#i feel like i've been waiting forever

[ellsieee]

I started White Cat Legend with low expectations and unfortunately it did not exceed those expectations in the end. I did finish it though, so it wasn't that bad, just nothing to write home about.

If there's one thing that guzhuang dramas do well, it's usually the angsty childhood friends turned enemies because of some misunderstanding trope. I will give props to the Li Bing/Qiu Qingzhi plot line. It was angsty, touching, and kept me guessing. I just wish it got more screentime.

Ouch. I felt for Li Bing here. He's too far away to see Qiu Qingzhi's face, otherwise he would know QQZ was shook up. 😢

When LB addressed QQZ as General Qiu, that was cold. QQZ was about to cry knowing LB was misunderstanding him so badly. You could see the pain in his face. He wanted to explain everything, but he knew he couldn't in order to protect LB.

Even after LB told him they aren't friends, QQZ didn't hesitate to save LB because QQZ still cherishes their friendship. I was a a bit pissed we didn't get to see LB visit QQZ while he was recovering. The man saved his life! It's the least he could do. 😑

Nooo! Poor QQZ. They just had to go the tragic route with this trope didn't they?

QQZ is about to die and all he wants to know is if they're still besties. 😭😭😭 QQZ was always looking out for LB. 😭 I would have translated this as "Of course. Of course we are." I think sure sounds a bit flippant for the situation. 😅

The fucking montage of their happy times together. 😭 They just have to break out hearts.

LB missing QQZ hours. This series is a comedy for the most part, but damn they really hurt me with the LB/QQZ story line.

#ngl i shipped them a little #i can't help myself #white cat legend #watching this series just made me miss strange tales of tang dynasty #when the heck is season 2 coming out? #i feel like I've been waiting forever #cdrama

[strhwaberries]

when will they ship my atz albums i need to know what pcs i pulled

#i feel like i've been waiting forever #lu.txt

[kon-konk]

WE'RE FINALLY GETTING LINK CLICK SEASON 2!

#pei rambles #i feel like I've been waiting forever #it's supposed to start July 14 but idk if it'll be simulcasting

[old-luci-boy]

No one call, text, or speak to me on December 20th I will be busy

Commissions open!

#pjo #percy jackson #annabeth chase #grover underwood #the lightning thief #percy jackson art #percy jackson fanart #i cannot express how excited i am for this #i feel like i've been waiting forever yet not at all #art #fanart #digital art

[99percentprocrastination]

details from the radio silence US cover!!!

Aled's lime green plimsolls and ladybug pants!!!

loveless!! the heartstopper leaves!!

the ark poster!! and perhaps a solitaire reference??

literally everything about this but esp FEBRUARY FRIDAY!!!

Frances and Aled besties photo booth moment??

they are everything to me!!!!!

#I feel like I've been waiting for this forever but IT'S HERE AND IT'S PERFECT!!!! #radio silence #alice oseman #osemanverse #aled last #frances janvier #mp

[guqin-and-flute]

HOLY SHIT IT'S FINALLY HERE

The next scene I have to write in Holding Me Holding You is where he decides to keep A-Fu--YOU KNOW, THE WHOLE INITIAL POINT OF THIS FIC. Alright alright alright, let's do this 🙏🙌

#FUCKING HELL I FEEL LIKE I'VE BEEN WAITING FOREVER AND NOW THIS MAN'S DEFENSES AGAINST DUTY AND SELF DENIAL ARE FINALLY LOW ENOUGH #TO MAKE HIM KEEP BABY #my stuff

[beth-and-bands]

She's finally here🥹

#final fantasy 7 rebirth #final fantasy 7 rebirth spoilers #ff7 rebirth #ff7 rebirth spoilers #elena of the turks #I've been so excited to see her back in the game so obviously I had to screenshot pretty much the whole cutscene😭 #i love her so much!! #We've finally got all the turks back in ff7!!! #It feels like its been forever since the 4 of them have been in the same game! #I've spent the last 4 years waiting for her to come back and she's finally here

[elitadream]

I'm back. :3 💫

Thank you guys for the lovely words of support on my last post. 💗 It truly means a lot. I've had time to rest, think over a few things and find my footing again. Now I'm ready to continue where I left off! 🤗

(P.S.- Those of you who have reached out during my absence are absolute sweethearts, and I love you. 🙏)

#I guess I really needed the break 🙇‍♀️ #but I feel much better now! #I've also had time to draw ;D #I'm gonna prioritize Asks for a bit however 👀 #some of you have been waiting forever for a response and I feel like it's a good place to start x3 #feels good to be back ☺️ #very grateful for all of you 💐

[tearlessrain]

seriously can catastrophes stop happening for five minutes my brain is already fried from the ones we're already experiencing

#I fucking. missed d&d tonight by accident #I straight up forgot #and just didn't show up to the session #my sleep schedule is absolutely fucked #I should be sleeping now but brain won't shut up #my creative output is the lowest it's ever been and I've been in some level of depressive funk since like early january #I am just deeply unfathomably exhausted #like mentally and spiritually #all the time #my memory and sense of time are both shit #my spelling is worse than it used to be for some reason?? #I really don't know what to do to make my brain start functioning again it's frankly worrying me #I couldn't even handle college so it should come as no surprise that I'm reacting poorly to the world being a perpetual screaming trash fir #and yet #idk it's been hitting again lately that I have never succeeded at anything in my life and just keep tripping and falling up for some reason #fucking everyone is in hell right now and with my overall success rate I should be dead in a ditch but I'm actually doing spectacularly #due to a series of improbable accidents and weird circumstances that happened to turn out in my favor instead of completely fucking me #aside from the looming spectre of my various failed attempts to have some kind of life trajectory #it just doesn't feel like this can keep up forever #like surely at some point the luck has got to run out I can't just keep living like some kind of folkloric trickster archetype #but my motivation and sense of purpose kind of died after the last failed attempt so I'm still just here #doing whatever this is #maybe I should drive out to the coast #maybe staring at the ocean would fix me I've been away from it for too long #I mean it can't make me worse #I should wait until further into summer though so I don't have to drive back in the dark #everyone around here has trucks with those goddamn LED headlights and I've got a little sedan that's directly in their blast zone

[southsidestory]

Guess who has two thumbs and is finally making real progress on The Valley of the End? 👍

#sasusaku #my fic #fic updates #my fic updates #naruhina #TVOTE #it feels amazing to be back on track with this story!!! #I know you guys have been waiting forever #and I hate that #but the last couple of years have been EXHAUSTING #the day before yesterday I finally signed the papers that set me free from my ex-wife forever #I feel like I can truly breathe for the first time in two and a half years #other struggles in my personal life are finally getting better too #and I've got extra exciting TVOTE-related things in the works as well #life is good

[redrobin-detective]

I hate the commercialization of Christmas centered around present giving, that I am socially forced to buy things for both people I love and people I want to choke on a starburst. I hate the forced, fake cheer around as people pretend they’re being good and charitable by buying overly priced junk just to tick off a box on their to do list. I hate that most of the time, people are too stressed by having to buy so many people gifts that often they just buy whatever just to have something to wrap which the receiver doesn’t even want resulting in a circle jerk of stress for everyone involved with no net gain.

#christmas wank #anti christmas #christmas hate #i hate the holidays so much #i got the last of my presents yesterday and like the palpable Relief I felt #like I've been lowkey stressing since october about gifts #i hate that I have to buy my mother (who I'm one step above despising) a gift or else she throws a fit #I hate that I find fun gifts for my friends throughout the year but feel obligated to wait for a stupid manufactured holiday #I hate that in addition to buying presents i have to coordinate getting them wrapped and sent so they arrive on time #it just sucks! I hate it! #every year I tell my family 'can we just fucking skip presents this year??' #and every year my mom is like 'Im gonna buy you the best present you're gonna love forever' #and proceeds to buy the lamest most unlike me thing ever that I hide away immeaditely #i want to hibernate to january #fuck christmas #(and yet I am Winning at presents they're all super attuned to what people want) #(I hate the culture of present buying but I think Im good at it)

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

i've been turning more and more inward about how i'm enjoying harry and how i'm processing the end of tour, but it feels good, for now at least. i celebrated seeing him live so thoroughly that my last time seeing him felt like the end of tour in some way. i don't want to feel like i'm missing out when i'm out with friends, like i will be during his last show, bc in a world without streams i also wouldn't see that show. i've basically been training myself to slow down and appreciate (old) content more, and bask in a show and its content for longer. or be at peace not seeing content from a particular show. bc sometimes i feel nervous about missing something, or i feel myself having fomo for a thing i could not possibly be at. and most especially, i am not missing out, bc i had so many glorious opportunities to see the tour. i'm literally having a diary moment here just analysing my behavior and my feelings about being on tumblr and in the fandom during tour bc it's been a lot but i've loved all of it. i'm so fucking happy (and relieved) i can find ways to enjoy it all in my own pace. this space has changed a lot in the last few years but the way their content hits me personally hasn't changed, unless i let it all overwhelm me and i lose sight of what really matters to me about following them. i think it'll feel great to have a break from harry on tour, and let all of it hit me. to revisit little things that happened. to go through my own photos and videos. to go back to his mvs and dive a little deeper into them, at last. maybe i'm just a little overstimulated and ready for harry to stop bombarding me with content fshdf but the way his music makes me feel and the way his goofy face makes me smile and the way his creativity and presence inspire me every day will clearly always remain, after staying strong through all of this, after all these years. thank you, dear diary, for listening. harry styles forever

#my posts #i feel relieved after typing all of that #things that have been swirling around in my mind #weighing on my chest #nagging at the back of my head #can't wait to see what's to come #and in the meantime i'll just be doing same old same old #stepping out of the stream is the best thing i've ever done #or am actively practicing to do #stream or yk the wild river that is this fandom #and i'll literally be on a trip i've been looking forward to forever with one of my best friends #having the time of our lives #so i will Not have fucking fomo !!!!!!! #sometimes i can just forget that #get swept up again in the rush #in the need to be on the pulse #but no. i don't even like to be #so yeah #now i should go to bed actually

[reputahtion]

i  wanted  to  write  tonight  but  then  i  got  bullied  into  finally  reading  p.jo  for  the  first  time  by  patrick  now  that  the  show  comes  out  in  like  2  days  so  i'll  guess  i'll  be  doing  that  tonight  instead  maybe  i  see  you  guys  later  maybe  i  won't  we'll  see 

#honestly i've wanted to read it for forever but i am just a super slow reader fml and even though i had my greek myth phase as a kid #i've been too afraid to actually read it because people hype the books up like crazy and now i have hella expectations but also none at the #same time if that makes sense lmfao !!! but yeah i am very excited to finally get into that i actually have a feeling i'll speed through th #books like crazy because if it is as good as people say it is then it's going to be a ride i feel like and i lowkey cannot wait #🐍ㅤ(ㅤ OUT OF CHARACTERㅤ)ㅤ―ㅤ OH MY GOD‚ SHE'S INSANE.

[aro-aizawa]

me, whenever i figure a plot twist in a 20 year old anime: oh wow i am SO big brained rn i am such a genius

me, two minutes later, conpletely blindsided by a major plot twist:

#shut up danni's talking #danni liveblogs #danni liveblogs detco #gif #detco spoilers #look i was 100% sold on the idea that jodie = vermouth/belmont i did NOT peg dr araichi as her instead #episode 345 took me out w the whiplash i got enduring all those plot twists i did not see coming #but looking back i can DEFFO see where they came from and the foreshadowing ohhhhhh i can tell. #i can tell this isn't gonna be a blast through the content and forget abt it kind of thing my mind has been racing w fanfic aus #i wanna delve into the fanfic/fandom too but hnk i wanna avoid spoilers!!!!!! #also i don't know how the fandom categorises things that happen at different plot events etc #there's straight up like a thousand episodes and im only a third of the way through #anyways thats gotta be a good stop for today i can't remember how long i've been awake for but it feels like forever #i am exhausted #urgh this always happens when im home alone for more than a few days #fun fact: kogoro is legit my least favourite character and yet i relate to him immensely #me daydreaming of when i catch up/know every case; i cannot wait to write an au where shinichi gets credited for the cases he solved via him #either shinichi or conan idk which would be better bc shinichi being nowhere near the crimes solved them or a literal 6 year old #im leaning more to the six year old bc its fkn hilarious #that one episode where he defused a bomb in a major landmark and was credited for it as a 6 year old is so fkn funny #this guy had the whole city hostage and yet he was completely stopped by a 6 year old #yeah he has the mind of a 17 y old but c'mon he's physically 6 #this is my allure to this series which will win; hundreds of criminals or one determined 6 year old #if you bet against the 6 y old he's coming for your kneecaps

[billygoat26]

Guys- moots who know me well enough kind of-

I'm not simping solely for fictional characters anymore-

...

I hate this, it's weird, I wanna say something to them or at least one of my other irl friends but I'm too scared that 1: they'll judge me and 2: they'll TELL HIM. Dear god I do not need that-

BUT IT WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE (aka it's been on my mind for a few hours too long)

Yesterday, pool party with friends, right?

I knew that he did some workout stuff but I still was NOT prepared- (me, who was fully expecting him to wear some form of his normal outfit but for the pool- noooooope! Shirtless- very unprepared)

And listen, I knew I at least sort of like-liked him before cuz you know, personality and all that stuff, but come onnnn- like- what do I do now??

And then they were playing chicken fights in the pool or whatever the game is called, and after that they were standing on each other's shoulders and pretending to walk on water (We all had just endured a bible unit in our English classes)

He had offered for ME to stand on HIS shoulders- and for that to happen, you know, they gotta swim under, right? Well, we both have the dirtiest of minds (I also just have shitty balance so I was not about to try that anyways. That was the main reason on my mind but I thought of the other stuff after).

I don't even know if I have blushed since elementary school, but if I did then, then thank god for the sun because sunburnsssss

And then he couldn't find his shirt after we had all gotten out, and one of my other friends said that he didn't need the shirt (jokingly) and dear god I wanted to agree (verbally) but I'm too worried about my whole bullshit being too obvious if I did, so I just had to stay quiet. (He ended up not finding it and just having to leave cuz his parents were there)

But that- that day- just... that. It's not. Leaving. My. Mind. Alone.

#billygoat talks #Look ma- I'm not simping for only fictional characters! #I'm not adding him to the simp list tho- 1: not putting his name anyways and 2: that list is for fictional characters only #Wait- what day is it now? #Fuck- it's only Sunday... #Should I say something? Cuz I only know him because of the IB program but I'm not gonna be in it next school year #And I think the only time we would see each other is either during lunch and after school going to the buses or just buses #But I'm worried that- if I do say something and he doesn't feel the same- our friendship will be fucked up and awkward- I don't want that.. #Besides- I've never had good luck with these things #And at the start of the year I had come out to my friends as gay- mid-school-year one of my friends and I agreed I was pan #<- that was only one friend... and the one who made the joke I told y'all about #But he still thinks I am gay- we joke about it a lot- so how would I even start? #I've never been in a relationship- can't say I've never been kissed before only cuz of a weird thing in elementary school- #Believe it or not- even if I can give others advice- I don't know what to do for myself... #I guess I'm scared of rejection but I should be used to it by now- #Oh yeah! The other thing- we've only known each other for a whole one school year- his friends have known him for much longer- #I feel like it's wrong to even think like that after only one school year and say something about it- like it's too soon #Believe me- I do wanna say something but I'm just scared that our friendship will be ruined or he'll ask questions I don't have have answer #to- more than likely one of those would be about my sexuality #I feel like I have to stick to that- like a limitation- but I don't want to- #I have so many wants but I feel like I'm not exactly good enough for anybody and those wants will just be wishful thinking forever #Fuck- just bombarded y'all with my shower thoughts... sorry- #Ummmmmm- #Yeah-

[thebleedingeffect]

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#okay I'm talking in the tags of this post cause shit is happening in my life and I gotta talk about it somewhere #one part of it is my step brother crashing and burning before my very eyes and there's nothing I can do to stop his own destructive actions #so it's just me watching this poor kid ruin his relationships and blame everything and everyone around him as he does so #despite the fact that he's undeniably been treated horribly at times- he's just turned that anger back onto others and himself #and I have no idea what to feel as I watch him get arrested. have drug problems. because I'm just waiting for the inevitable spiral #it doesn't help that my mom has been comparing us and saying that I'm the much better child and she wishes he was like me #not understanding that I could’ve been him if I was just more angry at the world at that age instead of being so sad and scared #and that leads me to my fucking mom cause like- I love her. we've been through alot of bad shit with her #I've almost done some really bad shit for her and I know that she loves me more than anything else #but it feels like its been getting more and more suffocating cause I'm not sure she's able to start seeing me as an adult #and start loosening her grip around me and let me breathe. to have my own experiences without her by my side #to be able to go places and imagine a future without her constantly by my side #she talks and it's like she doesn't even think to wonder that perhaps I want to form my own experiences #and experience the world on my own terms because I feel like I've spent my whole life having so little damn control #religious family. shit and neglectful father who turned into the exact opposite and nearly killed me. family who refuses to listen and talk #having to move and run immediately. put survival above all else. go to school. get out. and god I just wanna breathe #she loves me so much and I love her too. but I feel like I'll be sooner crushed if I stick here for long enough #I'm just mad that my life has been nothing but absolutely no love. sudden waves of intense love. absolutely nothing. sudden spike #and I feel like I'm just finally starting to form good. healthy relationships on my own terms and actually make friends #because I had no idea what I was doing when I was a kid cause I was so fucking lonely and hurting #now I just. gotta figure out how to tell my mom that I can't carry this expectation that I'll continue to stay forever by her side #it just feels like I'm her child first and a person second. and it sucks. it really sucks. #ough. spins and spins and spins and spins-