#and that's okay. but christ alive.

[natjennie]

sometimes i see posts on this webbed site that are like. "omg i just realize crunkly splingo calls himself a monster because he does bad things and that's like what a monster would do im so 😭😭" and I just have to be like. okay so the whole blue curtains thing really didn't help you at all huh.

#i just have to take a deep breath. #and be like. media literacy is not some people's strong suit and that's fine. #with a tense smile. yeah bestie you're getting it. the curtains are blue and he's sad because blue is a sad color. #you're figuring it out. #im not gonna say im above this like ive definitely been here. so deep in the fandom that you're like. #wow hes drinking water because he's thirsty and that means he's alive omg the symbolism #but sometimes its like. wow you are really at a completely different level of analysis than I am. #and that's okay. but christ alive.

[ismellpestilence]

Do y'all remember the part in Frankenstein where Victor Frankenstein looks directly at the camera and says "for the love of God stop looking for the Northwest Passage. You want glory but it's not gonna fucking work out for you. Hubris and science are a bad combo my guy."

And that the book was published in 1818, and yet for the rest of the century they continued to send people out there to fucking die?

Yeah. Me, too.

#titanic #oceangate #frankenstein #mary shelly #thalassophobia #i hope they find the titan and everyone is still alive but jesus fucking christ people need to stop doing this shit #I hope the five are okay but if anyone goes down there again then whatever happens is just natural selection

[livetogether--diealone]

behaviour? insane. kylie? kinked.

#i am refusing to be normal about him #i will be weird and off putting #sorry to my followers/moots #CHRIST ALIVE who shot the first one are u okay? why #breasty i mean bestie #sebastian vettel #jo.text

[hella1975]

i need to read more books and annotate in the margins i need to write more i need to buy jeans that fit me i need to eat more fruit i need to buy good quality headphones i need to get a skincare routine i need to talk to my friends more i need to wash my hair i need to stop treating this inhabitation as a curse. i am tired of punishing the body that has fought me for survival every day for years. i deserve little treats as regularly as possible !!

#more money would also be good but! we are working on it <3 this is a team effort im bored of being in a perpetual bar fight with myself #like sorry i havent answered my texts in months or barely sustain personal hygeine but that bitch (points at mirror) chucked a drink at me #it's okay tho we are in our enemies to lovers arc #just had a really vivid sudden 'i am in this body' moment and let me TELL you when you spend 90% of the time feeling a very #set seperation between your emotional self and physical self that is INCREDIBLY fucking jarring lmao. like oh this is me #the freckles on my fingers are just as much me as my years long loyalty to specifically prawn cocktail pringles. okay #that's cool. cool cool cool that's so cool so everything that's happened to me physically is still me okay cool #coooool cool cool. super cool btw. very angry for myself rn which never happens i normally just get angry at myself #LIKE THIS IS MY BODY! WHY DO I HAVE TO DRINK IT INTO BED AND HURT IT FOR NO REASON! WHY DO I LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH SO MUCH! #'i'll take care of you it's rotten work especially to me especially if it's you i'll do it but christ alive' except it's me and my body #like yeah im not happy about it bossman but we're stuck together. let's get you some nice clothes

[essektheylyss]

Okay I did get distracted by a grade being posted and I am about to be both a nerd and a millennial but god ngl I do hate classes where you get full points on all your assignments but don't actually get any actual feedback on them. What is the point. If it's a class where everyone gets passing grades for making the effort but you get actual feedback and comments, that's great! But I would genuinely rather get points docked and get extensive comments on what I did well and what needed improvement and why than this.

#what is the POINT #like at that point it feels like busy work frankly! it doesn't feel like anyone's worrying about whether or not I learned something! #and like I can self reflect on my own learning. I'm good at that. that's fine. but a) not everyone can #and b) it REALLY does not help the perception that a degree is something you pay for but don't actually need to learn anything to get #which is a MASSIVE problem rn. there's no actual value placed on LEARNING THINGS. #like I know for a FACT that I have turned in B+ average assignments at best in this class. #just cuz I only have finite time and I gotta stay sane and it's not an area I'm going to go any further than surface level in. #the overview is good and important! but the work I'm doing is reflective of my investment and frankly it should've earned a B+ at most. #like at least if you're docking a point and telling me what for I know you READ the damn thing. christ alive. #you may ask yourself 'oh my god why are you like this' and the answer is. have you looked at my blog. #anyway. okay nOW I'm going to bed.

[hopeinthebox]

tagged by the gorgeous and fabulous @cordiallyfuturedwight and @aprylynn for february's roundup:

tagging the usual music favs: @jiminsproof @thvinyl @jimin-gaon @visionsofgideontheninth @spicyclematis @kimchokejin @jihopesjoint @monismochi plus @kimtaegis for the amy macdonald of it all 💜 and also you, dear reader. MWAH

#heads up! here comes the director's commentary: #16 Carriages - now listen. i love texas hold 'em as much as the next daddy lessons supremacist #but holy shit. it doesn't hold so much as a candle to this track. #just unbelievably stunning. i'm begging you to give it another chance if you skipped over it the first time #Don't Forget Me - me and kayla and apryl all having ms rogers in this month's list... i think we might be better than everyone else actuall #End Of Beginning - good GOD we couldn't gatekeep djo any longer but it's worth it if only for all the bear tiktok edits. #and thus i have fallen for this track all over again. yes CHEF #Showtime - now if you've known me long enough you'll know i'm an absolute sucker for british indie rock bands #especially if their frontman looks like they might not make it through another winter #so you can imagine catfish has had an inexplicable hold on me. anyway their comeback single is actually pretty good #This Is The Life - fantastic tune. 2007 if you can believe it? #what a time to be alive and at the school disco and you're singing the songs and thinking this is the life and so on and so forth #Loving You Will Be The Death Of Me - tom odell can do no wrong in my eyes (ears?) anyway. lovely lovely new album #Never Need Me - been loving rachel for a while now and this single is brilliant. highly recommended. #plus the video features florence pugh and if that doesn't sweeten the deal then christ i don't know what will #Baby Now That I've Found You - i didn't even realise this was a cover of the foundations until hearing it again recently #because alison krauss just has an incredible way of making them her own and thus it's been on repeat. #Deeper Well - okay so now i'm seeing the country thread through this month's picks. #this is another lovely new one. hearing it on the radio and the fact that they have to censor “i used to wake and bake” is hilarious to me #shoutout kayla again because great minds.. #Stay For Something - CMAT is phenomenal and if you haven't listened to her yet i can't recommend her entire discography enough. #she had her arsecrack out at the brits last night and well. i would die for her #(speaking of the brits. raye... i literally cried for her. go find the recording of her live at the royal albert hall. #-watch it twice and then come back and thank me) #artists-wise - most of these guys are consistently up there. #katie melua is a new feature this time because all my amy macdonald-ing put me back onto nine million bicycles. #used to get that one mixed up with 99 luftballoons but they're really very different. i'm a fool #so tl;dr: fantastic tunes. do listen #tag #receiptify

[irritablepoe]

I WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE ME. I want someone to casually sit beside me and nudge me every now and then to get my attention. I want someone to pull me into a side-hug because they've been laughing about a joke of someone and want to share that joy with me. I want someone to carefully take my hand into theirs and look at my fingers or perhaps the lines on my hand just because they can. I want someone to look at me absentmindedly while they're thinking of something. I want someone to sit quietly beside me when I'm feeling down and just take my hand and squeeze it to tell me I'm not alone anymore.

#christ alive dhdhhsjwhddj this is so dumb🫠 #I'm sorry #had a lil bit to drink and I'm feeling affectionate okay #also my brother had his last day of school and he's been telling me about his plans with his friends while- #- he has free time and I'm literally so nostalgic rn #like that free time was so nice #i was basically eating dinner with them out qnd about and been going to bars and stuff #also sitting at a lake and the park and the river almost every day like. those were the times fr #those were the times i wasn't a isolated bitch lmao #well i was. just not that much #hhhhhhhhhhhhh i miss my irl friends😭 #if they're all back in germany we have to meet up literally omg🥲 #but also... they've so different lives now. I'm such an outsider somehow and idk #i can't really connect with them as much as i used to #which is fine but. i don't have any other friends with whom i could meet up #maaaaaaan life's so complicated 😔 #johnny's silly rambles #(also yes this is the kind of qp love i want plsplspls #)

[wyvernwinds]

*stumbles into the room covered in blood* i just finished assassin’s fate

#i have THOUGHTS #but i cant form any of them into sentences yet #this def was the series i enjoyed the least out of the three fitz ones but christ alive it still hit #the last 20 pages i was a MESS #i will never be okay again #cam reads fitz and the fool #rote #cam.txt #assassin’s fate

[butchdykekondraki]

i love how whenever those stupid british twinks are being faggots in their new uploads my tumblr gets blasted with their tags blowing the fuck up. this shit would kill 2012 phandomers

#god. plainly obvious how long ive been obsessed w/ them by my usage of phandomers. okay. christ alive #speaking.mp4

[queercodedvillains]

Wake up babes, new chapter of mallrats just dropped <3

Mallrats (23114 words) by QueerCodedVillains Chapters: 3/9 Fandom: Naruto, Naruto (Anime & Manga) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Deidara/Sasori (Naruto), background kakuzu/hidan Characters: Sasori (Naruto), Deidara (Naruto), Hidan (Naruto), Kakuzu (Naruto) Additional Tags: SasoDei Week 2023 (Naruto), 90'S, Akatsuki - Freeform, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Claire's AU, Mafia AU, If You Squint - Freeform, we are taking liberties translating the akatsuki into a modern setting here, Drug Use, Drug Dealing, Blood and Violence, POV Alternating, Bottom Deidara (Naruto), Top Sasori, BDSM, Impact Play, Praise Kink, Edging, Orgasm Control, Overstimulation, Sasori is still a puppet master but only in the loosest terms, if you catch my drift, Shibari, Suspension, Fucking Machines, Porn With Plot, Hurt/Comfort, Bratting, brat taming, Dom/sub Series: Part 1 of Mallrats Cinematic Universe Summary: In which the Akatsuki are 90's mallrats by day, crime syndicate by night. All the best criminals have a day job to launder their rent money, but the real fun only starts once they're off the clock.

#deidara #sasori #sasodei #claires au #mallrats #i dont wanna give any spoilers but #if you didnt know the difference between power dynamics vs positions #aka dom/sub vs top/bottom #hopefully you will now uwu #smut now plot later #head empty just these guys going at it like fucking rabbits 24/7 #we'll get to the plot when i say so until then we're all just gonna be happy the muse caught me on a day off #okay? okay <3 #my writing #mallrats!akatsuki #its my au i get to pick the tags #yes i am still working on my sasodei2023 fic after already posting another sasodei2024 fic #ariana grande and what about it dot gif #sighs deeply #when will i be free #when will i be cured of the brain rot #i really gotta carve it out with my own two hands and post it on the internet #its just me and a few dozen fellow inmates of the sasodei unit of the psychward #we are in this together lads #smh i gotta do everything around here if i wanna read it i gotta fuckin write it. and i WILL. its rotten work but christ alive ill do it

[indigoire]

You know what gets me more than anything? Right after we see Ed's (presumed) corpse we cut to Frenchie saying "we've been living second to second for a while now. It's actually nice to have a deadline." They're doomed to die because they were in the orbit of a wildly destructive man. They never wanted to kill him, but he would have killed them all if they didn't. Frenchie says it so glibly but he looks so beat down. Almost made me burst into tears.

#I mean obviously they're going to be okay #but christ alive Blackbeard really did a number on them... #ofmd #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd s2

[cahootings]

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#okay I have had one very good venting convo to industry colleague bff about interview consequence anxieties #and I feel like I was just exorcised. #I needed that #anyway I am feeling mostly prepared for the interview #and mostly somewhat prepared to deal with the aftermath whatever it may be #and a little less alone #and honestly just ready for the relief of being out of this limbo #it was a year and a half of application limbo #and almost four months of interview limbo #and it has really fucked me up in every way lmao !!!!! like I am at least medicated now but christ alive #anyway. cheers

[i-mybrunettelady]

I'm a shadow apart

Passed through time and the dark

From a treacherous start

To the ember's last spark

My beloved Commander and an even more beloved dottir, Alysannyra herself, in her most accurate form (aka if anet let me play beefy fem!humans.) She even has her muted, creepy eyes and scars <3

Thank you so much @heyitsmejona for bringing my girl to life <3333

#gw2 #gw2 art #alysannyra #gw2 human #gw2 guardian #guild wars 2 #pact commander #gw2 pact commander #OKAY SO. #CAN WE JUST SCREAM TOGETHER?? HOW GOOD THIS IS?? #HER SCARRING???? #HER BEEFY ARMB??? #HER DANDY CLOTHES??? #JONA DOES WONDERS #WATCH OUT GUYS SHE'S GONNA STEAL YOUR PARTNER JK JK #BUT CHRIST ALIVE I'M !!!!!!!!! SHE #SHE SHE SHE SHE SHE #FERAL ACTUALLY #TYSM JONA ONCE MORE #IF YOU CAN COMM JONA DO IT THEY WON'T DISAPPOINT

[chappellrroan]

never listen to matilda

#jesus christ i was sitting with my sister and tears just started falling like non stop stream bro wtf #i think it's okay tho she just let me be #more like it's okay because this was my personal unprovoked emo response #and is nothing compared to the way she saw me crying yesterday so yeah #i love her so much she's the reason i am still sane and alive

[sga-owns-my-soul]

haha ignore this i need to vent

i'm so fucking done i'm so fucking mad at everyone i'm pissed at my cousin for fucking me over i'm pissed at my clients for being fucking idiots i'm pissed at my city for NEVER HAVING WORKING FUCKING TRANSIT i'm not okay i'm so not fucking okay and i don't even have my fucking headphones bc they fell out of my jacket in my cousins STUPID FUCKING CAR THAT I BASICALLY PAY FOR BUT GOD FORBID SHE DRIVE ME HOME so now i get to spend over 2 hours (after i've spent 3 hours on transit/waiting for her this morning) on public transit to get home WITHOUT my music and my clothes are ruined with cat hair from my clients today so that's fucking great and OF COURSE everything in the fucking city is delayed bc WHY WOULD WE MAKE ANYTHING EASY FOR ME NO ITS FINE ILL JUST FUCKING SUFFER TO MAKE THINGA EASY FOR EVERYONE ELSE BECAUSE GODFORBID I GET TO CATCH A FUCKING BREAK

#no i'm not okay #i'm fuckimg crying on a train #that's on the LITERAL OPPOSITE END OF THE CITY FROM MY HOUSE #i spent just under 3 hours working today #and i'm spending over 5 hours getting to and from work #i'm so fucking done i'm so sick of being alive #holy fucking christ can ANYTHING not be fucking shit!!!!!!! #i hate being alive!!!!!!! i don't want to do this anymore!!!!!!! #and i can't even fucking kill myself bc god forbid the people in my life be sad #they can't lose me but they can fuck me over constantly!!!!! #god fuck i'm so fucking sick of this #i need a fucking break #humans aren't meant to work this much and im going to start actually commiting violence about it #tw suicide mention #personal rambles #ignore this #i'm just being too sensitive 🙃🙃🙃🙃 #i'm just Letting My Emotions Control Me 🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 #disclaimer i'm safe i'm not actually at risk of hurting myself at all i promise #i just wanna die but i'm not gonna do anything

[braisedhoney]

Hey kid, chin up. The only thing I ever really wanted was to take care of my family, and I got that. Sure, I’ll miss a few things. But hey, they’ll probably miss me, so I’ll call it even.

HAHAHAHA HEY HEY HEY OKAY YOU CAN'T JUST POP IN AND DO THIS—

ALRIGHT crew take your positions we're rerouting the ship to pick up an old man before he does something irreversibly sad in the process of saving the universe /j

#ney's chatter (ask answers) #fucking christ mister stark i don't wanna go down this road okay i don't have a seatbelt on this goddamn space ship #what? the sacrifice is incredibly narratively satisfying and while tragic indicative of an arc that ends with someone finally able to rest #knowing his family is safe and alive and will live to see another sunrise even if it's without him? #yeah but. it hurts. #(joking. kind of. ow.) #why is all this nostalgia coming back #i have other asks to answer and i promise i'm not ignoring them #i'll get to it soon i promise.