#beginning of hell month

[tatck]

Vagabond Comic 1/6 - Next

#sth #my doodles #fanart #sonic the hedgehog #sonic comic #fan comic #Honestly i think some of the faces look off as hell but i don't want to be a perfectionist about it #if i edit pages later. just ignore that #vagabond au #right click open image in new tab for better view #Sonic #Tails #stvh!comic #stvh #i did another edit after months lol i couldn't help it i couldn't stand that face since the beginning

[beedoes-stuff]

anyways,

#scythe audio #scythe cheeky #scythe v #rewatching #again #r we surprised? #i can’t believe next month this series will have been out for 3 years #like no #wdym #it hasn’t been that long i swear #also this is all just a lil jokey joke #i just miss their interactions #maybe not the recent ones— #the ones in the beginning were funny as hell though #still are #🫶🫶🫶

[pineapplesneedrights]

... okay but this song.... but it's MC to Sitri.. specifically this part

You took a star to bed

Woke up with me instead

You must have felt so damn deceived

When you made up a version of me that you thought you loved

But I am not your Aphrodite

Pleeeeease tell me you see my vision- like just the fact that he doesn't see the difference between Solomon and MC- that they are the same person-

Like just that fact ALONE is such good food for angst scenarios.

Like like like what if he finally FINALLY sees MC as MC and not Solomon and like- he immediately looses intrest bc MC is not and has never been Solomon but he's just been so delulu to ever notice it until just one day it just... hits him- raaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh

#whb #what in hell is bad #what in “hell” is bad? #whb sitri #laufey my queen #been feeding my angst scenarios for a long while now #if you couldn't tell #i love angst #it is my lifeline #Pineapple's caffeinated thoughts #tell me you see my vision #I've made up a very detailed scenario in my head and it won't go away #knowing my procrastinating ass it'll stay as a draft for months before i even begin editing it #Spotify

[forcedhesitation]

*wheeze* slowly, but surely, working on art of them all

#bg3 #myart #wip #I want to make every tav/companion pairing I have a dedicated. fancy piece. #these started with a concept for a wyll drawing that was very...storybook! inspired. #I would have been done all the linework for these two pieces by now had my weekend gone better :/ #I was violently unwell for...about a week and a half? chronic illness bullshit. had started to feel better friday of last week... #...unfortunately fate had it that the weekend ended up being particularly stressful. so the pain returned anew. #it was. somewhat better today. but still not enough for me to really be productive in my free time :( #I will try to complete the linework tomorrow if all goes well. I really would like to start colouring them! #I have delightful colour schemes chosen... #gale/illamin piece has already been sketched in a notebook. once I finish these two- I will begin lining theirs! #illamin's connects to cadence's because they're intertwined like that. but I have yet to finish planning out cadence's piece. #I've gone back and forth on who I should romance with him...the thing with any of the companions is that they are all written to be- #-immensely compatible with each other. so writing a tav FOR a specific companion is a bit hard. often the tav could fit with any of them. #hell. I'm STILL working out details of jantar and corydalis' story & characters. because I can't be normal about this. #that aside- I DO have other. finished pieces...finally. #well. I had some long before... but I didn't want to post them because I wasn't happy with them. #so I went and finished new stuff that I DO like. #4. technically 5 drawings. all horror/horror adjacent in theme. #my extremely detailed hux painting is also NEARLY done. after months upon months of work. #and I continue to slowly chip away at the big scifi themed dbd piece I've had in progress. #I really never run out of things to draw and it's a bit torturous because I never have the time or energy to draw everything...

[soulsillk]

Lord, the Insomniac timeline for the Spider-Man games is a fucking mess

#arguing with people on twitter over the most pedantic shit and it's all bc Insomniac doesn't know how to calculate time #I hope Insomniac's HQ and every twitter user blows up #i'm going to kill myself this ia driving me crazy #Brian Intihar count your fucking days BECAUSE YOU'RE WRONG AS HELL AND DON'T KNOW ANY OF THE FUCKING DATES #HOW IS MILES 18 WHEN HE JUST TURNED 17 IN JANUARY DURING MM AND IT'S ONLY BEEN 10 MONTHS #HOW IS IT 2021 WHEN MM WAS SET IN 2019 AND THEN THE BEGINNING OF 2020 AND IT'S ONLY BEEN 10 MONTHS #WHAT KIND OF CRACK ARE YOU ON #marvel #Spider-Man #spiderman #spider man #marvel's spiderman #marvel's spider man #p

[todayisafridaynight]

reminiscing on the period where i didnt know sawashiro was modeled after ttm and the second i learned and embraced that it 1000% altered the way i drew him These Are Not The Same Bitch

#snap chats #i still remember the day someone inboxed me that fact like ik i mention this story every three seconds but its still so funny #like The Beginning Of The End For Me <- i became somehow even more wacko #thank you for singlehandedly changing the trajectory of films and movies id watch for months anon ill cherish you forever #this post is brought to you by one of my fave artists being like. with whatever jpn knowledge i have to translate. #'if i draw sawashiro as a man in his 50's it wont look like ttm... im glad he's a beautiful girl...' #LIIIIIIIKKKEEE SO TRUE BESTIE.... ttm is the prettiest girl ive ever seen this is true #the cool thing about ttm is that he has incredible range however this does not negate the fact he is Very Pretty #this just a restated version of that post i made the other day LMAO LIKE MECHANICALLY ttm can play sawashiro. very well even #And I Repeat rgg not committing to making 90's sawa look like ttm in his 30's was Majorly To Their Benefit #he can have the voice of a no-bullshit yakuza yet he still has the face of an angel its very funny all things considered #on the real tho its so funny like i only drew sawashiro like. idk five times before actually referencing pics of ttm #yet the difference is like night and day he ACTUALLY looks like a jackass. and much older than 38 BYE #its 1000% the lips. and the doe-like eyes but anyways im sick #i love being seen i love being heard... thank you how_to_open #i should redraw my first sawa drawing... or second.... my first sawa drawing was the one with masato im p sure #the second one's just a headshot so it'd be a better focus on how i draw sawashiro differently.. lol... #its like when rgg recasts a chara and their model just different as hell. amazing. #srry i mention how pretty ttm is eveyr three seconds this isnt healthy and ill stop until im reminded of the fact later on #ok bye i have to take an exam. “”“”“take an exam”“”“”“ all of the answers are on google BYE

[godblooded]

good morning little gay people in my phone.

#ooc. o kaptain. #[verizon did a batshit deal and by the beginning of next month you’ll be little #gay people in a NEW phone. ooooOooooooOoh.] #[i educate today but otherwise I’m exhausted as hell. but I think next week I have no appointments!! huzzah!! my ears are still killing me. #would love to write more words today after last night’s fucking like 7 paragraph word dump about selina Kyle being embarrassing about Barbie #if that’s not the cutest shit in the STRANGESt Way.]

[girl-scout-camp]

Why the hell am I taking on so much extra work and responsibility for free for a camp that can’t even be bothered to get me a staff shirt that fits?

#i’ve been mad about this for weeks #my staff shirt is two sizes too big #its the smallest one they ordered #it comes down past my shorts so I have to wear pants on the days we wear them #its too fucking hot to be doing that #the sleeves come down to my elbows #i look ridiculous #and i was promised in the beginning of the summer that they’d order me the right one #and turns out they’re not going to do that #so why the hell am I trying this hard for a camp that can’t even be bothered to do the bare minimum for me? #i feel the need to mention that I gave them my shirt size over a month before the order was placed #she speaketh #vent

[gazelessmenagerie]

So did he only burn down her village or

( it went more than that aalsfssjg )

( Broly got insanely jealous over a human woman he fancied quite a alot at that time showing Mirin more attention than him and This happened, followed by This happened after he lost his shit being jealous, and then This, )

( Extra bits that could give further context and all that Good Stuff bc this was a extensive little development thing spanning over months.

#|| Tag: Answered #Anonymous #|| Tag: OOC #( truth be told. a lot of it went on with discord and that's a whole ass novel I don't have the energy or time to really dig through ) #( but long story short. ) #( broly was even WORSE than he is today and you can imagine what Mirin had to go through dealing with this mean af asshole ) #( punting her/ bullying her/ calling her names and so on but she still viewed him like an older brother she never had. ) #( she taught him a lot of things with earth and for a time even Broly was beginning to calm down his shit a bit ) #( and learn things about the village he would've lived in had he not gotten so insanely jealous ) #( and nearly broke mirin's spine and burned her village to the ground in a fit. ) #( and it was something that had to happen over a coarse of months before he began to feel what we call Guilt ) #( and Remorse ) #( bc he genuinely did care to a certain point and he WAS actually happy but then his toxic personality ) #( of only ever knowing how to be a full blooded Saiyan / Monster / Devil ) #( came up and it came at the wrong time ) #( it's ... how do I say.. iTS REALLY A LOT TO DO WITH HIS INTERNAL SHIT TBH ) #( bc he's in a constant state of being at conflict due to my personal HC of Legendary Saiyans being far more gentler than their brethren ) #( but Z's case was beign traumatic with nearly being executed not even a day after his birth ) #( planet vegeta being destroyed and the course of his life being pretty much Hell to live with as he grew up ) #( forced him to become what he is right now. unstable. unable to control himself. violent. ) #( but Mirin came along and she had an impact on him to start slowly controlling himself a little but then shit happened. ) #( everything went to hell. ) #( and he pretends he isn't guilty for what he knows he did. knowing he ruined that village and the little runt he lowkey was beginning to ) #( care about more. ) #( given she was the last living remnant of his bygone race and when Goten came along ) #( broly didn't care Goten was Kakarot's spawn bc of Mirin's influence. he just accepted the little runt bc its the closest thing he can get #( to having Mirin back. ) #( its just layers upon layers of his personal shit and when he gets reminded of what he's done. It's like a goddamn shotgun to his heart. ) #( esp when he's buried it so far and for so long ) #( just jfc this man is not okay and no one taught him how to deal with his own emotional traumas and mental traumas )

[seventh-district]

so uh. that 2.2 Special Program, huh

#hsr #honkai star rail #hsr 2.2 #hsr spoilers #hsr leaks #the body of this post reads as far less enthusiastic than i really am #i just don’t know how to casually return from my latest 2 week hiatus only to gush abt a game i’ve hardly blogged abt before #but i’m not making a whole ass sideblog for it like i did for Genshin. nah y’all r gonna bear witness to my fixation with this one #so anyways don’t mind me. vibrating into another dimension with anticipation for the next 11 days #it’s insane man. a year ago i Never ever woulda thought i’d be so invested in this game. and it took Months for the game to really grab me #but i’m v glad i kept coming back even when i was struggling to really get into it. like i just had this feeling that if i stuck around and #gave the game a chance to really like. come into its stride. i just always felt like there was Something there and i just hadn’t found it #and holy shit i finally found it in Penacony. the devs really truly outdid themselves with this region and these characters and this story #not to discount everything that’s happened prior. like i was genuinely Liking it all before now but i wasn’t Loving it y’know #but that may be more a ‘me having to fight tooth n’ nail to force myself to consume new media’ thing than it is a matter of the actual game #anyways i came here to talk abt the program! bc since i’m not filming my HSR stuff i’m gonna be insufferable abt it on Tumblr instead ! :) #and i’m probably not filming any more Genshin stuff. or anything else at all for that matter but let’s not talk abt that dead dream #pun not intended lmao. Anyways let’s return to the subject at hand while there’s still room left in these tags shall we #i’m so fucking glad they had Aventurine on this program man. especially since he’s leaked to only have 18 lines in 2.2… it was nice to see- #-him here at least 🥹 i’ll take what i can get. his unenthusiastic little bird noises at the beginning.. him being reluctant to come out.. #the way one of the first things to come out of his mouth was ‘y’know DR RATIO once told me…’ like boy we get it ur in love with him 🙄 (/J!) #i love how they can’t go on these programs w/o talking abt each other it’s adorable. AND THE WAY HE WAS THE ONE TO EXPLAIN BOOTHILL’S KIT!? #they can’t just fuel my crackship like this… god and his whole ‘muddle-fudger.. son-of-a-nice-lady?’ thing had me wheezing #Aven mocking Boothill’s inability to curse was not on my special program bingo card but fuck i’m here for it #and Robin being all curious abt him was so cute.. ‘who /is/ he? … does he order milk at the bar?’ i’m crying she’s so sweet #also the trailer was fucking insane. which feels redundant as hell bc all of HoYo’s version trailers go hard but like. still. wow. #that millisecond long shot of Boothill surveying the skyline is so fucking good. also what the fuck is Jing Yuan doing here!! #not complaining at all tho. we’ve got JY & DH(IL?). Argenti(?). Boothill. Sunday. Aven. all my men r here and i am eating so fucking good #Seven.txt #viddy game stuff

[isdalinarhot]

I like cis Dalinar 4 trans Sadeas for breeding kink reasons….. but I also like t4t sadalinar for depraved horny transsexual reasons…….. all I know is cis4cis sadalinar is for cowards and weirdos

#luke.txt #drunkposting #purple dragon jungle juice #finally beginning to feel the alcohol thank fucking god #trans dalinar is fucking no op as hell he STAYS tittied up he STAYS pussyed up even when he is a radiant. amen #but yeah lately in the past 6 months it has become so that sadeas IS trans NO EXCEPTIONS #for better or for worse #sidenote I love that I’ve been on T for 2 and a half weeks and am noticing early changes (bottom growth; skin texture changes) #because it means I finally can call myself a transsexual #life can be dream

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad. #whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’ #I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn? #it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence. #like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5. #overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names. #can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time

[solradguy]

The weather needs to stop being cold and cloudy and stupid and miserable so my brain gets back out of fart stink hibernation seasonal affective disorder bastard mode. I gotta draw Sol Badguy but my motivation is directly tied to how much the sun's been out like I'm some kinda sunflower solar panel

#textpost #Winter is ALMOST OVER I saw a dandelion today in the yard and it was over 40f after the sun went below the treeline this evening #HOWEVER. we have gotten snow until May before. Hell on this bitch of an earth #Ordered Loctite for the grub screw on the gear on the extrusion motor shaft for my Ender today #Can't use it til it comes in and I glue it in place... #Tomorrow I gotta work on my 25th anniversary GG zine piece. It's gonna be cool af this whole zine is #Been thinking of things to do to my red jacket too. Might do a design with my brain dog on the back #Haven't thought further than that yet #Haven't worked on translations in a while either. No motivation. Too many think points required to read Japanese #I'll get back into it eventually #I've been keeping up on my kanji studies at least so it's not degrading. God there're so many #Mostly I've been reading a lot. Got a book on dragons. A western. Some books on writing to clean up my technique #Did a little planning for chapter 5 of Interlude this evening too. I didn't get far because I gotta reread Begin's epilogue #and check the actual canon timeline. Though Interlude's got about 5 more months chronologically til it's to the end of the epilogue #Need to clean my pipe (weed) too... #I deleted the Tumblr app off my phone the other day. Need a social media detox. I was wasting a lot of time on here #Getting worked up about shit that doesn't matter

[countdowntodusk]

i know we all joke about People Being Wrong On The Internet but theres seriously been something in the water over on twitter making people try to reconstruct and/or traditionalize genres and its making my head spin

#some bullshit about jrpgs that has been spiraling since the beginning of this month #people dont know what the hell theyre actually saying anymore im convinced

[tricornonthecob]

Me: I have been cranky all day, why have I been cranky all day

Looming tax deadlines: bonjour.

Me: ....

Me: oh, right.

#do you know what is absolute hell to someone with ADHD and discalculia #1099s and contractor tax math #and motherfucking paperwork #and the Mandelbrot Spreadsheet Fractal Hell that is US tax code #dat self-employed life #Every year I am in hell for four months #then completely and entirely forget the hell that is the four months before tax day #only to begin the cycle anew #I just need to hire an accountant f'real f'real #I have had crossfades that felt less charged than tax season

[naamahdarling]

.

#i don't know man we just got pulled over so the cop could tell us we have a headlight out and our tag was expired which cost $300 to renew #and we don't have that and also shit is still broken in the house that has to be fixed that we couldn't afford to begin with #and we have to pay for the rest of my boyfriend's name change this month before they maybe try to ban that too #so i just don't fucking know what the hell to do #i don't know what to do