#do i seem calm about this? i'm not

[drawbauchery]

....ok, so

you had sent this:

and i was gonna answer with like, don't worry, the hospital is where he bonds with gonta! here they are being cute!

but no. you just. chose violence and beat me to it a hundred fold and now i'm writhing on the floor biting my own limbs to keep from banshee wailing

#nobutforrealthough #art #danganronpa #bus au #ryoma hoshi #gonta gokuhara #rantaro amami #because he's killing me #'aw shit we nappin? nap time? fuckin aces' #do i seem calm about this? i'm not #i've read this 109 times since i got up this morning #i can't think of anything else #what have you done

[royalarchivist]

I love the QSMP. Not only has it introduced me to many amazing international creators, it's also introduced me to the French and Brazilian community, who are so sweet, funny, and chaotic in their own unique ways. I love seeing fans sharing their culture and learning from one another, and I myself have learned a lot this past year. I think it's incredible how QSMP brings so many different people together – all of us united in our love and passion for this project and its goals.

But passion can often evoke strong emotions, and these strong emotions aren't always positive.

The past few months, I have seen multiple waves of hate, bad-faith generalizations of communities, and racist remarks directed at fellow fans – especially those who are part of the French / Brazilian community. This kind of behavior is inexcusable, and is in direct conflict with the mission of QSMP, which is to break language barriers and unite communities.

We are a global community with a variety of people from different backgrounds. Miscommunications may occasionally occur because of cultural differences and/or language barriers, but we should use these moments as opportunities to learn and engage with other people rather than assuming the worst about them and starting fights.

Although certain issues can be resolved with communication, sometimes it’s better to block and move on. Avoid spreading negativity or hate, and save yourself the headache of interacting with people who are just looking for someone to argue with.

No matter what community we're a part of or what languages we speak, we're all here to have fun. Please remember to be kind to each other. We have more in common than we have in conflict.

#QSMP #mod talk #Additionally: we should avoid stereotyping entire communities for reasons I hope are obvious. #I think everything will work out in the end #I don't typically see this kind of stuff on here but I figured I'd post this anyways since I'm posting it to Twitter too #It's understandable that emotions are high because of everything that's happened to the QSMP community the past few months #but it's very sad to see fans attacking each other #everyone's a bit on edge it seems. I rarely use my personal Twitter but I opened it today and saw some close mutuals snapping at people #then after stepping away and calming down coming back to a conversation and apologizing #it's sad to see everyone in this state #So... comments from the peanut gallery I suppose. I do hope this helps someone though #I don't usually post things like this because frankly- #I don't think every single drama / controversy / whatever necessitates a public statement from every single member of the fandom #but I've been thinking a lot about this #Anyhoo. Hopefully I can start sharing clips again tomorrow. I've been moving the past week and life was hellish #hopefully things ease up a bit now

[wildflowercryptid]

⚠️ spoilers for some year 3 + 4 dialogue with gustafa's child below! ⚠️

[ some of the text in the second image is cut off, the full dialogue is likely meant to be "hold on a second. has gustafa been riding your coattails this whole time?" ]

no, because why is bea so brutal towards gustafa oh my god?? like you're really just gonna ask that question when he's within earshot??? 😭😭😭

#rock 🤝 gustafa <- designated sugarbaby in their relationship #does she talk like this about matt or gordy too or??? #funny ha ha's aside i do think teen bea continuing to talk about gustafa like that would probably lead to them having a fight w/ tris #tris loves gustafa a lot and really respects his passion for music so they're more than happy to provide for him and let him focus on that #so bea's phrasing would probably agitate them in the moment and the situation would steamroll from there #(ya'll know how spats between parents and teenagers can go. 😓) #i can imagine gustafa coming home to see bea slamming the front door behind her and storming off #and then finding tris (who he's rarely seem actually angry before) fuming in their bedroom and starts putting the peices together #tris definitely apologizes to bea for getting angry with her after calming down and talking it out a bit with gustafa #they eventually talk it out together after bea has some time to herself and starts to understand her parents' relationship dynamic more #(it's hardly a one-sided transaction since gustafa keeps tris grounded and makes sure they're not running themself ragged w/ their work.) #maybe it also leads to bea being more curious about what gustafa exactly does as a musician so she starts asking him about it more 🤔 #okay i'm gonna stop rambling in the tags i'm sorry i keep doing this ha ha #i just have a lot of thoughts about these guys and i have to get it out aaaa #story of seasons #bokujou monogatari #a wonderful life #sos gustafa #gustafa (awl) #oc : tris beckenbauer #chara : bea lantos-beckenbauer #🕹 : gamer time #mj.txt #awl spoilers

[thedreadvampy]

guess who's in 🎶troooouble🎶

New Boss does not appreciate my Vile Insubordination (giving an informed opinion in an email chain where she said some factually incorrect things and got called out on it - I said hey yep you're right that what she said isn't true but here's why it's still important to listen to our team)

and now we have to have a Quick Chattette about my Behaviour and Unsatisfactory Response (didn't apologise for being correct)

#red said #fuckin had it tbh #trying to become calm and balanced bc it will not be helpful for me to go in with this fuck you attitude #but. you know. fuuuuuuck you. #i have been doing this job for 2 years with huge success i do not need someone to redesign and micromanage everything i do #you can simply. do your job and let me do mine #instead of undercutting a huge chunk of work we've already done bc you don't know what you're talking about yet #the situation is she emailed without talking to either of us saying an obviously untrue thing which we could easily have corrected her on #the person she emailed came back like hey #that's not true though? #so i popped in like sorry i know this isn't a conversation I've been closely involved it but you're right and that's actually a whole thing #yeah the thing she said doesn't exist does in fact exist but we've been trying to phase out of for years and what's left is legacy stuff #and that's part of why we're unsure about making room for more of it to happen #felt reasonable. i was in the thread to begin with bc my opinion was being asked #so she was like oh why did you do that we probably should have talked about it first as a team #and I'm like YEAH WE PROBABLY SHOULD HAVE but given that you DIDN'T and have inaccurate info then dropped offline #i assumed we weren't doing Team Responses #and she's NOT HAPPY with how i replied. i phrased it more politely than that but not by much #but you know what man? seems like a you problem. #sorry I'm a Quaker respect for authority is against my religion

[marzipanandminutiae]

Marzi how do you not die of frustration dealing with the most self important people on the planet flocking to your posts

In this case? By being secure in the knowledge that I'm right.

Also, you know, I'm dealing with my new landlady being passive-aggressive about furniture she offered to move out of the room I'm renting, due to the whole "nobody told me it was rented furnished until three days ago and I already bought furniture from FB marketplace" situation.

#ask #anon #personal #for anyone who's not up to speed: the Craigslist listing did not say it was rented furnished #there was one question in the application about 'do you have large furniture' but since unfurnished rooms are the default here #and again no mention in the ad #I assumed like Piano rather than Bed and said no #then when I went to see the place the previous tenant said 'any of this furniture can stay if you need it' which #kind of implies that any of it can GO #so I dilligently combed through FB marketplace for some cheap antiques and put down deposits. my friend rented a uhaul #to help me move them soon #and then the landlady said something about 'my' bed in an email and it all became clear #she offered to move some things to accomodate my furniture and seemed very calm about it in the moment #but now I get an email about how they've been 'struggling' for the last several days to accomodate my situation #and it's 'troublesome' #(to be clear I offered to help when I arrived) #and my furniture isn't coming for another few days so the moving of objects wasn't urgent. and I'm happy to assist however I can

[miallurk]

In these days i realized i like art and writing and creating and shopping and taking walks and talking to people and cleaning and helping and studying and doing things but i'm just. too stressed, tired and burned out to do them. How great!

#i am losing my sanity day by day #drowning myself in the nearby lake seems better and better every day #why am i even writing this i have literally no mutuals or even people who'd care about #don't mind me crying myself to sleep haha #ooooh look at this pathetic baby. sitting in their little bed crying stupid tears. i should at least get tissues now while my crying isn't #fuck history fuck school and fuck me i quess #am i gonna start treating this as an actual blog and make a sideblog for reblogs? who knows! certainly not me; stay tuned for the story! #i'm gonna go and just let it all out into a pillow #vent ig #my mom is blasting holiday music in the other room lol #nice to have a whatever the fuck im having while “jingle bells” plays #at least i'm not hearing mariah carey ig #anyway i've probably hadn't been taking care of myself lately it has been worse despite me promoting it to everyone who needs #when i vented last time and it wasn't taken seriously so woop #anyway imma go try to calm myself and back to my notes i go #please gods what did i do to deserve thi s shit. fuck you #i hate it here i really do. i hate when these people talk to me i hate them. i at least can be sorta accquaitances with one but they just. #all stare and laugh? i actually can't. like i'm some fucking clown and laughing stock. just kill me at this point. i have been enduring this #for YEARS and suddenly i'm being a little bitch about it?? what the fuck. why am i so mushy all of a sudden. being shown an ounce of respect #and care made me expect it more? fuck #i'm just setting myself up for failure. i am just a giant loser and failure of a person. #everything seems so fucking hard. and pointless. i am tearing my rotten little heart apart with this. i am once again grieving things #long ago and things i never had. my everything has to be pleasing to an outsider #my value is my suffering. am i breaking enough? is this beautiful to look at #at my self destruction? i hate myself. i treat others so cruelly. i am a horrible fucking person. #my problems are not their burden - i forced it on them. wept like a baby because she left me. and what happened in the end? my paranoia got #to me. i left them. i fucking. i fid the thing i was afraid of being done to me. #this is showing so many issues. #so many things wrong with me. i shouldn't even be alive by this point - i wasn't supposed to survive past 12 #i am being forced to do this every day. someone please just end my fu king suffering

[tasmanianstripes]

Maybe it's the result of my main fandom for the majority of my life being one where canon just genuinely doesn't exist, where there are so many different canons and literally any sort of interpretation of a single character is correct and can range from a moronic maniac with a chainsaw to a depressed old asshole boss, but

Literally who gives a fuck about canon?

Especially when the character is practically a blank slate or if it's an AU

Like, I'm sorry, but if you're butthurt about a mischaracterisation of a fictional character in an Alternative Universe then I don't think you understand what an AU is

#thylacines can talk #Maybe that's the reason I do not have the same violent reaction to mischaracterisation 99% of fandom spaces seems to have #I genuinely think that getting butthurt over somebody not writing a fictional character exactly how they appear in canon is the stupidest #most juvenile pet peeve you could ever have. Literally WHY do you care so much? It's words on a screen. Calm down. #I think it's only a problem when you believe that it's canon or try to shove your own interpretation of a character or AUs onto everybody #else. Otherwise...literally who cares? Somebody else treating characters like dolls is not hurting me. I'm not about to get legitimately #annoyed over fictional characters in a children's cat book. Unless it's like. Bigoted. But then I criticise the person's beliefs not a #goddammed characterisation of a fictional character. #In the fandom I was in most of my life a trigger-happy clown with a chainsaw canon and an old deppressed asshole boss were seen as the same #character and only had like. One design detail in common. And literally nobody batted an eye. You could write a dynamic between two #characters being incredibly hateful and toxic and somebody else could write them as old friends or an old married couple and both of these #interpretations would be equally canon. A single guy could have two wildly different personalities and backstories and he'd still be #treated like the same character as long as the two looked vaguely similar physically wise. Sure there were interpretations of characters #that were more popular than others but literally the only people who would treat one specific interpretation as canon and shove that #interpretation onto everybody else would be people who came from different kinds of fandoms and let me tell you. They were annoying as fuck #So coming from that kind of fandom into more generic mainstream fandoms feels like such a culture shock. Genuinely cannot comprehend why #people care so much. #'oh this character is so far from canon they might as well make an oc' okay...cool...and? #Maybe they don't want to make an oc?? I mean come on. It's fictional characters. You're an adult. It's not a fucking English class #People don't come to fandoms to study book literacy they come here to have fun. Literally WHO CARES if somebody's interpretation of a #character has only name and looks common with the canon version. WHO CARES. ITS WORDS ON THE SCREEN. Who are they hurting if they're just #making AUs in their own corner and not shoving it in anyone's face? #Idk I just see a characterisation I don't agree with and just go oh. Kinda weird but go off. And move on. #This got longer than I meant it to but whatever #I mean if you have that pet peeve but aren't an asshole about it. It's also whatever. That opinion also doesn't hurt anybody. It's only #people who act so butthurt about it and shit on other people having fun that I have a problem with. If you put it on your own blog and #criticise that sort of content in your own space instead of coming to somebody and going 'hey. I don't like what you're doing'. Then I #couldn't care less. Again. That's kinda weird but go off #It's kind of like. I like horror but I dont care if you dont like horror and talk about it in your own space. But I'm gonna care if you #go up to horror fans and go 'hey I think horror sucks' or 'I dont like horror so you shouldn't either'.

[pttucker]

Lee Jihye watched me and grabbed the Cut Medicine like she was frustrated. "Give it to me. You can't apply it to your back." Lee Jihye placed the Cut Medicine on my wounds. "Be gentle. I might die if you press hard against it." "Don't be a crybaby. By the way, were you this small?" "My muscle mass was just reduced a bit." "Your shoulders look similar to mine?" My pride was hurt so I took back the Cut Medicine. No, I tried to take it back but failed. It was because Lee Jihye was more powerful than me.

He's so tiny and weak without his stats. 😭

Jihye even has to set up his tent for him. 😭😭

He's ABSOLUTELY FUCKED if he runs into an angry Joonghyuk.

#ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh #I'm hoping that yjh will have calmed down a little by now #even if everybody is screaming 'Divorce Arc!' in the notes 😬 #like he seemed vaguely??? worried??? about metatron's plans for Kim Dokja??? maybe??? #and he left him alone when he woke up with dokja passed out beside his bed in the infirmary #(this is all my wishful thinking) #but now I'm kind of worried that yjh might fight him just to relieve some frustration but maybe not realize just HOW depowered dokja is #and possibly cause him serious harm when he more intended to like...gently kick his ass #I do absolutely love Jihye taking care of her suddenly pitiful leader though ngl that's the best thing ever #dokja needs to have more moments of his party taking care of HIM for once #orv novel chapter 359 #orv spoilers #orv liveblog #omniscient reader's viewpoint #orv #yjh #kdj #ljh

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm pretty sure at this point the person that has appeared the most in my dreams/nightmares (apart from people I actually know/used to know in real life) is Jarvis Johnson. it happens a lot, he'll just randomly show up all the time. like last night he was in a (particularly gruesome and unpleasant) nightmare that I had. didn't make any sense but it was nice to get a break for a second :)

#I like when my brain does this #just. oh yeah this is pretty awful. here have A Guy You Like #it does help a little #and it does kinda make sense that he would show up a lot. I find him very calming #there's also been lots of dreams where I was friends with him. and many where I hug him. it's very weird because besides him this really #doesn't happen a lot with anyone else lol #like I've had maybe three dreams that (characters played by) John Larroquette showed up in. and I spend a stupid amount of time thinking #about him lol #anyway I like Jarvis he's great and I'm glad my brain seems to like him too haha #also. that nightmare last night was one of the more brutal ones (like. dozens of young people/teenagers getting killed by a teacher that I #haven't seen in 15 years and who wasn't even that bad. it was just really rough. so yeah getting like a tiny moment of aww hey what's he #doing here that makes no sense! is always nice :') and it's good because then I tend you remember that part a bit more than the rest.) #*to #unfortunately this makes watching his videos (especially sad boyz) a little weird sometimes. like. hey that's my friend. wait no he's not. #I've just dreamed that over a dozen times it's not actually real (unfortunately) #personal

[skrunksthatwunk]

fuck that last fight against nightmare boooooo this shit is actually so stupid and evil and i don't like it >:(

#it's. eugh. it's. FUCK #i don't like it it's so bad i've done it like 10 times now #eughhhhhhhghhhnghn #dmc #dmc1 #i still ahven't beaten it either.. sheeshhh #and i have to fight the stupid ice lizard things before a lot of the attempts too and half the time i can't dodge their jump thing because #i'm mid-combo so any indication of the wind-up to it can't actually be reacted to bc i'm busy getting hit or hitting #such that by the time the move is finished i literally can't get out of the way. often a roll isn't even enough range and they stand next t #each other so one roll's basically all i have time for anyway. sigh #whateverrr. this blows. this blows actual literal severe ass. ughhhhghh #dante. dante i believe in you i believe in us we can do this. but FUCK YOU NIGHTMARE YOU STUPID OOZE #arrrhghrhharzagraaaaa #sigh.. look the vulnerable points shouldn't only be available during 100% attacks in that area such that you take crazy damage if you #actually try to attack the part you have to attack before it goes away. and i've gotten so close ONLY FOR THE SECOND PHASE TO INITIATE AND #IMMEDIATELY KILL ME. BROOOOO WHAT ARE YOU DOINGG #look maybe i'm a pissbaby who's bad at video games but this pissbaby's got feelings #i should probably try a different weapon combo... sigh... #i did so bad on my alastor attempt that i've been using ifrit (i also like how fast the devil time is given the brevity of the weak spot's #appearances) but maybe sparda would be a better choice. but i like the devil trigger. i gotta listen to the song y'know. it's all about the #devil trigger babyy it's all about the devil time. and sparda's got nothing. maybe i should use that gun that looks like the goop #like. like is that a hint? idk i'd think if they were made of the same stuff it would be less effective #and i don't like that it seems to stunt your devil gauge. but if i'm using sparda anyway in for a penny in for a pound ig #whatever. rant over. i am. Calm (<- lying). so i'm gonna try again #and if i get mad again i'll do hw or something

[daffythefox]

those small jokes and jabs some people will make at you when you’re friends with them like. they just wear me down so much. like I could have a face up for multiple hours and be relatively fine and then they could start doing that (like. I mess up slightly and they make a joke at my expense, or someone points out something I’m sensitive about for a joke, or someone makes a joke where the punchline is “hey you seem like you’re barely holding in your emotions) all of a sudden it’s nine times the work to be out and social without acting like a total dick (shooting back with something that plays on their insecurities as well so they sill stop pressing me) or having to leave because I’m about to break down, which is incredibly embarrassing and makes me feel like I’m just making a show so other people will feel guilty (not that I’m worried they will feel guilty, I’m worried they will think I will want them to feel guilty and that they will see me as lesser for that instead). “get something you’re fine with people joking about so they will make jokes about that and it won’t hit you as hard” why are you entitled to being able to make jokes at my expense? maybe I don’t want you to make fun of me at all!

#actually npd #anything I can perceive as criticism #also when you're in that state and people will like. go easy on you or make consolations so you feel better #that makes me feel SO MUCH WORSE #like just fucking treat me normal and I'll calm down #no 'hey are you ok?? you seem really wound up :(' in front of EVERYBODY #and I'll have to either fake good enough to be able to convince the others I'm fine (which is impossible #bc it's in their heads that you're not fine and at that point you probably don't have a good enough face to fool everybody) #or I'll take a jab at them like 'really? i seem wound up? gosh! you have amazing observational skills. someone needs to get you a medal!' #which subtly tells them to DROP THE SUBJECT #bc if you don't I'll CONTINUE BEING RUDE TO YOU #no but sometimes that also doesn't work and they keep pressing and that's when I have to step away or bluntly change the subject #and then i also hold a grudge against them for doing so when they were probably just concerned about my well-being #they just didn't get the (albeit relatively obvious) social cues #that's not their fault but it is also incredibly annoying in the moment bc it is causing me to continue spiraling #a bit of a vent #also merry christmas #me when i

[wavernot4love]

oh buddy i am currently having a Moment because what do you Mean i see fall out boy again in ten days .... ten days ,,,, we are almost into single digits oh this has crept up on me SO soon

#also some folks talked to pete & patrick last night after the show it seems so ??? i may hang around after in hopes of that? #oh i am Plotting dude #i also still have so much stuff 2 make i haven't even started bracelets #also may do stickers again since they were a hit during tourdust and that was fun #i am so excited to meet up with new folks 2 trade etc i had so much fun with the community last year at my shows!! #also saw someone post about dancing in the back of the floor at their show like behind the seats and this had me Thinking... #perhaps my 2023 days of pitting to calm before the storm can continue after all #albany folks please come two step with me (unironically) #but dude i am so so stoked on this show #everything about it #i love albany and i'm staying overnight w my cousin i'm so excited 2 make a trip out of this #also stoked 2 see jimmy again since i was so far back for their set @ adjacent last year #also still not entirely giving up on msg and or pittsburgh #if i miraculously come across a close floor ticket for one of those for an incredibly reasonable price oh i am there babey #fobposting #fob posting #i cannot remember which of these is my fob tag #wavernot4love gets 2 the gig

[sayheykid]

i love zegras as much as the next guy but i truly think that mason mctavish is the most interesting young talent on the ducks right now. mark my words, within the next five years we will see him get an A, and he will become captain within his career

#i'm not a ducks expert so take this with a grain of salt #but i think the team is in a perfect transition period where they both have a lot of veteran leadership and really promising prospects #they said at the game last night that the ducks just got ranked the 2 prospect/future development team #so in my opinion that bodes really well for mctavish #yes zegras is the face of the franchise and that's fine i don't think mctavish needs to be #because he seems like a very calm and collected lead by example type #and i have been absolutely ASTOUNDED by his actual level of play like hello!!! #he's very consistent. has proved himself capable of staying on the top lines. physical forward which i like #and being the youngest player on the team hasn't phased him at all #plus i think the ducks like developing their own talent and leadership and keeping them for a long time (look at getzlaf for one) #so unless he gets traded because the team is trying to get good i'm not too worried about him leaving #especially because the cycle of the ducks being bad -> getting high draft picks -> further developing the farm has worked alright #also! he's 20!! so it's not like there's a huge rush for him to become captain but i do think it will happen eventually #i just love him so much and i know i'm a little biased but i fully believe that i'm correct #when i'm right in a couple years come back to me #mason mctavish #anaheim ducks #hockey

[femmespoiled]

Any handmade crafts you love to do?

Hmm, in general that's something I envy my mom's ability with, she's really good with sewing, I tried to learn, when I was a kid, but it wasn't my thing. I have been really interested and curious about soap making though

#ask #I've been buying some artisanal soap from this lady on yt and shes very sweet to show and talk about the process even provide her recipe #she makes such pretty soap. i want to do it too. it seems so calming #I've been doing some research about it and I'm a dyke so i should be able to do it you know

[chamerionwrites]

Most of the time I am probably too accommodating and hate conflict to a fault but occasionally the Zero Fucks Left version of me emerges, and I'm fairly sure 99% of people who have witnessed it find it Jekyll-and-Hyde unsettling.

Which is almost certainly a character flaw on my part! But I don't entirely know what to do about it, because I'm pretty sure it's the "too accommodating" part that's the character flaw and while I've been working on that half my life, and honestly gotten much better at it, that isn't the half of the equation that people are freaked out by.

#i try to be reasonable and restrained even when i'm out o patience so it's not like i suddenly turn into an aggressive shouty asshole #people just seem to feel blindsided by what from their perspective is an abrupt and extreme shift #from 'chill to the point of being a pushover about a lot of things' to 'utterly unyielding about select things' #which i do get but idk i still just find a lot of the things people get irritable about too petty to waste my energy on #i also think that occasionally someone deserves to be told politely but firmly that they're being a dick and should knock it off #I don't see how these things are mutually incompatible! #anyway this post brought to you by the Heated Conversation after my mother asked why i hadn't been to church since i moved #and i said 'because life is too short to spend every sunday with the worst people i know' which was admittedly v blunt #but also (1) not untrue (2) probably more lowkey than 'let's hash out all my religious trauma at 7pm on a monday night' #i thought my tone was calm and matter of fact and regretful even! but apparently that's a v hateful thing to say #idk what to tell you it's a small town and the people in church on sunday literally are the worst people i know here #sure it's not very nice but i didn't say it TO them or even anyone who knows them and i'm perfectly capable of being polite in passing #i just don't want to hang around listening to them sing worship songs and then get invited to sunday lunch gossip sessions yknow? #sometimes i don't have the energy to be diplomatic man. and imo the scandalized response has less to do w the actual content of what i said #than the fact that normally i probably would have said it less bluntly #the real problem here is that if you ask loaded questions sometimes you may get answers that you dislike #walking away from omelas #my posts

[wrenhavenriver]

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#my mom has covid #i'm trying to be calm about it #she seems to be doing okay atm and she's doubled vaxxed + double boostered #but she's also 66 with high blood pressure so. i worry #i'm not feeling super hot myself and we've been in close enough proximity the last few days that i'm wondering if i need to take a test too #and to top it all off we're supposed to be moving to our new place on the 28th #🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 #this is not an ideal time for Everything to Happen So Much