#but it’s too expensive on my new insurance

[doctorwormandtheelectricmayhem]

DID YOU KNOW that for some people- adderal makes them more tired?

I learned this today during my psychiatrist appointment- because I am one of those people.

Apparently it’s not normal to be yawning all day & desperate to go back to bed while on stimulant medication

#adhd #adhd problems #adderal xr #I miss vyvanse #but it’s too expensive on my new insurance #I fucking hate private insurance #im just an eepy girlie

[guinevereslancelot]

eye doctor was trying not to scare me today bc i have a sight threatening condition 🥲 it's probably treatable but i need to go to a specialist

#havent been to the eye doctor in six years but i was like okay i need to update my prescription my headaches are getting really bad #and my prescription barely changed so the doctor said it wasnt that #also this other condition doesn't cause headaches either so treating it wont even help :( #tho it does make me light sensitive which is a trigger ao maybe it will help a little i hope #but mostly i hope its treatable #also i have no health insurance so hopefully its not expensive lol #but at least the job search is going well so maybe i can handle the treatment myself #but since i will go blind if its untreated my parents will definitely cover it if i cant i just feel bad #they paid for my appt to get the new prescription today too but that wasn't very much i didn't even get the new glasses #but seeing a cornea specialist regularly to treat a scary condition is going to be expensive 😭 #i dont even know how expensive yet tho #maybe i should make a gofundme or something #this has been a shitpost #im not 100% sure my parentsncan afford it if its expensive #probably depends how far its progressing and how fast andnwhat the cause is and a million other things #but i know it can be difficult and resist treatment 😰 #and its not early for catching it at all

[sailoreuterpe]

So, in the last 24 hours:

our bathroom light started flickering our dog started limping and spasming our freezer started over-freezing our refrigerator died we found out that the muffler on our single vehicle is shot

I hate it here.

#Notes by Nikki #I'm trying so hard to stay positive #for my mom's sake #she's not doing well #it's possible that we won't be able to go on our trip at all #and we've already altered our plans #originally we were going to go to Texas #but then the pipes burst #now we're planning to just go a few hours away to visit family #but even that will be too expensive in gas #if we have to spend hundreds of dollars #on vet bills #and new appliances #and rewiring #and who the actual fuck knows what else #I hate it here #I hate adulting #I hate being poor #I hate that everyone that I know #is also poor #capitalism sucks #capitalism is evil #capitalism is a scam #capitalism is hell #capitalism is a disease #capitalism is the worst #also my teeth have been bothering me #and I don't have insurance

[lucaswarmhotchocolate]

haven't been able to cook something rlly good or eat my favorite foods in the way that I like them recently and it's doing horrors for my mental health. I would honestly settle for Kraft mac n cheese and dino nuggies rn (I don't like Kraft brand mac n cheese and much prefer homemade but that's ridiculously expensive and dino nuggies are fine I guess but I prefer something crisper like popcorn chicken or McDonald's nuggets)

#i want spaghetti and homemade meat sauce #i want lovingly made enchiladas #i want thick grilled burgers with crisp and bright lettuce #freshly fried wings in buffalo sauce #pulled pork sandwiches #hashbrowns and chicken fried steak and biscuits and gravy #freshly baked pineapple upside down cake #cheerios with frozen blueberries #bleu cheese and celery sticks #sharp and sweet coke with wet burritos and mexican rice and refried beans #tortilla chips and guac #hot fries that are almost soggy with grease and generously battered and fried fish #mashed potatoes and slowly braised beef with a thick gravy #cheese and carbs and meat and veg #im so. fucking. hungry. #and every time i look in the pantry or the fridge to cook something i can't come up with anything #we have no spices no pasta no cheese no nothing #cuz apparently even pepper is too fucking expensive #im gonna die #im gonna literally die #anyways would like to mention that this is all being caused by a new insurance that has been slowly draining every cent from this family #also my bones hurt im gonna scream and rip someone's face off and fucking eat it #even tho it sounds gross im just rlly mad

[cottoncandyopinions]

They should invent doctor's appointments that don't make you want to kill yourself

#Chronic illness #Chronic pain #Either the doctor is shit and gaslights you #Or it's a normal appointment until you find out insurance fucked you over in a new way #My favorite feeling is the one that I'm too expensive to live despite needing very basic treatment

[this-doesnt-endd]

I feel like my crown just shifted up oh my god

#i have a cleaning thursday before work so like i can tell someone #but also why did i do that i schedualed it super early like im already regreting it #considering itll be the day after valentines which means my shift ends at 9/9:30 #and ill have to be there at my dentist by 7:30am #its whatever i just need to finish my dental work at the office then get my wisdom tooh pulled and ill be done w my teeth health wise #and then its onto the allergy shots which reminds me i have to reschedual my appt w my ent hoepfully its not anything too crazy far out #but i wanna talk w him and be like hey these shits are expensive what are my options or do u wanna be a homie and update my diagnosis #so they can get covered by my insurance cause i think if i can breath at like even 80% capacity my life would immensly change #and i was reading abt how like major chronic allergies lead to inflamation and my drs were concered abt that n i know i need to lose weight #but not being able to breath thru my nose hinders that to a degree #but like severe allergies are horrible for inflamation and like fucks up ur body and its like no wonder i feel horrible all the time #and itll prolly massively improve my sleep which also helps you #and i gotta go see my thyroid dr whos on the opposite end of town and wont answer the fucking phone to schedule and appt #cause i have to do that to renew my prescription and frankly i wish my primary dr could take care of that or get a new thyroid dr in general #but shes on maternity leave so ill have to wait for that #my dentist is also on maternity leave so ill have to see a diff one #i also ghosted my cardiologist but he literally called and was like ur fine the tests we ran showed ur in good health #but u should be more in shape and i didnt want another lecure abt being fat so i didnt go but i prolly should tho my results #prolly arent relavent anymore #and ive attemped ive done my bike workout a bit but its also been winter and i cannot bring myself to do anything besides rot in bed #most of the time and if i am going out its like to the movies or events where i just stand around and talk to people very low effort #i also have to email that lady abt my cetificate i still havent gotten abd the haircut place who charved me twice and write that damn review #that ive forgotten so many times

[xamaxenta]

Once again i mourn how productive i could be if i just wasnt so hilariously mentally compromised all the time

#but therapy is expensive i dont have insurance aand . its hard finding someone to click with #guess im exhausted of losing therapists too and having to find new ones and tellinf my story again. and again #practicing mindfulness is cool but how far does it go #feels unending #fucking pain in the ass #i just dont want to live another sixty years like this

[madnessismylover]

Tw: negative

Wish you could like... sue your depressed for all the time and money it costs to take care of it and anything else that results from it.

I never wanted depression so why do I need to pay for the things that make me not want to off myself? (Pills/therapy/etc.)

For the rest of my life I'll need to pay for the things that are gonna keep me alive because of something I cannot control. I can't just tell my brain 'hey, work properly so we don't wanna fucking die'

If I hadn't been depressed in school I would've planned ahead, I would have been better than where I am today.

I never thought I'd get to 18 and I'm gonna be 26 in April. I don't blame past me because they weren't doing well. Unmedicated. I don't wanna go back to that. It was scary. Actively thinking it's easier to die is fucking terrifying.

Living is so fucking expensive.

#tw suicide mention #tw suicide idealization #paid $400 today to take care of cavities that formed because I don't care enough about myself to floss amd brush every day #and this was just the first appointment out of three. #having no insurance fucking sucks why did my dental and vision end before life insurance? #i only have another two months of that and most of the antidepressants i take are gonna be too expensive #i have to get a new therapist because they don't take the only insurance I'm gonna qualify for #ik i never thought I'd make it this far but fucking hell i never thought it would be this bad #so many bills and it all just doesn't seem worth it #can't get a job have to take care of my 101 grandma who is miserable and actively prays for death (which ya know is great for ME to hear/s) #dads got cancer moms the only one working shes gonna be 67 and wanted to retire YEARS ago but can't afford to #no car so even if i could get a job i couldn't get there #everything is about fucking money #and i know people have it worse but that doesn't make my situation any better #I'm just so done.. #tw negative

[vote2]

our insurance covered my glasses nearly completely btw 😳 this is the first year we've ever had vision insurance they said the total was 28 bucks and my mom outloud said "youre shitting me"

#like. my mom bought up one on the insurance cause her and my brother and now me have transitions so thats why #that part got covered. and i just happened to pick a brand that was cheep frames but theyre still rly nice im obsessed #this is like christmas to me i love owning new things ^_^ my new work shoes came in they fit perfect too #theyre black though and im going to spill flour on them immeidatly but i am so so happy #contacts are expensive rn though. guy told me 300 for a years supply and that rly the cheepest i can get them is maybe 200 #mmmmm -_- i have like 8 left of each though 3 weeks each... #ill wear glasses to class come january but i cant wear glasses to work #whatever... #ill get a dentist appointment before the new year im hoping. i have to wait until after my birthday to get on work insurance and #then it will backlog to when i get kicked off cause its gonna take a week or 2 :/ stressing me out #but if i can get an appointment in december... thats this year and the next policy starts jan ofc ofc. #idk how all this works im glad my mom did hospital insurance stuff she understands all the little acronyms 😭

[youremyonlyhope]

That natural hair struggle of having your hair in a protective style for a while, then taking it out and instantly being tired having your hair be loose.

I’m literally like 2 seconds away from going back to my salon and getting box braids this time.

#natural hair #curly hair #protective styles #i had mini twists all summer. i think like 3 and half months in total. i redid them multiple times in that time frame don't worry #they were only frizzy and looking gross like 1/3 of the time #but it's so easy to have my hair in those twists and now that my hair is back to normal i'm getting lazy #which means it's getting matted. and dry. and doesn't look great. #gonna wash my hair right now and put some effort into it but i'm really thinking of getting box braids for the first time #i got no money though. i mean i have money. but not as much as i did. but i did start a new job! #but i haven't gotten my first pay check yet. #and i still owe my brother money for some stuff from the hawaii trip like the planes and my part of the airbnb #i've paid most of it back but venmo and zelle are being stupid so i'm sending it in chunks #and i just paid my insurance which is way too expensive #so i can't spend hundreds of dollars on my hair right now but GOD do i want to #maybe after 2 or 3 paychecks i'll splurge and do it

[faeriekit]

"Okay." Danny slowly laid the already cold body back onto the table, ready to slide back it into the refuge of cold storage. "Okay. Dead guy. Stay there."

The body didn't move.

"Fantastic. Now. Hang out while I pour the embalming fluid into the pump, alright? It should only be a minute."

And it usually did; working in a funeral home wasn't extremely glamorous, but it paid the bills, and Danny had already been used to the rhyme and rhythm of negotiating death with the public by the time he sent in his mortuary school application. It had been a transition that made sense. And in the end, the degree had only cost him a few extra years post-graduation and a little dig into student loans, and now Danny had a stable 12-8 job and health insurance valid in the state of new jersey.

Today, though, the pump had that decided enough was enough. With a bang and a boom, the pump spat out a cloud of smoke and clunked uncomfortably.

The dead body sat up.

Danny scrambled over to push it back down. "No. We talked about this. Dead people don't move. If you want to stay here and have me put you back together all the time, you have to stay put. Got it?"

Whatever the weird gold-eye corpses were on in Gotham, they at least listened to him on occasion. They weren't ghosts, per se— they never pinged on any of the ghost detection devices Mom and Dad had packed in his going-away-to-college bag— but they were, despite being occasionally animate, perfectly deceased.

Weird. Danny had never gotten used to it. Still, they came in droves, too eager to sit on the top of the basement stairwell and lurk in the corners and stare endlessly at them with their weird, avian eyes, and sometimes they heralded the arrival similarly weird-ass bodies that had lost their heads or their arms or their limbs through the more conventional channels.

"I'm losing too much thread to all y'all coming in all the time," Danny complained to the dead body, who, at the moment, was the only person present to blame. "Stop getting your limbs cut off. This stuff is expensive, you know. It's a specialty order."

The body didn't even have the courtesy to blink. Rude.

"At least let them bury you this time. Every time one of you darts off when my back's turned, my boss thinks I'm stealing corpses. My coworkers think I'm building my own Frankenstein or something."

The corpse neither verbalized nor blinked, but Danny hadn't expected it to; with a sigh, he rolled the corpse back into cold storage, locked its little door (not that locking it in had ever stopped it) and called it quits for the night.

It's not like anyone was paying him for the extra hours anyway.

#I'm very pro Danny accidentally adopts a whole bunch of Talons #people have definitely done it before but this scene came to me in a vision #a horrible caffeinated vision #could absolutely be an excuse for #talon!dick #talons #dp x dc #faer fic #dpxdc #dcxdp #talon!au #dcu crossover #death tw #well. the funeral industry anyway #medical tw #just in case #corpse tw #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #free to a good home

[fractallogic]

sickkkkkkkkk just did The Math™ and found out my rent is fully 70% of my take-home per month

which, let's be honest, is a lot better than me making $0 per month and spending the same on rent, but fucking still

#dad is parceling out my 'inheritance' annually which helps substantially #scone had his passport kept by the consulate today which means that he's going to get his greencard #and then he's also going to get a job probably more easily than me because he knows python and sql #so it's going to be fine #but still. christ. #what a realization to have. #also according to various calculation websites the total tax rate i'm paying in OR is ~23% #which i KNOW due to my grant but my god #it's so HIGH #OR has one of the highest income tax rates for people earning under 100K in the country #it is—this may surprise you—higher than either CA or NY #A N Y W A Y #everything will be fine. scone will get a job too and contribute to household expenses #my insurance rates will go down by apprx. 80% (not an exaggeration) even with adding him onto the insurance #i can also get nicer insurance that may cover some amount of out-of-network stuff #if that's the case then my psychiatric care will also go down #also i will get a raise next year and can continue to 'reskill' for a cushier job #(i.e. higher paying. the workload in this job at this point seems... fair for the wage lol) #and again. stability. holy cow the stability #i just sometimes hate learning new things. this is one of those things #i am so tired of living in capitalism though #it sucks

[noisy-weasel]

Man how do you explain to your parents that no I don't have a future like stop pitching all these ideas to me because you sound insane. Like I guess they genuinely don't realize how close to death I am. I'd already be gone but there's no knives in the house Sharp enough. Like that's the ONLY reason I am alive. Period. And the fact I'm still here is so fucking stressful because every second I'm still alive is money and energy my family is wasting on me and I fucking hate hate hate it. Honest to god forcing people who are horribly suicidal to continue living is a crime like every year I'm still here increases how awful I feel tenfold and I should be able to buy pills that can kill myself just over the counter and there's just no excuses that I can't

#i know that sounds insane but if you've ever been horribly social you'd know how sure i am of this #it's genuinely a for society to try so hard to keep me here but there's also no resources to make me better #no healthcare no therapists can't even get afucking antidepressant without a therapist #at Least while i was still on my dads insurance my doctor couldn't put me on any #and then he forwarded me too a therapist that ALSO didn't prescribe pills #i couldn't pay for the sessions because of course i can't so WHYYYYY AREN'T YOU JUST LETTING ME KILL MYSELF??? #like do you see how this doesn't make sense???? #personal #suicide tw #srsly tho my parents just trying to pretend I'm not suicidal but i am genuinely going to be dead before 30 that's not a Joke that's #something i know in my heart is true #i was actually all planned and ready to kill myself when my parents went up both in July but my mom got sick and stayed home #it literally ruined everything #ahhhhhggg being alive sucks so much i feel so broken and worthless #someone buy me a knife please please please please #and honestly i think it's gotten to a point where i view getting a job as death #because i know i NEED a job because I'm nothing but a burden but i also know the moment i have money I'm starting a ticking click to my end #new killing myself is simply inevitable so getting a job ill hate (i have no prospects bc college too expensive and barely any experience #which will simply funnel me into a soul crushing American retail job) #so it's just like okay... my paychecks will be going toward a knife or a gun and itll be literally imposible for me to live if i have a #means of dying

[cr0wc0rpse]

I did my eye appointment and get new glasses soon 👍

#however I didn’t realize how expensive it is. good lird #I went to this place because my mom goes there and wow. frames expensive #my insurance covers a fair bit but I was only able to pay half atm #it did include lens stuff too. I wasn’t only paying for frames #and I asked my mom to pay for half and she agreed! big win #so yay new glasses :-) #I did find out that my left eye astigmatism is a bit worse and now my right eye has a mild astigmatism too #well. such is life #dead text

[thedisablednaturalist]

Literally all the shit rich people have turned into luxuries are stuff many disabled people need (or would need to manage their pain but can't afford it)

Comfy ergonomic chairs

Indoor pool/hot tub (therapy bath)

Massages on the regular

Aides (rich people call them servants)

Yea even a cook who makes you special meals (perfect for people with special dietary needs and for those with severe allergies, as well as people who are in too much pain or are otherwise unable to cook)

Elevators in your house (even small ones just for groceries, my rich aunt has one in her beach house!)

Rich people don't buy these for fun I hope but custom powerchairs are obscenely expensive. It pisses me off when I see another person invent "the wheelchair of the future!" Which then is literally never fucking used because none of us can afford it (and insurance definitely won't pay)

Indoor gyms or even personal exercise equipment. Hard to go out to a gym somewhere else when you're disabled, especially if you are immunocompromised

Outdoor spaces to relax in. It's literally vital for your mental health to at least see the outdoors. I'd rather be bedridden in a sunroom (with retractable blinds) than a shitty apartment with one tiny window.

There's even freaking health retreats these people go to regularly. There's a fibromyalgia retreat in new york where they basically take care of all your needs while trying different treatments and seeing which ones help. Either it's heaven or making money off of scamming desperate people who are able to scrape the money together to go.

Private planes, which I honestly think shouldn't exist, but one that specifically catered to people with disabilities (spaces for wheelchairs/other mobility devices, accessible handicapped airplane bathroom, anxiety reducing tools, trained medical personnel and care team)

Also customized cars, except instead of making gas guzzling racecars to joyride in while everyone else is trying to get to work, cars with electric ramps, lifts, doors, cars customized for someone with limb differences. Those cars where you can roll your wheelchair right up to the wheel. Fuck even self driving cars once they are no longer deathtraps.

Skincare products that are safe for sensitive skin like eczema but also actually work

Nice-looking clothes customized to fit limb differences, access points, look good in wheelchairs, colostomy bags, etc. while also being comfortable and not fast fashion.

Dental care!!! What the fuck why is this shit so expensive!! I don't want my teeth to fall out!! (Disabled people usually need more dental care bc we have a harder time keeping up maintenance)

Rich people go and splurge on all of these even though they don't need them while calling disabled people selfish for begging their insurance for even one of these.

#disability #chronic disability #chronic pain #chronic illness #fibromyalgia #spoonie #wheelchair #wrenfea.exe #i hope one day i can get even a small therapy tub #bc hot water therapy is one of the best things for my pain #and swimming is the only painless exercise i can do

[dcxdpdabbles]

Any new ideas for congratulations! It's triplets? Love the idea of Jason just freaking out and trying to figure out how to build a relationship with his kids while being made fun of by his family and said kids. Especially if he goes overprotective mode because Danny has clown trauma too and gets snagged by the joker

Jason watches as Danny- his son.- impatiently taps his fingers against the table. His boy's gaze was looking at everything, taking in the big fancy Wayne Mannor with a sort of disinterest he was not expecting of a child so young.

His sister and Brother- both with alarmingly similar names- were also disinterested, but Dani was swinging her legs, and Dan was tapping his spoon and fork against the table in a fast-paced drumming.

It's strange to know he would fidget a lot as a kid but he always resorted to finger tapping. Was the tripples little habit from him? He wonders what else they inherited and what he missed out on seeing.

"I don't understand," Jasmine said, overlooking the contract Bruce's lawyers wrote up. " Why would you want custody now? It's been five years."

"I didn't know." Jason swallows past the lump in his throat as she gives him an unimpressed stare over the paper. He feels Bruce place a hand on his shoulder, and the silent support allows him to continue. "If I have, I wouldn't have ever let them grow up without me."

"Jason doesn't want full custody," Tim cuts in with a soft voice that has tricked lesser men into selling their shares. He and the rest of his family are all sitting across from Jassmin Fenton, as she is carefully lured back to the manor to discuss their next step. "He just wants to be part of his kid's lives and would happily share that with you."

"Not telling him about the kids sort of played into that," Steph mutters tactlessly. Unfortunately, her voice carries, and the woman across from them bristles.

There is a tense moment where he thinks Jassmin is about to curse them all out before she sighs and slumps in her seat. "Well, it wasn't like I had a means to contact you when I found out. You gave me a fake name."

Jason winces. "I sort of forgot I told you my name was Petter."

"Wasn't a total lie" Dani chirps "It is your middle name."

Jasmine rubs her eyes. "Look, Jason, I don't want to stop you from seeing the kids, but this is all too much right now. I'm dealing with a lot right now-"

"You are currently homeless," Damian cuts in, causing Jasmine to stop in genuine bewilderment.

"No, we're not." Dan scoffs. "You were waiting for us at our house. Waiting to ambush us."

"The house that was on the street that Poison Ivy just destroyed," The boy says, showing everyone his phone screen. There, clear as day is, their home is nothing but rumble. Jasmine's face spams, and she quickly checks her phone, paling at what she reads.

"Oh, Ancients. It's gone. It's all gone," She whispers, gripping the phone. The three kids immediately stiffen, watching their mother with strange intensity. Too aware of what this means.

They were mature for their age, and that is never a good thing.

Oh gods. Did his children live on the streets? Had Jason's carelessness hurt his children like his parents have hurt him?

"Mom?" Danny asks and that seems to snap Jasmine out of her spirl.

"Hotel!" She gasps, hands shaking as she quickly starts tapping on her phone. Jason catches a glimpse of her screen and realizes she is making a to-do list. "I have to book a hotel room. Call the insurance company, go and try to salvage whatever we can....what else?"

"You can stay here, Fenton," Damian surprisingly offers. "Until your home is rebuilt"

"We couldn't possibly-"

"Hotels are expensive, and you must focus on other more important needs. Father certainly has the space."

Jason jerks into action. "This will also give me a chance to connect with the kids!"

Jasmine bites her lip, turning to her children. Jason could appreciate that she was willing to include them in big decisions. The three nodded, so she eventually sighs.

"Alright. But only until I can get our housing settled. And I'll pay rent"

Jason would argue but he recognized the look in her eye. She would not be sway from making payments. So he agrees, tapping his fingers on the table in a specific rhythm to make sure his family agrees too.

He knows it pains Bruce- the old man already thinks of the triplets as his grandchildren and the idea of charging them to live with him will kill him.

Jason notices the way Dan's eyes zero in on his tapping and the glance around the family members. He fights a proud grin when realization bleeds into his boy's eyes. He's got a smart one, likely aware of that the tapping is a form of Morse code.

Tim did say- after pulling up all files of the four- that his children had developed insane intelligence. Maybe he should get them tested for certification geniuses.

"Hey Mr. Jason," Dani suddenly speaks up.

"Yes Darling?"

"I suggest you remove your eyes from my mom before I remove them from your face." The little girl even punches her palm in a poor intimidation attempt. His heart melts.

Then his face turns a dark red hue at Jasmine's raised brow. Unwillingly flashes of thier last time being face-to face rise in his mind. He coughs awkwardly as his sons face become as protective as their sister, Dan cracking his knuckles and Danny reaching for a knife.

"Oh yeah" Tim deadpans watching the kids reaction "No need for DNA test. Those are definitely Jason's kids"

He agrees, he just hopes he can show his children he plans on sticking around and being the father they deserve.

No one notices Cass and Steph slip away to deal with Posion Ivy. Jason kinda wants to send her a thank you gift for making it possible to have his family move into the manor.

#dcxdpdabbles #dc x dp crossover #Congratulations! Its Triplets! #the Dannies are protective of Jazz #Jason is more focus on being a dad but he does have a interest in Jazz #Damian is plotting on being the best uncle #The Waynes vs the Custody battle