#and identify one of their bodies one day

[angesaurus]

Nothing to say that hasn’t already been said.

Just want to remind everyone to be able to make the choice to home school and/or make plans to move to another country is privilege. That’s all.

#so sick of the narrative that parents don’t care if they send their kids to school #I fucking care #I watch my husband and my son go to school every single day and wonder if this is the last time I’ll see them or if I’ll have to go #and identify one of their bodies one day #or that a shooter could come to the middle school that is next door to daycare #once again as a working mother I have to live with the burden that my kids are going to school today #do I want to quit and have the luxury of keeping them home? #sure #but it’s not that easy #and many parents do NOT have a choice #it’s like freaking virtual learning all over again!!!!! #so tired of the divide #how about instead we stop voting for clowns #and vote for people who will actually make a difference and help our kids and country #but sure drag queens are the problem

[shinybulbasaur]

everyone look at my new boy in progress

nyacholas

#hes the same size as teru vash too..... they are friends #hoping to finish his body over the next few days! #and then. possibly make a second one because ive already identified so many areas for improvement in the pattern lmao

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb

[shamelessorange3]

Gaza (a city in Palestine, aka the Gaza strip) sent a letter to Barcelona (city in spain). These cities are twin cities and have been on very close terms.

The letter the Gaza government has sent is one saying a final goodbye. And you need to read it and reblog this as many times as you need to, because this is life or death for millions of people, and millions of children.

This is an exert from what has been made public from the letter.

Please keep in mind that translations between two languages may not be completely perfect.

"We don't know if we'll be able to keep in contact from now on, so please, tell the following generations about us, if we don't exist anymore, about how beautiful and charming the Palestinian people were and how committed they were to their land in cause" .... "It's been a pleasure working with you these last few years. May God let us rest in peace."

Tldr; Gaza has told Barcelona to remember them, and to not let their people be lost to history, and that there is a very real chance that this letter is the last one that they may ever send.

#free palestine #palestine #palestinians #pray for palestine #free gaza #gaza strip #gaza #save gaza #save palestine #this “war” is not a war #its a genocide #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #fuck israel #fuck their fucking propaganda fuck their western backing fuck the colonizers fuck this whole situation fuck everything #children SHOULD NEVER have to write their names on their palms so their dead bodies can be identified #iseal just warned their citizens about a 72 hour blackout #their going to slaughter Palestinians in a fucking blackout #THESE ARE REAL FUCKING PEOPLE THEY ARE HUMAN THEY DO NOT DESERVE TO DIE LIKE THIS NO ONE DESERVES TO DIE LIKE THIS WHAT THE FUCK #300 children in 3 days #they've been killed #and regular people cant do shit about it cause we dont have any fucking money

[kineticallyanywhere]

Monkey’s Paw pages 80-85 ( START HERE || ao3 || previous || next )

AU after episode 62. The Omega Dads try a more desperate gambit, but careful what you wish for. Our dads find alternate versions of themselves in a strange dreamscape. Do you trust yourself?

Hen’s secret weakness is that he doesn’t know not to step on a Lego.

#monkeys paw #dndads #can you tell i didnt like hens first outfit #also hed been running around in his pjs #also can you tell that I needed to make sure henry had a backup color/identifier accessory #drawing bb lark and sparrow slaughtering me #anyway whos ready for esoteric eldritch exposition #ME ITS ME I AM IM READY #i wrote the upcoming conversation before s2 started and it has basically not changed #and thats not even stubbornness on my part theres just nothing in s2 so far to make me change it #also im 85 pages in now its too late IM ALL IN NOW #my characterization of henry not knowing how to talk about this is because #HE TALKS ABOUT IT O N E TIME WHEN F O R C E D #PHYSICALLY FORCED #BY THE THING ITSELF #we may have Darryl We'll-Talk-About-This-Later Wilson #but we also have Henry We'll-Talk-About-This-Over-My-Dead-Body Oak #Henry be like 'ill bottle all these up where the people i love cant see it #and then one day ill die' #WELL GUESS WHAT TREE MAN TIMES UP

[gloomythedance]

God doesn't look at what's on the outside anyway

#jokes aside i am doing better now #i spent two days deconstructing exactly where all of the self hatred came from #and i mean yeah a lot of it had to do with people being incredibly mean and weird my whole life #being told there was something wrong with me or wanting me to take hormone medication #and the 2-ish years i got underweight and everyone kept saying i was a boy or tr4ns #saying i needed to identify as xyz thing because i looked a certain way. or trying to force identities on me. #people at a new church would be kind of weird around me... and i wasnt even in like full gothic attire. just a black shirt/jeans #every week i was asked if i was saved #i didnt understand why: if i was supposed to be a girl- why didnt i look like one? why wasn't i allowed to be one. #but the role the internet played was not a small one #it's absolutely messed up how much idolatry people have for physical bodies. how much value is placed on it. #treating someone like a lesser human for not looking like a stereotype #bullying CHARACTERS who LOOK LIKE YOU #absolute trash #why couldnt i just be me #ive always hated changing the way i looked for others and i still refuse to #i remarked the other day that i missed the time when i thought my androgyny was beautiful #and unique and i was carefree about it #i missed when i looked down upon appearance and thought it was worthless #then i had a *wait a second* moment #and suddenly everything else was a lie

[the-yearning-astronaut]

How do you go about picking a new name for yourself? I've never really felt one way or another about my given name.... I just don't feel connected to it much is all. I don't hate it though, either. Like the rest of me it's just kinda There.

I'm thinking short, still. And definitely more gender neutral? Just don't know what.

I don't plan on changing my name -- not officially. I'm just getting ready to apply for graduate school in Sept and was contemplating adding a 'preferred' name to my applications. All the schools are out of state so I'd be getting a completely fresh start. What better way to test out a new name?

#names #new name #preferred name #chosen name #gender #gender identity #realized ive been having a bit of a gender crisis for the last while #and idk how to fix it #so i wanna try a new name #and im chopping my hair off on Wednesday #i have a real hard time when it comes to picking what to wear each day #i realized i don't have any short sleeved button ups or whatever... may have to hit up ross or tj maxx next week after payday #ive been trying to identify a clothing style i like other than oversized sweater/sweatshirt and joggers/leggings #and i find it's all over the place #i don't think its my clothes themselves im struggling with its my body #i keep rapidly gaining and losing weight due to my changes in meds and its really messing with my perception of myself #because one minute my clothes fit & the next they really really dont & they're either too snug or sliding off & just. nothing fills right #my name my pronouns my clothes my SKIN #people joke about feeling misplaced and alien or whatever but gdi everything feels so wrong 😭 #fox thoughts

[zoekrystall]

Finished ghost trick have scrambled kinda tired thoughts

Def smth to start the game in the evening and finishing just short after 6am. Yes one sitting baby. Very often irl time lined up w where I was in the game. For better or for worse. Oh how I wish I could eat like lynne. I still prefer the og soundtrack but the new one isn't bad either. Appreciate games that let you switch between both. Bonus content my beloved I always eat bonus illustrations up esp concept art I really wish more games had this nowadays (next to art books maybe since not everyone can get them). I think in the past bonus content was more the norm but it seemed to get lost. Alas could be wrong I don't look at a lot of games I'm somewhat in my own bubble and I'm fine w that. Oh the ghost puzzles are slide ones I'm out I suck at those so bad they made me go from 0 to 100 when I played all layton games to the point I just immediately pulled a guide up. Someone get me when guides exist (wouldn't be suprised if they already do). Anyhow omg did I forget how much I adore every single char. Absolutely over my head but maybe I will make a board for all. At the very least all more major chars. Everyone has such good designs. Design wise cabanela ily but I think aside from like lynne, yomiel and missile is detective jowd my fav I always forget how sympathetic he is for me. Not enough to consider a comfort char but he does have a comforting presence. First time playing did I get deeper and deeper emotionally into other stuff so his whole oh I'm guilty I can't be forgiven I deserve execution talk for the first part was a tad ah oof yikes not a emotion mirror fan but now esp after already knowing the story was it just. Shaking You Snap Out. Also oh remembering my first reactions to things was funny. I think my feelings towards cabanela were such a rollercoaster. Also yomiel oh yomiel I am so glad death got avoided and a normal life was possible but I wish we also saw a bit of his new life and idk maybe it's just me but I find it sad how sissel wasn't his cat anymore. Oh how the story took me for a ride the first time but also oh how nice it is to replay smth and seeing the foreshadowing knowing the truth n all. One thing I completely forgot is how when the meteorite got avoided n then the bullet yomiel just gets pierced and hnnnnnn nnnnnot a fan of that stuff. Even if the game isn't graphic and he survives do I not like that. That could've happened when his body still immediately healed wounds and my body would still go ha no you will feel pain in the same spot for hours. Pierced through pain my absolute behated.

Sorry not sorry for how this post looks it's 7:30am over here and I almost fell asleep writing and will now pass out.

#I automatically exclude chars in 'fav char' when I think I'm them/fictionkin and sissel is like. I'm pretty sure? I think? #It is. So funky do be one where the char themself isn't sure who tf they are for like 99% of the game and identifies and looks like someone #completely else. Cat is my look but yknow I v much vibe with the whoops thought I was a human look too. #I would maybe explain better if I wouldn't run on monster energy #*to #I just remembered I'm awake since 2 or 3pm yesterday. Was awake for two days straight more than once but let's not repeat unhealthy behavio #So I will likely pass out soonish. If you see me reblog after this no you don't that's my body being used by a different manipulator #ghost trick spoilers #it's just me rambling from the top of my head but I do talk abt stuff so #The first time play deeper stuff is nothing to worry abt. Past life stuff I already coped with at this point. For the majority. Just fyi. #'but I thought family death happened around that time' oh I deal scarily quick w human blood related family deaths in this life. #Kin was apparently more important for my brain #a wild lux appears

[the-most-pathetic-edge-marquis]

nope sorry i’m still going feral about susan pevensie

#because like!!! #you lived!!! #you lived and your family didn't. #you live and live and live and probably outlive your parents. you probably have to look in the mirror one day and realize #you're older than your parents ever were #you have to identify the bodies. you have to bury them #you live and you live and you live #and then somehow that becomes the tragedy #everyone you ever loved is dead #but the person telling your story #says 'no they're happy and you aren't' #says 'no they're back in the adventure and the real world. they're happy' #and meanwhile you're living #and there is so much grief but also so much joy #but the author of your life won't grant you that #and the whole question of your story gets boiled down #to whether you will someday 'make it back' to narnia #fuck narnia! #narnia was your childhood and then an adulthood that got taken away! #you have a life to live HERE! #and maybe it includes lipstick and nylons #your life here should be worth living #your choices should matter #but somehow they don't. somehow everything in your life #is eclipsed either by the tragedy #or by the promise that someday you will 'find your way' again #if i want to write a story where susan is happy. i have to write a story where she finds faith #because those are the rules of her world #and FUCK THAT

[werewolf4vampire]

watching possessor and it's sooo good

#was not expecting this much sex in it. thought this version was NR for violence (though that's probably still part of it) #really good and interesting sex scenes though. tfw you're a woman body swapping with a man #but your minds start to meld so you see yourself fucking the guy's girlfriend but you still have a dick #they also show the guy flashing back to a memory of her having sex with her husband except he's in her place this time. equality #oh also it's had a bit more humor in it than i expected. like a scene where the guy is doing his job as a living captcha abd #he's supposed to be identifying curtains but one example video is literally two people fucking (w curtains in the bg) & he gets distracted #also a friend saying that she masturbates in front of her webcam every day so they know what kind of vibe she uses fjfhfhdn #liveblogging

[commander-chaoss]

Me to me about my own writing:

#its weird cause my writing is overall very light-hearted #but also alex wears dog tags because she's wants her body to be easily identifiable #and is scared of going to the grave without her name being known. and that's just a part of her character design #arely knows from day one that she's going to die on the job and so when Malcolm has to shoot her point blank she says #'this was always supposed to happen. just tell my friends. tell my friends so they don't wonder.' and that's all #but we're still all very happy guys:) just....ones aware of our situation #nexus #eternity #my writing #Arely Jones #Alex Pendleton

[bellbun]

and what if i started hrt just to spite my mother

#transphobia / #its been a month since we spoke and she said the most godawful things when i confronted her abt her constant misgendering that day #and i can slightly blame the drinks she constantly had while i was there. #but i cannot help but know it came from a place of complete honesty #one of the things she spewed was that she was fine with however i wanted to identify as long as i didnt try to physically change #and i have never had more motivation to begin than at that moment #what if i changed myself from the image of 'beauty' my mother and the world see #maybe then ill feel comfortable with my body #i dont want to be beautiful. i want to be me. #ive just been. festering with anger for an entire month #i want nothing to remain of her daughter

[tamarrud]

When I made this post just ten days ago, it was about mass graves discovered at Al Shifa hospital and now we have learned that the same had happened at Nasser hospital in Gaza. The same genocidal pattern: a hospital is put under siege, patients and medical staff are abducted, tortured and buried in mass graves.

But to build on the last point I wanted to bring attention to in the previous post, it is very crucial to also keep in mind is that the Palestinian Civil Defence have reported that Israel had deliberately concealed the identities of those it killed and buried in these mass graves. Close to 400 bodies have been buried in these mass graves, 58% of the recovered bodies have not been identified.

In a press conference, a spokesperson of the civil defence in Gaza said that Israel had intentionally disfigured the bodies postmortem in order to remove any identifying markers such as birthmarks. He also mentioned that they suspect that the bodies have been placed in body bags that expedited the decomposition process, destroying any possibility of them being identified.

One of the main and only ways families have been able to identify the bodies of their loved ones is through the clothes they remember them wearing the last time they saw them. I saw a video of a mother identifying her son by his striped jacket. You can see the grief mixed with relief that she will be able to give her son proper burial.

Remember when months ago I said that to be identified and buried in Gaza has become a luxury? This is very much still the case.

#gaza #palestine #israel #text: palestine

[masonsystem]

BTW my interpretation for the reason why younger versions of kano are obscured/omitted from several of his medias (like in the yobanashi deceive mv where hes only shown for a few frames which are implied to hv been mistakenly showed, corresponding lyrics "Whoops, I screwed up..."; and in this mekatrio illust from sidu's artbook) is cuz they are representative of a truth that kano hides from himself and others..... and the truth being that he hates to be hurt by others!!!

^full illust on the left contains this quote from the manga btw

the idea that he's ok with being hurt is the first lie hes ever had to tell to himself, and its the biggest lie he continues to harbor! he perpetuates the lie that hes fine with being hurt by his biological mom, hes fine with sharing the burden of secrets with ayano, hes fine with shouldering the abuse from his possessed father, and hes fine with kido hitting him. hes fine, really, except hes just been lying to himself and others, and the truth is that he isnt ok with it at all, and that he hates being hurt. its a painfully realistic thought process that people in abusive relationships adopt, where they rationalize their horrific abuse with the insistence that theyre fine with it.

the snake of clearing eyes spits this truth in his face before killing him.. and its also kinda why i think that in novel 5, kano isnt able to revert back into his body after posing as ayano's corpse. because before this point, physical pain was the sole reference point for himself (so to change back to himself, he'd just have to experience pain or to think of pain), or more precisely, it was the idea of being ok with being hurt that was his reference point. because: feeling pain = who kano is, so in order to be comfortable (or at least as comfortable as he could get) with his identity, this would mean that he would have to be ok with feeling pain as well, as it is intrinsic to him. but after ayano's death, he is now faced with an abuser that he can wholeheartedly hate (saeru). he can wholly hate the ordeals that saeru puts him through, because now kano is being made to hurt others, and his siblings are at the risk of harm too. he can hate the pain that saeru puts him through.... but wait, shouldnt kano be ok with any pain that comes him way? isnt pain itself intrinsic to kano's identity? it's at this point where kano begins to be at odds at himself, where it becomes difficult for him to believe his self-imposed lie that pain is a core aspect of himself. the start of his abuse from the hands of saeru marks the start of kano no longer being able to hinge his identity to the feeling of pain, which lines up with the first time that pain doesnt change him back: when saeru forces kano to impersonate ayano's corpse.

so yeah, i think the younger versions of seto and kido play a bigger visual role in their mvs and character arcs compared to kano is bc it represents them being honest about and accepting the type of people they were as children (a cowardly boy who wanted friends + a quiet girl who struggled to express herself and hated herself for it). but kano still hasnt acknowledged that he's actually always hated being hurt, so his younger self which represents that truth continues to be omitted.

also this post was loosely inspired by this other post from a deactivated blog that essentially says the same thing heeheehee ITS VERY GOOD READ THAT POST TOO

#tw child abuse #also tangentially related but i also hc that kano has body dysphoria cuz like #his whole youth has been marked by bruises on his skin and sore aches on his body and then one day theyre just gone #and the fact he was so disinterested in himself as a person that the only thing that he could identify himself with was pain... mmmhmm #kgprambling

[ikiprian]

Mr. Fenton is a competent teacher. Almost too competent.

If Mr. Daniel Fenton had any more than a BS (with a minor in education), Tim would’ve flagged his profile as a potential Rogue. That’s the way of most charismatic academics, at least in Gotham. (Got a PhD? Instant watchlist.) Instead, he’s Gotham Academy’s newest celebrity, as a young, passionate, out-of-towner substitute while the chemistry teacher’s on maternity leave.

Tim gets the hype. Fenton seems to genuinely love teaching, and is invested in the welfare of the student body. He hands out bananas during exam week, hosts a “study habits seminar” each month to coach effective learning strategies, and the third time Tim falls asleep in his class, he even pulls Tim aside to ask if he’s doing okay. With all the late work he accepts and the protein bars he sneaks Tim, he’s every teen vigilante’s dream teacher. He could’ve been Tim’s favorite.

In fact, Mr. Fenton was Tim’s favorite. Up until Tim walks into Mr. Fenton’s chemistry classroom for a forgotten textbook, an hour after the final bell.

On the board where tallied scores for today’s review game had been kept, “THE CHEMISTRY BEHIND DR. CRANE’S FEAR GAS: ANXIOGENICS, NERI’S, & YOU,” is now scrawled. A detailed diagram of the human endocrine system projects in front of a small crowd of adoring and attentive students.

Fenton is wrist-deep in the skull cavity of an anatomical model. A short tug, and out pops the brain.

It’s plastic. It’s fake.

Tim identifies the nearest emergency exit.

Fenton turns to the door, and in the dark classroom with the projector illuminating half his face, his eyes almost seem to flash red. “What’s up, Tim?” he asks. His friendly grin is too big for his face. “I didn’t know you wanted to join the Just Science League!”

[OR: Danny’s a science teacher at Tim’s school. Gotham’s a pretty wild place, even for someone who grew up a superhero in a ghost-infested town, so he takes it upon himself to start a club teaching kids how to manage themselves in the event of a crisis. These Gothamites are pretty hardy, but a little extra training never hurt anybody! And he suspects one of his students might be a teen vigilante, like he’d been, back in the day. As a senior super, it's Danny’s duty look out for him! Surely, this is the subtlest and most appropriate way to give the kid pointers.]

[Tim immediately assumes supervillain.]

#Danny can’t help being creepy it’s just the way he’s built!! #I like to think Lancer did these things for Danny when he was in HS #and now Danny's emulating Lancer :) #Passing it on! #Tim is paranoid but also like he is SO CLOSE to graduating so like. Does he even want to report this shit to Batman. What if the next chem #teacher's a jerk and Tim fails the class and he never gets his stupid diploma. Bruce already is insisting he finish out HS and maybe get #an ABA before he's allowed back into the company #and Jesus Christ does Tim hate school. He'll worry about Mr. Fenton's burgeoning army of Science Honor Society Rogues on his own time #dcxdp #dpxdc #prompt #tim drake #danny fenton #in case I write more of this let’s tag it uhhhhh #misunderstood mentor au #kipwrite

[lillyviarabbit]

if only wishing could change things, but i'm too paralyzed to act

#I so desperately wish I didnt have to be trans #i love being queer and i dont mind knowing my fluidity and dysmorphia put me identify me as the former #but i wish i was cis and had to learn how to play with masculinity #instead of vice versa #i wish i had to bind #i wish i could enjoy my body #but alas—the good days just leave me neutral #and the bad days still leave me suicidal #fuck now that i'm thinking about it too much i might shave off my beard too #i havent felt like this since i pulled the trigger to shave my legs and have permanently scarred my thighs and stomach #because one missed hair means i need to rip it out #and that scabs #which then i need to burst open for weeks to months on end #and none of this would be as hard for me if i didnt have to learn it on my own #for now i cant transition #even if i wanted to wholeheartedly #because i can take off my glasses and pass decently well as a man #i did it for 20 years—even if by the time i was in middle school i understood i wasn't like the others #I hate that i make women uncomfortable just by my presence alone #because i look like a man #and would not be able to shake that without changing my jawline #im built like a barrel #i wish i was a cis woman that got a hysterectomy #and could indulge the comfort of being perceived as a woman innately #I could be more confident being affectionate #and i have to walk on eggshells even now because i can just *feel* how my male body taints every step i take and every relationship i have #i hate it so much #but i cant hate me #ive never hated me #and I accept this is how i am