#i have responsibilites

[bratniadusza]

my academic year just started, you can’t do this to me

#tma #the magnus archives #tma fanart #the magnus archives fanart #the magnus pod #martin blackwood #fanart #my art #the magnus archives spoilers #tma spoilers #so that magnus archives really is a podcast huh? #joining fandom at the perfect time #and i'm JUMPING IN on the hype #i'm so so excited #so have a quick art :DD #but at the same time #i have responsibilites #see u guys on the october 30th :>

[raviollies]

I love putting her in funny little outfits

#everytime im sad i just doodle her in some new outfit #just rough couple weeks and i havent seen my family so its only. work and responsibilites at home #and i just wanna relax and have someone else take care of me and make me dinner GKJNFDKJGNFD #but hence my more self pitying posts...just kinda tired #i feel like i havent properly relaxed in weeks because its work -> all home responsibilities on just me -> hormonal issues with meds #also hence my sudden desire for blythe merch. i wish to hold her

[shapeshifter-shenanigans]

#vent art?? having many thoughts about ongoing climate disaster #given my field of study it's hard to avoid thinking about ha ha #and also i think it's fucked up how adults used to tell kids like me we're gonna save the planet one day!! as if that was our responsibilit #now they all want us to shut up about climate change and go about our lives like normal #ANYWAYS #lyrics from Now by Paramore! #my art #fursona #rabbit furry #ecopunk

[sparkly-skies]

@reserved-fruit thank you for the link to this video with Kris' heart ring (goes perfectly with Keep Me Grounded, Keep Me Calm, just saying 👀 do you like friends (Bojan and Kris) comforting each other and jokingly proposing while still being deeply serious about how important their friendship is? Go read this!).

Here's some screenshots to look at with me, why? Because I'm a touchstarved bitch and scream and cry at any sighting of physical affection. Thank you Bojan for providing enrichment in my enclosure.

Also this one. Because I see a mention of friends spending time together because they love each other and love spending time together, I scream and screech in missing my friends noises.

#i'm half convinced alistair has saved me on discord as touchstarved fuck or something #anyway. do these fuckers know how LUCKY they are to have their friends this close at any given time? #I spent 2 1/2 weeks at my parents' during christmas and I saw friends I think... three maybe four times #plus a visit at a friend's place across the border for two days #which i was very happy about! i was really happy about the times i did see friends! #but it also sucks that everyone's so busy with their own lives and responsibilites and whatnot that it's this hard to see friends now #plus that one friend who just doesn't answer anyone anymore. just TELL US if you don't want to see us anymore #that's okay. it would still hurt but sometimes a friendship has come to its end and that's okay even if it hurts. but don't just #ghost your entire friend group while still sending snaps and then not answering if we answer there #okay that turned into a rant #because like bojan in the shower with kris i am incapable of shutting the fuck up in the tags #go read that fic! #mine #joker out

[hellofears]

having issues with men, the associations the instant distrust, which i dont like i dont want it i want things to be different, just all of it so much just the dynamic i have the relationship all of it the way the world is atleast online and having a younger brother. I wouldn't trade him for the world, I try and talk to him where I can and will continue to do so i adore him but i fear. i believe in him i want joy for him. I fear that his peers will feed him fckn brainrot and it scares me. not even just that he'll fall into that thinking that his fuckn upstanding that his unwillingness to follow ppl will hurt him. crazy shit at schools, like why tf r ppl dying kids young teens killing eaachother with knives? ??I don't want to loose him i don't want to see him loose who he is and the heart that he has i don't and i hope he rises above it all and will continue to. i feel like im stating what he has to be or smth but all i could ask for is his wellbeing, respect, humanity, that he treats himself well know what he deserves and has some sense of self, some gravity. I feel like shit sometimes for this aspect that i'm concerned that i just idk, i dont like the whole 'dont disappoint me' thing he owes nothing to me other than basic human decency and respect, hes a reason why i live but to i just that intrusive thought of there is no different the hell u think of is real about men to someone i hold so fckn dear to in a way show me their fckn fuckery its idk, like another? it'd hurt me, it'd hurt me bad.

i've never understood men or boys, amab, who go on about their connection or like protectiveness of their sisters of their mother but treat other women like shit like their familiars aren't women? you don't want to fuck them so its different? what is it like just whats the difference why does it have to pertain to you for you to care? do you care or do you see them as an extension? is it a personality trait for you? a 'lover boy' thing? a signal to women, women u imagine u want and is going to be 'ur woman' but u cant even like visualize them in a way that doesnt pertain to your sexual interests? a signal so people can say oh he loves his mother so hes good to go and prime? a 'mummys boy' ? are they not real women just because u dont feel that sort of way? talking about women that way with your friends? do i have to bring up the fact those same people could date your sister etc for you to care? those people could make the kids that surround your kids, your daughter. idk.

its like okay u want sex so u respect them less? did no one hear dont bite the hand that feeds you? what the fuck is going on. you cant fuck them so its all good? the demeaning-ness? lack of gravity, venom is just rapid, vapid

#*txt🗣️ #real world issues #i instantly think of counter points before i say anything especially online and i hate it because its like im accustomed to ppl being accus #atory. at being contrary. shitting on vulnerability. shitting on emotions. shitting on hhumanity. shitting on the ability to care. #women can be pieces of shit men can queer folk can i can be you can be to me theres an ability just as people and the world of choice that #-e have. im not saying everyones on the brink of doing the worst and makes a choice not to either if ur going through that u need to seek #help or some sort of sincere dialogue well and truly. but the world around me has made me who i am just as much as my reaction. not all etc #is a no brainer. ppl dont have a neon sign on their forehead. its understandable why the caution has been fckn drilled into so many afab so #many women in the hearts of many and thats hurt fear and absolute rage simmering anger for bs. i understand proventitive cautions to ppl #especially those who tend to be the direct target demographic but to drill in fear to woman to afab not even just on a personal level imsur #everyones experience is different on that front and their thoughts but on a society level and then take no action to then be like atleast t #my knowledge or its just not fckn working bitch its crickets. men should be able to feel safe enough to share their fears and worries to be #vulnerable but that isn't coddling bs and pointing the fingers at women at afab. theres weight in the way both sexes have been socialized #its cause and effect i refuse that it can't be helped. i refuse it. i reject it. thats not me discrediting or trying to come at gender(s) #at ppls gender identity etc. i mean everything makes us who we are. its all part of a journey. ones sex doesn't invalidate such a thing. #humans are so complex to say someones just pulling shit out their ass for the giggles is wild. no matter what it rings true for people #its not for us to choose for eachother we don't choose what others want to share we can't decide how someone else feels we can't read them- #back a book they feel like they've never heard or is bs and give them the finger. u can't tell someone they're the authour and they didn't #write the book or they didn't hire you or agree and want u to write it for them? ur not a ghostwriter bitch ur writing perception #i mean the way we're brought up the way society has become accustomed it effects results its a world in of itself made #to no fruitful benefit atleast to me for any party. when desire grips you at the throat when you allow your will you allow your every whim #the desire isnt even desire anymore. now you're creating a loop you're creating a possibility for a life with no balance #if men are so upstanding they aren't like one another they aren't the bad ones why is the refusal to move forward and write past men up #write them wrong feel so heavy or resound so heavily atleast to me. write for better because you're better. know you're better. #excitement as it once was turns into not enough then again and again. and the core issue even thbere i care for other parties responsibilit #relationships are a back and forth dont choose for others what they want dont decide for others. ask them. #u shouldn't have to constantly prove ur different but heres the thing if in ur life those who know you atleast if u have walked the road #u speak of the valiant road you've trecked supposedly there'd be nothing to prove. you've walked it. if a new person comes along you dont #need effort to show you have basic respect for another. and if u dont have that respect dont get mad at those who dont want u in their live #u took yourself out their market. life is a in moment custom experience. buckle up. not me talking about love like a business worker or smt

[theflyingfeeling]

I think Niko is shipping Olli and Aleksi…👀

oh, for sure 😌 and he's absolutely right to do so as well <3

so yeah who else tried googling 'michael jackson anti-gravity lean meme' or something to figure out what the hell that was all about. I mean not meeeee

#i couldn't find anything noteworthy so i guess this will remain another mystery 😔 #what i'm about to say next is 100% fictional and just a delulu headcanon so pls don't actually think i believe it's true but hear me out: #imagine niko having noticed olli and aleksi are into each other but too oblivious (or scared) to do anything about it #and so he puts his best efforts in trying to sort of...lead them towards each other 🥺 #oof i should shut up before i'll headcanon them being misearable in their current relationships #(which i'm sure they're not!! i'm just headcanoning 100% fictional scenarios!! not speculating!! i know nothing!!) #and niko knowing about / having noticed that too. thus providing him one more reason to make them see how good they'd be together #i swear i'm not obsessed about them being cheaters lol #rather i'm obsessed with the trope 'yes they're dating person X and are relatively happy #but then they meet person B and realise who they should actually be with' 🤧 #because sometimes that happens okay?! 😭 #sorry for the somewhat irrelevant rant lol i'm avoiding real-life responsibilites 🤡 #answered asks #anon ask #ollixallu

[bluesidez]

One day, I’ll learn not to post at the ass crack of dawn 😭

#lauro yabber 🗣️ #i’m a true night owl #which sucks because I have responsibilites that need to be completed in the day time

[volivolition]

what's the theme you're fucking going for here voliiii!!! what are you fucking getting at!!! what are you trying to say, what's the point??

#still working on this drama chapter in Swept Up. they're. confusing to work with? from an empathy standpoint at least. #skill who is trying to honestly understand the other skills VS skill who is just always lying and putting on an act. #and then theres the whole thing that im not going to spoil yet but the dynamic. fuck man. i dont even know what im trying to say here #lying is bad? no i dont care about that. honest communication is important maybe? i feel like i need a central theme for this. #and i dont want the theme to be ''empathy good'' because low-empathy people are also good and i love them!! and also: #empathy is a flawed character!! i try to portray this. i dont like moralism/centrism which empathy believes in and is the main skill for #empathy you stupid centralist (affectionate) i know this is just because you don't know how to make everyone happy. who can fix this? #you dont think you can fix this! you feel too much debilitating sadness to make meaningful change!! responsibilite to others more capable #still. i do depict empathy as often kind on a small level because i think that's in character. empathy just helps you understand. #i guess this fic is also a ''empathy doesn't mean kindness. kindness is a choice you can make afterwards but empathy just means empathy'' #but that's not a centralizing theme that all the chapters share. its also about vulnerability and the mortifying ordeal of being known #urgh. i'll think about it some more. knowing me its probably another ''love (in all forms) is the meaning to life'' type story lmao <3 #i need to make a skill chart for this harry. all i know is that Volition is his skill signature but Empathy is his highest stat #hyper-empathetic harry with the rsd that comes from adhd!! haha!! suffering. everybody fucking hate you. this is based on me btw lmao #i was working on voli's chapter which has a flashback and child empathy! new to the mindspace looking out through harry's eyes and crying #the world is full of sad people and it's just too much for a lil guy! the backstory i have planned for this like. huh okay. wild. anyway!! #oh shit ive made a fucking breakthrough with the drama chapter. its not a theme but its something i figured out at least. we stay winning!! #chemi chats #task: swept up

[acaesic]

UUUUUUUUUUUGGGGHHHH I HAVE TO WAKE UP TOMORROW

#AND I HAVE TO GET OUT OF BED AND I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL AND I CANT JUST BE A RICH ADULT WITH NO RESPONSIBILITES #I HATE THIS I HATE LIFE WE ARE ALL FUCKED ITS SO OVER #im sorry its. 11pm #chase said something alright

[r--g--b]

along the lines of the "they would not have kids" post: as much as i love theorizing about wildbreak being a kobd kid...lets be so real kobd would never ever have children

#knockout voice so i have to....🤢 follow a curfew? and 🤢 have responsibilites?

[koipalm]

Not here to dogpile! I promise!

And while I definitely think Geto wasn’t the greatest at raising Nanako and Mimiko since they do have this unhealthy codependency thing. It should be noted that Geto didn’t have anyone from the cult/family to raise Nanako and Mimiko.

The author stated in the internet that it was only Geto himself that raised them. And it was only Nanako and Mimiko’s decision to join because of how much they love him. It’s unhealthy yes, but Geto is the type who can’t really say no to his precious daughters.

I mean. I definitely think it’s way better than what Gojo did with Megumi. Gojo did not raised him. He literally only “save” him due to his curse technique and thinking he would be a strong ally growing up.

Do I think Gojo cares about Megumi? To a certain degree. But definitely not in a family way. Gojo views relationships a bit too transactional. I mean Gojo was aware about Megumi’s suicidal tendencies, but not completely understanding where it stems from. And plus, there was a flashback in the manga of Gojo literally had him dragging a young Megumi on a mission already. Definitely not dad material.

Gojo basically only “raised” Megumi as a child soldier essentially. I mean, you can’t blame him. Because that was how Gojo was raised, so he thought it was the best for him. Overall. Geto = Dad (not the best but he still raised them with love and care). Gojo = Not Dad.

OH MAN ok so first i must preface this by saying that some of this really depends on what you make of their interactions, because not all of this is stated in the text. in the end, we may just have different interpretations ^^

so while it does not seem that geto directly raised nanako and mimiko as followers in his cult, he is still a cult leader himself and it doesnt seem that he makes much of an effort to shield them from what hes doing and what his ideologies are. its very clear that the two worship him as a father figure and greater & both of the twins subscribe to his movement. nanako and mimiko are directly involved in the sorcerer's side of his plans, acting as some of the key players in his plans and even willing to assassinate other sorcerers in his name.

in the end, even with how much geto loved mimiko and nanako, he was subjecting them to incredibly harmful ideology and indoctrinating them into a genocide effort. all in all, that is abuse, no matter how much he loved them.

on gojo's side of things, i really cant claim that he was the best father figure either, but i dont think he was trying to be in the first place. when geto breaks off from jujutsu tech and takes the girls and takes over the star religious group, gojo instead goes to the fushiguros, whom he was either previously ignoring the existence of or he was putting off confronting toji's last words until geto's defection prompted it (we really don't have confirmation of his thought process here and if he had already planned on going to the fushiguros, so this is all speculation).

in any case, the main thing is that gojo and geto practically swap ideologies by the end of the past arc. where geto turns to a violent and drastic solution, gojo instead carries out in the spirit of geto's previous ideals, while also trying to secure a better future for the next generation of sorcerers. interestingly, its right after geto assumes control of the cult in the manga we are shown gojo meeting megumi.

what it seems to ME from their interaction, is that gojo is considering tojis last words and is giving megumi a choice. megumi rejects the idea of going to the zenin clan on the basis that it would make tsumiki unhappy (i wonder if gojo says this because he knows how they would treat tsumiki as a non sorcerer, or because he as a clan kid has some prior experiences. who knows). to be honest, i dont think that megumi had a plethora of options. he could have gone to the zenin clan with tsumiki and been well trained but unhappy, or he could have tried to evade the zenin clan for as long as possible, which wouldn't have been possible to keep up forever without having proper training on his techniques. gojo offers megumi a third option, presumably acting as a buffer and helping to train megumi. it IS possible that gojo could have offered megumi protection from the zenins and to lead a normal life away from sorcery indefinitely, but theres debate if thats even possible. megumi was going to be sold for an [unknown] large amount of money because of the strength of his sorcery, which likely means that the zenin at least knew he could be an incredible asset. maybe someone they didnt see as impressive or valuable might have been able to get out if they fought hard enough, like maki and mai, but that probably wouldnt have been possible for megumi. the sheer strength of his sorcery puts him in trouble in the jujutsu world, whether hes targeted or recruited for it.

i dont think that gojo was specifically training megumi to be a child sorcerer and an asset to him, because his parting words to me imply more of gojos own issues with geto (of course, speculation) than wanting megumi to be a strong ally of his, especially because gojo is not looking at megumi and has a kind of melancholic smile.

i have seen the interview that gege did where he claims that gojo did it to "seek human resources", but i do think that its an incredibly strange setup, especially with having the contrast with how geto is solidifying his own beliefs in how to move forward in the jujutsu world.

part of the reason im iffy about stuff like this is because gege will set up and have gojo act as an adult who is actively trying to help the children he meets and change the jujutsu world starting with the younger generations, and then he will turn around and say that gojo doesnt care as long as the kids are strong. i know that gege is known for being harsh on gojo and hating his character, so i wont lie, i dont put as much weight into stuff like that....

dont get me wrong, gojo was definitely not "dad" material! in reality, i think he was more of a mentor figure than anything else. we know that he gave financial support, he helped megumi train, and he also helped give him advice, but he definitely wasn't there 100% of the time. in fact, im not entirely sure he would have been able to do that at all considering he would have likely had to take up even more missions than he was already doing to take up the slack from geto defecting. in contrast, i dont think that geto should have assumed being their father figure at all, especially in the way he did, considering hes also gojo's age when he takes the twins in (assumed around 19-20s) because he posits himself to the twins as self assured and morally superior to nearly everyone else around them, which is also very unhealthy because at that age you yourself are still learning, and if youre taking care of young and impressionable kids who are willing to take anything you say as the ultimate truth, you should definitely let them know that youre not like. a god on earth. NOT THAT HE SAID THAT but like you get what i mean

#i WISH gojo would have been able to help the fushiguros more #but he was pretty isolated from everyone else at that point and was probably busier than ever #that and hes not the most mature guy he definitely would have needed more help or at least less responsibilites #its why i like the idea of shoko and nanami and eventually ijichi helping him raise them #not the best cast for child rearing of course but it might have been better than whatever gojo might have managed on his own #ask #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu kaisen spoilers #OH ONE MORE THING MY BAD #gojo definitely did not take on getos old beliefs of what being a sorcerer means #but in the end his more selfish approach seems to work out well for him and the people he helps anyway #cult mention

[br1ghtestlight]

at thanksgiving me and my brother were talking about who has the worst memory between us and he was like can you remember last year and i was like no. and he was like can you remember what you were doing yesterday and i sat there for a full five seconds looking like this with everybody staring @ me

#LIKE THIS IS WHY I CANT HAVE A JOB MY SHORT TERM MEMORY IS FUCKED. MY LONG TERM MEMORY IS FUCKED #how am i supposed to remember what im supposed to do at my job and what my responsibilites are if my memory is completely wiped #every 12-24 hours 😭 #txt

[dogcollarpunk]

😏< resisting the urge to go buy a monster and stay up late drawing when I have a 10 am lecture & flat viewing tomorrow

#beef trimmings #Ive also been sleeping badly so I should really just be kinder to myself #I simply. am feeling a little self-destructive #and I need 2 stay up late to an unreasonable time and regret it severely #I just also super duper duper dont wanna be around people #and I will have to. even if they are my friends. #the anxiety is bad and the mental? it is ill #RIGHT I NEED TO MAKE A PHONE CALL TOMORROW TOO #december is the month of agonies I feel so bad and I have so much 2 get done in terms of. social relationships and adult responsibilites #I just wanna crawl under a rock and destroy my ear drums with some loud music #its counter productive bc I KNOW I need social interaction as well #the isolation is making the brain worse but fuck I feel #like a very thin sheet of wet paper #dont come to close bc I tear easily

[tchaikovskym]

Caught myself hissing and gargling today at work multiple times, what have I become

#me doing my job: 'ghhgggrghhhgghhhsshhhahhss' #its what happens when youre too comfortable with your coworkers #also i go back to work and i already have responsibilites? thats rude. #😭😭😭 #i just wanted to ease back in but nooOoooO. no. #boom a meeting #boom an event im supposed to participate in #boom an excursion im supposed to make #BOOM A WORK TRIP NO ONE ELSE WANTED TO GO TO #and how am i supposed to do it all when i have to assist in anesthesiology simulations #you would hiss too #although my coworkers dont

[allthatdivides]

“april showers bring may flowers” i mean true yeah but april showers are also just awesome. like they dont need to bring flowers for you to appreciate them. have you ever stood outside in the pouring rain of april? just this side of too cold? soaked to the bone in hope and promise? heard it pounding on your roof while you sat down for a cozy dinner? had it lull you to sleep? like come on

#its absolutely pouring outside and if i didnt have responsibilites i would be outside dancing in the rain rn

[astranite]

Today I encountered The Horrors. 

(had to make a phone call and send an email I’d been putting off.)

(There are still more Horrors to come)

(whyyyyyyyyyyyy?????)

#really dont like the way being an Adult and getting my shit together involves The Horror #and how tumblr only sometimes lets me edit my tags #still more things ive got to do #what is this actual responsibilites nonsense #isnt it enough for me to simply stuff around? #i know i need to do the things #and on some level i want to do the things because they will benefit me #and i know there are consequenses for not doing the things #but i have not done all the things #why am i like this #oh yeah adhd #and i forgot to take my damn meds #even though id literally left them in the most obvious spot possible on my desk #maybe i should leave them on top of my laptop thats an idea #where was i #ah yes complaining to the void about the Horrors #at least i did do two things #but i did not study and there are deadlines approaching but i dont know when becasue i dont remember #and i just need to do it #but its painfully boring and anxiety inducing and i hardly know where to start #and it would involve sitting at my desk and Concentrating #so im on tumblr #hello friends welcome to my mess #AstraStuff #and now i have to go to the dentist becasue i have teeth which is just another responsibility #so yeah