^_^ #spiderverse #atsv #peter b parker #miles morales #mayday parker #across the spiderverse #isa's art

[tiredangellydia]

Huey is giving apathetic asshole who's got bored of life and everyone has to suffer for it, it's not intentional and that's probally what makes it worse??? He does not care and everyone is suffering the consequences because of it even after he's long gone.

#like yeah he cares in a certain way because he put the world to order or whatever #but at the same time everything is going to shit and people are traumatized because of him #he's so powerful and smart but does not care about the other clan member enough to give them directions about anything #hes all vague and for what??? urghhh i want to put him on a jar and shake it #everytime he appears on screen you just get pissed of what is his damn problem #nu carnival #nu carnival huey #i am very normal about this man and the influence he has on the world even after hes long gone🙃

[kaxenart]

I don't know what it says about my current mindset that my top two games I played this year could both be described as "Questionably Legal Wage Slaves... IN SPACE! (also nameless and of indeterminate gender?)"

Though nothing sums up the difference in tone and focus that I get anxiety every time someone is sad in Citizen Sleeper and in Armored Core VI, I get all my serotonin from making sure everyone has having a bad day by my evil little crime hands.

#armored core 6 #citizen sleeper #Yeah I am not even done with the story but Armored Core rewired my brain #honestly the entire theme of my media for the second half of this year is “fucked up lil dudes (gender neutral) in corpo hell” #I won't get full achievements on Citizen Sleeper because I can't survive the mortifying ordeal of letting down Lem & Mina #I won't get full achievements on Armored Core VI because I am not smart enough to do missions above a B grade #c4 621 #armored core vi

[suddenrundown]

do you ever think about parker

#i am #not redemption parker idk who that is #but leverage parker? the best thief who is so much more than that #she's smart. so smart nate made her his successor and said you're like me so you can do it but enough not like me that you'll do it your way #and it'll probably be better #he trusted her with that! #and she was so capable of that! #and even that wasn't all there was to her! #she was a thief who learned to trust and care about others despite growing up not ever having been taught to #she learned to trust and to love (in a familial way and a romantic one! slowly but surely!) #she learned to do the right thing. to want to do the right thing. and that food wasn't just food! AHH #and she could also beat the shit out of someone with crutches!!! #I FUCKING LOVE PARKER LEVERAGE OKAY?! #leverage #parker #redemption writers put some respect on her name challenge im fucking begging you

[skinks]

BT-7274 is God? Question mark?

Ok I was semi-joking about there being Christ allegories for BT in Titanfall but the more I think about it… he’s a figurehead of a rebellion, and his mortal human equivalent he selects to be a vessel of his will/mission is Jack Cooper. JC.

The giant and horrifically powerful, alien artefact they discover about to be used as a weapon is named the Ark. When the IMC attempted to harness its power at first, BT says some of the remaining bodies have “aged unusually,” and their facility was destroyed.

Special Operation 217 is their mission to stop the IMC from using the Ark to destroy Harmony, BT tells Cooper they are “duty bound” to complete it.

Hidden manna apparently means like, being saved? If humans (Jack) can help BT carry out the plan and overcome the IMC’s sin then BT will save them all and reward Jack with the “white stone”, which is supposed to represent a special and secret kinship with God.

Before he is fully destroyed, BT first sustains a wound on one side

after which he is murdered, then resurrected through Jack’s loyalty, then chooses to die of his own accord in order to save humankind and Harmony, because I guess they didn’t want to call the planet Peace.

BT’s “Holy Spirit” is his super-advanced AI, which he can transfer to Jack “in order to permit communication across time shifts”

and which he uses to communicate with his beloved human across time and space even once his physical form is consumed by the Ark. See: special secret kinship

Cooper’s helmet flashing J A C K ? in binary code.

Now finally; 7274

BT is a Vanguard class titan, the first mechs created solely by the Militia and possessed of the most advanced learning capabilities of any titan. Fashioned and given understanding so that they may obey the laws of the Militia’s commandments, so that they will be glad when they see BT because he represents hope? Humans as the gods of machines? Created in their image to save the world?

BT = BATTLE TRINITY????

#titanfall 2 #wake up babe I just dropped my most insane post on record #BT-7274 #jack cooper #I’m not Christian in the slightest I just came back from seeing Jesus Christ Superstar and thinking about all of this is VERY funny to me #even though theological/existential implications of the Vanguard AI is something I’d love to explore in fic. I am not smart enough

[running-in-the-dark]

it's so funny when I rewatch a show but with a new/different/additional crush. like I'm rewatching the librarians with my partner right now and it just feels soo different lol

#anyway. Jenkins 😍 #on a completely unrelated note... #I need to learn more about pocket squares and ties. #because it's already driving me insane when they don't go together on night court but it's much worse on the librarians where I can actually #like. see stuff lol #I don't mean 'oh no the colour isn't an exact match'. more like 'these patterns and/or colours look fucking bad together' #but maybe there's like. reasons for that. rules that my silly little brain isn't smart enough to figure out #because all I'm basing that on is. my eyes and my opinion lol #anyway he's so baby. 🥰 and I definitely like him better now. very very huggable. #he takes that suit jacket off and I'm like 🥵 #man I feel so weird about this :') but I must talk about it anyway or I will never get over that :) #like it just feels like. ohh this is weird I'm not supposed to think he's hot because he's old 😬 but he just. is 🤷 #anyway touching his ears would fix me man it totally would #*with my mouth also. but whatever it's cool I'm not thinking about that #no haha why would I be thinking about it that :) #or when he sits on that table sometimes and I totally don't think about how I absolutely need to sit in his lap :) #haha noo I'm not thinking about fucking him at all who even brought that up #anyway i am very tired & have already taken my sleep meds so I am extra stupid rn :) and the dumb thoughts just keep coming out

[baekuras]

Resident Evil really makes me wanna become an unhinged scientist creating horrors beyond our comprehension yet made of our own flesh and maybe a sprinkle of virus/parasite/mold in it to give it some extra ooomph

#txts #this is mostly about re4 bc its on my mind rn #the las plaga is like a dog to me #look if its big enough to be petable at some point then its a puppy-i dont make the rules #its just a more fucked up spider #which then growns into an even more fucked up spider hiding in a human suit i guess #the usual things y'know #i say this but the concept of parasite(anime) fucked me up #just the thought that i could sleep and SMTH could crawl into my ear-fucking disgusting oh god who thought of that no please #nothing you can do except die i guESS #good aesthetics there too tho #fleshy long bits with knives on the end are just a go-to-aesthetic for me i guess #i rly should go buy re4make tbh #like i already watched others play through it and enjoyed that #but i also saw some achievemtns which also made me wanna try my hand on this #which is a first #but expected tbh #resident evil #little me thought i could be whoever does autopsies bc A i cant smell B i am not easily grossed out at all and C if i studied just a bit #more and had the energy for it I could do smth smart but i dont wanna do smth like doctor smart so...dead ppl #this is just that but with extra steps and more corpses walking #to be fair-young me also thought i could go find a way to become immortal if i only managed to get cells to stop dying out #which seems really easy #but like...i am NOT a doctor so dear god do not quote my hubris here #'just stop dying'->younger me #so yes i would like all the funding and all the experimental fluids and.....things 👀 in the world to play god with thx <3 #it's been quite a week i am sure you can tell

[daz4i]

ik this may sound ooc of me. but don't actually use blood as lube ok? that's not gonna end well

#it's very hot in fics. logically very terrible in reality #worry not i am not speaking from experience on this one. fortunately i am smart enough to not even try that.

[moreclaypigeons]

"they should not make me do school" says the guy who is actively enrolling in college classes,

#sierra speaks #its not my faaault #it is #it literally i #weeping #its classes i like even but how am i supposed to have my personal life together and have hobbies and also have homework #i struggle w homework a lot not bc i am not smart enough to do it but because executive dysfunction is a bitch #its not even that i do things i like instead. i just do basically nothing #and then the other bits of my life get fucked up slowly and that builds up #im literally sisyphus #like wdym i finished this weeks homework but next week im gonna get more.

[bluebellhairpin]

Erwin would never love me.

#OUR PATHS WOULD NEVER CROSS. #IN ANY LIFE. #and that makes me really sad #bc live even if we did meet i dont think our personalities match enough to become a thing yk? #i mean yeah maybe im a bit pretty but im stupid. i am a big loser. and im kinda useless. erwin would go for someone smart at the very least #ive like never been smart my entire life #whose someone who'd treat me aweful. i need to find him. thats someone id deserve.

[fieldsofbone]

one of my advisors emotionally eviscerated me in my dissertation meeting this morning and made me cry in front of him and my school dad (my other advisor). i know that some people have the “you doubted me and i’m going to prove you wrong so you can eat your words” instinct when they receive criticism but instead i was cursed with the the “internalize it until i feel worthless and the last five years of my life in which i’ve been studying toward this goal i deserve but have had many undeserved obstacles to feel pointless” reflex

#my school dad was clearly upset with ben (my other advisor) and he asked ben to stay after in the zoom meeting after i left so i think he #told him he was being a dick so thank god i have one advisor who actually has feelings and is sensitive to me and gives a shit #but like i was literally asked today if i even want to continue in grad school because ben doesn’t think that i’m making progress fast #enough and he said it seems like i’m not really advancing and maybe i should just quit :) #even though he knows how hard i’ve worked for this and he recognizes how smart i am and he’s regularly told me i’m one of his best students #and he knows that i had a debilitating trauma happen to me after i was assaulted by a colleague 👍 #i asked him to join the meeting so that he could catch up on my project because he’s so hands off that he doesn’t KNOW WHAT I’M DOING!!!! #EVEN THOUGH IT’S HIS JOB!!!! #and i figured he’d make me feel a little demoralized cos he does that cos he can’t read social cues but he ambushed me

[topaztimes]

Hi this is a vent post! Continue scrolling if you'd rather not see that

#Giving time... #Still more time... #Wouldn't want to plague any previews #Maybe another filler. Just for some fun #Is this enough? #It certainly is now #Alright start: #I'm so bored. I am so incredibly; intrinsically; entirely bored. I have been taught the same thing for four years straight #'It's only four years!' that's literally a quarter of my lifetime right there. My formative years are being spent stressed and in a state / #/of constant self-loathing #I was watching a YT video and the phrase 'attention-starved STEM major' came up and I was like. Yea #What am I even working towards? The hope that my version of capitalist hell isn't as bad as everyone else's? I'm just so sick of not / #/having a stable future what with politics and normal working people becoming more and more oppressed #I don't want to work and that's not because I'm lazy. It's because my brain is recognising that there is no reward anymore #I used to have such a little spark in Yr7. I remember having things to say and wanting to share everything I've done #I still do that now; sure I do. I don't enjoy it though #I thought I liked drawing but I'm realising that all I really like is the attention. I COULD draw things I like drawing... but then I / #/ don't get attention which my mind then classifies as zero reward #I'm very tired of doing things for no credit; reward; or validation. This is becoming a theme #Then I wonder what I'm doing wrong. What part of the algorithm am I not hitting. Then I realise that I'm just not marketable in a way #God. I'm seriously breaking rn. It's not even only because of GCSEs #It's just a culmination of doing all these things to be told that I am unworthy of Having as a result. It doesn't matter if I'm smart; my / #/ parents still don't own their house and can't afford to pay for heating most days #Literally what am I doing this for #And then I realise that all of this is ALSO attention-seeking behaviour! I'm my own worst problem; I recognise exactly what's wrong with / #/ myself but the body wants what it wants. And what it wants is validation that I'm not going to get in this life #Hi guys! Maybe don't interact. That could fix me #Wean me off of needing virtual numbers just to feel something. Jesus #I can't even be happy with the things that I make for myself. Because I make nothing for myself anymore #It's just a whole sad existence of an expected 12hr+ of school every day until I get a job I guess. Then it's 12hr+ of job every day until

[ivettel]

does the reception of the fest and the increased flow of creative output make you feel like you would want to stay? does it make you rethink what you call your imminent exit? just sad thinking that we will lose someone with your passion and drive and dedication 😞

ahh well unfortunately it’s not really by choice 😔 i start law school in a couple weeks and i’m kinda piloting blind, yknow? in a whole new city studying material in my second language and i don’t really know anyone or have many connections in the field… so i’m rlly gonna try and dedicate myself to Being A Good Student and Networking and Being Normal, which means my time for Being A Seb Stan will probably diminish to almost nothing ): already even just with the move i haven’t been able to sit and work on creative projects and i’m so emo over it, it’s probably unhealthy..

idk, i know people have been able to manage a school-work-social balance and i may be good enough to do that at some point? but ugh atm this is the biggest opportunity of my life and i really don’t want to fuck it up by prioritizing things that aren’t as important ahhh 😭

#genius bar #i hate being a responsible adult wdym i cant be in my room all day doing fuckall :/ #head in hands this is tmi already but im so stressed out about frosh and orientation week like #will people even like me? am i smart enough am i good enough am i brave enough?? #the imposter syndrome is already so real idek how i got into this school all my peers are the best of the best and it’s like. Hnghgj hi #um. i make gifs on tumblr dot com. #and who am i without the pressure of being an active creator on social media! do i like that person! #my dad was like oh wow five courses that’s a lot. i didnt think it was that many but now i’m worried it really is #and on top of all this i’m taking on debt for the first time so it’s like AHH now i need to succeed so i can get a big person job and pay #all the ridiculous bills i need to pay because living in canada means getting ur soul sucked unsexily out of your wallet #worth it for the social benefits but also #[​lies on the floor face first]

[unnecessarilygrandiose]

imagine if while they're playing poker one of the other firefighters assumes they're a couple. haha, lol. lmao, even.

#haha #if i add enough laughter indicators no one can see me biting ny nails as i hope for even more fanfictiony moments!!! i am so smart #911 fox #buddie #no cause why does joaquin have that timer... ik it could just be a simple countdown but idk there were some suspicious tweets too #mmmmm i need a new episode like yesterday the clowning is taking over my thinking skills