Your Hearth Is My Home (BG3 Fanfic, Astarion x Female Reader, Part 16 of ?)
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Act I - Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8 | Part 9 | Part 10 | Part 11 | Part 12
Act II - Part 13 | Part 14 | Part 15
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Word Count: 4275
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Act II, Chapter 4 - The Portal
The next morning, Karlach was sitting at the campfire, waiting very impatiently for you to wake up.
“C’mon, c’mon! Let’s go see if Dammon can fix up my engine!”
You smiled at her. She was like a kid in her excitement. Getting up and throwing on your day clothes, you left camp in a rush, pulling on your gloves as you went.
“Why do you always wear those gloves outside of camp?” she asked.
You shrugged. “Habit.”
Karlach looked at you, tipping her head to get you to continue. You ignored her.
“Alright. Keep your secrets.”
“I will, thank you,” you said with a grin.
Dammon was waving to the two of you as you arrived at the forge. He explained what he had done, and how Karlach needed to install the piece.
You watched with academic interest as she opened up her chest and installed the insulating chamber to her heart engine.
“Did… did it work?” she asked as she stared at her hands.
“Only one way to find out.” Dammon held up a hand. “Go on. Give us your hand.”
Tentatively, Karlach reached out to him. Slowly, she placed her palm against his.
He didn’t burn. He only smiled at her. “Damn. I’m good. And you… you’re very touchable.”
You held back a snicker.
Karlach looked at you. “I can touch people again!” Her face was lit up like a summer sky, her happiness filling you with so much joy that it overflowed your heart. Unable to help yourself, you leapt up and gave her a big hug.
Laughing and squealing with cheer, she swung you around a few times, easily holding you up like you weighed as much as a feather.
“I can’t wait to hug everyone!” she cried out.
“Wait,” Dammon said, his face turning serious. “There’s something I need to tell you.”
***
Walking back to camp, you glanced over at Karlach, who was clearly processing Dammon’s news. You didn’t know what else to do, other than hold her hand the whole way back. You had your gloves on so you couldn’t pry into her emotions, but you could tell from her expression that she was quickly digesting it and moving on.
I’m not sure that’s healthy for her emotionally, but maybe she’s handling it better than I would have.
“Who are you going to hug first?” you asked, hopefully getting her mind off of her future for the time being.
“I don’t know…” She tapped her chin. “Although it’d be real funny if I hugged Lae’zel first!”
As the two of you entered camp, hand in hand, you noted everyone’s reaction.
Gale did a comically exaggerated double take. Really? He’s such a dork sometimes.
Lae’zel and Shadowheart raised an eyebrow. Those two are more alike than they realize.
Astarion glanced at your joined hands and smirked. Oh, I bet he’s got loads of quips in his head right now.
And Wyll smiled and immediately came up to the two of you, holding out his arms. You let go of Karlach and not so subtly pushed her towards him.
He picked her up and held her tightly. “I’ve been wanting to do this for a long time.”
Karlach and Wyll seemed like they were in their own world, so you walked past them quietly to get breakfast made. As they finally joined everyone at the campfire, she told everyone about her heart and her future choices.
“But we’ll worry about that when the time comes,” she said when she saw the concerned looks on some of their faces. “For now, let’s figure out what’s goin’ on with these tadpoles in our heads. Then I can go home.”
They planned to head to a mausoleum in the old ruined town south of the inn called Reithwin town. You bundled up some snacks for them and wished them luck.
***
A little past midday, you saw a familiar face.
“Arabella?”
You recalled the little tiefling girl from the party, where her parents had been coddling her and profusely thanking the group for rescuing her. The fact that she was here alone did not bode well.
The base of your spine tingled. It felt cold.
Oh no. This isn't good.
She told you that the others had saved her from the shadow cursed while she was looking for her parents. They had told her they would look for them.
You glanced up at Withers, who subtly shook his head.
Godsdammit.
“Well, while you wait for them, why don't you come help me with some chores?”
She shrugged. “Sure, I guess.”
***
Arabella soon grew bored of helping with your chores, as most children do, and split her time between playing with the animals and bothering Withers with inane questions. You eventually took her to the inn to play with the other tiefling children while you helped out around the building.
After a few hours, you saw the party return, Halsin leading with an old, battered lute in hand. He headed straight for the room where the Flaming Fist were staying. He looked determined, an elf on a mission.
You fell in step with the others and followed him, wanting to see what had gotten the usually calm archdruid into such a state.
Halsin held out the lute to the semi-conscious man on the bed, talking softly with him. The man didn’t seem to respond, and even strumming a few strings didn’t do much beyond getting his focus for a few brief moments before he fell into delirium once more.
What if…
You quietly backed away from the group and went to the bar.
“Alfira!”
She turned to you. “Yes, what is it?”
“Could you come help us? We need someone who can play a lute.”
She grinned. “Well, I might know someone.”
Returning to Halsin with the bard in tow, you tapped him on the arm and gestured towards Alfira. “Can she play?”
He nodded and smiled at you. “Great idea.” Handing the lute over to the tiefling, he stepped back and allowed her to stand beside the bed. After listening to his broken song for a few minutes, she began to play the same song on the lute.
You watched as the man, who you learned was named Art Cullagh, slowly came back to the present, his fragmented mind reconnecting the dots of reality with each strum of the lute. When he sat up, looking around at everyone with clarity in his gaze, Alfira handed back the lute to him and wished him well before excusing herself.
“Thank you,” you called out to her as she left.
“Any time,” she replied as she smiled at you.
You turned back to the conversation before you, learning about the next steps in Halsin’s quest to save Thaniel.
“A portal?”
Halsin nodded. He turned to everyone. “Whenever you are all ready to help, I can summon a portal and get Thaniel out of the Shadowfell. But I’ll need your help to guard it. If the enemy comes and shatters the portal before I return…”
He didn’t need to elaborate. Everyone nodded.
As they all began to head out of the building and back to camp, you spoke up. I have to confirm, even though I'm pretty sure Withers was right. “Did… did you find Arabella’s parents?”
When all of their faces fell, you knew they had. And it wasn’t good.
“No!”
You turned around to see that Arabella had been eavesdropping.
Dammit, I thought she was with the other children.
She looked to be on the verge of tears. “I saw you all, so I came to ask… But… it can’t be. No! I refuse to believe it!” Taking off in a sprint, she left the building faster than you could speak up.
Chasing after her, you saw her taking the path back to camp. A bit relieved, you followed her, keeping her in sight, making sure that she made it back safely. The rest of the party followed at a more sedate pace.
Reaching the campsite, you saw that the girl was sitting with her arms around her knees, staring out at the water next to Withers. Looking at his stone-faced expression, you only shared a nod before turning away, letting her process the news.
You went about your usual chores, mending and cleaning while letting the stew pot do its thing, but in the back of your mind, you wondered if you could repeat your off-the-cuff cooking cantrip that you had accidentally sang in the Grymforge. While part of you enjoyed letting the food slowly simmer and accumulate its flavor, you knew that the others were probably hungry.
Dropping off the pile of armor and clothes to be cleaned next to your bedroll, you took off your gloves and went up to the pot and stared at it.
Alright, here goes.
Your hands hovered over the simmering water as you hummed, trying to remember exactly what you had done last time. Knowing that it wasn’t quite right, you still managed to make something happen as greenish-yellow lines sprung from your fingers, and you weaved a spell with your voice.
Dropping the magical web down onto the pot, you were surprised to suddenly see the simmering water go eerily still.
You peered into the pot curiously.
A tingle shot through your spine, and you reared your head back just as a fountain of stew shot from the pot, steaming and boiling in the air before landing straight back in, liquid splashing over the sides and scalding your hands. You hissed in pain.
Shadowheart called your name as she rushed over. Taking your hands, she cast a light heal on you.
“Careful, that nearly hit you in the face,” she said, taking a handkerchief and wiping the stew off your skin.
You smiled at her, a bit embarrassed at how badly your spell had backfired. “I know. Thank you.” You glanced over at your stew. “It… might be done?”
It smelled good. You grabbed the ladle from where it had landed on the ground, cleaned it with magic, and tasted the stew. “Yup, it’s done.”
“A dangerous way to make dinner faster,” Gale commented. “But effective nonetheless.”
“You could market that as dinner and a show,” Wyll joked.
Rolling your eyes, you started to serve up the meal.
Afterward, everyone began to prepare for the next day. Sharpening weapons, sparring with each other, reading up on spells… You finished with everyone’s clothes and set them by their tents as usual before heading over to Halsin, who was staring out across the water, deep in thought. You were worried for him most of all.
“Halsin,” you said quietly, reaching up to touch his arm. He felt determined, unshakeable as a mighty tree. Yet there was a hint of fear, but it didn’t seem to be for him. “How are you feeling?”
He turned to you, a gentle smile on his features. “I won't lie, I am a bit nervous. Traveling into the Shadowfell is no easy task. I’ve studied for years, beseeching the Oak Father for his blessing. I pray that we will have his favor come morning.”
You nodded. “I’m hoping that everything goes smoothly. Who will go with you?”
“I must go alone.”
You gasped. “What? Why?”
“The portal is maintained with my power, and the more people that go into it, the more it will drain me. If I’m to have a chance at finding Thaniel and bring him home, I need to go in with as much strength as possible.”
You nodded. That made sense. “So everyone else will be defending the portal?”
“Yes. The moment it opens, the shadow-cursed will swarm it, trying to destroy it. If they succeed…”
He didn’t need to say more. You reached for his hand and held it tight. “I trust our friends. They’ll make sure you come back safely.” You smiled. “And I’ll make sure there’s a nice meal waiting for you when you return.”
He smiled back. “That’s more than enough incentive to return.” Halsin let go of your hand and held his arms out for a hug, and you gladly let him wrap his big arms around you.
“You’re stronger than you know,” he murmured.
You pulled back, observing the knowing look in his gaze. “What do you know that I don’t?”
He grinned. “There’s a power inside of you, older than even me, and I’m more than three centuries old. I can’t quite place it, but it’s there, within you. You just need to learn how to harness it.”
Frowning, you instinctively reached for your back, but quickly pretended to scratch your shoulder instead. “If you say so,” you said, putting your hands in your lap and wringing them together. He must be sensing something else, not actual power. I’ve never done anything other than cantrips.
He patted you on the head, and you felt a fondness, like a big brother ruffling your hair. “One day, little witch. You’ll find your magic.”
***
Returning to camp, you rolled Halsin’s words around in your head, but they made zero sense.
An old power? Inside me? Maybe he’s sensing the seal my mother placed on me. There’s nothing else it could be.
You tried to put together the pieces of knowledge that you knew from what your mother had told you. You had an eladrin ancestor somewhere in the past, it was why your ears were a bit pointy. An eclectic form of magic, based solely on song, was what you had learned from your mother, who had learned it from hers, and so on and so forth, passed down through the generations.
From your father, you had learned a bit about the different planes. Baator, Shadowfell, Feywild, the Astral Sea, and their denizens. You had never really thought about why your father, so learned in these things, was living in a small village in the middle of nowhere, but you were thankful for the knowledge. If not for his random lessons while you were growing up, you would have never known about the githyanki, devils, demons, pixies, and other extraplanar beings.
It has to be the seal. It must be some kind of ancient spell she put on me. But for what purpose? Other than giving me weird premonitions.
Perhaps it was a protection spell? It had certainly saved you from bodily injury a few times at this point.
You had been in your head so thoroughly that you had walked past your bedroll and towards the other side of camp, your foot nearly stepping off the shoreline and into the murky water. You stepped backwards and felt a presence at your back.
“Still can’t sense a damn thing, can you?”
You turned to see Astarion smirking at you.
Godsdammit, can’t you come talk to me like a normal person? “Can I help you?”
“You’ve already helped me plenty, my dear,” he said. He pulled out his dagger, gesturing towards yours on your belt. “I’m returning the favor.”
You sighed. “Alright. Go easy on me.”
Pulling out your dagger, you attacked, a clumsy lunge, a graceless swing. For five minutes, he effortlessly deflected every one of your strikes.
Then he began to hum.
Confused, you continued to attack. There was no power in his song, but somehow, he seemed to be even more nimble as he dodged and spun away from your flimsy attempts to stab him.
“Your turn,” he finally said.
“Huh?”
“Hum something while you attack.”
You raised an eyebrow. “Why?”
“Just indulge me.”
Sighing, you thought of a faster tempo song and began to hum. Focusing on the song while striking at him over and over, you stopped thinking, and started to just act and react on instinct. Like the flow of a melody, you slashed, parried, jabbed, and finally, felt like you had made progress when you grabbed Astarion’s wrist, twisted his arm, and dipped in close, pointing your blade at his throat.
“Not bad,” he said, beads of sweat slowly dripping down his forehead.
Then you felt a tapping on your belly. You looked down to see his other hand, wielding a second, shorter dagger, pointed at your gut.
“But I would have eviscerated you before you got this close.” He tapped the flat edge of the dagger against your belt.
Sighing in defeat, you stepped away from him and put your dagger back into its sheath. “Well, at least I got closer.”
“Did music help?”
You nodded. “Yes. I… I hadn’t thought of that. It was like I stopped overthinking about my next move and just reacted.”
“Good girl,” he murmured, patting your head. You felt that fondness, but it was different from what you had felt with Halsin. This one seemed like…
No. There’s no way.
You pulled away, tired of getting mixed messages. “Thank you for helping me,” you said quietly as you glanced back at your bedroll. “I’d better get some sleep.” You started to turn away.
“Wait.”
You turned back to him. “Yes?”
“I…” He paused for a moment. “Tomorrow morning. We’ll be helping with this”—he gestured dismissively—“portal thing.”
“I heard.”
“So…” He looked up at you and then looked away, clearing his throat. “Don’t do anything stupid. I’ll be hungry when I return.”
You smiled. You miscommunicating idiot. “I’ll keep that in mind.” On a whim, you stepped up to him and patted him on the head, the same way he did to you. “Stay safe, kitty cat.”
He caught your hand and held it close to his chest. His gaze bore into you, two scarlet irises focused fully on you. “You do the same, kitten.”
Thrown off by his intensity, you blinked and backed away, pulling your hand gently from his grasp and smiling to hide your sudden nerves. “Of course. Good night.”
“Sweet dreams, darling,” he said, but you were already heading towards your bedroll.
I’m not running away. I’m not.
***
The next morning, everyone headed off to a small rock outcropping that was just outside of Isobel’s barrier. You went to the inn to help out with laundry and potion making, since a shipment of goods had just arrived, and many of the guards had been injured to get the shipment here.
As the day progressed, you could tell something was wrong. The tingling at the base of your spine was growing stronger with every passing minute. In the past, a tingling would just make your mind churn with anxiety, and you usually calmed down after distracting yourself with some chores. That was before you began having these stronger inklings, and their strength kept increasing as you spent more time with your companions.
This time, the feeling would not go away, even after peeling all of the potatoes in the galley.
You stepped out of the Last Light Inn, your gaze turning north towards the spot where Halsin had opened the portal. You weren’t sure how things were going, but your heart kept telling you to go have a look.
Don’t do anything stupid. I’ll be hungry when I return.
You knew it was his roundabout way of telling you to stay safe and hidden away.
Your seal kept tingling. Fine, I’ll just go take a peek.
As you made your way over to the edge of the shield, your heart began to drop. Shadows and the shadow-cursed were swarming a shining portal, covered in crackling lightning. And in front of the portal, the party was fighting desperately, defending it to the last.
You could tell that the spellcasters were down to only cantrips, their power weakening as they grew exhausted. The fighters kept swinging their weapons, but the sheer number of enemies was forcing them back, step by step.
You didn’t see Astarion, and started to peer around, looking for him. It wasn’t until Karlach made a big shove, forcing two shadow-cursed away from her, that you could see a bit beyond. On the ground in the front of the portal, you saw one pale elf, clutching his side.
Your feet began to move before your mind caught up. As soon as you left the safety of the shield, you could feel the shadow curse filling your lungs, but you didn’t care. You had to get to the group.
You had to get to him.
Claws of darkness scratched you as you passed, lines of crimson leaking into your clothes as you took cut after cut. But you pushed through and to everyone’s surprise, made it to the top of the rock overlook.
“What are you doing here?” Karlach yelled as she grabbed your arm and practically tossed you behind her.
You paid her no mind. Immediately kneeling down where Astarion lay, you pulled up your sleeve, exposing one of the deeper cuts on your arm, and forced it into his mouth.
“Drink, dammit,” you cried.
The sounds of the battle behind you became muted as you watched his eyelids flutter. His lips moved, and then through sheer instinct, he latched onto your wound and began to drink. You winced at the sharp pain of his fangs penetrating your skin, the pull of blood into his mouth. But after half a minute, he let you go and opened his eyes.
“You idiot,” he rasped as he sat up. He looked terrible, wounds on every limb, claw marks raking his chest.
“I know,” you replied, and slowly stood up, turning to the shadows.
In the back of your mind, you had a thought.
Closing your eyes, diving into your memories, you recalled that specific song from your mother, the one she had only taught you phonetically. A melody to shield against the long cold nights, a hymn that traveled beyond Evermeet, beyond the Trackless Sea.
It was a song you had sung a thousand times, and nothing had ever happened. But you felt that maybe, just maybe, something would happen if you just sang it one more time.
What if it doesn't work? It's never done anything before.
But it has to. I need it to work.
Taking a deep breath, you imagined a barrier, much like the silvery shield of Isobel, and began to sing.
As if the world suddenly paused, the sounds of battle quieted. You weren’t sure if it was because you were so focused on your song, but it sounded as if the hordes of the undead were moving farther and farther away.
You opened your eyes. A golden aura was before you, pushing back the darkness, giving the others a chance to breathe as the shadow creatures slammed against the shield. With one particularly strong hit, you felt one of your cuts bloom in pain, a burning slice into your skin, and you gasped in agony.
The shield crackled and began to fade.
Oh shit.
Ignoring the pain, you sang, and sang, and sang, until the barrier grew strong and bright once more. Until your voice was hoarse and your throat was raw. Until you felt like you were being flayed alive with each strike, the shield taking its power directly from your body. Your cuts bled, the searing pain intensifying with each passing lyric. But you would not, could not stop your song. It flowed out of you like water over a cliff, unstoppable.
Until finally from behind you, the portal crackled and shattered. You felt a familiar presence behind you.
“Well done,” Halsin said.
Smiling, you ended the song on a single triumphant note.
The shadow cursed had disappeared, and vestiges of the enemy lay around a golden perimeter that slowly faded as the barrier created by your song faded away. You felt exhausted, but also elated. You had helped.
The others turned to you, and they all immediately gave you a strange look.
“What?” you croaked.
Astarion tipped his head towards your reflection in the water. “Take a look at yourself.”
You walked to the edge of the water and gasped. Your ears had grown pointier. Your skin had become tawny brown, and your hair had turned into waves of auburn red, streaked with strands of gold and orange. And your eyes, gods, they glowed like the setting sun. You looked as if the whole of the autumn season had manifested in you.
As your magic faded, you began to look like yourself again, but the image was burned into your memory.
The last memory of your mother as she sang this exact song, her form looking exactly like one of the legends she had told you as a child: The autumn form of the fey eladrin, the folk from the feywilds who spoke and sang in Sylvan, the predecessor of Elvish.
You turned back to the others. There were smiles all around, but you could tell they were definitely tired. Shadowheart pulled out the last arcane potion from her belt and quickly drank it.
“Vos cura!”
A blue glow suffused the area around the group, and everyone felt their wounds heal somewhat.
Except for you. You felt nothing except for Astarion’s bite mark heal on your arm. Curious.
“Let’s head back to camp,” Gale announced, hovering next to Shadowheart, his eyes assessing her condition. “We could all use a rest.”
The others began to walk away with Halsin, who was carrying the boy in his arms. Only Astarion remained by your side, guarding you. He held out his arm to you, as if he was escorting you to a ball.
You smiled. It was a kind gesture, and though you knew he did it to be playful, you also knew that he wouldn’t have offered if he didn’t care.
You reached out for him.
Then your world tilted.
And everything went dark.
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Chapter End Notes: I have been waiting and WAITING to post this chapter, I’ve had the portal portion written since chapter three, just infilling the story to get to this point. I’m so happy to finally share this chapter with you. I hope it was worth the wait! Let me know what you think in the comments!
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