#i have enough distractions on my phone

[sourtomatola]

I'm sorry, but nothing repells me faster to use a new device/object/service than hearing step one of set up is "Download the app"

#i will literally never buy a device that advertises an app that goes with it #i hate clogging my phone with 1000 single use apps #my daughters kindergarten just gave everyone thermometers that only work if you have the app #it is now a toy for my children #because screw that #i have enough distractions on my phone

[theragamuffininitiative]

I don't need a vacation, I need a sabbatical, where I go live in an abbey in switzerland for six months where I read and garden and study and stare at the sky and learn about birds and make some art and write a lot and help feed the nearby village with the garden crops and there are no ads or algorithms or tv shows or fastfood restaurants and I walk into town once a week for phone and internet to check on friends and family and then I go away again and preferably there are cats and goats and those soft brown cows and one shaggy dog and I learn I have a new favorite constellation and type of flower and shade of green.

#ragamusings #anyone else? #had to drive v carefully around a phone-distracted driver on my way home and i wanted to shake him by the shoulders #had someone want a refund from their show bc they didnt like it (we didn't have enough cast members apparently???) #and i watched horrific news unfold #and i'm so angry and tired and frustrated #i took a week-long staycation and only began to feel like myself again on the fifth day #anyways you can reblog this if you relate it's not just a private ramble #but idk if it is relatable or not i just want it deep in my soul #but alas i have no money and sabbaticals cost money ironically #and who would take care of my cats

[puppyeared]

ive made myself more wet and pathetic

#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL #its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed #because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH #how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would #be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing #or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late #i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed #the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either #because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember #the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either #the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with #crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure #BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION #im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real #really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and #thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT #you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without #making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY #yapping #doodles #puppysona #edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule #and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened

[jamiethebeeart]

⊂⁠(^‿^)⁠つ⊂⁠(⁠･⁠ω⁠･⁠*⁠⊂⁠)

#spinaraki #spinneraki #shuichi iguchi #shigaraki tomura #mha spinner #mha fanart #bnha #mha #ive still been thinking about them A LOT. havent been posting because i have agdjflf so many wips instead #was actually working on an honest to goodness animation before i got distracted by the end of school and gifts and job searching ect ect #i might write a little stand alone fic for this 👀👀👀 the idea is simple enough with no extraneous plot so its doable #this is sketchy as hell cause i havent drawn for like a week or two or three.... anyways #lets say that Shiggy's pinky isnt touching on the left +his thumb isnt touching on the right. im not about to go fix it now so (⁠◡⁠ ⁠ω⁠ ⁠◡⁠ #my friend accidentally discover their phone keyboard had the classic emoticon characters and since finding it on my phone ive #been using them so much! theyre so fun to use + i dont have to go searching through databases for them (like the old days) lmao #mha jbee

[autumnhobbit]

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#look finding a good therapist is a pain and i like my therapist #but it is getting ridiculous that i’m constantly getting rescheduled or i actually can’t do a call today or what have you #like i’ve had one actual session i think in the last three months #the rest is texting #and my brain just gets too scattered texting and there’s not enough feedback #and it’s too easy for me to be distracted on my phone #oh well.

[aro-aizawa]

I think Mirabel & Izuku would be besties tbh. This is prompted by anything but I thought you might agree

mirabel from encanto? oh ye i can get behind that ahah

#shut up danni's talking #i have a vague hc of characters from various fandoms i think could be siblings #i call it my mega sibling au #i don't think i see mirabel as part of it but i can deffo see her being familiar w them #the mega sibling group btw is danny from dp; izuku from mha; mari from ml; usagi from sailor moon; and damian from batman #those are the core of the au tho i can loosely see a few others be included but not enough to officially induct them y'know? #those are hiccup from httyd; aang from atla; steven from su & haruhi from ouran #others than i can see being friends w the mega sibling group are: team rocket from pkmn #that list was gonna be longer but i couldn't think past team rocket i love them too much #i guess mirabel would be there lol #hm maybe ron and kim from kp..... #this isn't necessarily my favourite characters from these specific shows/movies/comics/whatever just who i think would vibe together #like otherwise keith from voltron; zuko from atla and todoroki from mha would be there #instead they have their own thing going on where i can 100% see them as brothers #todoroki and zuko being twins w keith their elder brother #this is proto-mega sibling au tbh #anyways no plans for all this btw just vibes and good feelings there is no WAY i could handle anything solid w this big a cast lol #exactly a minute after i posted this i realised that tim from batman would also perfectly fit the proto-mega sibling group #then i got distracted when i couldn't edit this post from my mobile so in the time that my computer booted up #and w the annoyance of my phone not working i forgot who i was gonna add and was trying to think and i realised #ed from fma would also fit well into this proto sibling group and im now mad i made two crossover sibling groups

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm not feeling well today, so I'm in bed, and it's so fucking boring. I wish I at least had my Switch but of course this happens to be the day my husband took it to work with him to download some of my games for me (since we don't have internet yet) 😭

#I'm listening to an audiobook but I'm just not good at lying still and not DOING anything #so I've mostly been looking at rainbow high dolls (when the images are nice enough to load...) & deciding which ones I might buy next month #so far I've been good and haven't impulse bought any but I know it's a really stupid idea anyway #but what else is there to do 😭 #I shouldn't have had that takeout yesterday.... it was fucking delicious but my stomach hates me now #wish I could at least scroll through tumblr but no the phone signal is far too bad for that in my room #I really really hope we'll have internet soon 🙃 it's fine when you're keeping busy but I just can't always do that #being sick and not having a distraction sucks so much #personal

[arctic-hands]

My last bout of sleep paralysis (which was when I was recently hospitalized for nine days and getting no sleep because literally almost every half hour someone was waking me up for vitals or a blood drawl or to give me medicine or to prod my stomach or the attending bringing in the interns because I'm a great case study or because my infusion pump wanted to make obnoxious noises for no reason) was so horrific that when I told my therapist about it yesterday she visibly paled and freaked out on my behalf. Is that a good sign?

#would have loved if i had been hooked up to the heart monitor at the time to see how fast my heartrate shot up while it happened #and it would have been mildly amusing to see the nurses freak out over it #coincidentally and predictably my nurse did in fact come in a few minutes later to give me my meds #at like 2 a.m. because that's just how schedules roll i guess #and she say ME all pale and bug eyed as i desperately tried to distract myself on my phone because i didn't want to fall asleep again #and when she asked me what was wrong and i told her she clucked her tongue and said honey i wouldn't want to sleep after that either #I've had four boughts of it over the last six years or so which doesn't sound like an lot but one time is enough for me #so I'm gonna ask my PCP this week for a sleep study #sleep paralysis #sleep disorder #nightmare #the art i made about the sleep paralysis disturbed my therapist but i thought it was rather mild in comparison to the actual hallucination #art therapy #sleep deprivation

[grymmdark]

im fairly certain i have an actual addiction to my phone, as in a heavy reliance on it for stimulation as a form of distraction from other issues, but it's also better than being addicted to drugs or alcohol and i genuinely do not think i can make it outta highschool without some sorta addiction.

#grymms spectacular fucking posts #whenever im not on my phone and not doing something which either distracts me enough or prevents me from being on my phone i feel an #overwhelming urge to be on my phone in order to get the instant gratification of scrolling tumblr or playing a game or watching YouTube #and honestly its mostly due to needing to distract myself from just how harmful school is for me because it's not like i can just not be in #school #not just bc you have to have at least a highschool diploma for any jobs but also my mom would kill me

[dazais-guardian-angel]

went to my first con in 4 years on Friday to meet Kaiji Tang and got a Dazai autograph + video recording of him reading to me. He was the sweetest person (as I knew he would be) and interacting with him was lovely, but also at the same time oh boy it sure was an extremely stressful, ugly wake-up call of what it feels like to live in a world now where everyone around you has blissfully moved on from covid and can enjoy things normally and happily, while you'll forever be trapped in a hellscape of perpetual fear 🫠🫠🫠

#like. to be clear this was the first time i've been literally anywhere but doctor's appointments in 4 years #not just because of the pandemic but because of mental and physical exhaustion #so it was a Big Mistake to go from 0 to 100 and not ease myself into it at all #but at the same time........ it was a fucking hellscape of people. i don't think any kind of buildup could have prepared me for it at all. #it was so much less crowded in 2020 (ironically the very last place i ever went; literally on the BRINK of covid) #and now idk what it's become. a monster con. it was unbelievable. #but i was only there for less than an hour but i was so so so terrified that i very nearly left before even seeing him #i couldn't even fully enjoy meeting him as kind as he was because i was so anxious and distracted #and when i got back to the car i just fucking cried......... #the last five days i've just been sitting in fear waiting to feel Any sort of symptoms #i wore two masks and again was barely there for long but Still #and everyone around me was so chill as if everything was normal and No One was wearing a mask :))))) it's not fucking fair man :))))) #insert the 'they don't know' meme; they don't know how much covid can destroy your body even if you get a 'mild' case #i would never want to be that ignorant even if i wasn't disabled and didn't have reason to worry (but everyone has reason to worry!!!) #but also. ignorance is bliss and it just really fucking sucks man. #it really fucking sucks. why do they get to be happy and enjoying life and not /me?/ #why can't i do just ONE thing for myself without having it tainted by anxiety and fear that i'm going to die horribly??? #while they get to do fucking EVERYTHING??? #if they all just wore masks we could all enjoy ourselves much more comfortably than some of us are now #but no that's too much to ask from people 🙃🙃🙃 #shit sucks man. the world sucks. something that should be a happy memory for me was simultaneously the most awful experience #and i don't know how to feel about it now that it's over #he knew that i was afraid and at the end he told me that he hoped to see me again at another event someday #and that made me cry because it felt like dazai telling me to live. and i want to. but i don't know how to when the world is like this now. #i desperately want to be able to see him again someday but right now after how terrifying that was i never want to go to a con ever again.. #i wanted to ask him things about the manga and about dazai but i was being rushed and stressed so i couldn't ugh #(and doing that is hard enough anyway cause disability and i have to talk with my phone bahhhh) #at least i was able to give him my note *sigh*

[ricoka]

I do think I've found some tools on how to go about posting without making myself absolutely mad with nerves and anxiety and self-hatred, but by god is it a lot of work

#redirecting every thought that was trying to tempt me to be upset or get down on myself for still not being good enough #is quite a lot of work #and i have to practice it more in general so it will hopefully be easier #distraction and picking the right time of the month where I'm less likely to be an absolute mess #and forcing myself to ignore my phone #finally finished my book on Klimt and learnt that he made a pattern of dicks on the Beethoven frieze #the more you know #didn't notice them but I'll definitely check out my pictures

[scaredofmyocs]

I love it when i accidentally stay up on the night im supposed to be catching up on sleep it totallly doesnt make me feel horrible all week long

#talk post #i love this blog i want to live here #I cant!!! i just cant!!! go to bed at a normal fucking time istg #but noooooo the wild grinders wiki no some stupid bullshit no one has ever cared about before #WHEN I DONT GET ENOUGH SLEEP MY MENTAL HEALTH GETS WAY WORSE!!!!! IF I DONT FIX IT WE ARE GOING TO GET TOO SILLY #(yelling at a mirror) #seriously bothers me tho that Im always worried about how intense my negative feelings have been lately #and im like “oh ill just get more sleep” and then immediately fuck it up the next night making me tired all week #making me feel SO bad in the mornings and at night and increasing my paranoia and other such thoughts #and in trying to tune it all out just forget about it again leading to me fucking it up again #this is a bit dramatic its only happened 2 weeks in a row #but that feels like a lot because thats like 10 nights where i felt like i blinked and i had to wake up and go to school #and not only deal with my shitty social skills but the results of said thing #and also try to fight the thoughts that are like “this shits pointless im not doing this” LIKE PLEASE pretend to be normal for one year #and also that one teacher i have who demands every students attention while he teaches like i already finished the work sheet shut it #like i do well in that class just let me do what i want im not being distracting like girl i have at least an 87 dw about me #PLUS most of the time im not even on my phone he just really wants me to look at the board but girl as i said I ALREADY DID WHATS ON THERE #i feel like i never get to relax but i do all the time so i dont know what i mean #i keep saying “its ok as long as i can bury all my thoughts and just keep going while filling what free time i have with things i enjoy” #but things only work for so long #i hate the passage of time #anyawy erm wrong my guitar is in my mind (stupid ass guitar riff) #walks over to my bed and trips on the way falling asleep on the floor #ramble #hit post

[dashiellqvverty]

i am literally hungry all the time no matter what and i don’t know why

#made a bowl of pasta with cheese and broccoli tried to get in bed like less than an hour later. too hungry to rest #i always get SO hungry at night in particular #maybe the food i do eat just isn’t filling enough idk #idk in general i feel full from fairly small portions and then get hungry again v quickly #but at night man i feel like there is a pit in my stomach/chest like i can’t go to bed bc it’ll distract me #anyway. i also have a headache so i really shouldn’t be on my phone #it had just started to subside and then i got on my screen and it’s coming back 🤪 #i’m just like mad. bc i had to get up to eat. #r.txt

[aria0fgold]

Everything is so wrong with my tumblr I am grgrrjrjugskgvhgvjbm. Oh my god. What is happening??? The links are broken?? Is it just me? Why is everything breaking????? There's always, ALWAYS an extra https:?//hrefli? smth smth or wtv at the beginning of the url and im like, gurl pls, why is that there, why must you torment me with the extra step of checking the url, deleting that thing, just for the page to load properly. Why is the dash looping, i just saw a post where the user at the reblog was blank, what is going on bro?????

#aria rants #im like... my stress threshold is still like 50% or higher #i dont got enough power in me to deal with the confusing shit my dash is throwing at me. its like hitting me full force on the face #im here for a good time to distract my brain #cuz like it aint anything bad but my... gamer habits... #like every day passes and im reminded of the fact that all my plans for my games came crashing down cuz of my mf phone #im like ohhhhhhh pleeeaaassseeee my sanity #i had plans to get 90k-120k gems in proseka for the cards i want cuz f2pain BUT THAT AINT POSSIBLE NO MORE IM MISSING EVENTS RN #mahoyaku is preparing to release a new halloween themed event and cain has a new ssr in it and i wanna try getting it BUT I CANT-- #dont even get me started with my drawings bro ohmygod #i had plans to draw for my au. my ocs. kel's birthday cuz i have like an idea for it (he shares a birthday with elysia from hi3) #i wanted to draw both of em and itd be so cute but AHAH how #akitos birthday is coming up and his birthday gacha i need his birthday card and its the only gacha i can have so many akitos #ive been playing terrible facebook games yall im going through it #have i told yall that mahoyaku anni is also creeping near

[metalst]

Ugh

#finally get comfy enough to sleep and someone starts arguing #and I’m so mad about it I’ve just been scrolling on my phone to distract myself #I have work tomorrow. whyyyyyyyy

[creamecream]

Eloise rushed through the halls, frantically looking for Lycanna, but also desperately trying to avoid open areas, trying to keep out of sight, he did not want Heath finding him again.

A hand grabbed his arm, which made the werecat yelp out a surprised meow, but the familiar voice that reached his ears soothed him.

“You okay?”

Lycanna asked, Clawdeen visible behind them, watching the best friends.

Eloise opened his mouth to answer, but his lip wobbled and tears sprung to his eyes. Lycanna hissed and smoothed a hand quickly down one of Eloise’s ginger furred ears. “Hey, hey, hey,” Lycanna mumbled. “it’s okay, it’s okay.”

Eloise opened his arms and Lycanna immediately wrapped the smaller were up in their arms, letting Eloise get his emotions back under control, giving him a squeeze before letting him go.

“Heath catch up to ya’?”

Clawdeen asked, poking her head forward. “Lycanna told me.” the werewolf said when Eloise blinked bright blue eyes up at her.

Eloise nodded, before his ears slumped back.

“Forgot about me...” Elosie mumbled, his tail lightly tapping at his heels. “Went out with Toralei instead...”

Clawdeen rolled her eyes. “How can a monster be so damn forgetful?” Clawdeen said out into the air, putting a claw to Eloise’s lips when he made to answer. “Nah, listen to me, kitty.” Clawdeen started, looking to Lycanna for permission, smiling at her partner when they nodded. “Yeah, the jerk forgot about it, but are you gonna let that ruin your weekend? march right up to that boy and make him pick! if he wants to spend with Toralei, of all monsters, then let him! but you can’t live in limbo like this of not knowing where in the dang world you stand to him.”

Clawdeen tilted her hip, her ears pinprick straight. “You gotta do something, you don’t gotta be alone, of course not,” Clawdeen pointed at Lycanna and herself to Eloise, winking at him when he turned back at her. “But you gotta do it, or you’ll be miserable, and that ain’t acceptable.”

Eloise blinked for a moment, before sighing and nodding. “You’re right, really.” the werecat said, before steeling himself. “I can’t just ignore him, and it’s just going to hurt not knowing just what was going through his head.” Eloise sucked in a breath, shaking his head. “Yeah! I’m gonna go find him!” Eloise took a step, before he stopped and looked back at the other weremonsters. “Come with me?” he asked, making Lycanna smile gently, and causing Clawdeen to laugh.

“Of course! what else are friends for!” Clawdeen said, giving Eloise a pat on the back.

Phoenica belongs to @berrisweet-panda

Kitabelle belongs to @abyssnighthawk

Lycanna belongs to @shinynymphia

#oh geez we doing this #I fully did not realize how long it's been since I drew one of these I thought it had only been a few months #but then I looked and oh my god it was almost a year?? I don't know what happened I just got distracted I guess? #anyone remember that arc (?) I was doing of toralei taking heath from eloise because she's mad at him? #this is a continuation of that! we're almost done! I promise this time! I want to finish this so bad #I only have one more picture planned if it turns into more then it'll be because I couldn't wrap it up with just that #but other than that it's just one left #I wanted it to look like lycanna clawdeen and eloise were hiding in a corner while the world went along outside of that #thus the extras but I know I didn't really make the hallway big enough vrs the corner to give that effect oops #phoenica is on the phone with cleo they be a dating~ and kitabelle and spectra hold hands because girlfriends~ #monster high #fan characters #phoenica sunset #cleo de nile #kitabelle jingles #spectra vondergeist #lycanna bloodbite #eloise sunbeam #clawdeen wolf