#god i have so many assignments due tommorow. i have to make a stupid fucking storybook and animation i just

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oh oh no and Here's The Crash things are Wonderful and Perfect and Loving and I am simply Augh and think Bad

#maybe i should go to bed early #i dont want to relapse #and maybe i could wake up early and work on the animation #i dont understand why i get like this #everything is good why am i miserable all of a sudden? #i wwish i could be held #i dont understand anything right now and its so confusing!!! #i want to bite someone #maybe i should draw something of miette and - #less mmiseeable that way Maybe? #my head hurts #god i have so many assignments due tommorow. i have to make a stupid fucking storybook and animation i just #i wish i could just not deal with anything #i hate school i want to lie on the ground forever #i hate ruin i hste rainy aahhhgg!!! i hate wveryone ever #theyre all stupid and make no sense #i fucking hate ruin #i dotn know why #i dont have a reason #he just makes me so mad #i think its just. sngry about things #i wanna spend more time with him but #agh #i want to word it i really do #i hate him #i dont think im in danger so this bad mood could be cured by curling up into blankets and watching something comforting #why am i so emotional i throw tantrums like this so often agh!!! #i think i know why i hate ruin and its the fact im clingy and hes drifty or whatever #theres stuff he says that i hate and makes me mad and we clash in mannerisms i suppose? i dont know #im too small to word i feel like epxloding itno crumbs i will simply die