#he did what he had to do to survive

[adhd-merlin]

if you must hate Gaius at least do it for the right reason (gaslighting Morgana)

#yeah I know I know– the great purge #I think it's a bit unfair to expect him to have single-handedly stopped a murderous tyrant tbh #he did what he had to do to survive #and he carried the guilt of that #also let's not pretend merlin is completely innocent either #he threw the entire magic community under the bus to save arthur's skin #and he also gets accused of being a traitor of his kind a few times #(which I find very interesting. like as a concept) #but yeah gaslighting morgana was bad #gaius #merlin #1k #2k

[ride-a-dromedary]

If the implication in the old journal entry is accurate, and Halsin ended up having to be the one to destroy the shade of his former First Druid that he trained/was taught under, do you think he had time to mourn him? Do you think he fell to his knees in the rubble, feeling the shadows press heavy around him, catatonic, as the weight of realization finally started to hit him? Were any of them reflected back at him when he peered into the dull, sparking energy left behind? Did he let himself cry? Scream? Did he carefully stone his expression and nod tightly in approval, like neatly tying a package, since what he eliminated wasn't him - what was left was so twisted beyond recognition, such a dark reflection of the man he had come to see as second family, that it was better destroyed?

Or did he have to run? Did he shove his grief deep down in the place where it always goes to make room for his survival instinct to bring him into the sun again? Did he have to unceremoniously abandon what was left of him because there was still a chance there may be others - a hope made in vain that the ones they had to leave behind were still out there - praying as he went that he had found peace, that Silvanus recognized his face, before the curse took what was left?

#BG3 Musing #Halsin #Halsin Posting #you think halsin watched astarion fall to his knees and sob #and karlach scream at her hurt #or laezel's jaw set as her world and everything she knew came crumbling down around her #and just...felt his fingers twitch in empathy? #do you think when the emerald enclave responded to his request for aid by putting him in charge he realized that eventually #everything abandons him when he needs it most? #i sure do #idk man the idea that halsin possibly had to put down a man he obviously admired #and had to come to the realization the even those who seem infallible and mighty can fall in a heart beat #that for some reason you survived when those who *should have* did not #that your name got hailed among harpers as one of a hero when all you want to do #is curl up on yourself and tell yourself that you are nothing but what is left #that...gets to me a bit #angst on crimis

[chuthulhu-reads]

[ID: Two panels from Dungeon Meshi. The first scows Senshi clutching his face as tears start to spill out of his eyes, saying, "I've always... always wanted to have this soup one more time." He's not wearing his helmet in this panel, so his face is unusually visible, detailed and vulnerable. The second panel shows himself as a youngster, surrounded by his old mining team, all smiling at each other, one of them rubbing Senshi's head. Modern-day Senshi continues, "Thank you. All of you. Thank you." End ID.]

Holy shit. I anticipated some tragic backstory from the "I must feed the young ones" panels, but what I'd guessed was that Senshi might have become so devoted to cooking and eating literally whatever because he'd previously survived a famine and had seen children starve to death. I did not expect him to have been the child who was the sole survivor of a doomed travel party, one of whom was determined to feed Senshi first because he was the youngest, and that Senshi has lived with the fear of having inadvertently committed cannibalism by eating stew that he'd never quite known the contents of. I'm happy for him that Laios deduced and confirmed for him that it was griffin meat, that he was able to taste the meal that saved his life once more and remember the friends he lost. Seriously, I'm crying, and also earnestly relieved that while his backstory is pretty dark, it's not the type of fucked up I'd been preparing myself mentally for.

#Dungeon Meshi #Delicious in Dungeon #Dunmeshi #though it IS really worth exploring the ethics of cannibalism in survival situations #The podcast You're Wrong About has a really interesting pairing of episodes #in the Donner Party and Flight 571 Crash episodes #Both about disasters in which people wound up eating their dead to survive #and an interesting connection they drew was that it wasn't the cannibalism itself #that destroyed the lives of the Donner survivors #it was the horror and disgust and societal rejection they got for having eaten human flesh #even the children who had no idea what they were eating were treated with revulsion #and this is clearly the response Senshi feared facing if anybody knew what he'd eaten #But Flight 571 like a century later #the survivors were faced with a lot of understanding when rescued #relatively little condemnation and revulsion #by and large commentators acknowledged that they did what they had to do #and sympathized with how difficult and painful it must have been #which is what Senshi gets from his party #Laios wants to figure out the truth because he knows it's hurting Senshi not to know #But at one point Marcille straight up says that none of them would think less of Senshi if he did eat dwarf stew #Okay so this is Marcille 'ardent student of blood magic' Donato #but Chilchuck agrees #anyway I think that would be a particularly interesting conversation to have in a cooking manga #how do you safely eat a dead friend when that's all you have to survive on? #what are the nutritional benefits other than 'better than starving'? #what are the risks? There's prion diseases and all sorts you can get #they write it off as eating the dragon part but they DO spend seven days eating Falin at the end #ARE there any in/famous cannibalism cases in this world? #Do peopel argue about whether or not it's cannibalism if a dwarf eats a tallman? #enquiring minds (mine) want to know

[jessilynallendilla]

DPxDC post A Glitch In Time

Secret twin with a twist

Vlad was invited to an annual charity gala

The Batfam invite him cause how he obtained his money and his company is hella sus but they can never find any evidence or someone that will spill

He recently adopted a son Dante/Dan he has no social media presence for a teenager that's sus and Barbara found his entire background was fake

Bruce sends Damian to do spying (make friends) with the teen since they're around the same age

"You must be Master's new son, Dante-"

Dan turns around

"It's Dan."

Damian is suddenly having a crisis

"akhi"

#batman #danny phantom #dpxdc #agit #can you imagine #damian thinks he's found his brother #but it's not the original brother #the angst #what did future dan do to his family when he was evil #if this is a damian that had to kill his own clones #what happened to his real brother #hell throw elle in the mix too #and the other failed clones #did they die or did they survive and are just really fucked up and kept inside out of public #you decide #everyone's not having a good time #dpxdc au

[clotpolesonly]

Call Down The Hawk ch 12 // The Raven Boys ch 9 // Dream Thieves ch 52 // Dream Thieves epilogue // The Raven King ch 31 // Call Down The Hawk ch 19 // Call Down The Hawk ch 50 // Call Down The Hawk ch 52 // Call Down The Hawk ch 56 // Mister Impossible ch 10 // Mister Impossible ch 10 // Mister Impossible ch 29 // Greywaren ch 15 // Greywaren ch 18 // Greywaren ch 18 // Greywaren ch 18 // Greywaren ch 53

#declanedit #trcedit #tdtedit #Declan Lynch #TRC #TDT #quote posts #what really breaks my heart is that Declan doesn't LIKE lying #it's not something that he enjoys doing and it's not something that he takes pride in #it's not his natural inclination #Niall MADE him a liar #it was ingrained in him from a young age but he didn't choose it #geis of bullshit he said of Niall #he's bitter and resentful and he HATES that he's been made into this person but he had no choice in the matter #by now it's a trauma response #the truth feels both fragile and threatening #he lies even when he doesn't have to and he does it without thinking and then he asks himself why he even did that #he's had to lie to survive for so long that he doesn't know how to stop and he hates himself (and Niall) for it #it's really fucking sad

[19thcenturyfuck]

miguel watched an entire universe be destroyed, with the only seemingly plausible explanation being that this happened due to his own actions. how many people do you think died? he has very real and legitimate reasons to believe that screwing around with a given universe's "canon" will doom everyone there. and with that many lives on the line, would you want to push the limits? see how much canon-breaking you can get away with before the universe reaches its limit? would you be comfortable with letting people go "eh, screw the canon" if you genuinely believed that enough of that mentality would get billions of people killed, because you had in fact actually witnessed this exact scenario before (or what appeared to be this exact scenario)? so anyway yeah no i do not in fact want miguel to survive btsv so he can "face judgement," "get his ass beat," be shunned by the spider-society, etc.

#like...''he should be punished'' for WHAT? #i mean. #he should at least apologize to miles and gwen for sure #but like #''sure he was mistaken but he did in fact have every reason to believe he was just doing what he had to to protect entire universes...'' #''...BUT what MATTERS is that he was mistaken!'' #''so therefore he should only be allowed to survive the movie so that he can be punished for a very understandable honest mistake!'' #like...cmon man #spiderposting on main

[enha-stars]

i hate when people ask me stupid questions 😭 use your common sense bro, PLEASE.

“hey, are you using that?” as i’m using that. “are you busy?” after i’ve texted them that i am, indeed, busy. “is this yours?” as i’m holding onto it. “are you done eating?” as i’m clearly not done eating because i’m still chewing, spoon in hand, and rice on the plate.

#I CANNOT PLEASE #YA ALLAH GIVE ME STRENGTH #I HATEEEEEEE STUPID QUESRIONS THEY PISS ME OFF #idk if it’s because of what #because i have common sense #or because #idk #but incompetence and lack of understanding is gonna ruin society #IT ALREADY IS #WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME IF IM DRINKING THAY IF I CLEARLY AM????? #am i missing something here #like is this just me #do people do this and accept this #am i the issue #i don’t think i am tbh #today. a kid (18) asked me if i was done with my dessert. take in. i was NOT. i had only taken two bites and was holding the plate #BEFORE I COULD RESPOND HE GRABBED AND TOSSED IT???? #HUH???? #HE DID THE DAME THING TO MU MOM AND HER CHAI #MY BROTHERS ALWAHS ASK ME THE STUPIDEST QUESTIONS #YALL WILL NOT SURVIVE IN THE REAL WORLD!!! #anyways #got heated there for a sec damn #enha!me

[shorlinesorrows]

just got the time to start the sunshine court and I'm Vibrating out of my skin

#i did not think it was possible for me to like a character this much three chapters into a book #i might actually end up liking Jean better than Neil which is saying a Lot #something about a character whose route to survival had to be giving in and staying small instead of fighting back or running away #something about a character who has been taught to lock up their emotions for years or suffer the consequences #something about a character who is resigned to what happens to them because that's the only way they can survive in their environment #I am desperately hoping that Jean learns how to be ANGRY outwardly without permission. #I need that boy to be able to Rage out loud and do it MESSY #because I'm not convinced he's going to be able to really smile until he does #Also I'm really appreciating both the Renee and Thea content we've desperately needed more of both of them and they showed up so quick #privately hoping both stay present for a while but tbh i'm just excited for where this is headed #Anyways I also just fixated on Jean Moreau then discovered that (SPOILERS) he's 19???? Almost the same age as me??? hate riko hate riko HAT #anyway sorry riko enjoyers i know he's Complicated but I never liked him in the first place #and this book is making me look forward to his death even more than I did when I first read aftg. So. #listen i know he has Issues. I know Ichirou killing him without a second thought is probably the cruelest way that he personally can die #I also want him dead and gone. Those statements can and should coexist imho. #the sunshine court #jean moreau #really looking forward to finding out more about Jeremy too #this is gonna be a wild ride #jeremy knox #all for the game #love how nora's writing and characters can grab me in a chokehold and refuse to let me go thank you nora for the food

[wolfpoets]

[attaches my izzy hands apologist pin to my vest] kind of fucked up that some find izzy Irredeemable when we have seen him do next to nothing violent or even particularly mean, whereas we know ed made fang shoot his dog and then shrugged at him while he cried about it and also, apparently, regularly forces people into autocannibalism for the smallest of transgressions. which is not hate towards ed! he is a pirate and this is typical pirate behavior, and if ed wasn't prone to violent behavior then that would make his path towards self acceptance and kindness weigh less than it does. but it does seem as if izzy has only ever been the enforcer of blackbeard-slash-ed's Rules and Regulations, and while ed seems happy to abandon all that and turn a new leaf because he fell in love, izzy is left with the harrowing memories of what he has done For Blackbeard, in blackbeard's name, and wondering what the fuck happened.

#our flag means death #izzy hands #like. imagine you are a pirate and yr captain says to you. hey. i need you to kill for me. #and i need you to stand witness to all the horrible things i will do to maintain my status and power #because that translates to (relative) safety and wages for you & all the men under you. #and i need you to enforce my rules - which means execution if necessary. and it often will be. #and you say ... okay. because he's your captain and you're loyal to him above all else. #(and how rare is that? in a culture of mutiny and dog eat dog. a captain who's worth the weight of being loyal to him.) #(a captain so respected and feared that all other ships tuck tail and run at the sight of his flag.) #so you kill for him. and sacrifice your men for him. and when he says to burn a ship full of sailors you burn that ship full of sailors #and watch to make sure there are no survivors. #& then one day ... he decides he doesn't want to do that anymore. he's not into the killing and the torturing and the #overwhelming violence that pirating often requires. #and so you're left standing there thinking. okay. but what about all the killing i did for you? did that mean nothing? #what am i supposed to do with all of this blood on my hands? #on both of our hands? #but you're not allowed to mention that. it's impolite to do so in the face of your captain's new lifestyle #full of people who have never had to bury their sense of morality in order to survive another day. #they might get squeamish. they might think poorly of him. of you.

[muninnhuginn]

feeling so normal about li bing and qiu qingzhi btw

#their dynamic is fascinating no matter which medium you choose #but the cdrama's choice to deep dive on the 'old friend' deal and all that entails just hit my specific niche so hard #idk what it's like to experience the cdrama when you haven't got the donghua in the back of your head but as someone who did? #the irony was so much. despite the changes enough was kept intact that going in I knew two things for sure: #1) despite seeming antagonism they do both care for each other. 2) qqz was never getting out alive. #was sad to see the li bing|li bao stuff get dropped but the new backstory worked + explained the differing characterisation for lb rly well #white cat legend #white cat legend spoilers #<- for my own tags oops #no but like. the way that lb admitted he always thought he'd die young but maybe he could live on through qqz #and then in the end it's lb left alone with no choice to die even if he wanted to. whilst qqz would rather die than become a 'monster'. #and he meant it in a different way (addiction metaphor) but lb had his own worries that his demon state meant he was now a monster. #sth sth choices about living and dying and being a 'monster' and how lb had support but qqz was surrounded on all sides by wolves #he chose to be there because he had to be to survive. as a former slave he knew he had limited choices. but it's still so....

[heavy-lobster]

Hate it when I see people say shit like "the Violet paradox mons are so stupid and lame, they're all just robots!" like uhmmmmm yea they are and it OWNS ok. blasts you with my beam attack

#the killer robot aesthetic fucks severely and is MUCH scarier #and imo it works a lot better with the plot tbh #iron jugulis and iron thorns are PEAK #iron valiant and iron moth are RAD #iron bundle is SILLAY #iron hands #i ended that tag to early but i forgot what i was going to say there anyways whoopsies #anyways i feel like its fits the unnatural horrors beyond human comprehension vibe a lot better #“theyre all just robots” well all the scarlet exclusives are just dinosaurs. fucker #well guess what my son boy Henry is a robot AND a dinosaur piss your pants about it #the fact that theyre all robots MAKES it scary like. why! how far in the future is this! at what point will every pokemon become a robot! #how terrifying is this future that they had to become robots in order to survive. did they even BECOME anything or #did the people of the future create them to look like present day pokemon that are now extinct. #much more intriguing to me personally than. here is a woolly mammoth. its descendants do not look like this anymore bc idk evolution or wtv #not saying i dont like the ancient pkmn just saying the people who dislike the future ones are WRONG theyre sick as hell ok #anyways more importantly for each version what paradox mon do you think fucked Arven and Mabosstiff up so bad like #ive been thinking about this a LOT #cant be one of the ones you encounter with him present or he probably wouldve brought it up #my bet for Violet is iron valiant since i feel like thats the scariest #i have no thoughts on scarlet but i guess the equivalent #(based on pokedex placement) #would be roaring moon #idk tho i havent thought about it much #either way. fucking terrifying #pokemon spoilers #lobster.txt

[dent-de-leon]

remembering that Caleb originally designed the Vault of Amber to carry corpses--specifically, he envisioned killing Astrid and Wulf, using their remains as stand-ins for his parents' dead bodies, and that's...a lot. But--

It was supposed to be for carrying corpses. For making them conveniently disappear. When the Nein talk about bringing Molly back to the Blooming Grove to give him a proper burial, Caleb starts ritually casting Vault of Amber. "To take him with us," he says. Because that's exactly what this spell is built for, to carry bodies. And while Molly's lying there lifeless, Caleb is right beside him, still concentrating on his spell.

I don't know. Something about how he built this portable coffin to carry his former lovers who betrayed him. Something about how he was going to keep Molly in there. Caleb still wanting to hold onto his Circus Man in some way. His magic wasn't enough to save him, but. For just a moment, he still wants to keep him close.

And then, before the spell can take hold, when he's still looking down at Mollymauk and truly believes him to be gone--miraculously, his eyes open--

#it is truly so tragic and haunting to me what his original plan was for the vault #and just. how caleb seems to feel like he had no other options-- #caleb designing it specifically as his own means of changing fate and cheating death and. the notion that it was intended to hold bodies #how caleb always seems to be holding onto his loved ones when they are gone and cant bear to let them go #the fact that he as literally right beside molly still focused on his spell when this tiefling just bolts up and rUNS-- #also would tealeaf survive being in the vault of amber if caleb's spell finished before the divine intervention asklsfkdgh #i think it would be cute to carry him around in a little pocket sized gem. a travel sized tief-- #do you think at some point jester was like 'ya king its a good thing caduceus got the wildmother when he did because caleb almost #put you in his magic suitcase--'

[chuthulhu-reads]

[ID: Two panels from Trigun Maximum. The first just shows an empty tiled floor under Knives saying, "When they crush an ant, they don't even notice. This is the same thing." In the second panel, Knives is looking down with a sad frown as he says, "...If only Tesla... had gained this kind of power..." End ID.]

While I understand the sentiment of wishing that Tessla had been able to defend herself from what was done to her, I feel... I dunno, pretty gross about the way Knives puts what he's doing on her. He never met her or knew her, so he has no idea what she wanted. He doesn't know if she hated the scientists who experimented on her, feared them, or felt the sad, damaged affection of an abused child who desperately longs to please their abusive carers and have their love. He doesn't know if she wanted them to die, to leave her alone, or to give her a hug. He has no idea how she'd feel about his ambitions to slaughter all humans, and he's out here using her corpse as justification for his violence. She "mastered language" but we have no records of what she said; she never gets to speak for herself. But boy howdy does Knives have plenty to say on behalf of this dead girl!

#Trigun #Like a lot of stuff Knives does it's like #I get it but I think you need to Stop my dude #Saying he's doing shit like this on Tessla's behalf also feels like a way of avoiding his own fear #Like of course HE'S not scared of humans #but look what they did to HER! #SHE must have been so scared! #He doesn't do much listening to the brother who's alive and in front of him #So I'm not sure how much he'd be listening to Tessla if she HAD survived

[orionlancasterr]

You know how I said there would never be a skunk survives au? Well I fucking lied.

#what if he survived. and spent every single day convinced he was never meant to survive (he wasn’t) and that he was a monster because of #what he did (what he had to do to survive)

[navree]

it’s about lemony processing his grief over jacques’s death even as he prepares it for public consumption. it’s about lemony describing his own brother’s death. it’s about lemony who has been telling this story through the baudelaire’s eyes having himself bleed into it as he describes the death of his brother. it’s about knowing lemony likely found out the nitty gritty of it through his research. it’s about lemony losing his brother. it’s about lemony losing control of the narrative for just a second. 

#personal #asoue #lemony snicket #snicket siblings #this fucking man i swear to god #that other post about kit got me thinking about this so i went back to find out exactly what he did when describing jacques's death #the way he's described as being tucked in for a nap...........god #and like i said lemony tries to keep things to the baudelaire's when he's not injecting his separate thoughts into the story #but during the actual narration he doesn't really do this kind of editorializing sort of thing #but here we have him outright and bluntly telling us that he wants more than anything to be able to say jacques is still alive #that his brother - the brother who protected him the brother who played games with him - his BROTHER is still alive #but he's not and he has to let people know and he has to write it down #it's so insane that the snickets were actual characters #and we had to read about them being killed while being told the story by their surviving sibling #that's so fucked up why would anyone do this in a fucking kids' series!!!! #daniel handler i am in your walls i am here and i have things i need to yell at you about #(like i mean i love it i love the story but fucking christ man i'm so sad)(

[howcouldtheyletmebeanadult]

alright but hear me out:

#something something nine who had to learn to rely only in himself to survive #vs kit who was programed to live for someone else #nine who is a product of his past vs kit who doesnt have one #nine who made an identity for himself vs kit who had his stolen and remade #nine who doesn't belong with anyone (we all know he wont live with sonic) vs kit who is tied to surge #nine who prides himself in his independence yet wants company #and kit who both hates and yet is almost happy (but is it really him or the programing?) for what starline did #both want what tails has #both hate that they do. and hate him too #nine looking down on kit because of his dependency on surge yet feeling bitter because at least kit has someone #someone that needs HIM. not a duplicate of himself #and kit both fealing jealous of nine's independence and freedom #but then realizing how under all that he is just as desperate for love and friendship as he is #and then calls him out for it #nine is in denial. and claims he could never be as pathetic as kit #but deep down he knows its true #so anyway they hate the parts they can see of themselves on the other #but are also envious of other stuff #maybe one day i'll make a more coherent post because im pretty sure i thought of more stuff before but im tire #kit the fennec #kitsunami #kitsunami the fennec #nine the fox #tails nine #nine tails #miles nine prower #miles tails prower #tails the fox #sonic prime #sonic idw