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ftmtftm · 2 months

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I do wish more posts about Aaron Bushnell would get tagged with a suicide warning honestly. I don't really want to have to blacklist his name outright but it's likely I'll have to unfortunately - just to save my own sanity for a little while.

#the way people are talking about it is very triggering for me honestly #because i keep thinking about his kids and in turn i keep thinking about my brothers #speaking as a suicidal person who has been impacted by suicide - specifically the suicide of an anarchist father -#killing yourself is the most selfish thing you can do in this life #especially if you have a family you are leaving behind. especially if it's a young family with children.#kids cannot grasp that shit #my brothers barely could as teenagers #i barely could as an adult #those babies are 1 and 3 #how disgustingly selfish can you be to traumatize your own children for politics #that's sick to me #but that's also trauma #chatty post #suicide /

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littlecrittereli · 3 months

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Okay I gotta say your art + story have gotten my fanfic engines a churning and now I'm picturing AU with the bros starting out in the wildlife game but with Martin as an 18-19 year old and Chris as this 14 year old and it's more "panicked older brother trying to keep his baby bro safe" while they encounter poachers/dangers.

OKOK HEAR ME OUT....

Martin has legal guardianship over Chris (uhh parents gotta die for this i am so sorry mom and dad kratt but it's for the fanfiction so please forgive me) Which is why a 14 year old is able to join their research team. Martin is technically "homeschooling" him, (i mean technically he's learning on creature adventures so...)

Martin was offered a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to join the Tortuga research program and Chris didn't want to be the reason that Martin held back on his dreams. So, Chris was basically like take me with you, I'll be good and stay out of trouble I promise. So basically Martin is trying to do his job while simultaneously juggling the responsibility of raising Chris. And the rest of the team helps out as well so they all become a little family and go on these adventures.

The rest of the team would step into older sibling roles as well: Aviva would teach Chris about programming and engineering, Koki would show him how the Tortuga runs and how to make small tune-ups, and Jimmy would teach him how to bake and play video games with him. JUST IMAGINE THE POSSIBILITIES

I don't think Aviva would make a CPS for him, Martin would lose his mind if she did. Chris was already a handful, he does NOT need to be running around as a gecko. Maybe she could make a less extreme version of the suit for him? Like a partial creature power suit, where it can give him traits of animals. Instead of turning into the whole leopard, it just gives him leopard claw gloves and a tail for balance. So a little kiddy version of the CPS. IDk it's just an idea.

#wild kratts #chris kratt #martin kratt #asks #wild kratts au #wild kratts fanfiction #I feel like there could be some emotional issues involved with the lack of parents #Like Martin had to grow up too quick and sometimes resents his parents for it #and then Chris gets upset because he translates that into “Martin is mad that he has to raise me and IM the problem”#Meanwhile Martin just wishes Chris had their parents because Martin doesn't think he's doing a good job of raising Chris #Chris probably barely remembers them and thinks Martin is doing a great job #And Martin ofc is like barely an adult so he lets Chris eat icecream for breakfast sometimes and explore the wilderness with him #but hes doing his best so its okay #now if you don't make this fanfiction Im going to find you.#IM SERIOUS BECAUSE NOW IM INVESTED AND IF YOU DONT DO IT I WILL #WK Guardianship AU

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zoreldanvers · 4 months

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#tfw you're the child of the goddess of wisdom and therefore a chronic overthinker but also dyslexic but also a desperate people pleaser but also you're twelve and have no supervision and 200 dollars to buy candy

#pjoedit #percyjacksonedit #percy jackson spoilers #percy jackon and the olympians #annabeth chase #annabethchaseedit #pjosource #im about to write a novel in these tags i could not stop cracking up at this scene #the last gif had me howling while making this #first of all athena who that is MY daughter #second of all watching this show is a trip bc when i read the books #in like 2007 #these kids were older than me #so i was like oh they're 12 that's old enough to fly alone on delta that sounds about right #some 12 year olds on a cross country adventure sounds about right #now im a full adult and i'm HORRIFIED these are BABIES #look at her in the last gif she can barely see the top shelf shes so TINY #i was on the fence about the show up until this scene ngl #then i saw it and i was like oh yeah this is it #it's my girl she's annabething

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kizashige · 11 months

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my delusions are getting stronger

#kizashige #they are still complete losers to me as adults #I think kizami would cut his family off after moving out but morishige perhaps would still take advantage of them being rich #but they're estranged and barely talk #also my hc is that kizami was studying psychology then literature then journalism but it's not exactly definitive #this is the most vulnerable thing I could ever post

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fyanimaldiversity · 2 years

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Just so you know I’m aggressively waiting for my baby IMG motley boa (Burnt Toast) to finally shed so I can show the ‘increasing melanin gene’ in action because it’s such a cool concept that fits with this blog, and not simply because I need a valid excuse to post him and force you to see him with your eyes because I love him and you should too. He hasn’t even gone blue yet, so it might take a while unfortunately.

#mod talk #boa imperator #snake #reptile #selective breeding #boas grow slower than my baby colubrids :c #I could post other IMG boas but then it wouldn’t be my sweet angel baby #to be fair it’s not even been two months yet #he barely pooped last night I’m used to colubrids going once a week #just as a reminder basically an IMG boa slowly gets darker as they shed #and in combination with motley (the circle pattern) it makes for a nearly solid black snake #with iridescence #he’s already very dark for one his age I’m told #unfortunately I got my banana ball python as an adult so can’t post freckle development since bananas gain freckles as they age #his name is sweet onion chicken teriyaki (onion for short)#poptart has the best morph of all snakes ever (palmetto) so I will definitely post her

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laniemae · 22 days

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ok thinking about all this stuff is so interesting I’ve always thought on how Amane presents her murder to other people (and by extend herself) as purely a result of her faith and that it was in line with her doctrine. But in reality her murder was mainly an emotionally driven one started by the death of her cat with the only thing she could truly love being taken away from her. Which is especially present when comparing Of Blessedness and Punishment vs The Purge March.

And now I’m thinking about her hatred of Shidou and how it parallels her murder so much. In a way Amane started hating Shidou because of how he treated her as nothing more than a child and denied her emotions and everything that could’ve caused a child to murder. And with all the suffering Amane went through that being incredibly disrespectful, she already started hating Shidou in trial 1.

And in trial 2 with Shidou solidifying his position as a doctor by helping all the people who were injured this really pushed Amane off the edge. As she had lots of trauma around medicine and essentially that was almost the root point of why she murdered. So seeing someone she hated do something like that and with her already deteriorating mindset would’ve completely pushed her off the edge.

Amane presents her hatred and desire to kill Shidou as purely a religious one again. As he denies the doctrine by not letting these people endure their trials and using medicine. But it’s particularly interesting how she’s sympathetic to Fuuta despite him having to rely on medical care perhaps makes me think that like her murder, her hatred of Shidou is not only because of religious reasons but also how he’s treated and disrespected her in the past.

#milgram #amane momose #Shidou kirisaki #milgram theory #of course I doubt amane would only want to kill Shidou because of how he treated her #Because she probably would’ve expressed that in trial one #But once again it parallels the whole thing of masking emotional motivation with religious intent #Even with fuuta he could apply to all this because he has a similar thing #But as an adult being treated as a child #And even so he’s just barely an adult at 20yo

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anaalnathrakhs · 3 months

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i feel it's so fucking stupid and ungrateful but it still hurts a little when someone gifts me something i just don't like. i don't know. i know it's dumb and inaccurate to astrain that much meaning to a simple gift, but it feels kinda like they don't know me. i guess it feels like people don't see me, like a reminder that the person i reflect and the person i feel like are incredibly different.

#two fairly recent examples jump to mind #last year my class did a secret santa #the guy who got my name barely knew me so instead he asked our litterature teacher for tips #i was doing an effort to participate a lot in her classes and discuss stuff and i felt like she was an adult i could really trust #and adult who Gets It #and she picked just. the wrong gift. a classical philosophy essay.#stuff i hate reading. stuff i hate thinking about.#i said thank you to both of them and tried to read it during christmas break still. but i was right. i hated it.#and this year's christmas #recently i tried patching things up with my parents and we are a lot more communicative now #so they've opened up that my demand not to receive any gifts was painful to them #so we had an agreement: we write open-hearted letters to each other on christmas.#and they can gift me something if they'd like but no pressure if they don't find anything they feel would be a good gift #bc i myself opened up about the whole ''inaccurate gift'' thing being one of the reasons i dislike receiving stuff #and guess what. christmas comes. they got me a printed card from an artist whose work we saw at a local art thing earlier that year.#that artist does mainly either plants or nice architecture. stuff i love.#they picked the ONE work of hers that doesn't look like that. some reinterpretation of the great wave of kanagawa #a piece which i dislike with a passion for aesthetic reasons #i had promised i'd be honest if their gift missed the mark but tbh i couldn't. it's just an aesthetic thing it's completely begnin.#it's not like they spent lots or tried to pick something that was USEFUL #so i smiled and the picture is hanging with other stuff in my room #and i thanked them and i can't express how genuinely glad i am we have a better relationship #but man i felt my heart break a little under the tree in that moment #idk #i know it's silly but it makes me feel weird. and cold.#broadcasting my misery #vent

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cinnamon-phrog · 3 months

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I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :<#i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely-#-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things.#i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly'#i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child.#i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake.#i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life-#will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

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mylittleredgirl · 3 months

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fyi how long it takes me to post a m*a*s*h update makes it SEEM like i have a lot of self-control and am only watching one episode a day but that is incorrect. i'm watching everything like three times and rolling around in the details like a ferret let loose in the snow. i grew up in the vhs-recording 90s where you'd get two star treks and an x-file every week, and i'd get up at five in the morning to rewatch one of them before school every day AND tune in for every rerun and that has not changed. sometimes i get comments on fic like "wow your dialogue sounds just like them" YEAH it fuckin SHOULD some weeks i hear these people talk more than my own family. this is completely normal and healthy by the way

#not even touching on the fact that my sister and i would have star trek marathons like we were training for the olympics #on weekends she was over here we'd fuckin PLAN we would rest up all week so we could STAY UP and try to beat the record #my dad would come downstairs and make us run around outside in the snow between episodes #and we'd do it in BARE FEET to hype us up and keep us awake for the duration #also normal behavior #i remember being entire adults and going on a double date with some new dudes and both of us being like #:) we watched 30 hours of star trek in a row once :)#that's the most impressive thing you should know about us

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charmac · 6 months

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#gonna go on a parasocial rant for a man i barely care about bc thats where i am #but honestly its actually a little heartbreaking #when you think about the fact that rob #who we know struggled in school and with behavioural issues #was a neurodivergent kid who had no idea what that even was #no resources or labels to help him #is now an adult figuring this all out #and seeing #holy shit this sports team i grew up with and love knows about this too #and theyre doing all of this #like do you realise he was a kid in the 80s with no knowledge of any of this #used sports as an outlet and to bond with his dad #probably imagining if this foundation had existed when he was a kid what that could have done for him #and i now have the money and ability to support this all #so hes donating and posting to raise awareness and encourage support #and he's spending time and money with his soccer team in wales to do this same thing #so neurodivergent kids who love sports are growing up with what he didnt have #and their parents are able to recognise and understand what his couldn't (no fault of their own)#im sorry but youre a very blindly heartless person to think that doesnt matter because rob is NOW rich #why are we acting like hes elon fucking musk #he came from nothing you ALL KNOW HOW SUNNY STARTED!?#yes hes stupid spending his money on nfts and the metaverse #can you not see hes fucking growing... and learning. like. probably through his own kids....#i dont even care if you dont care #i dont think it matters at all but adamantly shitting on him to his (social media) face is so beyond loser behaviour #holy fucking christ most of twitter now has clearly been educated in the tiktok school of anti capitalism #that they think the moment someone breaks 1mm they lose their history and soul #rob is a centrist he posts copganda he owns a gun and is proud of it but youre biggest issue with him is he won at capitalism?#via doing something not only he loves but YOU love? and have a whole account dedicated to??????#everyone in his quotes is britta perry from community

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theshadowrealmitself · 10 months

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Once again thinking about my oc who makes how to do videos that Vulcan kids like to watch, except this time I’m also thinking about “guest stars,” because you just know there’s going to be some things where you need an expert on it for

And originally I was just thinking about pleasant guest stars, and how the Human oc is unknowingly also teaching Vulcan kids how to handle their emotions because the Human is trying a lot of new things that actually scare them, or make them anxious, things like that, but they just calm themselves down on camera and continue doing them

But now I’m thinking about Jim Kirk, specifically aos Jim Kirk, guest starring before he ever became a captain, and it’s “how to ride a motorcycle,” and the whole time, this Human who is usually good at keeping a calm and pleasant disposition, just keeps turning to anxiously tell the camera “don’t do that” because Jim went straight to tricks and stuff that he shouldn’t be showing beginners

Jim Kirk is rewatching this episode as a captain, trying to avoid looking at Bones and Spock as they watch him put himself in danger without proper protective gear on

#bones is about to get his ass #god it was like 12 straight hours with those kids yesterday #they were all under the age of 10 #they might have gotten me sick they kept coughing and sneezing into their hands and then grabbing me as well as touching other objects #they were all sweet kids!! they were just overstimulating and then after like. 7 hours. they had clearly overstimulated each other #so they kept getting into fights every 5 seconds #so I. I cried.#not in front of them #did not yell at them either!!#but I could not handle them anymore #had to walk away and beg another adult for help and that adult went immediately to yelling at them :(#so I had to go back to managing them #yesterday was. so stressful. but it’s not those kids fault that their parents use bbqs to just ditch them wtf #plus I had only gotten a half hour of sleep the night before so I was running on empty the entire time #but I made it through!!#(barely)#kids deserve better #seriously #anyways so I’m back to thinking about ocs who can. actually handle kids.#Star Trek #Star Trek aos #jim t kirk #jim kirk #james tiberius kirk #s’chn t’gai spock #Spock #bones #bones mccoy #leonard mccoy

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bbybearcubbs · 4 months

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Bro my phone is fucked up and I can barely get anything done on it😭 I'm working on a new one but I need cash first and the freaking ID place won't call me already even tho I did everything weeks ago! I need my ID to apply for jobs😭 AND ALSO tell me why the FUCK everywhere wants 2-3 years of experience for workers! Like dude, what about kids like me who just graduated?? Like where the fuck am I supposed to get that experience??? UGH I'm not even technically an adult yet and adulting is already so fucking hard!

#cubbs.vent #cubbs.talks #man fuck me and my life bro #how was i supposed to know shit was gonna be this way?#i wasn't given no kind of heads-up or anything bro #wtf #“enjoy your childhood” they said #when i could barely get to do that after i turned 12🙄#and now im expected to just know how to adult?#WHY DUDE WHY #Fuck me dude #seriously #vent #venting #talk #talking

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blessthishouse · 2 months

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It feels like there’s a lot of heavy energy right now

#everything just feels kind of hopeless and I feel like I’ll like #never be financially stable enough to leave my family #and like I’ll never have a deep and significant romantic relationship #like at this point I am just waiting for my dad to die and hoping for some semblance of peace and normalcy for the rest of my adult life #maryam's posts #like fuck man I just want romantic love #but it seems like everyone is just weird or burnt out or does the bare minimum #and here I am looking and feeling like an idiot #like I’m just tired #I wish my family wasn’t so scarily homophobic I could be comfortable enough being with someone who wasn’t a man #I just feel all alone #And I wish I had someone rn who could see that #and who could give me a hug and say that they loved me

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theothermaidoftarth · 7 months

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Baela and the Myth of the Child Fighting Pits

Not sure why I keep seeing from green-leaning accounts that in Fire and Blood, Baela visited the child fighting pits. But this is what F&B says about Baela post-Dance:

Nothing about child fighting pits. In fact this is what shows up when I search ‘pits’ in Fire and Blood:

The definition of a rat pit according to awoiaf:

Not the best of places, I’m not going to defend it but there’s nothing about children there (also lower down it’s stated Mushroom said these are the places Aegon II would frequent, which the show turned into child fighting pits).

Also saw it said on here that Baela celebrated Jaehaerys’ murder… Her reaction was not recorded.

Baela is many things and she is not perfect but what I’m seeing is just not accurate. And that’s not even getting into what I’ve seen on Reddit where they say she wasn’t faithful to Jace before his death and was kissing squires while he was in Winterfell. (Narrator: she wasn’t.)