I feel really weak, I could only stay up for a few hours today and now I'm back in bed
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As I'm being forced to stay locked in a room all day bc we are having construction work in my house, I'm working on the last chapter of Champagne Problems. (Yes, the next one will be the last one lol) when I finally have some peace n privacy, my writing flows almost naturally, much easier than when my mom is always storming inside my room uninvited (she knows no boundaries...) anyways... I still don't know if I'll post it this year, when it's ready and make an exception (I posted about my break. Link is in my pinned post) or if I'll wait until January. Maybe I'll post it as soon as it's ready bc I get anxious too! haha Any of you is excited for the last chapter?
I love you all 🤍
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i have therapy today and i have to go it alone, as Jun has dropped from the front due to a trigger that turned out to be the last straw for now
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// My messy work station—
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Tonight I feel empty and self-destructive. Passively self-destructive. I'll just sit here until the world collapses around me, nothing more. Nothing less.
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GOOD LUCK ON UR MOCK EXAMS AND OTHER WORKS ‼️‼️ you’ll do well, im sure of it! take breaks as well <33 - 🍚
Thank you rice anon! Didn't expect anyone to even read that post, just needed to scream into the void. I'm currently in the middle of it. Two subjects are done four more to go.
Means a lot that you took the time to message me that.
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a bit of poetry I wrote to help make me feel better right now (I don't typically share this kind of stuff, but it made me feel better, so maybe if any of you are having a hard time it might help make you feel better and that would mean the world to me)
I'm having a very difficult time right now.
My body is overflowing with emotions that I want out.
My heart leaves a hole in my chest where tears run out of, filling my bedroom and keeping me under.
I want to yell and scream and throw things to break them,
But I also want to sit on the forest floor and cry while the raindrops fall onto my face, leaving the same salty taste in my mouth as the tears of my mourning.
My body is tense and shaking ready to explode like a star to leave behind pure concentrated emotion as I cease to exist
My body is overflowing with emotions but I don't want them to be gone because then what would I be then?
I'd lie on the forest floor, no longer crying but staring into the cloudy sky through the treetops, letting the raindrops hit my eyes and run down my face.
eventually, my body becomes overgrown with vines and moss, my lungs filled with rainwater and bugs, as I once again return to the earth.
I'm having a very difficult time right now, But I'll survive.
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also you ever make a soup so good that after you taste it you do a little jumping around and fall like that family guy pose and just stay there for a while
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dying in that way you feel like you probably deserve
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when you are filled with the desire to socialise.
But there is no one around.
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