#and every other goddamn thing

[lungthief]

listen. i know it's not 2014 anymore and i know it's just a throwaway line and that the russo brothers didnt intend for marvel action blockbuster captain america the winter soldier to become the tragic gay love story that never was but man. having steve say "it's kind of hard to find someone with shared life experience" in a conversation about romantic relationships right before the bucky reveal is so cruel. it's not just about steve and bucky obviously having the shared experience of being "out of time," it's the fact that they've both been stripped of their humanity in opposite directions. steve is a legend, he is an american hero and a national icon before he is a human being the same way that bucky is a weapon and a killing machine before he is a human being. steve knows that anyone who falls in love with him in the 21st century fell in love with captain america first, and that's just not him. but then the one person who knew him first and knew him best and loved him (not captain america, that little guy from brooklyn) so much he died for it is alive, impossibly. and it's a miracle because he's back and it's horrific because he's back under the worst possible circumstances. but to steve, the winter soldier is worth tearing the world apart for because he's always been bucky first. they find each other and suddenly they're human again. and maybe, despite it all, being "out of time" becomes a blessing, because in this century they'd finally be allowed to love each other the way they've always wanted to. like real people do.

like. no. the captain america trilogy isn't about two queer men traumatized and alienated by war and modern life rediscovering and reclaiming their humanity through their love for each other. but. i mean. it couldve been

#like you get why all the fics about those two are insane right. the narrative is just so goddamn compelling #and thats not even getting into the whole thing abt the serum curing steve of every ailment except his love for bucky #which makes him realize it was never an ailment to begin with (despite the commonly held beliefs about homosexuality in the 1940s) #and bucky being *electroshocked* again and again into forgetting steve #like howd you make your gay ass movie that gay and not realize it. its kinda impressive #sorry for the ridiculous stucky retrospective its 4am and i rewatched the winter soldier recently #its not that deep. its not its not its not . but if it was anything other than what it is it could have been. and thats the worst part #shut up riley #marvel #stucky

[unpretty]

i finally reinstalled stardew mods on my desktop because the thought of having unmodded obelisks was too distressing, but man. trying to find attractive reskin mods that don't just make things desaturated and vaguely victorian is a fucking trial. i know elle who made the cute animals cannot reasonably be expected to reskin every item in the game but it would be fucking nice.

#original #stardew valley #i installed one mod just for the lamps and then ended up turning off like every other item in the pack #because it looked too goddamn weird next to my vanilla stuff #i still want things to be cartoony and vibrant i just want them to be a little cuter #and made in such a way that they don't look like they're from a completely different game from vanilla items #so many mods require you to also install all their other mods to make it look like a totally different game I JUST WANT BETTER LAMPS

[goatsandgangsters]

favorite callbacks/foreshadowing payoff in A Power Unbound that made yell "oh goddammit" at my book

MY MOST SATISFYING "OH GODDAMMIT" MOMENT. FULL ON HAD ME PACING UP AND DOWN MY APARTMENT GOING "OH MY GOD THEY ACTUALLY DID IT, THE CRAZY SON OF A BITCH, THEY DID IT"

it wins #1 because this line always made me SO suspicious, but I also thought it was such a longshot. between the suspiciously specific phrasing of "blow up" and alan calling the lockroom easy to misuse in the same scene, my prediction was actually that the bad guys were going to do some fuckshit with the lockroom, because ART introduced us to the concept of "using hair to channel magic" and having a room full of everybody's hair seemed... uh, bad.

so I was just wrong enough to be delightfully shocked and just right enough to feel so satisfyingly smug. 10/10 felt terrific.

"adelaide tapping her ring" is SUCH a sneaky little detail. because she's tapping her ring all throughout a marvelleous light, and then sURPRISE it was the contract piece all along, beautiful bit of same-book foreshadowing, well done everyone go home

so when it showed up again in a power unbound, I was like "aw cute. I like that she's still got that little habit, even though it's not a Plot Relevant Foreshadowing Moment anymore, what a nice detail"

and then adelaide pseudo-flipped me off with her ring finger and went SURPRISE, GOT YOU TWICE, WHAT WAS THAT ABOUT MY PLOT RELEVANT RING?

this one didn't take me by surprise, but it's exactly what I love about reading a careful and deliberate writer.

this is in the same scene where we find out about jack's secretbind. so when I read it, I thought "okay well, we just found out he has A Mouth Thing. but he subconsciously touches his leg as well as his mouth, so probably he has A Leg Thing too." and then did a quick "probably from the war, right? seems most likely" and felt confident I knew that Jack had some kind of leg injury long before A Power Unbound even came out

and it's just SO FUN, because when you have a really good writer like this, you get the absolute joy as a reader of reading One Single Sentence and going "I see you, I know that means something." it's delightful, it's my favorite kind of puzzle, it's so rewarding

the way robin gets super uncomfortable with the penhallick crowd gossiping about what happened to jack and then changes the subject to magical people born into unmagical families who never discover their magic

the way jack and alan are linked together through this one worldbuilding-during-dinner conversation from two books ago. beautiful. profound.

and finally. my grand final of moments that made me go OH!! FUCK!!—

that's the first mention of jack by name, ever, at all, in the entire series.

that is the very first detail we ever learn about him.

AND THEN HE DID IT AGAIN, AFTER ALL THOSE YEARS OF NO MAGIC, AND I WAS SO PROUD, AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH, AND ALSO I HUCKED MY BOOK ACROSS MY BED.

HIS FIRST MENTION AND HIS FIRST ACT OF MAGIC AFTER OVER A DECADE, crying, crying forever, we have come full circle

#a power unbound #the last binding #the benefit of being a Jack Stan is that I........ may have reread every scene/mention of him in AML and ART like. a lot #a lot a lot. I had a long wait okay? #I had to savor every little crumb of detail #enough that these things were just emblazoned in my brain #and I was yelling oH!!!!!!! so goddamn much #and of course there's a milliondy other wonderful throwbacks because GOOD STORY STRUCTURE #but these are My Favorite and the ones that were the most satisfying to me personally

[friendly-neighborhood-furry]

decided to do a little "return to form" with some silly pixel art!! :3

i don't remember what possessed me to draw these two specifically hanging out but whatever, it was fun! i had fun!!!

alt version where he's rambling about the weird fucked up polycule situation he put himself in lol

#i'll talk about the “polycule” thing some other time cuz i have a lot of thoughts about the three of them #but for now that little triangle chart is good enough #every so often i go “aw i love doing pixel art its so satisfying why did i stop doing it?” #and then it smash cuts to eighteen and a half hours later and you see me staring at my computer screen with sunken bloodshot eyes #and the most insane case of shrimp posture ever exhibited by a human being #erasing and then replacing the same two goddamn pixels trying to figure out what the hell i'm doing wrong here for it to look so off #and then i zoom out to discover i've been tracing over the worst piece of shit sketch ever crafted by human hands #and so i set my PC on fire in shame and crawl back into my burrow #vowing never to do pixel art ever again #and then like 8 month pass and i go “aw i love doing pixel art its so satisfying why did i stop doing it?” and the cycle repeats itself #/hj #the amazing world of gumball #tawog #gumball watterson #tbh creature #autism creature #my art #gumball tawog #tawog gumball #gumball #tawog fanart #tawog fan art #fan art #pixel art #colored lineart #colored line art #yippee

[ratatattouille]

I miss when romances had pining and longing and uncertainty and friendship and nuance instead of instalove scenes with two scenes of characters staring across the room from each other in slow motion while dramatic music plays and then kissing maniacally and having sex in the next two seconds

I miss when characterization used to matter in how romances developed instead of making your characters make out as soon and passionately as possible so that a bunch of people could make gifsets of it

romance in stories today feels like how pop love songs are written nowadays, rehashed, impersonal, angsty, remixed, sweetened, surface, self-destructive, toxic, immature, brief, marketable and consumable

emotional manipulation that relies on overwhelm to make you feel something instead of sincerity. it is marked by falseness, thinking that’s what fantasy is, that’s what the escape is, when the true escape in any fantasy is silent, excruciating hope

#yea this is about Bridgerton #and buccaneers #and shadow and bone #and every show with any major romance plots or subplots nowadays #I hate the over sexualization of story #I hate the instant-love ness of it all #I hate how saccharine and mindless and performative it all feels #I don’t care about people staring into each other’s big wet blue eyes #the only man that pulled it off was Matthew macffayden #I don’t care about pretty boys that say pretty things #and I’m tired that all the gay characters are just there to shock and excite the audience rather than develop organically #GIVE ME A GODDAMN LOVE STORY #EMPHASIS ON LOVE AND STORY #the buccaneers #Bridgerton #pride and prejudice come back #pride and prejudice #gilded age #the gilded age

[hella1975]

my dramatic ass pacing circles in the kitchen like im never writing anything ever again bc nothing feels great anymore it just feels good and apparently i will not apply myself even to my most longterm and beloved passion if i can't feel prodigious at it. fym ur gonna stop trying altogether ur also gonna get ur period in the next few days but im sure there's no correlation

#trying to write and rereading it like the pacing is off the characterisation is stale the dialogue is blocky #and i can't get the concept down the way i want so im perpetually stuck in that 'on the tip of your tongue' feeling #and i cant read things to pass the time not even fics bc im too busy psychoanalysing every single sentence #trying to find some hidden thing that makes this writing better than mine how can this writer get it when i just cant what's wrong with me #and it's all so GODDAMN FRUSTRATING. but aside that im being really calm about it <3 #i can't remember the last time i wrote something and felt genuinely proud of it. i always get very intense long periods of writer's block #and i know i'll come out the other end bc i'll find a new obsession and write 20k words of my best work in one night #and feel like i snorted three lines off a toilet seat in berghain. but also What If This Time Im Just Broken #hi im a girl in my twenties who never learnt from my own behaviour!

[triflesandparsnips]

I feel it would be remiss of me to not remind everyone of that other show that only got two seasons, was canceled, was saved through deeply obnoxious fan effort, and then was canceled again anyway-- idk, maybe you've heard of it, something somethiStar Trek

#listen #I think the fact it worked the first time was a minor miracle #and I think EVERY time it has EVER worked has ALSO been a minor miracle #and I think there are other things in play here that would prevent the same sort of rescue happening again #but #know your fandom history #fandom's greatest talent is its ability to survive and flourish even in the most desolate environments #because we are the goddamn tardigrades of the human race #our flag means death #ofmd cancellation

[dimensionzero]

anyway every spider-man in the multiverse is alone except for miles. can anybody hear me

#every spiderman starts out thinking theyre the only one #every spiderman learns the lesson that theyre only one person and they cant save everyone #every spiderman grits their teeth and keeps going in face of tragedy #every spiderman learns about the multiverse and when they realize there are other people like them #they pass on their own trauma in a cycle --- this happened to me and it had to happen so that this good thing could also happen #which means that this terrible thing has to happen to you too #thats their universal truth: they cant save everyone alone so they need to maximize their influence to save as many as they can #but miles? miles morales is the spiderman who got bit already knowing who spiderman was #miles is the spiderman who had six different spider-mentors help him come into his own #miles is the only spiderman whose introductory monologue ends with 'and im not the only one' #miles is the one who looks at all these people whove decided they Have to suffer alone and says #'ok but what if i helped you' #'what if instead of taking the good with the bad we still got the good but stopped the bad anyway' #'sure i can't save everyone alone but the whole goddamn point of the multiverse is that im not the only one' #and thats why miles is our hero #across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse spoilers #(tiny amendment actually: miles is actually not the only spider who knows hes not alone right from the beginning #atsv also introduces us to pavitr --- a member of the spider society whos even more of a rookie than miles is #and huh whaddya know: the kid who knew from the start that he wasnt alone is the one whose traumatic 'canon event' is stopped #in a joint effort between him and his friends #yeah that probably isn't foreshadowing or anything)

[pinkmirth]

i will forever be in awe about how reiner could have two fugly, hateful bitch-ass parents and still turn out so gorgeous . . . karina ate that one thing!

#the fine specimen that he is . . . love him so goddamn much #but i HATE his father & mother with my whole chest #don’t wanna sound like a bitch but having reiner was the only thing that karina ever did right throughout her entire sorry fucking life #pretty sure she only gave birth to him out of spite too 😭 just wanted to get back at her babydaddy #AND have her child become a warrior just so they could pull her out the trenches #kinda surprised he still loves his mama lmao . . . like i’m pretty sure her manipulative tendencies show pretty easily #sorry just back on my anti-karina agenda. it happens every other month or so #୨୧ — mira yaps! #❥ — reiner! #reiner braun #❥ — rambles!

[animemusicbrackets]

FIGHTINHG FOR MY FUCKING LIFE. LITERALLY NONE OF THE CHILDREN RECORD MP3S ARE LOADING ONTO TUMBLR

#and its only like this song too none of the others so far are having issues #ive youtube to mp3ed literally every single children record video #and NONE of them work #i thought maybe it was a jin copyright thing but outer science works??? #tumblr just hates children record #its gonna be super fucking annoying but children record is just gonna have to be a video link #guys pls dont vote this one into the bracket its annoying me so mych that its like the only one i cant get audio for #<- JOKING. but goddamn

[neproxrezi]

trying to make generator VE-20B functional let alone useful is going to be the death of me

#okay so like. let me autism about this piece of my mech. gimme a moment. #there is a generator for the mech that gives you like absolute maximum Energy Firearm Spec #what this means is that it makes your energy based guns (sadly not melee) do great damage and charge up faster #however. it has pretty poor energy capacity #and you need good en capacity to USE energy weapons #because every weapon and piece of the mech. uses energy. #i'm desperately trying to make it usable with the KRSV (to my knowledge the most over the top insanely powerful energy weapon) #but what this is leading to #is a goddamn WILD GOOSE CHASE all over my mech desperately trying to optimise it within an inch of its life #all for this one thing #that i DON'T EVEN THINK WILL BE WORTH IT #compared to running like quad laser shotguns #but i've aaaalmost got it working #my big issue. my white whale. is i want FOUR energy weapons #which i thiiiink i can do... the other ones will suck but i THINK i can do it #dibi #armored core

[piosplayhouse]

Desperately printing out moshang pictures to show to mdzs and tgcf mains and shouting PLEASE LOOK AT MY BOYS! THEYRE A CANONICAL MAIN MXTX COUPLE TOO JUST LIKE HUALIAN WANGXIAN BINGQIU I SWEAR while they cross the street trying to avoid me

#genuinely so tragic that majority of mxtx fandom doesnt know thst (canon) moshang exists #theyre out there and theyre married and they took an absurdly long time to get together too!!!! #they even both have fucked up families and backstories and trust issues and trauma and and anf #god i just . im happy sv doesnt have the toxic popularity of the other fandoms but goddamn the lack of moshang in anything is so fucked #i think its just kinda sad bc i know people like ling wen fans and nhs fans would like sqh because hes a similar character and has much #more screentime but a lot of the time they dont even know he exists! and it's like this for a lot of things about sv too like yknow #quintessential wahh every gorl dies in mdzs sorry but sha hualing wasnt putting her entire hellish hole (opposite of heavenly pillar) into #homoerotically fighting liu mingyan and then being a huge bitch to everyone else for you to call mxtx misogynistic #but whatever my eye is pulsing for some reason do i have an ice pack on it and its hard and cold like mbjitties #svsss #scumbag self saving system #the scum villain's self saving system #moshang #shang qinghua #sqh #mobei jun #mbj

[blujayonthewing]

had the thought 'it might be interesting to also collect a cicada nymph before it can molt and keep it as a wet specimen' and then immediately the concept of a cicada quietly growing underground for thirteen years to finally, finally emerge into the world only to get killed and put in a jar before it ever has a chance to stretch its wings just because some idiot thought it'd be neat nearly made me cry

#'jay aren't you gonna eat them' yeah #it's different #the main reason I stopped collecting insects after DJ and I broke up is that I get Weird about it #it's a weird... like. so vulnerable species notwithstanding #one thing about bugs in an ecosystem is that they're highly abundant and-- on an individual basis-- disposable #they lay a zillion eggs because they're getting eaten (or just stepped on even) by every other goddamn thing alive #in general my sincere belief is that a hobbyist with an insect collection is literally fine #but on a PERSONAL level because I'm not A Scientist and I know my personal desire for an insect collection comes down to 'they're pretty'-- #feels weird. feels bad! feels like a bad reason to kill something even if killing that specific thing isn't measurably harmful to do #same way I feel about people killing spiders when I JUST SAID I would take care of it #like... okay there are a zillion other grass spiders where that came from but YOU are still a dickhead for doing that for no reason #ANYWAY. I'm making a collection exception for magicicadas because 1) okay @me come on there's gonna be a zillion. it's literally fine #and 2) this double emergence feels like such a genuinely big deal to me! first one in ~200 years and there won't be another for ~200 more!! #if I can collect scientifically viable specemins it feels like... there's a point to that #beyond 'I saw a butterfly so pretty I just HAD to kill it 🥰' you know?? #... this has all come a bit tangential to the post I guess lol but... just feels existentially cruel #lots of cicada nymphs are going to get stepped on or eaten before they can molt into adults and I know that but it still just.. makes me sa #they live SO LONG. they've waited SO LONG for this. aahhh... #about me #cicada journey

[cookinguptales]

okay I swear this is my last post but

The fact that Guillermo finally came out as gay to his family but didn’t tell them he had a boyfriend.

#RIP Freddie must suck to be Guillermo's dirty little secret #is this because he's still too shy to say anything about him?? #is it because it's doomed to failure??? #like he was happy telling them about every other goddamn secret he had in that moment #even the things they didn't ask about #wwdits #wwdits s4 spoilers

[everymadara]

Chapter 386

#naruto #madara #madara uchiha #uchiha madara #itachi flashback #put these two next to each other bc one's just his hand so. #Also since Obito told Sasuke that Izuna volunteered his eyes than we can definitely conclude here that Itachi's version of the events #is the perception of Madara that must've gone around the Uchiha clan in general #That OR Itachi is purposely misrepresenting this situation to suit his own needs #@ Madara hey how about giving us your side of things upfront so that we don't have to do detective work piecing together every version of #your story given to us by an outsider's viewpoint please and thank you #Making it so much harder for us for no goddamn reason

[lonepower]

this game is incredible actually

#the guy's delivery is a+ too you can just TELL they have this kind of conversation a lot #thief game #chi plays thief #idk why but i just woke up the other day and was like man. i wanna be garrett again. so here we are #i still haven't actually. uh. finished it. #i get to moira and just immediately pussy out every goddamn time #for a game that's so clearly copying dishonored wholesale it's... A LOT SCARIER than dishonored... #(<- absolute weenie baby about Things That Jump At You) #anyway.