#and finding that most of them dont like that version

[eddiebabygirldiaz]

no one told me how isolating unmasking would be

#and its certainly...something #like i dont regret it #i dont wanna masking to be my default and i dont wanna be in pain or uncomfortable anymore #but realizing that the ppl in my life have never been exposed to the real unmasked version of me #and finding that most of them dont like that version #well its kinda heartbreaking #and dont get me wrong i do love my alone time #but im also so terribly lonely at the same time #and dont know hoe to fix it bc for most ppl relationships depending on the going out aspect #and lots of that stuff is painful for me and im trying to not force myself to do #so im just left on my own #just wasnt ready for how terrible this would be even tho its also great #autism #ry rambles #probably will delete later

[spacedlexi]

speaking of fucked up overly hated female twdg characters i find it Super Interesting how people will say carver was the best villain in the whole series, but when lilly is literally just a successful carver (iron fist leader of a community turning children into soldiers) suddenly shes a bad/lame villain for some reason 🤔

#twdg #hmm im sure this has nothing to do with the fact shes a woman (a woman that a lot of people hated since S1) #AND they gave her a giant boat? thats funny #LIKE if they did originally plan to have kenny be carver in S2 she is LITERALLY JUST THAT IDEA but the woman version of it #also i find it interesting that her speech about larry and the lights is reminiscent of that first convo between shane and rick in the show #i happened to like S1 lilly for the most part and felt her evolution in S4 made perfect sense #she hated being questioned. wanted total authority. ex military and so used to dealing with military types. family/loyalty important to her #which is why her and clem meeting again and clashing heads is so narratively interesting #is this person your family? can you bring them to your side? are they even the same person? when do you let go? #so many themes in S4 mmm yummy #a theme vi/minnie share too #and mitch brings up the sentiment while burning ms martin #but yeah im in the 'lilly was actually the best villain in the whole series' camp i wonder whos in here with me. is it quiet in here #it wouldve been nice to see more of the delta... unfortunately if things needed to be cut its understandable why it was #you dont NEED to know more about the delta than whats been told #but i would like to 😔 #like could we have been given more fleshing out of her character? sure. do we actually NEED it? no #it speaks

[gibbearish]

btw its interesting the way james tries to imply that like. well the videos that have plagiarism are the ones our dumb stupid annoying patrons requested about bad topics that didnt deserve to have the effort put in to covering them well so basically its fine. like obv thats interesting on its own but moreso the fact that he doesnt actually /say/ it, or like. give a list of the videos hes referring to, just says "those videos are very clear on which ones they were" i think as a nod meaning like "yknow the ones everyones talking about". unless what hes meaning is that like they put a note in certain videos saying "this video was requested by a patron, we here at james somertom incorporated do not espouse these views" which seems unlikely to me. idk methinks maybe it's because there is indeed a lot more than people think and with all the buzz he's not sure which ones have been discovered yet or not, so putting down a solid list that missed some would look like he was still hiding things whereas putting down a fully sourced list would be admitting to wayyyy more than anyone's found yet

#which is ironic too bc if he genuinely did want to prove he understood what he did wrong and that hed changed thatd be the way to do it #yknow like a full list of every single source including ones no one has found on their own or /can/ find anymore would a) be taking full #responsibility and b) make people less likely to always be like 'youre still hiding something' #which in turn makes me super think hes still hiding a lot of somethings #also cant go without stating that the 'request a video topic' thing was only for $100/month patrons after 3 months on that tier #like fucker these people gave you THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS AT LEAST and youre trying to blame it on them?????? #no one forced you to make 'let patrons pick video topics' a reward dude like. hello???????? #shit dude even hbombs highest tier ($10 for anyone wondering bc he doesnt see his audience as a money machine lmao) #just says you can vote in polls about future topics #like that makes complete sense to me as a version of this‚ the most dedicated audience members get a say in the future of the #channel while the creator still gets overall control of the direction #also 'patrons who gave me fuckloads of money asked me to make videos on topics i didnt like so i plagiarized those' is i think uhhh #worse than just 'i plagiarize everything without remorse' frankly? #like at least with the second youre just a general shitbag but the first where youre a shitbag specifically to the people #majorly financially supporting you rather than just like. be an adult and say 'hm i dont feel like that topic really works for the channel‚ #do you have any other ideas?' #or dare i say even perhaps yknow. doing what other youtubers do in similar situations and find ways to tie that subject #to what they usually talk about is just. wild #course that last one would take actual creativity and aint that just the crux of the issue #james somerton #or i say cannot go without stating i should say cannot go without restating kwnrkabdkwbrn

[toastsnaffler]

ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.

#just got home and went to put my shit away but my flatmate was in the kitchen and i got suddenly so mad i had to walk back out #not going to do or say anything while im this upset. i need to be a lot calmer before i can even be in the same room as her #like okay. so originally it was just the two of them getting drinks and theyd rather it was just them bc i dont drink. thats cool #it wouldve been difficult for me to join them after work bc travel. and ik theyd done this before just the 2 of them and had fun #i can fully respect that its why i said no and stuck by that decision when she asked again #but to not mention she was taking the day off work and btw i just found out that BOTH of our other old flatmates joined in too #to not mention that they were travelling that entire distance and that it wasnt just drinks it was a whole day out together #thats just mean. why wouldnt you tell me that why did none of them say anything. #and the fact they did the exact same fucking thing last weekend too i didnt know about that at all #like i need to stop trying to justify it. im allowed to feel unwanted and excluded bc thats exactly what theyre doing. #im tired of feeling like other people dont want me around. i know i can be difficult and annoying sometimes. but im really not that bad #and we're meant to be friends!!!!!! like youre supposed to like your friends. and want to spend time with them. or at least i do #and yeah everyones annoying sometimes thats just part of being alive ur supposed to tolerate it if ur friends #im allowed to want to feel like im wanted. im allowed to want ppl to care abt me. that shouldnt be too much to ask for #but the overwhelming message im getting at the moment is they dont want me around. and when i am around them i feel like they dont listen #to me and that they dont really care how i feel unless it directly involves them or theyre responsible for it #i feel like they dont see me as a real person that exists. only a version they have in their heads and they base all their assumptions and #decisions off that version instead of directly communicating with me. and constantly avoid me under the guise of 'giving me space' #when im upset or having a difficult time and most need support from other people. i just feel really unseen #and ik that part of how i feel IS exacerbated by insecurity and depression. like they do care to some degree #but also a lot of it is evidenced in the way they act towards me. mainly my roommate bc shes the person i interact with most #and personally i find the most direct ways of showing u care abt someone are showing up for them. and making them feel seen #and maybe not everyone feels the same way. but thats how it works for me anyway #so to repeatedly exclude me and avoid acknowledging that ive been having a difficult time is the opposite of that to me #which is the point im trying to arrive at... sorry ik ive probably said similar things repeatedly the last few weeks but i feel like its #crystallising a bit like this is the core reason why im so sensitive and reactive atm and why i got so upset by it #idk. not tonight bc im still very emotionally raw but maybe tomorrow if im calmer i should explain that i was upset + why to her #i avoid doing that so often when im upset bc i dont think theres much point in having a conversation abt it unless u expect some kind of #resolution from it. or if you want an apology but idrc abt being apologised to the crucial thing is what theyre going to do different #and i love her but shes very resistant to changing her behaviour bc of other ppl being upset by it. and like i said before she has

[moonsidesong]

the abandoned ship theme from pokemon ruby/sapphire/emerald is such a special theme to me... something about it just exudes nostalgia. i love it so very dearly

#when i was a little kid playing emerald for the first time #i have a really vivid memory of running around the place trying to find all its secrets for hours #i dont think i ever found all of them. lol #im a kid born in the age of the internet... i couldve looked it up at any time. i probably had the old family ipad like 10 feet from me tbh #but i didnt want to! i wanted to find all of it myself #something about the place just felt so alive to me. #a mystery for little baby bri to solve about the things that have been buried by time #i think the oras remasters of the song (both for sea mauville and southern island) are very nice. but. #i just dont think they could ever recapture that feeling the original evokes in me #you know that faithful remaster project for mother 3? where they try to remake the soundtrack using the most updated versions #of the same soundfont? #i would love one of those for rse... oras is nice but it just. idk something about the pure orchestra makes it lose something for me #bri talks

[dq1]

thinking again

#feel like i have become too complacent with watering myself down into an easily digestible identify for society #partially bc of my career is very conservative.. so #no piercings or tattoos. cut my long hair off to a mens hairstyle. i pass exclusively as a cis straight man as much as i can #especially around the old head bosses i meat #stopped learning japanese even though im mixed so i could learn French because its more useful where i live #i dont want to be useful and i dont want to be seen as some creature mimicking human anatomy like a robot i just want 2 be myself #but ive been doing this so long idk who myself would even be anymore #sometimes i get into old interests i had as a kid and i feel that spark like that 12 yr old didnt die on the inside but then its gone again #i wish a version of myself thats not palatable to my peers could exist #i want to relearn japanese and i want to ride motorcycles and i want to get into certain types of music or clothes #but it also feels like none of it really matters anymore at the same time #if i could be anything i would be a funeral director in nagoya but thats something that can never happen #i shove everything i like down so deep you have to reach to find it #this whole blog is an amalgamation of who i was and who i wished i could be #but being human we r just cursed with bodies that dont feel like our own and having to cut and shape them in a way #that u feel better but not enough so that the people around you are frightened #this is mostly the fact i have avoidant personality disorder and i know i can never be what normal is for most people #i want 2 be myself but myself died somewhere in a past life i think #i am not even human on the inside. half the time i joke w people that im an rpg slime or the human version of those sponge slimes #hence my nickname irl literally being gelo / jello / jelly #and if not that then black German shepherd dogs r also literally just me #but alas i am stuck in a human body #one thats too fat too hairy too sick too broken and i have to deal with it and rebuild myself everyday so people aren't uncomfortable #ANYWAY!!! maybe ill add onto this later ...idk. #to be born again.. sighs.

[godsfavoritescientist]

you’ll always be my favorite ghost - Big God, by Florence + The Machine

[Image description: Lineless digital painting of Ford kneeling in front of the stone statue of Bill, hugging it and crying. He is in the woods, surrounded by birch trees, with beams yellow light streaming down from the treetops. The grass around Ford is shaded to be reminiscent of the shape of the portal.]

#original art #billford #god I havent drawn in ages let alone lineless art #i dont know how to draw tears or anatomy at All #I looked up 'man hugging dog' to find a good hugging-while-kneeling reference image. #sometimes you gotta say fuck it and draw the thing before the idea of it eats you alive #i'm writing a fic about ford confronting the statue. the feelings are just so Complicated #he is so angry and relieved and exhausted. #angry at everything bill did. angry that hes gone forever. angry at himself for spending any energy on thinking about bill #most of all angry at himself for missing bill. he doesnt even Miss Bill #he just misses the version of bill that he thought he knew pre-betrayal. but that doesnt make the complicated feelings any less real #i imagine he would avoid the statue for a long long time and then one day accidentally walk past it #and feel a ton of repressed feelings bubbling to the surface #and he would want to kick the statue or run away or yell at it but all of those feel so silly to do to a statue. basically a gravestone #so he ends up hugging it and feeling like an idiot for hugging it but he just has to sob for a little while #sometimes you gotta cling to the tombstone of your horrible toxic ex and sob about how much you miss them #and sob about how bitter and angry and lost and Tired you feel. there will Never be any Resolution. he's just. Gone Forever #i can picture him laughing through the sobs and muttering 'we'll meet again huh. as if.' #'i never want to see you again you asshole. and having the chance to meet again would be too good to be true.' #he's just So Heartbroken about it all. and he wishes he could get some kind of closure or something. but there IS none. #even if bill came back what would he say? nothing new. He would keep feeling no remorse about any of it. he would keep being horrible. #ford is kinda mourning the final tiny little irrational ray of hope in him that got crushed when bill died. #the irrational hope that maybe bill Could end up regretting what he did and become better and then he could have his best friend back. #the irrational hope that the betrayal was all just a bad dream and any second now he will wake up and bill will be benevolent and good #none of these feelings are things that ford can admit to himself. not even all these decades later. #but it Does Something To You to see your ex-closest-friend's tombstone!! #regardless of how deep and terrible the betrayal was. #ford so badly wishes he could stop having any kind of feelings about bill anymore. especially the lingering remains of fond feelings #but i dont know if those feelings even Can be completely gotten rid of. hes stuck with the knowledge that he feels upset about bills death. #and he hates it. he hates feeling upset about the death of an evil dream demon who tried to destroy his family and his dimension.

[bravevolunteer]

STOP shipping movie mike and fucking ness m.atpat cameo open your god damn EYES there is a character named jeremiah right there who mike actually has A Scene with and specifies in the novelization that he likes talking to him contrary to most people

#COWARDS ALL OF YOU IN THE TAGS #fnaf fandom is like no i have GOT to find a ship where i can hit both of them with the white twinkify ray #sorry i just saw a post that was like 'need [mike and ness ship name] to meet game j.eremike' and sat there in complete disbelief #how do you. okay #why do you only ship the game version huh. bc they dont have canon appearances and you can white twinkify them?? 🤨 #i feel INSANE #honestly i'd probably be amused by it if it weren't for the disproportionate amount of content when the game version is his most POPULAR #ship by far #anyway. need to crack open my drafts LDKFJHBDFK #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[arolesbianism]

Who wants to talk me down from making an oc inspired by the ringside reporter from rhythm heaven cause I sure am one hair away from staying up too late doing just that

#rat rambles #^ guy who has been desperately trying to find uploads of every minigame in japanese but has been struggling like hell #japanese ringside reporter is the only character that matters #also the english marchers dub sucks SO bad I love that game but maybe it wasnt worth bringing back /j #english see saw can stay tho I like them more than the original #also for the record the english reporter is techically just fine I just love the og sm that its all I can listen to lol #tbh I kinda wanna make a bunch of rhythm heaven inspired designs but I dont have enough clear ideas to commit #except for the reporter. Im gonna turn that guy into a fucked up cat #but the tall tappers are another one I wanna make a design based on along with that farmer dude from the second game #oh and the kick guy #and the original japanese isy favorite version for that minigame too btw by a landslide #I tend to preffer the original japanese for most minigames but its generally not by a whole lot unless its marchers or smth #ok rhythm heaven posting done back to sobbing over how close yet so far away I am from remix 10 in fever #I would also play ds but I have no money and am not gonna try playing it emulated(<- already tried (<-suffered))

[scattered-winter]

"WFA is a great way for new fans to jump into comics by introducing characters in a simpler, easier to swallow setting, thus giving new fans a starting point for the real stories" and "WFA has caused permanent damage in the dc fandom by solidifying the fanon version of the batfam characters and dynamics into the collective fandom view" are statements that can coexist tbh

#like. idk if i phrased this right but. wfa made it easier for ME to get into comics because it gave me a list of characters #and i was able to choose the ones i thought were most compelling and read more about them. and then keep finding more characters #and reading about them. and so on. #but at the same time i feel like. wfa is very Fanonized and so for the subcategory of batfam fans who havent even read comics #all it did was solidify their interpretations of the characters even more. because we know THEYRE not gonna use wfa as a tool #to get to the real stuff. because they have no intention of reading the real stuff. #and im hesitant to draw a dinstinction between wfa and comics as ''real stuff'' vs ''not real stuff'' #because there's no right way to consume content etc etc etc #but just. wfa is practically fanfic because its the sandpapered watered down versions of everyone. #and if its your only resource on the source material then you dont REALLY know the characters at all. #and im not trying to gatekeep or anything. its just. wfa = fanfic in my brain. its hardly even ''source material'' at this point #winter speaks #this is really rambly and aimless but i just woke up like. 10 minutes ago. so im gonna write it off as sleepytired brain #dc #wayne family adventures #comics

[s1renidae]

always fun hanging out with my much cooler and more interesting childhood friends and hearing about all the shit they're up to and then they ask me what's going on in my life and i have to be like uh. nothing tee hee :) still unemployed and not in school and practically hobbyless because of chronic fatigue and executive dysfunction :) still obtrusively mentally ill and for some reason cant stop talking about it even when i don't want to and i can tell youre sick of hearing about it :) and then it's awkward for a minute cuz neither of us know what to say mmmmm literally someone just shoot me already

#note i use the term “childhood friends” loosely bcuz theyre my friends from middle school when i was like 13/14/15 #but i dont have any actual childhood friends bcuz no one from my actual childhood likes me. so :P #and like the thing is im being harsh on myself i know that!!! i draw and go to concerts and do volunteer work and rock climb sometimes #but the thing is i never think to say any of that one because they take up a very small amount of my time most of my days r just wasted awa #and two because they always ask after theyve talked about their lives which are. objectively way cooler or at least more successful #and then all i can think about how is how much i wish i was more like them </3 which has been true since we first met #so i guess i should be used to it but I'm not. it still hurts it hurts so bad #and the worst part is they both mean so so much to me even if we dont talk much and i know for a fact i don't mean the same to them #bcuz theyre the type of people who can. go places and do things and talk to people!!!! so theyve always had more options then me #but i always made friends so rarely and so fleetingly that im still holding onto those memories and onto them for dear life #idk long rant i wish i had more energy i wish i didnt struggle so much to make friends and find community i wish i had more to offer #i wish a lot of things that can just never happen #and i know its not fair to drag them into my self loathing like that and i know i can't hate myself into a version of myself i can love #but fuck man its so hard. why is everything so hard #.txt

[postgameroutesix]

if anything needed to confirm it more for me that i wont be touching this new “velma” show w a ten foot pole ive learned what their interpretations of fred + daphne are. i need people who havent watched a single episode of scooby doo beyond the first three episodes from the first series when they were kids to simply not make shit about it

#like i decided i was gonna steer clear upon finding out while its r rated the gang are fucking. 16 years old??? #+ scooby isnt in it because hes “what made scooby doo a kids show” like no??? if u take scooby out of scooby doo its still. a kids show #+ u can easily adapt him to be a service dog for shaggy like so many ppl do….. #sucks that the most diverse version of the gang we've got is smth that shouldve used original characters #baffled as to why they didnt give shaggy locs though #★: textbox #wrt my first tag regardless ​i just fucking hate ppl who feel the need to make stuff for kids r rated but esp when they dont at the bare #minimum age up the teenage characters??? instead make them younger??? and habe one of rhe first promo images show one of them naked??? #what if u simply didnt. die

[anotherpapercut]

It’s literally amazing that you almost never practice what you preach. Like I only know of you through people but you’re just..a complete hypocrite lmao.

so I turned off anon fucking foreeever ago when I was getting rape threats and now when people want to send me anonymous messages they have to go through the trouble of making a whole ass new blog or, if they've already been blocked, a whole ass account. when it's that, which I think it often is based on the similarity of the messages, I always wonder, did these people use a 2nd email that they have for such occasions? or did they have to make a new email as well? because akdnksnejdb that would be like extra pathetic

either way it's just literally impossible to be bothered by anything y'all say when you're like so obsessed with me (or just the idea of me as a person for you to blame whatever you want on) that you took the time out of your one and only life on earth to do this instead of idk spending time with someone you love? just cause..... idk you're clearly scared of something lol. it's just so funny but also sad? uhhhhh please get help lmfao

#also i love this message because calling someone a hypocrite is like calling them pretentious #everyone is a hypocrite like pretty often and everyone is pretenious sometimes lol #and I'm literally 23 and autistic and still very much learning the right way to interact with people so like.... yeah lol im a hypocrite? #you got me‚ i display common flaws the most people display at various points in their lifetime‚ especially when theyre young and learning! #im so hurt! #my absolute fav part of this message tho 'i only know of you from people' LMFAOOOOOOO #imagine making a new blog to send a hate message on TUMBLR to someone youve only HEARD OF through people JSHDHDBSJSJRJSBBSJDH #and the use of the word know here is interesting because like do you mean you have friends who find my blog annoying #and think i suck and theyve told you about it #because thats not knowing me at all in anyway thats not even knowing of me lmao thats hearing about a version of me second hand lmfao #or do you know people who know me irl who dont like me because they also likely dont actually know me as a person #bc they cant get past my various real flaws (which is cool! maybe i cant get past theirs either lol. sometimes you just dont like people) #so i also dont care about their opinion or yours lol #im fully aware of the mistakes i make #its called being a young adult and trying to work on becoming a generally kinder and better person :/ #and actually it goes past young adulthood :/ #im guessing youre like 14 so im gonna let you know now that you grow up for your entire life until you die #you dont stop growing up at 18 #well you can lmao but thats how Ben Shapiro and Joe Rogan happened lmfaoooo #so uhhh for the worlds sake and ur own please dont stop lol #anyway orion out ✌️

[eruhamster]

not to be annoying but i do think a lot of people mischaracterize falin. shes got the most drastic canon v fanon thing going on. which i guess makes sense bc 1. we dont see much of her and 2. lot of the fan stuff are anime-onlies that have seen even less

but i think like a good 90% of the time i see falin-centric art or posts im like hrm hrm hrm thats all wrong no nope no-siree

she's just a cool chick that takes life as it comes, doesn't hold grudges even against a mother that apparently was trying to beat the magic outta her, finds her older brother the coolest person in the world, and has autism about observing life (and death, she loves the ghosts she has a connection to) and nature and taking care of things (including taking care of her brother, which is why she's even in the dungeons; she saw her scrawny mess of a brother and decided she had to fix that).

and i think my favorite part that people don't talk about is... she would have done the same for marcille or laios if it were one of them that was eaten. you could see it in her eyes:

it's what shuro misunderstands about her. it's easy to see her feminine, cute, good girl pieces and forget the rest of her. but she loves things to an ends-of-the-earth extent; the kind of caring that makes you a little insane. and that's how I think she and laios end up on the same page with their weirdness. they have different interests, but they are the same level of committed to those interests.

it's easy to love her, because she probably loves you just as much, if not more.

EDIT: for the love of god stop reblogging this only to add some comment or tag or reply saying 'op you forgot [BLATANTLY FANON INTERPRETATION]'. falin as we know her is not a pushover/people pleaser/infantilized, see this version of my post. also stuff like 'female shuro was in love with laios in the genderbent comic' and 'falin was going to marry shuro because she felt bad' are just things you made up in your head

#idk i love her #dont take this as insulting i like when people do anything with her i just wanna vomit my feelings #dungeon meshi #another example of this is how she takes the dragon with her when she's resurrected #it isn't like her to leave that little thing behind #wriggling helplessly in the grass #she picked that little thing up and took it with her without a second thought

[be-good-to-bugs]

i love firealpaca but the color picker is SUCH a pain. how hard is it to have value adjuster things??

#the bin #idk 9fnim just not finding the option to show the value editors but i think it just doenst have them #its so much easier to make colors that look good together with those #all the fuckin tutorials u see ppl make abt how to puck colorsnthat look good together talk abt looking at the numbers or where they are on #the 2 bars and stuff. but firealoaca doesnt have those so its a huge pain. i really like the program but its SO fucking annoying #color is something i desperately wanna be batter with and firealpaca just sucks for it. it has the square and the wheel or bar but none of #the sliders to adjust only the hue or the saturation or anything. i NEED those. even fuckin ibis has those #its still a good program. it runs so smoothly and its most features id need and good brushes and the autosave works like. unbelievably well #ive never lost an image. even on my 2 prev laptops which were super bad. but man. why does the color thing gotta lack such important #basic things as that. there is a filter thing you can use to do it kinda but its super annoying. #i dont wanna have to open a separate program just to pick colors. esp cause i javent been able to find anything exclusively for that #theres apps but my ohone screen ofc look different to my laptop so it doesnt help. #i tried switching to krita bc of this but i didnt like it. ill have to try some other ones out. i hope that maybe one day theyll update it #and add it cause i dont wanna switch. #my sister uses csp and she says its nice. tahts like a one time purcase i think so i could maybe try it out. its got a demo i think #i also need to find a good 2d animation program. ive only found 1 for free that let you put audio in and i didnt like it so ill need to keep #looking. i pirated a mn old version of adobe animate like 5 years ago and i remember really liking how it worked so maybe ill try that #i like firealpacas animation feature. ut works pretty well for a program that isnt really made for animation and i already know the program #so its worth the kinda annoying bits. but i need something i can put audio into #i miss making art more. i feel sad that i dont much anymore. i get bored really quick or my body starts to hurt and i have to stop now

[iidsch]

when it comes to linguistics being european and especially a romance language speaker sucks because you live your whole life thinking that languages in a continent are all related and that they all come from a dead language, when in reality this doesn't happen anywhere else except in europe

#m #languages #im exaggerating of course #but imagine my shock when i found out that chinese japanese and korean aren't part of the same family like spanish italian and french are #and now im trying to find yoruba's ancestor when apparently this language simply has existed forever and has no predecesor #like im now coming to the realization that other languages dont have a 'latin' and that most of them just have a proto version of it #i mean obviously im simplyfying a lot and this is far more complex but damn if this isn't destroying a bunch of preconceptions i had