#damn i guess its time to ask my friends for advice

[kingdomkome]

at what point is it just better to say fuck it and restart a project

#olaya speaks #i like what i have so far but im stuck #and idk how far back to go to try and fix it #the main issue is that i only have a vibe and 2 scenes when i started working on this #so the characters/relationships are too vague even in my mind? #like i KNOW who they are & how/why they act etc etc but i cant verbalise it well i think #and 24K words isnt a lot all things considered and there's a lot of things i could reuse #but i fear going back to the start will only be a temporary solution. even if i get further next time #and idk i was thinking of getting to the 'end' of the story and the working my way thru it to create the 2nd draft #since theres a lot still in the air and having to force myself thru it now does help with focusing on what i want to happen #and gives me a clearer idea of what needs improving and more/less how i want to fix it #damn i guess its time to ask my friends for advice #even tho they dont give a fuck about this project and we have such different ways of approaching our writing sfjshkd #anywyayyy #wait. im seeing them face to face in july #i can wait till then and give myself some time to keep working on this #cause id hate to go crying to them for help #only for my mind to clear 2 days later lol

[fabulouslygaybean]

GOD. ALSO IM FRUSTRATED ABOUT THE WHOLE SUBTEXT-BUT-NOT-SUBTEXT THING THEY'VE GOT GOING ON WITH WILL AND MIKE.

#dont rb #no like. look. i don't rlly hardcore ship anything anymore. im super casual abt it and i just do whatever i think is fun at that moment. #but like... what they've got going on with the two of them is frustrating at best. #im definitely not against like.. the dynamic i guess? it makes enough sense. a boy is in love with his presumably Very Straight childhood - #- best friend who also has a girlfriend. he doesn't know what to do but in the end he just doesn't wanna lose his best friend. #ive been there. that's not the problem. #my main complaint is just that like. they can't seem to decide what they wanna do with that whole thing. #they act like its Super Secret Subtext and that its just up for interpretation when it's really truly not. #the scene where he's talking about all the things el must love about him? its SO damn clear that he's talking about his own feelings too #he made a whole damn painting with mike as a focus. he's spilling out his heart in a way that hopefully won't be noticed. #mike doesn't of course because he's a presumably very straight teenager and he's too busy thinking about his gf to notice #mike feels reassured and goes back to focusing on other things while will ends up hiding his face from him and crying #jonathan notices and has a very knowing expression before he goes back to focusing on the road #even if you ignore the super mega obvious scene it's prevalent throughout the whole season #will wants to support his now adopted sister el and her boyfriend mike and he tries to keep it friendly but its difficult #mike ignores him for most of the summer bc he's your standard straight boy teen and is uber obsessed with his gf #he never calls and he ignores will when he asks if he can show him a painting he did and he ignores his worries and advice #its so damn obvious. will is trying to keep up a friendship bc he knows he'll probably never get to be with him but he still cares about - #- him dearly bc they've always been friends and at the very least he doesn't wanna lose that #ive been there!! ive been in that scenario so many damn times!! that's a common queer experience!!! #but the showrunners are always like. Oh But It's All Up For Interpretation ;) Will Is Just A Good Buddy To His Friendly Friend ;))) #also to clarify: i know what the actor himself has said about all of it. im not gonna go after the insta post he made when he was like 12. #he himself has talked about it not mattering in more recent stuff too and that's fine. i rlly have no qualms with him over this. #im mostly just frustrated with like.. the duffer brothers and maybe some of the writers. y'know? #it's just poorly executed. ignoring the elephant in the room ain't a good look. it's not the end of the world but it ain't great either.

[twisted-wonderland-but-gayer]

Murder Sibling Tuu

🐱

So concept

Yuu is the eldest and comes from a HUGE family with lots of siblings that are part of criminal legacy. Literally all of them are some sort of mafia boss, assassin, drug lord, or bank robber except for Yuu.

This isn't because Yuu hates it, nope its just not their thing. Their little siblings always go to Yuu for ideas on their next murder/heist/ect and they always give the best advice ever despite not being a criminal.

When they get isekaied, they didn't know that their family also came with until its too late.

Let's say they're dating Floyd since that was the original context. Under cut cause length

It's Vargas camp and as things come to a close there's another attack, the masked person overpowers Vargas and locks onto a group.of Yuus friends, chasing the first Years, Riddle, Malleus, Jade and Floyd.

The others scatter, just to get stuck in (non lethal) traps to be picked off later. The killer is smart and though Malleus is powerful he is outwitted when he caught in magic resistant trap— this damn killer was PLANNING it.

Floyd and the group fight back. But they are all beat up pretty bad, thankfully, there is no stab marks as the psychopath seems to be dragging this out for their enjoyment.

As they kick Floyd onto the ground as they spill the first drop of blood of the night as the killer slashes them and leaves a "superficial", but concerning wound on Floyds abdomen.

Jade screams out at his brother in horror, show more emotion than he ever has in this damn life, despite where he's trapped, he risks blot and shoots out a simple spell at the killers head just for them to dodge.

"You want to see my face that badly?" The voice was filled with a sickeningly honeyed tone of amusement. "I guess that's fair since I intend to kill you... may as well let you see who killed you."

"You wont get away with this!" Sebek shrieks. The killer takes off the mask just to see... Yuu?

"Yuu? No...nonono not my shrimpy... why?! Why would you—"

"Wait wait wait. Did you say Yuu? How the fuck do you know that name?" The killer asks but something was off, this wasn't yuus voice.

Just then Yuu comes out and slide in front of Floyd protectively, ready to fight before freezing.

"TUU?!"

"Yuu?! Oh God, oh shit. Don't tell me these are your friends..."

"You stabbed my fucking boyfriend!"

"Fuck! Sorry I didn't know— oh geez...." Tuu facepalms. "Hold on, I actually have a few healing potions..."

"Um... can you explain???" Riddle wheeze.

"Everyone this one of my my Octuplets, Tuu."

"OCTUPLET??" Sebek shrieks.

"Yeah that's not even all my siblings either, don't ask I lost count"

"Damn I'm sorry about that everyone, I would have never attacked if I knew Yuu was here. But dammit, I had it all planned out and everything! I would kill off some of you and leave your bodies out so that others would warn of this place and bam! A buncha idiots would explore and I get to practice my assassinations and murder techniques! Can't believe I wasted all that time though now....".

"Wait, Yuu why aren't you surprised?" Ace gawks

"Oh big sibling Yuu over here is weird. Literally everyone in our family's a murderer EXCEPT yuu which is suprising since they always have the best ideas for maiming!" Tuu giggles

"Wait... if your here does that mean—" a new voice interrupts Yuu

"Sort of! I assume our entire family is out in this new world but we haven't all been able to find each other. Thankfully, me and Tuu happened to be summoned together!"

"Who the fuck is that?!" Jack barks

"That's Kyu." Kyu stands proudly in their formal attire that's decades old as they twirl a cigar.

"Why didn't you reach out to me? I know Tuu is to busy murdering things but I know for a fact you knew where I was. Im the oldest! You report to me!" yuu scolds

"You're older by 10 minutes." Tuu interrupts as they pour the potion on Floyd.

"Shut up!"

Kyu shrugs. "I'm building a criminal empire."

"What" Deuce blinks.

"I said im building a criminal empire. I was the leader of several mafias and other organized gangs back in my world and now its back to square one! I need my underlings I'm not just gonna light my own cigars now, cmon!"

"That sounds like Kyu alright..." Yuu sighs.

"Plus then I'll be able to magically enroll our whole family into NRC just with a little blackmail as we learn about this world!"

"Crowleys pathetic you don't need a criminal empire you just need 5 dollars" Epel sighs.

"Perhaps." Kyuu shrugs again and takes a puff. "But having an interdimensional drug empire once we find away home is an opportunity I must not let pass by. Speaking of which, give me your phone, Yuu."

Yuu hands over the phone to Kyu. "Now you should be able to contact us and I'll keep you updated once I find the whole family. Oh yeah, be sure to send pictures of all your friends to the group chat along with their full names so we know who not to kill, maim, target—"

"I get it." Yuu sighs before helping Floyd up. "I love you guys but damn!"

"You love th—" Ace covers Deuces mouth.

"Sorry Floydie!" Tuu chuckles cuteley. "I hope this doesn't make things awkward between us! Oh just forget about this encounter! I can't wait to meet you when Yuu brings you home for dinner!" Tuu waves

"Eat shit." Floyd huffs. "Awe you're adorable, just take good care of Yuu! If you break their heart ill slaughter you like the damn animal you are!~" tuu practially sings

"Yuu can do that on their own." "But they won't that's the issue"

Tuu sighs again. "Now im gonna have to release everyone from their traps now ueueueu... there were so many boys with such wearable skin! I already had the suit planned out for when I got them!" Tuu mopes.

"Right just tell our parents—" "bosses" "tell our bosses i love them and to please take it easy with all the murder please."

"No promises Yuuie!~ bye bye!~" Tuu cackles and they run off into the woods and Ryu dissapears

The rest of the night is Yuu profusely apologizing and having to skirt around questions for legal reasons

And also

"Why are all of you named Yuu or something similar"

"My bosses named the second oldest Tuu. Do you really think they're good with names?"

#not writing #not requests #tuu #slasher yuu #🐱 anon #many yuus

[quodekash]

guys jokezo just made out and now they have to share a bed together. just chew on that for a bit.

NO, DON'T GIVE ME THEM SITTING ON A BUS

GIVE ME WHAT HAPPENED WHEN THEY HAD TO SLEEP IN THE SAME FREAKING BED IMMEDIATELY AFTER THEY MADE OUT

👀

(they made out last night btw)

(just in case anyone forgot)

(and then they had to share a bed)

ass x7

also zo is fully just not doing anything lmao

everyone's pushing with all their might and zo is just 🧍‍♂️

FUIWEBSDGIOUVEWJBOGD

oh the desperate thigh grab

yeah, im with him on this, they need to talk about it. especially about how they had to slEEP IN THE SAME FREAKING BED AFTER THAT

welp. I guess joke's day was just ruined in a slap to the face disguised as a few words

AND THE WAY HE TAKES HIS HAND OFF ZO'S THIGH AFTER THAT????? OUCHHHH

I must say tho, this is really giving episode-6-of-bad-buddy

its very patpran-post-rooftop-kiss-core

the vibes be gay and yearning and very very sad

OKAY, THE MOTHER, FINALLY

a few things to say about her

1. she's gorgeous

2. DAMN she is SHORT

3. I was rewatching the first four episodes yesterday and today because I could, and I noticed in the first episode, zo asked his friends to not tag him in photos they took at the bar, because "I don't want my mum to see"

but my question is... why? he's just out drinking with friends, he's an adult, he's not being irresponsible or anything, so why doesn't he want her to see the photos?

is it something to do with what his mum thinks of him? is she overbearing? does she have high expectations of him? does she kinda suck?

she's probably lovely though, and ill end up adding her to my list-of-fictional-parents-to-get-adopted-by (it's a very long list)

I guess we shall find out today as the episode progresses

oh, honey, you're so queer

the amount of times ive done exactly this

she's so short its hilarious omg

also: ive decided I love his mum

she's so sweet

and neither of them know how to use a stove and I think that's so hilarious and endearing

HSDHSHFSHDHHS

(also: this scene is making me think of akkayan at aye's house having a meal with his mum and rhbgdhjgb)

he's putting two and two together

the few braincells he has that aren't dedicated to debating are whirring in his mind

I can practically hear his thoughts

"he kissed me back... he wants to talk about the kiss... we went on two dates together at his suggestion... he showed up at my house and charmed my mother... he says I have secret admirers..." cmon sweetie youre so close

"WAIT, DOES HE LIKE ME?" omg honeybun you did it!

or maybe he didn't do it

maybe he was still shuffling the pieces in his brain but hadn't put them together and then his mum said something and distracted him

either way: that was hilarious and I want to high five dunk for his acting there

HIGH EXPECTATIONS, I KNEW IT

still love her tho

high expectations suck but she seems wonderful so far (obviously my opinion will change if the circumstances do (like if it turns out she completely sucks) but for now she's made it to the adoption list)

brb, gonna go cry real quick

well now their thumbs are making out

you see, I understand the things he's saying. and I honestly agree with him. if I were ever somehow put in his position, id probably say the same things.

HOWEVER, I just want my bl boys to kiss again and be happy and together and I appreciate the realism over the usual fantasy kinda situation we go for in bls, but I just want them to kissssss

this is very good advice

I hope that jokezo kiss again this episode

also AAAGBRDHFKBG JENGPOK CRUMBS

YOU'LL NEVER GUESS WHO'S LOSING THEIR MIND OVER JENGPOK AGAIN

BERIUFDJKGBEORPVFD

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

SHUT UP

SHUT UP SHUT UP

IM NOT CRYING YOU'RE CRYING

FHEWSDGFVESDV

THIS IS TOO FUNNY

im gonna start crying soon

its so funny

help me

girl is worried

I know this is what jeng told you to do but is during debate club really the right moment

im so certain that she ships it

awwhhhhh

HE SAID IT

HE SAID THE THING

AAAAAAAAA

hell yeah

GOUERJLHDGOBIERVLDNF

AAAAAAAAAAA

IM SCREAMING

THATS IT??

THAT'S THE END OF THE EPISODE??

THEY DIDNT EVEN KISS

OR ADDRESS THE FACT THAT - and I can't stress this enough - THEY SLEPT IN THE SAME FREAKING BED AFTER FULL-ASS MAKING OUT

omg next episode is gonna be amazing

I can't wait

gekjrdsbfd I love them so much

im like 70% certain they're gonna kiss next episode so fingers crossed

ALSO NITA DEFINITELY SHIPS IT

anyway. that was good. I should go to sleep now

#quodekash's unhidden agenda to watch hidden agenda #hidden agenda #hidden agenda series #hidden agenda the series #jokezo #zojoke #pokjeng #jengpok #joongdunk #aouboom #aou thanaboon #boom tharatorn #joong archen #dunk natachai

[aesterblaster]

Ik you said to send hot takes but what about your hot takes 👀👀

NYAHAHAHA THANKS FOR ASKING

*clears throat*

IsagiRin as a ship just doesn't work for me. Odk why just. Sorry I can NOT see your vision bestie. Half of the Blue Lock ships don't work for me especially when centered around Isagi because that boy switches side characters like they're pairs of shoes. In Blue Lock one or two sus or even sweet moments doesn't really amount to much to me because everyone has them here. That doesn't automatically mean date on a riverside resturant. On the other hand I totally could see Bachira x Isagi but I just think of them as really close friends because that's what gives me the most comfort being as some of the people who really saved my life were friends. I think it would be better if Bachira had a friend first and focused on himself before getting into any big relationship. Idk I guess that's more of a personal preferance

SPEAKING OF, I hate people who write Blue Lock smut w a burning passion. I'm not even gonna hit the whole iTS IMMorAL train it just usually sucks all the fun and personality out of the chosen character and is just trying to be as gross ans shocking as possible and twist them into somehow being pervs just bc they get all hyperactive when they play soccer. Like GET THERAPY. Half the time I go to the bllk tag im just scrolling like HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT.

The anime gets a lot of slack but like... It's very difficult to transfer things from one medium to the other especially things as philisophical as Blue Lock

Fandom interpretations of Shidou are usually weirdly ooc because they wittle him down to like how cray cray he is or whatever and completely ignore for example, his respect for people who are also creative and out of the box or his ability to deal with lonliness and being othered by everyone

Characters that shouldn't be hated nearly as much as they are: NOA NOEL. You heard it here folks. I genuinely believe he's just trying his best and honestly most coaches would've asked to drop half the player he has to deal with by now like cmon you got an emo gymrat who was forced to become like you, you got a playee whos EYESIGHT IS FAILING but will literally start falling apart if you bench him, you got..kaiser and his lapdog ass cronie who dont listen to your plans at all, you got an entire rift between new and old players. Like how do you even fix that when you can't send people home (i think)? He gives good advice sometimes ngl and they're winning games so like...

Cont. Sure he isn't as funny or amusing to read as Lavinho or Chris and he isn't as open as Snuffy but DAMN IT he's doing his job ok? And all the dad son moments between him and Isagi are to die for.

Naruhayas little miniarc is honestly has the saddest backstory implications to me. THERE I SAID IT. Rin's is indeed tragic and heartwrenching but can be fixed, he can move on and heal if he so chooses. Bachira...ok nvm bachira's ties with it. Hiori's is an absolute tear jerker but he is still in Blue Lock. He still has some time to grow. Naruhaya? There's nothing that could be done to fix his position or bring him up or cut him from the weights dragging him down. We see so many characters in the Blue Lock universe rise from their poverty through soccer but DAMN IT NARUHAYA EXISTED TO SHOW THAT THAT IS A LUCKY AND FEW 2 PERCENT. HE PROBABLY HAD TO GIVE UP ON EVERY SINGLE ONE OF HIS DREAMS JUST TO SUPPORT THE VERY FAMILY HE LOVES SO MUCH. HIS PARENTS LITERALLY DIED. DO YOU UNDERSTAND? BACHIRA STILL HAS HIS MOM, RIN AT LEAST HAS HOPES OF RECONCILING WITH HIS BROTHER AND HIORI MIGHT ONE DAY SAFELY CUT HIS PARENTS OFF BUT HIS ARE IMPLIED TO BE GOOD PEOPLE JUST..STRAIGHT UP DEAD. AND THE WAY HE STOLE FOOD ALL THE TIME???? IM GOING INSANE.

Ok thats all for now LMAO

#blue lock #bllk #asks #blue lock manga #yeah.

[dira333]

hii, i kinda want to grow my blog, i just dont know how lol

do you have any tips or suggestions on how to do so?

(WHY DO I SOUND LIKE A BOT DAMN-)

Hi there, Mrs not a bot...

I'm on a trip and today has been a lot, so excuse me if I sound a little loopy sometimes, but...

I guess you have to ask yourself what "growth" means to you.

Do you want more followers? Do you want more connection to other people using this platform? What do you consider a sign of growth?

For me, it's not necessarily followers. I mean, I'm not a big blog, I have a few hundred followers whereas others have thousands.

For me, growth means to have people talking to you, to have this connection with others. So I compliment people on their work whenever I can and try to get to talk to them. If someone leaves a comment on my work I try and talk to them as well, just to get a conversation rolling. I do Plotbunny Games (or Request Games) to actively involve people the best I can...

But here is some advice in no particular order that you can think about:

The broader your topics are, the more people will follow you. If you only post about Haikyuu, you will only have Haikyuu fans follow you. If you post about different fandoms, you have a more diverse following. However, if you only post about what's recent and in, you might lose your interest in posting altogether.

Consistent posting is key. if you cannot create something every day, use the reblog function. Reblog everything that you like. That way, you can have a diverse blog and make other people happy.

Think about filters and trigger warnings. I do not do well around spicy stuff (I am over 30 years old), so my blog is strictly sfw. That means I might lose some followers because they want spicier stuff. But people like me, who do not want to come across spice or smut prefer blogs that clearly show what they are about and stand by it, be it by offering a clear tagging system or just cutting some things out altogether.

You do not have to tag anything that you blog or post, but it will make it easier to find you, your stuff and its general courtesy. If you do not tag your smut or spice, I will not follow you simply because I cannot trust Tumblr to filter everything out for me. The same goes for other people. Find your happy medium and accept that not everyone will want to follow you.

Connect with others. Start small if you're shy. You like someone's writing? Reblog their stuff with their tags. Next, you might want to leave a little comment in the tags, on the post, or when you reblog it. Anonymous asks are a good thing to practice and when you're ready, drop by and introduce themselves. You might find a friend and a follower this way.

Your blog doesn't have to be just your own stuff. That's what the reblog button is for. That way you give credit to the original creator and you have more diversity on your blog. But if you create your own stuff it's a good idea to create a masterlist on the way that can grow along. Say I read one of your fanfics and it's amazing. I want to read more of your work... but how do I find it? -> Masterlist. Or I found one of your drawings and it's amazing? Maybe you can add the tag to your pinned post so I can see them all at once? There's so much you can do, try it out.

Don't forget that Tumblr is not Tiktok. Posts rarely blow up overnight. Likes are nice, but Reblogs are nicer and a comment is a gold star. Growing takes time. Focus on what makes you happy. Looking at your activity feed can get addicting but it does not give you the happiness it proposes. Instead, focus on what made you start your blog in the first place.

Hope this was helpful to you. Don't hesitate to leave another ask if you have more questions, but don't expect too much from me this week, I'm exhausted.

#dira.asks #tumblr advice #advice

[nixii-sabre]

6 for the oc ask thing

Actually fucking marry me for sending an ask for the oc ask thing but anyways

6. Who will they take advice from, no matter what it is? Who won’t they take advice from, no matter what it is?

No specification on which OC so like., I guess Ill go through all of them because this is an interesting question

(Big answer under cut)

Rainworld OC's

Endless - Endless will always, ALWAYS take advice from Chime. The only time he didn't was during their argument. He's especially reinforced the idea of listening to Chime now that they're together <3., He also won't take advice from... A lot of people, however probably Belief is the main person he will not take even friendly advice from

Koi - Will always take advice from her ancients. In comparison to her combative and competitive behaviors toward other iterators, she oddly listens to her colony. She's never talked about the matter, but its most likely due to knowing what happened to her brother when *he* didn't pay attention. It's a main reason she worries for him and tries to protect him, even nowadays.

Niche - Niche will always take advice from Cookie. Specifically cookie. She'll rarely every pay attention to her scavengers as she believes they have nothing good to say, but she has a soft spot for cookie- and sometimes she has a point. Also, Niche will never, *NEVER* take advice from iterators or ancients who have been apart of a taboo matter (i.e sliverist group chats/conspiracies, self destruct sequences, breaking the torture method, etc).

Those are all the important RW oc's of mine lmaoo. One Last Chime [OLC] belongs to @chaoticgoober as always.

Downfall

Oh boy. Oh boy. I have.. Wayy too many downfall characters to go over this, so Ill just go over with it for a handful.

Noah - Noah by beloved <3 I love him so much ^^ Anyway. After years of living with them, noah's pretty much learnt to take any and all advice from The Watcher. Considering they're a godlike being. The only type of advice they wont take and instead will *give* Watcher is emotional advice. also I think this was already a given but noah will not take advice from Kevin. not. not that kevin would give any advice.

Sludge - Sludge will take advice from everyone, however he'll always listen to his grandmother <3 He doesn't have a particular someone he won't want advice from (unless you count his father who he wants nothing to do with).

Kevin - Will take advice from Divala, will not take advice from Noah

Aqua - Awa will take advice for ANYTHING from ANYONE. Genuinely. He is extremely tentative and will listen and do whatever you say.

Nightshade - Will take advice from Dayna always. Will not take advice from Cindy. He doesn't care that they're siblings, he does not trust her. she threw a lizard at him

Si`le - Will take advice from Cupid. They're the bestest of friends <3 Will NOT take advice from the other sins. Quite frankly they can go fuck themselves in his opinion.

(Dayna belongs to @littleauralite)

Lethal Company

:3

Harvey - Harvey will forever and always take advice from Baron. He likes his short chubby friend much more than he'd like to admit. He will not take advice from Theo, even if it's advice like 'hey I don't think you should go in there I think I saw a bracken' because he will just blatantly ignore him

Baron - Same thing, will always listen to Harves <3 Won't not listen to advice from anyone he's good with whatever

Elle - You don't listen to anybody, do you?

Theo - Will always, always take advice from Elle. He knows damn well she knows what she's talking about. This is especially useful when *he* doesn't know what the fuck he's doing. N/A on the second part

Cheerio - N/A, I think this is pretty clear

Ye., these characters are from a rp thang I'm doing with @xenomorphicdna , @bongocongocaveman , @leastactivejester (soon), and my friend chickenboi

Ooops., i rambled sowwy

#lethal company #rainworld #rain world #windtooth plane #lethalcompany #downfall #down fall #downfall rp #downfall sludge #downfall noah #downfall kevin #downfall cindy #downfall nightshade #lethal company mimic #mimic #masked #selenophobia #windtoothplane #wind tooth plane #ROTTOOTH PLANE #endless moving nights #karmic obnoxious inaccuracy #one last chime #hidden niche of pearls #cookie #scavenger #rw scavenger #ancients #ancient #rw ancient

[neopuppy]

would you ever share that natal chart analysis of jeno 🥺🥹🙏 also i get u sooo much with the mbti vs astrology among idols like ive been waiting for content on the latter but idk i guess 16 personalities rly has its grip like that 😵‍💫💀🙄

this is the tiktok

I’m not going to share what oomf said about his chart, but she mostly agreed with this video!(the cc talks a lot, like my advice if she ever sees this: learn to summarize💀)

also, I know a longgggg while ago this was discussed but the videos have since been deleted, and I saw it circulating again when L*cas scandal gate erupted but I wish I could see the entire palm reading a psychic did for Jeno becauseeeeee from what I saw he said there would be some problematic scandals in his future…and he needs to be careful. It was deleted before I ever saw it bc ofc! as usual! fans are extremely sensitive and dont want to hear anything that could be negative abt their favs! cant comprehend that(the man who did it was also very old/not a kpop stan/did many celeb palm readings, I’m sure he removed the nct videos bc normal people arent interested in arguing with kpop stans.)

like ok I’m not super into the zodiac chart things aside from my own, especially after that one Lemonade stand video when Johnny told Jungwoo(pisces) that he’s an Aquarius like him/Jaehyun and Jungwoo was all “yeah, sure! I’m an Aquarius!”

I was like yeahhhhh the zodiac shit is very western to kpop idols. ask them what their sign is and they’ll be like “???”. pretty sure there is a clip of Jeno not able to remember that he’s a Taurus actually… MBTI has them in a damn chokehold istg💀 the way trends run that country…

BUT OK, my friends linked me this youtube psychics video about BTS one time(and you know how dangerous it is to speak on them negatively), it was actually insane bc everything he said basically happened and came to be….it was about how they’d handle their solo careers and I watched this about halfway into their solo era and most of it happened/the rest unfolded over time. like damn…..if only kpop stans weren’t such fucking losers we’d have more silly content like this to enjoy but alas.

I find it interesting when they really do fit their signs though, probably the most we’ll be able to know about their *real* personalities that we can connect to what they do share with us as fans.

#asks

[winniethewife]

Jewels made of stardust  

(Poe Dameron x OC! Rhoswen Jewelace.)

Chapter 2: We were young and so inspired

Last chapter ~ Next chapter

Words: 922

~Three years before.~

Poe and Rhoswen sat on the cliff side looking out on the ocean and into the stars. They sat almost close enough to touch but they weren’t. He looked over at her, her red hair pulled back into a ponytail, her Emerald eyes sparkling in the moon light, her lips parted ever so slightly in awe of it all. She was so damn pretty, but she was his new generals adopted daughter and somehow that felt off limits.

“Do you ever think about what you’ll do when this is done?” Rhoswen asks as she continues to look out at the stars.

“Uh…no, not really… I’m a here and now kinda guy.” He admits as he looks away from her and out on the water. She laughs at his response.

“Yeah, I get that…I donno, I know my mom wants me to lead, do something maybe with politics, y’know become a senator or something.” She runs her fingers along her arm as she speaks

“But what do you want to do?”  Poe asks with curiosity in his voice, He looks back at her. He would never understand what it’s like to carry the burden of being part of a family with a heritage and lineage like hers, even if she was adopted into the family, it was a pretty big deal to be the child of heroes, probably a lot of pressure.

“Me? I just…I want to see everything the galaxy has to offer, I want to see it all…” She looks over at him surprised to see him watching her, a smirk appears on her face.

“That sounds…perfect.” Poe says quietly

“Well, I could use a co-pilot…”

~current day~

Poe sat with Finn in the mess hall as he pushes his food around.

“You’ve gotta eat.” Finn chided Him as he looked at his food like a sad little mastiff

“I’m not a child Finn…I can figure it out.”

“figure out how to eat? I donno how you’re alive if you haven’t figured that out.”

“Oh ha-ha very funny Finn.” Poe glares at his friend.

“What? I’m just trying to help.” Finn says defensively. Poe sighed and set his fork down.

“I’m sorry, it’s really not you. I just��” His sentence trails off as he sees a red haired woman walk by…its not her and he doesn’t hide his disappointment.

“Its like you want her to walk in here and keep fighting.” Finn chuckles as he sees where Poe was looking.

“Look if we’re fighting we’re talking and that’s better than nothing.” Poe remembers when she wouldn’t even look at him after their big blow out, he felt like he was drowning, at least if they fight, he feels like there’s a chance to survive. Finn shakes his head at his friend and focuses back on his food. Poe knows he doesn’t get it. No one does. Poe gives up on food and leaves the mess hall to try and clear his head. He knows he’ll probably fall back into his normal routine, the only thing that keeps his mind off…everything… Do his reports, go to the cantina, pick up some girl or guy, sleep with them, leave by morning. The Dameron special.

~

Rhoswen sat on her bed her head in her hands, she was so done with today. So done with everything. Nothing made sense anymore. Every damn day in the galaxy made less and less sense. Her father was dead, her brother killed him, and since then she pushed everyone as far away as possible. She couldn’t lose anyone else. It was too much a risk. Then hearing a light knock on the doorframe she looks up. General Leia Organa, Or as Rhoswen knew her…

“Mom… I’m really not in the headspace for another lecture.”

“I’m not here to lecture. This time.” Leia says as she comes to sit by her daughter.

“I’m not sure I’m in the mood for motherly advice either…” She mutters. Leia laughs.

“Well, which would you rather get, a lecture or motherly advice?” Leia asks with her signature smile on her face. Rhoswen sighs.

“I guess I’ll take the motherly advice, Just don’t count on me putting it to use.” she replied with a grimace as she looked at the woman who had taken her in at a young age, and had become her mother.

“I wasn’t counting on it. You were always stubborn, you learned from the best.” Leia says as she put a hand on her thigh. “You don’t have to fight him every step of the way you know? You two used to be close, you practically begged to be on Black Squadron-” Leia was trying her best before she was interrupted

“That was before Starkilller…”

“I understand that…”

“Look Mom, I understand your concern, but I just… after that big fight we had, we both said things that we can’t take back… I don’t think Poe and I will ever recover from that, but that’s for the best, I’m much more Solo than Organa, I do better alone.” She says as she gives Leia a sad smile.

“That’s the thing, Solo’s were never actually very good at being alone, they were just very good at pretending they were.” Leia squeezes her thigh slightly as she returns the smile.

“Well, I’m gonna keep pretending for now…but thanks.”

“Any time…” Leia stands up and starts to walk to the door before turning to her daughter. “Poe…he reminds you of him doesn’t he?”

“With every breath.” She admits

“Me too.”

~

Masterlist

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#star wars #poe dameron #poe dameron x oc #solo oc #star wars fan fiction #star wars fanfiction #star wars sequel trilogy #Rhoswen Jewelace #Rhoswen #oscar isaac fic #Spotify #Poevember

[danketsuround]

sunday six!

typical monday six for me cause i forgot yesterday was sunday lol i was tagged by @four-white-trees and @overdevelopedglasses woo! thank you! i will tag everyone else i usually tag @c-cw-f-saeko @fire-tempers-steel @futilecombat @passthroughtime (think that's everyone? lmk if u want to be tagged/untagged) (share if you want don't if you don't as usual HI)

sharing something different cause i wasn't feeling well this weekend and i have this written already. little extra thing from two birds that expands on the letters kuwana and reiko wrote to each other. kind of long but i don't like it enough to post so just take the whole thing gosh!

To Kusumoto-san,

How are you? I'm sorry I haven't written yet. I just figured out how this works in the midst of moving around. Ehime is a nice place. Far, temperate. The people in Masaki are a little too friendly. Not sure I could say the same about Matsuyama, though, I guess that's the city to a stranger. It seems silly to say, but I hope you're making some friends, if you can.

When we first drove in, a seagull shat on my car. Right on the windshield! I almost killed us both. I know you just jumped at the thought, but we're really okay. Mitsuru made fun at me for getting so startled. He's a good kid. He's a lot like you and nothing like me. Thank God. Despite our differences I think we're getting along.

We came to Matsuyama for a bit. We wanted to pop in and see you but they told us it doesn't work that way. That day it really hit that you were in prison, and not just away on a terrible vacation. I guess I'll never get over missing you. It really upset Mitsuru, so I took him to do tourist stuff instead. It was nice because a lot of people visit those areas, so the wheelchair wasn't really a problem like it is on these gravely rural roads. We met the mascot, Mikyan, and took a picture with him. I'm sure it fell out when you tore open this envelope. Did you know Ehime is famous for its mandarins? They really won't let you forget it! The photo was just going to be of Mitsuru, but this lady behind me said she could take a photo of the both of us, and I got too shy to say no. I'd never do that! Maybe I'm a changed man after all. Anyways, you have the both of us now—though it wasn't like you didn't before.

Mitsuru gave me a haircut. I look ridiculous. You can see it in the photo, right? I would have done a better job blindfolded, but he seemed proud of it, so I kept it. His hair looks pretty choppy now, but not out of revenge. I just suck at cutting hair. Did I tell you that he's trying to get his high school diploma? What a dedicated young man you've raised. I technically still have my teaching license, so I've been helping. Feels good. It's weird. Whenever I help him, I remember why I became a teacher in the first place. Ironic, isn't it? I want to tell you everything but I'll save it for the next time we see you. I'm sorry for cutting it so short, but I have a favor to ask you.

The nurses in Ijincho explained a bunch of stuff to me about Mitsuru's condition and printed it out. It's expectedly massive. Sorry to be a pain, but would you mind taking a look at it and tell me what to do? Advice? I can't make sense of it all. Or maybe I refuse to believe it. Is he really hurt so badly? What does he think of all this? I wonder about it. I wonder about it a lot. He seems fine, but then I look at all his X-rays and blood tests and I don't know what to think. How do I get him too eat? To grab things? To smile? I'm taking it one step at a time, but these technical terms are a big hurdle. You can read it, right? You've always been so much smarter than me. I'm sorry again. I'm lost. Thank you. I'm running out of room. They've got a limit on paper for prison letters. Seems strict.

Mitsuru wanted to say:

M iSsyou Mo M

- Mi Tsu ru

He's got a damn strong grip on his pencil. You'd be proud.

Until then,

Yu

Kitakata,

It's good to finally hear from you. I'm doing as well as I can. You seem to be the same. I checked a map of Masaki to try and place you two. It seems like a nice town. Are you getting used to the short buildings and the little beach?

I've been friendly with some of the other inmates, and the seagulls here do the same, but I've been safer than you.

I got your picture. How cute. Your haircut isn't so bad, he did a good job.

I looked at the documents. I know what you mean. I expect you already know to use the feeding tube and how to bathe him. It's not surprising he did not respond well to the catheter. I wouldn't either.

Firstly, Mitsuru has anterograde amnesia. That means he has a very difficult time forming short term memory, even if his long term memory is intact. Remember when you told me he didn't know your name, even though you told him earlier? That's why. I'm not sure why he doesn't remember your face from before. I suppose that's a fortunate mystery. You may have noticed the nurses doing this, but if you tell him the same things over and over again, he'll have an easier time forming new memories. He knows what to call you now because you said it so many times. I'm sure he knows I'm in prison because the nurses told him many times, too. That's what I get.

I'm sure you're well aware of his mental health. He seems to go up and down a lot, I bet. Like his body, his brain is suck at seventeen. Doesn't he seem so... frozen in time to you? He's like an old doll, destined to be a kid forever. I'd be jealous if that was the end of it. The nurses observed that he sometimes behaves like a much younger child. Have you seen him suck his thumb? Does he tug at you when he wants your attention? Hug you at night? It's an acute stress response. He's defending his body from his mind—that's what that means.

Lastly, his food. It's not very difficult to do. Steam it for thirty minutes. If you lose track of time and think you've cooked it for too long, add another ten minutes. I did that when he was little. He hated vegetables until they weren't shaped much like vegetables anymore. He'd swallow his food whole to hurry up and play outside again, so boil it thoroughly. It should be the consistency of chewed gum or silt. Try it yourself, add salt if you hate it. He doesn't like broccoli. No broccoli. Like everything else, he's still relearning how to chew. Don't push him. He’s sensitive. You know that already, just like you know how to do all this other stuff. You have good intuition, and great memory, and it helps that Mitsuru seems to love you. Even still, don't push him. No broccoli. Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Don't expect me to say anything else, I'll see you soon.

Kusumoto Reiko

#my tummy hurts #sunday six

[ifidiedinadream]

for the prompts: tommi wondering for a while if he's bi and eventually asking aleksi for a chat and help and maybe a kiss just to be sure, and maaaybe aleksi suddenly has a realisation too about why he could never explain why tommi was somehow differently special to him than the others 😌

i took the liberty to go with my own vibe with this, hope you enjoy anyway 🖤

also on ao3

Aleksi will gladly let Tommi go take a shower first if it means he can have another moment with his face buried in the white sheets, the fresh smell of lavender invading his senses as his body pleasantly relaxes and releases all its tension, finally resting on a soft surface after having worked all day. It feels too good to be legal but damn, Aleksi needed this. 

Tommi gets the hint and goes to the bathroom. The muffled sound of the water running is like a lullaby for Aleksi, whose eyelids get heavier and heavier, burning every time he tries to force his eyes open. 

He isn’t fully asleep when Tommi comes out with a towel wrapped around his waist, but he’s asleep enough to suffer when it’s time to get up. Tommi shuffles his hair, urging him on with a comment about him being lazy and a laugh. Surprisingly, the shower awakens Aleksi’s senses enough for him to not to lose consciousness while he’s putting underwear on. He expected worse, all in all. 

“Care if I leave the curtains open?” 

Tommi knows about Aleksi’s preference of waking up to natural light, something he picked up from Olli (it’s healthier this way, unless you have an hangover), so he doesn’t ask and simply shrugs. Aleksi finds comfort in the soft noise of the foreign city below him, but he’s not sure Tommi picked up on it yet. It’s not often they get to share a room, for some reason. 

(The reason being that both Aleksi and Joel stay up late, so they make for perfect roommates. Aleksi has a hard time getting used to beds that aren’t his own, which he always misses greatly, and Joel has dealt with insomnia for as long as he can remember. However, today Aleksi was visibly tired, while Joel was as hyper as he could be; Joonas took pity on Aleksi, sacrificing himself for his friend’s well being.) 

Aleksi is more than eager to put himself to bed afterwards, and Tommi doesn’t complain, he hardly ever does when it comes to him actually, so Aleksi turns the light off (after struggling a bit to find the switch in the unfamiliar room) and wishes his friend good night. Tommi mumbles something in return and Aleksi closes his eyes. 

Two minutes would’ve been enough for Aleksi to finally enter dreamland, but Tommi clears his throat before those two minutes can pass. He says Aleksi’s name with a question mark at the end, and it’s not like Aleksi to pretend he didn’t hear it. 

“Yeah?” 

“I think I need some advice.” 

Aleksi’s brow furrows - now, that’s not a sentence Tommi says much. Aleksi is flattered that he chose him to confide in out of all their friends. 

“Sure, go ahead,” Aleksi turns to face him, although he can’t see him in the dark. 

“How do you… how do you know you’re bi?” 

That catches Aleksi by surprise. He collects his thoughts, staying silent for a while and rubbing at his bottom lip, until a shuffling sound comes from Tommi’s bed. It might not be the case, but to Aleksi it sounded nervous. 

“I’m not sure, you just know I guess… you like women, right? If you like a man the way you like women, then you’re probably bi.” 

Aleksi feels so stupid. It’s such a delicate, important matter yet he can’t seem to come up with something intelligent to say. Where’s the calm rationality he’s known for when he needs it?! 

“I know I like women,” Tommi says, “but I’m not sure I like guys too. Like, I do think some guys are handsome...” 

“Aesthetic appreciation and sexual attraction are two different things.” 

“How do I tell them apart?” 

Aleksi sighs, this is getting tricky. He wants to help Tommi, he really does, and he’s no longer tired, not after this exchange, but something is tugging at his gut and he wants the conversation to be over as soon as possible. 

“Do you ever feel drawn to a guy? Like you want to be physically close to him, hug him and touch him?” 

“I feel that way towards a guy in particular, yes.” 

Aleksi’s lips press into a thin line. Why is his stupid heartbeat suddenly picking up anyway? 

“Then you’re probably bi.” 

“I mean. It could still be only platonic, couldn’t it?” 

“Depends. If you wanna make out with the guy and sleep with him then it most definitely isn’t platonic.” 

Tommi doesn’t answer for a moment, and Aleksi starts to think he might’ve dozed off. Lucky him. He doubts he’ll be able to sleep at all tonight after this. 

Stupid Aleksi. Feelings are dumb.  

“Aleksi,” Tommi’s voice comes once again, startling Aleksi out of his own thoughts. He doesn’t answer but props up on one elbow, listening. “Help me figure it out.” 

“I’m not sure what else I can say - you either like someone sexually, or you don’t, and if you’re attracted to someone regardless of gender, then -” 

“Kiss me.” 

Aleksi’s breath hitches in his throat. Is Tommi serious? Fuck. Fuck. What does he do? 

“Tommi -” 

“There’s only one way for me to understand whether I like men or not, and it’s a kiss from you. So if you want to help me, it’d be very much appreciated. Unless you don’t want that, obviously.” 

“Why me, though?” 

“Because I need to understand if… if I find you this gorgeous in a normal way. Or if it’s in a gay way.” 

Aleksi can’t help but snort, and he doesn’t know if it’s from the word choice or the nerves. 

“Are you sure it’ll help?” 

“Positive.” 

“Now?” 

Aleksi’s heart is beating like a jackhammer in his chest. He doesn’t know why. It’s just a kiss for fuck’s sake. How many people has he kissed in his lifetime again? Why is it suddenly a big deal? 

“Now.” 

Aleksi removes the blanket from his body. He sits up and looks over at Tommi, whose silhouette he can barely make out. He’s lying in his bed, breathing evenly it seems, and Aleksi’s palms go cold and sweaty. 

He walks over to him and crouches down by his face. He doesn’t stop to look in the light shimmer of his eyes for too long because that would give him a heart attack. Aleksi grabs the side of Tommi’s head and moves closer, resting his lips on his friend’s. 

Aleksi’s entire body relaxes, the tension inside his gut suddenly unfurls, and he never wants the kiss to end. He gently presses his tongue to Tommi’s lips and when Tommi lets him in, Aleksi holds his head closer, wanting, needing more. 

Aleksi doesn’t know when the kiss turns into a make out session, but Tommi doesn’t stop, and neither does he, not feeling the tiniest bit like it - they could tell him this is what heaven feels like and he would believe them. His whole body is responding to it, with an energy that makes a mess of his insides, turning them upside down - and the chaos never felt so good. So awake and alive. 

When they finally do part, Tommi quickly lowers his gaze, but Aleksi never stops looking for it. Even in the dark, even if his lips glisten with spit and seem to be calling Aleksi’s name. 

“I don’t know about you, but I did understand something about myself.” 

Tommi’s eyes snap up. His expression softens when Aleksi smiles at him. Tommi pulls him in for another kiss and Aleksi only stops him to climb into the bed next to him, thinking he won’t miss his own bed much tonight after all.

#my writing #blind channel fanfiction #blind channel fanfic #blind channel rpf #rpf #aleksi kaunisvesi x tommi lalli

[modern-inheritance]

take your time to think about this one: izzy and oromis, do you ship it? why or why not?

Hey anon, sorry this took me a week or more.

Straightforward answer: that is a big heckin' no, my guy. I've never understood why people ship them. The only interaction we see happen between them (that I remember) is when Oromis and Glaedr reveal themselves to Eragon and Co. in Ellesméra, and it isn't all that pleasant of a conversation. Maybe it's because they're both the most plotwise important elves we meet in Eldest and we didn't have many others to pair up? Iunno. I guess I'm not much a fan of shipping in general.

To explain further, I honestly believe there is a chance Oromis is on the Aro-Ace spectrums. I'm projecting a bit, as I'm Aro-Ace myself (and damn does it show when I try to write courting dialogue....), but Oromis never mentions (as far as I'm aware) any romantic or sexual relationship he had or has when telling Eragon about himself and Glaedr. That's not unusual, especially as elves in canon IC are played as polyamorous and not nearly as monogamous as humans and dwarves and thus their romantic lives seem to be less of a huge point in their stories, but Oromis just strikes me as the married to being a Dragon Rider type. So that's considered MIC canon.

I also think that Inheritance Cycle canon Islanzadí, while respecting him and often seeking his advice, may have seen Oromis remaining in Ellesméra as a threat to her power. But I've never been all that keen on canon Islanzadí, so that might be biased.

In Modern Inheritance, Oromis and Islanzadí are somewhat friends, though they both understand that their friendship isn't exactly warm and is more a business relationship. When Arya would come back from the Varden on brief supply runs, Islanzadí would talk with Oromis after she left to try and get an update on her daughter. Oromis would tactfully give her the bare bones information but would always remind her that if she wanted more, she would have to speak to her kid and stop being such a (obviously not his words) utter tit about the whole banishment business. Before that, though, Islanzadí frequently asked Oromis for help or advice on how to best secure the elves after they fled into Du Weldenvarden.

Since it came up, I want to clarify for Modern Inheritance. While MIC!Elves are more okay with the whole poly stuff than humans or dwarves, as well as having multiple (spaced out) partners in a friends-with-benefits type situation, in MIC once an elf picks a romantic partner it is definitely more common for them to remain monogamous until they decide the relationship has run its course or they end up mated for life. Some just pick a romantic partner, skipping the whole sample box bit, others just keep going with that buffet. Ignore my terrible comparisons, I didn't get much sleep.

#eragon #inheritance cycle #modern inheritance #modern inheritance asks #modern inheritance cycle #oromis #islanzadi #queen islanzadi #the inheritance cycle #the cyclists #glaedr #mic elves #modern inheritance lore #stan us some aro-ace elves around here yes we do #well at least I do #yall can do what you want

[endcant]

its almost every day that i work out and think about one incident in high school. my marching band had finally organized a block for injured/disabled kids to stretch and do yoga-like warmups instead of high impact warmups like jogging, running, and sprinting. the kids in “injury block” told me i should join bc of my asthma, and it made my practices way better.

this was because it granted me the ability to choose WHEN my asthma attacks started during rehearsal. instead of starting every rehearsal with an asthma attack, i could save my daily mandatory asthma attack for the very end of the night, when we would march our show for several minutes at a time nonstop and then be forced (not asked or permitted) to run from our instruments and grab water and run back.

weekday band rehearsals usually started around 3 and could last until 10 pm, and on weekdays i also had dance class, where i would have already gotten in my day’s serving of cardio in the form of dancing or running. so it wasn’t like running with the band was the only source of high-impact cardio jostling my lungs each day.

if i had an asthma attack at 3:15 PM, i would be woozy and sleepy and mentally and emotionally fried during the entirety of rehearsal, including blocks where we would stand still and practice the music. if i had an asthma attack at 9:50 PM however, i could get almost 7 full hours of actual high quality practicing and rehearsal in without feeling like i had half the usual amount of braincells and jello in the place of muscles. it was a huge game-changer for me as a drummer. suddenly i wasn’t making stupid mistakes that i couldn’t explain! suddenly i was able to retain new marching coordinates and exercises! suddenly i was able to march under the weight of the heaviest drums for hours without wobbling!

of course, after a couple of months of me participating in “injury block” and getting a lot out of it, our band director noticed me there and told me i needed a doctor’s note. i told him i have asthma and i have an inhaler perscription i could show him. he told me that that would be fine this week, but every rehearsal afterwards i would need a new signed and dated doctor’s note. i knew instantly that this was ridiculous and financially prohibitive. i tried to explain the asthma attack math. he did not care. so i went back to running and having asthma attacks at the beginning of each rehearsal and throughout parts of rehearsal that i now knew didn’t have to be that hard for me.

i had friends in band who would ask me on the field to chill and take a break because my asthma attacks were scaring them, but i was quick to inform them that my asthma wasn’t considered an important or serious injury or illness by the band director. it really made me bitter and i constantly found myself having out of body experiences during band in junior and senior year.

i still work out to this day and think about how few asthma attacks i have now that i am allowed to control when and how frequently i focus on high-impact exercise. and also since i no longer have to do that running on a dusty track with 100 other kids dragging their feet in front of me. i also think about how that band director was, generally speaking, the most hands-off band director i’ve ever met. he didn’t know a damn thing about marching or playing and rarely was present or tried to give us advice. his job was basically just to hire people who had specific knowledge. but still, that day, he decided to walk out on the field and specifically target me for god knows what reason and interrogate me about why i was doing yoga instead of running in circles.

i wasn’t mad about it at the time, even. i was very trusting as a kid. i’m mad about it now, though. and whenever i attend a group workout class and and the instructor tries to tell me i can cure my asthma by “pushing through”, they can be sure they’ll never see me again.

i guess part of what maddens me about it is how nearly every adult who ever taught me anything in any of the physical activities i chose to participate in treated me like i was lazy because of my asthma. and i just believed them. so i just worked harder than i should have. at the cost of my ability to actually perform well in the activity they were supposed to be instructing me in.

the incident that made me start to realize that something was wrong was when i couldnt lunge quickly for a visual move with my drum on because the drum harness fit me wrong. the drum instructors blamed it on my lack of core strength, and i believed them, even though i could feel the drums swinging and hitting my forward leg. a huge bruise-then-bump developed that was eventually visible through shorts. this did not bother me and i showed it off to friends proudly, much to their concern. one day i went to do the move and the swing of my drums knocked me right over. i don’t remember how much it hurt, but i guess i was down for awhile because a parent who volunteered with the band ran up and took my drums off of me. this guy, some other kid’s parent, saw my leg and cursed at the drum instructors for awhile until they agreed to try to fix my harness. i felt embarrassed and was certain at the time that if i had just been more firm in my core then there wouldve been no one yelling at anyone on my behalf.

i now feel bad that i let myself be so trained out of questioning why i was in pain that my drum insteuctors had to take the fall for it. i mean, the pain of that leg injury was nothing compared to having asthma attacks every time i had to rehearse with the full band.

#draftsposting

[paperbagsandwich]

that makes me want ros to be my friend!! (Ive been working on magical girl ocs because of my love for the genre, i think i might have too many wip because im planning on making a small animation as well for other stuff i like.)

That's more than fair! My little sister and brother are both on the spectrum (both have been tested for it, i haven't, my little sister stims a lot and runs around, my lil brother is more on the none verbal side unless it's something he likes, like sonic, kirby or mario kart). I know i stim as well (when the stardew valley update came out i was bouncing, clapping and waving my arms excitedly) its just lovely to see such attributes in characters.

please dont feel forced to check them out! Take as much time as you need if you want to tho! (Nausicaä has some of my fav creature designs in it honestly and there are lil apple people in stardew i needle felted some before)

!!! Yay!! Take as much time as you need ill be excitedly waiting for them even if you post them 200 years later, i don't mind i just wanna see more of your lovely art!

Ive done the same before! i like trying a bunch of different ways to make designs its always a bunch of fun to experiment, id reccomend trying if you also like just making random designs as well!

Aww thank you!! He had always tried to flirt with her before (he was just terrible at it) so she knew he was interested. She let him know she had feeling back when she kissed him on the cheek after he comforted her after a hard day (it made him happy cry and laugh as he hugged her tightly).

Thank you! I honestly think im just doing the bare minimum but thank you. Im happy to be here!! I enjoy talking to you and sending questions about your characters and you!! Plus as another creative person its nice to understand how you view your characters and how you explore different sides of them! Its something i want to do more (im still anxious about creating my own tumblrs/twitters for wg and nsfw content -these would be separate accounts-)

Ros does have that energy with people, she gets along with people a lot!

And OOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHH, THAT'S AWESOME!!!! Man I wish I had the energy for animation, that's so cool!!! Godspeed!! 🫡

I mean it's a long time coming, this was something I was going to check out on anyway for future characters so I can get people on the spectrum right and not just guess I've just been procrastinating JDKSHDKDISJS

Also, that's so cute!! 😭😭

And yeah, I'll get to the things on my own time, I like getting suggestions sometimes so I don't mind at all.

Also, AAAAWWWWWW, YOU DO FELT STUFF, THAT'S SO COOL!!! 😭😭

OOOH, that sounds so fun, maybe that'll help with Art Block!!

Making a Toon based campaign really helps with figuring out different art styles which is very fun to do.

Also, your patience is very admirable!!! 😭😭

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH, I LOVE THESE TWO SO DAMN MUCH!!!!! 😭😭😭💕💕💕💕💕

And goodness, you're too nice, I really love talking about characters and other stuff with you!!!!

If feels so nice getting questions like these and I always get excited getting messages from you!!!

But don't force yourself to ask if you run out of things to say, I understand. You can only ask so much.

And I totally understand your nervousness when it comes to making a niche blog. It's okay if you're not ready, just do it when you're ready.

I'm sure everyone would love to see what you have.

And you can take the advice Lemon said by blocking people you may know online before posting your work.

#Nonfat #Anon #NonFat Ask #You do you Anon #take your time!! #I'll gladly wait 200 years if I have to HDKSBZKDJJDKS

[mass-convergence]

A collarary to the advice of "they'll read it if they want to and they won't if they don't" is - they need to find it. People not reading your work is not a mark against its' quality, it's simply evidence that people haven't found it. As a published author myself I get it, it sucks when noone reads your work. It feels that you have put something out into the world and that it is being ignored. But it is not being actively ignored, it is not being judged as poor quality. It simply hasn't been found. Courage and patience. Don't be scared to send links to reviewers or people in other circles.

Sincerely - thank you.

Long, somewhat disorganized, ramble

It is frustrating, and part of this is my (admittedly ADHD related, though trying to blame it solely on that isn’t really getting the full picture) need for instant gratification and complete lack of patience in anything. And the general insecurity that if it doesn’t get some kind of recognition, positive or otherwise, that I’m just showing my whole ass to the world and people are being too polite to mention it. I also have issues with emotional regulation so it literally feels like someone’s squeezing my heart whenever I get into this state.

And I’ll be honest: I’m frustrated with people who have said they’ll read it or check it out and then never do. And I don’t feel like keeping on poking them and asking them if they are. Because I’ve gotten the “I’m sorry I’ve just been so busy” explanation about a hundred times now (only slightly exaggerating).

And I don’t want to call them liars because I’m an adult with a day job and a mountain of responsibilities that I’m only somewhat keeping up with. There’s plenty of stuff I want to watch or consume that I don’t have mental bandwidth to handle. I’ve read the first paragraph of Gideon the Ninth and I want to read more I just haven’t gotten a chance. Which also is lending to mental health issues but we do not have the time to unpack that rn.

This is something I’m passionate about and pouring my heart into and not even getting the bare minimum of support from people who purportedly said they’re interested is not really a fun spot to be in. (And I know one or two of my friends have been reading and I love you guys). My mom said she was gonna read it which is slightly terrifying because she’s not into queer fantasy but she’s also like unabashedly supportive and has been trying to get me to publish my writing and sell my art for goddamn ages. I’m not on the level of Tolkien or Pratchett or Gaiman (Martin you stay the fuck out of this) and I’m not trying to be them either. But I think I’m like decent.

And I guess I took some of the advice when I was writing fanfic that “well people who aren’t interested won’t read it so don’t worry about posting cringe” and extrapolated it to original fic. Which isn’t a 1:1 - people legitimately do not give a shit about other’s OCs unless they’re given a reason to care.

Side note: Partially the reason that while I could advertise this (and probably should) as a story lead by queer protags, two of whom are POCs, that doesn’t really tell you anything about them. Aside from representation. Admittedly: I’m not too great at self promo because I feel like I’m hyping me and my story telling ability way too much. Which is a self fulfilling prophecy when I inevitably don’t get any bites.

It’s a rough situation all around and frankly demotivating. Part of the reason I just didn’t post on Thursday because I was just so damn tired of posting and having to deal with the pain over and over again. I have a huge buffer of words and chapters and I’m frankly having a hard time deciding if I should keep posting them. I mean my last chapter didn’t get any notes except for the one reblog … which was my own fucking reblog onto this blog.

And I think I’ve come a long way from like not disparaging my own shit. I love my writing. I love my art. I just hate sharing it and not getting the same level of excitement I feel to tell a story I want to tell.

#writing #writing problems #I really should start tagging my writing though that’s like the bare minimum #I just don’t want to clog up the tags (even though this isn’t like clogging fandom tags with hate on a ship or something)

[crying-pan420]

CHOIRSONA 10!!!

10 of these..

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Isabella: We’ve been conducting an ongoing study to see what Milo will and will not eat.

Phillip: Grass? Yes!

Isabella: Moss? Yes!!

Phillip: Leaves? Ohh, yes!

Isabella: Shoelaces? Strange but true!

Phillip: Worms? Sometimes!

Isabella: Rocks? Usually nah.

Phillip: Twigs? Usually!

Isabella: Paloma's cooking? Inconclusive!

Alex: How did you… test this?

Isabella: You just hand them stuff and say ‘eat this’ and if they eat it, they eat it.

Alex: ... I don’t know how to feel about this.

Paloma: IS THAT WHERE ALL MY SPARE SHOELACES WENT?

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Lemon: Hi.

Diego: Hey, did you do what I said? Did you tell them?

Lemon: I did.

Diego: And what did they say?

Lemon: “Thank you.”

Diego: You’re totally welcome. What’d they say?

Lemon: They said, “Thank you.” I said “I love you” and Carrie said, “Thank you.”

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Seymour : Hey, Joe said he's coming over this afternoon.

Paloma: Cool.

Seymour : Do you know who Joe is?

Paloma: JOE MAMA!

Arabella, not even looking up from their phone: Damn, that backfired.

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Amira: What should I do?

Tanya: *holds out hand* May I suggest dinner with a friend?

Amira: Well, none of my friends are available, so I guess I'll have to go with you.

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Diego to Carrie: Me? I'm the bee knees, but, you? You're just...

Juno: Cockroach ankles!

Diego: Ye- uh, what?

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Leo walking into the kitchen and seeing all their limes peeled: Evi, I love you but, what the h-e-double FUCK.

Evi, sipping coffee happily: I love you too :)

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Isabella: You know, when I first met you I thought you were a real bitch.

Carrie: What changed your mind?

Isabella: Oh, now I know that you’re a fake bitch. Why do you ask?

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Diego, tearing up the room: Where are they?

Diego, looking under a pillow: Who moved them? Who moved my children?

Diego: Somebody moved my M&M's, and now I am going to start killing.

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Robin, to the Squad: I’d die for you.

Emmy: Then perish.

Sarah Marie: You will.

Ire: Please don’t.

Echo: Cool.

Marcus: I’d die for you first.

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Arabella: Okay happy campers! If you were a fruit what would you be and why?

Marcus: I'd be a tomato because no one accepts me as part of the group.

Arabella: ...

Marcus: ...

Arabella: OKAY HAPPY CAMPERS-

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Carrie: I think it’s time I get my life in order.

Wren, narrating: But they did not get their life in order. In fact, they got drunk last night and fought a raccoon.

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Sarah Marie: Lemon, we tried things your way.

Lemon: No, we didn't.

Sarah Marie: I did it in my head and it didn't work.

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Huì yǐng: I am an expert at identifying birds.

Paloma: Okay, what about those ones flying over there?

Huì yǐng: Yeah, they're all birds.

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Evi: Hand me the people opener.

Gail: ...

Gail: Pardon?

Evi, annoyed: The people opener! Just hand it to me!

Gail, stressed: WHAT THE FUCK IS A PEOPLE OPENER?

Evi: How do you not know what a people opener is? Its pointy- you know? With a handle?

Gail: Knife. It's called a knife.

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Ire: Here you go, Wren, a nice hot cup of coffee!

Wren: It's cold.

Ire: A nice cup of coffee.

Wren: It's horrible!

Ire: Cup of coffee.

Wren: I'm not sure if this even IS coffee.

Ire: C U P.

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Echo: I'm tired.

Calypso: You slept for three hours last night! Why are you surprised?!

Echo: I'm not surprised. I just wanted to complain about it.

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Leo: I'm tired.

Alex: You slept for three hours last night! Why are you surprised?!

Leo: I'm not surprised. I just wanted to complain about it.

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Juno: If you want my advice-

Diego: No offense but you’re the last person I want relationship advice from. You tried to kill your significant other. Multiple times.

Juno: First off, that was before we started dating. Secondly, they’ve also tried to kill me.

Ire: It’s true. It was mutually attempted murder.

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Calypso: You know the sound a fork makes in the garbage disposal? That's the sound that my brain makes all the time.

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Diego: Evi, my old friend!

Evi: I think you tried to kill me at some point.

Diego: That was obviously just my way of getting to know you.

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Echo: Social distancing says you shouldn't be within an elbow's distance of each other.

*later, in a barfight*

Echo: Social distancing doesn't say nothing about feet! *kicks opponent in the face*

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Isabelle, as a child, reading their school assignment out loud: I love my library because...

Isabelle, mouthing words while writing: I love reading, fuck you.

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Evi: *walking around disappointed after visiting an aquarium*

Amira: Evi, what did you think a tiger shark was?

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Alex: Shut up, you’re messing with my train of thought!

Lemon: I thought you didn’t have a brain and now you say you have thoughts?

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Calypso: You think you're smarter than everyone else.

Leo: I don't think I'm smarter than everyone else. I know I am.

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Calypso: So, according to my university, it is, quote, “my responsibility if there is an internet outage to contact the faculty and the department.”

Calypso: Now, if you’re a critical thinker like me, you might be wondering one thing.

Calypso: HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO EMAIL THE DEPARTMENT?!?!?!

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Lemon: Milo, you're my best friend.

Milo: Best friend? BEST friend?! Bitch, I'm your only friend.

Milo: I'M THE ONLY ONE CAPABLE OF TOLERATING YOUR DUMB ASS!

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Tanya: So, what, now I'm just supposed to do anything Paloma does? I mean, what if they jumped off a cliff?

Isabelle: If Paloma were to jump off a cliff, they would've done their due diligence regarding the height of the cliff, the depth of the water, and the angle of entry, so yes. If you see Paloma jump off a cliff, by all means, jump off a cliff.

Echo: You jump off a cliff!

Isabelle: Gladly, provided Paloma did first.

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#rtc #rtc oc #rtc sona #choirsona #choirsona incorrect quotes #I’ve made 10 of these-