Rant over Annihilation by Jeff Vandermeer:
Note: I wrote this while drunk months ago and my drunk self accidentally saved this as a draft instead of posting it. Against my better judgement, here's how bad I was obsessing over Annihilation, with the correction of the horrenous whiskey induced spelling mistakes. Spoilers ahead (obviously)
I was thinking back to the book, trying to figure out what about it hit me like a damn train, even after years and multiple rereads.
And i think part of it is just.... idk, there's something about the calmness of the biologist when she realizes she's contaminated from the spore inhalation. There's something about how she accepts it and the changes after it that just speaks to me. It's not a morbid acceptance, it doesn't come across as just her choosing to accept it for the saking of keeping her emotions in control. This acceptance of hers is less morbid and more like a... relief.
She just accepts it, and as she and nature merges, there's this feeling that Area X is not as dangerous to her as it is to everyone else because she's meant to be there. She is this reminder that nature and human are not separate, and we see it from the way she's always been so deeply connected to nature, more than anything else society could provide to her.
Her career choice isn't just an interest to her but an excuse to be connected to nature as much as she can, like a person who chooses to become a surgeon not because they want to help people but because it gives them an excuse to cut them open. I mean for fuck sakes, she kept getting removed from any research projects she would work on because she would just hyperfixate on the environment surrounding her and get lost instead of doing her actual job.
The biologist has always belonged to Area X. She's always felt like an entity that transcended humanity and connected to the lifecycles around her. That's why the husband highlights in his journal that he would've understood her better when he volunteered for the 11th expedition.
So when she inhales those spores, and remains calm, and accepts her changes all so easily, it gives the impression that now that feeling of hers, that feeling that she's meant to be in the remote, in the wild- all of that isn't a feeling anymore, it's physical, it's real, it's irreversible and you can't ignore it or brush it off or undermine it.
She transcends and becomes Area X, and it's what she always wanted, what she was always meant to become, what she's always been.
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Chev's more demonic qualities for munday <3
close-ups + details under the cut! vvv
Chev's usual go-to form when she's fighting. this is maybe about 75% of her demon form. she usually doesn't bring out her tail, but will use it for more range, or will use it to restrain someone like a snake constricting it's prey.
here, Chev is coming down from a "feral" state. This can be caused by two things: not eating enough human meat (usually at least twice a month), or eating uncooked human meat. This can last up to 3 days.
this is just to show off her teeth a little, and adding small things to her design! she mostly has straight hair now even though it's naturally curly (straightens it), made her eyes a little more saturated brown, and added a mole to her chin
okay i kinda cheesed this one by drawing her silhouette instead of actually drawing her lmao. when she goes into a blind rage, her teeth grow long and thin kind of like an angler fish, and she has a second mouth right under her chin. It's unclear what it's purpose is (or if it even has one)
she's just havin' a silly lil treat :3c she's an absolute FIEND for french fries. one time her coworkers brought her a whole fast food bag of fries just to see if she could eat the whole thing in one shift. She did.
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ccknsider
....vonsieer.... consider............... Liu is a FREAK. That manhas been in love w/ his brother since day
.....not since day 1 bc i doubt hes as bad as jacob from twilight
bit hes been in love w/ jeff for soooooo long. Passing it off as admiration. Bitch ur enamored, get REAL you want to wear his skin.
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