#hes an alcoholic but i still love him

[b4tfreak]

I just think he's pathetic in the most loving way possible.

#leon kennedy #resident evil vendetta #vendetta leon #resident evil #leon kennedy fanart #resident evil fanart #hes an alcoholic but i still love him #little loser man #vmpyrlvr

[transjudas]

One of the hardest things about watching LOTMS is seeing Gerard in crisis and seeing those around him who love him doing their best to look out for him. And the past year we’ve gotten to see that same love and support while they seem to be doing so much better coping with things even through the pandemic. Because no matter how you’re coping, having friends by your side there for you is everything. (x, x)

#i don't really gif those moments cause they're legit awful but this specific few seconds like... i think about it a lot #cause brushing the gravel and dirt off gerard's shirt is... in the grand scheme of things with what was happening... so little and inconsequ #ential #but it's something he could do at the time and it's gentle and he's there #and now 20 years later he's still there #and gerard is STILL HERE #and he can comfort him and support him and love him and he can see how he's recovered and grown and lived #ANYWAY THIS POST IS AN EXORCISM FOR ME #gerard way #frank iero #addiction cw #alcoholism cw #mcr #mcredit #lotms #my chemical romance

[laniidae-passerine]

I made my post about Dean Highbottom and then as I was writing my tags realised that his Hunger Games counterpart is Haymitch. and now my head is in my hands and I don’t think I’ll ever recover

#IM GOING TO CRY. I am part of the system I never wanted anything to do with it #I killed so many people without laying a hand on them. I never ever asked for this. I tried to say no. my hands are still bloody. #both turned to drugs to cope. both had a mentee who reminded them of someone they hated so much #(snow reminded the dean of his old friend. katniss reminded haymitch of himself) #both knew exactly how the games worked and all of its consequences because one made it and the other lived it #both lived in the shadows of the past and never really got out from it #but in the end one of them chose to be cruel to the children who they were asked to mentor #and the other loved even when it was killing him #god. twenty three years and they never managed to drown the fire out of him. his heart broke again and again #but he held onto those shards even as they made his hands bleed. and then one day two children appeared and pieced it back together #and some of it was missing and always would be. you can’t undo twenty three years of alcoholism and pain and grief and self loathing #but a lot of it was still there. far more than he ever even believed could have survived #Haymitch I love youuuuuuuuu I will always love you #and Dean Highbottom you were kinda cringe and lame. guynobody ass bitch. do better #haymitch abernathy #dean highbottom #thg #the hunger games #a ballad of songbirds and snakes #abosas

[layzeal]

i absolutely eat it UP that one of the reasons wwx is so hesitant to believe lwj has feelings for him is that he can't tell if lwj treats him with so much goodness and kindness because he's simply that good of a person or if there's ~something more to it~

and!! here's what gets me: he's 100% right to question that. because from all we know, lan wangji would still have protected and done everything he did even if he wasn't in love with wwx. it all comes down to his beliefs, and standing up to them by protecting him. wwx is afraid to jump to conclusions because his fears are genuinely very well based!

#seriously take a shot everytime wwx muses about how good of a person lwj is #even at their worst moments wwx still held a tremendous amount of respect for him #he's under the belief that lwj is doing this not bc he's in love but because he believes in him #and he's not wrong! lwj's love isnt shown through the grand gestures! but through the small quiet ones #would lwj still protect wwx if he didn't have feelings for him? yes #would lwj have drank alcohol and eaten spicy food and kept the rabbits he gave him? nope #and wwx slowly comes to realize this!! it just takes him time and getting to know lwj better!!! #AND IT'S SO GOOD AUGHHHH i just love their love story #i love the grandiose acts among the many quiet ''i love you's'' #anyways y'all know it already but this is a ''wwx is oblivious to lwj's feelings'' hatehouse #he's not oblivious fandom just hates a well written slow-burn love story #modao #lace speaks

[leascno]

a little life update! started a new job after quitting my old one and my ex-coworkers-now-life-long-workplace-trauma-bonded friends threw me a les mis-themed powerpoint party in celebration of my freedom 😭

they even got my boyfriend in on it—that’s him being wrapped up in the french flag to surprise me

also pictured:

- slides from my presentation where i basically subjected everyone to some absolutely academic literary analysis and Hugo-esque digressions

- the cake they got me of my cats 🥺

- everyone dressed up and had handmade cockades i’m literally crying at the amount of thought and effort put into the whole thing 😭

#stfu leascno #i kinda saw the boyfriend surprise coming but i still screamed at the reveal bc i couldn’t believe he let them wrap him up like that #anyway i love my friends and my bf for indulging my brainworms so much hehe #the amount of alcohol and cheese consumed throughout the night would’ve made grantaire proud

[sysig]

@vernors tags are so incredibly correct (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #DAX #ZEX #Legit could not stop thinking about them until I finally got it down to paper lol #It is so silly and it makes me very happy hehehe ♪ #ZEX is a worm he's a silly guy ♥ #Gosh those first two were so fun to draw haha ♫ Head tendrils especially but also big tears! Love big tears #I really need to find somewhere to use that big cartoony tear shape again it is so silly and I love it haha #VUX with one big goofy eye rather than one big beautiful eye hehe #Why would he act so silly and melodramatic (other than the fact that he is?) Sure throw some alcohol into him lol #At least it was only DAX who saw him like that - DAX has enough ammo on him already it's fine lol #Yet more from the tags because yes!! DAX loves ZEX while fully informed! It's lovely! <3 <3 #Although thinking about all the ZEX fans that were blindsided once he was excommunicated - poor them I guess lol #DAX gets to keep his silly little Admiral because he knew exactly what he was getting into lol #It's a very fun dynamic #The thought of DAX packing while rumours fly - ''Oh yes I didn't know at all. Why am I still going? You know how it is with loyalty'' #''Too stuck in my ways. Aren't I tragic'' pffft ♪ No sympathy!

[katierosefun]

okay so now that i’ve officially finished watching leverage i just want to say that maybe i’m obsessed with this show on multiple levels and something about how it hits so many itches in that it’s about found family and it’s about fucking over bad, rich guys (no billionaire bootlicking in this show! and i fucking love it) and it’s also about how sometimes the bad guys are the only good guys you get and it’s also about how we are all stronger together it’s about how at the start of this show, we have all of these characters who are largely used to working alone and being alone and yet the show concludes that ultimately, we are better when we are together and by being together, we might be able to leave something behind that is bigger and brighter for the next people in our generation and no man is an island and no person is meant to beat goliath on their own or whatever

#caroline talks #leverage #not to be like. emotional but. #i am emotional actually! #i'm just. i get emotional thinking about all of the characters #and just how complex they are #nate with his alcoholism and his rage against the world and how he's arrogant and angry and sad and yet i think he cares so much #he cares so much about his team even if he can be a bit of an ass #sophie who adopts a million personas at the blink of an eye and yet has her own loneliness about who actually knows her #parker who keeps herself closed off bc y'know trauma in the foster care system and yet she learns to express herself and trust people #eliot who resigns himself into thinking that he's a monster and yet he starts to do some good and just. winds up protecting everyone in his #new family which. MAN i can't express enough how much that storyline means to me too #like when is a monster not a monster? / oh when you love it or whatever #and then there's hardison who's so incredibly bright and warm and can talk his way out of most situations #and then he hits a wall when all that brightness and wit and intelligence still might not get him out of a scary situation #and that's. that's when he needs people too. that's when he needs his team #and like. there are so many important points in this show #but like one of the ones i like to think about. #is just like. that you could be incredibly good at whatever it is you do #but you need people. you need a team. you need to trust others and together you can do amazing things #individually they're great #but together they're unstoppable and i think about that a lot #no man is an island and it takes a village or whatever! #also unrelated but i also find it a little funny (i'm sorry) that i finished leverage literally the night the implosion news came out

[hamartia-grander]

I haven't come out to my family for obvious reasons but my brother (who is unlearning his conditioned homophobia, proud of him) knows that I'm gay even tho I've never said anything and he adamantly jokes about it constantly when we're not around our parents, and says he's trying to trip me up into eventually outing myself to him. And like I totally would just come out to him but at this point it's just funnier to tell him I'm straight and have it be the equivalent to coming out to him with how he absolutely does not believe me one bit

#It's so fucking funny #He also clocked me w the babygirl shit I said (lying) I do like guys and he said “maybe feminine ones. Either way you're getting a babygirl” #Also I said I still love drinking sparkling cider instead of real alcohol bc it's so good and he said “yeah we know lesbian” okay #Idk how he found out but if it were anyone I'd definitely rather it be him #His gf is a great influence when it comes to unlearning our father's bullshit

[some-pers0n]

I really wish Demo was more involved in the main series. His biggest break was in the War! update and comics, where we get to see his personality shine more. We get a lot more with so many more characters.

Spy and Scout have a whole short dedicated to their relationship. Soldier is the main star in several comics. Medic, Sniper, Pyro, and Spy have arguably the most memorable and bombastic Meet the Team videos. Engie and Heavy are neglected as well, but they make up for it with their backstories. Spy and Pyro don't have a ton of info as well, but that's largely in part to their mysterious nature.

Demo doesn't...really have much. He's a one-eyed black Scott that is a crippling alcoholic. He likes swords, has connections to Merasmus through his haunted missing eye, has a blind mother, possibly converted several organs into distilleries, was abandoned at birth until his parents deemed him 'worthy' to rejoin the family...yeah.

A lot of the stuff with him isn't all that explored and feels more or less like a joke. It's a bit sad since he's one of the more interesting mercs to me. Even in fan content, Demo feels like an accessory and an add-on to a joke. Like those AI voice videos where he's the straight-man character who chews out the other mercs for being a furry or something.

And what makes it a bit less fun is how Demo never really does too much deeper than with his stereotype. All of the other mercs are more than just their superficial stereotype. Heavy isn't a dimwitted and evil communist, but rather a somewhat kind and incredibly intelligent man who opposes the U.S.S.R for what they've done to his family. They have layers to their jokes and are more than one-note stock characters.

Then you have Demo. The joke with him is that he's an alcoholic. That's pretty much it in terms of content for him.

I dunno. I wish Demo was more involved in the main comics. I think it's saying something that, while Miss Pauling and Spy are having a heart-to-heart about their eventual demise, Demo is curled up and mumbling about reinforcing his body to sustain more alcohol.

#Anyways so I headcanon Demo to have BPD and bipolar disorder as well as having autism #I like to use his alcoholism as a way to explore depressive themes and topics while still making him more than simply a drunkard #Demo is also fairly intelligent and knows quite a bit of chemistry but just doesn't have a means to bring it up much #He has a special interest in animals (particularly cryptids and supernatural ones) history and swords #Talk to him about any of those and he'll go on for hours #I've got so many ideas with this guy and I adore seeing what others do with him as well #I love Demoknight TF2 #tf2 #demoman tf2 #team fortress 2 #sp-rambles

[jtownraindancer]

Ace's TURИ for Burn Rewatch: Blade on the Feather

#bitchy!hewlett my beloved #burn gorman #major hewlett #edmund hewlett #edmund my dearest 🔭 #my beloved starboy 🌌 #turn washington's spies #amc turn #turn #my gifs #oyster major whomst.? #he gives absolutely no more shits and while i Love that for him i Hate what it took for that to happen #'you should be. afraid that is.' and wrapping the fucking bombshell with a 'god save the king.' #still one of my favourite scenes for my dearest edmund i care not #shut up ace #okay but just barging his way in & taking some alcohol A N D telling off andré? seriously I adore him in this scene. #ESPECIALLY his stance on how every citizen has a duty to their soul? ;_; #okay okay I'm done now i swear

[caterpillarinacave]

“Oh, you’ll fall” Thelma replied nonchalantly, as if that was somehow comforting “Quite embarrassingly, probably. And quite painfully at least a few times.”

“Ah. Well. ” Matthew cleared his throat uncomfortably, the mild sense of impending doom steadily building. “I suppose we best be going then?” 

Thelma smiled up at him, a darling sort of smile, the type that lit up half the room, so genuinely happy that Matthew decided whatever happened in the next hour - no matter how disastrous and or embarrassing - it would be worth it for that smile on his sister’s face.

-Post TLH WIP Snippet

#Found this one scrolling through my drafts to answer asks. Which I will do soon-ish anon I’m going off like a feral cat <3 #Poor Matthew he’s about to get destroyed in a ballet studio by a ten year old #“Im a good dancer I’ll be alright” absolutely wrong his calf muscles will not recover for a week. but he would do it again in a heartbeat #If you’re wondering why our usually confident little bi disaster seems so unsure it’s because- #at this particular moment he’s very concerned that he’s still uncoordinated from the alcoholism and its gonna embarrass her #This a part of my on the surface fluffy Thelma tries to teach Matthew ballet over the course of like two decades #Which is secretly deep and emotional on matthews part #Also to be clear he isn’t *bad* at ballet. Thelma’s just really really good. And really weird. #He loves his sisters so dearly and doesn’t really know what to do with them bless him #Like what if he fucks up??? What if he fucks them up??? What if they hate him??? How could he possibly deserve to be around those two??? #Less crisis about Peter. Because Peter is just like. There. Peter is unkillable. Also technically the Lightwoods problem #Matthew Fairchild #The last hours #tsc #thelma Fairchild #Chain of thorns #My writing

[cloudcountry]

gotta be honest people who say that shane kissers have a fixer complex is also a red flag.

#why you ask? #shane grows on his OWN. #he uses alcohol as a coping mechanism and still does even after you marry him #his entire 14 heart event is centered around marine and the farmer worrying for him #shane is NOT his trauma NOR is he his coping mechanisms #and to EXPECT the players to romance him because they want to change who he is is so wrong #shane is ALREADY a kind person #he's already so caring and has so much love to give #he has dreams of raising chickens and learns how to chase his aspirations through the farmer's help #THEY ARE HIS HELPING HAND #THEY ARE NOT FIXING HIM #he was my first marriage and one of my irls was so rude about it #all because he was ranked the worst marriage candidate on most ranking lists #like im sorry...did YOU marry him? do you ACTUALLY know how his character arc progresses? #YOU DONT!!! SO BE QUIET!!! #he is such a lovely spouse and i wouldnt have had my first stardew experience any other way

[jimmyandthegiraffes]

King Ottakar's Sceptre (1938-9)

Health

Sleeps - 3

Ow! - 15 (head injuries - 3; hospitalised - 1, with suspected concussion but left before being treated)

Eats - 3 (szlaszjeck and szpradj, unknown meal, and bread)

Unconscious - 2 (both relating to head injury)

Emotions

Cries - 1 (castafiore-related rather than emotion-related)

Angry - 1 (at Snowy for stealing bones from a natural history museum lol)

Afraid - 2 (thought he ate snowy :|; got dropped from an aeroplane)

Crumbs! - 1

Great snakes! - 1

Eureka! - 2

The Law

Arrested - 2

Imprisoned - 2

Activities

Violence - 5

Radio - 1

Reads - 2

Travel

Motorbike - 1 (crashes - 1)

Car - 4 (drives - 1; hit - 1)

Boat - 2

Plane - 4 (pilot - 1; fell/jumped/was dropped out - 2)

Horse and cart - 1

Ambulance - 1

Peril

Shot at - 4 (hit - 1, by anti-aircraft guns while in a plane; uninjured)

Hit by car - 1 (accidental, driven by King Muskar, no serious injuries)

Dropped from a plane - 1 (and jumped once when aircraft was on fire after friendly fire)

Thompsons? - Yes

Thomson spoonerism - 1

Thompson spoonerism - 1

Bianca Castafiore? - yes

Sings - 4

QUIFF DOWN - 0

#found out that the bookshop ottakars was literally named after this book #god i wish that place still existed #i bet THEYD sell french copies of tintin adventures . not that im bitter that i can never find them or anything #i REally love KOS. but also im not going to lie the plot kind of confuses me sometimes lol #i know that possibly bc herge was veiling his references to nazism a bit #but at the same time sometimes it seems a bit thin lol #like why does what tintin experiences make him correctly suspect that the sceptre is going to be stolen #like i know hes a smart intuitive lad but also #i know for sure i wouldnt have got there. its a bit of a reach #theres other stuff but anyway #it doesnt matter i still rly enjoy it #with pleasurski! #i listed szpradj as non alcoholic #bc contextually that seems to make the most sense i think? #like i think it seems unlikely that syldavia Doesnt have a national alcoholic beverage #but at the same time we also know it has quite strict import laws and in the country itself it seems to be p regulated #idk ive always seen syldavia as somewhere where alcohol IS quite heavily regulated #tintin #herge #king ottakar's sceptre #tintin stats

[shipdecki]

they could never make me hate you baby girl

#look at her recording the cop searching her bedroom!! antagonising him!! u go baby U GO #(plus she's so real for her love of the colour pink) #and like yeah sure her strategy would've / will ultimately lead to a he said she said nightmare for the cops n for herself probably #BUT STILL #realistically everything she told him should be inadmissable in court right .. #fruit of the poisoned tree etc etc #she's a minor plus pornstache cop bought her alcohol therefore supplying a minor #((yes i do know the cop's name is matt i simply do not care enough abt that creep))

[sysig]

Someone’s looking out for you ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Wally West this time! :D #Their flirting is the cutest <3 <3 #But first! ZEX's uniform!!!!! JKFLdhsafjdf <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 #I've always liked his uniform - he looks beautiful in it it's quite fun to draw it's pretty it's flowy - very good piece of clothing do like #How something as simple as missing it for a week makes such a huge impact <3 Hhghh gods the way he describes getting it back ♥♪♫ #I've never appreciated the Feeling of his uniform on his body before now and hhh what a difference it makes! #Genuinely like a tactile understanding to complement the emotional <3 Feeling and feelings! It's so lovely! Ahh <3 #It goes back to being a question mark over everything once he starts to really think through the implications but for A Moment #And he gets to snuggle a human the same night :D Everything going so well! #Wally's so funny lol he's got ZEX making The most obvious come ons he possibly can flirting his little alien heart out #And he's just like ''But do you actually want to? Do you /really/ want to??'' Haha ♪ #It's very sweet honestly! Very attentive and careful <3 I'm always appreciative of anyone who treats ZEX well ♥ #But no he definitely Does Not mean pretty much anything platonically lol #What was it how did I describe him in my notes and haven't been able to stop laughing about lol - #Ah yes - Wally doesn't need to worry because ZEX is a ''hedonistic pleasurebeast'' lol #I also like how Wally is the first(? if I remember correctly) of ZEX's Type starting to develop haha ♪ #Sure he likes all humans but if he happens to lean one way more than another hehehe ♫ #I'm doubly fascinated by his self-awareness (and lack thereof) around submissiveness - he's very sensitive as a human! #He's still quite aggressive but also easily overwhelmed ♪ It's a very interesting combo to me :3c #And any further insight into his proclivities delights me hehe <3 #Heart eyes ZEX >>>>>> ♥♪♫ #And a few silly little doodles as well :D The first one's just a random chibi lol he's cute! ♪ #The second is of him trying a Starburst hehe he's so cute <3 I was so curious as to how he'd react to candy/sugar so lovely to see! #And thus far he hasn't had any alcohol - good Max has had enough - but I got my favourite Catawba so tipsy doodle it is lol #All the cutests <3 <3

[rodismancave]

. wanting 2 write stuff for bad ending rodimus but it scares me soooo bad

#i love writing him as being self destructive. however #its like. a specific kind of self destructive yknow? #i don't really share in on the sentiment that he'd completely let himself go to the point EVERYONE can tell he's let himself go #but mostly those who spent a long period of time around him would absolutely notice the change. #roddy's the kind of guy to be self destructive in private. i think he's always had a bit of a drinking problem but always managed #to keep it well hidden. extremely high-functioning alcoholic ykno #i think he haaaaates being in tc's ship and i seriously dont think he ever tried to keep in touch with anyone. #hes very much the kind of guy who doesnt really talk to people if theyre not present or text him first #and after a while hed think texting them would be too awkward and sort of intruding in the life theyve made for themselves #i think ratchet's funeral is the 1 time he lets himself go enough for it to be clearly noticed that hes devastated #and i think him putting meg's rodimus star was both sentimentally charged and a way to rid himself of the last thing he had #that kept him stuck in that life #i still sort of think Drift asking him abt the jump is a tad bit cruel. seeing he's the one guy to notice rodimus is in that state #but theyre both stranded. they dont rlly know each other anymore. #also to add to the funeral: rodimus 100% waited for the ceremony to be over so nobody else would get around seeing him in that state #i highly doubt he even wanted drift to see him like that considering he didnt even spend that long before trying to dip #anyway #those r my 2 cents. i guess. oops #ooc / misty forest