#anyway it’s still a couple years away

[james-p-sullivan]

the older i get and the closer i am to reaching 30, the more the people around me try to deny me my age. it’s a constant ‘oh you’re just turning 29 again teehee 🤭’ or ‘dont tell your SO that, he’ll leave you for a younger model 😉’ and i just???? hate it?????????

i spent my entire teenaged years fighting for my life. i crawled through the deepest pits of my depression to cling to the promise of a life beyond that pain. i was so convinced that i was going to die young, that i would never see the grace of my age starting with a 2, let alone 3.

so im going to turn 30, and there’s not a damn thing anyone can do to stop me from loving it.

#anyway it’s still a couple years away #but man im so fucking excited for my 30s!!!!!!!!! #i made it!!! #i survived!!! #so many people never got the opportunity to be 30 #im gonna enjoy every fucking second of it! #sulley speaks #sorry my coworker said something really rude to me lol #it struck a nerve

[chalkrub]

(probably) final batch of doodles! and they're actually doodles this time

garrot for @celestriakle

panny for @falling-hand-in-unlovable-hand

celeste for @grox-empire

teo for @boymosss

margolia for @shanghai-ohmy

sage for microchipt who tumblr will not let me tag!

funney aminals in hats for @pookabagi @nixie-noo and @babayanska

had to do a lot of headshots towards the end but I hope you all enjoy nonetheless :^)

#my art #i'm going away for a couple days but maybe i'll do some more when i get back #and i will for REAL for real make my sketch blog then too #watched the shittest film known to man today with a friend it was called silent house #we always try to watch horror films on whatever streaming apps we can scrounge from and they're always bad #silent house ranks below the film we watched about an underwater spooky house but still above a film called strays #which was truly TRULY upsettingly bad #not to be an utter snob but thank god for elevated horror or whatever the fuck they call it #anyway. wish me luck i'm going to london for the first time in years and the train is like £50 (VERY cool and VERY affordable.)

[infizero]

showing my growth by rejecting the “every ship gets happily married and becomes wonderful parents to lovely children” mindset and admitting that many pairings should just not be parents

#long gone are my days of woobifying shadow and sanitizing sonadow down to aw cute hedgehogs and one of them is traumatized #they are RIVALS and shadow will never be that lovey dovey with sonic even if they have been dating for 30 years thats just not who he is #they can find happiness/contentment in each other like i imagined but that sprinkle of toxicity would never rlly go away #and again even if theyre perfectly happy existing like that. not a good environment for a kid! #i dont even imagine them getting married anymore like i still like my idea of the ''cat orphanage w a chao garden'' house that they live in #but they wouldnt be married. they'd be partners and sonic would live there. but he'd ''live there'' in the same way he lives with tails #in that. its a place to come back home to when needed but a lot of the time hes just elsewhere exploring and having adventures and stuff #and shadow would probably tag along on a lot of these adventures. but not all of them #also feeds into part of my idea for the future which has always been present which is just. sonic being romantically involved w a couple #other ppl (knuckles for example) #those relationships dont have a label theyre just friends and then sometimes theyll kiss or go on dates or something #he and shadow are partners. thats concrete. everything else is just fluid/undefined (also should clarify that this is in like a poly way lol #shadow is aware of these relationships and has no problem with them and sonic knows that) #anyways i didnt mean to ramble but i have been thinking about this recently #how i'd modify my older idea of sonadow in the future #thats the end. ps once again promoting the poly sonic agenda. if you look at him and you dont think hes poly. youre just wrong im sorry #(excluding aroace sonic enjoyers for obvious reasons lol) #serena.txt

[mintjeru]

i have extremely predictable taste in characters actually

open for better quality | no reposts | ID under the cut

[Image description: A rough pencil and paper bust sketch of Líf. He is facing to the left and looking up. Gas emits from his mask.]

#lif #fe heroes #feh #fire emblem #fanart #myart #doodle #this is really rushed bc i've been running around all week and still am #but i wanted to draw him at least once #smth smth characters that see themselves as tools and undeserving of kindness after losing the people closest to them- #and despite caring for others to the point of self-sacrifice they push others away in fear of losing them #sound familiar? #anyway hi i've been playing feh for 3 years though idt i've mentioned it here before #might finish this later? we'll see #i snagged hilda at 5 pity and paid for it by going up to hard pity for lif #literally got pitybroken by shez twice and a couple of others along the way #also. yes i am reeling after today's gi stream do not talk to me about a.lejandro saab voicing c.yno i Will cry #ok i have to go now [drops this here and runs]

[bravevolunteer]

i think if michael managed to get Any sleep between the sister location nights it was on the couch

#if we’re under the assumption that he’s staying in the afton home again Which I Am #returning from ALMOST getting away for a couple years he’s not only in his hometown but his Childhood Home #already having the worst week… so much trauma being dug up… he is NOT falling asleep in his CHILDHOOD BEDROOM #if he’s getting any rest that week it’s in the living room while daytime reruns of immortal and the restless play💀 #michael vc: can’t believe i have to do all this AND my joints hurt #(also the afton house can still be abandoned and intact and something michaels able to access bc i said so and they do that with henry’s #house in the novels i have an excuse now) #anyway i have to go to work. unfortunate i am in a writing mood that will no doubt disappear when i get home KDKFJ #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[coquelicoq]

yeah sex is great but have you ever unflooded your street by removing leaves from the storm drains using the litter-grabber tool you bought from lowe's two weeks ago for that exact purpose?

#every year my street floods in the autumn when it rains heavily. usually multiple times. every year!!! #i hate it it's so stressful. and of course the cars keep driving down it even though it's unsafe. a lot don't even slow down #and they throw up these huge walls of water with their passage #the street becomes totally unusable for pedestrians wheelchair users bikers strollers etc. #it's just the worst. and every year i'm like oh i should get a thingy so i can do something about it #and i never do in time. but this year. THIS year. watch out world #i cleaned out the drains preventively a few times in the past couple weeks but today is the first day of somewhat heavy wind and rain #so i went out this evening and two of the four drains were completely clogged :( but i got out my tool & as soon as i cleared a little spac #a whirlpool formed and sucked all the water into it! with this amazing noise. it was fantastic #then i cleared away the rest of the leaves cuz that tiny spot would get covered up very quickly otherwise #i came back by an hour later and they're still looking great <3 i'm basking in the afterglow #it is funny how much easier a homeowner could do this than me. those people have yard debris cans #they have space for shovels. god. a shovel. my kingdom for a shovel #i'm just piling the leaves on the curb one handful at a time and then leaving them there (out of the way of everyone of course) #because i have nowhere else to put them and no way to transfer them farther distances #but it's mostly just apartments near this intersection so we gotta do it for ourselves #anyway i'm probably gonna have to do it again tomorrow because there are a lot of dead leaves out there right now #but man! i've never been able to do anything about this before except call the city and wait for them to send someone. this feels so good

[yardsards]

you've heard of being "touch starved", now get ready for "touch hangry"

#eliot posts #touch starved #i was rereading through some of my old fics and #the plot of one is basically a character being touch hangry #i'd say i get touch hangry but not really. i don't actually get angry about it but i DO get a strong urge to playfight #anyway my consensus upon rereading my fics is: #all three of my infinity train fics are actually pretty good #'from things that accidentally touch' is prolly the best one? #but i'm actually liking 'you can run away with me anytime you want' a lot rn bc i really dig the qpr vibes i established there #i was dissatisfied with 'and the moon's never seen me before' when i wrote it but i actually really like it now. made me smile. #i don't really like either of my toh fics very much #i like the concept of 'interlacing' and AM gonna finish it up but i hate how i wrote most of it #'the beach episode' has some good bits but i dislike a lot of it. it was the first thing i'd written in YEARS and it shows #kinda hate that it's my most popular fic cuz it's my least favourite #but people enjoying it so much did encourage me to practice writing some more i think? #i don't regret writing it. i think i needed the practice and writing my first fic since like eighth grade was nice #sidenote i WISH eighth grade eliot didn't delete their fic out of shame. i wanna read it. #anyway i think i wanna post the last chapter of tbe eventually. i think it's half written somewhere #it's my least fav fic and a bunch of my headcanons got disproven but i think it deserves to be finished #i have a couple readers who still wanna see the ending despite it being years and it just being a slice of life fic so no cliffhangers #('from things that accidentally touch' is my touch hangry fic) #that fic originally had my highest kudos to hits ratio but now it has the lowest ratio of any of my single chapter fics #and i know it is because people have been rereading it since then for comfort and that makes me really happy

[ehlnofay]

I wonder a lot about the impression I give to other people... online especially where appearances and mannerisms can't really factor into it. I truly have no idea what kind of person I come off as on here

#every time someone tells me anything about how they perceive me I file it away for analysis #like I remember once a couple years ago mentioning to someone online that I was a minor. which I was at the time #and they were like 'I figured. you seem young' #which. I still wonder what gave that impression yk #like do I use all the newest typing slang or somesuch #or do I just give off a blithe and youthful air #my goal is to get so good at writing that ever piece reads like it was penned by a wizened stage #who has spent decades studying the human condition #and then when people learn how old I am they will go Woag. she should have been at the club #unless they are american. in which case I still have a couple years before I can legally have been at the club #I never have been to a club come to think of it... barely even a pub. never drank in one anyway #maybe I should be at the club...

[schmidtho]

it’s a specific kind of difficult as a pet sitter, when a pet that you’ve watched several times passes away. because obviously it’s not as painful as it is for the owners who’ve lost a family member but also. like. i almost feel like i’ve lost a friend. like that was my friend who i visited and played with and took care of. and now she’s gone. and i’m sad.

#anyway. #a dog i’ve been pet sitting for a couple years now passed away today and im. very sad #she was just such a sweetheart and an absolute darling to pet sit #and this is the third dog in a year that i’ve watched that had passed away #and i’m. struggling a little #i know it comes with the profession that sometimes. you lose pets that aren’t yours but still feel the loss #but i’m still really sad she’s gone #i cannot stress enough just how sweet she was #genuinely i think one of the sweetest gentlest most affectionate dogs i’ve ever watched

[cozycorewitch]

constantly torn between saying fuck it and posting my personal feelings and thoughts on tumblr dot com again because it sometimes helped me to feel better about shit and never letting anyone know I have feelings ever again lmao

#ive lost so many people in my life over the last couple years #like they died #they didnt just leave #and it makes it especially difficult to have somebody that is no longer in my life #but is very much alive and out there in the world #who i miss very much and still care a lot about #and just...not be able to do anything about it #there are so many people who i miss with my whole heart who are forever out of my reach #because they passed away #and then theres another whos alive but the circumstances of our lives and the complications in our relationship #mean that theyre basically as unreachable as the dead are to me #idk grieving the loss of the living is its own kind of pain i guess #and its so much harder to accept and come to terms with #because theyre here. they arent unreachable. but they are #anyways tag rambling over #goodnight #p #hiding the shit that i wanted to say in a post here in the tags instead lmao #probably gonna delete this later #always delete shit like this

[outlying-hyppocrate]

my brother played sword so i played shield. my brother played scarlet so now i'm playing violet

#random thoughts #pokémon !! #oh pokémon my beloved. ever since i was seven i was obsessed with the franchise #i think sun and moon was my favorite. when i heard about it a couple years later (2017-2018) i was OBSESSED #especially when i was collecting the cards. (my first one ever was a registeel that my brother stole from the garderie. beloved) #i got a reverse holo lunala card (i think that's what it's called?) and my brother was SO FUCKING JEALOUS. #at one point i had a couple ex cards and even a gx but. ough. i traded them away #because i did not understand. the fucking value #ough. #anyway. i think i like the style of sword and shield better. for the hair and everything #but it's still lovely !! i'm only in the character customization screen. but. #(also i heard there's a character called crispin and that should be fun..)

[thekidsarentalright]

my birthday is saturday and it is literally sick how like introspective and nostalgic and melancholy birthdays make me like. girl u should be happy and excited to celebrate another year of being alive not sitting around think abt ur morality 😵‍💫

#more than just my morality also just how much ive grown this year and how different things are than i thought theyd be #and how 19 is such a weird age where ur an adult but also still feel like a kid and how idk when that feeling #will go away honestly and how. im happier than ive been in years after these last couple months making so many big changes in life #and how like. this next year a lot more is gonna change. and how ive learned that isnt a bad thing #and also like 19 is so young but also the oldest ive ever been and idk. it's just a lot. birthdays are a lot #anyway. happy gemini season to me and pete and andy x #txt

[arolesbianism]

I <3 transmasc Wendy because it adds another thing to the kid who does not know how to handle anything being thrown into everything pile but instead of a thing like dead sister it's the prospect that he kind of likes having short hair and the idea of being a guy and it still makes him feel like the world is ending until suddenly the ppl around him are just like fine with it and everything is like cool actually and he melts over that too until finally he's just a normal baby trans person and can get back to being bad at coping with his other hashtag issues again

#rat rambles #starve posting #like I do have dead serious wendy trans thoughts tm even some that actually relate to his quotes high bar I know gkfndkd #its just so fun reading him as a trans egg thats one breakdown away from being smashed #and also gives me some yummy tasty thoughts abt both wendy and abby and the inivertable fact that as time goes on the only remnant of #abby's face is going to shift and change more until it can no longer even be a reminder of what was lost #which must be a Horrifying idea to wendy even if chances are he hasn't rly internalized this concept yet #and for abby especially if you're like me and go for a more silhouette style ghost design for her youve gotta imagine how fucky it is to #watch your twin grow up and change in ways you never will #Im also a agender abby who will likely never realize believer because shes just like younger me fr #like shes low key just me as a little kid but without the anxiety disorder #anyways back to the topic of wendy genderism Im honestly surprised Ive never seen a he/him wendy hc before #Im not surprised at not finding any trans guy wendys but there rly isnt much variety in nonbinary wendys despite it being fairly common #I just like trans guy wendy cause he gives me those vibes #its the weird little girl to cringe fail trans man pipeline or smth idk #give him a couple years eventually he'll be a grimy lil freak of a teenage boy #if abby didnt die and knew abt gender stuff itd still take her 30 years minimum to even consider she might be not a girl maybe #not because she's hard in denial abt gender stuff shes just is in the classic headspace of 'well I dont Think I care so I must be cis ig' #same with my aro abby hcs but walter is super not helping #as Ive said before they are aro echo chamber besties dont try to tell them romance is real they will not believe you #hey better then whateve the fuck wendy would have to go through if one of the trans men around him offered solidarity #I would rather die than get advice from wilson are you kidding me #the only somewhat normal trans guy there is warly but hes french so it cancels out

[ghosts-of-love]

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#feels like every day there is someone new to tell about the break up and im running out of ways to be like hey yeah im fine!! but also... #pretty sure only a couple of people know at work bc its hard enough to bring it up let alone when i barely go into the office anyway #lord knows if my brother knows i can only assume my mum told him and probably everyone she has spoken to for more than 5 seconds since #im tired im really tired #it always ends up just being a conversation like '6 years...thats a long time' yeah i know i was there #just keep trying to focus on good things that are happening rn and i know im feeling sad bc 2/3 of my friends (housemates) are away rn #blah blah blah so many feelings i cant summarise them here in tags #if anyone happens to be reading/still reading and wants to send me photos of animals then feel free <3 #this is just word vomit at this point sorry