#but like think abt it… that’s horrific

[amourtoken]

so I literally cannot stop thinking abt this here u go

god kink Noah and softie Christian reader

I already know I'm going to hell so no need to remind me ik this is filth but that's what's fun abt it also basing the looks of the building off of this big ass church I used to go to and it's very weird and industrial so apologies if it's confusing

*NSFW below the cut, MDNI*

cw: sacrilege lmao, degradation, raw sex, oral (f receiving), dirty talk, Noah kinda thinks he's better than everyone else, maybe bc he thinks he's God idk, corruption, loss of virginity, experienced Noah, dirty talk, slightly public, belly bulge, dacryphilia

♡ Noah's only at church cause he has to be, otherwise why the fuck would he waste his morning here. He sits through the awful music and wonders how all of these people live such a lie, its pathetic to him. The only thing that makes it bearable is the pretty little thing in the little white sundress that never fails to show up every Sunday.

♡ he thinks you're so cute. Brainwashed, but cute. All he ever thinks abt is how he could desecrate you and how you'd look so much prettier worshipping him.

♡ Noah is damn near your exact opposite, covered in tattoos, always wearing dark colors. He never really talks to anyone either, keeping to himself. You'd say he was miserable if you didn't see his face soften a little every time you catch his eye. You try to make a point and interact with him every chance you get, maybe he's lonely? You can't let that happen. He's the worship leader's son, you'd think he'd be having a better time but who knows what's going through his head.

♡ Noah almost feels bad that he can't keep his thoughts in order when you walk up to him, pretty smile plastered on your face. You're chattering about today's service and he's picturing his hands on your hips, fingers digging into the soft skin while he bucks up into you and gets to hear those pretty little noises he's sure you'd make. All he'd have to do is pull your dress up too, it'd be easy. He's nodding along with your conversation and trying to seem interested but it's getting harder and harder to pretend he's listening.

♡ his eyes drifting to the neckline of your dress which is pretty modest but God he'd be able to pull it down so easy, tease your nipples while you grind yourself on his thigh and whine for him to fill you up. His eyes snap back to your face which is etched with concern.

"Noah, are you feeling alright? You seem out of it."

♡ he could lie, but what's the point. Isn't lying a sin?

"I'm fine. Just thinking about how pretty you'd look split on my cock."

♡ did he really say that??? You weren't sure how to even respond. Or if you should at all. You were flushed down to your chest and Noah admired the pretty pink tinge to your skin. He was almost nervous he'd fucked up but he knew what to say to have you following him like a little sheep. If you can sit through service every week and genuinely believe the shit his father is saying, you'll do anything if it's said in the right tone.

"Bet you've never even fucked before, have you? Saving yourself for marriage and all that bullshit. You know I could make you feel good, you should let me show you."

♡ you're still stunned, standing like a little deer in some headlights. You'd be lying if you said you didn't find Noah attractive but you felt like he wasn't in the cards for you. He's everything you're not, but maybe that's what's so enticing about him. How he talked about your beliefs stung a little but you couldn't help the way your thighs pressed together at the thought of him and his suggestion. He'd never hurt you, right? You can trust him, why would he wrong you?

♡ Noah nodded toward one of the exit doors, turning to leave and hoping you'd follow. You nearly tripped over your own feet trying to catch up with him. Your brain felt fuzzy and you knew whatever he was gonna put you through was horrifically sinful but you can be forgiven for being curious, right? Noah locked the door behind you, leaving you both in an empty stairwell. Hopefully no one tried to interrupt the two of you, because Noah was immediately to work. He walked you backwards until your back was pressed to the concrete wall and he tangled his fingers in your hair, pulling until you whimpered and keened against his hand for some relief.

"The only fucking God in this building is me. I expect you to treat me like such."

"You answer to me, and you follow my fucking directions, yeah? Gonna be a good girl and do what I say?"

♡ you felt your heart race terribly in your chest from how close he was, you felt like a prey animal being stalked by a predator. You really didn't know what to expect, you've never done this before. You shouldn't be doing this at all...what have you gotten yourself into...

♡ Noah surprisingly sinks to his knees in front of you, hands brushing at your knees and sliding up your thighs, hiking up your dress as he goes. His long fingers hooked under the waistband of your panties to tug them down and he threw one of your legs over his shoulder, without warning burying his face in your pussy making you yelp and tangle your fingers in his hair for some balance.

(Something like this yk)

♡ you pulled his hair tightly between your fingers, whining while he lapped at your pussy and groaned against you when you pulled a little too hard. You felt pricks of pins and needles all over your body, it felt like a swarm of butterflies populated your lower stomach. Oh god...one of his hands steadied itself on your thigh but the other slid up to glide between your folds, gathering the slick mess before prodding at your entrance making you squirm. He was right, you hadn't done this before. He wanted you to enjoy yourself though, that's why he was taking the time to stretch you out and make you cum, so you could actually take his cock afterwards.

♡ the fingers at your entrance slid in slowly, stretching you out and scissoring slightly to spread you further. Your legs were shaking and the swarm in your belly felt 100x worse. You were worried you couldn't hold yourself up much longer...Noah pressed his fingers as deep as he could fit them, brushing your cervix and curving up to press right into the most sensitive spot he could. He laughed against your pussy when he felt you clench around his fingers, teeth brushing your clit and making you whimper pathetically above him. He was the one on his knees and you were unraveling. Pitiful.

"You gonna cum for me? Can't let you take this cock till you cum, won't fit."

♡ when he nudges a 3rd finger in you completely come undone, tugging his face closer to you and nearly crying while you grind into him through your orgasm. He speeds his fingers up inside of you until you're squirming and begging him to stop. He withdraws and stands back up, reminding you he towers over you at his full height and he licks your slick off of his fingers right in front of you. You're still panting and your legs feel shaky, this isn't helping.

♡ Noah thinks you look adorable so shaken up, he can't help but admire how your chest is rising so quickly and your face is flushed. He did that to you. He's gonna do so much more too. He backs you into the wall again and runs his hands down your thighs, picking you up and pressing your back into the wall for extra support while your legs wrapped around his waist. You threw your arms around his neck to steady yourself but he wasn't gonna drop you, he could hold you up for hours if he needed to. Again though, he thinks you're adorable and lets you think he could drop you just to get your heart racing again.

♡ he holds you up with one arm while freeing his achingly hard cock with the other. You didn't even really get a chance to see it, but when he drug the tip through the slick mess between your legs you could describe the feeling as dread. He felt huge. Noah leaned his head against your neck, pressing soft kisses up to your ear and nipping at the soft skin.

"Gotta relax for me, promise I'll make you feel so good...trust me"

"Can't wait to feel how tight this pussy is, can't believe I'm your first. Bet I'll be the last too."

"Gonna fucking ruin you for everyone else, gonna be mine forever, yeah?"

"So much for staying pure, hm? All it took was one little comment and here you are letting me fuck you raw in a stairwell. Wonder how your god feels about that."

♡ he'd planned on taking it slow but after sinking in just a few inches he couldn't help himself. He trusted up into you, hilting himself in one move and sank his teeth deep into your shoulder to try and muffle the groan that escaped his chest. He slapped a hand over your mouth as he sank in and thank God he did because the sound you made was nothing short of a scream. Big tears welled in your eyes even after all the work he did to prep you, the stretch of taking his cock felt almost too much. Noah was loving every moment, watching you fall apart for him. He pressed a large hand to your stomach as he started fucking himself into you just to feel how deep he fit in your poor body.

"O-oh god-"

"The only fucking god you should be praying to is me."

♡ your whimpers and moans were nonstop but thankfully muffled against his palm, he didn't want anyone interrupting you. You gripped his cock just fucking right and he doubted he could really last long but he needed to have you unravel on his dick before he could finish. Noah reached up and tugged the front of your dress down, leaning to absolutely cover your chest in hickeys and lick at your overly sensitive nipples, your whines pitched up when his teeth got a little too rough but he couldn't help but admire his work. Your pretty soft skin marred with teeth marks and bruises. There's no way you could walk back out there and have no one notice, everyone would know exactly what you did, and who you did it with. Perfect.

"bet you've been thinking about this just as much as I have, huh bunny? Needed to get fucked, needed to get filled up by some fat cock, yeah? Tell me."

"Your little god was keeping you from this, does he really feel better than me? Wanna hear you say it."

"Gonna cum again for me, bunny? Need to feel you squeeze this cock, you can do it. I got you."

♡ your head fell back against the hard wall as he fucked into you, the coil in your stomach tightened unbearably. Every thrust sank as deep as he could possibly get and made your legs shake in his hold. Noah was chasing your pleasure as much as his own, he loved seeing your pretty little pathetic expressions. He slid a hand between your bodies and barely even had a chance to brush your clit as you came. His arm around you tightened to keep you still as he fucked you through it, tears spilling from your eyes and ruining your pretty makeup.

"S-shit- that's it- good girl, feels good yeah? So good for me-"

"That's it, tell me who's making you feel this good baby say my fuckin' name- n-need to hear it"

♡ his thrusts picked up in intensity, fingers sinking into your hips hard enough to leave Bruises and he sank in impossibly deep as he shuddered through his own end, you whined at the feeling of his hot cum filling you up and the extra dripping out of you making a mess on the floor under you. It took a second for Noah to set you back down on shaky legs, he helped you straighten your dress back out before pulling you in for an uncharacteristically gentle kiss. He felt like he was a little harsh on you but he was happy you actually would do something like this with him finally.

"So pretty...we should do this again sometime, yeah?"

#Nowah #HNgg #noah sebastian smut

[peachdues]

PEACHIE!!! i wanna know about your kny oc!!! i wanna know everything abt her i wanna see which of my girls would vibe with her (chances are good at least one of them would bc i have three AHAHA)

oooh Fallon!! Ahh okay, let me see what I can come up with!

Setsuna Ichikuro is the Reader in Wind and Moon (or maybe the Reader in WAM is Setsuna — that’s probably the more accurate way to put it)

Setsuna is/was the daughter of a wealthy merchant family and she was being primed to take over her father’s business when her elder brother died. He was supposed to be a demon slayer and carry on the lunar breathing tradition, but he fell ill and died before he could partake in Final Selection. Setsuna is very resentful that she was forced to assume his place because she wanted to be a merchant like her father. Because of her upbringing, she has bougie tastes lmao. She loves things — expensive baubles, art, silks, kimonos, you name it.

When she’s reassigned to be Mitsuri’s tsuguko after the Incident (in which she’s fired as Sanemi’s tsuguko), she and Mitsuri bond over their mutual love of food. Setsuna still can navigate the merchant world, so she uses her connections to allow Mitsuri to try more western food (and both girls love sweets). They pig out together quite frequently.

Loves hanging out with women, but because of the events of the prologue (and as you’ll see in the next chapter) Setsuna =/= getting along with men. She’s afraid of them, but that fear comes out as extreme coldness and disgust. However, when she’s cornered, she freezes. Sanemi and Ubayashiki are basically the exception (though she does warm up to Kyojuro eventually). Despises Tengen because he makes an unsavory and poor-timed comment about her body (that he regrets instantly — he wasn’t thinking)

She is drawn to Sanemi because of their ✨ moment✨ in the prologue after she dug herself out of her own grave. He saw her and she recognized that.

Once Setsuna gets over some of her own anger/rage, she’s quite considerate and kind! She had one younger sister who died horrifically (again, see the prologue for Wind and Moon), and she misses her dearly. Because of that, Setsuna is very kind to children. She’s also quite thoughtful in her own way, even if she can be a little shy about her feelings. She observes Sanemi’s penchant for matcha and takes care to send him really high quality stuff even in the year they don’t see each other — though she doesn’t tell him who it’s from.

Uhhh does that help?? Ask me more questions if you want, but yes!! Give my girl friends, god knows she needs them!!

#🍑’s peaches — Fallon!! #🍑’s OC #wind and moon #sanemi shinazugawa #demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba

[kwop-kilawtley]

Imagine having a nightmare the day before your wedding of a pile of your friends & family dead cuz your soon-to-be husband killed them. Bella pretending she does not see it 🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩🚩

#twilight #bella #twilight renaissance #jacob x bella #team Jacob #sorry but team Jacob is the only thing that makes sense #like CMON #bella lovessss being delusioned #this is why we wish she ran off with Jacob on wedding day #don’t get me wrong it’s an iconic scene in the movie #but like think abt it… that’s horrific

[mynnthia]

was talking with a friend about how some of dunmeshi fаndom misunderstands kabru's initial feelings towards laios.

to sum up kabru's situation via a self-contained modernized metaphor:

kabru is like a guy who lost his entire family in a highly traumatic car accident. years later he joins a discord server and takes note of laios, another server member who seems interesting, so they start chatting. then laios reveals his special interest and favorite movie of all time is David Cronenberg's Crash (1996), and invites kabru to go watch a demolition derby with him

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #kabru #kabru already added laios as a discord friend. everyone else in the server can see laios excitedly asking kabru to go with him #what would You even Do in this situation. how would YOU feel? #basically: kabru isnt a laios-hater! hes just in shock bc Thats His Trauma. the key part is kabru still says yes #bc he wants to get to know laios. to understand why laios would be so fascinated by something horrific to him #and ALSO bc even while in shock kabru can still tell laios has unique expertise + knowledge that Could be used for Good #even if kabru doesnt fully trust laios yet (bc kabru just started talking to the guy 2 hours ago. they barely know each other) #kabru also understands that getting to know ppl (esp laios) means having to get to know their passions. even if it triggers his trauma here #but thats too much to fit in this metaphor/analogy. this is NOT an AU! its not supposed to cover everything abt kabru or laios' character! #its a self-contained metaphor written Specifically to be more easily relatable+thus easy to understand for general ppl online #(ie. assumed discord users. hence why i said (a non-specific) 'discord server' and not something specific like 'car repair subreddit') #its for ppl who mightve not fully grasped kabru's character+intentions and think hes being mean/'chaotic'/murderous. #to place ppl in kabru's shoes in an emotionally similar situation thats more possible/grounded in irl experiences and contexts. #and also for the movie punchline #mynn.txt #dm text #crossposting my tweets onto here since my friends suggested so

[skitskatdacat63]

these made me have a mental breakdown at 3 am tbh

#I DONT EVEN THINK I NEED TO SAY WHAT IM THINKING ABOUT THESE #THE TOP TWO ARE JUST SSDOSJFLKFJ;DKOPBJWP #YEAH YEAH OKAY OKAY OKAY NORMAL BEHAVIOR #like instead of just waiting he puts his hands on sebs hip and lower back???? okay???????????? #perfectly normal work place behavior imo! (sure sure sure.....) #such a tender soft touch...its okay fernando if youre gonna touch him in the first place you might as well grab him #i love looking at clips thru a shipper's lense bcs every little thing just causes horrific derangement #AND OH YEAH THE HELMET CARESS!!!!!!!!!! OKAY SEBBBBBB!!!! #this one's for C LOL bcs my god we are both losing it #just i cannot put into words my exact thoughts except LOOK AT HIS HANDS OKAY!!!!!! #vettonso #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #f1 #formula 1 #2011 british gp #2011 is my comfort season okay?? im not worried abt spoilers bcs theres not rly a championship fight. its just good vibes #we do a little bit of f1

[apotelesmaa]

I don’t think ppl give enough credit to rui for his dedication to fucking with people (outside of tsukasa of course) like. Knowing & acknowledging that nene wants nothing to do with him and Tsukasa on her first day of second year and deliberately following tsukasa to loudly ask if she’s getting along with people (just to be a jackass)? Implying his gift to akito will explode even though it won’t bc he wants to bug akito? Like I think rui at his core is full of love and a desire to make ppl smile but I also think he’s 200% committed to the bit first and foremost. If something will be funny he’s going to do it regardless of the consequences. Guy filled with zero social anxiety & a never ending desire to embarrass his friends.

#‘he’s insecure’ is very fanon. like I think he has hang ups over that obviously as one does when one is excluded from their peers for being #odd. but he’s never had that issue w the general public. w friends? a little. but he’s kinda moved past that #gestures towards the Halloween wxs story and (heavy sigh) rmd. #project sekai #in general I will die on the hill of rui and Tsukasa having so much more self assurance and confidence than ppl give them credit for #if u want a fail girl nene is right there. open ur eyes. #consequences of ppl only viewing him thru a shipping lense… #*nene* is socially anxious #rui canonically trespassed on ppls property to put on solo shows for several years. #i could go on a rant abt tsukasa & the portrayal of him w social anxiety despite the ample evidence against it but I don’t feel like doing #it in the tags bc it is entirely unrelated. rui and Tsukasa (handshake emoji) horrifically misrepresented by fanon. #2 end on a more positive note: everyone think abt the comic where rui is perfectly capable of understanding emu #and he has the ‘all perfect’ text after comprehending her fascinating vocabulary. beautiful. perfect wxs relationship moment. #read curtain call again. & the other rui focuses. main story in general. etc.

[suntails]

I’m going to paint you a picture of modern communication, and how it is fundamentally broken.

Let’s look at one friend. You chat pretty much everyday, and mostly talk to this person on twitter and discord, with occasional tumblr DMs. That’s three places you talk. But that’s actually not true, because you also have each other’s priv twitters and talk there as well. That’s four. Now account for, let’s say, one post reply per account per person, in addition to your DMs. That’s eight. But that’s ALSO not true, because not only do you talk in discord DMs with each other, but you’re in a friend group server as well! And you talk in those channels together! That’s nine.

This is one friend.

Now look around you. How many friends, how many mutuals are you in contact with. A few, a handful, a dozen, more? How many accounts per person do you have, how many places can you send each other posts, devolve into separate topics and conversations? How many people text you as well. Friends, family, coworkers? What do you do day to day around catching up, what IRL commitments will rip you away long enough to let the pile build again?

I can’t do it. I cannot live an actual life in the real world and balance this much interaction, it’s crushing. I reply to a friend’s post because I’m interested in the subject, I want to have a discussion! I WANT to talk about it with them, but I immediately kick myself for adding another conversation to the pile. Day by day, I ignore messages for hours on end and watch mountains pile around me, to reply en masse at the end of the night to let the cycle repeat. I wake up to six discord DMs and as I clear the third, the first replies back again.

We weren’t meant to have thirty simultaneous conversations. We weren’t. And you know in your bones that the number isn’t an exaggeration.

#hush catríona #this is essentially copy pasted from my twt last week but made a touch more coherent #iiiii spiral about this pretty regularly. i think this is the 4th or 5th time ive gone on this spiel bc its agonizing #i feel horrific guilt for ignoring messages for so long. and its absolutely voluntary. but i cant FUNCTION like this i cant DO it #i have friends where we talk Every Single Day and i LOVE them so much. so unfathomably much. but it KILLS me #hell take my roomie for example. one of my fav ppl in the world. we text- twit dm- discord dm- ig dm- reply to posts. thats five right? #i guess!!! but we also LIVE TOGETHER. i see them in real life and talk to them out loud with my voice and its still this much to add on!!!! #and i feel like nobody else talks abt this shit and it makes me feel crazy. am i the only person completely debilitated by this??? #i dont want this to come across as like ‘boohoo we get it ur sooo popular’ that is NOT what this post means #i think a lot of ppl big acct or small. fandom or otherwise. talk to a dozen ppl online. and i dont get how anyone copes #this is agony. and every single time i ever make a post? its another opportunity to add to the pile #i only reply to comments on posts on twt and this is why. i cant DO it i cant keep up. i see every tag and im so grateful but i cant ever #reach out. i cant add to the pile. theyre already taller than me

[mergaliscious]

it's interesting how every trait that ppl use to demonize narcissists (except for the ridiculous ones to demonize that are actually harmless) is also very prevalent among the general population, especially among untraumatized and privileged individuals

like yeah, *some* narcissists are assholes, but the traits that make them assholes are extremely common among people who don't have NPD and were simply never told they have to care about other people

it's like neurotypicals/egotypicals will accept this sort of behavior *unless* it was developed as a coping mechanism. Like it's only bad if it's a symptom of mental illness. And fuck that.

#Oh you think you're better than others bc your parents told you being white makes you superior? #Well let's give you some education and space to learn and shame POC for not wanting to be around you! #Oh you think you're better than others because you've experienced horrific abuse and had to convince yourself you're special in order to... #Survive? Wow you must be a terrible person! /s #Idk if it's a good idea to tag this as narc safe #Bc while I am saying these arguments are bad I am still talking abt them #Also ftr the traits I mention in the parentheses are like... Being obsessed with ones reflection #I've seen that used to demonize narcissists but like who does it harm???

[bowcrary]

i think it's fucked some of y'all are using palestine as a means to deduce your favorite content creators and celebrities' moralities. some of y'all are using palestine as a decoration to pad ppl up and it's absolutely disgusting. have you maybe thought for a second that issues like genocide and colonization shouldn't be discussed through the framework of your favorite celebrities. aren't you a little bit disgusted that thorough support for palestine has devolved into a quirky characteristic you attribute to your favorite blorbos instead of actually being some practice you do. have you EVER touched politics and activism outside of social media and online liberalism. palestine is not your fucking plaything!!!

#sorry im just kind of. mad. #the way smoshblr talks abt palestine feels so disgusting to me. i dont know. #like some of yall dont even talk abt it outside of the framework of smosh. it's horrific #this isn't meant to be written for or against any person btw. i just think some of yall need to do stuf Outside of— #debating smosh's stance w palestine. your time can be spent so much better that way #anyway if ur from the ph remember to support little gaza kitchen! #and for the broader scheme of ph politics . support demilitarizing efforts! esp since the usa is enforcing military bases here w iof suppor #rambles

[lloydgaymerdyke]

@ccarrot

op here, never ever apologize for shipping llorumi. this is a llorumi stan account. this is a llorumi safe space. the ninjago fandom is war but not eye, no no. i know llorumi is peak. it is the only thing i have ever truly believed down to my core. they are my toxic yuri.

#ninjago #lego ninjago #harumi ninjago #llorumi #lloyd garmadon #llorumi shippers ily #don’t ever be discouraged by the horrific state of the fandom #and: the fact your a bsd fan is silly willy bc i also have a bsd blog and always think abt how the ninjago fandom would not be able to #handle the levels of toxicity bsd ships bring to the table #like they would read 15 and die on the spot

[spearxwind]

im sorry to say they Have released clips of cgi flounder moving and hes still ugly as hell </3

OK SO I WAS GONNA FIND CLIPS OF FLOUNDER ILL DO THAT IN A SEC BUT FIRST. WHAT THE HELL...........

TWO MILLION DISLIKES. WITH THE INVISIBLE DISLIKES DISINCENTIVIZING PEOPLE ACTUALLY DISLIKING. THATS INSANE.

MAN AND FLOUNDER IS SO SOULLESS.... THEY COULD HAVE ACTUALLY MADE HIM CUTE THERE ARE CUTE FISH OUT THERE.

THEY MADE HIM A SERGEANT MAJOR FOR SOME REASON?? Nothing but disrespect for our troops fr

If they wanted him to be "realistic" there is literally a fish irl that looks JUST like the animated flounder (yellow body bright blue stripes) it's the regal angelfish and it even has the iconic little snout too.

and sebastian's design is a fat L too, jeez. hes literally a land crab he aint supposed to be in the water he couldnt even swim 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

They straight up changed everyones species for this movie <3

#ask #feesh #the little mermaid idk. #at first i didnt understand why people were hating on it so much hoenstly. the trailer isnt bad other than having horrific cgi #like super bad cgi god damn. and also being dark and washed out as fuck #but apparently disney is changing the whole story as well bc they wanted to be progressive with it #and are blaming the audience for being upset about it apparently. which is... hoo boy #anyway wow did not even think about being heated abt this movie i didnt even know it was coming out until i saw flounder #</33 horrid #also while i was perusing youtube for clips. there is gonna be a live action moana as well. can we just bomb disney. please.

[reineydraws]

“I fight monsters the size of mountains that crawl through an interdimensional crack in the crust of our planet on a regular basis. No. God can eat my whole ass.”

Dark Was the Night by @sayhitoforever

(it's not often that i rec fics that are ongoing but this one has my whole heart--it's been a few months since i caught up and i still think about it. it's a grimmichi pacific rim au and it's full of grief and love and hope and even more love. it's about missing the people you literally share souls with and learning to heal, to reach out again; learning to miss them every day and still moving forward by sharing the burden. also the plot/world- and background-building are very cool and easy to lose yourself in. check it out if u can!)

#fic recs #bleach #bleach fanart #grimmichi #grimmichi fanart #grimmjow jaegerjaquez #grimmjow #ichigo kurosaki #grimmjow jaggerjack #one day i will circle back to this fic specifically so i can draw the tres espada flight jackets on grimm and nel and tier #i have drafts for the logo around. i just need to decide that and then slap those onto them posing like cool kids lol #the latest chapter (ch. 12) made me crrrrrrryyyyy. any time grimm thinks about his sisters i tear up. #also the tragic and horrific nature that is shiro's existence(?) in this fic oh man #goodness gracious i just love everything abt this fic

[iphigeniacomplex]

going to group exposure therapy at 13 didnt fuck me up but i have trouble explaining this to people. like okay yeah it was literally me and these other kids sitting at a table instructed to intentionally trigger one another and not help the triggered individual deal with the severe emotional response we caused and yeah there was a screaming room which was just sort of a little sectioned-off area with no door where this one kid in the other group went in and screamed for the entire duration of every session and like YEAH. i did make my longest-lasting friend there who i love dearly but for like two years we had no idea how to speak with one another in a situation not based around triggering one another bc that was how we became friends so every time we hung out i’d be like “you should tell that cashier to fuck off and not apologize” and shed be like “okay well i will not do that but god probably is like super mad at you right now” and separately we’d both be like i am being such a good friend to my bestie with ocd right now. but im saying that was all literally normal you just had to be there

#it speaks! #okay to rb btw i think its funny!! #let me know if this needs tagging im not rly sure what to call it #ocd treatment is weird i didnt experience the worst of it by any means but i remember like. developing religious ocd bc of group sessions #like there was a christian kid there who had it and i was like FUCK. he’s making POINTS though. #but it was like. okay tbh it was a very strange experience for me when i got into cults for a bit to read abt the game at synanon -> #<- bc i didnt find it horrific at all. like we did that. #ocd #exposure therapy #paths outside this garden

[skitskatdacat63]

For everyone who wanted bullfighter Nando when I mentioned it the other day, here you go :D

+ this one I don't feel like coloring yet(imagine he's in Ferrari colors!!!)

#did you know bullfighters dedicate their kill to a friend or member of the public by giving them their hat? #i really wanted to draw silly vettonso where fernando offers seb his hat #seb retires from bullfighting(yeah its an au now) and fernando in his green costume is like; #'here is my hat. now will you come back from retirement? 🥺' #but yeah feel very abnormal abt that ^ and also the thing abt them having someone who helps them get into their costume as a sacred ritual #theres just a lot of thoughts and ideas floating around in my head bcs of it #anyways i liked drawing this but it was very suffering too and took me like 5 hours #its like. you see the intricate embroidery and im like ah! omg! i love painting details!!! #and then remember im not the best w coming up with ideas for the embroidery pattern itself #so pls bear with me 😭😭 mainly i was trying to reference the diamond logo of renault #but most of it kinda just ended up being austrian knots i guess bcs thats what my mind defaults to #i thought the shoulder pad would be the most difficult but that came together the easiest and made the rest actually work in my head #aaahhh also im surprised w the angle of his face! im usually not good at side profiles as well as tilted down heads #but i think he looks pretty good honestly??? #also w the sketch i just wanted to post it bcs i liked his face okay 😭😭😭 #i wanted to paint it too but I realized im so naive thinking i could paint two of these horrifically detailed things in one session #but his face 🥹🥹 i like it!!! theres some renault era pic of him i really like where hes sun drenched and angry looking #^ and i think i captured the vibe well so!!!!! #well anyways mayhe ill draw more of this. it was fun but also like sucked my life force out bcs it kept going from easy to 'I CANT DO THIS' #the pictures of matadors are just...insane to me. tiny waist fat ass flamboyant costume. im dead 🫠 #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #catie.art. #fa14 #matador au

[justablah56]

hmm I think instead of feeling bad I will simply project this bad onto The Character . for funsies .

#just blahs #not gonna do anything abt it bcs idk how i could but ovuehncke sparrow with scrupulosity ocd <3 #just consider with me sparrow being terrified of accidentally saying anything wrong or offending literally anyone #and her completely accidentally saying smthin offensive and trying to figure out how to properly deal with that #without just making the whole situation about herself rather than the person she actually offended #bcs shes afraid that makes her a bad person who just didnt care enough to be aware of herself #gets a bit venty past this point but guys im literally pinky promising you rn I'm ok and ill figure it out please no one bring it up to me #and nobody think about the fact that im projecting rn just think about sparrow ok #this is my way of dealing w similar stuff w/o making it about me bcs ik that thats a shitty thing to do and i need to work it out myself #aughhncns literally every time goddamnit . i accidentally do smthin wrong and then someone (very kindly !!!) tells me hey that was wrong #and then i have a breakdown about it and feel bad and overthink it for the next like week #jesus fucking christ ok it's fine im being patient with myself and i know no one thinks im a bad person #and i know that they know i didnt mean it #and i know that i did say smthin insensitive and thats just something i have to be aware of #and the fact that i said it doesn't mean that im a terrible horrific irredeemable person #i'm trying my best now to be aware of it and be better and think abt whst they said and that's all i can do and thats ok #its fine . #anyways . #also hi cookies if you see this genuinely thank you for telling me tho like i do appreciate it and i am ok dw

[eisenartworks]

Me, reading opm: heehee funny parody seinen :)

Also me: if I think about the characters their experiences and their world a bit deeper I'll start throwing up

#Opm #One punch man #The most intriguing part abt opm is that you can't help but try not to think about it too seriously #Bc if you take it from literally from any other angle it goes into extremely horrific really fast #Yes Genos is a parody and deconstruction of cool shonen characters! #But he's also a teenager turned into a weapon who is so gripped w survivor's guilt he narrowed down his entire existence on revenge #Tatsumaki looks so silly and she's so arrogant! #She's so traumatized! I don't even know where to begin! Also she has a messed up pov of relationships and herself! #Garou is self explanatory! #Haha Saitama is such a relatable silly goofball! #Anyways the entire earth is in his mercy on whether or not he can keep himself in check! #Oh wow opm's world is like how in typical shonen when the mosnter of the week shows up! #Oh god there's a new monster showing up every week and not only they're gwtting stronger. They're getting FREQUENT. #I've heard an advice from someone that most horror is comedic from another angle bc of its absurdity #And in a sense that is true #But reading opm made me realize that the reverse is also very very true