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brehaaorgana · 4 months

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ADHD money/budgeting system I'm currently using for my benefit is going well (I've been using it for like half a year now?), and I wanna recommend it.

You Need a Budget is EXCELLENT. 10/10 do recommend. Uhhh rambling about it and my generic disclaimers + gushing extensively under the cut but TL;DR I think it's great for ADHD ppl, I've used it for 6+ months now and I find it super SUPER helpful. also weirdly fun.

DISCLAIMERS:

Budgeting helps you understand/know your money, it can't make money appear where there is none.

Everyone should learn to budget even if you don't have much money (especially then)

This is NOT a magic trick solution. Just like everything else, it is an assistive tool. This is one of those adult things we can't simply opt out of without negative consequences, though.

My advice is based on something I am currently able to do. That is, I can spend an amount of money on this specific thing that works well for me. If you have no extra money to spend then previously I was tracking things in a notebook. So you can still do this.

I believe Dave Ramsey is a fundie fraud/hack and no one should listen to him about money.

DID YOU KNOW THEY CANCELLED MINT???

Okay? OKAY.

Ahem.

You Need a Budget is EXCELLENT.

It is called YNAB for short. The first 34 days are your free trial, and that is my referral link. If anyone uses it and then signs up for a subscription, we both get a month free. Also you can share a subscription with up to six people (account owner can see everything but individuals can pick and choose what they share amongst each other) so like...idk your whole polycule can be on one account. Or your kids. Whatever.

If you are a student, it's free for a year. If you aren't, a subscription is $99 for a year (paid all at once) or $14.99 monthly, which is equivalent to paying Amazon prime. Go cancel Prime and get this instead tbh.

They got a whole article just on ynab and ADHD. They also have like...a big variety of ways to access their info? They have a book, podcast episodes, YouTube videos, blog posts, q&A's, free live workshops you can join (you can request live captioning), emails they can send (if you want) a wiki, and so on. They got workshops on all kinds of topics!!

So whatever ends up working for your brain. It also has a matching app.

If you lost Mint this year they have a gajillion things for moving from Mint.

Also they have a "got five minutes?" Page which has a slider so you can decide how much attention/time you have before going on lol:

They only have 4 rules of the budget, they're simple and practical, and it doesn't get judgey or like...mean about your spending.

1. Give every dollar a job 2. Embrace your true expenses 3. Roll with the punches 4. Age your money.

THEN THEY BREAK THESE DOWN INTO SMALL STEPS FOR YOU! They even have a printable! Also these rules are great because there's built in expectations that things WILL HAPPEN and it's NOT all or nothing with a fear of total collapse into failure. Reality and The Plan don't always align, especially if you have ADHD. So it's directing our energy towards the true expenses and not clinging to The Plan!! over reality.

You can automate a lot of shit (you can sync with your bank accounts just like mint, but also automate tagging the categories of regular expenses/transactions). And if for whatever reason you accidentally do something that makes the budget look weird or wrong:

A) you can usually fix it somehow OR b) they have like, a button you can press that gives you a clean slate and archives the previous version of the budget for you.

So if you forget for a few weeks or months, or accidentally input something wildly wrong, or just don't want to look at a really terrible month anymore and feel like you need a fresh start you can usually either fix it or start fresh which is really nice.

The app also (for whatever reason) scratches my itch to have things like...have incentives or little game-like goals in a way mint never did? I don't know why. Filling up the bars or putting money into the categories to cover my expenses is satisfying lmao. You can also make a big wish expense category for all the fun shit you want, and fund it whenever you can and then you can see the little bar go up and that's fun.

Anyways I've been using it for like 6+ months now and I think it's really helped me when I use it.

#adhd #adhd money #adult adhd #ynab #adhd blogging

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43sparrows · 3 years

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happy valentine's day 🥰 i know it probably doesn't mean much coming from someone with social anxiety so bad they won't even come off anon, but the amount you've written today is amazing ☺️ i could never lol

also. what about one where the reader and five have been kind of tense and arguing (nothing relationship wrecking just annoying) so as like a v-day prank she replaces all of his stuff with pink sparkly versions. this has been in my head all week but i just can't get five's character right like you 🥺

1. as someone with mental health battles of their own, never think that the fact you have to fight for what comes easy for neurotypical people is cause to devalue yourself. a happy valentine’s day and request means a lot whether there’s a name attached or not.

2. I feel like everything I’ve written today has been subpar, so thank you so much for the compliment. I needed it!

You were dating a complete asshole.

You knew this before you started dating him of course, but there were moments where you forgot. Where you saw a soft side or a kindness to him, and thought maybe the assholery was just a facade--a guard he put up to keep people from getting to know the real him, the vulnerable him.

And then he always went ahead and reminded you that nope, he was an asshole through and through.

This week he’d really gone all out though. Conversations had been terse and brief, and if you said even one thing slightly wrong he’d scoff and go off on his own for hours.

You’d complained about your boss’ decree that there’d be no Valentine’s Day celebration or decorations and he’d gone ahead and taken his side instead of yours. If he’d even kept his mouth shut and just ignored you, that would have been preferable.

And while you knew that things were tense right now--that there was a mission that was taking longer than expected and not going as planned and that the more time he spent attempting to coordinate his siblings the more irritable he got--you’d think he’d learn a few coping strategies and adult the fuck up.

And sure maybe you were also a tiny bit blame because rather than acknowledging that this was only temporary and it really wasn’t about you, you let it get to you.

But most of the blame lay on Five and his ability to absolutely wreck your mood going into your favorite holiday. Not that you intended to let that asshole ruin Valentine’s day for you. You would enjoy your Valentine’s Day even if you weren’t going to spend it the way you would have chosen.

It was a simple plan really. Petty and stupid as well, but well worth the lost sleep.

You spent the night systematically removing each trace of Five from you shared apartment and replacing it with a garish, pink, sparkly object instead.

His shirts? All with cartoony Valentine’s Day prints. Same with his ties.

His travel mug? A glittery fuchsia monstrosity with the words “Hot Stuff” written large, looping cursive.

All of his pens and notebooks were packed away and replaced with glitter pens with feathers at the top and Valentine’s Day notebooks with increasingly bad puns.

I'm bananas for you.

You're one in a melon.

Let's avocuddle.

You decorated the apartment with every single vaguely Valentine’s Day related item you could find across three different stores.

And then, because you were petty and mad and wanted him to know that this was very much on purpose, you wrote him a card--Happy Valentine’s day to my second favorite asshole--and stuck it to the coffee machine before walking out the door to beat the rush to work.

“What the fuck?” Five appeared in your cubicle, and the rest of your co-workers looked up at him, hands clasping over their mouths to muffle snorts and giggles at the sight of him.

“Oh, did you do this for me?” you asked with fake sincerity, reaching out to smooth his heart speckled tie and Valentine’s Day Snoopy shirt. “You didn’t have to.” Your smile turned positively devilish as Five glared at you.

You could see the frustration building up in him so that he was actually shaking. “Everything,” he ground “is fucking pink.”

You looked from your left to your right with exaggerated confusion at the grey walls of your cubicle.

“Y/N-” he started before cutting himself off with a quick look over to your co-workers who were still staring on in interest. He took your hand and pulled you with him towards the elevators and out of view of everyone else.

“Why?” Five pushed the word through ground teeth, and the smile you gave him was very much genuine.

“I wanted to celebrate my favorite holiday,” you shrugged.

“And we couldn’t have just...done dinner?”

You scoffed. “With how you’ve been over the last week? I’m not taking you out into public.”

“How I’ve been?” he repeated, and you rolled your eyes.

“You’ve been a dick five. A grade A asshole. Anytime I ask question you’re jumping down my throat, and if I want to do something you pull the plug immediately. I wanted to have some fun, so--” you gestured at him.

To your surprise Five sighed and shook his head, his shoulders slumping a bit. “Ok, I deserve this. I’m sorry my siblings--”

You made a buzzer noise.

“I’m sorry I’ve been stressed because of--”

You made another buzzer noise.

“I’m sorry I’ve been an asshole.”

You pointed a finger at him, gesturing that he’d gotten it correct and smiled. “Wait here.”

You returned in two minutes with one of his normal shirts, ties, and jacket and passed it over to him. “Here.”

“Thank you,” he said, accepting them.

“But you’re not done paying for your behavior,” you said, holding up an accusatory finger, and he nodded. “You’ve got a lot of work ahead of you tonight if you really want to make it up to me.”

A sly smile crossed Five’s lips. “I look forward to it.”

#five hargreeves x reader #number five x reader #number 5 x reader #five hargreeves #valentine's day imagine #number five #number 5 #Anonymous

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plague-of-insomnia · 3 years

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I totally get your point. Like... the whole feed your creators, we're starving, thing started to get momentum, then it was pushed back by people doing a mix of bringing up valid concerns, like, some people have social anxiety and struggle with commenting because of that, but then it got into... creators are ungrateful for voicing that they need interaction and :/

It takes a lot of emotional real estate to say, no, I should be getting feedback on my things that I spent hours doing too and everyone who is pushing back and claiming that real estate is doing such a good job. It's incredibly disheartening to spent hours, weeks, months, years, working on a project and then people can't even be bothered to hit a kudos button.

Like, I'm not super popular, and I write niche things and shorter things, which both get less hits, and even less feedback. But when my most popular fic, which sits at 2k hits, only has 89 kudos, not even comments, just hitting a button kudos, it's aggravating and makes me feel unappreciated.

My most kudos'd fic has ~725 hits and 172 kudos. My most popular fic is ranked fifth for kudos, fourth for that fandom. (The other three have 955 hits, 116 kudos and 642 hits, 103 kudos and 769 hits, 99 kudos. A fraction of 2k hits.)

And the fic, although it leaves a lot to be desired, isn't even bad, so it's not clicking out because it's hot garbage lol. It's about average quality, because it's five years old and I grew a lot as a writer. I just do not get it lol, and looking at and comparing stats like that really drags out how lacking engagement is.

Thankfully, on tumblr, most of y'all leave comments on the post or in tags, which I love and appreciate and save each one

{In reference to this post}

@gabedemon, I apologize for taking awhile to respond to this as I was trying to collect my thoughts because I know this is a hot-button issue and I really don’t want to make anyone think I’m trying to attack them personally or anything.

I honestly was so relieved to get this ask because tbf that post pissed me off.

I’m understanding but I’ve already done just about everything that I can to be accommodating, and I still don’t get many comments.

I know this isn’t just my problem, because I know that more popular writers who write more “mainstream” stuff have also had issues with lack of feedback/interaction.

I have 15 works on AO3 right now (not counting 2 bc they’re not really only mine), and only FOUR have more than 100 kudos. Only one has over 200.

I’m aware that what I write isn’t for everyone. I tend to be interested in more niche/fandom-divergent topics and I love writing rarepairs. I’m also painfully aware that I have been unable to post much writing at all, and none on AO3 in several months.

But I’ll admit that it’s not only the lack of comments, but poor interaction on tumblr that has made me increasingly frustrated. It’s such a struggle for me to write anything right now, and I’m always so happy and proud when I am able to share something here even if it’s just a little taste, only to get almost no reblogs for my writing.

For example, for my most recent snippets and such that I’ve posted lately, these are my stats:

6 likes / 4 reblogs (50% of which are me)

6 likes/ 4 reblogs (75% are me)

18 likes/ 7 reblogs (29% are me)

31 likes / 8 reblogs (25% are me)

16 likes/ 13 reblogs (46% are me)

19 likes/ 12 reblogs (17% are me) - this one is from last year

I’m super grateful for the people who have continued to support me and be excited about my work despite my limitations over the past year, but at the same time, I’ve become really frustrated by how few people in the fandom bother to reblog my writing.

I have tried my hardest since joining the fandom 3 years ago to be as supportive as I can of other creators, and I know I’m not churning out the main OTP content, but I still feel really disappointed when I can’t even get a RB of a snippet or ficlet.

I don’t write for comments and I don’t support others because I want something out of it.

But after awhile, not getting that support back, even with something as simple as a RB, starts to wear.

I know the kuro fandom has been pretty dead (especially on tumblr) lately, and I’m really appreciative of those who DO regularly interact with my posts, send asks, reblog, etc.

I really have been putting off saying most of this for a long time because I didn’t want it to think like I was trying to be a whiny, entitled brat or anything... maybe this response doesn’t even make sense or came off awful despite my best attempts.

And I’m sorry if any of this comes off as manipulative or guilt tripping or anything as that isn’t my intent (and part of why I’ve stayed silent about this more or less for months), but seeing that post just reminded me all over again.

#poi answers #gabedemon #commenting #support creators #not sure how to tag this #wonder if people will unfollow me for this #long post

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alesreadings · 3 years

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Crave by Tracy Wolff.

2.5 stars.

“There’s not much to be afraid of when you’ve already lost everything that matters.”

I'm warning you: if you haven't read the book and don't want any spoilers, don't read further, because my review is filled with spoilers and sarcasm. I am conflicted with this book. I hated it, it was cringey and the romance was ugh (but I shelved as romance, AND as "this shit has no romance"), the characters were stupid as fuck and the plot was not interesting but predictable, and the villain, oMG, WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT??? However, it was fast paced. It took me a while because I was on a reading slump and having constant breakdowns, lol. Anyhow, it amazed me how quick I read this book and how fast many chapters went... Which is good, because my reading slump was stick to me, and I guess I gotta say thanks to this book ¿? Ok, let's start the review! Grace lost her parents due a mysterious accident (as your typical avergage normal YA girl) and she has no more family, except her uncle, who lives in Alaska and runs an Academy. So, Grace moves on to Alaska to live with him and her cousin, Macy. Everything is normal, until Grace realizes that something is not right. Surprise! Vampires, dragons, witches and shapeshifters are real! And she might be one of them! Plot: It was predictable as fuck. I could guess many things that were going to happen and I wasn't surprised. Also, there were many plotholes, that left me with many many many questions that were not answered in the entire book. Lia killing Grace's parents has no sense. I mean, beside of being senseless, it's stupid and has no point. No one could saw that coming (let me explain you why before you think "uhm, yeah, well, that's the point of a plot twist") because there was no hint that Lia had something to do with it. Lia is barely in the book, and appears only when it is convenient for Grace, not to give us hints that hello! she is the "villain". Lia being the villain is a crime. I'd rather be a good villain for this book. I mean, I get it, you want your "mate" *insert gags* back and you're suffering, but, sweetie, why you didn't kill Grace inmediately? It was ridiculous and lame. Why Grace was left alive? What specie does she belong? Is Hudson alive? Why is she a gargoyle now? Why we had Jaxon's pov? (I dind't read them all tho, lmao) What was the real purpose of Lia for wanting Grace, a simple human, to her sacrifice? Will Grace have some braincells in the second book? We'll never know. Also, I think everything goes really quick in the span of 2/3 weeks. And I mean it: everything. Characters: Oh, this one is gonna be amazing. Get ready. Grace: I always liked to think: "what would happen if I find out that vampires are real? how would I react?" and the answer it's totally the opposite to what Grace did. Grace isn't smart, let's face it. Any of the mc with vampires involved is it. They're more interested on the hot dark haired guy who's telling them to stay the fuck away from them because, they're dangerous. *stares at Edward Cullen* But, the girl is drooling for the vampire since the moment they make eye contact and then it's insta love. uGH. I mean, Jaxon is telling you to stay away from him, to scare you and in the first moment you're touching him because why not? he's hot and totally not like the other guys you've met before, and oh, also the scar that makes him look like a true fucking bad boy. Yeah, no thanks. For some reason, she's the one who summons problems and Jaxon is "saving" her. She's convinced to it and despite of what he's done, she thinks he's the good guy, the victim, the hero and the most powerful dude in the world. Ugh, ugh, ugh, cringe. What amazes me of Grace is the fact that she wasn't scared to see what Jaxon can do... Sweetie, are you ok? Anyone in their five senses would have left the dude when he warned the first time. Anyone. And you can think "if a guy like him told me to stay away from him, I wouldn't do it, because he's hot", yeah, but hE'S CREEPY AND A STALKER AND A MURDER, WHAT THE HELL!?!?!?! I can't blame Grace for all the shit going in her life tho. I feel pity for her tbh. The fact that she said "Jaxon was never

meant to be the hero of my story... because I was always meant to be the hero of his." killed me, but not in the good way. For some reason that is beyond of my comprehension, it's like Grace believes that she can fix Jaxon, that she can make him see that he's a "good guy" and that he doesn't have to carry the weight of the world. (what the actual hell??) Jaxon: The great, handsome, vicim, hero, powerful, hot and mysterious Jaxon Vega. He's a fucking dick. He's a stalker (in his chapters he clearly says it) and a prick. Oh my gods, I truly hate him. The only good with him is his taste in music (because it's written by a women), but the rest? ugh, he reminded me of the average vampires who think they're the heroes of the story and the world depends of them (Edward, Hawke, Rhys but he's a fae ik, and who knows who else, ewwww). He's disgusting in so many levels that I can't explain. I still wanna know something: what had to do Jaxon in Lia's plan to kill Grace? I know that boy ain't something good. My ace ass was cringing everytime he appeared in front of Grace and I was relieved when he was gone. I don't have much to say about him, beside that I don't like him and hIS ONLY EXISTENCE IS A FUCKING RED FLAG. My boy Flint deserved better tbh. I was most interested on him beING A FUCKING DRAGON, THAT'S AWESOME, that in Jaxon being a typical vampire. And I will never get tired of say that Flint is way fucking better than Jaxon. He's my boy, ok? ok. Macy was irrelevant, even tho I loved her a lot, even more than Grace. She deserved better and if she is not endgame with Flint, I'll riot. Romance. Nope. No. NO. nO. The fuck no. How you can fall in love with a guy you barely met 2/3 weeks ago? And even more, say that you love him. On the first day in Alaska, Jaxon warned Grace to stay away from him, and she touches him like they're something ??????? And on the third day, she's drooling at the sight of the guy because he "saved" her. Everything was so rushed and it was like it existed a "love triangle" bUT FLINT DIDN'T HAVE A CHANCE LIKE JACOB IN TWILIGHT, LOL. We all know from the beginning that Jaxon (Edward) is gonna be the champ, the winner and the endgame. You can predict that from the beginning of the book. Also, MATES???? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME??!?!?!??!?! This trope is so used and boring that makes me sick. I mean, please, give me something built from zero. Not the "they're meant to be and that's it. suck it" nOPE. Give me plot twists. Hype. Like with From Blood and Ash this book is so overhyped. I mean, I read it because I like vampires and the academy trope. But literally, many people told me "this book is everything" "you're gonna love it" "Jaxon is so wonderfu, sexy and you'll love it"... Yeah, well, you can see now how it went. This book isn't thaaaaaaat bad, but isn't good either. It's fast paced, yes, but not something that I would recommend. You know? I think age is hitting me like a bitch and saying that many of the YA vampire books are not my thing anymore, and I really love vampires, lol. ANYHOW. This is my opinion, I'm not saying that this is purely trash or something like that, and you know why? Because I'm gonna read the second book of this one to see if my boy Hudson still alive, yep.

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lemon-ty · 3 years

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While I have no time to draw I found that thing from twitter and I don't think it would be bad if I post at least anything till I'll be free to draw?? and let's say that's just one another post before I'll finally add some of It in my blog

I'll just answer all in one post let's go, guys

(Movies & mini series & book mixed)

1. Favorite female character

I don't think there're a lot of 'em lol. But

Patricia Uris

That's right, not Beverly. Patti has one(!) chapter and somehow I fell in love with her character while reading it. She's got her own story before Stan and she's got a very very very beautiful relationships with him.

(I'm so in love with Uris family I mean whyyyy can't I just have some Stan with his pretty wife and a CHILD THANK U VERY MUCH)

2. Favorite male character

RICHIE

I'm just in love with him he's perfect next

3. Worst character

Bill?

OK, let's talk about it. I was kinda neutral to everyone in the Loser club except Richie for a year or more. Then while being in fandom I fell in love with these guys like with everyone of 'em concluding Bill. But when I decided to actually read a book... why is he so stupid and careless and fjligvdsvfuklugxseggh

Moron.

I really tried not to be "of course u let kid go alone what will happen right??" but this.fucking.weather.this.fucking.fact.that.Georgie.told.him.he.was.about.to.go.to.the.closed.area.u.know.closed.bc.it.was.dangerous.to.go.there like BOY, u killed ur brother when he stepped out of the house HAVE U EVEN LOOKED TO THE WINDOW???? Was it ur plan how to get rid of him bc he was clever and better than u and everyone loved him more? Bc if it was, well, congratulations! it worked not like u expected but still worked!

I'm bullying Bill Denbro in my house I wish for the alternative version with George as a main character instead of him-

4. Favorite scene

Richie and Beverly dancing together

I LOVE their friendship they're like BEST BROTP EVER

I love all their interactions and I find it SO ADORABLE they danced together I always think about it ...about 'em

5. Favorite member of the Loser club

Well, again? Fine. RICHIE

6. Original or remake?

I'd say book? But if we're talking only about films when of course remake

I saw mini series some time ago and that was cute and had a lot from the book (and abult Eddie-) but it was so naive and looked kinda stupid (sorry everyone but I'm the new auditory and I can't get that seriously especially after new films) while new films... Weeelll...

Let's be honest, I saw It 2017 only bc of James McAvoy in the second chapter and I found it boring. And then the second part I found more like a comedy than horror. I didn't like films that time but I liked characters (Richie). Some weeks ago I rewathed both It 2017 and It 2019 and second one is still too long and a comedy but first I found interesting

So remake is great at least on the second time watching and that's enough

7. Reddie?

Reddie is always the answer it's never a question cuz the answer is YES all the answers YES

8. Ben of Bill?

Oh that's a question for me and my hate to Bill!

Ben OF COURSE

Not only bc I hate Bill, Ben is awesome himself. In films he was more leader for the Losers that Bill and Mike like together?? And have u seen that he did fo Henry in the book? Damn boy u're way too cool slow down

9. Best ship

Look question 7

10. Worst ship

OK it took a lot time to find the one bc I don't think there's any ship I would actually hate or smth but if thiiink Bill × Beverly

First, bc Bill?? Seriously?? Go and find someone better, my girl

Second, bc Ben and Bev have much more chemistry (god, Richie and Bev have more chemistry and this tells the person who would kill for reddie)

11. Book or movie?

Book

(and if u say the book is too big I swear I-)

12. Tim or Bill as Pennywise

Why do u need to ask such difficult questions?? I mean, I love every version of Pennywise no matter if it's book or 1990 or 2017-2019 they all are great in their own ways

So both Tim and Bill have an extreme charisma, different but equal in power

I like Tim's Penny bc he's simple and warm I mean c'mon I would definetly hug him or anything and die happy, I mean, he just got ur trust??? And I like how bad effects make him seams not like an awful monster who will eat u but like a friendly mischief (listen me up: he makes sink dirty right after Bev cleaned it up like phhhhhhhhahaha really u're a moron u know). Yeah, that's not that Pennywise is meant to be but that's adorable

And I love Bill's version bc he does look scary (in a some way, of course). Yeah yeah new effects are doing their work and the costume is less friendly than Tim's but the most important is Bill's acting. His mimic and expressions are perfect he fits this role way too good. And, damn, he's so funny like... Yeah, I'd spend my last minutes with him he's great, that would be the most hilarious death I could ever get

So... can I just say both??

13. Funniest character

Do u really see this as a question??

Richie. The funniest guy ever. I would go to his stand-up. I would buy his merch. I would buy hi- AHEMAHEM

Seriously, I found him irritating watching 1st movie first time but after 2d started I've changed my mind he's a diamond that makes films better like he's the only reason I didn't fall asleep while watching 2d part

14. Worst character fear

OK, let's say we don't count the book here. Bc, u know, the fears in the book was, well, like actually kid's fears. Like someone just saw a horror film great now they've got a deep emotional trauma that's like kids work.

So saying about movies...

Stan

Does anyone really got what's wrong with that painting?? I mean???? Just an art what's wrong with u, Stan, do u like... hate art???

I do not get it, plz, if u do, just explain me bc I have no fucking idea why should it be a normal fear that's stupid

15. Favorite actor from the film

James McAvoy

Like I said I went to this fandom ONLY bc of him

16. Favorite adult character

Do u think they grew up and anything changed? Hell no!

Richie

Forever Richie

17. Worst encounter with Pennywise

None? I really can't name u anything bc they all are great at leeeeast bc of Pennywise taking part in it. The scene with him can NOT be worst

(but still-

Eddie's such a stupid brave boy like WHY does he always need to go to scary deadly places I mean are u going to die of what????)

(in the book he just decided that was a great idea to actually try to get into the Neibolt house like ????????????????? U FUCKING BRAVE IDIO-)

18. Worst jump scare

I don't pay attention to any jump scares sorry

None

But I can name my fav! Mrs. Kersh. Not bc she's scary but SO FUNNY OMG

(and in mini series she IS scary, yeah...)

19. Favorite quote

Everything Richie says

20. Least favorite ship

Stanbro

This ship is really great: there're reasons why it's existing and the ship dynamic is good but... I hhhaaaateeee Biiilllllly. And that's the whole problem, yes. Blame me but I can't love otp if I don't like one of the characters

21. Favorite fan account

Don't follow any

22. Favorite Pennywise quote

Is he saying anything??

Alright-alright I know how it looks. "U say u love Penny but don't remember any of the words he's saying". Yes! All I remember is that everything he says is cool but, yeah, sorry, I have nothing in my head

23. Best friendship

RICHIE TOZIER

BEVERLY MARSH

24. Richie or Bill?

Who the fuck will choose Bill?????? Richie's the best

I mean, u want me to choose between my fav one and the one I hate most? really?

25. Eddie or Ben?

Not lying to u that's a difficult question. I like both of 'em so I needed a list with +s and -s of each one

Eddie:

+ Jack Dilan Grayser's face

+ the thing with hand

+ u can joke about his mom

+ s.h.o.r.t.s

+ he's mean I like ppl like that (I'm person like that)

+ can kill u with the knife just stuck in his cheek

+ healer

+ brave as hell

- he's SO loud

- non human speed of talking

- most of the time he's a wimp, let's be honest

- DEAD

- has scary tendencies of amputation everything

- not Riche's husband somehow

- mindlessly brave as hell

- FIVE

- PARAGRAPHS

- OF

- OBSCURE

- MEDICINE

- STUFF

in his very first chapter

Ben:

+ an architect (i concider all of 'em like gods)

+ punctual. If he said he'll be in ur bar on Saturday when he'll be doesn't matter he's in London right now

+ I tell u he's a hidden leader

+ can drink and stay sober

+ HE

+ PUNCHED

+ HENRY'S

+ BALLS

- wrote a haiku I don't like haiku

- minuses are ended

So Ben has less +s but less -s if u compare to his +s. So, sorry, Eds, but Ben

26. Funniest scene

Every with Richie

27. Least favorite male characters

I can't just say Bill again, right? Or I caaan???

Bill

28. Most underrated character

MIKE

I see ppl love every character even the once that has really small time (STAN) but I haven't seen so much ppl loving Mike. Everyone kinda... forgot about him?? What an irony

29. Favorite edit

Every with Richie

30. Is fack real?

Plz don't ship real ppl

#it #it 1990 #it 2017 #it 2019 #it challenge #the losers club #pennywise

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benbarnesescape · 7 years

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Hey, if you're taking requests I'd love to read one about the reader being the girl back home in England that he can't wait to see every time he comes back! I can't believe I've only just discovered your blog, it's my new favourite thing on tumblr because Ben *insert heart eyes emote here*

A/N: @ravenclaw-dirt I LOVED writing this. Might honestly be one of my favorite pieces that I’ve written. Hope you enjoy and its what you are looking for and thank you for the kind words - I equally love that talented man

PS I’m not a programmer so apologies if I’m incorrect, I tried to fake it as best as I could lol

Warnings: So much fluff my heart might have broken into feathery pieces

You sighed, inserting the key into the lock of your flat as you kicked off your gold sandals and hung your keys on the key ring by your door. Missing the other pair of sneakers that you had thrown your sandals on top of. Not catching the other ringlet of keys that silently hung beside your own.

Too tired to notice any of these things because it had been one of those days.

Even though it was Sunday, you had been called in early that morning because the servers at the company you worked for had crashed. Which would have been okay if you weren’t the person responsible to repair the bloody things. Then, after showing up and reviewing the damage, a simple 2 hour task had become an all day nightmare. someone hadn’t updated the software for your cyber security so now you had to do a scan of all the company’s assets to ensure that nothing had been breached. And you still had work you’d end up doing tonight bleeding into the morning.

If that hadn’t been enough, the power went out in the building halfway through your analysis with your colleagues. You had spent half the day drenched in sweat, typing furiously on your laptop trying to find the source of the problem, your short jeans and tank top doing nothing to alleviate the discomfort of the hot and humid building.

You were exhausted and all you wanted to do was take a cold shower and sleep away the bad day.

You walked into your living room, stripping your sweat drenched tank top and falling face first on your couch. You could also pass out here. You were not opposed to this option either.

You had been so caught up in your thoughts that you didn’t notice the small luggage bag by your bedroom door, or the smell of food cooking in the stove, dismissing the smell from wafting in from a neighbors apartment. It was only when you heard,

“Babe are you ok?” that you popped your head up in fear, your eyes skimming over the couch. You were greeted with ‘Ben’s smile as he peeled off the oven mittens he was wearing.

“Ben!?” you ask surprised and before he can say anything, your body was lifting you up, hastily bringing you closer to him before you jumped into his arms.

He chuckled as you wrapped your legs around him, not caring that you were sticky and probably didn’t smell the best.

He was home.

“What are you doing here?” you ask confused, pulling away from him and placing his face in your hands.

“Well, I thought they’d need me in America for a couple more days but turns out I have a couple more weeks until my next gig. So I thought I’d come and visit my best girl.” he leans up and kisses you, his soft lips skimming over yours before there pressed into you and you moan, your hands getting lost in his hair. Its only when you try to deepen the kiss that he pulls away, his eyes closed as he rests his forehead against yours.

“....I’m making lasagna and it has at least 30 more minutes. Don’t get me started.”

You groan, hiding your head in in his neck before mumbling,

“But its been sooooo long babe. I’ve missed you,” you start placing soft kisses on his neck and he gives a soft groan as his grip around your waist tightens. “Ask your mom. I’ve missed you sooooooo much.”

He pulls far back enough to look at you and shakes his head,

“I don’t want to think about my mom while you’re trying to seduce me.”

You giggle as his right hand slowly skims over your cleavage, trailing up your bra strap before stopping at your collar bone. His index finger wraps under the tight strap, pulling it far enough for it snap back on your skin, causing you to give an involuntary gasp.

“What’s with the get up? I know its a mite hot in here from the oven but i didn’t think it was that bad.”

You throw your head back dramatically, the weight shift catching him off guard as you fall back further than expected. He catches you easily, placing you on the counter and stepping between your legs as you breath out,

“Servers went down at work. Then the bloody AC went out at work and I was stuck trying to figure which bloody idiot caused the problem in the first place.”

You leaned back against the counter, your hot skin resting against your cool cabinets and you lean far enough to grab his grey T-shirt, pulling him closer to you.

“See why I need you? I had a really bad day. And its my day off.”

“My poor baby.” he mumbles, placing soft kisses on your neck before nipping at the sensitive skin and he pulls back, looking at you and biting down on his lip.

“What?” you ask and he leans on the counter across from you, his eyes never leaving yours.

“I have a question. About us.”

You leaned your head to the right, raising your brows in curiosity.

“Yes?”

He’s watching you carefully before he asks,

“How would you feel about going public?”

You were silent, weariness falling once more on your body. This was how you and Ben had gotten into a fight last time you spoke. He kept pushing about going public about your five year relationship and every time you shut it down. You didn’t want to be dragged into a media circus. You had both done a successful job of convincing media outlets you were just good, platonic friends. Coming out meant that your life would change. You’d have to take extra precautions in everything that you did because you would no longer just represent yourself. You’d be representing him too.

That idea didn’t exactly thrill you.

When you had bought this up with his mother a week ago, she had helped you organize your relationship in a pro and con list. If the pro’s outweighed the cons, perhaps it was a risk worth taking. Despite the consequences.

You had spent 45 goddamn minutes on that list.

The pro’s had won.

Ben was still watching you carefully, his dark eyes neutral as not to betray your feelings. He understood the weight of what he was asking you but he also knew he loved you. To him that was enough.

“Even though I wouldn’t be thrilled to tell the world that I was dating the hottest man on the planet,” he rolls his eyes though the smirk on his face doesn't go unnoticed. “If it made you happy - I’d be open to making it happen. Besides, it’ll get you to shut up about it.”

He smiles at you, walking toward you and pressing his lips down in a kiss. Its only seconds before his hands are roaming over your exposed skin, easily finding the clasps to your bra and tugging them off. His mouth makes a hot trail down your neck, eagerly searching for your breast and your hands run through his hair, tugging you closer to him. Its when his mouth bites down on the sensitive skin above your breast that you moan out,

“Thought you didn’t want to burn the lasagna?”

“Fuck the lasagna.” he mumbles, pulling away from you only to lift you up and carry you to your shared bedroom.

You end up ordering a pizza that night, both of you wrapped in sheets as you go through another analysis on your computer while he began the first episode of Game of Thrones. His phone buzzes and you think nothing of it as he checks the message, noticing that its from his manager.

Did you ask her yet? When should I tell Jeanine to release a statement?

He smiles, typing a quick message before setting his phone aside and kissing your exposed shoulder.

“I love you.” he whispers against your soft skin and you smile, despite the scowl on your face.

“I love you too babe.”

Its not until the next evening that the text makes sense.

Tell her to release the announcement of our engagement Tuesday morning.

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shinozaki-ayumi · 6 years

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Please answer all the things from the ask thing I can't decide what I want to know most :'''(

omg thats ok!! this’ll be a long one then lol

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

its my boyfriend, so i’d probably be just like… “oh hey, that’s cool”

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

he’s my boyfriend lol

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

yeah mostly because i don’t want to associate myself with it and i’d also just be really concerned about their health too? like weed isn’t bad but anything else is a no

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

nope. exactly 6

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

sober bc i don’t drink lol

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

the only person i’ve ever had a crush on is my current and only boyfriend so no

7. What does your last received text say?

“pack up your stuff”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

too many times over the past three years to even begin to count

9. Where was your last kiss at?

about 20 mins ago at my boyfriend’s front door

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

i don’t have a sister, but i have a brother and i saw him 2 minutes ago

11. What do you drink in the morning?

tea or milk

12. Where did you sleep last night?

in my own bed

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

not really because if you are really meant to be with someone you both will put in the effort to make sure you are respectful of each other. i do think it’s probably difficult to find a partner though, especially in high school bc those almost never last.

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

not really honestly lol. this year has been pretty decent.

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

nope. it would prooobably be pretty awesome actually

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

rainy! i love rain so much. it’s so relaxing to listen to and watch.

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

no. my middle name is Jean, so i don’t know many people with that as a middle name. i don’t think it’s very popular.

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

pajama pants :D

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

hell yes. my boyfriend and i have been together for three years already and are more stable and loving than we ever have.

20. Does anyone like you?

not at the moment i don’t think, but i have known about several guys who have liked me. aside from the current bf, they were all… gross….

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

my boyfriend’s name is Stefan lol

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

nope, he’s straight as can be

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

SO MANY. SO SO MANY.

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

absolutely! i want something simple (like a triforce or something) on my wrist or ankle.

25. In the past week have you cried?

this morning lmao

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?

mutt/mix/hunting dog thing. idk what she is. her name is hazel and she is my boyfriend’s dog.

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

mix of both? lol

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

no none of the football players at my school are even remotely attractive to me

29. Do you think you’re old?

…im 16, so no

30. Do you like text messaging?

it’s ok. but honestly, in comparison to the past few years, i just prefer talking in person or on skype

31. What type of day are you having?

GARBAGE but its ok because its getting better as it goes :)

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

no… the only piercings i want are more ear piercings.

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

cold. like, mid fall weather.

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

i would literally die to save my boyfriend from suffering

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

relationship; flings/one-time things are not appealing to me. i like friendship and emotional bonding.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

complicated, but i don’t think anyone is really “simple.”

37. What song are you listening to?

none, my computer just decided to turn volume up to 100% for some reason without me pressing the buttons and now my ears are ringing. nice.

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

depends who i’m talking to and whether or not they deserve it39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

a girl? ya, but only one. i only have a few female friends. most of my friends are boys lol40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

i had a dream that they were sleeping in my room and the next day at school i almost threw up when i saw them. good times.41. When did you last receive a text message?

about an hour ago42. What is wrong with you right now?

TOO. MUCH. HOMEWORK. 43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

she’s my mom, so pretty well i think lol44. Does anyone disgust you?

a variety of people. pro-life people especially disgust me. also any religious zealots and closed-minded people in general. 45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

no, way too dedicated to my actual boyfriend.46. Are you in a good mood right now?

i’ve been better but my current mood is far better than my mood yesterday/this morning!!47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

my mom48. What color shirt are you wearing?

black49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

yeah… it’s pretty personal though. not gonna talk about it.50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

not currently but in the past year or two, many people51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

not in the slightest

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

not sure if this means in a relationship or not but platonically yes. that friendship ended in far shittier ways though, so sometimes i sort of regret it. don’t think it could’ve ended any other way though.53. Do you like rain?

I LOVE RAIN 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

yeah because if they are a huge party animal who wants to drink all the time and loves being drunk all the time i am NOT compatible with them. casually drinking once in a while would probably be fine though.55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

the only person i’ve ever liked is fully aware that i like him lol56. Do you like to cuddle?

YES. SO MUCH. I LIVE ON CUDDLES.57. Are you shy?

yeah but i’m growing out of it a bit!!!58. Do you get along with girls?

not really59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

currently dating60. What do you carry with you at all times?

phone, pencils, sketchbook61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

I’D DO IT FOR FREE 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

it’s been three years in my current one, so yes lol63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

you all know the answer to this64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

yes i love when he does this. its gentle and reassuring65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

idk. not cute, but i had some nice moments with my bf. mostly just laying on my bed and talking about “deep” stuff while playing fire emblem

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

theres only been one and he’s 17

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?

do them myself but i haven’t done my nails in years 68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?

can i say neither69. Do you have any stickers on your car?

i dont have a car but my family does not70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?

….can i say neither? 71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?

iPhone 72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?

ages ago because my town’s only Pizza Hut closed years ago 73. Do you like diet soda?

no those cancer-inducing chemicals can stay 5000000 miles away from my body74. What color are the walls in your room?

dark yellow-y tan 75. Are you 16 or older?

i’m 1676. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?

no, tried, not a fan 77. Do you have a job?

no and i am dreading it. i’d like to take commissions instead lol

78. What are your initials?

EJC 79. Did you ever have braces?

yes and they are long gone. i am grateful80. Are you from the south?

nope, upstate New York! best state

81. What does your last status on facebook say?

i don’t use facebook82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?

lol 83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?

my mom84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?

neither 85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?

i genuinely do not remember. i think Rogue One 86. Do you smoke?

HELL no 87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?

flip flops88. Is your phone touch screen?

yes89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?

straight90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?

no91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?

pool 92. Have you ever made out in a car?

yes93. …Had sex in a car?

no lol 94. Are you single or in a relationship?

in a relationship 95. What were you doing last night at midnight?

sleeping

96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?

fourth of july on Saratoga Lake 97. Do you like the camera on your phone?

its much better than my last one, but still not the best. i have a 5s 98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?

nope 99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?

never drank 100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?

not on facebook, but on instagram yes 101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?

yes even though it was 99.9% irrational. i’m tokophobic lol. thank god for the pill 102. Name your favorite Kesha song:

i cant even name one 103. Do you have any tan lines right now?

HAHAHAHAHAHA i’m of british and german descent (aka about as white as they can come) so my skin burns, never tans 104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?

absolutely not

#oof that took a while lol #sorry if im boring but thanks for the ask!#emma talks #Anonymous

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xxtangledintentions · 7 years

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I can't fall back asleep

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say? I’d be very confused bc he’s in Illinois currently lol

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed? Uhhh literally nothing he stopped talking to me.

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care? Dont have one.

4. Is your last name longer than six letters? Nope

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober? Sober but hungover

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up? Oh gosh yeah

7. What does your last received text say? “Sorry I didn’t take her out”

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? Uhhh continuously over a period of 3 days idk how many times.

9. Where was your last kiss at? Lisbon, OH

10. When is the last time you saw your sister? Saw 2 of them at the end of April

11. What do you drink in the morning? Juice or water

12. Where did you sleep last night? My bed.

13. Do you think relationships are hard? Ehhhhhh

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? Yeah quite a few things honestly

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems? Yeah I’d be asking him wtf his deal is

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy? Sunshine pls

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you? I’m sure

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants? pj

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now? I goddamn hope so

20. Does anyone like you? Doubtful

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S? Probably?

22. Is the last person you kissed gay? No

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand? Yes

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo? I have five.

25. In the past week have you cried? Nope.

26. What breed was the last dog you saw? My sweet pup, shes Great Dane and greyhound.

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower? Out

28. Have you ever kissed a football player? I’m sure I have

29. Do you think you’re old? Gettin there :(

30. Do you like text messaging? When I actually feel like responding. Lately I’ve been not responding to anyone.

31. What type of day are you having? It’s too early to tell.

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? I had it pierced previously

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather? WARM

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? mhm

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling? Fuck this question

36. Are you a simple or complicated person? Complicated

37. What song are you listening to? I’m not

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it? Yeah

39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you? Mhmmmmm

40. What made you start liking the person you like now? Why are u assuming I like anyone right now??? PS I don’t

41. When did you last receive a text message? Right after I started this dumb thing

42. What is wrong with you right now? Too much

43. How well do you know the last female you texted? Incredibly well she’s been my best friend since I was 16

44. Does anyone disgust you? Chyeah

45. Would you date someone right now if they asked? Probably not.

46. Are you in a good mood right now? No

47. Who was the last person you talked to in person? Hansen

48. What color shirt are you wearing? White

49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear? story of my life I never wanna hear anything

50. Anyone you’re giving up on? Myself

51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for? Not at all

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t? What does this even mean

53. Do you like rain? Nah

54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? Single AS A PRINGLE YO

55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them? Yeah I’m sure I have

56. Do you like to cuddle? Yeah

57. Are you shy? Uhhhhhhhhhh

58. Do you get along with girls? Mostly

59. Have you dated the person you texted last? Nope

60. What do you carry with you at all times? Phone

61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? Not by myself

62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months? Yeah

63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship? Nope

64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute? Oh my god I don’t like anyone jfc

65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week? I ate a whole jar of pickles 🙃

66. How old are the last three people you kissed? LAST 3???? Uhhhh 22,24,28.

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself? Neither

68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print? Leopard

69. Do you have any stickers on your car? Hell yeah! “Resist and persist” “TCB” “turpentine creek wildlife refuge” “fayetteville Arkansas, its great, Please dont move here”

70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne? Luke I guess

71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone? iPhone

72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut? Couple months ago

73. Do you like diet soda? Shit no

74. What color are the walls in your room? Boring white

75. Are you 16 or older? 25

76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars? No

77. Do you have a job? Not currently

78. What are your initials? MJS

79. Did you ever have braces? NOPE

80. Are you from the south? I grew up in the north but I’ve lived in the south for four years now

81. What does your last status on facebook say? Something about how to get away with murder

82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed? Uhhh sometimes, we grew up together so

83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad? Dads deceased so

84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics? Nope

85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters? I have no idea. Maybe the newest purge

86. Do you smoke? F no

87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops? Flipsssss

88. Is your phone touch screen? Yeah and it’s being annoying af rn

89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly? Neither I just let it air dry and hope for the best

90. Have you ever snuck out of your house? I mean when I was a teenager yes

91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool? Pool

92. Have you ever made out in a car? Lmao yeah

93. …Had sex in a car? Yep

94. Are you single or in a relationship? READ ABOVE ANSWERS JFCCCC

95. What were you doing last night at midnight? SLEEPING

96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks? Uhhhhhhhhhhh

97. Do you like the camera on your phone? Not really it kinda sucks

98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits? Sure? I guess

99. Have you ever passed out from drinking? Many times 100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate? IDK maybe

101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare? Yeah

102. Name your favorite Kesha song: Cannibal 😈

103. Do you have any tan lines right now? HAHAHAHHAHA no

104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts? Not a chance in hell

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