#but no one truly understood them!

[adhd-mess]

“This is a prison made for gods and monsters, and you are neither.”

I feel like there was a tiny bit of an insult in his explanation there.

But she’ll most likely end up becoming a god or at least a “monster” bc her and her sister are “dark mirrors of each other” and her sister is a god so

#kinda disappointed no fire powers #thought there might be #but shadow powers are really cool too #I just wanted opposition #yknow? #like with eamon and red(my beloveds) they both had the same power #and that gave them an understanding of each other #which is lovely! #no one ever took time too(except neve for red and fife and Lyra for eammon #but no one truly understood them! #neve didn’t/doesn’t understand why red was so resigned to her fate #and that made neve resent her #and eammon is the wolf who steals second daughters #anyway back to the topic #it would’ve been so good to have neve’s powers differ from Solmir’s #but maybe not hugely #maybe like ‘shadow fire’ or something #but Ik why they have the same power #narratively(I can’t think of the right word) #to show that they are more similar than neve wants to believe #to prepare the reader that they will have an understanding of each other #*not prepare I meant foreshadow #a m reads #for the wolf spoilers #for the throne spoilers

[starsandthorn]

no but actually. the parallels to other Twins in different nations of teyvat in relation to the traveler and their desire to reunite with their own sibling makes me a little bit bonkers. like.

diluc and kaeya as what the traveler has and fears, after we will be reunited [separation born from conflict that seemingly cannot be mended; they both care for each other but ultimately their opposing ideals mean they cannot be at each other's side in the same way that they used to, and no longer have the close bond they once did]

ei and makoto as what the abyss sibling experienced [a crushing loss not just of one's twin but the last remaining friend they had and the safety and security of their nation, coming out the other side traumatized, cold and jaded and making decisions that will ultimately hurt the people they claim to want to protect for the sake of an unattainable goal]

and lyney and lynette as what the traveler and the abyss twin used to have before they were separated [never apart for long, home is wherever we are together], what the traveler wants [their separation brief and quickly amended, continuing to be inseparable after they reunite], and also the choice they'll have to make [the twins being together in an organization the traveler inherently doesn't trust - does the traveler want to be by their sibling's side badly enough to throw their lot in with the abyss, and turn their back on everyone else they've met on their journey so far?]

#personal stuff #thorn plays genshin #RIPS AND TEARS. #hi . feeling so normal btw #i was thinking so so so so hard about the traveler twins when ei's second story quest dropped #and i am constantly sick in the head about the traveler being tired of the ragbros nonsense communication #and THEN in fontaine the traveler having to watch these two twins who are incredibly close. #and try not to think about what they've lost #i'm. uuaauguugh #LIKE #the traveler and the abyss twin really are what the fontaine twins could be if either of them lost the other. #at the end of his story quest lyney talks about how both of them give each other strength to get through the darkest days #and how darkness never consumes him because he has his sister and they remember the good things together [punches the ground] #also lyney and lynette losing their trust in people early on and having to lie to everyone around them #and getting the companionship that kaeya never got in his childhood. cries #like he had his twin!!! he had his brother!!! but he had to lie to him for years and never felt truly understood until that night #and AUUUGH the running theme of one twin being Light and the other being Dark #one always brightly engaging with people while the other deals with matters from the shadows #and the brothers flipping that on its head when diluc returns to mondstadt - diluc in the shadows and kaeya with the knights #and ei getting someone who will be her shadow so she can finally step into the light herself and see the world with her own eyes. #just AUUGUUGHGH. i'm fine. i'm normal #this is incoherent maybe but augh. augh. siblings. #[looking back at the earth] wait the game is about family? always has been

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

i guess it’s less that they Completely Understood each other and more that . just. they met each other at the perfect time . they had a bond that could never be replaced . they could be their true selves around each other, even if it only lasted for a year or two . but it still meant so much to the both of them !!! those two years alone meant so much more than the ten years they spent apart and that completely fucking Destroys me . they had something that neither one of them would ever find again and if it’s not Total Understanding then i truly believe it was unconditional love . soulmatism. the feeling of finding your other half . they had each other for two little years and it was the single most vibrant blue spring of their lives

#EXPLODES INTO A MILLION LITTLE PIECES #i hate them btw #IT’S JUST . it’s a very delicate balance bc i sincerely believe that they understand each other in ways others don’t #i think suguru understood satoru in a way no one else bothered to do #and i think satoru understood suguru better than anyone in the end #but like . satoru didn’t understand suguru fully when they were kids . suguru couldn’t open up his heart 2 him !!! not completely….. #but then we also have geto who thought gojo hated him for ten years #which shows that /he/ didn’t truly understand gojo either…….. #though it could honestly also just be his self-loathing getting in the way #ANYWAY I . i don’t think they understood each fully as children but i think they may have during geto’s final moments #i think that was the sole moment they both bared their hearts to one another entirely #but even putting aside the question of understanding. they had something that no one else would ever replace #yeah sorry i have no idea where this came from i’ve just been crying over that One panel and niku showed me a twt thread ….. that hurt me… #………. sigh #will ari ever stop crying over stsg??… probably not no #ari noises ✩

[gunstellations]

good old days

#good old days for them and for me #i randomly found their old drama cd and almost cried from nostalgia #to my 15 yr old self they were EVERYTHING #the way they were my whole life for a year or two #this too is self care.....ive never understood truly drawing for your own self before this #i miss them....i wanna watch free again... #the epic highs and lows of highschool swimming... #my art #rinharu #free! iwatobi swim club #free! #this is very much inspired from one of the cds yes

[itsafternoonpast5]

thinking about their friendship so hard

#camp camp #cc #David #jasper #fanart #DUDEEE nobody gets them like i do theyre so good #theyre so tragic.. they never truly got to know each other. the last time they ever seen each other they were angry with the other :( #but there’s so much regret that comes with it too. they never got to talk it out. be on good terms #they could see each other at any moment but they other doesn’t know #they call each other best friends yet we never really see them being best friends.. but maybe they get each other like no one else does #their personalities did a complete swap with each other - they understand how the other is thinking and feeling. #David hated the camp but after one good thing he loves it. viseversa with jasper #when they last saw each other they were clouded with their views and didn’t try to understand things from their lens #yet even if they didn’t - they still understood each other. if you get what I mean #theyre foils. but so is max and david and that’s what makes both relationships compelling for me. theyre so similar to each other #no wonder david is so attached to max. he sees himself in him and he sees jasper in him too #i know jaspers just a character to show how bad the camp is. but there’s so much depth to him too #he has a lot of missed potential.. i hope he’s in season 5 at least. id like to see him again #srry for the character analysis im insane #jaspvid

[strqyr]

reading "some people are just in it for the money and fame" to be about tai is great, actually. imagine him being a young man with big dreams, seeing stardom in his horizon, wanting to be as popular and as cool as possible (is actually a dork)... and somewhere along the way he learns that not only is he not finding any joy from that, he's finding it from the smaller things; his own team, his closest friends, the people he now considers his family, and the thought of a quiet life, settling down with someone on a nice, quaint island perfect for raising a family

and he takes one look at raven branwen, the weirdest fucking girl at beacon, and goes "yeah, that one".

#truly a believer that whatever tai and raven had between them #truly was between only *them* #no one outside them understood it #absolutely clueless #it should not have worked #but somehow it did #worked so well in fact that no one knew they were dating for like. a half a year.

[macbethisms]

the third prince is so interesting to me bc he's made of the themes. he subconsciously attempts to replicate his parents' power dynamic with his first (and only) real relationship except it's not even a real relationship bc his evil mistress is manipulating him the whole time. he looks like the physical ideal of warrior masculinity (you know. the one who died in the last book) except that he sucks and is useless and can't fulfill his singular purpose and literally everyone knows it. he's a hollow shell with nothing inside but also he's intelligent and perceptive and a whole person underneath it all but also it doesn't even matter who he is bc he's being slowly suffocated by other people's expectations and agendas but also he has no choice but to be nothing bc he can't be great. "what if you were willing to do anything to get what you wanted" well what if you didn't even know what you wanted. what if what you wanted was so completely opposed to who you are and what you were made for that you could never actually believe that you could have it. what then. he's happy about two people being tortured to death bc his mom didn't like them. he's the living embodiment of a crumbling heirless dynasty. he's a blushing maiden being seduced by an older man with ill intentions and he's a powerful royal whose lover is wholly reliant upon him for survival. he and baoxiang are both punishing each other for the things they hate about themselves. his death causes the end of the book. and he's been dead since the day he was born.

#the radiant emperor #he who drowned the world #anyway. filicide is so fun. love dynasties cannibalizing themselves #third prince and ma xiuying parallels. is that anything #they're both gay 19 year olds who wang baoxiang projects all his emotional issues onto before falling in love with them #also seeing through your lover's bullshit facade but not enough to know what they're truly capable of before it's too late #also being miserable in your set role but not seeing any alternative before other possibilities are shown to you by the power of gay sex #well. by the power of being seen and understood in a way no one ever has before. but mostly gay sex #also ouyang kills both of their dads but that's not proof of anything ouyang kills everyone's dad #i'm making the third prince/wbx dynamic more weird and freudian actually i think it's fascinating that wbx and lady ki are kind of the same #is this a coherent post? probably not

[thatgirlonstage]

Deep breath. Steeples fingers. It’s the way Arthur never needed to know Merlin was part of his destiny to be on his side over and OVER again

#merlin #they’re a true have your cake and eat it too ship #on the one side merlin who feels the full weight and pull of a destiny he can’t escape #that he chooses to run towards with open arms #on the other side Arthur #who has NO obligation to merlin except the one he feels and creates for himself #opens the forbidden ‘what if merlin….was good’ book #do you think about how often kilgarrah talks about them as EQUALS #two sides of the same coin. two souls meant to be one. #but merlin always ALWAYS ALWAYS casts himself as lesser #he sees their joint destiny as one where he is subservient to Arthur #less important #he is constantly willing to die for Arthur’s sake and he TRULY THINKS IT DOESN’T MATTER #merlin is constantly of the view that if he dies so Arthur can live that is *fulfilling their destiny* #what a cruel trick the end of their story is #but that’s my point kinda: merlin never actually understood their destiny #that’s why he fails the test and mordred survives #because he tells Arthur magic can never be allowed in Camelot bc he is too busy trying to save Arthur to save himself #and as a result he gets it wrong #if you look at the whole show but s5 especially as a tragedy the arc is absolutely classical #meanwhile Arthur never knows about FUCKING ANY OF THIS #and yet and yet and yet #call it destiny or love he still finds his partner in merlin. the other half of his soul. #he never needed to know what they were supposed to be to see what they could be

[genderqueerpond]

amyeleven fivenyssa crossover

#the three people who would like to read this get excited and then get disappointed because i never finish anything #but the thing about fivenyssa is that she's his daughter #and it's supremely fucked up #and the thing about amyeleven is that she's his Everything and it's supremely fucked up #and also she's the one who asked the doctor if he's a father and well. she'd get it the second she saw nyssa #i know that line was SUPPOSED to be about susan and susan's hypothetical parents but in my heart it's about nyssa of traken #and the thing about eleven and nyssa is that they'd have extremely deep and intimate conversation about being the last of their kind #she's probably the only person in the universe that he could talk about it truly openly with and it'd be like. #nyssa I'm so sorry i never fully understood you. i couldn't. i do now #and she'd be so SAD about it because she never ever wanted that for him #she never WANTED him to understand her like that because the only way he ever could was to go through the same thing #and nyssa would never consider that price to be worth it #but now she knows it's going to happen and she can never tell her own doctor #and it's devastating devastating but also deeply healing for them both but especially eleven #.... #and the thing about amy & five is that she'd know him. of course she would. she'd Believe he's the doctor and Understand about regeneration #and immediately tell him about the first time she met Her raggedy Doctor and he'd be like. you shouldn't be telling me this but #he'd be stunned and captivated by the amount of love and also possesiveness in her voice and wouldn't be able to bring himself to stop her #and she'd see straight through him and make him feel naked and raw and at the end she'd hug him goodbye and kiss him on the forehead #the way eleven does her because he's a CHILD to amy compared to eleven and he can't hide that #and the thing about eleven and five is that they'd each be deeply ashamed of the other #and finally #the thing about amy and nyssa is that they'd make out sloppy style #..... #............ #voices offscreen: #'i can't believe you called her my daughter and then made out with her' #'yeah and how many times have you made out with my daughter what's your point' #lavender thoughts #dw

[raylangivins]

every single queen bee mean girl in a teen movie and teen drama is a lesbian to me by the way.

#regina george? lesbian. blair waldorf? lesbian! heather chandler AND heather duke? LESBIANS!! #this is one of the few things glee truly understood. #leighton from sex lives of college girls is the natural progression of what i believe happens to all of them once they leave high school #old man yells at cloud

[donnatroyyyy]

When Mitski wrote “I will wash your hair at night/ And dry it off with care/ I will see your body bare/ And still I will live here” do you think she’d been thinking about Donna and Dick while writing it?

#For any weird Donna/Dck shippers NO NO NO in a purely platonic way #no but seriously I know that fro some reason canon doesn’t really delve too deep into their relationship and it’s mostly fanon and that sho #but to me I think it’s the relationship so obvious it can go unsaid like how the first few Disney movies’s princes didn’t speak cuz their #actions spoke for them y’know? to me dck and Donna’s friendship is one that’s such a universal constant that it only needs to be seen a han #ful of times to be understood. and to me those handful of times told me that their relationship was that of a sister and brother’s (cliche) #but honestly these 2 r the kind to be able to stick with each other through ANYTHING and have. when no one else was allowed to see them for #who they truly were in their complete unfiltered selves they saw that in each other and they stuck by one another #because of that their bond is unbreakable the kind of bond built when you know the other will never even think of abandoning you. #Their relationship is so important to the both of them because before it they’d each thought they needed to always hide a piece of themsel #to be wanted even when it came to those closest to them. their friendship to each other taught them that people could know and see who you #completely and still love you and stay by you. their friendship built their ability for friendship with the other titans then their ability #for love in general. they’re each other’s safe space. #dc comics #comics #robin #dick grayson #donna troy #wonder girl #troia

[akkivee]

there was a moment during komada-san's photography program where the viewers requested he take take a pov pic of him taking hayama-san's face in hand and i haven't stopped thinking about it so i drew it lmao

#this is vee speaking #and like………….. komada-san didn’t even ask hayama-san to tilt his head or do it himself #hayama-san looked at the pic komada-san took instantly understood the assignment and then ramped 🆙 the attitude like DAMN #komada: *throws his head back* YES 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩 #me: *dead upon impact* 😌🪦🪦🪦🪦🪦🪦🪦🪦🪦 #lol it must the crowd hayama-san has being a bl ambassador #or maybe just even because you have two attractive men in the room!!!!!!!! idk!!!!!! #but viewers kept requesting borderline kℹ️nky stuff lmao and straight up asked for a kiss photo LMAO #calm yourselves viewers one of them is married lmao #there was a moment where viewers asked for his tongue (truly they know what’s up lol) and it took hayama-san a moment to get it #but then he tilted his head and swept his tongue along his top lip and y’all this has actually been a ghost communicating— #the definition of ​duality of man is just hayama-san actually lmao #vee is arting

[imamugglebornwitch]

jjk ch 261 spoilers

twinning

#jjk spoilers #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen spoilers #they will never get to know peace even after they're dead huh #used dead or alive #needed dead or alive #tools for their society dead or alive #wanted #truly wanted #only by each other #cause the others wouldn't have really understood #maybe they could've #maybe if they had tried harder #but would it have really changed anything? #what's the point if the one person they wanted wasn't there? #would it have been enough? #every single somewhat old and kinda sad tumblr textpost is gonna make a comeback at this rate #with the orpheus and euridyce one #and now the being needed if they can't be wanted one #if i cannot be wanted i will be needed and if i cannot be needed let me be used until there's nothing left of me #actually im not sure how old that one is #but you get my point #honestly im kinda surprised that the theory that gojo's body would be used after his death didn't get super popular #or maybe it did and i just didn't see it #considering how much gege just loveeeees giving them the same fate #i need to add #this is not yuta slander #it is also not shoko slander

[philsmeatylegss]

“Parasocial relationships are bad” “it’s not creators’ responsibility to cater to your feelings”

I genuinely am still heartbroken three years later about finding out what an awful human Shane Dawson was and is and I truly still feel angry and betrayed by him and I don’t give a shit if it is parasocial.

#yes it’s not their responsibility but shane made an effort to connect with depressed fans and fans with EDs and was a role model #and he took our naivety from being fucking 14 and abused it #I felt truly understood by him and he gave me hope that it was going to get better #I don’t give a shit if it’s my fault for being emotionally attached #I was fucking 12-15 #his personality is all fake if you watch his videos now #(I watch them through Jake Doolittle who makes fun of it and helps me not give shane a view) #he makes fun of being cancelled he didn’t learn a single fucking thing #and in just a few days I watched one of my role models be revealed to have such a sick and twisted past that he never took responsibility #for and continued to profit off it until he was called out #he catered to vulnerable children he called himself the uncle of youtube #to have that history and not learning from it yet still portraying yourself as this wise gentle father figure to vulnerable kids is fucking #evil #yes it’s not his fault I had such a one sided relationship #but you can’t tell me he didn’t feed into relationships like the one I had when I was 14 #he interacted with the phandom for fucking views and to get the phandom on his side #phandom at this time was an average age of 12-16 #he knew what he was doing and I hate him till this day for it #rae’s rambles

[kaus-quietis]

enough for a lifetime

#bsd fyodor #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd fyodor dostoyevsky #bsd fyodor dostoevsky #bungou stray dogs fyodor #bsd fanart #fanart #unsolved and endless #watercolour #what I've written there is a quote from F.M. Dostoyevsky's 'White Nights' (1848)- a work I learnt to love more and more in time #one of the first manifestations of pure selfless love in his writings - and I mean TRULY selfless in a way so shock!ng at first reading #contemplating it over time I understood the intention better and I can't help but love Dostoyevsky's dreamers #by that I mean his intellectual dreamer type of characters and following them through their plotline makes one's heart b!eed constantly #especially if you yourself resonate with the type #the original quote has different punctuation - 'A whole moment of bliss! Isn't that enough for an entire human life?..' #more like the b!essed type of happiness as well as 'a whole minute of happiness' remaining true to the plot itself too actually #(seriously I can't forget that one specific scene implying 'the whole minute' itself Iamheartbroken) #after a long time the nameless dreamer became very dear to me.. he leaves me in wonder and melancholy... and suffering #for an early writing 'White Nights' already hints at the psychological and spiritual deep-dives of much later works #so do all early works featuring dreamers I'd argue - 'The landlady' 'A faint heart' 'Netochka Nezvanova'... well 'Poor Folk' too #where Gogol's dreamer artist from 'Nevsky Prospekt' failed - Dostoyevsky's nameless dreamer from 'White Nights' overcame & survived #these tags are rather distracting from the fanart itself.. but are words necessary?... for... #*continues inact!vity per!od*

[jonny-b-meowborn]

I know this is kinda silly and doesn't seem as serious as it is for me but it genuinely hurts me that I can't casually tell people that I'm a therian. I can't even say I'm a furry unless I'm certain I won't be judged. It's becoming an increasingly important part of my identity and I wish I could just tell people "I'm a dog btw ^-^" when I meet them the same way I can tell them I'm queer or an artist or a gamer or whatever. It's just who I am and I hate how it's not really accepted, or even understood by most people

#i think it would really benefit my relationships with people if i could tell them that and know they're cool with it #and i don't just mean the fact that being understood and accepted is important in relationships with people. because yeah duh #i mean if someone truly understood it they would change the way they interact with me #like in my last post i said i wish to be touched the way you touch a dog #no thoughts or motives behind that. just pets or scratches #right now if someone pet me or if i request being pet there would probably be some other motives in that #like flirting for example #and like these can coexist it could be both mindless petting and flirting in certain circumstances #but i mean i wish i could get the pure affection for the sake of it from people #like honestly that sounds nice even from people i don't know too well #if i trust you enough to want to interact with you im okay with you petting me in a dog way #but then I can't tell people this so i can't get that #and yknow there is other stuff that goes with being perceived as something other than human #the way i express my emotions feels animal to me. it just does. but no one can get that without me explaining every detail of my mind #i said this before in sone other post but i wish people would just know im a dog without having to tell them #because i can't tell anyone #except for yknow. the internet where no one really knows me #well #therianposting #bee buzz