#fucking hell just give me my degree

[andeloquentprofanity]

School rant for a second. I started my summer 8-week course this week and I am STRESSED AF. I have been thinking about dropping because I didn't think I could do the work to my standards due to my poor mental state lately. I've been so stressed (and generally depressed) that I had to leave work early on Tuesday because I shut down and was basically a vegetable. I passed out for several hours then woke up and decided, still half out of my mind but semi-functional, to complete the first essay assignment. I couldn't tell you what I wrote. But I did it and turned it in. Got the grade today, 7 out of 5. I got bonus points. What the fuck? How did I do that?

Now, I'm questioning everything. Do I drop out for my sanity or stay in the course, and complete assignments when I am not of sound mind but still apparently passing as a functioning human being?

This is the reason people don't believe me when I say I am in a really bad mental state. I'm still functioning and fairly successful.

#tedious personal details #grad school #depression #stress #fucking hell just give me my degree #haven't I suffered enough

[roseofcards90]

I'm like so mad lmao like why are parents the absolute worst

#like y'all really just decided to be racist when I told you the research opportunity is in Uganda #like I fail to understand what the hell is wrong with a PAID internship over the summer that pays for all the expenses #and not only that but it gives me actual international experience for my degree and pays me so much more than my shitty job ever fucking di #that's legit fucking bullshit with you calling it a “waste of time” you know what a waste of time is for you sir? you hoarding #a bunch of atvs you won't even fix and sell and you being a shitty partner to my mom because you won't do jack shit #literally shut the fuck up I am not letting you decide things for me now #this is *my* degree and my choice so stay in your fucking lane #you can't even support me in the slightest you just to have to fucking criticize me for everything #my posts

[ladsofsorrow24]

every time i find out my favorite artists are not the kind that received formal training or education it makes me feel just a tiny bit happy about myself and my own development

its an irrational feeling, i know, but the way so many people around me always... ridicule me for chosing this path take a toll on my extremely low self-confidence, not gonna lie

so yeah finding out that kind of stuff makes me feel just a bit more... confident to say the least

#did you know how many times i'm thinking of giving up art #every part of my life since i was 13 is like #i don't deserve art i'm not good at it #i need to pursue something else #hell i tried to apply to a degree and got rejected #but the professor who interviewed me... idk who he is but i still treasure the words he told me #that art can be found in many places #that official certificate doesn't make someone an artist #its about creating #and i know maybe that's just him trying to comfort me from crying right there #but... it helps #it helps a fuck ton #tmi tag

[savage-rhi]

I will not be that asshole when I obtain my therapy license. By that I mean not being condescending toward clients and assuming they don't know shit about their physical and mental health. I don't understand how mental health care providers (and medical, let's be real) get so far up their own ass that they forget the crucial bits about their job: LISTENING AND EMPATHY. Even if you know or feel on a gut level that your patient be blowing smoke up your ass, you need to do right by them the best you can. Humans got issues. Even the "good" and "best" ones. You should know that when you sign up with a career that involves interacting with every facet of humanity you can think of. It's some deep dark ice cream with sprinkles and a cherry on top. Sprinkle and cherry people/experiences are rare. Most people are the base. Just the ice cream, and there's nothing wrong with that, but the flavor can get old real fast, and you gotta accept that if you're gonna be a doc or mental health provider. Appreciate the the components, appreciate the damn people who seek YOU for help.

#I get it. Compassion fatigue is huge and the pandemic made it worse. Hell #I get it monthly #I guess this is my law of equivalent exchange for yeeting my uterus and no longer having a period. I don't menstruate I just lose my empathy #for a few days then go back to normal haha bad joke but wtf ever #but it's no excuse to be an asshole just because you can wave a degree over someone's head #if it wasn't obvious doctors and many therapists give me the ick like no tomorrow cause of personal experience #and having to work alongside many of them #and being mad at the fuckitry they pull on my clients #and I'm currently mad af right now at how im being treated at an appointment today #they changed their tune when i brought up I'm a QMHA #it shouldn't take someone going YO I AM IN AN ADJACENT CAREER TO YOU AND BTW I WORKED WITH YOUR EMPLOYER BEFORE #to get people to just be fucking nice to others #i know i vent a lot regarding mental health but i am passionate cause ive been fucked over one too many times #and if i can be that one person that makes this shit easier for people imma do it

[dearreader]

something is not right about a 26 year old adult picking fights with 14 year olds and lying about people being racist and antisemitic and suicide bating because they rightfully called you out and you like the drama

#THIS ISN’T ABOUT SWIFTIES #kelly babels #not going to say who cause i have them blocked #but oh my god finding out what this person is saying about my friends/mutuals #anyway on the off chance that person finds me #hi! the fact that you’re nearing 30 and are so knee deep in drama cause you love it #and posting genuinely idiotic and wrong comments about your fav and others is genuinely awful #your tales are worse then the guy in my comic books class who said the jewish coded characters were german and were being discriminated #against for starting ww2 #you’re dumber than kaylors who still believe taylor swift is in a lavender marriage with karlie kloss #you’re genuinely one of the dumbest people i’ve ever had the displeasure of hearing your comments #and please note: i graduated with a degree in english literature and didn’t semesters full of classes listening to men give awful opinions #i’ve read a creative writing piece about a man’s penis getting so big he has to be wheeled around in wheelchair #i have been a fucking swiftie since i was 13 and fought directioners and was in the trenches of 2016 #i have been to hell in back and have seen every awful take possibly imagined on literature #and i’m here to tell you that you’re takes on your fav and the source material are worse then all of that #congratulations! you’re a fucking idiot and have been hyper fixated on this series longer than me and i know more than you #i honestly just feel bad for you :( to like such a complicated and well written character but unable to understand him at a base level #save

[toastsnaffler]

I have an interview tmr for a possible teaching assistant job. but I realllyyyy really don't want to fucking go

#the interviewer is rly nice ive spoken to him already its not like nerves or anything #I dont rly wanna go into teaching but I do have experience so I'm getting interest from recruiters.. I need a job and the pay is alright #the main thing is that background checks are so comprehensive + they want 3 references and I. dont have that many lmao #but its non negotiable cuz anything involving kids or vulnerable ppl has rly high standards. understandably ofc #so I need to email a couple ppl from my degree to ask if they would be willing to give me a ref but I REAAAALLLLY dont want tooooo #bc I fucking dropped out of my masters this year and didnt tell my tutor beforehand. so its just rly fucking awkward to ask NOW #like I feel kinda physically sick just trying to draft this email theres smth rly humiliating abt it. man im gonna cry again #but I have to do it bc this interview is tomorrow and I need to submit the form w references before then ive been putting it off #ugdhfhcbncjhfjfbfbfh. and even if my tutor is cool w it I still only have 2 refs so I need to find a third and just. mannn #i have a massive adhd block w filling out forms too fucking hate this shit what if I just cancelled the interview ahahahahahahhha #its like a physical fucking pressure preventing me doing anything abt it i hope i get hit by a bus so its not my problem anymore whatever #.vent #fucking hell. whatever im gonna go make lunch

[theamazingannie]

Not my mom asking me what my brother’s email and password is and me knowing it lmao. Why does no one around here even acknowledge that I’m more of a parent to my brother than they are

#she’s mad that he listens to me better than he listens to her #not only do not constantly yell at him and not bother to work with him #but Im the one who wakes him up in the morning #Im the one that makes sure he showers and goes to bed at a decent time #Im the one who helps him with his homework #hell I’m the only one who bothers to make sure he does it BEFORE he gets the zero in the grade book #and he doesn’t even see me as an authority figure because they don’t respect me so why should he #if I try to punish him or reinforce his behavior in any way they always overrule me #and then give him a worse reinforcement tactic that clearly doesn’t work #like i really feel like we’d be better off if they just fucked off and left me completely in charge of him #they refuse to take any accountability yet blame me for anything he does wrong #they are literally such shit parents and it took them so long to realize it because my sister and I parented ourselves #but my brother was spoiled too much growing up so he never learned how and they never learned how to parent #and refuse to learn now #they get mad if I try to offer any tips despite being the only one who’s ever successful #they ignore the fact that I have a degree in psychology and took classes in childhood development because I don’t have the experience #but apprently they don’t have the experience either or else they’d be better at this! #Ugh it’s so annoying watching them do everything wrong and being comoelehlt powerless to do anything #i cant imagine how bad it would be if I wasn’t here #they’d probably beat him constantly since I’m the only one that can stop them #the only thing they really provide is transportation and money #and still they’re too lazy to drive us around anywhere half the time and are constantly blowing their money on frivolous things #so we don’t have enough sometimes to pay bills or have nice dinners #that *I* make btw cuz they’re too lazy to #which is fine cuz I don’t work but before I moved back in they were eating ramen noodles and mac and cheese every day #and have the audacity to say I don’t do shit around here #they would FLOUNDER without me #god i cant wait until I can get out of here but I literally don’t know if I ever will cuz ive not been well mentally #and theyre behavior isn’t helping

[minakoainosupremacy]

I’m sad, I’ve had a bunch of fun cool ideas sitting in the back of my head since like new years which I wanted to use for rare pair week, but like life has been kicking my ass so I didn’t have time to even start anything and now it’s over :( guess they will just keep living in my head until next year

#this is if I’m also not dying next year… which is unlikely #don’t do what I do. don’t work full time and do school full time. especially when you’re doing a dual graduate degree program. I’m in hell #brain screams #it especially makes me sad cause when I started writing fics in the summer it made me SO happy to be writing again!!! #especially about sailor moon!!! one of my special intrests and fav shows of all time!! it makes my brain SO HAPPY!!! #as I keep telling myself - just cause I don’t make these things now doesn’t mean I can do them in the future. my ideas will still be there #I can write the fics I want and finish the YouRube videos I’ve started. I can make silly little doodles and comics and short animations #I can take my Venus plus on hikes and exploring and to wonderful places!! we can go to museums and cafes and concerts!! #we can go to the ocean and climb mountains and get lost in the forest and get muddy and wet and cold and sit by campfires and climb on logs #I can take my not fully fleshed out idea of using her and my other plushes to make a sort of live action stop motion skit video!! #I want to be creative and free and have fun and live my life and pursue my passions!! #but rn… all i do is work. work and homework and class and homework. until I’m so fatigued I can’t walk and I can’t sleep and I can’t think #to be real watching the anime and having the codename: sailor v and stars arc of the manga is like one of the few things getting me through #when I’m so tired I can’t think I have those as comforts so I’m not sitting on the couch wanting to die #I find so much comfort in existing in the space of this fictional universe and I draw strength from the characters #like sailor moon helping me get through some of the hardest fucking shit I’ve ever done in my life. and helping me remember to love myself #also lowkey helping me fight off my depression and ed and substance abuse issues #I just both get so much joy and comfort from this space but also I feel I owe it so much gratitude for kinda helping me from crumbling #I want to also contribute to this space cause it gives me joy to do so and cause i want to give back and contribute to others joy as well #like it’s a combo of I love this and want to and also as a form of gratitude i want to and also to help others experience joy I want to #but… I don’t have the time or energy now. and if my life keeps going on like this. will I ever? I’ve never let myself slow down. #idk if I ever will :( oh well

[luckyfaeth]

despite all the graphics issues, pokemon scarlet is one of my favorite pokemon experiences ive had in years

(granted, i also did not really have major glitches so it really didn't hinder my experience that much)

#like literally graphics r my ONLY complaint #(and maybe a few pokemon design choices but hell - thats so subjective) #like i like maushold bc its just mice but hate flamigo bc its just a flamingo #so i rlly never knock that as part of a reason to dislike one of the games #plus it introduced so many GOOD mons that balance it #like FUCK i had such a hard time deciding my final team!!! #AND THE STORY?? THE NPCS???? #LITERALLY THE BEST STORY SINCE BW AND MAYBE. DARE I SAY MAYBE EVEN BETTER #THE ENDGAME?? WAS INSANE. #plus the BEST BEST set of rivals ever. #silver u can EAT UR HEART OUT. arven is my daddy issues boy now. #plus gOD I LOVE ACTUALLY GETTING TO BOND W THE BOX ART LEGENDS #like they GAVE ME A REASON TO CARE ABOUT IT #AND MADE IT DESERVING OF BEING THE BOX ART #AND TEAM STAR??? GREAT. FUNKY LIL GUYS I LOVE THEM I WANT TO GIVE THEM ALL COOKIES #like i feel like pokemon actually leaned more into the rpg aspect of getting to bond with really cool npcs #they have DEPTH #usually just like. one or two pokemon characters per game get fleshed out to that degree #oh one more dislike is that i hate the way the map functions #most of the time its fine but i HATE THAT IT LIKE SPINS U AROUND SO I HAVE TO REORIENTMYSELF WITH NORTH AT THE TOP #that might be a perosnal thing tho

[fool-in-his-wedding-gown]

you guys love to joke about [x arcana character] not being able to cook but tbh i think they can all cook to at least some degree except for maybe nadia & even then that’s just because she’s never needed to learn. they are all at least in theory good cooks. in my brain.

#i've actually had extensive thoughts about this because #the deep Fandomification of characters often comes with reducing them to like. #memes & incorrect quotes & a lot of times that comes in the form of '[x character] can't cook' #for whatever reason #idk i think it was a lot more fun to. just now. sit down in my notes app & think #about each character's backstory and the skill set that gives them to ask the very silly question 'can this character cook?' #to which my answer to all 6 of them is yes to some degree but it varies because they all have different life experiences & different ways #that they would approach something as simple as making a meal #and through thinking about those skill sets i came to realize things about their characters #that never would've occurred to me had i not asked aforementioned very silly question #& idk thinking about that will always be more compelling to me than memeing a character to hell & back #so that only a shadow of their actual characterization remains #sorry for being autistic about the fucking arcana it will happen again #pleiades posts

[exopelagic]

i will not panic abt my exams

#it will be fine actually #I’m stressed bc they’re in. a month now like a month from today and I’ll be done #but that just means I have a whole month to be making notes I can do a lot in a month #I’m going home on Friday which is stressing me out but it’s just one week I’ll go Friday and leave Saturday/Sunday #and if I can do a handful of lectures while I’m at home that’ll be a useful step no matter what #i can probably focus on like molecular ones which are easier to structure bc I just need to pull out the mechanisms #tomorrow I just gotta read up on two topics really and then I can write the dumb mock exam which I won’t be able to do at home bc its 4 hour #I hate that we have to do that especially bc it’s got shit evil questions but whatever #and I can’t feel bad abt being slow to get back into this bc im an animal with a body and it takes a while to get back into Anything #and I’m worried abt the exam yes bc of how it went last year when I was unprepared but 1) I won’t be THAT degree of unprepared this year #2) it is unlikely that i get as insanely unlucky as I did last year #fucking hell I just. don’t think I’m made for this kinda system I can’t make myself work in it #every single term of my degree so far I’ve been fighting to keep up with everything and had no time to properly prepare for the exams #and then scraped it by working off a baseline level of being good at putting ideas together quickly and strategically working last minute #on whatever will give me the best shot at getting what I need but that’s not possible in these two exams bc I have over 100 lectures to know #I can’t do 100 lectures in a month. it’s just not possible but what I can probably do is summarise some important bits for like half of them #I think I’m bad at the whole sustained effort on a big task over a long period of time #bc this is so huge that there’s no way for me to see progress or move on to anything new bc it’s just. a stack of 100 lectures to deal with #I HOPE I’m better at dealing with project next year bc i think it’ll be more task based #and like I can watch the lectures the first time round bc there’s a set thing to do and an end point #I have genuinely no idea how to approach this in a way that will be useful achievable AND get enough done within the time I have #anyway I can’t stress abt it now bc I have to go to the shop and then home to cook. so #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #luke.txt

[fragglez]

I'm gonna drop out (I won't)

#no because what the hell am i gonna do next year when we have to do the real deal #15 fucking pages just kill me instead #im just a little guy i shouldn't have to do work #just give me my degree cus im sweet and nice and awesome

[piratadelamor]

i wish i was dead fr the world is fucking ending anyway

#rn i dont think i have any strong will to live except the crushing fear of hurting my family #i need to try harder to just shut my feelings down while i work to death for this stupid degree #and then really start thinking about what the hell do i REALLY ACTUALLY wanna do with my life #bc if im supposed to live in this fucking nightmare let me at least make some fucking effort to surround myself with better things #seriously what tf can i do to not go completely HOPELESS about my future #i try damn hard everyday to stay positive but what the FUCK #when this shit is finally over by the end of the month im gonna have to star making some serious choices about by life #i either do this or i simply give up

[southislandwren]

I’ve had to fend off TWO kids now from watching YouTube on my phone. Listen all I watch is gaming and music theory content but I am absolutely not letting a kid go loose on fucking youtube

#like I should’ve known explaining algorithms and elsagate wouldn’t make sense but come on. trust the fucking adult in the situation #gaming -> pokimaine -> half naked people -> straight up porn. fucking 7 degrees of separation but for fucked up shit #music theory -> classical music -> historical military marches -> nazis. come ON people!!!! #and I just know my coworker thinks I watch fucked up shit on youtube now but I DONT!! I just have unmedicated anxiety& am terminally online! #trust me I spend every waking moment consuming media. I’m not letting anyone under the age of 10 anywhere near youtube w/o adult supervision #and I’m not going to be responsible for my boss’s kids learning about something they shouldn’t know about yet #I mean hell my youtube shorts are all rainbolt and GPB. poo talks about grown up stuff like fucking nonstop #rainbolts fine I would set that 6 yo on his stuff anytime. nothin wrong with being really good at geoguessr #idk. it got me all worked up and I know I gotta relax but like damn I’m tired of telling kids to give me my phone back #diary post

[elexaria]

dating simon riley wasn’t always easy. “i’m a bloody nutcase, eh?” he’d joke when he’d wake up in a cold sweat, taking deep breaths as his calloused thumb rasps against the soft cotton bedsheets, grounding him back to reality. “puts all my efforts to shame when i wake up like this. fuck’s sake.”

therapy is mandatory, especially given his role as lieutenant. the traumas of childhood, the torture. he thinks he’s good at dealing with his problems, thinks therapy is a waste of time. “what, it’s just a bloke sat there starin’ at me? hell, get me a piece of paper with some made up degree on it and even i could be a therapist.” he grumbles after you point out that, in fact, he’s not as good as coping with his trauma as he thinks he is.

“you need to actually give this a go, si. it’s..” you pause, biting the inside of your lip as you make breakfast. his hair is disheveled, wry strands of grey sticking up against the grain. his dark circles only exemplify just how tired he is, especially when he has his night terrors. you shake your head, sighing as you crack another egg into the frying pan. “how can i expect you to stay safe out there when you’re barely able to look after yourself when you’re home?” you sigh out as he grunts, taking a seat at the small dining table, his eyes skimming through the morning paper.

god, he’s such a stubborn bastard. it takes months to get him to at least consider finding a new therapist, to get him to actually care about his mental health. christ, if he can’t do it for himself, can’t he at least try for your sake?

and then, it’s like he has a lightbulb moment. you come home after a long day at work, only to find him sat at the dining table, writing scruffy notes in a ring bound notebook. “mission notes?” you ask curiously, keeping your eye on him as you make yourself a cup of tea. he grunts, shaking his head as he continues to write.

“it’s a diary. supposed to help with your mental health or summet.” he replies, settling his pen down to meet your gaze. you must have had a look of confusion on your face, and it makes the corners of his lips twitch up into a half-smile. “yeah, i know. a bloke like me with a diary, like i’m a bloody teenage girl.” he quips, now grinning as his fingers toy with the corners of the notebook. “writin’ about all the boys i fancy on the field.” he shoots a wink, before continuing to write some more in his notebook.

it’s actually surprising, a smile on your lips as you watch him in his own little world, actually making an effort in his mental health recovery. you come over, settling a warm cup of tea by him before pressing a gentle kiss to the crown of his head, still smiling as you make your way upstairs to give him some privacy. he comes upstairs after half an hour, chucking the diary into his bedside table drawer before sprawling out onto the bed obnoxiously with a deafening groan. you whine and complain when he purposely stretches on you, gently crushing you with his bolder-esque shoulders with a massive grin on his face.

there were still bad days, though. days where he’d hide himself in the garage to work on some of his projects. but you’re both trying, he feels his heart break when you gently knock on the door, holding a plate of snacks and a cup of tea for him, and fuck, it makes his bad day slightly better.

that evening, he curls up besides you silently on the couch, his journal and pen in hand as he clears his throat. you curiously peer down as he begins to flick through the pages of chicken scratch, gently tapping the page as he looks up at you. he clears his throat, and begins to read out the sweetest paragraph, one that makes your eyes well up with tears.

“no idea where i would be without you, love. you make the darkest days of my life brighter than ever. you make life worth it.” he ends his speech , the timbre of his voice cracking with emotion as he looks at you. and right there, you know that through all the trials and tribulations you two will go through, you’re the love of simon riley’s life and he would never let you forget that.

#elexaria writes #cod x reader #simon riley x reader #simon riley #simon ghost x reader #simon ghost riley

[xjulixred45x]

I could't contain myself guys sorry--

Bro, do you realize how scary it would be to have Vox as a Yandere?

just imagine it. You could be one of his workers, maybe too good at your job, because not only do you do what Vox tells you without asking questions, but you also know what to say and what not to say to avoid a "tantrum" from him. or rather, when his insecurities attack with force like when Alastor returns.

Vox would probably be a somewhat condescending yandere (as seen with Val) but don't think you can't turn tables easily, if you stroke his ego enough, you can have him around your finger. but that doesn't make it any less dangerous for those around you.

He makes the typical 180 degree turn in attitude when it comes to Other Employees and when it comes to You. Damn, you may be the only one of his employees who gets paid vacations (or even vacations) or even birthday bonuses, things like that. He likes to give you his things or products with the excuse that "they are for testing" even if they have already been released on the market.

Like:

Vox: who the fuck eat My leftovers!?! WHENEVER WHO WAS I'M GOING TO-

Darling: it was me sir.

Vox:--give You the rest and take You out for lunch, You haven't eaten in the whole day AGAIN, didn't ya?

He definitely avoids conflict with you by hypnotizing you, when he starts to feel hostility, fear on your part or that you want to leave, he makes you "out of nowhere" have "ONE MORE TASK" and you can't help but do what he says.

and IT IS NOT just to avoid fights or for you to leave, it is something CONSTANT (once every two days MINIMUM), although Vox is not worried about your brain turning into mush due to its powers, it always keeps nutritious things in your diet and they come out relatively often , as you have to follow him everywhere.

Eventually he becomes more clingy and needy in this case, it's practically not that he's proposing to you or anything, he's just slowly dragging you into a relationship without you realizing it (because you're not lucid enough). Unless you develop a higher level of tolerance to his hypotonic trick, I don't think you'll notice his Red Flags.

I think it would be ESPECIALLY BAD if Darling is also a Sinner, because then they wouldn't even be able to get out of the pride ring to run away from Vox. leaving you with many fewer options and having to avoid all of Vox's technology, which you could only achieve by 1- going to the Cannibal Legion or 2- going to the Hazbin Hotel.

Running away is EXTREMELY DIFFICULT, not only because of his hypnotic trick, but because he literally has EYES EVERYWHERE, on every screen in hell. If you somehow manage to get away with it and run away, Vox would be SO ANGRY and looking for you all over hell with their screens.

Although definitely if you were gone more than a day, he would be more distraught than angry and would begin to despair. Even Val and Velvet would give him a hand because of how bad it would be.

Just imagine, thinking that you finally lost sight of Vox's search drones, without realizing that you stand in front of some store and VOX ITSELF appears on the screens :)

If you made the stupid decision to go to the Hazbin Hotel, Vox would be distraught and would even think that Alastor was somehow holding you hostage, obviously! Why would you go there if you knew his biggest enemy was there? Alastor must be using you as a bargaining chip! How dare he!?

(in this case, fortunately, the punishment is much less severe, but he would definitely monitor you for the rest of your life)

When he eventually gets you back (after a few days or even WEEKS of anguish) expect, first of all, to be in a mortal embrace that lasts AT LEAST 2 days and then receive your "punishment" which would be to be under hypnosis for AT LEAST 1 YEAR to be sure that this NEVER HAPPENS AGAIN.

Although calm down! He gives your mind breaks periodically because 1- he doesn't know if that would ultimate mess with your head and 2- it's nice to hear YOU talk instead of the robotic version.

When that year FINALLY ends, you will be a much more obedient, more terrified, sweeter version of You, according to Vox, like a frightened Deer. It was a long and hard process, but the good thing is that you don't have to do anything anymore! absolutely! Just do what he tells you and everything will be fine.

Shares, reglogs and comments are very welcome!

Not one of the Best yanderes to have, but Def not the worst

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