#but thats okay tho i learnt how to do something new

[saintforan]

Oh no, he's turning him into bread!

#art #artists on tumblr #digital art #digital illustration #poppy playtime #poppy playtime 3 #poppy playtime chapter 3 #catnap #dogday #smiling critters #i really need to know how animators do this #i nearly died on this like 2 second gif 😫 #but thats okay tho i learnt how to do something new

[juni-ravenhall]

oh ye mighty one, knowledgeable in the arcane ways of human mind...

can you share your opinion on what is the most annoying trait of INTP/ISTPs (i honest to god have no idea which one fits me better)? perhaps something on how to "overcome" it or make it less annoying, if possible?

thank you! (if you don't feel like answering, that's perfectly okay and understandable)

dude u have no idea how excited i am u ask me mbti shit. aideen bless ur week ;_;

u know ur dominant Ti if u are stuck between those two. do u like motorcycles? do u care about tinkering w mechanical things? do u like physical construction stuff more than reading wikipedia articles? then prob istp. if u prefer to read 200 pages about some biology topic, then prob intp. stereotypes yeah, not 100% certain, but ones based on many irl ppl ive known. intp tend to be more quiet and indoorsy while istp more assertive and outdoorsy. istp use Se-Ni while intp use Ne-Si so also, if ur really into physical stimulation (driving fast, working out, drinking, partying) more likely istp, if youre more into being inside ur brain thinking of nifty concepts and connecting theoretical dots, more likely intp.

as far as most annoying trait goes. both these types can get stuck in the same place unable to progress where they want to go, or just to become a more mature/healthy person even, bc of the Ti (for intp also the Si).

Ti is kinda like a library that u fill out with information (says i as a non-Ti user), u have lots of bookshelves and filing cabinets full of cool shit, but the problem is, sometimes the info you filed might not have been fully correct, or maybe it changed over time. so among all those books and files there might be some stuff thats holding u back or causing u to not see things in a realistic way in the present time, bc an old mindset is stuck. could be things like "you have to do x thing a certain way" (u dont!) or "x thing is difficult and i cant do it" (u can!) or "usually people do x thing x way and being different is not ok" (its ok!) or many other things.

can get stuck in mindsets and habits that aren't helping instead of habits that do help. and habits can be important for Ti and Si ppl, so having repetitive habits might not be bad at all, but make sure they're taking you where u want to be. if not, try new habits even if it might be uncomfortable for a bit - if its too uncomfortable mb its not the right habit for u tho. (esp important for ND ppl who might have even more specific needs regarding habits)

i think the typical toxic trait of ixtp is mansplaining tbh (but like.. genderneutral). that can make others feel like "dont you think i know anything? do you think im stupid?" even tho its often not intended that way. the toxic version of this is mostly bc the Ti library is indeed full of cool shit and ixtp can sometimes, if toxic, forget that other ppl *also* have brains full of cool shit and theirs is not the only cool one or necessarily the one with the most correct info. (but pls dont get anxiety that ur toxic about this bc ur probably not.)

the not-toxic but "annoying to normies" version of this for the intp is more like, infodumping, talking a lot about their interests and new cool things they learnt, and normies might be like "thats so boring i dont care about this" (unfair, get real friends who do care). for istp it might be more like "i know everything about how this machine works and what all the parts are called", which can come across as being cocky or like you think u know more than everyone else who are into the same thing. (being confident is good obvs, so as long as u dont put others down its not bad.)

i think overall the generic advice from me would just be to watch out for getting stuck in repetitive mindsets/habits that don't help you enjoy life, and watch out for thinking your knowledge is wider/better than others (i mean - maybe it *is*, maybe not, but the issue is putting down the knowledge of others more than anything).

if you've been thru a rough time in life, you might on the other hand *lack* confidence in ur Ti library... so then u should fill it up with more cool shit and kick out the bad shit, start fresh to some degree. and just make sure to make friends who appreciate ur library of cool shit and ur skills. don't force urself to put up with ppl who don't support your interests or who dont think ur talents are meaningful.

also summary: marie-kondo out your brain sometimes and check if a mindset / habit / assumption / etc is sparking joy or not.

#u dont understand im very happy to write long mbti posts. very #<3 <3 <3 #long post #nonhorsgaem

[superlinn02]

Polkadot man x fem reader (part 1)

Obs:this story doesn't contain any mentions of she or her but it is implied that you start at the female part of the prison just like ratchatcer

Info:this will probably have some spelling mistakes because English is not my first language. This story might not be great because it's my first in awhile. Thanks for understanding

You shouldn't be here, you didn't fit in here. Well at least that's what you think, the ones that put u in this God forsaken prison seemed to think otherwise. I men sure you killed a cupel of people but they were gonna kill you first they just didn't get the chance.

Either way now you were stuck in this shit hole, not that living in the streets of Gotham were much better but at least you where free there. Here you were still the outcast you were out in Gotham, no friends and people acted like you didn't exist but that was all you had ever known so you didn't mind too much.

But then the day came, Waller walked in and apparently you were now part of a team. They all looked like idiots in your opinion well at least the ones you have meet so far, peacemaker, bloodsport and king Shark you thought their names were. Cleo you already knew of, not that u had ever talked to her,and that was it you thought until Waller backtracked to the guys wing again.

The man in front of u looked sad and if the eyes truly were the window's too one's soul, his showed everything about him at least to you. The frown on your face was probably very visible when you realized that all the information you were gonna get about this man was that they call him polkadot man. How was that fair even you had gotten more of an introduction and their really wasn't much to say.

The debriefing came and went and now you were sat between cleo and Abner krill as you learnt his name was in the helicopter. It was pretty awkward and your social awkwardness didn't help at all so you let the others handel the talking.

"so what do we do when we land?" it was Cleo asking.

"we won't land, we are gonna jump into the water. Less noise." peacemaker answered fast. One could easily tell he wanted to be the leader but had to deal with not getting his way.

Abner hadn't really talked efter telling you all his name but then again neither had you. But hearing the word swimming made that change real quick.

"whoa! whoa! Hold up nobody said anything about swimming!" you quickly stated before anyone could change subject again.

"yes, you have a problem with that?" this time it was bloodsport that answered.

"no, I just don't like getting wet." you said while looking at your hands. You didn't really want anyone of these "super villians" to know you were a bad swimmer.

You didn't get to dwell on it for too long however because in the corner of your eye you saw a small movement. You shifted so you could get a closer look at what was happening only to see Abner trying his best to hide something on his neck.

You were about to ask him if he was okay but before you could get the chance it was time to get in the water. It went surprisingly well, at least thats what you thought. You probably looked like you were in fact drowning, but at least you made it. You all made it to the shoore and went on to make camp.

You were at the back of the group on the way to your camp spot and that's when you saw it. Abner neck had a bump, that wasn't the weird thing however, nope the weird thing was that it was glowing a in your opinion quite beautiful blue.

"hey, are you okay?" you wisper to him. You didn't wanna make a big deal out of it, but something in you at least wanted to make sure he was okay.

He seemed to freeze up before a quick yes escaped his lips and he continued walking without so much as looking at you.

It may have seemed rude to others but you didn't mind. He seems like a withdrawn kind of person but so were you so you completely understood. However, much to your dismay and probably Abners too the others in your little group also noticed what had happened to Abner.

"hey! What happened to your face?" peacemaker asked seeming more concerned over himself other than Abner.

"it's just a rash" it came out fast and quiet, as if Abner were scared that if he talked louder something bad would happen.

"that's a rash?!" it was peacemaker again seemingly more self concerned then before.

Not much more was said about the subject and that seemed to please Abner. You however was curious now and hade to at least try and get him to talk to you. There was something about him that was drawing you in, something that actually made you want to get to know him be his friend. Hmm a friend now that wasn't something you had a lot of.

The campsite was not much of a campsite at all but you felt it better to keep your mouth shut. But this felt like the perfect moment to get to know Abner or anyone in this squad for that matter. However when you turn to look for Abner he was gone, probably took the first opportunity that he got to get away a bit. So you decided to see what Cloe aka ratchatcer 2 was up too.

Not before long everyone except you seemed to be sleeping. You were sitting on a log staring at the scenery when a rustel startled you. Your eyes snapped to Abners sleeping bag only to see that the bumps hade been growing and started to disform his pretty face... Wait pretty? When was that something you thought about anyone? Maybe being doomed to die did something to you.

But you didn't get to dwell on it for too long because as quickly as he hade moved he had moved on to the bushes right besides your camp. You were thinking about going after him and make sure he was okay but you didn't even get the chance to stand up before a rainbow of sorts seemed to be coming frome the bush.

Without even noticing you where sneeking closer and closer to what you assumed was Abner. You got about halfway there before he came back out looking exactly like at the prison before you left,well expect he had his undershirt on instead of his costume.

"are you okay? And I don't want you to brush it off this time." in hindsight you maybe sounded a little demanding but you didn't like death so you wanted to make sure.

"yes, I comes with my powers. It won't infect you I promise." his answer shocked you. Had nobody cared about him and just asked because they were scared? That didn't sit right with you at all.

"I wasn't asking because I was afraid, I was asking because I don't want you dead." you said that and then immediately regretted it. You didn't meen to sound so concerned and scared but in truth you were, so you guessed that was the reason.

However neither you nor Abner didn't get to think on it, because one of your team mates tried to eat another one of your team mates. The shark still scared you a bit but he seemed to agree to not eat you so it was a step in the right direction. That didn't mean you weren't taking precautions, you took your sleeping bag and moved it to where Abner was sleeping.

In the morning you were surprised to wake up to brown eyes watching you. It didn't make you uncomfortable at all, it made you feel seen and in a weird kinda way you hoped he would look at you more. But he didn't seem the kind to like eye contact.

The moment however was quickly broken by bloodsport yelling to get up and get our asses on the move. Apparently we were to find someone named Rick Flag. The camp he was being held at wasn't to far away and when you got there you weren't surprised that bloodsport and peacemaker were having some kind of killing contest.

You didn't do much because of your dislike to killing people so while they were brutally making their way through camp you quietly followed after. But you got wreckless and when you though everyone was dead you went out in the open. That was your mistake because a second later you heard guns clocking and people saying stuff you couldn't understand. You really thought this was it your last time on earth your last living moment, and your eyes went to his. At the time you didn't know why but it felt right.

His eyes weren't on you tho, no they were focused on something behind you. Before you knew what was happening he moved and stretched out his arms. Out of them came what you could only discribe as polkadots, quite beautiful if you got to say so.

You could only hear the comotion behind you and then the world was quiet again. Your eyes never left him and you could only wagly hear peacemakers comment about the polkadots. You desperately wanted to thank Abner in whatever way you could. But the moment was cut short by Abner himself.

"sorry it's so flamboyant" was all he said still not really looking at anyone.

"I think it's beautiful" you heard yourself say. You wanted to smack your hand over your mouth but the words had already left so what was the point.

Everyone else didn't really seem too care and quickly went to check on flag. And when you also started to turn around and leave, you chought his eyes again but only for a moment. You could feel your cheeks getting warm at that, damn him and his pretty eyes! But that also when you heard it, so quiet but still there.

"do you really mean that?" it was Abner, still behind you but seemingly closer.

"Of course I do, I may be the bad guy but a lier I am not." you said while turning to face him again. When you saw his face again you gave him a smal smile but a genuine one, then turned around to meet this new person you had never herd of before.

#polka dot man #Polkadot man x reader #Polka-dot man x reader #Polka-dot man #abner krill #I am a superhero #X reader #Suicide squad #The suicide squad

[mettywiththenotes]

319 reaction and bits I loved about it

The red eye preference is strong in this one lmao

I really love how the tattered bits of paper fall over the title? I just like when Hori does stuff like that, like he did with MVA arc and Tomura decaying the title, it’s so nice and... I wanna say interactive? Like fourth wall? Yeah. Very cool!

You can see how bruised and burnt these two still are after the war

I like this new thing that's been introduced in this chapter with Baku, Todo and Tokoyami representing their mentors. Like of course we know that these three all worked under the Top 3 but I think this is the first time we’ve seen it showcased here all in a segment? It’s just really nice. I hope we get to see more of this in the future, considering how interlaced the Top 3 are with each other at the moment

So I know everyones been saying how we didn’t get to see Shinsou when he could be in 1A, and a part of me wonders if Shinsou went to 1B instead, but it seems more likely that since graduation is delayed that Shinsou has just NOT graduated from his original course yet... so it’s likely we’ll see him hopefully when everything gets moving again :)

Can we talk?? About how smart Bakugou is?? Because! He really is so smart!! His deduction skills are so spot on! Seriously this kid is such a detective and I love him so much. I totally bet he has a conspiracy theorist board up in his room with everyone’s pictures on and strings everywhere lmao

Also! Kaminari has no scar! Which idk I’m not happy or sad about that, tho the scar would have looked cool. I’m just glad he looks okay physically

Bakugou,,, clenching his hand in frustration,, but also looking at the hand that is ready to help Izuku, that is already willing to run out there and bring him back,,,, yes I am here for this

Her hair has gotten longer! Or flatter? I hope that’s not due to showing her loss of innocence or something :( I love her new look but I also miss happy bubbly Ochako

OCHAKO A FUCKING QUEEN she was legit like “okay lets tug the bastards leg and trick him” I LOVE HER FOR THAT, SHE’S DONE MESSING AROUND, SHE’S READY TO TOW THE LINE BETWEEN “hey is this polite enough to do?” to “okay I’ve had enough lets drag him in”

Enji: UM??

Nedzu: 😐

1A: 😠

Also, you can see now, with more comparison with the other students, how scuffed up Baku, Todo AND Iieda still are. I also looked at this pic and was like “omg they all look older?? They are growing up!!” and thats also true but I think its more because Bakugou looks smarter with his tie on lmao. A fancy boy!

Nah this is so funny tho like imagine you get called in to your old high school and you get ambushed by a bunch of 16 year olds who block the doorway so you can’t get out, all in front of your old principal lmao Enji you in for a bad time

EXPOSE HIM SHOUTO!!!

So, and forgive me if I get this wrong, but is Enji saying here that Shouto saying “Let’s stop Touya together” was only said as MOTIVATION for him?? And that’s what he interpreted that as?? That Shouto’s intention was only to motivate Enji to get up or something?? Or was it false promises, intending to keep it during the moment but then letting the subject drop?

Or could he mean “saved me back then” as saving him from his family’s judgement? From backlash of the media’s critique on him not doing anything?

Idk but either way... Enji... the disconnect between you and your family is so ridiculous its not even funny

Bakugou’s reassuring hand on Shouto’s shoulder,,, crying and sobbing sobbing and crying because THEY ARE FRIENDS!!

Finally, SOMEBODY gets how insane Izuku is lol

Once again, Bakugou showing off how smart he is, love him for that. It’s the way that he made the connection in his mind of “Deku is being reckless” to “He’s being reckless because he learnt off of All Might and that’s where he got it from”

Also, Bakugou has grown up with Izuku all his life but lets take into account how much Bakugou must OBSERVE Izuku, because he really got it straight on the nail here. “Always insisting he’s fine”, “Doesn’t take himself into account”... how long has Bakugou been watching Izuku and noticing these details? Then again, they’ve always been watching each other, so it’s not a big revelation but its interesting to point out. Total soulmate stuff if you ask me🥰

I think what hits hard the most in this scene though is with the quote “You don’t know anything about Deku.”

Because Endeavor spent time with Izuku, right? During the internship. And like I’m not saying Enji is obligated to retain everything about who Izuku is as a person, and I don’t expect him to [especially cause of the whole Liberation fiasco and the fact that he was also training Bakugou and Shouto ON TOP OF fighting Villains at the same time], but you’d think that he’d at least have retained a little of something about the kid and how he works. It’s just kinda sad I guess. It shows how, while Endeavor DOES know how to interact with Izuku and discuss stuff with him [like understanding his mutterings perfectly and when they were discussing what to do to improve his power], he’s really not qualified to be looking after the kid. Like Bakugou said, he doesn’t know him, so he doesn’t know when to tell him to stop, or HOW exactly to get him to stop. It’s just sad

And while I like Baku and Shouto’s confrontation with Enji, there’s also that element of respect coming from Bakugou? Like I’m not saying Bakugou likes the guy, but he’s actually just stating the fact that Enji doesn’t know Izuku at all, and it would be best for the class to go after and confront him instead. Just a nice detail I noticed, cause while Enji is an asshat and definitely deserves some yelling from his son, he’s also not exactly being criticised by everybody. He just needs to swap the authority around, because he’s clearly not a good babysitter for the worlds most traumatized baby cryptid

OKAY OKAY I really wanna talk about these bits of characterisation?? Cause Sero! He’s usually such a chill guy, right? So to see him so desperate like this, yelling out in polite frustration, is just really nice to see! I think I remember Hori stating that Sero was gonna get a big moment at some point, so I’m certainly looking forward to more characterisation and/or THE big moment whenever it comes!

Also... Kouda carrying tiny lil Mineta🥺

SHOUTO AND IIEDA SHOWN HERE! Because of the whole bond they have with Izuku!! And Iieda being his class president self and being authoritive, leading his classmates and also making a statement to Endeavor and Nedzu that they won’t just let Izuku go off on his own! Got chills here

OH THIS IS SUCH A SWEET MOMENT! Ochako crying as she gets her acceptance video and her mother on the phone to the dad, telling him that she got in! So cute!

Okay I really wanna have faith that this barrier will work, but... I’m having doubts, Nedzu. Hopefully it works and it’ll prove me wrong but...

Bakugou and Momo interaction! We love to see it!

Izuku’s costume doesn’t even look like ANYTHING anymore, it just looks like a dark shroud over his body. Some kind of monster suit :( He looks so innocent and traumatised in that second panel to the right

Ochako looks like she’s on a mission, as in maybe keeping her feelings in before they actually rescue him? And then when/if they do save him, she’ll probably sob and hug him real tight and tell him how much she’s missed him :’) we live in hope

IZUKU BABY YOU LOOK SO TIRED PLEASE REST! And... idk I can’t really tell but did a part of his suit just fall off or something?? He’s falling apart

This entire page is just so good... Like, Izuku putting his mask back on, unwilling to see them all face to face.

Bakugou clapping in amusement and mocking Izuku IS SO GOOD, I love to see this side of him

“After all this, can you still keep smiling?” as Izuku is shrouded in his mask, and the only smile is the MOUTH GUARD that is maybe one good punch away from crumbling,,,

Iieda’s face!! He’s looks so solemn and sad :(

And Izuku’s slumped form as he gets up... he’s so tired I just want him to rest

Izuku STOP refusing help we need you to get to a bed and have good long nap STAT! Don’t do something you’ll regret!

I love this because “All Might wannabe” aged so poorly because Izuku IS like him but in the worst ways...

Iieda and Ochako being stoic and powerful, we love to see it

And I just wanna say that this parallels the beginning for Izuku. How in the first training group session, it was Iieda and Bakugou vs Izuku and Ochako. And, since then, they’ve all had their little character developments, with Iieda becoming more flexible with working with other people and allowing to count on others to help him when needed, same with Bakugou who struggled greatly with working with others and now he’s got THE WHOLE OF 1A on his side working together, and Ochako who was a little nervous and all over the place at first but ever since that first exam she’s come so far and gotten so much stronger in order to protect the ones she loves!

For Izuku it was these 3 he started with, and now it’s come to this, where all 3 are going against him to bring him home,, we’ve come full circle babyyyyy

I loved this chapter and now I’m like SUPER psyched to see what happens next! I never expected 1A to fight Izuku as a collective at all! While the kids outnumber Izuku, Izuku also has all his quirks and a very stubborn fighting spirit. There may be a chance he could lose, especially with how tired he is right now, but idk we’ll have to wait and see! Ahhh I’m so excited!

#i just had to get this out and i didn't really wanna talk about it in seperate posts #so here it is all in one #too long to read lol #many thoughts head full #bnha 319 #bnha #bnha spoilers #bnha manga spoilers #mettys posts #metty posts

[gracelessfighters]

don’t feel

JJ Maybank x female reader

Masterlist

-- // part two // part three // part four

Summary: soulmate au with JJ where they can feel each other’s pain when in close proximity, but with both of them feeling a lot of pain, that connection seems to go almost unnoticed 

Word count: 2.2k

Warnings: angsty, abuse, mentions of abuse and injuries, swearing (i think thats it?)

——- I am in no way romanticising abuse if you have any issues with my writing pls message me

A/N: I decided to make this into a mini series as this was already getting pretty wordy and so this is basically the intro?? (not much JJ in it yet) Hope you enjoy and there’s probably some grammar errors so ignore them pls

(gif by @siriusscratch​ )

The kook life wasn’t all luxury all the time - your family had never been one of the richest and you didn’t exactly have the best home life either. Your parents had basically hated each other for as long as you could remember, always in some sort of argument or another, screaming across the house and shouting at all hours of the day and night.

This was something you had learnt to deal with though, what you still weren’t used to was them being violent - it had started off as a vase or plate thrown across the room around a year ago, but this had soon become fists being thrown instead, not only at each other, but they had turned on you and your younger sister as well.

Normally your escape was going to school, just being away from that toxic atmosphere did you a world of good, and after school you would take Grace, your younger sister, out for ice cream or to the beach. Anything to stay out of the house for a little bit longer.

Unfortunately, the school year was now over and the summer holidays had begun and even if the summer season was your favourite, you had been hating every second of it so far.

You had managed to stay in your bedroom for most of today, but were now beginning to get hungry so you knew you’d soon have to venture downstairs and hope that your parents were in an alright mood.

Your sister heard you begin to move down the stairs, popping her head out of her room she said, “Hey Y/N,”

“Hi Grace, you good?”

“Yeah I’m fine, are you getting some food?”

“I’m going to try to yes, I’m assuming you want some of the spoils?” You raised your eyebrow at her in question.

“Yes please,” she looked towards the floor, “I’m sorry I don’t want to go down there tonight, they were arguing when I got in from Carley’s and-“

You cut her off, stepping toward her and putting a strand of hair behind her ears, “hey don’t be sorry, you know I don’t want to risk you getting hurt, I’ll get you some water as well, okay?”

“Thank you, and Y/N, I don’t want you to get hurt either.”

You stepped away, ready to go back downstairs, “I know but I’m the older one and I will always protect you bub.”

With that you took a deep breath in, and walked down the stairs to the kitchen. Luckily it was empty, so you quickly grabbed some bread and began making some sandwiches for you and your sister. Sandwiches were about as complex as you got when it came to making food but it would do.

You were about to head upstairs when your dad walked in, “Why haven’t I seen you all day?”

“Uh I’ve been busy,” you picked up the plates and tried to move past him, only for him to block your path, “excuse me please.”

“Your mother and I want to see you around the house more, you’re either out or in your room, is spending time with us so bad?”

“I don’t spend time with you because I’m busy Dad, don’t get offended.” As soon as the words were out of your mouth you regretted them, your dad’s face morphed into one of anger.

Before you could even react he brought his fist into your stomach, causing you to double over in pain, dropping the plates you were holding in the process.

“Now look what you’ve done!” He shouted at you, waving his hands at the mess on the floor.

Not wanting to upset him anymore you quickly grab a dustpan and brush and bent down to begin clearing it up when he delivers a vicious kick into your chest, you fall to the floor completely, struggling to breath. He kicks you again, this time the strength in his leg slams you into the cabinets behind you, you wince in pain, too winded to even breath properly, you refused to let the tears behind your eyes fall, from past experience you knew that crying in front of your dad was a bad idea as he viewed it as ’weak’ and it only made him angrier.

He stepped away, giving you room to stand back up, you tried not to grab your front in pain, even if it felt like your insides had been ripped apart and you knew the bruises were already forming and by this time tomorrow your stomach would be a pattern of purple and green bruises.

“I’m sorry honey, I don’t know what came over me.” He tried to reach out to you, but you only flinched away, not looking at him.

“I’ll tell you what, I’ll clean this up, you go and have a lie down and I’ll see you later.”

You just nodded, still not wanting to make eye contact with him, and shuffled past him, your body shaking more and more with each step, and once you’d reached the first step, the tears slowly began falling down your face.

Your sister was stood at the top of the stairs, a single tear mark on her cheek as she took in your state, she held out her hand for you, leading you towards your room where you sat on your bed, drained and in pain and not wanting to speak.

Your sister had come back into your room with some cream for your side, but you still didn’t move.

“Y/N,” she moved to grab your hand, “I’m so sorry, I should’ve gone down with you.”

This shook the vacant look out of your eyes, squeezing her hand you said, “Absolutely not, I meant what I said earlier and it is more painful seeing you in pain than what I’m experiencing now.”

You lifted your shirt, revealing the swollen marks that would soon become bruises. Grace’s breath hitched in her throat, “Oh God, this is worse than I thought it was, do you think anything is broken?”

“No, it’s just bruises and anyway he only kicked me a few times today and kind of apologised which is better than most of the time.”

Grace went to say something but you held up your hand to stop her, “I’m not excusing his behaviour don’t worry, I’m just saying it could have been worse.”

“But it shouldn’t have to happen at all!” She had finished applying the cream and began pacing, “I know it happens more to you because you protect me but it disgusts me and I hate how it effects you, you almost become a shell of who you whenever this happens. You’re the best person I know and our fucking parents are destroying you every day!”

“Not so loud Grace.” You try to calm her down, but it only seems to make her angrier, even though she was only thirteen, she had already grown up so much due to what you’d both endured, and it honestly broke your heart.

“I want us to leave this place Y/N.” She turned to you, angry tears now rolling down her face.

You held out your arms for her and she moved over to you, snuggling into your embrace, careful not to hurt you.

“I promise one day we will get out of here but right now we can’t and we’re just going to have to live with it for a little while.”

You could feel her nod against your chest, she moved out of the hug slightly so she could look at you, “Do you want me to stay in here tonight?”

“Maybe, I haven’t decided yet, but first,” you stood up, wincing slightly at the movement, “We still need food, so do you want to sneak out to The Wreck?”

“Only if you’re up for it.”

“Of course I am, any chance to eat those fries I’m taking to be honest.” You smiled at her and luckily she let out a huff of laughter, lightening the mood between you.

“Okay then, which escape are we doing? 1 or 2?” She asked, reaching for a jumper in your wardrobe. Throughout the years, you had both created different codes for around your parents or ways to get out of the house, and at this point it was almost perfected.

You hold you chin in contemplation, “I was thinking one.”

“Interesting,” she clapped her hands together and headed towards your door to go to her room, “Okay I’ll see you at the car in 5 minutes.”

You nodded at her, and turned to the mirror quickly wiping away the mascara stains around your eyes and pulled a jumper on before heading over to your window and pulling it open.

You and Grace both had ways to get out of your bedrooms from your windows - yours was a wooden trellis for the roses and plants to climb up the side of the house, which you had perfected moving up and down on; hers was a small terrace over the outdoor seating area that she could jump to and then jump to the floor on. You never went on each other’s way out as neither of you wanted to risk it not holding both weights and your parents catch you, as this would probably result in at least one of you being sent to the hospital.

You struggled a little today due to your new injuries but still managed and once you had finished climbing down, you wiped your hands on your jeans, and headed to your car on the drive where your sister was already leaning against the passenger door.

You sat behind the wheel, started the engine and slowly pulled out of the drive.

Neither you or your sister spoke for a few minutes, enjoying the fact that you were out of the house and on your way to one of your favourite places on the island. The Wreck was mainly a touron and pogue institution, but you had always enjoyed going there, especially because you and Kiara got along well enough that it wasn’t the normal Kook vs Pogue fight whenever you went.

Grace reached to turn down the radio before looking at you, “Y/N.”

You glanced at her and raised your eyebrows, “Grace.”

“Do you know your soulmate yet?”

You cleared your throat, this topic always made you uncomfortable as the idea there was someone who, if they were near enough to you, could feel the pain you were in, not only made you sad but also anxious because by the time they work out who you are, they could resent you for the pain you had caused them even though it wasn’t your fault.

“No, I’m yet to see someone near me double over in pain when Mum or Dad have used me as a punching bag that day, so I’m starting to think they might not be on this fucking island.” `You didn’t mean for it to come out as bitchy as that and probably should have apologised but it was how you felt.

Your sister had pity in her eyes but didn’t say anything, instead just hummed to the song coming through the car speakers.

You stayed like that, listening to the music and not uttering any other words until you pulled up to the small car park outside the Wreck.

“Right, let’s go and get some food.” You said, opening the door to your car and heading into the restaurant.

Kie smiled at you in greeting before leading you and Grace over to a table at the back, away from most people.

You hit your hip on the table next to yours by accident, causing pain to flare up over your body, making the injuries you already had somehow feel even worse.

Grace had heard your intake of breath, and as you both sat down she looked at you, “Are you okay?”

“Yes I’m fine don’t worry, just being my clumsy self.”

She nodded and looked down at the menu in front of her, you didn’t need to look, you ordered the exact same thing every time, so instead you looked at the people who were sat in the restaurant.

It was past the peak dinnertime service so only a few tourons were in here, and there was Kiara’s little pogue group sat on a table in the opposite corner, all talking in hushed whispers. As you looked at them your head began to pound, like you’d been hit with a baseball bat repeatedly, you couldn’t help but grimace slightly.

You must have hit your head earlier when your dad sent you flying into the cabinets, and this was just a delayed reaction. You kept reassuring yourself this, especially when the blond boy, who you knew was called JJ, turned around, making eye contact with you through his swollen and bruised eyes. He raised his eyebrows quizzically, holding his side slightly, as if in pain.

It was all just a coincidence you thought, you dad had hurt you more than you realised earlier, and you hadn’t taken any painkillers.

You looked down at your menu, trying to escape the gaze of the blond boy, who you could feel was still looking at you.

Yeah it was just a coincidence.

Part two 

Tags: @jiaraendgame ( @teamnick​ i said i’d tag you in my next series hope you dont mind)

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[honeymaki]

kitty ! im so sorry thank ur not feeling great !!! but im so proud that u were able to shower and get some journaling done ! and that ur eating ! thats so good that ur doing that even tho its hard 🥺 i wish that i could say something to take away the self sabotage, but pls know that many many people love you and want you in their lives and want to help you nd i know sometimes it can be hard accepting help from others but as human beings, we've always had help from others ! ur not born knowing how to walk, ur taught it ! same with at school and stuff ! so its ok to accept help and learn new ways of coping ! but anyways, i hope tomorrow is better for u, i'll always be here if you need me though. love u very much 🥰

-🧋

Thank you:((( I really appreciate your kindess:(( I know I self sabotage nd I haven’t learnt ways to stop it yet so it’s frustrating nd upsetting, specially when I realise I’m doing it and I’ve not realised before yknow? But thank you, m gonna try tomorrow but I’m not holding out, this week has been hard nd I got talk over the triggers with my therapist so:((( irl be okay, it’s for the best🥺💕

#🧋.answers #⇢🧋

[theunconcernedembalmer]

Toko! I was thinking of creating an ask the character blog for IDV or Genshin Impact and wanted a few tips on how to start off. Anything you can share?

ey yo my dude!! thank you so much for this question, now im lowkey tempted (again) to make a genshin ask blog sjadhlkshgkahshglsaj anyway my 1.5 cents is under the cut, yall know how much i talk here HAHAHAHAH

uhhhhhh so i guess we start with picking a character u really Vibe with tm? I KNOW THIS SOUNDS LIKE COMMON SENSE BUT LIKE ive been considering making a genshin ask blog for a while now but i never really got to it cos i couldnt really decide on a character (plus the fact that their outfits are. so intricate. is also a hmm since i try to follow details to a t) (at first i wanted to do zhongli, but i feel like to be able to muse him well u need to know the lore super super well, which i dont n im too lazy to research on that aha. n u know how much i respect characterizations, especially for such a complex character like him. i also considered xiangling for a period of time mostly for guoba but also like i have 2+1 blogs here n having one more might not be a very good idea aha) (as for aesop he was my Hyperfixation Character tm also cos i looked at his kit n went Yep i could work with this. probably)

so assuming ur not a dumbass like me n u kinda know who u wanna pick, id actually say to snoop around here for other ask blogs n kinda get a feel of the... scene? is that the word? or like u know, other blogs that u can potentially vibe with. ive run a couple of ask blogs before this current one (both that have died for different reasons) n from my experience interacting with other blogs (if theyre okay with it, i think most should be) is pretty fun. it also kinda helps get ur blog around to other ppl on other blogs so they can go Oh whats this cool shit n check u out, n its also a reason why we kinda reblog promo posts for other blogs (also cos we’re always excited when someone new comes on, its really the more the merrier. we see all :eyes:). interacting with other blogs is also an option when ur inbox is looking real roomy too

another reason why i havent exactly done a genshin blog is that idk i cant actually seem to find genshin ask blogs around (i have seen rp blogs, or those that answer asks with mostly text instead of art, but thats. not my thing since i hate my own writing aha) (i did find one aether blog some time ago, but for some reason i hardly see them around anymore??? idk man i might be wrong). its not like im trying super hard to find them ask blogs, so im sure they exist out there (hopefully?? im not sure but im being optimistic). i mean theres nothing wrong with just starting an ask blog without others around, but for me i do find a difference when i interact with other ask blogs n when i dont, n i prefer when theres others to have fun with (unfortunately i couldnt find any ask blogs to interact with in my previous fandom. i tried, but the blogs i approached seemed to go inactive shortly afterwards...) plus u get to meet friends that way too :D (i made a lot of friends via idv askblogs n its really been a joy vibing with others)

as for the idv scene. gestures around me. unfortunately there are a lot of ask blogs that arent that active anymore, but theres still some of us who are alive n kicking empty inboxes, n im sure everyone would love to see a new face around. winks at u. also there seems to be a lot more blogs popping up lately, which is really heartening to see.

then u kinda just. make ur blog? n a starting introduction post so ppl can reblog it n spread the word XD n yay u have a blog i guess??? XD

i gotta say tho. dont expect ur blog to take off immediately (especially for smaller fandoms like idv, tvbh i didnt think my blog would even get half this far when i started cos of how non existent idv tumblr seemed to be) n ur inbox will probably be looking pretty empty a lot of the time (or at least filled with some that u havent quite thought of how to reply to yet aha) (but also like empty inboxes happen pretty often, im sure most of us here have experienced this problem)

in the case of the first ask blog i ever started, it never really took off at all. ngl it was kind of demoralizing n depressing but to be fair i had picked one of the more obscure characters in the series, so obscure that many ppl in the fandom would have never heard of this character before. if u wanted to know, i took a character that only appeared in the 2nd musical of the series, who also made a very brief cameo in the manga to acknowledge his existence within that universe. thats how obscure my character was, but i went with him purely because he was my favourite character. i will say though i did enjoy it while it lasted n i learnt a lot from the experience, n i think thats whats important really.

i guess this kinda leads on (not really but let me digress) to the whole uhhhh thing where if u choose a more popular character, u get more attention. which is fine i guess? if u really vibe with the character, i mean theyre popular for a reason. n choosing a more popular fandom (like genshin) would objectively also get u more viewers n numbers. but like honestly i believe that ask blogs are meant for u to have fun with, n like trying to get popular gets tiring pretty fast (this shouldnt be like a main goal, but u know sometimes u subconsciously also want that gucci follower count n bomb ass notes or something. i used to be guilty of this until i realized it isnt worth it) especially if ur not enjoying yourself in the process. (case in point: my previous fandom was considerably larger n my blog got about 700 followers within a year or so, but it got very tiring n stressful to maintain after my interest in it died, n no one was really interacting with the blog even though i tried which kinda made it even more depressing despite the so called success n popularity of the blog)

anyway on a less serious note, theres a lot of fun stuff u can do with the ask blog, like some ask blogs have really fancy tags that i really like n try to do but also like not really HAHAHAHA. i kinda just channel what i want to see in an ask blog into my own ask blogs (good art is one, i try very hard for it to be good :,DD another is characterization, n others is just extra miscellaneous arts n stuffs like au ideas or memes. these are also somethings u could work on during ask box downtimes perhaps)

uhhh another side thing is like a posting schedule i guess? like ppl would be more likely to interact (i think) if ur blog is relatively active, n this is usually determined by the last post u made (i think XD). but like generally for blog maintenence id say try to kinda find a frequency that ur comfortable with?? cos i know my once a day posting is kinda insane if i wasnt so hyperfixated on all of this n fight the urge to dump all ur replies when u finish them XD (though ive seen some blogs do that n they do it pretty frequently so its pretty nice to know once u see their post u can spend some time going through the latest batch of posts XD) the queue function is pretty useful here even though i truthfully have never really used it, i kinda just post from my drafts really but it also helps to space out ur content to seem somewhat active especially when u dont have the time to be working on replies sometimes. i hope u know what im trying to say here aha

ANYWAY that was like my 1.5 cents cos i dont even think its worth 2 cents HAHAHAHAH these are just my thoughts from running all my blogs up till now, some that are still running n the others that have just died a natural death. i wouldnt actually delete them (theyre still around actually XD) cos theyre kinda like archives n i can look back at what i did last time. cos ngl i made some high quality stuff back then, n i dont even know how i managed to do that aldhflhdsgk. also ppl do look at archive blogs every now n then for the content thats there yknow

BUT YES anyway if u do decide to join the idv ask blogs hmu, ill be sure to give u a lil shoutout here. winks

#its me the mun #unconcerned ramblings #i know ive said that there are a lot of new blogs popping up #but uhhh i dont really dare to interact with them #considering they kinda did come in just when shit had hit the fan n idk i might have been known as The Problematic Blog tm #so i understand if ppl dont want to interact with me n im fine with it. so for now i wont be initiating anything #like dropping asks into inboxes unless i know the mun n theyre comfortable with me doing this #i will interact with everyone who drops by my inbox tho!! #i also tend to get to replies for other blogs faster than general replies cos i feel bad if i kept the other person waiting for too long #I DO forget about rp replies sometimes tho. sometimes #i try my best to get to every one of them tho. even when im kinda busy this period aha #also starting off is actually easy. its about maintaining thats difficult i feel #which is also why i havent done up a genshin ask blog yet HAHAHAHAHA #i really hate to give up on something ive already started when it comes to art projects so

[mooswords]

OKAY MOO, I’M CURRENTLY READING UR FIC “Home” AND I’M— THE END OF THE FIRST PART WAS SO BEAUTIFUL. “he always comes home” -> IT’S SUCH A BEAUTIFUL CONTRAST TO THE BEGINNING!!! he gets lost in his OWN fields, and that’s saying something. however, despite that, the reader still being reassured (or as much as she can reassure herself) that he always comes home = he has the red string to BRING HIMSELF BACK TO THE READER = ALWAYS COMING HOME. I’M!!!! and i love the silly banter that opened the story. aLso HIS HESISTATION OVER TELLING THE READER THE JOB HE WAS ASSIGNED... BECAUSE HE WAS WORRIED ABT THE READER.... AKDKSKKSKS. the fact he didn’t accept the offer immediately DESPITE being so in love with the sea and waited for reader’s permission is such a SMALL thing, but when you describe his love for the sea as superior, that action shows he loves the reader even more and i just- SLKDKAKDKSK. i might be over-reading and i apologise if i do bUT DO COMMENT ON IT THANK U!! 🤩💜 - ava

u sent me these eons ago and i promise i wasnt ignoring you ive just been working like 10 hour days and i am Exhausted 😭😭 but all of these messages legitamately give me life, i am so incredibly grateful! <3 im so so glad you enjoyed this fic!! and you are NOT OVERREADING I LOVE TO SEE YOUR INSIGHTS!!!! it makes me fall back in love with the fic all over again! <3 

i am SO glad that him always coming home comes through! because it gets kinda dire in the middle of the fic so i wanted there to be that hope at the back of your mind that knew he always came home. but i wanted you to be stressed about it still so :) and silly banter is my favourite part of writing this guy, i had so much fun with it alskdf.

and ok i love u, you got everything i was trying to do there <33 like i was struggling to find the balance between her reluctance and supportiveness. thats a fun (and tricky) thing about established relationship fics i find... theres that depth of understanding that can make the interactions more interesting, but so much of it is unspoken. it was a good challenge! so its so GOOD to hear that it vibes right hehe

THE WAY KUROO PLAYS WITH THE STRING!!! THAT WAS SUCH A FOND MOMENT OMG AKDKSKDK. and it’s so interesting that it appeared before kuroo even left 👀👀👀

she already missed him 🥺🥺 i originally had him tug on her hair and then i went!!! wait!!!! we can do better than that!!!!!!!!

READER IS LOST WITHOUT KUROOO!!!! AKDKSKSK and i also love the little addition where despite it being a POUT, she holds it close to her heart. with the context of their banters + that little scene, it just shows me how much each appreciate every ounce of the other party which makes me SO SO SO SOFT AKDJSKDKSK. and then hitting me with the scene where reader is eating a meal alone??? a punch in the gut. when she realised she’s alone I TOO remembered that kuroo is gone and that softness established in the previous scene is sUCKED OUT—ASKDKSKSKSK. 

im just a little obsessed with the little things and gestures that make u fall in love with someone? like the specific way my friend twirls her pen while were in lectures, or how my dad has that one little smile when hes amused himself with his own joke... and for that to be a last lifeline for her to hold on to before he leaves :’))) I JUST LOVE EST RELATIONSHIP FICS OK?!

hehehe yes im sorry about that puch to the gut oops 😇 that was a scene i had super clear in my head before i started - the bright, bright string against the relative drab of the table and room.

i’m at the part where reader gets lost and let me tell u, the fact they have a WAY to communicate via string pulling alone is SO ENDEARING and just subtly hints they have been at this whole red string thing for AGES (or at least enough to form such an understanding). that’s ADORABLE and really strengthens the bonds they have together 

yessssssssssss as soon as i thought of this idea i knew it had to be an established relationship. i have it in my brain they have been married maybe 2-3 years?? i am such a sucker for unspoken understanding relationships :’)

“You push hurriedly through the crowd, ducking between market stalls and wagons. There’s no string to follow, but you don’t need it to find him today.” THIS SENTENCE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL in the context of the entire story. and what a perfect way to describe/show the reader that it’s THE DAY. MOO, you’re really serving such great kuroo x reader stories please continue AHHAHA

this entire fic was so self indulgent please dshlfkljadsb but im glad u like this line!! i tend to try visualise the scene like a movie first? and then write it, and this was also one of the first scenes that was super clear in my brain :D

402 DAYS!!!! I SEE WHAT U DID THERE 👀👀 also, is this is a little hint to how u had to wait until the end to see timeskip kuroo? HAHAHA that wld be adorable

WAIT YO THATS CLEVER? I DIDT EVEN- ava when i say that is a COMPLETE coincidence... i literally just picked a number that was longer than 365 days... breaking news i am a secret genius JKBDSCN

i also really liked the “in-between”: of reader’s life without kuroo. u can really see how integrated they are to each other’s lifestyle, and not only that, the scene where reader handles a twin’s birth (to me) strengthens how they’re reallllly soulmates. there is a low chance that kuroo knew reader was in a desperate situation, yet he pulled on the string at the time reader needed it. it’s just—telapathy but not really + soulmate system = SOULMATES. do i make sense? and i really love the details, like how we can trace back kuroo’s scar to a moment of reader’s life in the fic. putting it at the end sort of makes me reflect on their situations that happened simultaneously yet not really. it sort of fills me in with this,,, space. that the earth is so wide. i understand deeper what reader means by “oh he’s going to be gone for so long”. it’s just. wow. the earth is so big yk.

YES YOU MAKE TOTAL SENSE!!! it's such a lovey way of looking at it :') can they communicate and understand eachother like this cuz theyre soulmates? or just because they love each other and have learnt the other inside out?? hhnn this is why i love soulmate aus, theres so much to pull apart!!!

and ok yes on the topic of how big the earth is... im so glad u mentioned this, its my favourite part because (not to get like... super sappy or anything) i was writing this through the toughest stages of our second lockdown. our restrictions got to the point we werent allowed further than 5km from out homes, so writing about freedom and big spaces and exploration of far off places was such a nice escape for me :’) this fic has ended up very close to my heart. (plus i was reading @/w-yuren’s hq0819 series at the time so i had travel and adventure on the brain hehe) 

THE ENDING.... THE ENDING.... THE WAY KUROO ASKED READER TO KI** HIM—IT’S LIKE THE KUROO IN MY HEAD YESSSSS. Gosh, this line too “when he kisses you he tastes like the sea; like salt-spray and dry rations and freedom.” may i have a director’s cut abt it :3 AND AKDJSKSK. i really love how the string appeared even tho they were together (the scene before kuroo docked on the ship) and once again, they are together, but none of them are lost because they r together-together. do i make sense? am i overreading things??? again, i have to comment on the banter. it’s simply amazing. kuroo’s replies are so,, KUROO, and they are filled with such FONDNESS I’M SO AKDKSKSK.

IM SO GLAD HE VIBES THANK U I THINK THE FONDNESS IS MY BIAS SHOWING BUT SHHHHH ;P you have picked one of my favourite lines out heheh it was one that just flowed out and wasnt one i particularly had to think about which is always nice. but i think it is a combo of me trying to be fancy lol and me being a huge fan of fantasy-books-set-on-ships. think like explorers or pirates, some rag tag bunch who have to set off on some quest and come back with some of that wildness imbued in their very being... yeah this line was definitely born from me Yearning i think :P

ooo do you mean the wedding scene? that was me trying to hit the ‘feeling lost in a crowd’ idea. you know when youre surrounded by people and joy and laughter and you just feel very small and disconnected? that.

ALSO READER’S DYANAMICS WITH KARASUNO CHARACTERS IS ADORABLE AKDKSKSKK. the festival scene was such a breather and it was adorable to see her interact with those characters. it feels like a snapshot in her life i simply adore that :3

ahh yea! i wanted her to have a life, you know? shes not the type to mope around, like life goes on. that doesnt mean she doesnt miss him oof but theres a whole community around to support her too!! and im very fond of takeda in this scene :’) he takes care of his crows <3

I RAMBLED SO BAD BUT THANK U AGAIN LOVELY I CANT EXPLAIN HOW AMAZING THESE ARE TO RECIEVE <3  

#ava <3 #i know u are offline rn but i hope everythings going well with u! #i cant believe ur out here validating all my anxieties oof <333

[101scenes]

Wanna One Lai Guan Lin - The 24 Hour Challenge

 featuring: lai guan lin

genre: fluff

word count: 1,964 words

summary: a 24-hour experience with a newly assigned class, and a so-called crush

suggested: nah lmao

you were a junior in your high school

so as an annual tradition, each junior class has to conduct something special for their class to bond before the start of the school year

because in sophomore year you all were in different classes

so you kind off had to get to know each other

your newly elected class representative, lee daehwi, suggested a 24 hour challenge at a chalet

and it was somehow approved by the school

it was supposedly “innovative” and a “fresh idea”

anyways

everyone in your class managed to chip in a little fee to book the chalet for a full day

luckily in your new class you knew a few people from your sophomore class

you thought about skipping cause you thought it would be weird lmao

but your friend dragged you along because she loves exploring new things

so ofc you went

class spirit!

time skip

on the day of the 24 hour challenge

everyone gathered at the booked chalet at about 3pm

& our amazing class rep split the class up into small groups of 4 to their rooms to unpack

boys & girls rooms duh

at about 4pm everyone was gathered back at the common room

and he began explaining the ground rules

like no alcohol, no illegal substances etc

and no electronics

so he had to confiscate everyone’s phone lmao

he also explained the itinerary of the full 24 hours

and he said everyone could hang around until 6pm, where people had to gather at the bbq pit for dinner

after dispersing, you were left defenseless without your precious phone

so you went to the kitchen

isnt the kitchen everyone’s safe haven lmao

and started socializing with your new classmates

you made a few friends surprisingly 

and it was fun overall

stirring your cup of coffee, you looked over at the common room decked with kinect & wii games

you spot this really enthusiastic kid that dragged his friend to switch on just dance to play

seeing the slightly taller guy dance made you smile a little

he seemed like a really reserved guy, but he looked like he was having lots of fun with his friend

it was really cute

so you never thought you would do this

but you joined them

since just dance could play up to 4 people

you decided why not

you never tried just dance

and you played a game with them

yes, without asking their names

after this extremely long and strenuous song

you got second place

with the taller guy in last

you look over to expect a defeated look

but he was still smiling like how he did 10 minutes ago

he was panting yeah

trying to regain his breath on the couch

he still looked really smol

even tho he was tall

while you let your other classmates play

you learnt the guy who got 1st place was seonho

he was generally just a really happy guy

you kindoff guessed it when he entered the class on the first day and gave everyone a sweet and a card with a happy face sticker on it

& the other guy

who was still dancing away

was named guanlin

after chatting a bit with seonho you decided to help out at the bbq pit

and you saw daehwi & your friend chatting away

they were exchanging jokes and giggles

and you just pressed your hand against the glass pane and smiled

you sHIPPED THEM sO hard

bc class rep & vice class reps are shippable

then you heard someone next to you say,

“i ship them too, they’re cute,”

you faced him, to see guanlin pressing his arm against the glass pane as well

“oh, hello, i’m y/n,” you turned to him and greeted

and he did the same

as you threw him a towel from the drawer to wipe his sweat, you asked,

“should we disrupt their moment?”

guanlin shook his head

“nah, it’s their moment,” he said, smiling as he walked away

you watched him as he walked away

and that kindoff concluded your first interaction with him

the guy with the smile that needed to be protected

time sKIP

after some good dinner

(daehwi made sure eVEryone was full)

(class rep more like mother)

he said it was time for gamES!!

you could hear seonho frm the other side of the room squeal

& it was hide and seek

you swore you haven’t played hide and seek ever since you were 8

but you were convinced that you could find a great hiding spot

you kindoff saw a spot earlier that no one wld ever suspect (!!)

so once the seeker began counting down, you loitered a bit first

cause you wanted to see everyone scatter

maybe you could find a better spot

but you ultimately went to your spot

which was this camouflaged door under the stairs that led to a small storage area

you weren’t afraid of small spaces

so why not

you opened the door to see 

well

a tall fella

sat in the corner

before you could apologize and leave, the seeker had already announced he would begin

and guanlin grabbed your wrist, pulled you in and shut the door

uhh it was kindoff a small space

so it was just you and guanlin

in the dark

uncomfortably close

you were both sitting in silence

you wanted to say something

but the seeker could hear you guys talking if you did

so you kept quiet

you could still see some of guanlin’s face due to the fading light falling into through the thin walls

he had literally no flaws

how can a guy have flawless skin?!?

without thinking you blurted out,

“sO-”

before you could even continue tho

he grabbed your wrist again

his hand shocked you lmao

so you fell forward a bit & he caught you

& you could smell his scent

like

NO

you felt like you did injustice

and you backed up a bit and whispered sorry

thanks to the light

you couldnt see the red fading on guanlin’s cheeks

oh & god damn your ears were all red too

ugh just kiss already

anyways

the seeker was left with you two

and could not find you two

so you two crawled out of the little storage room 

everyone didn’t expect the two of you to be together

in an enclosed space

so there were a bit of murmurs

daehwi exCLAIMED,

“yOU hAVe vIOLATED THe RUleS of INdeCen-”

“NO” you blurted

daehwi started laughing

and everyone did too

except you and guanlin

you literally thought they were interrogating you

but it was a joke

haha joking

you fake-laughed

you turned around to see him

just looking away

occasionally rubbing his cheeks

after the game, it was curfew, & you managed to escape to your room as quickly as possible

and dug your face into your pillow

and you just lied there for 10mins

and did not notice your friend enter

“what was the deal with guanlin? are you all a thing?” your friend asked as she sat on your bed

“uughhhhhhh”

“so i take that as a no?”

you sit up and faced her

“it was embarrassing,” you said & covered your face

“pff, it’s okay, have a good nights rest okay?” she said, patting your back

after sulking a bit more, you decided to change into your pjs

as you walked out of the room door, you noticed guanlin walking to his room wearing his freshly changed pjs

it was a matching set of fluffy pjs

it was so adorable wtf

wait

wHy were you feeling these?!?

you shook your head vigorously

like girl

you cant fall for some guy you just met

you did a quick change and went to sleep

but through hours of tossing and turning

you couldnt sleep

you just couldnt sleep in a new environment

partially another reason you didnt want to come

you would naturally grab your phone and scroll around on instagram or something

but since you didnt have it

you just laid on your bed

looking at the clock

it was almost 3am

you sighed

you had nothing to do

so you decided to go down to kitchen and make yourself some hot tea

it was really soothing to you

as you floated down the stairs craving for your tea

you noticed the kitchen light on

you peeked in

and saw guanlin standing there with his own cup of drink

before you could run away from the embarrassment previously

he called out your name

“yo y/n! you up too?”

you found his raspy voice so bEauTifuL

you slowly spun around

and reminded yourself to not remember the incident previously

and you did

“uhh, y-yeah,” you stammered, and walked past him to make a drink

he saw you, it was impossible to just walk away again

“ahaha yeah, me too, i can’t sleep in new places,”

while the hot water was pouring into your cup, you turned around

“rEally?” you said too enthusiastically

you eyes literally shone 

and he was shocked

“o-oh sorry hah, i have the same problem,” you said, collecting your drink

looking out of the window, you said

“i just never knew someone with the a similar, yknow,”

guanlin hummed in agreement

the next hour was just spent talking

about anything tbh

about how you never really saw him in freshman and sophomore year because he was that timid

about grades

until you two finished your midnight drinks

you two walked up the stairs back to your rooms together

as you turned the doorknob to your room, he ruffled your hair and passed by behind you

“goodnight, y/n”

you could hear a smile from his voice

which made your heart melt ok

you returned to your bed and kindoff reflected

you would be spending two more of your years in school with your cRush

oh god u admitted your crush

aaaaaaaaaaaa

and you fell asleep to the thought that you would be able to see that smile everyday

fEw hOURs pass

9am!! sun rise!!!

breakfast!!

ofc u weren’t up because you slept at like 4am last night lmao

so you waddled out of bed at 11am

everyone already had their breakfast and are literally out of the door heading for the beach 

you were so behind time lmao

once you saw no one around, you realized you were late

as you opened the front door, you heard stomping behind you

it was guanlin

because he slept at 4am too

“lets goooo!!” you shouted, grabbing his wrist and dragging him out of the door

jeez he didnt even put on slippers yet

once you reached the beach, you just ate the sandwich you packed for lunch and thats about it

while everyone else played

you werent much of a fan of the sun and outdoors bahah

but you saw guanlin playing in the water with the other guys

he had the smile again

the captivating one

you sigh and just look his way

for some reason

you had the urge to make him smile like that

and you really wanted to see him smile because of you

and you only

uhgh what were u thinking

time sKip

it was time to leave :(

everyone was one by one leaving the compound with their belongings

and you were one of the last ones

when you left, you saw guanlin waiting for you near the door

guanlin grinned, put down his duffel bag and opened his arms

you walked right into them, hugging him back

“see you soon, guanlin,” you said

“wait-”

you turn around

“uhm, i would love to talk with you again,” he said, handing you his phone with a new contact application

you smiled

“of course,”

#wanna one scenarios #lai guanlin #wanna one

[wibblywobblybowtie]

tag gamez

I was tagged by the amazing @spider--lilies (Sorry for doing this like a month late woops...) (Really liked reading yours tho lol)

I’ll tag @swimmingfeelsinajohnlockianpool @bismuth-209 and @justseeeeeme (You don’t have to do it if you don’t want to :) )

1. last drink: Tea lol

2. last phone call: Idk... Probably my mom, but i barely ever call lol

3. last text message: A friend from school lol

4. last song you listened to: Beyond Me by Toby Mac :)

5. time you cried: Idk... gosh I’m so forgetful

6. dated someone twice?: nope

7. kissed someone and regretted it?: never kissed anyone so no

8. been cheated on?: nope again

9. lost someone special?: yup :(

10. been depressed?: No

11. gotten drunk and thrown up?: nope all alcohol stinks lol

fave colors

12. Light blue

13. TARDIS blue

14. Purple

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends?: Well the year had only just begun i guess, so not this year lol

16. fallen out of love?: nope 

17. laughed until you cried?: Yup, I cry way too fast whilst laughing woops

18. found out someone was talking about you?: Nope 

19. met someone who changed you?: Idk probably?

20. found out who your friends are?: Idk I know my friends i guess? (I’m answering Idk waayy to much here)

21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list?: If parents count?

general:

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl?: I think all? I never really use facebook lol

23. do you have any pets?: Nope... We had fish but they all died :(

24. do you want to change your name?: Nah not really

25. what did you do for your last birthday?: Invited friends for a barbeque lol

26. what time did you wake up today?: around 9.30 ish?

27. what were you doing at midnight last night?: I was asleep/almost asleep

28. what is something you cant wait for?: Doctor Who s11? :)

30. what are you listening to right now?: Broken Vessels (Amazing Grace) by Hillsong Worship (Hillsong is awesome)

31. have you ever talked to a person named tom?: Yup, but you write his name Thom lol

32. something thats getting on your nerves?: The fact that war exists and people don’t see the uselessness of wars? idk

33. most visited website: Tumblr and netflix probably lol

34. hair color: Blonde

35. long or short hair: Quite long i think

36. do you have a crush on someone: I think so? (I’m weird okay lol)

37. what do you like about yourself: I’m weird but okay? Idk

38. want any piercings?: Nah... (I have earrings though, does that count?)

39. blood type: I have no idea wooops

40. nicknames: Some people call me Lo, or Lolo (that one’s weird lol) or something like that

41. relationship status: single :)

42. zodiac: Idk... I was always taught that stuff was weird, and i never learnt about it haha

43. pronouns: she/they :)

44. fave tv shows: Doctor Who, Sherlock, One Day At A Time, B99, Collateral, Jessica Jones, Yuri On Ice and probably more ugh wow

45. tattoos: have none and dont want any (sounds wayy too painful)

46. right or left handed: right

47. ever had surgery: I have had some kind of tubes in my ear against ear infection?

48. piercings: my ears!

49. sport: none anymore, I did do swimming for a while

50. vacation: I love England lol

51. trainers: as in shoes? Then yes I guess?

more general:

52. eating: Nothing now, but i want to get some chocolate lol

53. drinking: Now it’s tea again lol

54. im about to watch: the last ep of Yuri on Ice and maybe some Sarah Jane Adventures

55. waiting for: idk? Doctor Who s11 again? lol (Oh and Jessica Jones s2 then too)

56. want: enough money to be able to afford the study i want to do in a bit more than a year

57. get married: would be nice but the chances are small

58. career: I’d love to write tv-shows :)

which is better:

59. hugs or kisses: hugs

60. lips or eyes: eyes

61. shorter or taller: both is good

62. older or younger: idk does it matter that much?

63. nice arms or stomach: arms are more practical i guess? (Like you’d be stronger?)

64. hookup or relationship: relationship

65. troublemaker or hesitant: Idk both works

have you ever:

66. kissed a stranger: Nope... Why would I tho?

67. drank hard liquor: No all alcohol still stinks lol

68. lost glasses: nope, don’thave glasses

69. turned someone down: yup

70. sex on first date: iew nope

71. broken someone’s heart?: no idea

72. had your heart broken: idk not really

73. been arrested: nope

74. cried when someone died: yes

75. fallen for a friend: no

do you believe in

76. yourself: Idk, depends on what I’m doing (me in social situations: no, for a test: a bit too much)

77. miracles: Yup

78. love at first sight: Idk

79. santa claus: never have

80. kiss on a first date: if both people want that, sure?

81. angels: yup

other:

82. best friend’s name: Do I have to choose one person? I just really love my friends from school, my internet friend, and friend from church? (But i can’t choooose lol)

83. eye colour: blue ish

84. fave movie: Moana and Frozen (yes i know), were good? I’m probably forgetting one now tho

85. fave actor: If actress counts too, then Jenna Coleman :) (She’s the best!)

[chumpmagump]

woah wild shana appears on tumblr sporadically  feelin real basic i dont have good intro soz  no one reads this shit anyway so why do i care? why am i putting a question mark? why am i still acting like i have an audience okay back to the basic pop music and basic thoughts mainly because i need some mainstream shit after being flooded by people who are ‘’ interesting’’ maybe too interesting, their brain is like the school of thought compacted into 10 minute conversations though. So everything is WOAH INTENSE 

im on my second cup of chai so i feel alright for typing shit that doesnt make sense  but seriously, you know those people who just seem very cultured and their brain has no filter, they can talk about stuff for 50 minutes and then realise theyve been talking a whole lot and go to ask you something but you’re just so fizzled out you can’t possibly think of something witty to say. idk man, my social game is off probably because my new job has got me aching for movies and just generally a good cuddle and 8 hours of sleep. 

why do people feel the need to talk constantly talk in metaphors, its like shakespreare shit. this is why god old bogan talk can be weirdly refreshing if youve been living around artsy farsty cities. nothing like a ‘’ i’m good aye, whats been hapening in your block’’ to reset. the guys im seeing are cool ( dont appreciate the not so honest honesty tho, will have to chat about that), the kind i wouldnt take to see my friends because my friends are just too chill for that like letstalkabouttheuniverserandomly. idk, theyre uni students who live a routined life not musicians or travel escapists  haha, no seriously its so nice to chill with people who kind of make my brain fizz at the beginning, it makes me realise how flat and dead i have been inside in previous relationships.

i dont have time for friends who (ironically are guys) think me seeing multiple people is disgusting or stupid because i sleep with them. Yeah you can say you wouldnt do it personally, or like it. But once you bring the argument into it that it’s gross to sleep around you are immediately associating sex with respect and to me that screams  i’m insecure and use sex as a weapon. Hell one of my friends said he didnt even want to hear about my meetings with new people. literally lost respect for me type thing.  so yeah, two friends out of the picture unless they wanna maybe realise what they said does have a direct correlation to their view of me. 

you cant just say to someone, i think its stupid to hook up with people and disgusting but then cover it with a lovely shade of pink in ‘’ but i dont see you as any less of a person’’. it doesnt make any sense and if anything i still lose respect for  you, for your slut shaming tactics.

I’m not meeting people with the intent to have sex all the time, and even if i was why should that bother someone to the point they lose respect for a person?  shoutout to cody, aprelle, julian and emma for understanding these wild concepts.

work is crazy, im finally learning my bartending shit, it’s interesting and i feel overworked and underpaid in this particular venue though. next year i think i’ll move on. 

some coworkers wow amazing how much a person can be an asshole and still live for others to tell the tale. 

bite my tongue and move the fuck on with a small ‘‘ fuckin bitch’‘ under the breathe. Imma have to get tactful in maybe making them feel a bit passively guilty about their actions otherwise i will just bust out some kendrick lyrics  no wonder people are dead assholes irl who work in hospo.  please dont kill my soil, kill it enough so i can scald and rebuild new flesh that can tolerate asshole level beta though. please, thanks anyway Vsauce , hotel hell and school of life youtube vids and chai have been heloing me restore battery life so maybe this week i can bust out of my shell and actually feel like an active participant rather than a silent observer. im done feeling like what i say doesnt matter, if it doesnt then why do i need you in mylife? thats on you,  not me  time to restore myself, learning baby steps all over again.  essentially thats how we die inside and thats how free spirits or people who dont conform to society look so appealing yet annoying, because we envy them. we wish we could have the guts to break out of the conformity that holds us, dance in street, sing loudly in a public bathroom yet we dont because we are forced to keep our children (inner child) tucked quietly away until home time.’ hence why bruno mars and chai is on my agenda tonight. 

we die when reach that age considered ‘’ young adult’’, yknow the age where the head school coordinator gathers all the kids in grade 8, with a speech of mumbo jumbo, ‘’have fun,... but you also have to know your shit, don’t be young and free, i mean be young and free but do your taxes’’’

its just science, we are socially learnt from young people that being a ‘’young adult’’ comes with the responsibility of not playing with toys, time to learn finance, but you can reserve play time for saturdays and evenings.. yet only selective playtime is appropriate for young adults.. which is still not play time is it? drugs, alcohol, sex , yknow the adullt playtime.  hell even your playtime isnt free and is run by some  invisible societal king. oo what would happen if someone farted in public? the king comes down from his throne and instills a worthy crime of .. nothing. that’s what i mean we are playing ourselves, we’re all fools.

so yes maybe i wont fart in public but ill be working on realising there is no king.

#2017 #suchapinginrant

[maxonewaylovestory]

Here one fact about me I love to learn new languages and got myself a problem after that, when I tried to communicate w/ people, I was just like blank or stared blank at some point of the conversation but dont worry currently at the time I'm doing good in presentation and public speaking or speech I mean, not the usual one when you try to make a conversation w/ your bestfriends. Until now, only the close friend of mine can understand what I tried to say. I started the hashtag #fillintheblank when people doesnt get what I tried to say to them. Well yeah thats how it goes. But you know, I learned, 1. Korean Can fully read them, know 30% of their grammar, can spoke it for like 70% but the broken korean one. I do it a lot w/ my friends, when texting or when we tried to speak something secret, we're kind of like use korean words for the keyword you know. It so fun haha. I first learn it for fun when I was 15yrs old, that is when I first knew Kpop and tried to understand #SHINee hello lyrics. It so much useful for me especially when I found the video of my fav. kidols but the sub is unavailable yet so I just watched it raw w/o the sub. Yeah, the struggles is real #internationalfan 2. Tagalog Yeah, tagalog. Philippines. I know this one naturally because I'm a Sabahan soooo ....... I only know the basic, since it has a lot of common to the Malay and Sabah language. I have no problem watching their drama because there's always someone there to translate it for me. Besides, I sort of can understand it too, natural sense(?) So for tagalog, I can read it of course, theres a couple tagalog songs that I loved and learn their lyrics too and sing along with. But to speak the language is still a no no. Let's say, just 8% of it. 3. Spanish Well, I AM NOT BE TALKING LONG ABOUT THIS ONE. This is just because of the tagalog, it has so much 'Spain Element' so I learn from that Spanish has the same word like tagalog have for example uhm puede? Is it puede? Yeah I dont recall that much. Just the basic one I know like tengo hambre ha! 4. Mandarin I also know Mandarin okay! Can't read it yet. But can pronounce it well (self-proclaim) I sang lot of chinese song, and I think the pronounciation came out better tho. Seriously. To converse using this language is not that well, but I can understand what they said, basic one. Of course. 5. Arabic I know ARABIC! When I first enrolled the university, I've got Arabic for my second language course and I remember feeling upset of it for the next three semester because actually I wanted to take Mandarin class but because the class is full already I had to take Arabic. Hmm But nvm tho, I still have fun. Except the assignment task one, I simply dont like it. Why I found it's fun because when I read the Quran, I feeeeel so amazed like there are much more word that I finally knew the meaning that I didnt know before. Like wow. So no regret. 7. Thailand I remember Thailand language is the first second language I've learnt in my life but that is when I still in elementary school so no memory of it except sawadikap kobkhunkap man