#but never equal measure

[fearfylsymmetry]

less of an ask and more of a compliment i love the way your tags are organized…”decay as a commodity” “bodies shifting in narrow spaces” etc is it your own original work or quoting from a song/poem/or something?

helloo angel and welcomee to the show, its always such a joy when people appreciate my silly little tagging system. they're all just random sentences i thought up ages ago, , just to make sense of the mess in front of you etc y'know how it gets love. i couldn't really get behind tagging things as "art" "people, faces places things" etc. i needed to inject a bit of flavour to the whole thing (let this not be read as a subtle jab towards any new york based tumblrinas , we're above that c'mon now). i wouldn't say these little phrases are "personal" by any means but they have been motifs i wanted to actively explore in the art i make so no harm putting them up here i guess haha

for posterity's sake i thought i'd just copy an explanation of my tags from an old ask

decay as a commodity : okay so i envisioned this as a way to just summarize modern living? i think of a whole blueish neon color scheme with this one. my line of thinking was,, with the world slowly rotting away and living becoming so expensive and exhausting, whats the one commodity we all share? wouldn't it be decay? aren't we all slowly fading together etc etc. i use this for images with cooler muted tones and anything with a futuristic vibe,, along with some grimey, monochrome photography

the setting dawn: this is the polar opposite of decay, i think of it as "hope beyond hope" a la Prior Walter's line in Angels in America. i know "the setting sun " might sound more natural but i think of it as,, dawn , when the sun breaks through - in this short period the world starts to wake. qs the dawn sets the day kicks in, with all its routine misery. Dawn i think, is the only time the sun is kind to you, because its still hidden away at least slightly. But the day truly starts and itbeats down on you. And yet we continue to live, past the boredom and the pain, we live past hope, past the quiet comfort of dawn. I use this for pictures with earthy tones and things on the more uplifting side

bodies shifting in narrow spaces: this has some overlap with the decay tag, im not as organized as i need 2 be. i use this for figures & portraits ill want to draw or just really any photography i like that features a human presence. think of it as people so dependent on an outside gaze they constantly try to reinvent themselves, or just, everyday people, getting less and less time to live, having to work and forcing themselves into relationships with any real connection

original sin and other contingencies: im trying to fit this in for more risque photography and maybe things on the more gory side. how do i explain this.. okay so... when there's nothing left to do you'll always have sin to turn to just yo keep yourself occupied, along with other methods/contingencies u get the jist

linen that lingers: my fashion tag nothing more 2 it

the canvas as testimony: for art that is made for the gallery or art that is held in higher regard i guess, more high culture. it includes painting, sculptures,along with architecture,, but maybe i should make an architecture tag. i think of the things here as more personal efforts

motion on a still surface: for art that is energetic and really pops off the page. includes comics, manga, fanart, animation. stuff here may be more low culture but really its not. i just differentiate these art tags as ,,one is stuck to the canvas whatever that canvas may be, while the other leaps off the page

word on a wing let me soar: books, poetry, articles, journals , all words that i adore

a conversation with the self: i wanted this to be for things that are very personal to me but i just use my other tags

angels in descent: my little funny haha tag for yknow ,,, funny haha. yknow the "devil's rejects" the movie? like its a way of saying people so horrible no even the devil would take them. okay so i thought " god's rejects " but that's lame. so i landed on this, like idk...imagine angels falling from grace

arcade shuffle: for my little viddy games lol. sorry for being a #gamergirl but yes it happens sadly ,,moving on

jet jump jive: for songs

at the pictures: for movies,, like imagine im going "cant talk im at the pictures wheee ^_^"

there is such a great distance between now and later: to track my art and writing progress but i barely use it cause it barely draw or write these days i blame the wave of despair that washeth over me

proof of concept: photos i took but there's like almost nothing here

misc that are just funny 2 me like i do it 4 a little chuckle i deserve it:

screw it posting hole - for hole the band

bowies in spaaace - for bowie, after the flight of the concords song cmon its a little funny at least cmon now

twink speaks- for twin peaks lol

#this all feels very self-congratulatory i apologise my love #but everytime i get the chance to talk i never shut up #oh well i still love and try to be loved in return #but never equal measure #scales are a precarious thing you never know when you'll find yourself on the wrong side of balance #soft whispers under moonlight #long post

[merrysithmas]

when ppl see this & this, directed by the same person, and think the narrative is "anakin is evil" not "anakin is a steward of the balance, a force demi god, as was foretold on Mortis" 😂

#anakin skywalker #ahsoka #not my gifs #if you havent seen TCW i really feel like stock in your anakin opinion is p low #you need to watch it to get a full picture of his journey and his purpose in the galaxy #he was good and evil #he is quite literally a demi god #he is always and will always be both #his ultimate struggle was wrestling with that and failing it in life bc he couldnt accept it #he was a slave to the destiny the force created him for #he was a slave to the sith #he was a servant of the jedi #he is quintessenially never truly free #he hated and loved the jedi in equal measure #he never loved the sith #he is balanced but OF THE FORCE #he was manipulated by the dark side but he is MADE OF THE FORCE #therefore he will always stand for the force the jedi way and the light #which is why he is a forceghost #star wars #u all know how i get when i put my stanakin shoes on #anyway the ogt and prequels are buddhist allegories and anakin isnt beholden to western concepts of morality in that sense as a character #in a mythic literary epic sense #also obviously he isnt human either #which is a big ring-a-ling

[meredithbeckham]

i will meet you on another planet if the plans change

be on your own way, daughter.

#the100edit #the 100 #bellamy x octavia #bellamyblakeedit #octaviablakeedit #blake siblings #* #octavia and bellamy going from all the other has in the world #and each in their own ways fighting that and clinging to it in equal measure #to octavia choosing peace and her family on skyring with the desperate hope that one day she will see bellamy again #and the faith that if nothing else he will know she was happy and know what he meant to her and that will bring him peace #bellamy letting octavia go in s1 even though it goes against everything he is and trusting he will see her again #how desperate each of them are at the end of s4 to see each other again and begin to repair what was so horribly damaged #bellamy losing octavia just when he had her again #the parallels in this relationship the extremes #the letting each other go and finding each other again #learning to love and extend that fierce blake loyalty to other people and each of them being better for it #how even still there is always a part of them reserved for the other and they can never be truly free of each other #there's just nothing like them you know????

[incaseofart]

Reno and Crystalline go for a weekend getaway in Kalm! Reno gripes about how boring it is there for a while but of course the truth is he's enjoying the time with his partner 🥰

#reno #reno x oc #in equal measure #ff7 #my art #ff7 oc #I basically never draw backgrounds so this was rough but!!! I wanna get better at that!!!

[quorras]

every time i see someone call tron 'cyberpunk', i lose ten years off my lifespan

#note to self literally never read letterboxd reviews of movies i like i cant do it anymore kdjfgkdssd #say you saw the movie and the plot and visuals went right over your head without saying it #like. in what world is tron dystopic?? cyberpunk in itself is an offshoot of dystopian fiction. tron is not about an imagined future #tron is about an imagined PRESENT. thinking about our PRESENT relationship with technology in relation to the times each film was released #tron is in equal measures hopeful and critical about technology. that is NOT cyberpunk #the only CyberPunk that matters in tron is the Tron2.0 character of the same name #i will admit that tron's plot is cyberpunk derived but its. idk man its not the same thing #thematically its different. visually i think tron shares developmental artists with blade runner where the cyberpunk visual stereotype was #- established #but blade runner is more pure cyberpunk thematically than tron is. does that make any sense #and. and. listen to me. i am number one retrofuture fan. i love syd mead. i love moebius. but listen. just because they worked on tron - #- does NOT mean tron is thematically OR visually retrofuturistic either!! the visuals match the time it was made!! thats not retrofuturism! #thats normal scifi based on the every day!!! #tron is a sandbox and at the end of the day anyone can do whatever they want its all just for fun #at the same time. the entire story of tron is being severely misrepresented when labelled as cyberpunk. and it makes me sad #these are very shallow thoughts i just miss literary thematic analysis sometimes. my film studies classes cannot come soon enough #rex speaks

[itspileofgoodthings]

Chesterton would love Taylor Swift saying “DO something babe say something lose something babe risk something” idk what to tell you

#he said ‘lovers do belong to each other in a more awful sense than they know’ #and NO ONE in this century has lived the truth of that more than Taylor Swift #Sorry to Jake Gyllenhaal but you will NEVER get away from All Too Well (all versions) and that wILL BE YOUR SAVING GRACE #if you LET IT #sorry I’m really hyped up on this there are two things I love and know in equal measure in this world and it’s Taylor’s music #and Chesterton’s worldview

[tungtung-thanawat]

I think the worst part about this scene is that you're just like:

omg he designed and printed a cute little sticker - momentary pause - to label his blackmail sextape...

he's reminiscing their night together while lovingly staring at - well then - his blackmail sextape...

and that whiplash is basically the entire vibe of the show

#big dragon the series #i have not loved and hated something in such equal measure in a long time #im still not over him designing that sticker to represent them #i think mangkorn was never in denial about how much he likes yai #yai on the other hand really is the kind of person that would need a blackmail sex tape #to confess his love #and boy does mangkorn deliver lmao

[justashadetalkative]

Details: Clemcy

Clemcy was once, just — ridiculously powerful as an individual. Reshape-the-landscape, siphon-the-life-force-of-a-fucking-planet, start-an-apocalyptic-war-with-an-army-of-undead, high fantasy, Big Bad shit.

This is no longer the case. Splitting his soul has taken a massive toll on him in many ways.

Which isn’t to say that he’s entirely nerfed. He focuses on and often finds good success with networking and resource-building rather than pure reliance on his own abilities. And his fine skill with precision work, as well as his versatility, have absolutely improved. In many of his individual bodies he’s even still a powerful caster.

But in other bodies, he… genuinely isn’t; the skill and memory is there, but the strength to back it up is gone.

And in either case he has entirely lost the ability to wield magic on that kind of world-altering scale without major outside intervention.

He is both hyper-aware of this — painfully aware of the vulnerability of any given body — as well as, ah, forgetful. Despite his own weakened state, he often judges the abilities of other magic-wielders on the scale of his own former heights.

#(this leads to the actually rather frequent result of Clemcy being scornful and terrified of someone in equal measure sdklfhdg) #(it doesn’t help that like. he did die. he did get killed. at the height of his power. that is a thing that happened.) #(Clemcy has had reality driven through his arrogance with a SLEDGEHAMMER and his takeaway was that it is literally never enough) #(someone doesn’t actually have to *be* better than you to *get* the better of you.) #(nowadays he figures it’s more important to be able to survive getting got. however much it galls) #details #details: Clemcy #Clemcy

[lynxalon]

i'm watching exu: calamity for the third fucking time and i am once again absolutely insane about these fucking characters. laerryn coramar-seelie and loquatius seelie. their whole fucking divorced-in-love mess. zerxus ilerez and his damn prophetic visions. babe what horrors do u dream of now? patia motherfucking por'co. her memory loss payroll. her list of .. "friends with bad memory" . that was fucking crazy to hear the first time and on the third i'm still reeling. nydas okiro, i cant even begin with him . he was a pirate. he lived what could only be a pirate's dream, the guildmaster of a dragon's hoard, a dragon whom he can summon and command at will. his friend's son lives with his brother and family. he puts people on patia's payroll, both conjoined in secrets, but that's not only it. he was described as holding spinning plates at all times. he was laerryn's partner and confidant on her life's work. cerrit agrupnin. the father who got his children out of an apocalyptic catastrophe. the father who kept his promise to be with them. by sheer luck or by fate's design, by the strength of his virtue and love and a father's promise. of all that he could not and did not keep, the one most important. he was an investigator so adept at his job that invisibility could not keep a person hidden from his sight. he had a ring to detect lies. he had a ring. to detect lies. loquatius . the fey who fell in love with a mortal. the reporter who spoke to the people at the end of their lives and his own and called for them to stay. to do their duty, keep their promise. no officials get to leave the people they're supposed to protect and speak for behind. and no one shall forget the most beautiful woman in the world, laerryn coramar-seelie. the woman who, in secret, strived to give her husband and her friends and her heart, her avalir, an option. the choice, to rise above and beyond. to seek the knowledge of realms and stars and all that they could ever achieve. a future so bright it was blinding. a goal so lofty, a dream so wistful. a path tread almost completely alone. and in that, history and mistrust. the gau drashari who expected the wizards to not keep their word, and thus created the circumstance in which the wizards did not know the importance of the tree of names and saw it only as a limitation. because that's all it appeared to be. and zerxus. the godless. champion of a deity-less divinity. oracle who saw visions of the lord of the hells. he saw the lord of the hells, hurting and injured. and in that being he saw redemption and a path to healing. he faced asmodeus and straight up said "oh you poor thing" afsgsjdkfkflflflgl he looked at a god and held nothing but pity for him upon seeing that he could not be redeemed. that there was such deep hatred. he was killed and revived over and over by this god. the god that he brought through into the world. . . the por'co legacy. patia, who in the end gifted her knowledge of everything truly Everything to a young maya agrupnin. and what of young kir and maya? celebrations and festivities, the anticipation of seeing their father. maya snuck out to a party to meet a girl and drink alcohol she doesn't even like, tailed by her brother who mirrored their father. kir, junior investigator, because of him, cerrit thankfully did not have to track down maya in panic. kir who received a message from his father to gather at their home. and then their father sent them away, to safety. 2/3rds of the world met calamity. how must it have felt to be a young child, everything you knew ending and dying. fuck man. that's not even everything i could fucking say about all of this i havent even broached the lord of the hells and the plot and the depth of patia's complexity with memory and knowledge and laerryn and loquatius and their open jabs and silent acts of devotion and love, zerxus and cerrit and their opposing and paralleled paths of fatherhood, nydas' and zerxus and cerrit. protectors. laerryn and patia. visionaries. loquatius. truth and hope and home.

#lynx speaks #long post #i'm. i'm sooooooooo insane about exu shit forreal i'm soooooooo . AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #cerrit only getting to know his children through the things in their bedroom after he'd gotten them to safety. #fuck bro. #even if u've NEVER seen critical role stuff please for the love of everything watch exu: calamity #four episodes they are fairly long but it's one of the best stories #equal measures incredibly painful and incredibly heartwarming #it will likely end in tears #because there is so much heart and earnestness put into this #AND OMG MOTHERFUCKING VESPIN CHLORAS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #gosh. the speech. THE SPEECH #the voice wobble. the market of wonders ad. the most beautiful woman in the world. the msot beautiful. #he stayed. the high warqueen lady elmenore called the children of the seelie court back home and he stayed #and she told him 'i would rather my heart break and yours remain whole.' #he stayed with his mortal love.

[tiredassmage]

Lensen Ryaldar - aka my “ah fuck, I’ve fallen in love with this absolute bastard and his devilish good looks anyway” (despite many poor and questionable decisions) collection, KOTET edition and in no particular order.

#swtor #swtor screenshots #ch: lensan #srsly i cannot overstate that i have never loved and hated one of my ocs in such strong equal measures before #awful stinky bastard man. absolute jackass. terrible. so fiercely loyal to the few people he does somehow care about. #he's ride or die. he's sold out imperial trade routes to a close associate for smuggling operations. he's mandalorian #but also he's just a bounty hunter. he's a staunch loyalist to the empire. #like. sir. you do realize half of that contradicts? #honestly why didn't i run him thru the agent story at this rate tbh #with this many cross-purposes he'd be perfect and maybe i'm just a glutton yea? #fun fact: he started originally as cipher four ie a plant to keep tabs on the mandalorian alliance before i made him black ops #either way intelligence could fill a family of 5's grocery list with his bullshit tbh #'potential recruit. volatile. violent. also potentially extremely high-risk threat.' #that file would hit tyr's desk and i can already hear him sighing lmao #i really need to stop putting oc lore in the tags... #anyway part of the reason he hasn't gotten an agent run is honestly bc i can't see him without the facepaint anymore #tattoo. whatever you wanna call it. it just adds a little a lot of somethin lmao

[dutybcrne]

When Kaeya is upset with someone he loves, truly upset and seriously hurt, he tends to storm off immediately. And completely vanish from their radars. Whether it's two hours or even days.

A trail of ice-laced footprints is all they'd have to track him immediately after the fact, but after a time, not even Mond's best could hope to find him if he doesn't want to be found.

#hc; kaeya #//He doesn't ever actually leave Mond at these times #//The furthest he's gone is heading right to Dragonspine; actually #//Right up to the peak; or as far as he can go. But that's only if it was Really Bad #//The main reason no one can find him is bc he takes advantage of his little teleporting trick to mess up any trail he may leave #//Makes any indications point to him headed for the Winery; but uses that trick to make his detour. Like the Dragonspine bit #//Taking a detour near the snow-covered path by strictly traveling via water (seeing ice there would be normal anyways) for good measure #//Would end up Southeast; just shy of the Emtombed City's Hidden palace; if not further down #//Other than that; there are plenty caves and domains to hide out at until he calms down #//If asked; he will say he needed to clear his head on the shorter bouts #//And the longer ones; that he ran into trouble and needed to deal with it. And lost track of time #//Sometimes it's true; especially when he finds his way into a domain; and the Abyss starts tugging at his consciousness #//and messes with him so bad; his emotions prompt him to recklessly try and clear it himself; as though to blow off steam #//Has had equal times of success & getting his ass brutally handed to him & having to make a hasty retreat. It's gotten p close sometimes #//There was only (1) time he actually did show up to the Winery #//And that was after a particularly bad argument with Diluc; soon after he'd returned to Mond #//Left the tavern abruptly and tried to get into his old room; almost got shot by Addie who heard him breaking in. Got yelled at for it #//Then tended to after. He confided in her nothing but truth; but not ALL of it; that is to say; he said he was worried about Luc #//Esp coming back from Snezhnaya; even cried a little in her arms. but never mentioned Exactly that it was a fight that brought him here #//Stayed only for a bit; but the Moment he heard Luc come back; he fled. Heard commotion from downstairs & the moment Addie left to check #//He was out his room's window & teleported as far out & away as he could before trying to run back to Springvale w/out hurling on the way #//He does this bc he Fears saying something he Knows will hurt enough to regret #//Bc he thinks they might WANT him gone in that moment and gives them space accordingly #//They won't up and leave him if HE'S the one who makes his retreat first; right? Makes sure THEY don't feel the need to on his account #//They can say otherwise all they like; but the moment the anger's That clear in their eyes; his heart grows icy with dread #//And mind spirals enough to make him up and leave; either abruptly or with a stiff 'I need a moment'. But he needs OUT immediately #//Them being the ones to find him before he's calmed down & ready would always make it worse; unfortunately #//Bc then it starts up his mind spiraling all over again; esp since he'll inadvertently feel cornered by them. & act accordingly #//He WILL try & act as though he Didn't just do that to try & segue back normalcy; it's wiser to gently talk him through how it's not ok #//It might not stop future bouts during serious fights; but at least it can resolve things from this one bc he'd be willing to talk it out

[buffysummers]

I don’t really understand when bangel gets labelled juvenile. There’s nothing juvenile about their storyline or their dynamic. It’s a relationship that changed and evolved over multiple seasons but juvenile is not a word I would ever use to describe it. What do you think?

To be quite honest I don’t really give a shit what people say anymore. I obviously disagree with this sentiment and I could write an entire essay disproving it, but it’s not like they would even read it because they’re set in their ways.

#anonymous #answered #oh believe me I was tempted to write a five paragraph response to this but I’m tired and it’s kinda pointless lol #but I will say having hate sex doesn’t equal a mature relationship #emotional intimacy is just as important if not more important than a physical one #only people who have never been in a real relationship measure the depth or maturity of it by how often you have sex

[troublcmakcrs]

//saw a post that was like "the opposite of woobification... uncharitably mean reading?" and that's me with kyle 💕

#misc :: ( ooc ) #//i could never write kyle bc i would make him the biggest bastard imaginable LMAO #//in my thinkmeats kyle is on par with cartman in terms of being terrible HDKAHDKA #//they're awful in equal measure but in different ways #//i'm a kyman shipper not bc i think it's cute but bc i think they deserve each other 🥰 #//yeah kyle has his good moments but it's literally a million times funnier to focus on the bad ones HFKAHSKW

[transprincecaspian]

how do trystan and jurian view each other throughout the three acts? -rustythorns

For the sake of brevity I shall SPARE everyone my breakdown and meta of the three POVs for my DA2 worldstate (Trystan/Jurian/Varric) and just stick to the opinions of the cousins! Act One

Jurian and Trystan didn't see much of each other during this part of their lives. Trystan fled Fereldan with his family first; Jurian came later, flying over the walls of the city as a sea-bird and appearing on their doorstep as quiet as a thief in the night. He was only there for short spells, long enough for Bethany to talk about missing him when he was gone and for Leandra to fondly remember the life her children and relatives could have had if the Amell family name had not fallen so far.

Trystan, while miffed at his cousin's sudden reappearance, was more concerned about protecting his sister and finding a safe and comfortable home for his her and their mother more than he was actively chasing Jurian off. Jurian, deceptive about his motives, was just happy to see his cousins again.

Act Two

In the time between Acts 1 & 2, Jurian comes to Kirkwall, on a more permanent basis. He's there looking for any signs of what might have become of Revka Amell, his mother--a fact he keeps well-hidden from Trystan. The presence of Jurian is a threat to Trystan, and his jealousy and possessiveness over his family & friends comes out in full swing; he feels like he's less than Jurian, so he takes the newfound wealth and sway he's made and uses it to ice his cousin out (or, at least, he tries. Jurian does have a mutual friend group with him, after all).

Jurian finds it easier to play the part of the suave seducer, because it's easier to him than trying to dismantle Trystan's preconceptions about him. He knows what Trystan thinks he is, and so he plays into it and his stereotypes and reputation, but Jurian only finds it more isolating when he's alone. (There are, of course, a select few who see through this facade).

When Leandra dies, so does Trystan's patience for Jurian. Any attempts to sympathize over a lost mother go unheard, and Jurian becomes a ghost in the city that belongs to Hawke.

I'm not yet sure about Act 3. I'm thinking about it, chewing on it, taking suggestions.

#mmm i love them #i am so obsessed with jurian and trystan in equal measure #it's just a wretched dynamic #jurian is like the carver that never lived but also trystan is that too #its insane. i love it #i need more of them #ty for asking i love to think #dragon age #dragon age 2 #trystan hawke #jurian amell #trystan meta #jurian meta #cas meta

[melodybottles]

more cole

(these are redraws of old feh alts concepts i drafted for her in 2018)

#doodles #oc tag #bembly #sorry my ENTIRE brain has been 90% my fe ocs lately #90% fe ocs 20% a3 50% something i never thought id engage with again yet here we are. yes ik this doesnt equal 100% #also 50% rune factory for good measure bc rf and a3 never leave my brain #also ALSO 10% octopath bc everyone playing 16path is making me try to go back to the og and finish playing thru it finally....

[ofpolitics]

it’s thinking about how padmé had multiple clones’ rights bills in progress when she died hours.

#· ooc » entranced by navy burnout silk velvet #it kills me so much #it BRINGS ME JOY AND PAIN IN EQUAL MEASURE #joy because she cares so much for those men #and pain because she never was able to do what she wanted for them #this whole concept might be the only thing i keep from the ek books when i read them #pretty much everything else i've heard are in them i want to toss in a fire #i fully do not like some of the choices made and feel they are either performative or not in character #but that's the nice thing about writing canon/legends characters #i get to reject things in one in favor of the other without going completely canon divergent