#hate that when i Really love something i become too much of a perfectionist to create something related or based on it..

[picspammer]

Now I know that I can't make you stay But where's your heart?

Happy anniversary to Famous Last Words, released on this day in 2007

#my babygirl #famous last words #made so many edits i don't want to see this fire for at least a week #hate that when i Really love something i become too much of a perfectionist to create something related or based on it.. #ANYWAY #a bad dream 🤝🏻 famous last words: dreaming struggling w reality and being too tired to exist etc #my chemical romance #mcr #mcredit #samuel bayer #the black parade #idk man there are so many mcr tags idk anymore #gerard way #ray toro #frank iero #mikey way #i think it's so funny both were released on the same day and keane's song is the one that is dark as hell #favourite videos

[nohasslecastle]

As much as I love spreading the "Sister Beatrice top agenda", I do not think Beatrice would behave anywhere near confident on her first time with Ava.

First of all, it's my headcanon that before Beatrice became a nun she didn't actually get to live or experience a lot, so everything she could have learned in her teenage years, she actually didn't, because her parents were too strict, and she was just too afraid to stand up against them.

Her parents sent her to that boarding school probably because at some point she admitted she had romantic feelings for one of her friends, but that was it, Beatrice is oblivious to love, and relationships, and, of course, to sex.

Add that to the fact that Beatrice is a perfectionist, with a great fear of failure, a control freak that gets overwhelmed when she feels she can't handle the results of any given situation she's involved with... Beatrice doesn't quite know how she should behave around Ava, and the not knowing... that terrifies her.

It's not that she's worried Ava would make fun of her, of course, she would never. But there's just something inherently annoying about not being able to BE good at something, specially when the only way to learn 'that something' is... actually doing it. But, will she be able to be good enough for her? Will she be able to be what she thinks Ava deserves?

When Ava comes back, Beatrice doesn't immediately kiss her, she doesn't jump into a relationship with Ava and certainly she doesn't jump straight to bed with her, simply because she has absolutely no idea how to do it without making it weird. So, of course, their comeback kiss is started by Ava, their "what are we?" conversation is started by Ava, and their first time... guess what? Also started by Ava.

I picture this: after the re-encounter they didn't have much time to talk about what had happened between them, they were once again in survival mode and it's only one day after a big fight that they finally and unintentionally find themselves alone. Everything that happened is weightening on Beatrice and she's pretty much gay panicking every time Ava gets too close to her.

It's not that she doesn't want her, on the contrary she wants her so much she's overwhelmed by a feeling she had never felt before, or at least, not in a very long time and certainly not with enough maturity to understand it. When they last kissed it was a life or death situation, now they are just staring into each other's eyes, something clearly in the air, but everytime she tries to say anything, something holds her back.

Ava tries to give her space. Ava is everything that Beatrice is not. She's reckless, and a risk taker, and if she fails so what? she tries again. However, Ava is aware she closed a line last time... not only on Beatrice's vows but on a restriction she had put on herself. Ava is trying to make things right and Beatrice knows it but at the same time she's begging, begging, Ava to push her, because that's how they work right?

At some point the silence becomes too unbearable and Beatrice is frustrated. She hates that she can't be as resolved as she is in most of her activities and Ava is... kind of having fun at it, looking at the perfect sister Beatrice losing her shit it's fun, it's so unlike her it's amusing.

Ava is laughing and that only makes Beatrice's frustration grow. At some point Beatrice apologizes to Ava "I'm sorry, I really don't know what I'm doing and I hate it" and that's Ava's cue to do what she always does... push her a bit, give her courage. Ava walks slowy towards her "I don't need you to be an expert at this, Bea" she takes Beatrice's hands into hers "remember what I told you before I left? You don't need to be so perfect all the time." She lifts her hand to Bea's cheek and Bea gulps. She watches Bea lean into her touch, close her eyes, she brings her other hand to her chest and she can feel how fast her heart is beating "I only need you to be yourself." She says. And Bea opens her eyes and looks at her.

Ava leans close to her, slowly, giving her time to adjust to the intrusion and when she's a breath from her lips she whispers "can I kiss you again?", looking at her eyes again waiting for an answer. Beatrice would simply nod because, let's be honest, that woman is incapable to form a simple thought when Ava is *that* close to her.

And when they kiss... it's shy, and it's tame, and honestly, Beatrice doesn't know what to do with her hands. Ava would guide them, maybe to her hips "you can touch me" she would state. Ava would open her mouth, begging for *more*, she would let Bea's hair down, touch her shoulders, then her chest, she would find that first button and unpop it. Bea would startle at that, only for a moment, only because she isn't used to it, but looking at Ava, with her lips swollen, panting, big eyes... she would push that thought aside. She would kiss her again and this time she would allow herself to touch Ava, gently, but more determined.

Ava would start walking backwards, as if saying "take me to bed" and Bea would walk slowly before her, with her eyes closed, trying to focus only on Ava's lips because maybe that way she would be able to shut up all the insecurities. They would stumble on their way to the bed and Bea would try to say "I'm sorry" while Ava would put a finger on her lips and just laugh, and say a terrible pun to her. Being there Bea would doubt until she doesn't anymore, until she stops thinking and Ava becomes the only thing she's worried at.

#beatrice's top energy will be released but we need to get to that first #working through all those years of repression is not easy #my take on avatrice first time #bea would be shy as fuck #ava would be her normal self #again something im between a mini fic a character analysis and me havin a breakdown #warrior nun #warrior nun analysis #sister beatrice #ava silva #avatrice #save warrior nun #ava and beatrice #ficlet

[yourpsicodelicbitch]

Specific Venus Persona Chart observations

requested by @ahhihhuhhehhohhshit

warning: is short. I’m sorry. I’ve been really busy AAAAAAAAA I hate this but I’m gonna post soon and the way you guys deserve 🫶🏼🧜‍♀️

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Capricorn Venus at Libra degree (7° or 19°)

I think this placement is tricky bc capricorn venus is REALLY IM NOT FUCKING KIDDING, really logical when it comes to enter a relationship, when it comes to love -something serious- and libra degree alterates this control of situationships that capricorn venus always have had. The libra degree pushing it with the idealization of people, of having a perfect relationship that’s not realistic at all. Venus in the Venus Persona Chart gives us more detail about how you act when you’re in love, what you think it’s more important, preferences etc. Capricorn Venus doesn’t express their feelings easily and openly. They’re really cautious and logical when it’s about getting into a relationship. They don’t even put effort or waste their energy when they see it’s not necessary. BUT THEYRE trying so hard bc of the libra degree, that makes them idealize every little detail that the other made just bc their mind be always activating the “what if” and “love of movies” mode. I SWEAR this combination makes the individual THINK TOO MUCH that their opportunities go away. Earth + Air is not the best if you’re looking for someone that’s not a perfectionist, indecisive, a little bit of a maniac control. They’re CAUTIOUS. They could’ve passive aggressive. They don’t trust easily either and it takes them a lot of times to have interest in someone bc they put the “but” in front of their emotions. They block their emotions bc their goals are more important than wasting their valuable time with love: they’re afraid of being judge and not being loved for who they truly are, above all those 12942894725 layers they built. They put the excuse that no one meets their standards -that are literally only presented on a movie-. The libra degree makes them be not direct at all, they want the other to approach but the capricorn Venus be like “I have to have control, I’m too independent for this shit, that’s not gonna happen bc I’m a BAD BETCH and I’m too much for others -okay the last part may be exaggerated but they’ll be having their narcissistic egocentric bust, more than usual-. They put too often others first and they end up desiring that someone would do the same, even if it’s TOO difficult to admit for them. They have a lot of pride or that pride hide something…: inside that shell there’s a blunt soft heart that has been betrayed.

the following ones are actually mine🧍 Why do I have to expose myself this way? doesn’t matter 😚

+ Libra moon

They feel comfort when in the relationship there’s fair communicating, were each part listen to each other and let them express what worries them, what’s happening WITHOUT judging. They feel safe when they know their partner balance them, when they know they don’t hold all the weight, that they’ll don’t have to take care of the other or have to advice the other always: that there’s reciprocation.

+ Pluto 1H

This placement makes you have to learn throughout your life about your relationship with yourself, so that the caterpillar comes out of its cocoon and becomes a butterfly 😩. Transform. This placement have made a lot of introspection, they truly have analyzed themselves or every part of their mind ¿why? bc they may be into psychology, astrology or numerology, something that have to do with the occult -more than superficial, that’s depth-. And also bc they have past a infinity of experiences that made them learn and obtain knowledge, for at least, the human itself.

+ Ascendant square Uranus

This aspect makes people want to be/be unexpected with others, wants their relationships to be moody, to be full of surprises bc if don’t they’ll get bored and they’ll don’t be satisfied. They want changes and changes in a way that’s not even natural or human? They desire more and more in terms of changes and the unexpected that they fucked up their relationships just bc the other didn’t act the way they expected. They expect others to reciprocate that energy. Even though all of that, they’re ORIGINAL and UNIQUE and will surprise you everyday with their behavior that also surprises them.

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❀ Based on my personal experience and what I’ve analyzed in my surroundings.

❀ English is not my first language.

❀ I’m not a profesional astrologer, I just love astrology and I’m willing to learn.

Thank youu. baibaiii🫣🫶🏼💋

Do not copy. Please give me credits.

#venus persona chart #venus #astrology #astro observations #pinterest #astrologia #astro posts #astro notes #astro placements #pluto #libra moon #ascendant square uranus #uranus #ascendant

[sp4cepunisher]

just a scratch [ e.williams ]

summary ; ellie takes care of you when you return home injured from being on patrol with dina.

warnings ; 18+ themes, minors dni ! strong language, some depictions of an injury [ skin-tearing, blood, a brief mention of amputation ], over-protective + major girlfriend!ellie vibes. she just loves you a lot tbh, and hates to see you hurt.

author’s note ; hhhhiiiii hi :D i decided to rewrite this! not unlike all of the other things that i have written + will continue to write, i scrutinised the previous version until i decided to delete it + make it better!!! it was labelled fluff but, like?? it wasn’t giving enough fluff?? i wanted protective gf ellie, but it just seemed rushed to me, to be honest. saying this, i reallyreallyreally appreciate the love you guys gave that tragic attempt at a return to this community!!! it made me super happy + spurred me on to want to rewrite it and make it better for you!!! we all deserve having sweet, caring, sometimes a little over-protective ellie in our lives + we deserve it to be written well!!!! i hope you can all enjoy this re-draft even more, and thank you for always being so patient + understanding when it comes to my obsession over the things that i post here!!! i’m just a bit of a perfectionist when i write, but i’m really happy with how this has turned out!!! as always, please let me know your thoughts + enjooooooy!!!! <3

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ellie’s love for you could have moved mountains; defied gravity; grown wings and soared above the clouds with determination to land on the sun. solid in how it had nestled itself into the pit of her heart and beautiful in the way it had developed buds which had flowered over time, the way the girl had allowed herself to feel for you for was something entirely indescribable. she had tried to write about it in her journal, and she had tried to talk about it in front of jesse, or dina— even joel, at times. but every single attempt seemed to result in scribbles, entire pages being torn out, or incoherent trains of thought which were often met with furrowed eyebrows. not to mention the further questions that would make her flush her own least favourite shade of pink, trip over her words as if they were cementing her feet between them, and that she didn’t have the answers to. she much preferred to express her love for you in less obvious ways— more private ways, like letting you take the first shower of the morning to make the most of the limited hot water, frying your eggs first because she knew that you didn’t like it when the pan got too greasy, or letting you pick the evening’s movie because she loved your concentration face when it came to watching you sift through her selection of dvds. she was loving, in a way that you hadn’t realised she could be. granted, she still got shy about it, even in front of you, but although useless when it came to verbalising her feelings, there was one thing that ellie was a master at:

keeping you safe.

a part of her believed that it was her sole duty, putting herself before you in every scenario that she found herself in with you at her side. ingrained in her; like a drug mingled with the blood in her veins, a language that she hadn’t remembered being taught but was fluent in, nevertheless. whether it was fighting the infected or the healthy, ellie was almost entirely fearless either way. and it wasn’t that she doubted your ability to look out for yourself, nor did she think that she could execute any of it better than you. it simply stemmed from her instinct to protect you, because she loved you. she had become sort of obsessed with it; with keeping you strapped to her side like her gun in its holster, tattooed forearm outstretched behind her like the arrow on a compass always displaying the right way to turn; ellie’s way to turn. and alongside this determination to look after you came a tendency to maintain a certain sense of disdain for letting you venture out on patrols and runs with anybody else, because ellie knew that nobody could protect you like she was sure she could— it was a kind of promise to herself, and to you, that your girlfriend had succeeded in keeping every single time the opportunity arose, without ever faltering. you couldn’t remember a time where you had ever returned home injured from a run or a patrol with ellie. you had barely even been sore.

the only exception to this rule of sorts that she had instilled within herself was when she was tied down with something else in jackson or elsewhere, and on this day in particular, when dina came to ask her if it was cool if you accompanied her on patrol, she found herself in this exact position; it was out of her control, because she knew that keeping her word to maria and helping her to set up the new routes for the next few weeks of runs and patrols was what she had agreed to, and she would stick to her promise. she couldn’t offer to go with dina herself, nor take her spot to keep you safe. she had no choice but to give in, and she always hated doing that.

“you’re helping maria here, and (y/n)’s free. i’ll bring her back,” dina reassured your girlfriend when she caught the look that she shot her way. she was well aware of the girl’s protective nature. if anything was to happen to you on her watch, dina wouldn’t put the idea of murder past ellie for a second. “i promise.”

“that’s a pretty big promise,” ellie’s brow furrowed, the lines that appeared on her face mimicking those that she had spent the past half hour etching onto the map in front of her; deep, stretching way past her control and branching off into unknown territory; beyond the safety that she knew she could provide. in a nutshell she trusted dina, but trusting her enough to relax against her promise to bring you back from a world that was merciless— one that was not lenient to those that had loved ones waiting for them at home, giving them a pass from death or mutilation simply because they had people to return to— was a different thing altogether. the world had become too foreign to care. a promise was nothing. she twirled the pen around between her fingers. “did she say she’d go?”

“uh, yeah,” dina exhaled, resting a fist on the table beside her and leaning into it. “yeah, she said she was up for it.”

ellie almost rolled her eyes at this. of course you had. she knew that you always wished that you could be in fifty places at once just to ensure that you didn’t let anybody down, or disrupt anyone’s plans. you were a people-pleaser, but not the bad kind. that’s what, on top of everything else, also bugged ellie. her conscience was fighting with itself; she knew that letting you go out of jackson without her would plague her mind for the rest of the day until your return, the urge to simply drop everything and make herself available to you gnawing at her bones right to the marrow, but she also knew that you wanted to help. it was in your nature. you were utterly good. the visual that was playing in her head was accurate, knowing you well enough to predict the willing nod that you had offered in response to dina’s question, masking the overriding sense of knowing better that had kicked your own conscience into consciousness; she knew that you had been the one that had told dina to come and double check with her, partly as a surefire way of letting her know where you would be for the rest of the day, but also as a way of gauging her general thoughts on it— she knew that you knew how protective she was of you, and at the same time as wanting to drop everything that she had agreed to do, to tell dina that she was happy to take this patrol and then make her way to your shared home just to toss your sneakers your way in a silent gesture of i’m here. let’s go., ellie decided against it. she smoothed the pad of her thumb over the rounded side of the pen that remained still gripped in her hand, and found that her gaze had involuntarily returned to the map before her. her eyes trailed over all of the possible routes that could be taken upon exiting jackson, mental grip slipping as she attempted to unscrew the stubborn lid on her memory in order to remember which paths hadn’t been cleared in a while.

“where are you heading?”

“north, straight up through the woods and past miller cabin.”

ellie’s thoughts wavered, and she pressed the tip of her pen into the wooden tabletop. the area north of jackson hadn’t been cleared in a few weeks, she knew that for sure. god knows how many more infected had shown up and were inhabiting it now— she even had the audacity to silently question whether or not dina would even be able to handle it. she also wondered if her protective nature was a sort of blessing in disguise; her instinct to take the lead every time, to reassure you that she would scope out the stagnant corridors which loomed like long, ghostly faces before you could follow in behind her was perhaps the wrong way to go about ensuring your safety. autonomy was probably more beneficial to you than following your girlfriend’s every move like her shadow. potential outcomes then began to race through her mind; images of you getting stuck between too many infected and not having anywhere else to turn; of dina assuming that splitting up and taking different routes would be a good idea, resulting in your disappearance and failure to return to jackson which would leave everybody simply assuming the worst. moving on. just another name amongst warnings. something to learn from. the idea that the heartbeat that she had spent months studying while you slept as it pulsed in the side of your neck could be stilled with just one wrong move made ellie’s stomach clench. that she would be the only one to inhabit the sheets within her bed; the imprint of your head in the pillow next to hers would become a sacred treasure, untouched, and encased in glass within the museum of ellie’s heart. the thought made her cringe.

the girl looked up at dina again, chewing the inside of her cheek before letting her jaw relax. “i mean, i can’t really stop you,” she felt her body sink into itself slightly, the words she spoke suddenly accompanied by a release of breath that she wasn’t too familiar with— a kind of letting go that felt unnatural, and that left its remnants wedged between her lungs. “if she said she’d go, then i guess she’s happy to go.”

“we’ll be careful. i’ll look out for her.”

ellie didn’t respond. she felt as though she couldn’t. instead, she felt herself forced to focus on the kind of heat that had begun rising at the very top of her spine and which was spreading like a disease up her neck, burning the spongiest part of her skull and trailing through to her jaw as dina’s shadow spanned out across the table like the worst kind of raincloud that was now looming over the map in front of her; over your name which she had absentmindedly carved into the table with the inky nib of her pen.

. . .

the evening sun was a bulbous yolk in the evening sky, bidding goodnight to the people of jackson. its setting behind the hammock of mountains and trees signalled the time to turn in for most, but for ellie it acted as the pendulum at the base of the clock that had loomed in the sky since you had left for miller cabin with dina about four hours earlier. it was as if it was refusing to set until you came home. stationary; a light to guide you back to safety. back to ellie.

her room felt stale. the sun was doing a terrible job at defrosting the cold air that lingered between ellie and her window, which she felt as though she hadn’t stopped looking out of since she arrived inside. maybe she hadn’t. like it was some kind of crystal ball that would somehow reveal your fate if she stared for long enough. she was unsure of how much time had passed, the spotlight of her mind shining solely and directly at the thought of you— how far you’d made it, what you’d found, if you were doing okay. she tried her very best to keep her faith in dina alive, trying to tell herself with a few dismissive shakes of the head and shrugs of the shoulders that you would be fine, soon to be returning home to her with barely a hair out of place, and your usual manner; rational, kind, always happy to see your girlfriend. and part of ellie felt moronic for spending the entirety of her day worrying, battling with a multiplicity of thoughts, and tearing the inside of her cheek to shreds, but the other part of her knew that it was only natural— she’d had enough of losing those she loved, and she wasn’t about to let her pride get the better of her. not this time.

the click of the latch on the door broke her train of thought, and her head snapped towards the sound so quickly that it was a surprise that it didn’t come detached from her neck altogether and land with a dull thump on the rug below her bed. she watched intently as a hand pushed firmly against the door, and a large shoe promptly wedged itself between the doorframe and the wood to help prop it open. slightly muffled voices were honestly hard to make out through the small gap in the door due to their gentle tone, but ellie could tell that it was you by the little laugh she heard pass through. her favourite sound. lifting herself from the mattress, the girl soon made quick work of swinging her legs over the side of her bed and even quicker work of standing up once she properly processed what was going on: jesse entered first, and ellie’s eyebrows furrowed at the sight that followed; his arm was tucked snugly beneath your armpit to support you as best he could in your footing that you were barely succeeding in achieving on one foot. it wasn’t long before your girlfriend noticed the large dark patch that had stained the outside of your now torn jeans just above your kneecap and which, in certain lights, she could see was a kind of black crimson. the worst kind, and bigger than she was comfortable with.

“jesus fucking christ,” she exhaled, her breath a little shaky. dina followed suit with your backpack draped over her shoulder, and her head tilting slightly to ensure your path to the couch was clear as jesse guided you through the small living space. she took wider steps to get ahead of the both of you, clearing a space atop the blankets for you. “is that—“

“it’s not,” dina was quick to interrupt ellie’s sentence, knowing exactly what the girl would say upon seeing your injury, almost before ellie did. jesse gradually let his arm slip from your body, mumbling a few words of encouragement as you sunk down onto the couch with a small intake of breath. “ellie, it’s not.”

“then what the fuck happened?”

“ellie, i’m fine.” you spoke.

the girl raised her eyebrows. “well, shit, (y/n). i don’t believe you.”

“i slipped— jesus,” you exhaled, face wrinkling up in considerable discomfort as jesse lifted your leg by your calve and propped it up on the coffee table in front of the couch. “i just slipped and it wasn’t anybody’s fault but mine.” you watched as your girlfriend made her way around the table to stand beside you, reaching a hand out to unstick the few pieces of hair that lay flush against your forehead with clammy perspiration, her callused thumb brushing over your forehead affectionately, but also as if to reassure herself that you were really there. that you had really made it home.

“there was a blockage along the path,” dina spoke quietly, as if slightly apprehensive about whether to join the discussion at all. “just before we reached miller’s cabin. tree fell, crushed a few cars, fenced a lot of infected in.”

“it was my idea to climb on top of the cars,” you used your hands to better recount your failed plan of action, tilting your open palms slightly to mimic your movements. “i was gonna try and, like, jump onto one of the window ledges across from them to see if there was a way around, but i didn’t even make it that far. my, fucking… foot slipped, and i tore my leg on a piece of rogue metal.”

ellie sighed heavily, filling the empty space beside you with a gentle squeak of the springs and being especially careful not to cause you any more pain with her body weight against the cushions. “fuck me, (y/n). why did you do that?” she questioned you, although secretly she knew the answer; it was you all over, never wanting to turn back from anything without being able to say you tried. “why the hell did you do that?”

you shrugged, lips parting as you tried to justify your stupidity in a way that ellie would truly believe, and dina placed your backpack down on the floor beside the couch. “we dressed the wound once we got far enough down the path. it’s sterile, and we managed to stop the bleeding,” she explained before you could speak. “jesse came out and helped me bring her in when he saw us arrive.”

“why didn’t you come and get me?”

you gave ellie a knowing look, and it was almost enough to cause the girl to crack a small smile. almost.

“she didn’t wanna worry you, dude.” there was even a smile in jesse’s voice, and you watched as he extended an arm to the wall and leaned his entire weight against it.

“didn’t want you jumping to conclusions,” you whispered teasingly, your eyes trailing over ellie’s face in an attempt to memorise every single part of it.

the brunette scoffed a small laugh, and for a second, from the look on her face, you wondered whether she was about to cry. the horrible thought flashed over your mind when you clocked the sudden shine that glossed her eyes, and the slight wrinkle between her eyebrows. from the way her teeth were pulling at the inside of her cheek, you knew that she was frustrated; upset with you; upset with herself. “…fuck.”

“we’ll give you guys some space,” dina spoke after a small pause in the conversation with a small nod, turning her body towards the front door and giving jesse a small nudge to the ribs. “let you get some rest.”

you looked over at the two of them, pressing your mouth into a tight-lipped smile. “thanks, you guys. don’t know what i would have done without you.”

jesse cocked a playful brow. “well, you wouldn’t have that giant gash in your thigh if it wasn’t for dina. in fact, you wouldn’t have even been out there if it wasn’t for—” his words were halted by a heavy smack to the shoulder from the girl behind him, which prompted him to twist the doorknob, and after which he uttered a small, “ow! why are you so violent?”

“goodnight, you two,” dina sighed, and glanced over her shoulder at the two of you. “feel better soon, okay, (y/n)?”

“thanks for bringing her home, dina. for looking after her.” ellie finally spoke, and dina turned back around for a moment upon stepping out into the night’s air

“i tried. a promise is a promise.” she shot you both a small smile, before pulling the door closed with a final click.

despite your injury, ellie had to admit to herself that her room was warmer with your return. she let her eyes scan over your profile, lingering slightly on the slope of your nose bridge, and the sculpted dip of your philtrum. her eyes fell to the side of your neck, and she felt herself visibly relax when she managed to clock the small thumping of your pulse. the same pulse she so often studied while you slept. “babe,” she whispered, regaining your full attention and earning her a small hum. “you’re okay?”

your face softened slightly, and you nodded. “yeah, ell. i’m okay.” she lifted a hand and placed it both reassuringly and gently on your good leg, giving your knee a squeeze before carefully leaning over your body and reaching for your backpack.

“please,” she huffed, plonking the bag down on her knees and retrieving your water bottle from inside. “drink something.” you complied to your girlfriend’s orders, letting her hand you the bottle and taking a few swigs from it to make your girlfriend happy. the water felt good as it swilled down your throat, softening the scratchiness and somehow lessening the pain in your thigh for a split second, though you were grateful for the momentary relief nevertheless. screwing the lid back onto the top, you placed the bottle beside you on the couch and turned your head to look at ellie again. “you could’ve died.” you watched her lips as she whispered.

you barely shrugged. “but i didn’t.”

ellie sighed. “fuck, (y/n).”

“ellie. i’m right here,” you insisted, though your voice remained soft and shrouded in moonlight. “yeah, i got hurt. and yeah, it sucks. but it will heal, and i’m here, and i’ll be okay.”

this wasn’t the first time that ellie was rendered pretty speechless by your ability to comfort her with a handful of simple, yet meaningful words. despite thinking of you all day, almost worrying herself into a mental decline and narrowly avoiding fucking up the work she completed for maria, you had immediately calmed her nerves. you somehow always knew how to relax her tense muscles, unclench her gritted teeth, and supply her with fresh air to breathe. here you were; raw beneath your bandage, still adorned in your blood-stained clothes, and probably exhausted. but you were alive; here, and breathing; here, and still as pretty as she had seen you that same morning, barely succeeding in keeping your heavy eyelids open as the two of you lay dozing in the sun-soaked bedsheets; here, and reassuring your girlfriend that things were alright.

“i love you,” the girl whispered, leaning a little closer just to tilt her chin upwards and press the gentlest of kisses to skin between your eyebrows. “i love you so much. i was, like, shitting my pants all day. hated not knowing whether or not you were okay. felt helpless.” her voice had fallen into a mumble, and you looked up at her with a hint of a smile.

“and i love you. even if you do worry too much.”

a shadow of a smile flickered over ellie’s lips, and she licked over them. “i worry for a reason,” she chuckled quietly, barely even loud enough for you to hear despite sitting so close to her. “clearly. how long sinced dina dressed your leg?”

you glanced down toward the coffee table, turning your leg to the side slightly to get a better look at the stain on your jeans to check that it hadn’t spread any wider, and to ensure ensure that you hadn’t bled through the barrier. “uhh, maybe… i don’t know, a couple of hours ago?” you returned your gaze to the girl beside you, whose own eyes were fixed on the maroon bloodstain.

“and you promise it doesn’t hurt? you don’t need me to clean it, change the bandage?”

“i promise.”

the girl was quiet for a moment, gaze trailing back up your leg before she turned her head and found your eyes. “is it bad under there?” she whispered, as if frightened of the answer. you shook your head gently, silently judging yourself for the way in which your heart fluttered at the concern that tainted ellie’s tone. you knew she would have been worried sick all day, but you couldn’t help but find it just slightly amusing how hard her outer shell appeared to everyone else. to those who didn’t know her. to anyone that wasn’t you.

“oh, yeah,” you whispered, trying to maintain a degree of seriousness in your voice, and ellie’s breath caught in her throat. “dina didn’t tell you, but, like… she almost had to perform the world’s first amputation while on horseback.” you couldn’t hold back the grin that tugged your mouth upwards, along with the heavy exhale that accompanied it through your nose. your smile grew wider when you watched as ellie noticeably relaxed upon realising that you were joking, and rolled her eyes.

“you’re so sick, you know that? sick and fucking twisted!” she leaned her elbow on the arm of the couch and rested the side of her head against her open palm. “jesusfuckingchrist.”

“i’m okay, ellie, i promise.” you reassured her, now in all seriousness. “i know that the blood probably makes it look scary, but it’s really not that bad. just a small gash.” extending a hand, you placed it on your girlfriend’s jean-clad thigh and gave it a squeeze, smoothing your little finger over her kneecap. the girl’s ivy eyes caught onto yours in a way that they had before, but that you swore to yourself over, and over again that you would never get used to: utterly loving, with no shadowed thoughts to cloud over it, and completely unapologetic, at that. with a small shuffle of her legs, and lifting her head from her hand, she got herself closer to you and took a second to lick over her lips.

“come here,” she whispered, hooking her pointer finger beneath your chin and reeling you forwards slightly. you pretty much immediately melted into her touch, allowing her to mould you into whatever position she wanted you aided by just her hands, and captured her lips with yours as they brushed. in a chaste, yet meaningful kiss, you brought your hand from her leg and used it to cup her face, pushing away a strand of her auburn hair behind her ear. her own hand trailed up your arm, briefly warming the skin beneath your clothes before resting on the dip of your shoulder, lingering there even after the gentle kiss came to an end. “i love you,” ellie spoke, the tip of her nose almost slow dancing with yours as they brushed. “i don’t know what i’d do if i lost you.”

you offered her a small smile, lifting your shoulders in a shy little shrug. “and you’ll never know. ‘cause i’ll always be here.” your sweet, yet earnest words made ellie smile, the greenest part of her eyes twinkling optimistically right before you, like a shooting star passing through the sky just for less than a second, but for long enough to remember its short presence forever. she pressed one last short, firm kiss to your lips before glancing over her shoulder at your shared bed.

“you should lay down, babe.”

pulling at the corner of your lip with your teeth, you nod. “soon. wanna stay here with you, just a little longer,” ellie’s small smile brought another one to your own lips, and you elbowed her side lightly. “missed you.”

“missed you. when i wasn’t busy almost killing myself over what could’ve happened to you, and almost fucking up maria’s maps.” she mumbled, and you gave an amused hum.

“well, at least assuming the worst made this situation look a whole lot better. right?”

ellie pulled a face, twirling a piece of your hair that she had picked up somewhere along the way around her two fingers. “i wouldn’t say that, but, yeah. i’m definitely happy that you aren’t dead.”

you raised your eyebrows, scoffing a laugh and letting your head fall back against the couch. “thanks, ell. i’m happy i’m not dead, either.”

#ellie williams x reader #ellie williams angst #ellie williams fluff

[astroyongie]

ZeroBaseOne January Reading 2024

note. please take it lightly and enjoy

HanBin

Love: he is currently single after he had been friendzoned. I dont think that he is actively searching for a relationship at the moment. Hanbin is learning o have more self respect for himself and he has stopped talking with people on social media to give himself some time 

Career: He is frustrated with the group when it comes to the recognition. He feels like ZB1 isnt being recognized enough and eh wants to do more. However his hasty energy can become overwhelming for his group so he needs to learn to calm down a little and give time to things 

Self: I believe that eh has a lot go negative self thoughts and talks which isnt the best for his mental health. He is also the type that have been restricting himself a lot (probably diet?). in any case he isnt in a good place mentally 

JiWoong

Love: Jiwoong is in love and dating at the moment (this is someone he dated even during his trainee period). As far as I can see, his relationship is healthy and going well. He is happy which is the only thing that matters 

Career: in contrast with Hanbin, Jiwoong is fairly positive with the group and he believes that they have already achieved a lot and that they just need to keep working for things to work their way. He is very career focused 

Self: he is a perfectionist and he struggles a little with what he can’t do well and what he cannot achieve. He tries very hard to keep a perfect image of idol and this can be complicated with time 

Hao

Love: he is in love with someone but he is single. He also knows that the person he likes doesnt love him back but that doesnt seem to disturb him much. He knows about it and he is still loving the person and waiting what life has to give them (yet he doesnt restrict himself and he can talk with other people) 

Career: he has so much anxiety when it comes to his job and his career because he doesnt know what the future holds for hate group. This lack foresight is what makes him anxious. He fears the unknown and he thinks the company are doing a terrible job when it comes to scheduling work. 

Self: he is going through a rough moment physically and also mentally. I think both are linked, when he isnt doing well mentally his body feels more sick and tired. And when he is having body aches that reflects itself on his motivations 

Matthew

Love: his situation is rather complicated. He isnt in a relationship but his sponsorship is very present on his life. I think theres probably some toxic or restriction going on here when it comes to his love life, but I can’t really unclutter this 

Career: he is calm and serene when it comes to his career. He trusts that things are going to be in their favor and he is finding time for his health mid work. Matthew seem to be very conscious of his idol image and he wants to be someone who’s calm and collected 

Self: again, he is doing rather well. He is someone who sticks with his routine to keep his mental and his physical form sane. He is also someone who is very focused on his work and as long as that is okay, he feel good too. 

TaeRae

Love: he is single at the moment but he might have a crush on someone that works close to him. However for the moment he hasn’t been frontal about his feelings and he is just seeing things from afar. He also sees this crush as something that will pass with time 

Career: theres some draaaamaaaa happening here I see ?? Taerae is very jealous of someone in the group and that always puts him in a moody energy whenever that members gets parts that he would wish to have. He is aware this is stupid but he can’t help it 

Self: his mind has been very focused on his expenses. He tries his best to pay off his debts and keeping as much money as he can so he doesnt lose control and also because he wants to have a financial background that sticks in case this goes downwards. 

Ricky

Love: Okay Ricky is comigo out of a very harsh breakuo that he needed to conduct after his debut. This breakup was career decision and it did really hurt him to leave that person behind. But it was a sacrifice he had to do (or so, he believes) 

Career: he honestly sees expansion when it comes to his career. He has a good sponsorship behind him and it seems here that the company is also favoring him when it comes to overseas projects. Ricky will have a busy year thats for Sure

Self: he feel very bad overall because of his relationship that he had to break and thus breaking the heart of the person he cared for. But he also feels bad for his members, and he might sometimes be a little to harsh with some of them 

GyuVin

Love: his love life started really badly. Gyuvin had a crush on someone and that person rejected him. Because of that he feels like he isnt worth of love and he keeps comparing himself to other guys to see what he lacks. 

Career: he has been very upset about his career, very restless. I believe that he works a lot and he pushes himself a lot because he has impostor syndrome and the believe he isnt on the same level than the other members 

Self: despite that he tries his best to stay focused and to stay stable (he does struggle in this). Just like Taerae he is also focusing a lot on money management  

GunWook

Love: he is a little impulsive.. I believe that he is single and that he might have recently scared one girl by being a little too pushy with them (probably to get his number). I think he lacks comprehension in these type of things 

Career: expect something involving him happening (this could be a rumor or a scandal or his name being thrown around for no reason) or it could be something more positive (him having some type of solo work, like photoshoot, being talked most in a comeback or being a mc, ect

Self: he is self limiting himself a lot when it comes to his personality. I believe he has the idol image in the group that his the total oposite of what he truly is since it makes him frustrated 

YuJin

Love: I dont know his age since he is the Maknae but it does seem nevertheless that he is in a relationship with someone as well (probably someone he met at school). I dont have much to say other that he is too, very happy 

Career: he is happy with his career but he still thinks that a lot of things aunt okay. He might sometimes avoid some of his co workers or have some conflicts with other members for things he judges stupid

Self: he is procrastinating a lot in his opinion. He doesnt feel like he is doing much in the group and he feel like he isnt working a lot either compared to th other members but he also doesn’t have the energy to do so 

#ZeroBaseOne #ZeroBaseOne reading #ZeroBaseOne tarot #ZeroBaseOne astrology #ZeroBaseOne headcanons #ZeroBaseOne imagines #ZeroBaseOne scenarios

[v3nusxsky]

Could I request a lady lesso X ever!reader. R is in their final year of school about to graduate (and is 18) they are the model student because of their extremely strict parents; head girl, perfect scores and always willing to help anyone in need. However their facade of perfection is slowly crumbling around them because of their massive crush on lady lesso who is the only one who sees through all of the perfectionist control freak bs r holds up as being them when in reality their a mess of anxiety and depression. Their work load, mental health and crush eventually become too much for r to handle and they end up having a breakdown in the middle of a school assembly about how to become the best version of yourself. They end up running out and lesso finds them contemplating ending things. R explains everything to lesso and how as an ever they should never have allowed themself to fall for lesso as they will no doubt be disowned by their family for being gay and in love with a never and how no matter what they've tried they can't stop the feelings they have. R being so worked up and without thinking ends up kissing lesso but lesso tells r to stop because she thinks she is the reason for rs suicidal thoughts which leads r to say they don't regret falling in love with her they only regret letting their family own them and couldn't handle not being with lesso. It ends with them happy together and lesso helping r figure out how to put less pressure on themself.

Forbidden Love

*Authors note ~ this one is gonna be a tough one. Yet I'd be lying if I said I didn't have amazing fun writing it. This happens to be one of my favourite tropes*

Trigger warning~ burning out, anxiety and depression hints of homophobia suicidal thoughts

Prompt~ see ask^^^

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You had quite the reputation in the school for good and evil. Your final year now, you had strings of awards and certificates to celebrate every achievement you had. You were head girl, a straight A student and always going above and beyond for anyone who needs it. The professors absolutely adore you, for years you'd managed to keep this facade up. The perfect child, student and the friend. Yet you held secrets, buried so deep within yourself, that's you almost didn't know they were there. Almost.

It was forbidden you knew that. A massive red warning sign screaming for you to avoid. Not only were you not supposed to be Sapphic but she was your teacher. Sapphic felt right for you, lesbian although accurate you didn't feel as comfortable with the label. The negative associations with it made you really hate yourself, yet sapphic didn't have those connections and it sounded softer and lighter. You didn't bother telling anyone, it was a secret you'd take to the grave with you, after all you couldn't come out. No your parents would lose it at you. And you'd lose that reputation you'd fought so hard to build. You would truly be a disappointment and that thought alone killed you.

You were emotional, you knew that, yet you didn't expect the school assembly to get you in such a state. All the feelings of fear, disgust, anxiety, and pure hate bubble within you. Your need to be in control and protect your reputation causing you to burn out and truthfully hate yourself. You didn't want to live a lie but you couldn't be yourself either, that was something you didn't want either. The assembly hit you hard, all about being who you are accepting yourself and others despite your differences. A constant reminder that you weren't perfect and you never would be. And that thought caused tears to force themselves free from the confines of your eyes, the air struggling to inflate your lungs as your body trembled. Your legs instantly started to carry you from the hall itself, unsure where you were going, you just continued to mindlessly run.

Your secret girlfriend noticed you left abruptly and left instantly after, hot on your heels. When she found you, you looked absolutely broken, you'd curled up, back to the wall sobbing and mumbling about how you can't do this anymore. Things needed to stop. To change. But you didn't want it. But you did. Your thoughts all jumbled and truly making no sense for the older women.

"Little one?" She murmured grabbing your attention and you instantly spilled everything. About how you shouldn't have fallen for the women, about how you needed to be perfection and nothing less. Knowing that as soon as this came out you'd be disowned and lose everything yet you couldn't fight your feelings for her. You didn't want to truly. But everything was so hard and confusing. Why couldn't you just be you, and love who you want to love? You couldn't do this anymore and you couldn't stop yourself, you lurched forward and pressed your lips to Lady Lesso. The kiss was sweet and hesitant and you'd be lying if you said the way she pulled back from you hurt. The rejection you felt worse than anything else you'd been previously feeling. You'd completely made a fool of yourself. Why would she want you?

"Little one, you can't, we can't, I can't be the reason you feel like this love. Don't get me wrong I want you. I truly do, I desire you more than anything else but I can't be the cause of this pain" you mumbled the hurt and confusion was soaking her words and your heart broke. "Leo, no! I don't regret loving you. You're the best thing that ever happened to me. I just wish I could do it openly. Freely. Where my parents didn't have so much control over me. I need you Leo. Please don't leave me. I love you and I'll never regret it."you whimpered holding her gaze, eyes pleading with her to hear your words and see the truth in them.

"Little one, I'm so so sorry my love. I'm here. We will take it slow darling. Start to slowly take things off that beautiful mind of yours okay? Work on making you feel content in your own skin. I'll be here all the way okay?" She murmured and you nodded throwing yourself into her arms mumbling thanks and reassurance of your love for her. She held you until you had calmed yourself down before guiding your lips to meet hers in a sweet kiss. Claiming you as hers. And you kissed back instantly, loving just how right it felt. Maybe you'd lose your family but you'd be free and with your Leo and that would be worth it all

Word count ~1138

#fanfic #lady lesso #sfgae #leonora lesso #lady lesso x reader #lesso x reader #lady leonora lesso #dean of evil #tsfgae #sfgaefanfic #leonora lesso x reader

[oleander-nin]

Hi again, I'm that same person that sent that long ask earlier lol

Okay ESPECIALLY after the poll you put up, I wanna say again that WE ALL LOVE YOU STOP BEATING YOURSELF UP /p

I'm stuck between wanting to be heartfelt and encouraging or just shaking you by the shoulders and scream at you /aff /pos

Ollie, genuinely, don't push yourself too hard. Yeah we love what you write, but we understand that you're a person with a life. You do not owe us anything.

Forgive me if I'm wrong, or maybe looking too far into this, but I feel like you're a perfectionist? And that you feel you have to crank things out quickly and it all has to be perfect. Maybe you feel somehow indebted to give us things to read. and lemme tell you, it's very easy to get stuck in a loop of "do the creative thing for your followers or else". That is, if you aren't in that loop already. I'm sorry, know I'm assuming a lot, and I'm not meaning to pry.

I just say this because I recognize the way you talk in your tags or authors notes. I'm not an author, but I used to post art. I kept getting more frustrated with myself, (and I can definitely tell you are too). I lost motivation, and it stopped being fun pretty quickly because I kept thinking "it needs to be perfect" or "I need to create faster" all for the sake of an audience. So when you apologize, or seem to value your writing so little, it just makes me worry that you're in that same loop. Heck, I mean, I still don't make art often, I still have perfectionist issues and worry about how fast I can create. But it's becoming fun again, slowly.

I just hope that writing is still something you like to do. I would hate for your passion for writing to be squandered by the pressure and expectations of an audience. I know you have a lot going on right now, even if you try and act like you should be able to push through it and write, but please take care of yourself. If the February challenge is getting too difficult, please don't feel like there's any shame in limiting your workload. We'll be happy with whatever you make, and I'll be even happier if I know you actually enjoyed writing it. /gen

WOW this is long I'm sorry lmao. I've been at this for like half an hour. (Do asks have a word limit? Oops I hope not ahshjsk)

Oh also, don't worry about responding to this is an "appropriate" way. I know that this would be hard for me to respond to, so don't feel pressured to say anything at all. Even if you delete this, I'll be perfectly fine with it. /gen I just hope you read it and understand that we care about you. Please feel better <3

YOU TOOK THIRTY MINUTES FROM YOUR DAY TO WRITE ME THIS???? THE HONOR???? SOBBING THANK YOU

Breaking this down paragraph by paragraph cuz you deserve it💪(also I'm avoiding responsibilities rn shhh)

Okay first of all, thank you a lot. This entire thing kinda helped me realized just how bad I was letting myself get. In the back of my mind, I know I don't have to write, or that I shouldn't be doing it the way I am, but it felt like an obligation at some point, both from trying to repay you all in the only way I know how, and from trying to catch up with everyone else. Sometimes it feels like I'm falling behind, and if I don't keep going, I'm just going to lose everything.

I forgive you<3/lhj, but you're not technically wrong. While I'm not in the perfectionist in the sense I won't post something unless I deem it perfect and have checked over 8 times(what I used to do), I still tend to pick apart everything I've made and found every flaw. I realize this is a problem, and have been yelled at by many a teachers for it lol. But yeah, a lot of the time I do feel indebted, and I probably am stuck in that loop(Which is why I'm so bad at actually taking breaks). Don't feel bad for assuming, nothing you could say would really offend me, and you've been dead on this whole time.

I've been meaning to stop talking about how much I hate certain parts of what I write in the tags+A/N's, because I know listening to me whine and cry about something that doesn't matter gets annoying, but I'm not good at that either I guess lol.

I'm fairly certain that writing will always be fun for me, as I'm still looking forwards to doing a lot of the requests I got and one set of ideas I have, but finding the will to write it down seems impossible right now. It's like I'm stuck at the bottom of a sheer cliff and I can't start writing until I read the top. The main reason I'm so mad at myself for flopping so bad with this challenge is because I was able to do the Horrortober one just fine, as well as maintain a schedule for a while. It feels like I'm getting worse rather than getting better, and It's just making me frustrated with myself to the point of just wanting to quit(not that I think I'd be able to if I'm honest. I tried once, yet here I am, only 3 years later.)

Anyways, I'm just going to start putting more time into the writing instead of trying to force a deadline. I want to be able to make longer fics again, and to start TWOAL back up(I've been avoiding it because I want the chapters to start being 4000+ to mimic actual books). I want my writing to seem like it has care and quality, and not like it was produced by a factory. I have once headcanon style fic about the Vamp turts in the work I was spending days on to make sure it was decent, and it alone is better than a lot of stuff I've put out recently.

ANYWAYS

Thank you! I appreciate your words, sorry for the vent. I'll probably just delete this half later lol, but I needed to get some stress out.

#asks <3 #tw vent #vent #writing vent #sorry about this

[merakiui]

I was thinking of serial killer azul using his status to get away with all the deaths he's doing but now that just seems stupid lol

NOT STUPID AT ALL!!! I’ve been meaning to discuss serial killer Azul so that we can finally have the complete sk set for Octavinelle!!!

I like to think these are the reasons each of them kill:

Jade -> to feed himself/the addiction he has to human meat. It’s more unhealthy dependency than it is for fun. He likes being in total control of someone’s life, but he has a monstrous appetite. Jade justifies it as this is a natural part of the food chain. Predators will feast and prey will become the food for said feast. He’s very methodical when he strips the life from his victims in perfect slabs.

Floyd -> spontaneous fun & based on mood swings. Definitely a thrill killer. Most of his kills are out of unrestrained anger. He’s always getting caught up in illegal activities, so he’s constantly toeing dangerous lines (usually crossing them on his own whims). Very violent kills; he isn’t very methodical and he doesn’t plan ahead much, but he’s smart enough to have the foresight for basic things (don’t leave bullet casings lying about, don’t discard the murder weapon carelessly, take care not to leave fingerprints, etc).

Azul -> jealousy and hatred. He wants what his victims have, whether that be love, good looks, certain abilities. I like to think he targets merfolk the most because he idolizes the human body too much, but because of this obsession he despises mers (especially those who have bullied him). Although with his love for the human form, there’s also room for intense envy. Even in his human form, he will still find flaws (the biggest being he is not a true human and can never be one; even with transformation potions he is still an octo-mer). Azul’s logic is that by killing his victims he takes from them the things they hold dear. If they’re beautiful, he’ll maim them beyond recognition. If they have a nice voice, he’ll slit their throats and tear their tongues out. Pretty eyes are gouged out. Manicured nails are torn from the fingers. He is very resentful. He does not kill for the thrill of it and his kills span months; not as frequent as Floyd’s or Jade’s kills. He finds a victim, stalks them, and then plans for the right time to strike, and doing all of that can take a while.

I like to think Azul might cross-dress just for an extra layer of protection. He’s good at crafting false identities and lying with his silver tongue, and the octopus is naturally good at camouflage. What better way to blend in than to dress up and act like an innocent girl who could do no harm, a sweet siren who lures others in with perfumed perfections? Besides, it’s easy to seduce others with stolen voices. Some of his victims really thought they were about to have the best night of their lives when Azul reaches under his skirt. Thigh holsters are quite useful for keeping daggers and knives on his person, and they’re easy to hide and access.

He sets his sights on you for a few reasons. Either you have something he wants (confidence, success, love, acceptance, nice voice, beauty in various forms, etc) or he sees pathetic parts of himself in you and he can’t stand to confront a reflection like that. Or you’re just so genuinely, naturally you and he hates that. Azul is a perfectionist who is committed to detail. He’ll spend as long as he needs to stalking you just to learn your habits and schedules. He’ll learn what type of person charms you so he can tailor his approach flawlessly. He will not be sloppy with this; he never is, which is how he’s evaded detection for so long.

He is a killer who keeps trophies from his victims. Azul is a collector, so of course he’d want to keep the most beautiful or highly coveted things from his victims. There are some things he can’t truly have, though. Things like love are complicated, but he’s told himself he doesn’t need foolish wishes for love or companionship. What good will that do? He only needs to keep moving forward because if he doesn’t he’ll become stagnant in a sea of humans and his shadow will catch up to him. He can’t go back to being that lousy octo-mer, so even if every step is made in pain he’ll take the walk. Anything’s better than the past he’s left buried in the sea.

#twisted chit chat #serial killer azul

[tsunflowers]

LIST OF GUYS IN IDOLISH7

idolish7 these are the main guys. the show is named after them. they have a rainbow theme bc there are seven of them

riku

he always works hard and does his best but he has asthma so its hard to be an idol like that

iori and tenn's evil dad think he is a "monster" bc he's so cute and friendly that everyone wants to stan him

tenn is his twin brother but they haven't lived together for years ever since tenn got a new evil dad

not in high school but not of drinking age

iori

hes meticulous and loves planning

wants everyone to take him seriously but secretly loves this hello kitty like brand of cute mascot characters

basically elected himself sub-manager of the group

kind of obsessed with riku and wants to make him a superstar but is afraid of his power (cuteness, singing good)

mitsuki is his older brother and they're close

in high school

mitsuki

he struggled to become an idol and he thinks that people hate him bc he is short and old and talks too much. hes not even old he's 21

iori's older brother

kind of the peacekeeper of the group unless he's mad at them

potentially the most normal guy

an adult

yamato

rude. love him though

calls himself onii-san (embarrassing)

hates his famous actor dad for cheating on his wife

he had beef with yuki that was so wild

loves to pound beers all the time (an adult)

nagi

hes from a made-up Scandinavian country and his dad is nobility there while his mom is from Japan

hes like your classic foreign guy who loves anime

but he also has martial arts skills and is really good at politics and holding press conferences due to being a duke or something

he might be the prince for all I know

not in high school but not old enough to drink

tamaki

basically he's like a son to me

in my mind he is like a large dog that was transmogrified into a human teen by a witch's curse

he just kind of does his own thing, gets emotional easily, and loves food. especially this one brand of pudding

he and his sister were split up so he spent a lot of time looking for her and then found out she lives with tenn and his evil dad

in a subunit with sougo so they're usually together

in high school

sougo

neurotic and a perfectionist so it's funny he has to spend time with tamaki. but he loves tamaki after three seasons

the three main jokes with him are that hes a yandere, he gets wasted easily, and he puts too much spice in food

his family is rich as fuck but they hate entertainers so he is estranged from them. I choose to also interpret this as gay coding and when his family says "entertainers" they mean "gays"

an adult

trigger this is the second set of guys. they are rivals to idolish7 and they got started as idols earlier

gaku

his dad is his boss... embarrassing :/

always mad at his dad

he's cute bc he's pretty aggressive but he's always so sweet when it comes to idolish7's manager bc he has a crush on her. but even if he didn't I think he would still be kind and gentle

sometimes pretends to be a soba delivery guy

an adult

tenn

he loves his fans more than anything and they see him as an angel but he is such a huge jackass to his brother and the guys in his unit

riku is his twin brother but he got adopted by his new evil dad to pay for riku's medical bills

usually you see him either arguing with riku or arguing with gaku and ryunosuke

not in high school but not old enough to drink

ryunosuke

his manufactured showbiz image is a hunky playboy but hes just a sweet guy

for some reason they also pretended he was rich even though his dad is a humble fisherman

AND they made him stop speaking in his native Okinawan dialect but he still does it when he gets drunk

I like him a lot but he's not often involved in insane drama so I probably don't post him a lot

an adult

re:vale they're the longest-running idol group in the series and are the senpais to everyone else. they have so much tasty drama and I love them. these are the ones I stan

momo

he started out as a fan of re:vale and then got to join it. huge success story

when he was younger he had solid black hair

he replaced yuki's former partner so he has a complex about it and thinks yuki doesn't love him as much

fun and energetic but extremely quick to escalate to violence

I feel like his moveset is 1. attack 2. do something gay

an adult

yuki

my #1 special guy in this series

cares about music more than anything else

bad personality. sarcastic. terrible

cold and rude to most people but extremely clingy with the people he's close to

gets SO embarrassed when he has to show feelings openly

also escalates to violence easily

an adult

zool I still don't know what these guys' fucking problem is bc I haven't finished the anime. I'm not actually sure if their deal gets explained in the anime. anyway they're the s3 rival group who all have a personal grudge against one or more of the previously introduced guys

haruka

he's mad bc tenn's evil dad dropped him like a hot potato for tenn

the other zools don't take him seriously bc he's a kid

in high school

touma

his band disbanded after losing to re:vale I think so that's why he's mad

clearly supposed to be the most sympathetic zool and the one who encourages the rest to be friends

BUT I tune him out whenever he speaks bc his voice actor is annoying racist kimura subaru :/

minami

my personal favorite zool

he's soft-spoken and polite but then he says the meanest shit out of nowhere

he's especially mad at nagi for being friends with a famous composer (?) but I feel like he's lashed out at pretty much everyone he's interacted with for no reason

not in high school but not old enough to drink

torao

he really is the guy ryunosuke is marketed as. since he only thinks about fucking babes and his dad is rich

yuki bullied him for being straight

I'm not actually sure which guy he's the most mad at. he did try to tank ryunosuke's career with a scandal so I guess him

an adult

other guys

banri

this is a SPOILER but he was yuki's partner in re:vale before he got hit in the head with a stage light and almost died

he had shorter hair in flashbacks

currently he is one of idolish7's managers

just like a nice and helpful guy who we only ever really see get mad at yuki in flashbacks

an adult

rinto

nickname is okarin

re:vale's manager

a normal guy who tries to stop them from being insane but isn't qualified

an adult

tsumugi's dad

ok his name is takanashi otoharu but I've never in my life called him that

runs the production company idolish7 works for

imo he has something going on with banri

an adult

tenn's evil dad

I included a full sprite so you could understand the vampire vibe this man has going on

his name is actually kujo takamasa

he was obsessed with his bestie who was a famous super idol and now he keeps trying to train random teens he finds to be better idols than that guy

an adult

tsukumo

the manager of the zools. king zool if you will

the devil

he has History with momo

he wants his idol group to be better than anyone else and crush the other companies

he needs to get some new hobbies but he's the type of guy to be like "everything I've tried before was too easy for me... I simply must pivot to doing the thing the show is about in the most evil and annoying way"

an adult

other characters that aren't guys

anesagi

she's trigger's manager

trans woman

fun and friendly but very defensive of her boys (trigger)

has a crush on nagi for some reason??

an adult

tsumugi

the player character from the game

idolish7's manager

her dad is her boss just like gaku and just like with him it's cringe. but she likes him and they don't fight

not in high school but I don't think she's old enough to drink

#shaking your heart

[nebula-award]

rottmnt headcannon time

Nov 5, 2023: This is from Jan 11, 2021 btw!! Old old old headcanons but I still like them

Raph 

(Head’s up- almost everything I headcannon on the big guy is me projecting)

-Genderfluid/Genderqueer (thanks sascha) Panromantic Demiromantic Asexual

-He’s the least educated on LBGTQIA+ terms (that honor goes to Leo)

-This kinda caused him to go through a sexuality crisis and for a while he thought he was aroace like Donnie until Leo helped him out with understanding the aro spectrum

-He has social anxiety. It’s a moderate case- little on the extreme side. (Let me project)

-He has separation anxiety (extreme case)

(-It’s kind of implied in S1:21A, but) I imagine Raph lost Splinter and his brothers in NY when he was little, and since then he’s had nightmares and fears of losing his family or waking up one day and they aren’t there. (Time to write some angst :D)

-Very introverted (unless he’s in a fight, then he pretty talkative because he’s more confident)

-Dyslexic (Donnie’s the one that helps him if he can’t understand a word)

-He tries really hard to finish the book he’s reading but either gets too bored, forgets about it, or reading it gets too hard (if it’s the third option he’ll try to read it again bc he doesn’t like quitting)

-ADHD (inattentive type)

-Chews on his mask tails (I love this headcanon so much and I do the same thing with my hair)

-Overprotective (like if you lay a hand on his family, you’re probably going to die by his hands)

-Loves food, like anything with tons of flavor.

-Not a fan of clothing. Even with clothes measured to fit him, he won’t wear them. He’ll do it if it’s needed for a mission or for something of importance.

-He’s a decent cook. Not as good as Mikey, but the family enjoys his meals.

-The only thing he can’t make is popcorn (He’ll always accidently burn at least one bag)

-Developed a minor dissociative disorder and his anxiety became more extreme when Leo became leader

-Tried to learn German (He’s not the best, but the words are easier for him to understand)

Donnie

-Nonbinary Aromantic Asexual

-Doesn’t mind he/him but prefers if people used they/them

-Ambivert (More of a introvert)

-Hates physical contact

-But LOVES compression. Every blanket he owns is weighted, his battle shell is a pressure stim, loves hoodies because of how heavy they are (Projecting, projecting)

-He has depression 

-Perfectionist

-Slight OCD

-When Donnie cooks, he’ll spend hours in the kitchen and no one is allow in. (It doesn’t taste good after either) (He’s better with machines)

-Knows a good of ASL (American sign-language) and JSL (Japanese sign-language) He studied ASL more than JSL because they live in NY.

-Learned some German when he helps Raph study the language, and French when he was helping Mikey, Leo taught him some Spanish

Leo

-Bisexual Gray-Aromantic Demiboy (Prefers neopronouns)

-He has imposter syndrome. He doesn’t feel like he’s doing enough for the team and copes by trying to seem overconfident. (This also plays a factor in his becoming leader as he feels like he doesn’t deserve the role)

-He has a dissociative disorder

-Extremely extroverted

-ADHD (hyperactive)

-Red/Green colorblind (hence why blue is his favorite color) 

-He’ll usually go into flight mode and freeze if he’s in really bad danger (the brothers have tried to snap him out of it) then he’ll joke it off

-Jokes are his comfort (Kind of cannon)

-NEVER LET THIS MAN INTO A KITCHEN. The last time he cooked, the lair almost burned down.

-Speaks nearly perfect Spanish. He picked up a few words when with Señor Hueso leading to him asking the Hueso to teach him Spanish. (He was a surprisingly fast learner.) He has a harder time reading Spanish.

-Loves singing songs in Spanish

Mikey

-Gay, (still haven’t decided a gender but I’m thinking agender, trans, or boyflux)

-Bites/chews his nails when his nervous, excited, or overstimulated

-Best chef award goes to him

-He’s the one that’s always trying something new

-Not a fan of learning languages. (It’s just not something he enjoys doing) With that said, he can read a fair amount of French, yet he can’t speak it as well.

April

-Omniromantic Asexual

-She’s a choir and theatre kid

-Introduced Leo and Donnie to the theatre world 

Mad Dogs

- They all are nearly fluent in Japanese and English. This is mainly because Splinter wanted them to learn a few languages and even encourages them to learn more.

- the turtles base their ages off April’s age (16) and who Splinter claimed the oldest and youngest to be. 

-They throw a Karaoke competition in the lair sometimes. (Leo is the reigning champion as always) 

-Leo and April bond over singing and sing duets all the time (No one in the base complains) 

-Leo and Donnie like to sing “Confrontation” from Jekyll & Hyde ALL. THE. TIME. 

-Donnie and Leo aren’t allowed in the kitchen. 

-Leo and Raph learn to co-lead

-Whenever Raph is having a (social) problem he’ll either go to Leo or April for help

-Splinter used to call them by the color of their marks Donnie was purple, Mikey was orange, Leo was red, Raph was green. (And I’m going to write a fic later I swear) (NOV 11, 2023: I DID WRITE THAT FIC)

#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt #tmnt #headcannons

[twisted-wonderland-but-gayer]

Random question... but ive been thinking about the TW boys(excluding the fish mafia) and if they know how to swim, how good they are, and if they enjoy it or not.

I think the majority of the boys can swim but... i feel like Riddle either never learned is just surprisingly shit at it... he also gets seasick on boats... this boy is not made for sailing....

Also Leona doesnt mind swimming but he just HATES the feeling of getting out and being DRENCHED in water.

Riddle Rosehearts- Never really learned how to. Is awful at it but won't stop trying until he perfects it. A panicked swimmer. 2/10 but with practice 5/10

Trey Clover- Solid swimmer, probably helped to teach his siblings. 7/10

Deuce Spade- He probably also doesn't have much experience but the second you challenge him to a race he becomes an Olympian. Forms a little wonky. 7/10

Cater Diamond- Suprisingly good. Uses breaststroke and butterfly. He prefers to use a floaty though. 8/10

Ace Trappola- He swears he's good but he's average or mediocre at best. Probably also splashes you and is just an overall menace. 6/10

Leona Kingscholar- He's amazing at it. Perfect form and technique, you will never know because he hates being soggy. 10/10

Jack Howl- Super athletic boy. Knows a lot of forms and techniques. Really good swimmer but his tail can really get weighed down. 9/10

Ruggie Bucchi- He loves fishing in canon so I'd imagine he at least knows the basics. Doesn't really use strokes or anything. Amazing doggy paddle. 4/10 but 6/10 because he's trying.

Kalim al Asim- Oh my god he's awful. He's knows how to float at least but would prefer a donut. Doggy paddler- 2/10

Jamil Viper- Great actually. Uses breaststroke but despises swimming because the octotrio harasses him. 7/10

Vil Shoenheit- Oh yeah. He's a perfectionist too. Does all kinds of fancy or 'artsy' techniques. Probably a synchronized swimmer. 10/10 but because he's an ass about it I'm deducting 2 points. 8/10

Rook Hunt- Do I even have to explain? The hunter of course knows how to swim. Like Rook he is very pretty about it. You would never guess that he has the potential to make the Olympics when he's trying to hunt something underwater. 11/10 I am deducting a pint though because I am terrified 10/10

Epel Felmier- Probably decent. He's a country boy so I wouldn't be surprised if he's been chucked in a few muddy bodies of water in his life. A bit crude and juvenile though. 4/10

Idia Shroud- Absolutely not he is literally fire. He goes into panic mode and nearly drowns. I'm giving him a point because the speed at which he booked to land is impressive for a weeb. He also probably jumped 6 feet into the air. 1/10

Ortho Shroud- Assuming his technology can handle it, he'd be an amazing swimmer and diver. Loves going deep underwater and taking pictures of the cool animals. 10/10

Malleus Draconia- I don't think he really was able to swim as a child. Picks it up pretty quickly as a lizard but still isn't a strong swimmer. 7/10 for learning how to within minutes unlike Riddle.

Lilia Vanrouge- He probably floats above the water tbh. I can't see him actually swimming to much unless it's for a warm up or something. He just likes to lay back and float around with some sunglasses and cucumbers on his eyes. 3/10

Silver (Vanrouge)- Like father like son. He's actually pretty good at it but it drains a lot out of him so he also tends to float in his back and occasional uses his arms to change directions. 3/10

Sebek Zigvolt- I just know he would be am awful swimmer and would prefer to use a floaty like Kalim. Probably sinks too. Makes him realize that if his lord and savior Malleus was taken somewhere with lots of water he can't properly protect him and immediately starts to train his swimming techniques... it's very crude but it's an improvement. Doggy paddles at least 2/10.

#not writing #not requests #confusedturtle #twisted wonderland #disney twisted wonderland #rook hunt #epel felmier #vil shoenheit #idia shroud #ortho shroud #jamil viper #kalim al asim #riddle rosehearts #trey clover #deuce spade #ace trappola #cater diamond #leona kingscholar #ruggie bucchi #jack howl #malleus draconia #lilia vanrouge #silver #silver vanrouge #sebek zigvolt

[mirageofadesert]

So I guess I have a type ... part II

The more I fall into my current rabbit hole, the more I notice these similarities between Chinese actor Luo Yunxi and Korean singer Jimin from BTS. If you have a praise kink when it comes to both or one of them (or need a new obsession), this post is for you!

I'm writing this purely for my own indulgence! If you are someone who shares this combination of hyper-fixations, please DM me and be my friend! 💜☁️🐤

✔ started out as an underdog in the industry and worked their way up

Both started out as idol trainees in the 2010s and debut in a very unfortunate time when it comes to fashion ....

✔ background in classical dance (ballet vs. modern dance)

I think there is were a lot of the similarities originate. From their graceful body-lines, to their self-discipline and work attitude to their expressions of masculinity - this classic background as well as the environment in which they were trained, has left a profound impression.

✔ dedicated to their work, perfectionists

They are not only known for their professionalism, but are remarkable hard working -even to a degree they stand out among their peers and will end up overworking themselves. They are also notorious hard on themselves, which is hard to watch as fan at times.

✔ sweet and caring personality with a high EG

Treating the people around them with care and kindness, looking out for others and treating their fans respectfully and affectionate. Their high EG is also evident in interviews, that demonstrates a sense of emotional maturity and even wisdom. They are also great with children and animals (which goes both ways). They do appreciate their fans and will engage in fan-services, but still set boundaries.

✔ charismatic and charming

Both are very charismatic and have a certain "aura" to them. However, while they might look cold at times, they are actually very charming and approachable. Oh, and did I mention they both have a cute eye smile?

✔ very grateful and humble

They will praise everyone around them, before even utter a single acknowledgment of their own talent. Instead, they will focus on the things they can still improve. While rooted in both Chinese and Korean cultural norms, they are not only very sincere in their gratefulness towards other, but sometimes too humble for their own good!

✔ give amazing hugs (I'm sure of it)

Others have attested to this. We have seen it, we want it, we can't have it...

✔ clumsy

Both are notorious clumsy, constantly falling over their own feet, falling of or running into things. Paired with their extraordinary flexibility, they become a danger to themself - not everyone is able to kick one self in the face while falling of a chair. There is actually a correlation between clumsiness and professional dancers! It's cute and relatable, until it's combined with their tendency to overwork themselves, which can lead to injuries.

✔ goofy sense of humor

They both have a very goofy sense of humor, that involves a lot of physical comedy. They are not afraid to make fun of themselves or act silly for their own amusement and that of other. It makes them really entertaining to watch and can be such a mood maker in a room full of stressed people! I just love my two dorks!

✔ challenging traditional gender norms

Both of them present a non-toxic, softer form of masculinity, that doesn't shy away from embracing femininity. While they never outright addressed this topic, they have done so via their art. They are also not afraid to cry, especially if they feel like they let someone down. Sadly, another thing they have in comment are hateful comments, that target their gender performances as something to look down on.

✔ having great chemistry with everyone

Luo Yunxi always has great chemistry with his co-stars, even to a degree that he tends to look so much more in love than his female leads (especially when they are no match to his acting skills). It's also not limited to his roles, but is visible in interviews and interactions as well. Similarly, Jimin is known to be incredible charming, that creates great chemistry not only on stage, but with every talk show host, interviewer or fan - if he wants to.

Sometimes they do gets into "trouble" for having for having too much chemistry with people - especially once shippers are involved.

✔ love to sing

We already established them as talented dancers, but they are also passionate and talented singers!

✔ not a Social Media person, but share snippets of their daily life

They are doing their best, okay? They are not into Social Media, but will update fans on promotions, activity and occasionally share their interest or a picture of the sky or food. This makes every update rather special! It's not just relatable but probably rather healthy for a celebrity!

✔ play games to unwind

Playing computer games with friends in the middle of the night to unwind? All three of us can relate!

✔ shy and outgoing depending on the situation

Their personality a different in many ways, but both can be rather introvert or outgoing, depending on the situation and company. Their shyness is very endearing and their self-esteem admirable. It's their love for their work, rather than their interest in fame that has brought them this far.

✔ look great in silver hair

✔ falls down when laughing too hard

You can't tell me this isn't the cutest habit?!

✔ touchy with people they feels comfortable with

Once they are comfortable with someone, they are very touchy. I'm not jealous ... it's sweet!

✔ public hyper-focused on their weight and body

For a combination of reason, the public and haters are very focused on their body. They are often being shamed for being to thin (or not thin enough). In addition they receive hate for alleged "feminine" body features that apparently add to them not being conventional attractive - a load of bullsh*t!

✔tiny waist

Not only do they both look stunning in white, they each have their own fandom dedicated to their small waists.

✔ very private

They are very private and set clear boundaries. You wont catch them share any information about their private live. Still, they have a way to express vulnerability and share their thoughts and emotions in a way that feels quite sincere and open. They both mastered the art of saying a lot without actually giving any information. And while always grateful to fans, they react strongly to their privacy being invaded - be it in crowds or by stalkers.

✔ angsty motherf***ers

I love angst and so do they. Luo Yunxi's appearance in almost any drama should count as it own content warning "angst ahead"! Jimin's music like "Lie", "Filter" and the whole album "Face" and the corresponding concept are also full of angst. I wouldn't have it any other way!

✔ multitalented

They are talented singers and dancers. While Luo Yunxi is a great actor, I think Jimin's acting ability is underrated. From rubrics cube, pool/billiard, art, calligraphy, athletics, math - between the two they have many interests and the ability to excel in them.

✔ great role models

Beyond their talent, their work ethic, personality and wisdom they are both great role model. They are worth looking up to, but also derive motivation and inspiration from. Being their fan is such a fan experience and I'm grateful for that.

#luo yunxi #jimin

[twyz]

Some angsty headcanons cuz I don't feel too well in my lil membrane 🤭

Warnings: mentions of implied childhood behavior, skin picking, people pleasing (?), Stress cleaning, perfectionist esq habits, etc. Please lemme know if I missed anything!!!

Chucky

Chucky is.. Chucky has a lot of problems

He's got horrible anger issues on top of bottling up emotions he perceives as "weak"

Don't get me wrong, he doesn't think it's weak when his family or others cry or whatever

But if he does, he feels disgusting

He also doesn't emote very well so that helps him conceal certain things

Other things, like when he secretly bawls his eyes out, he can't hide for very long

He gets angry after he cries but he doesn't want anyone to think he's mad at them, so he just.. doesn't speak.

He's also been told he looks like/acts like his father a l o t

It just paralyzes him, and he can't say anything back

It scares him that he bears any resemblance to his father

He doesn't want to become the thing he swore to never become.

Tiffany

Tiffany, much like Chucky, has a lot of problems with her childhood, specifically her mother

Her mother was very prim and proper and she really made sure to get that into Tiff's head

That being said Tiffany has a huge problem with herself

While she does think she's gorgeous, she will absolutely lose it if something gets in the way of that thought process

Her face can be her worst enemy

She doesn't look at it when she looks at herself in the mirror, she doesn't bother

As long as her eyebrows are on fleek (tm) and her eyeshadow/eyeliner isn't smudged, she doesn't care

Tiffany also has really bad stress cleaning habits

It can get really extreme, but she knows her limits

Sometimes it'll take Chucky commenting about a bleach smell for her to get the point though

Tiffany also shares a lot of the same habits as her mother + sister and she just,,

She hates it

She hates her mother and her sister like you wouldn't believe, but the fact that she shares habits with them?

Nah, no thank you

Glen

I'm gonna be real, this kid doesn't know how to open up anymore

Glen just bottles everything up until they get overwhelmed

Or exhausted

They have a very very hard time trusting anyone but Glenda with feelings and stuff

And it hurts them to think that

They love their parents to no end!! Don't get me wrong, but Glen.. Glen is too soft

They're afraid that they're both going to judge them when hey!! They're wrecks themselves!!

They also have bad skin picking issues

It's a habit really,,

They just pick at their cuticles until someone's like "yo you good?"

Not too angsty but it can be essentially

Glenda

There's a tiny bit of projecting here but whatever that's not important!!!

Glenda is very.. attention seeking

Not in the bad way where they'd like weep and moan for attention, I mean they literally copy the acts of others to get attention and essentially approval of others

As stated before, Chucky doesn't emote much

And Glenda takes this as a sign that he doesn't care

So they go out of their way to do things their dad would approve of

Of course he does cuz that's his kid! He's gonna support them no matter what

He'll never know why Glenda does the things they do though

Glenda is also very very insecure

Not on a physical stand point, I mean mental stand point

Glenda will absolutely tell someone to go fuck themselves if need be but there's only so much they can take

They can be torn down by a simple look and they will scramble mentally to figure out what's wrong

Of course they'll put up a front and look all intimidating but internally?

Freaking out

A lot

They won't tell anyone what they're feeling though

They see that as weak

And that's yet another thing they picked up from their dad sadly

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Oh my lord this was,, this was sad 😭😭😭 um,, to make up for it here's Gregory!!

#twyz #angst #angst headcanons #chucky #charles lee ray #bride of chucky #childs play #cult of chucky #chucky series #tiffany valentine #glen and glenda #glen ray #glenda ray #ray twins

[witchthewriter]

Hiiii! First of all, I really have to say that I admire all your work, such interesting reads.

I am 10000% down a house of the dragon-rabbit hole now (which is why I made a tumblr in the first place), so that is my main fandom, if you would put a bit more emphasis on this part it would be greatly appreciated. Other fandoms would be GoT and HP.

I use she/her pronouns, I have a preference for men (or masc-presenting people of any gender). I am a slytherin, possibly ravenclaw? Cancer sun, Aries moon, Cancer rising. ENTJ with very strong ENT-tendencies, and J/P being about 51/49 hehe. Half Scandinavian and half South East-Asian, tanned skin, long and straight dark brown hair reaching below my waist. My favorite colors are red, black and green.

 A common first impression of me is that I am bold and outspoken, but I am in reality quite sensitive and self-conscious, albeit this being concealed deep down. I don’t think I have a shy bone in my body though, 100% outgoing. I am super ambitious, competitive and goal driven. I set extremely high standards and goals for myself and I have much higher expectations/demands for myself than for anyone else, in order to always improve. I love a good fiery discussion, argument or a witty mental-sparring but one of my faults is that I sometimes become too into winning the argument no matter what, being the competitive person that I am. Perfectionist as I am, I always try to be calculated and choose my words carefully though. I don’t think there is a person I wouldn’t stand up to or take a discussion with, I just can’t help myself. But there is also no situation where I wouldn’t let my thoughts linger and overthink the argument and feel insecure for weeks later, behind closed doors.

I am super a very passionate person, about my goals and relationships alike, but I am also very nurturing and caring for both animals and humans. I am very loving and affectionate to the people close to me. Although at times I can come across as harsh, I really do love supporting and taking care of people. Helping someone get better and reach their goals feels ALMOST as good as reaching my own goals.

Dislikes: Being alone and “relaxing/doing nothing”, being stuck in a predictable and unchallenging routine. I would hate to do something half-assed or “good-enough”. The scariest thing ever for me would be to feel incompetent. I don’t think I would be good at being with someone who is very shy, as I dislike being bored. I can definitely assume a leadership-role when needed, but I would need someone with the wits and guts to have a proper back-and-forth with me in order for me to truly thrive.

Hobbies: I am a thrill-seeker and get bored quite easily. I love adrenaline-inducing activities, hiking in nature, traveling and living in different countries, exploring different cultures, food, cities and all their people. I’m a very daring foodie but also love the arts of wine and fine cuisine. I also love reading anything really, classic lit, non-fiction and beach reads - I read it all, I love trying to become more knowledgeable in any way possible.

Lastly, I would like to say that I do request a Level 5. I have done all of the requirements, but I am also not stupid, I know I started this tumblr less than a week ago and that my reblogs/shoutout aren’t going to do anything with my 0 followers :))  lol. I really want to support the work of you because I really am super grateful for this opportunity and so impressed by your work, so I have also shared a tip with you, I truly hope it helps. Thank you in advance <3

Want one? Here be the rules 🦋🌈

Oh my goodness, I didn't know you sent in a Tip!? I haven't received anything, and I'm not sure why. Maybe tumblr has stuffed up, but thank you so much for doing so x

𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐏𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫

𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛

I ship you with Harry Potter! I think you would push him to achieve his best. You remind me of Hermione in that way, and Harry would find comfort in someone caring about decisions. It was much different with how he grew up - the Dursley’s didn’t care what he did. 

𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠

・ Harry likes to rub your back. He’ll gently trail their fingers up and down your spine, or uses the palm of his hand to massage your entire back. Sometimes he’ll absentmindedly drawing little patterns with his fingertips.

・You often play with hairs at the nape of Harry’s neck whenever you’re bored / or there’s a cease in action. 

・You’d definitely both be aurors, I cannot see you in any other Wizarding profession

𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢

He loves how encouraging you are. How he feels supported and that there’s someone who cares about him. Not just that he was the Chosen One, or that he killed the evil in the Wizarding World. But because he’s Harry. 

𝑌𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑

Your best friend would be Hermione. You’d probably have a bit of a competitive friendship, but it’s a healthy one. 

𝐆𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬

𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛

I ship you with Robb Stark! I think you would open his eyes to a lot of different opinions and ways of seeing the world. He would really appreciate that, maybe not at first, but in the long run. 

𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠

・ Robb likes to rest his chin on your head as you hug/cuddle. You two could be lying in bed together, or standing in public. 

・I think you’d be childhood friends who grow up and grow apart because he’s destined to rule. You come back once the war starts and you’re a very good advisor. 

・You bond with his direwolf and he becomes incredibly protective over you 

𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢

His favourite thing is your caring nature, and how it comes from a place of true love. 

𝑌𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑

Your best friend would be Margaery, I think she would love how active you are and you would love her intelligence. You two would make a formidable pair. 

𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐃𝐫𝐚𝐠𝐨𝐧

𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛

I ship you with Daemon, I think he would appreciate your proactive take on life. The fact that you don’t want to sit still is a relief for him - he doesn’t want to do the same. He has things to do, important things, and he’d like to take you with him. 

𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑛𝑠

・Likes to train together. Other couples might cuddle and sit in front of the fire, you two are constantly moving together - doing things that will heighten the adrenaline. 

・ Daemon shows his affection by squeezing your thigh. He reaches over and gives your outer thigh a squeeze, maybe of reassurance and/or love, depending on the context.

・Calls you “beautiful”, “my heart” in High Valerion. 

𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢

Loves how adventurous you are. He loves dragon-racing, battles and anything that gets his blood pumping. 

𝑌𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑑

Your best friend would be Alicent. I think you have a similar aura that everyone else sees (which isn’t always true to who you are.) 

#ships #match ups

[petitelepus]

I know, I know, I already asked for a matchup, but I love your writing too much not to ask for another. This time for an OC (TWST pls) (it's ok if you don't want to do this also) :

Full name: Saima Chowdhury

Race: Human

Pronouns: She/her (experimenting with they/them) (they're a demigirl)

Ethnicity: Bangladeshi

Birthday: June 11th

Height: 159 cm

Likes: Anime, drawing comics, video games, spending time with her older sister, sweets, fairy tales

Dislikes: Cruelty, confrontation, people threatening her friends and family, bullies, poorly written… well, anything, when her sister’s arrogance gets the better of her

Personality and interests: Saima is a cheerful, upbeat young girl. She has a way of speaking that makes a lot of people feel drawn to her, which is something her older sister, Parvana (who she calls Boro Apu) had always secretly admired. Growing up, she looked up to her older sister a lot, as she took really good care of her, helped her with her homework, and got along with her friends. She says that “looking back, she wasn’t conventionally cool, but did younger me care? Heck. No.” While she did look up to Parvana, she couldn’t help but feel jealous of her, as she had a lot going for her. She also thought of Parvana’s best friend Joanne as a second older sister, as she firmly believed in the power of kindness also. Her relationship with Parvana had grown a little bit rocky due to the two of them becoming isolated from each other. She and her older sister, however, are working to smooth out the relationship. While she is perfectionistic, she is also a little bit scatterbrained much to the dismay of her parents and her sister, who, as she says “are much more organized than [she is].” She almost burned the eggs she was making for the first time to a crisp. She is still working on her organizational skills and has come a long way, especially during her time in Twisted Wonderland, as apparently, someone has to hold the brain cells.

I hope this is enough infrmation. Thanks

I match her with Deuce Spade!

When Saima got transported to Night Raven College, Deuce was amongst the first ones who welcomed and took her in. He feels symphony towards Saima's situation and wishes to help her get back to her world and make things right with her sister.

Deuce feels drawn toward Saima's cheerful and kind personality. He used to be a quite troublemaker when younger, but he grew out of it and wants to do good and right and become an honor student. He is sure that with Saima he could do better. Deuce is extremely compassionate and he has a strong moral understanding.

Much like Saima, Deuce hates confrontation, bullies, and such. He tries to keep his temper in check but loses his cool when witnessing injustice. If anyone gives Saimi a hard time or tries to use her kindness for their own benefit, Deuce is there to protect her.

The young man enjoys watching Anime with you and happily lets you pick the shows you watch since they are different from the ones in your reality. Comics and video games are cool also and if Saima wants, Deuce knows a couple of fairy tales that his mother used to tell to him when small.

Deuce admires Saima's dedication to things that interest her and if she starts showing signs of her mind wandering, he is quick to guide her back on track.

It's symbiotic, the relationship between Deuce and Saima. Deuce protects her and she tries to keep him and his trouble-finding friends, Ace and Grim, out of trouble, which ain't as easy as it sounds, but that makes Deuce just admire her more.

#matchup #twisted wonderland matchup #twisted wonderland #twst #deuce spade #oc #ithseem #Saima Chowdhury #Enjoy!

[taeyamayang]

Hi I’m Nish, I wanted to join the 365 days matchup event. I like Tokyo revengers. Thanks so much!

Personality: INTJ 3w4. I tend to act very arrogantand cocky as a defense mechanism. I don't like being vulnerable with people because it's not their job to worry about my problems. I come across very calm and collected and people rely on me for advice but can't let myself depend on anyone. I'm really analytical and am good at finding loopholes and working around problems under pressure. I'm not good with emotional support and can come across a little cold because of that. Under everything I think I'm very kind but feel like I burden people with my presence a lot of times. I have a hard time relaxing or enjoying things because I've been conditioned to always consider how it will look on mine and my family's reputation. I'm a perfectionist and hold myself to very high standards. I look intimidating but I'm actually just socially awkward and suck at small talk (because it seems kind of pointless to me). My love language is giving gifts but I'm not sure what my love language to receive is.

Hobbies/Likes: I love fashion and I've been a model since I was 14, I used to do pageants as a kid, I make my own music and music is probably the thing I love the most. It's really what I use to process the world so music is definitely the way to my heart. I can't play any instruments but I can sing and do digital music production. (I've always wanted to be in a rock band) I'm a good artist but I don't like doing it on a deadline (I took an AP art class back in high school and didn't draw for 2 years after it cuz I hated being forced to draw. It's like when something you like becomes a chore) I've gotten back into drawing recently tho. I've also been doing martial arts since I was 7 + fencing. I'm good at chess and poker and made money from playing/betting on games when I was younger. I also love reading.

Dislikes: Misogyny (when people especially men undermine my intelligence and experience and end up making a mistake I warned them about only for them to listen when another man repeats the same thing l've been saying since the beginning), big egos with nothing to back it up, people who can't keep up with me (I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with someone whose hand I have to hold all the time. They need to be on the same level/wavelength as me and not drag me down), being a coward and not standing up for your own beliefs/motives, people that are way too nice (whoever I end up with has to have a mean streak because it shows they are able to take action when needed), being self absorbed and not considering the consequences of your actions. People who have a moral superiority complex that think they're better than me for not wanting to break rules to get what they want. People who can't take responsibility for what they do (Everything I do is on purpose so even if it's a bad thing I'll admit to it because whatever happens as a result is no one's problem but my own). Although I will say there's sometimes an exception to these things depending on the person and situation.

My main highest kins are Mikey (TR), Ran Haitani (TR) Vanitas (VNC), Kaguya Shinimiya (Love is war), xiao(Genshin), Yurio (yuri on ice), Vil (twisted wonderland). I’ll send selfies through DM.

alright, first of all when i read your info i had already have two men to match you up with and when i saw you selfie i got sooo excited cos i think i matched you up right !!

btw thanks for joining the event. i hope you enjoy this ♡

draken: draken is the type not to force you into something you're uncomfortable with. i'd say between the two of you he'd be more vocal about his emotions so i think he will balance the you of out but at the same i don't think he's the type to crave/ask for attention or affection which is good bc from what i picked from what you said, sometimes you come across as cold. also, what's good about him is he views individuals through their strengths which is a good match for you bc from the things you told me i assumed that you wouldn't want to be treated as a soft person which a partner has to constantly look out for and that's how draken is. he trusts in the abilities of the people close to him loke how he trusts mikey and takemichi. physically, damn you both look hot together and i'm talking about (sorry to compare you both to dogs, i tried ok) model poodles walking down a runway. you both look untouchable and i would definitely use you both as a shield when someone comes up to me to pick a fight. overall, i do think you're a good match for draken if you want someone who can understand you without the burden of explaining all the time and if you want a partner who supports with whatever you pursue bc he trusts you.

ran haitani: ok, first off. i had ran in my mind before i finished reading your entry and boy i was shock when you kin him. right off the bat you give me haitani vibes so why not put their last name name after your first name, right? kidding, but srsly tho i think the two of you will be a match bc you two are alike. who says opposites attract when you can date a person who understands you completely which saves you both the burden of conflicts? i bet ran is the type to say things that may seem like it's out of proportion but pulls it off easily (hot). i can see you both debating on what is morally right and wrong but in the end you both agree on the gray area, that in some situations morals depends on context. i think you both will have a good and healthy relationship and probably the type of comments you get when people ask who you are dating will be like, "it makes sense", "i can totally see it", or "no doubts they ended up together."

ㅡbtw you both have the eldest child vibes lmao

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