#i hope i wrote her dialogue correctly lol

[marivenah]

FLUFFTOBER - DAY 22

Picking (Flowers) - for Aiden

>> prompt list

Pairing: Aiden x Faith

Characters: Aiden Hunter, Faith Seed

Words: 1k

A little late because I didn't manage to finish it in time and then wanted to drop it completely, BUT I picked it back up and completed it!

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The colourful grassland out in Hope County holds so much beauty Aiden never really noticed before. Funny that all it took was a war — a cause he now dedicated his life to.

Though, he didn’t exactly expect to be needed for this. But he is not complaining. The silence is comforting. So far into the Henbane Region, away from all this mess. The Project, the Resistance, and everything in between.

They had more Peggies with them at first — uh, Brothers and Sisters — but Faith sent them away, leaving only her and Aiden. He’d lie if he said that he wouldn’t feel a little safer with more Chosen around. Who knows if Laurie is going to show up.

The Deputy.

The grip on his rifle tightens when she comes to mind. Aiden hopes that the Deputy will see that she is fighting the wrong fight. That she’ll see the light and put an end to the conflict.

In the background, Faith is roaming over the flower field, her dress gently swaying with her movement. One would only ever see her with Bliss flowers but today she decided to collect all different kinds of flowers. Right now, she’s picking lilies. White ones.

“Lilium candidum, more commonly known as the white lily. While lilies come in many different colours, such as yellow, orange, and red — the Madonna lily is the purest of them all. It symbolizes modesty and innocence of the soul. And yet it earned the name ‘flower of sadness’.”

Aiden listens intently. He didn’t expect to get a lesson in botany, but it sounds intriguing enough. Especially when narrated by Faith.

Her fingers carefully brush over the white petals.

If the agitation didn’t keep him on high alert, the Chosen would’ve questioned the sight. Is it real or just another Bliss dream? The Siren looks more like an angel to him.

“Do you think something so pure, can be so woeful?”, she asks.

One cold shiver runs down Aiden’s spine and takes all of his tautness with it when he realizes the question was directed at him. Jacob taught him that Faith’s words are never to be questioned. But what does the protocol say for questions she has for him?

Faith makes a beeline and now stands close to him, allowing for direct eye contact. No matter how hard he tries, he can’t take his eyes off hers. The green is hypnotizing, in a strangely gentle and comforting way.

Is this another test? Or genuine curiosity?

To not risk anything, the Chosen answers with a counter question, “Is sadness something negative to you?”

She tilts her head but shows no sign of confusion on her face. The soft smile still lingering on her lips. Her hands are neatly clasped behind her back. The answer to his question seems to be obvious to her.

He gives in, “I think sadness can be something positive, in its own way. It shows that the person is emotionally affected. That there is a deeper meaning behind it all. If there is no happiness nor sadness all that’s left is indifference.”

No words follow but Faith is still eagerly listening. Obviously, waiting for the answer to her question.

Aiden clears his throat, “I do believe purity and sadness aren’t mutually exclusive. On some occasions, one can even lead to the other.”

That is when her eyes drift away and the smile drops slightly. Not a spontaneous question, seeing as the answer gave her reason to think.

“Depending on the circumstances”, he adds.

Then, she puts the lilies away. While the Herald rummages through her pile of flowers, she starts humming. The melodic sound is as ever soothing.

“Do you think something pretty can hide an ugly truth underneath?” Another question from Faith.

She pulls a yellow flower from the basket. At first glance, it seems to be a dandelion but at closer inspection — after she hands it to him — the petals are different.

She continues her little lesson, “Tanacetum. It symbolizes protection, resistance, and health. Beneath it though, the core reveals itself to be poisonous.” Faith’s voice has just as much venom in it as the word itself.

Aiden would ask her why she picked the flower in the first place, but the Project most definitely has good use for poisonous flowers. And everyone has their role to play, including plants it seems.

“Everything that is pretty, has a secret. Something dark that it’s hiding. That’s why it is pretty. Otherwise, it can’t deceive. Which it does to survive in this endless circle of life and death. After all, life is all about survival, is it not?”, she asks, putting the flower back.

Only the strong survive.

“It shouldn’t be”, the Chosen mutters under his breath.

Within a heartbeat, Faith grabs one of Aiden’s hands, caging it between her own. “Our home is being poisoned by those pretending to be saviours — disguising it as healing. It is them who have turned it into a fight for survival and then put the blame on us.”

The Resistance. If only they were able to see the truth. If only his sister would have followed him.

“Don’t let yourself get fooled by its shell, by its façade. It cannot give you what it promises.” The Herald’s view is fixed on their conjoined hands, softly squeezing the Chosen’s hand. “But once we enter New Eden, all of this will finally be over, giving our lives a new purpose.”

The contact makes him feel unsure, but at the same time, there’s warmth spreading in his chest. This sensation shouldn’t come over him. When Jacob finds out —

“You know”, Faith starts, her lips curving into a smile, “When I think of you, what comes to mind is protection, of course. But, also healing. True healing. You took the step. The leap of faith. You wanted to be forgiven, to be reborn. And you succeeded. Because you had faith.”

He had faith. He still has faith. So much work, so much remorse wrapped him into a cocoon of misery, unable to find a way out. Then, faith found him. Ironically, his faith is standing right in front of him.

A selfish thought. He mentally shakes it off.

She continues, “Much like the Achillea, or Yarrow as most would call it, you healed. Something you decided to do all on your own.”

From the pile of flowers, she hands him red ones, which he assumes, are Yarrows.

“The red ones fit you best.”

#oc: aiden hunter #x: darkest before the dawn #txt.aiden #mywriting* #mine.ft23 #i hope i wrote her dialogue correctly lol #she's not trying to manipulate him here #i do think she truly believes in whatever the fuck she's saying #we love a delulu queen <3 #meanwhile he's just 😳😍 #the flowers were chosen on purpose btw! each of them represents someone 😌 #btw if you see any editing errors or things in [brackets] pls tell me lol

[queseraone]

20 questions for fic writers

tagged by the fabulous @cfr749. Please go read her fics and join me in screeching over them!!

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 28

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 103,520

3. What fandoms do you write for? The Rookie (Chenford), and previously for Chicago PD (Linstead)

4. What are your top five fics by kudos? - stay - i want you to be happier - i don't wanna think of anything else (now that i thought of you) - all at once this is enough - now everything is easy (cause of you)

5. Do you respond to comments? I didn't when I first started posting fics (though I often think about going back and replying to them now, but that would probably be weird lol). But yes, now I definitely respond to comments. I am absolutely giddy over every single one I receive, and so I love to express that appreciation!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Hmmmm I don't think any of them? I tend to leave even the angstiest fics on a hopeful note. But I suppose either just close your eyes (you'll be alright) or you know the greatest films of all time were never made just because of where they land in relation to the events of the show?

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Probably in paper rings, in picture frames, and all my dreams, because, hello, 💍

8. Do you get hate on fics? Thankfully I have only seen positive feedback, which is so so lovely. This fandom is wonderful 💖

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? I do not, because I'm too chicken. Maybe one day? (iykyk)

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? No. I can't stand crossover fics. 😬

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I'm aware of!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?  Not by me!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yes! My babe @timandlucy and I have a collab that we started a while ago and have recently talked about picking up again! And we have an idea for another one brewing too! And @makeitastrength and I have on that's sitting on the backburner, but hopefully we will make happen!

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? Chenford!

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I want to say none because I'm way too fucking stubborn to give up on anything. But *sigh* Home... 😬😬😬😬😬 (it's been 5½ years, so it's not looking particularly hopeful)

16. What are your writing strengths? Oh man, I don't know? I hope I do a decent enough job of getting their voices right? Dialogue is often a battle, but that's probably because of how insane particular I am. I will say things out loud, play around with words, etc. to make sure it really feels like something they would say.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Being too indecisive and my lack of confidence (which, frankly, go hand in hand).

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? I haven't done it, but I would definitely be looking to lean on a native speaker to ensure I do it correctly!

19. First fandom you wrote for? Chicago PD (Linstead)

20. Favorite fic you’ve written? So hard, but i want you to be happier has a special place in my heart. It was a challenge to write, but the words still came so easily. And when I go back and re-read it, I don't cringe, so that's a win right there!

Thanks Lana! 🥰

Tagging @timandlucy @roguetwelve @makeitastrength @silverskull @goodgirlssayiloveyoutoo @chenfordspiral @sisterofficerlucychen @thisnightissparkling089 💕

#chenford #chenford fanfic #questions for fic writers #tag games #fanfic #writing

[dottores]

hi cat! so! I binge read all of little dark age and I’m utterly floored by your story. I’m a writer myself, so I’m (unfortunately) SUPER picky and critical about the content I read...but this fic has my jaw on the floor. I can’t remember the last time I dropped everything to read a fanfic because I was so invested in the plot. there are little things to improve ofc (which is true for everyone’s writing), but also so many good things in your writing! hope u don’t mind bc I’m about to start rambling lmfao

first off, I’m SO impressed by the way you wove the events from the manga into this storyline! you did it in a way that actually makes sense for your own story, and it feels very seamless and natural. plus I’m a fan of the nonlinear storytelling! it’s difficult to present the plot in bits and pieces, and it’s often done in a way that ends up being annoying (remember…I’m picky lmfao), but you executed it in a way that made me eager to get to the next chapter so I could piece together more of the story.

and the characterisation…my gosh. the way you write ran and rindou is EXACTLY how I think of them in my mind! I adore how you explored the facets of both their characters and really rounded them out more (for example — ran’s tendency to push people away and bear everything on his shoulders in typical oldest sibling fashion, and rindou’s feelings of inadequacy when he compares himself to ran). and you actually show these tendencies through their dialogue and actions!

and ofc I can’t forget the way you wrote the reader. y/n is relatable, but gave her a story of her own and emotions that actually make sense and don’t just come out of nowhere. one thing I can’t stand is when plots are largely driven by simple miscommunication. there’s a lot of miscommunication among our three main characters (or just the lack of it lol), but in your story the characters actually have a reason for it; there are such big things at stake both for the brothers and for the reader. I’m so thankful you really showed us the depth of the relationship between the brothers and the reader too.

finally, I love how you write using simple and straightforward language but convey emotion so well! to me, a marker of good writing is when it stirs up emotion in the reader, and that’s exactly what you did with each chapter…like I was shaking and sobbing and wailing as I read (not literally but yeah lol). speaking of which — the tension. the pining. THE SLOW BURN. that sort of stuff is exactly what I love, and you wrote it soooo well!!!

but YEAH long story short is that I used to think the haitanis were kind of overrated, but with this fic you’ve made me a haitani brothers lover for life. and I might even make a return to tumblr just to keep up with this story! I seriously mean it when I say you’re a talented writer — I can’t wait to read more of your works!

love,

anon <3

p.s. I love the chapter titles

i do hope you know when i received this ask i quite literally read it nearly a dozen times n almost started crying sobs

JAKXJAKKSS IM SO GLAD YOU PICKED UP THAT I WAS TRYING TO KEEP IT IN LINE WITH CANON EVENTS i spent so much time trying to make sure everything lined up correctly so that this could technically be read as a canon timeline omg 😭😭😭 all the way since the beginning since ran and rin went to juvie the first time

I WAS SO WORRIED MAKING ONE OF THE MAIN CONFLICTS OF THIS FIC A LACK OF COMMUNICATION because i know it’s something overdone and can be easily fucked up or make reader’s irritated/frustrated (which i’m sure people were😭😭) but i tried so hard to make it all believable by getting in depth with the thought processes/emotions driving them yk so that’s so reassuring pls

i LOVE simple language/writing styles, like i always tell myself that it’s HOW you use the words that matters, not how fancy they are, yk. like my aim with writing is to make my fics easy to read and (hopefully) a really good read, because i always find, at least with me, that those are the things i personally enjoy reading the most. (and this is no shame to people with more complex writing styles 😭 it’s just my preference, i look up to people that use those complex and poetic styles cuz no matter how hard i try i can’t seem to write that way)

hehe i always have so much fun with the chapter titles and trying to get them to connect to the chapters, my favorite is either the one from the last chapter, or “and you’ll never be pure again”

SOBS SOBS ILYSM I WISH I COULD GIVE YOU SO MANY HUGS 🥹🥹🥹

#my asks #series: little dark age

[illusivesoul]

Writing Tag Game

Tagged by @ljandersen Thank you :)

I'll tag @wardenrainwall @berryshiara @alyssalenko @quietborderline @montliyets @imakemywings @natsora and @hollyand-writes Only if you feel like doing this, of course.

I'll put the questions up here and my answers under the cut.

How many works do you have on AO3?

What’s your total AO3 word count?

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Do you write smut? If so what kind?

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

What’s your all-time favorite ship?

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

What are your writing strengths?

What are your writing weaknesses?

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

How many works do you have on AO3?: 47

What’s your total AO3 word count?: 159781, if I did the sum correctly lol

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?: Fought, Loved, Lost, Hoped - 179

Afterlife Feels Empty Without You - 79

"Commander" - 65

Afterparty - 57

Smile - 46

Do you respond to comments, why or why not?: Always. They really mean a lot to me, and I want to make sure the commenter knows how much I appreciate the fact that they read and enjoyed the fic.

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?: Another Soul in Elysium. Its a short fic about my Shepard losing someone special to her during the Skillian Blitz.

"Thank you…" Shepard said as she kissed her forehead, one last time "... for everything"

Wiping away the tears, she zipped the bag up and confirmed the id on her omnitool, before standing up and walking away… burying another part of her past once again.

It wouldn't be the last.

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?: , which is a short moment of fluff of my Hawke and her wives.

As the hours pass and tiredness sets in, Irene places her glasses on the nightstand. The 3 women share a kiss before Merrill turns off the candles with a quick spell.

As they settle against each other, Isabela smiles as she feels Merrill's hand softly but firmly wrap around her stomach. The elf in turn smiles as she feels Irene's toned arm softly wrap around her.

As the three drift off to sleep, a single thought fills their heads.

"How did I get so lucky ?"

Do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve written?": I havent written one.

Have you ever received hate on a fic?: Thankfully no.

Do you write smut? If so what kind?: Mostly mlm and wlw smut.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?: Not as far as I know.

Have you ever had a fic translated?: Not that I'm aware of.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?: No

What’s your all-time favorite ship?: This is a tough question. It may be cheating but I'll say its a tie between femshep and Liara, the warden and Leliana and the Inky and Blackwall.

What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?: I have a ton of unfinished wips, but honestly I dont think I can say I'll leave any of them unfinished permanently.

What are your writing strengths?: I'm good at writing angst, emotional scenes and smut.

What are your writing weaknesses?: Action scenes, and sometimes I struggle with consistency, like how to properly transition to another scene or chapter.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?: I dont think Ive ever done it.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?: Mass Effect, shortly after finishing the Trilogy in 2017.

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?: The Bull and the Bear, my Bull x Blackwall fic.

#tag meme #illusivewriting

[jenseits-der-sterne]

OHHH which fic to pick, HMMM....I'll go with an oldie that I really like - asymmetry! let's do 2,4, 14, aaaaaand 11

@spacebeyonce!!! OKAY, ASYMMETRY, LET'S DO THIS! <3

2. What scene did you first put down?

Hmm. So. There is a distinction to my head because I know there is a scene I wrote first in my head and that's different from the scene that I wrote down in words.

The scene I wrote in my head first was the one where Zelda and Link are in Kakariko and the Yiga attack. Paya is READY, she's gonna fight for Zelda and then someone pops into the room and Paya's like "AH!" But that someone is Link, and so actually Paya has no reason to worry. Link is super relieved to find out that Zelda's fine. He drops his shield on the floor is like "Thank the goddesses." Link steps towards Zelda, but then he hesitates and steps back.

That was the first scene I wrote in my head.

The first scene that I wrote wrote with words was the beginning of the fic, where they're sitting at the campfire and they're being flirty. Link teases her by saying he cooked frog into the stew (because that plus the other memories is all he really remembers about her). They sit all up close together while eating dinner and he tells her about stupid things he did, like fighting a lynel in his underwear. Honestly, this is the part of the fic I like the most: I didn't really plan it, I kind of just wrote and it happened and it ended up with a really cute vibe and momentum.

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

So, the general idea I had in my head for the fic was around the notion that right after the Calamity's defeat, what if Link was super flirty with Zelda? What if he is is just enamored with her and he doesn't feel the pressures of her position as royalty? AND THEN, what happens when he is suddenly pulled back into realizing "his place"?

So, with that set up, my favorite bit of dialog is this:

Suddenly he turned to her, a desperate, sad look on his face, “Please forgive me, princess. I… I acted like a foolish teenager instead of the knight I’m supposed to be. I was high on the defeat of Ganon and… and…” he looked up for a moment and whispered, “Goddess forgive me,” before looking back at her and continuing, “And, well, you’re very pretty.”

I do think in hindsight there's some things about this that are a little too... on the nose? Like, there's not a whole lot about what he says here that's subtle LOL But, also at the same time, maybe cutting straight to the chase in this case this works? I still can't really decide...

But what I can say for sure is that this bit of dialog is basically the kernel of the idea for the story of 'Asymmetry.'

14: Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?

Huh! This is interesting because I've never thought about this directly.

Yes...

When I take some time to think about this, I guess the main thing I want folks to learn from reading this is that communication is #1. This is a theme I have in 'Before and After,' as well, but in 'Asymmetry' I think it's more front and center in that Link and Zelda just really need to talk it out.

In 'Asymmetry,' Link pulls away from Zelda, which is bad. He makes a lot of assumptions in his head about "his place" and how he should relate to her. He gets really stuck in his head about this and withdraws from her. He should not do this.

And poor Zelda who has to go through this rollercoaster! Like, it's confusing for her! Poor Zelda... :(

I think the lesson is to try to not conform to what society might expect of you, to keep lines of communication open, to trust your gut against the face of societal pressures... In this case, Link's gut was that he had a mega crush on Zelda and he should not have backed off from that. And yet, he did because of the pressures he felt/remembered around the Sheikah and then we get conflict.

And, this is going to sound silly, but literally each time I look at the word 'asymmetry' I'm like "...am I actually spelling that word correctly?" Like, I kid you not, each time I look at the title of my fic on AO3 I panic I and end up googling that stupid word to make sure that I didn't spell it wrong in the title of my own fic, like... LMAO, idek. I'm very bad at spelling and this word haunts me. So maybe on a weird meta-level I'm also helping myself and others learn how to spell this dumb word 'asymmetry.'

I suppose that those are the lessons! 😂

11: What do you like best about this fic?

Hmmmmm. HMMMMM.

So. This might point to how basic I am but... I really like how they make out? LMAO

Like, I just... I dunno. I guess I'm a sucker for the idea of there being a misunderstanding and then there being a passionate resolution to that misunderstanding. And I know, I know that in IRL that may not quite be how things play out? But, I like to hope that there can be a passionate reaction in response to a time of misunderstanding.

I really like how they make out. I like how bold Zelda is when she lays down on the bed and pulls Link down with to her. I like how he is surprised, yet also eager. I like how his eyes are all dark and Zelda's like "are you okay?" because she's never made out with someone before and she doesn't know how things progress! I like how Impa interrupts them because I was trying to really drive the point home that they're teenagers and that while in Kakariko they'll have people 'chaperoning' them.

Those are the things I like best about this fic, lol

Thank you for sending along the ask, @spacebeyonce, I really appreciate it! 💖

#fanfic writing #my writing #botw zelink fic #spacebeyonce

[lenaralanvers]

Fic Writer Review

@theredcapeofk   Thank you for tagging me for this

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

20, some of my own, a few collaboratorations for the SCRBB, and one I wrote with @christykia that will be posted soon!

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

- 131968

3. How many fandoms have you written for?

- One. Just the Supercorp/Supergirl Fandom. Though I have toyed with some Ideas for the Merlin Fandom.

4. Top 5 fics by kudos? HeatWave : the AC In Kara and Lena’s shared loft goes out during a heat wave leaving Kara to find other *ahem* ways *ahem* to cool Lena off.

A Slip of the Tongue during a girls night, Lena confesses that she had a very SEXUAL dream about Supergirl, traumatizing Alex into a confession of her own.

There’s a Traitor Here Beneath My Breast (and It Hurts me more than you’ve ever guessed) : After Kara landed on her balcony promising to treat her like any other villain, Lena does what she always does to cope: Lots of alcohol. But things take a turn for the worst when she accidentally falls into the glass table and ends up unconscious. (TW Self Harm)

The Golden Snitch : Kara and Alex are helping Lena move out of the tower and into Kara's loft. Not that the girl of steel needs help with the heavy lifting, but Alex is still there for "appearances." When Kara lifts the nightstand by Lena's bed, her inner Potter Head freaks out at what she thinks is a miniature remote control Quidditch Set. But she couldn't be more wrong!

You Never Came For Me : Kara tries ONE more time to make a change when Mxy gives her the opportunity to save her friendship with Lena, choosing a reality where she DID Save Lena from her brother’s attacks, but never formed a friendship with her as Kara Danvers.

5. Do you respond to comments? Why/why not?

-Yes! I love talking to my readers! It keeps me writing lol.

6. A fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending.

None of my fics END with Angst, but the one with the most angst is probably Always Someone Marches Brave Here Beneath My Skin. It’s currently just over 29k words and they still haven't even acknowledged that they have feelings for each other, but oh the angst! (TW for Spousal Abuse and Previous Suicide Attempts/Self-Arm)

7. Do you write cross overs?

- No, not really. 

8. Ever received hate on a fic?

- Unfortunately. I try to just see it as a rite of passage, but it still doesn’t feel great!

9. Do you write smut?

- Yep...Lots of it.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

- Not that I know of.

11. Ever had a fic translated?

- Not really.

12. Have you ever co written a fic?

- Yes! I’m currently writing one with @theredcapeofk and we have had such a good time! We’ve also worked together a few times on artist/writer collaborations.

13. All time Fav ship.

- SuperCorp!

14. WIP you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

- I have so many WIPs that I cant think of the names. I hope to finish them all one day!

15. Writing strengths?

- I’ve been told I write angst and painful/dramatic scenes really well. Alot of my fics have at least a bit of dark themes to them.

16. Writing weakness?

- Dialogue! and having to get minor details that NO ONE would notice but me right!

17. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

- I actually have a fic where Lena is talking to Kara in French and I had @theredcapeofk help me with the translation because Google Translate is terrible! When done correctly it can give another layer to a fic, but sometimes it can just make the reader lose interest.

18. First Fandom you wrote for?

- Supergirl.

19. What’s your fav fic you’ve written so far?

- I don’t think I could choose!

Tagging: @rafidesousa

[littlechisa]

Mochizuki Jun signing session (Japan Expo 2017, Paris)

EDIT 2020.06 ......I wrote this post a few years ago and never posted it...... Mochizuki Jun was one of Japan Expo 2017′s guests. It was actually her 2nd time attending the convention! Through PH and VnC’s french publisher Ki-oon, she had a few first-come first-serve signing sessions (signature only), and also drew for a few people who got to meet her thanks to a lottery (shikishi).

I am incredibly grateful I was able to attend one of the signing sessions (signature), so I wanted to write down this short moment so that I can come back to it! It’s a very important and special memory to me, after all! What follows are only my personal feelings about the event.

After a few years of going to conventions, something that struck to me about her signing sessions was that it was fairly private. The meeting space was hidden behind a closed panel and a curtain. While people who were in the line were waiting (from 9am, the opening of the con, to noon, the actual signing), I remember we received from the staff a sheet of paper with advice and info on how the meeting would go (eg. no pictures, if you have a present, please hand it over with your two hands...). 

I was shaking a lot during this time; I was really really happy I’d made it to the queue, but also really just as nervous. Pandora Hearts meant, and still does, so much to me, and I was hoping I would be able to convey this...! I was also really happy I got to chat with others fans during that time. There was a fan from abroad who didn’t understand french, yet came to Paris and bought the first VnC volumes (more than one set)...!

My decision to go to Japan Expo was on very short notice, but I had a small present prepared! It was a small fanbook that contained both traditional and digital drawings I did the days before the convention, as well as a short comic (my first!). I also had some candies and chocolate from my country.

The memories are a little fuzzy, but I think there were a few people sitting at the table when I got past the curtain. Mochizuki was wearing a very beautiful kimono and hairpin. There was also an interpreter next to her, and if I recall correctly, the other people were her assistants...!

I handed her my small book, and she asked me if it was okay to look through it!

About the desserts page, she laughed when she saw the tarte tatin and pointed it out to her interpreter/assistants. She said “It looks good!” Then she pointed another one on the page and asked in french “...Pain au chocolat?” I was so happy she recognized it LOL

They let out a little “aaah...” when they flipped to the sketches page. Then they got to the beginning of the comic and I apologized for writing the dialogues in French. I only had done 1-2 years of japanese studies then, so I was really afraid to mess it up. (I actually did make a small enveloppe with a letter in (poor) japanese that I glued behind the Oz & Echo double spread!)

Mochizuki pointed at the pages and told her interpreter: “訳して、訳して、後で訳して！” (“Please translate it later!”) She really did look very excited when looking at the pages, I was so happy...oh my god...;____; (When she first saw the pages, she also turned to the interpreter and asked something along the lines of “Does she draw comics?” and I was like “Uhhh...no?”)

(I might post this little comic someday laughs)

I was able to tell her a few words in Japanese at the end as well, how much PH meant to me and how I’d like to, someday, create a story that could be as meaningful as hers. She immediately replied with “ぜひ！！” (Please do!) ;v; 

Finally, she offered a handshake and I left. I kind of turned back at the last minute and said “Thank you so much!” again, and she showed the book and said “大切にします！” (“I’ll treasure it!”)

I had the chance to chat with a few fans that were in the queue with me, so I waited a little for them at the exit, and meanwhile. I totally started sobbing right there LOL it was really tough to get a place to the signing (they were incredibly limited and got filled in less than 2min after the doors opened! I ran and missed it...), so the events kind of got to me and I was a little emotional for a while.

It couldn’t have happened without the kind friend who gave me that chance, and I thought again about how kind Mochijun’s interpreter and the staff was and how apologetic they really seemed when many people and me failed to get into the queue for the first sessions. I thought about how nice it was for Ki-oon to make it a first-come, first-serve system so that everyone could have a chance. The fact that it was real, that it happened and I got to express even, a little bit of my feelings in person...I was so grateful and happy, I couldn’t stop the tears---

It might only have been a few minutes, but this meeting still gives me a lot of courage to this day. I want to keep trying my best...! 

Thank you so much for reading! 

Bonus 1: Here is a picture of the fans’ presents from Gangan’s twitter account! (My book is on the very right next to the red box!)

Bonus 2: Some pictures from the Vanitas exhibition on Ki-oon’s booth!

Bonus 3: TT_TT)b (Mochijun’s chara is holding my little book!)

#mochizuki jun #Pandora Hearts #vanitas no carte #personal

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An Inexperienced Ghost Agent (unedited story from 2014)

Just to preface this, this is a fic I wrote way back ago when I was still a sophomore in highschool. This was probably like one of my first ever attempts at any type of story. So it's bad. Like, really bad. And it honestly does make me cringe, but it also makes me happy to see my level of writing be way above this. (Not that my current level is far from average lmao) Nothing explicit or bad in this. The worst is the awful like se/me u/ke relationships in typical BL fashion. The last portion is where it gets kinda bad too. Though it's more cringey than anything lmao. But again, happy to see myself move past those stereotypes that had been ingrained in my mind as a young gay still unsure of anything. I remember telling myself that I couldn't be gay cause I'm Mexican lol. Which is admittedly really sad, but like, that's growth there! Anyways, enough about my stupidity, this fic is from 2014 and about the now defunct gacha, Ayakashi Ghost Guild. This work is entirely unedited, so it doesn't even have an ending. I wanted to preserve its age by not altering it in any way. So yeah. I doubt this'll be enjoyable to anyone, but I hope at least someone gets some good laughs over how mediocre this is!

Edit: actually, there are some edits, but it's just me combining paragraphs and cutting off dialogue marked by a lack of a response aka "..." Cause this story actually exceeded the 250 paragraphs limit on Tumblr sbdksnksnslalansma

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"Nnngh. That felt really good. How long was I asleep?"

"For a pretty long time. Trust me I was beside you the entire time." I turn to my right and see that Santa Claus is right beside me.

"Why are you on my bed?"

"Because you're so comfortable." Santa Claus said it so matter of factly.

"Please get off."

"No. I wanna lay down with you, so get used to it." Barely a second goes by and I hear an arrow wiz by.

"Leave Alex alone Santa Claus."

"You're just jealous that I can cuddle with him. Besides, you missed me."

"I never miss my mark. It was intentional."

"Just because you transmigrated doesn't mean that."

"Do you want to find out." Kyu raised his bow and pulled it back; ready to shoot it.

"Stop it you two! Let go of me Santa Claus, and put your coat back on; the Anniversary Event is already over." He's so pressed up to me that I can feel his chest on my back.

"I know it's over. That's why I took it off. I can also take off the rest of my clothes if you want me to." I can't stop the blush on my face. Kyu sees it and he scowls.

"One more remark like that and this arrow is going straight for your neck." Would Kyu really do it? I didn't want to find out.

"Stop it Kyu. And let go of me."

"Sheesh Alex no need to be rough. Of course I'm going to be rough to you later tonight." That last remarks makes me blush even more and before I can make a retort Mira steps in.

"I think it's time for me to step in before Kyu and Claus kill each other." Thank God Mira stepped in! I wouldn't doubt them killing each other either. Wait, she has chocolate on her cheek.

"Were you raiding the fridge for some pudding Mira?"

"Yes master. That's why I barely came." She puts her head down in slight embarrassment and shame. If she's eating some pudding then that means it's night.

"What time is it Mira?" Thankfully Kyu and Claus have finally shut up.

"It's 1:37 a.m."

"Screw it. I'm watching some anime with you Mira." Before Santa Claus can tighten his grip on me I quickly get off the bed and go into the living room.

"I'm going back to my room." Thankfully Kyu left which just leaves Santa Claus on my bed *sigh*.

"Thank god I have such a big house. They'd probably kill each other already if they lived any closer." Mira just laughs at me. When we finally arrive at the living room, Ranmaru is sitting there entranced by the TV. "Why is Ranmaru with you this late?"

"I'm not a kid anymore! Plus I wanted to see if you people correctly got how all of us looked in the Sengoku period. How do they know how we look? Technology sure has gotten far." It takes me awhile to understand everything he said. He's half right about not being a kid at least. When he transmigrated he grew up but he still acts like a kid.

"Wait, they're actually right on how all of you look!"

"Yeah look at me and the cartoon of me on the TV!" Oh my god they actually are.

"Is their depiction of Nobunaga right?"

"Especially him!" I take note of how he looks in case we ever run into him. Mira just sits on the couch laughing at Ranmaru's reaction.

I go into the kitchen feeling a bit peckish. "Do either of you want pudding." I know Mira wants one, so I grab her one on reflex.

"Yes please." They both reply unsurprisingly. Ranmaru being childish obviously would have a sweet tooth.

"Here you go you two." They simultaneously replied with a thank you and I sat down on the floor. A while passes and the show is finally over. Ranmaru and Mira are absolutely hooked on it but I'm just tired to the point I'm tempted to sleep on the floor. The front doorknob starts to shake and I quickly get up out of fear. Then I hear that a key is being inserted into it and then curiosity takes over. Who the hell is out this late. The door opens and I see that it's rat clan boss in his anniversary getup. I quickly go up to him all worried.

"What is it Alex?"

"Your jacket is covered in blood! What were you doing out so late?" I yell even though I didn't mean to. I hope I didn't wake anyone up.

"It's not my blood. Don't worry."

"That makes me all the more worried. What did you do?" While I'm no longer yelling I'm still somewhat raising my voice to him.

"Calm down don't get your panties in a knot. Come with me."

"Wait, what are you doing? Let me go!" He walks up to me and hoists me up to his shoulder and he carries me like a sack of flour. Since when did I start to get pushed around. I'm the ghost hunter here. I fought mostly everyone here and I beat everybody that I fought.

"Calm down. We're going to my room. You can sleep with me for tonight." Before Rat Clan Boss can react Ranmaru suddenly appears before us.

"Oh no he's not. Let him go Nezumi "

"Nezumi? The hell did you get that from; that's not my real name. "

"It means rat in Japanese you idiot. Now let go of Alex." Oh dear God. Ranmaru just drew his sword. This isn't good. Then they'll both fight. I need to stop to them.

"Stop it both of you! And Nezumi I'll come with you if you promise that you'll let me go with you whenever you leave so late.

"Fine I don't see a problem with that but you be careful when you come with me. Now let's go." He starts to walk towards his room. I turn around, embarrassed to see Ranmaru's and Mira's reaction.

"Don't worry. I'll take good care of him."

"Shut up already." Ranmaru is still confused about the situation but I hear Mira calling him over and then I hear whispering. What are they saying? I turn around towards them and they both give me a wink. I blush and turn back around regretting looking at them. Once we're out of sight Nezumi takes me off his shoulder and carries me bridal style.

"How cliche."

"Anything to woo you." He smirks at me. When we finally reach his room, he gently puts me on his bed.

"Get me the blanket, please."

"I thought we were going to have some fun before we go to sleep." Not this again.

"No. Now hand me the blanket."

"Fine. I was only teasing you." He drapes the blanket over me while he changes. I quickly turn around to face away from him.

"Don't care. Just go to sleep. *sigh* I'm tired. And if you sleep in the buff I'm leaving." The warmth from the blanket is making me even more tired.

"Calm down already. I don't. I need to be prepared if someone attacks me."

"What do you mean if someone attacks you?"

"It's out of habit. No need to worry. I feel more comfortable carrying it when I go to sleep."

I wonder what he means by 'it' until it finally clicks with me. "You better not carry a knife with you while you sleep."

"And what if I do." I slowly turn around to yell at him, but I stop when I see him wearing nothing except plain boxers. I quickly turn around out of embarrassment. It takes me a while for me to calm down, but when I do I'm absolutely annoyed.

"I don't want you stabbing me when I wake up!"

"I won't carry a knife then. Hold on a bit." He gets something from one of his shelves and grabs a bottle filled with liquid.

"Are you going to drug me!?"

"It's to clean my piercings so they don't get infected. Calm down already. And quit yelling."

"*yawn* Fine." I'm too tired for anything else so I start to get comfortable.

"Since you won't let me carry a knife while I sleep, how 'bout I hold you for tonight." He laid down on his bed with me and wrapped his arms around my chest. I can feel his bare chest against the light fabric of my shirt. His biceps are pressing into my arms.

"Let go of me! Stop it." I'm so tired that it sounds halfhearted.

"You know you sound cute when you're tired."

"Whatever. I'm going to kill you when I wake up."

"Goodnight." He tightens his grip on me even further. Maybe I should talk to Eisuke how to deal with this tomorrow. I'll look for him at the institute.

"Goodnight." Finding no way to get out I snuggle up to him.

"Someone's getting comfortable."

"Shut up. Now let me go to sleep."

"I wish we didn't have to go to sleep." I shiver from how softly he says it right into my ear. "This is a lot better than carrying a knife. Looks like I'll have to take you from your bed from now on."

"Don't. Now let me sleep I'm tired." I don't care at how whiny I sound; I want to go to sleep.

When I wake up in the morning I see Kyu and Pearce staring at me in Nezumi's arms.

"What?" Maybe I should ask Pearce how to contact Eisuke.

"Get up."

"Do you honestly think that if I could get up that I wouldn't." Does Pearce honestly think I'm that strong.

"Move his arms Kyu."

"Fine."

"Don't. He's a light sleeper. I'll wake him up myself. Just leave the room real quick. I'll be out in a bit."

"Let's go Kyu." Pearce forcefully drags Kyu along with him. At least he listens to me still.

"Thank you. Now get up you!" I start to flail my entire body to wake him up not caring about being nice. I did promise to kill him.

"Give me a kiss first."

"When I'm in hell. And what about Koko?"

"We're not going out. She's just popular with the henchmen. Now about that kiss."

"Never."

"Then I guess you're not leaving this bed." I hear movement behind the door and the sounds of struggling. Most likely Pearce stopping Kyu from barging into here.

"Fine." I give him a quick peck on the cheek. "Now let me go."

"I mean a kiss on the mouth. Now give it to me."

"You just said a kiss. You never said on the mouth!"

"Doesn't matter."

"I can't if you don't loosen your grip!" He completely lets go and before I can risk quickly running away he speaks.

"If you even try to leave before you give me a kiss you're going to be in my arms all day."

I get up to give him a kiss and when my face is right in front of his he puts his hand on the back of my head and he brings my head down to his and he forcefully kisses me. I close my lips so he can't put his tongue inside my mouth but he doesn't get the tip so he bites my lips with his teeth and I open my mouth out of reflex and that's enough time for him to slide his tongue into my mouth. Once he's done I can barely breath from the lack of oxygen and the heat rising to my face. Yet he doesn't stop there, he brings his lips down to my neck and he bites down. HARD. His sharp teeth pierce my skin. I whimper from the pain and I realize Pearce and Kyu are outside the door.

"Pearce help!" He quickly barges through the door and he notices what Nezumi is doing to me. He rushes to the bed and he forces Nezumi off of me.

"What the hell do you think you're doing!?" The way Nezumi says it is pretty scary. He quickly stands up to punch Pearce but I put both of my hands on his arm to stop him before his fist and Pearce's face make contact.

He turns back at me surprised and when he sees that I have tears in my eyes and I'm slightly bleeding where he bit me on my neck. He embraces me in a hug. I don't even want to give him a hug so he knows that I don't forgive him.

"I'm sorry for hurting you."

"Just let me go please."

"Again I'm sorry." Thankfully Ne- no rat clan boss let me go. As I leave the room with Pearce I turn around to see that he's sitting on the bed silently crying. I quickly run to his side and give him a hug.

"I forgive you. Just don't do it again please."

"Okay I'm sorry." He grabs a handkerchief and starts to clean my tears and then proceeds to clean my blood. "Sorry if it hurts." He hugs me one more time and tells me to do whatever I was going to do.

"Goodbye Nezumi. See ya later. Let's go Pearce. " I wait until we're both out of Nezumi's range of hearing before I talk to Pearce. "Where did Kyu go?"

"He went to go get his bow and arrow." Right after he says that Kyu comes to us running.

"Darn you and your large house master. I got lost again." He sees my neck. "What's wrong with your neck."

"Kyu. Leave our master alone. Let's go Alex." Pearce drags me by my hand and exit out the front door.

"Tell everyone I'll be gone for awhile. Okay Kyu." I close the door and I turn to Pearce. "Thank you. Do you know how to contact Eisuke."

"We need to go to the institute. He's always there at this time of day."

"Let's go then." We quietly walk together to the institute and when we enter I walk up to the receptionist desk. "Excuse me Mrs. I'd like to speak with Eisuke. Is he currently here ?"

"My such manners, and cute as well. No wonder you went with him Pearce. Yes he is here. He is currently in his room. Pearce should know where it is."

"Thank you mam. Have a nice day." How embarrassing! I turn to Pearce and see that he's smirking at me. I turn my head around not noticing the way he frowns when I do. He stands in front of me and he leads the way. When we finally reach Eisuke's room he motions for me to knock. I do so and I hear Eisuke loudly speak.

"Coming." When Eisuke sees that it's me he's surprised. "What are you doing here?"

"We want you to know that we're going out." What the hell is wrong with Pearce!

"Wait what!" Eisuke looks at me wide-eyed.

"Ignore him. I need some advice from you."

"I'll be out in a sec. Come on in." He opens the door further and both Pearce and I enter his small apartment. I sit on the couch and I glare at Pearce. He smirks at me again and he wraps his arm around my waist.

"What are you doing!? Let go of me Pearce."

"You didn't seem to mind when Rat Clan Boss did this to you." The fact that he knows embarrasses me. Oh god Kyu was there too!

"That was different. Nezumi and Ranmaru were going to fight. I had to stop it somehow." I turn away, embarrassed. "Just not a way I preferred."

"Liar."

"Shut up." I face forward again, ignoring the fact that Pearce still has his arm around my waist. Damn his height.

Eisuke, appararently, starts to choke on air at what Pearce said. It takes awhile for him to calm down. Aaaaand he's even more annoyed. Perfect.

"And how am I supposed to help you."

"Do you know a way to control them."

"If this has to do with sex I'm done."

"No it isn't! I just need to keep them under control! How do you keep your Daemons under control."

"I'm not an idiot like you. I honestly don't know what to do. It's your fault." Eisuke has a small grin and he's trying to wipe it off his face.

"Quit smiling or I'll-" I get interrupted by a knock on the door. Eisuke gets up to get it. Pearce and I turn around to see who it is.

"Is Alex here?" All three of us are shocked at who it is. Pearce slightly loosens his grip on my waist; seeing my chance I quickly get up and run behind Barbatos, clinging on to him for dear life.

"No wonder they get aroused." Eisuke turned around after saying that.

"I never said they do!"

"I could make the connection. Especially with the way you're groping him."

"I'm not groping him!"

"I don't mind him groping me. But only because it's Alex."

"Shut up!" I quickly unwrap my hands from Barbatos. "Why are you here." I quickly try to divert the conversation from what just happened. He's amused by the conversation.

"Gargoyle is frantically looking for you. He should be on top of the building by now."

"I'll go right now. Eisuke, how do I reach the rooftop?"

"The daemon can show you himself."

"I don't think- "

"I know how to reach it. That's how I got in."

"Let's go then. Come on Pearce." Pearce silently gets up of the couch and stands beside me. Before he can wrap his arm around my waist, Barbatos wraps his arm around me. Knowing it'll annoy Eisuke further I save it for later. "Bye Eisuke. Thank you."

"I hope you know that this is all your fault."

"I know. Thanks." He closes the door, but not before giving a small chuckle. Once the door is fully closed I yell at Barbatos. "Stop it!"

"I'm just enjoying myself. Being with you that is."

"This is all just a game to you isn't it."

"Maybe." He smirks at me. Once we arrive at the rooftop, Barbatos lets go of me. Less than ten seconds pass by when Gargoyle tackles me to the ground.

"Get off of me Gargoyle." While he can barely talk, he's been getting better at speaking in something other than growls.

"Sorry."

"That's good! You're getting better now. You said it without stuttering!" I raise my hand to pat his head, but he grabs it before I can. In an instant he grabs me in his arms and he jumps off the roof. "Were going to die! What's wrong with you!" I scream all the way until he starts to flap his wings at the very last second. He slowly lands on the ground.

"Y-you okay?" What did my screaming suggest! That I was having the life of my time?! "

"No! That was scary! I'm traumatized because of you!"

"Tra-tra-mu-ti-tized?" While he was able to say it, almost, correctly. I'm too scared, annoyed, and angry to congratulate him.

"Let's just go home." I don't even want to touch the ground. I stay in his arms clinging on to him. As he slowly walks back to my house, I can feel that people are staring at us. Thankfully nobody can notice Gargoyle's wings or horns because they haven't been attacked by a daemon. As he's walking, we get knocked to the ground.

"Watch were you're going you- Oh hey Alex." Great. It's Dora. Just who I wanted to see.

I slowly start to catch my surroundings. Once I do, I see that I'm right on top of Gargoyle. When we make eye contact he gives me a wide grin and brings me down to him. People are starting to gather around now. "Let go of me." He slowly does so. Damn my head hurts from all this. I quickly get up and when I can properly do so he puts his arm around my waist. Why does everyone have to do this?! While the crowd is dispersing, some of them give us disapproving glares. Dora on the other hand.....

"What a couple of idiots." Dora on the other hand laughs at us. Seeing a chance to ask for her help I quickly ask her before she runs off to wherever she was going.

"Hey Dora? Do you know-" I get interrupted by Gargoyle poking my thigh. I instinctively ball my hand and punch him in the shoulder. He ignores it and points behind me. To where Dora is currently running to. So much for that. "Let's go get ice cream. It's almost time to eat but whatever." Gargoyle reluctantly nods his head. He walks behind me this time. Once we reach the place, I order the both of us vanilla ice cream. We sit on the chairs provided outside the place and eat it quietly and peacefully, that is until Barbatos and Pearce find us.

"Enjoying some quality time with Gargoyle are you."

"Quit being such an idiot Barbatos."

"Can I have some ice cream."

"No. But Pearce can." I give him enough money to buy some ice cream.

"Then I'll just have to get some of yours."

"No way. You-" I get interrupted when Barbatos stupidly decides to shove my ice cream on my mouth. "What's your problem!" I reach to grab my napkin, but Barbatos grabs my wrist and kisses me. His grip is too strong to the point I can't even resist him. I start to have trouble breathing until Gargoyle yanks him off of me.

"Get soft him!" As much as I want to laugh at Gargoyle, I'm absolutely livid to the point where I just leave all three of them. I ignore their stares and everyone else who saw what happened.

Once I get back, I'm just relieved that I'm away from Barbatos. I decide to not eat dinner today. I'm way too tired. I enter my room unnoticed and change into my pajamas. I lie down on my bed trying to go to sleep early, until I notice Santa Claus is on my bed.

"So you've come to sleep with me huh. Normally I'd have to put you on the naughty list but I can make an exception for you."

"This is my bed. Go to your room. I'm tired and I want to go to sleep alone." I manage to get off the bed before he can get a hold on me.

"But don't you think that sleeping together is a whole lot better." He pats the part of the bed that I was just on in an attempt to make me go in. As tempted as I am to sleep in my bed I start to walk away.

"I'm going to the living room. Bye." I don't have the energy to deal with anything right now. Much less one of my daemons. I go to the living room and lie down on the couch. I try going to sleep but it's hard when it's cold and with no blanket.

"Good evening Alex. How are you today." Kill me now! Can't I be allowed to go to sleep!?

"Hey Ikutachi. I'm sorry but can we talk tomorrow; I'm really tired."

"Oh, I'm sorry. But why are you sleeping in the couch?" His concern is very nice but I'm tired. I know it's not his fault, so I try to calm myself.

"Santa Claus is in my room and because I don't want to deal with him right now I'm sleeping here for tonight."

"You can sleep in my bed tonight. I'll sleep on the floor."

"It's fine Ikutachi. I'll sleep here. Now can you please let me go to sleep. I'm sorry, but I'm really tired." Ikutachi looks sad, but he decides to leave. I feel terrible for saying that, but if he didn't leave in a bit I'd have probably snapped at him for no reason. Thankfully, without any other interruptions I fall asleep within minutes.

I start to wake up later when it gets hot. I feel a blanket over me. A lot of blankets. I'm starting to sweat. I sit up and see that the T.V. is on.

"Who turned on the T.V.?" Ugh I'm still tired from everything.

"It was Ranmaru."

"No it wasn't! It was Yukimura!"

"Stop yelling you idiot." God help me now. I can't deal with the two of them.

"Can you turn it off please?"

"Okay. Let's go." At least Ranmaru is understanding.

"Why should we?"

"Because Alex is trying to go to sleep and we should be polite."

"He should go to his room."

"Why aren't you sleeping in your bed master." It seems that what Yukimura said piqued Ranmaru's interest.

"Santa Claus is in my bed. That's why I'm out here." Ugh, I'm so sweaty. "I'm going to go take a shower." I take off all my blankets, and go into my room quietly. I quickly grab a change of clothes and a towel; I get out of my room and go to one of the bathrooms. I take a fast shower and I dry myself. I don't have enough time to put on all of my clothes, before the door is knocked down. Even though I have boxers on, I cover myself with my towel just in case. Hercules comes in, shirtless as usual, passes me, and throws up in the toilet. I run to the kitchen and run back bringing a bottle of water for Hercules.

"Thanks, but I'm not drunk. I ate some disgusting meat." He opens the bottle and drinks all of it within seconds. "Thanks again."

"Why were you eating so late?"

"I was hungry so I thought about eating something with protein. I walked into the kitchen and found some meat on a plate. Then this happened."

"You shouldn't eat meat that's just lying around. It could have bacteria or something."

"Now that I threw up, the bacteria should be gone. I took a bite of it a minute ago."

"Well you can't be to sure."

"Thanks again." His gaze suddenly goes down when he notices I'm almost naked. "Why are you only in boxers?"

"I just got out of the shower!" I grab my towel from the floor and cover myself. Despite how ridiculous I look, as long as he isn't staring it's better. His demeanor then takes a full 180.

"You know you shouldn't let anybody else see you like that." He cups my chin with his hand. When I try to back up, he uses his other hand to hold me. He doesn't even budge when I resist further. His grip is too tight to the point that it's suffocating. "Any sane person wouldn't be able to control themselves with you." His thumb catches on my lips for a second, before he tugs off my towel. "I know I can't." He presses our faces and he deeply kisses me. I pound my fists against his chest, push him away, and even try to escape. Whether he's purposefully ignoring me or I'm just that weak I don't know. "Come with me." He whispers into my ear and it makes me shiver from fear as to what will happen. He takes me to his room and he puts me on his bed.

"Wha-what are you doing?" I try to sound brave but instead it came out pathetically.

"You'll see." He lies down on top of me putting a lot of pressure. "What happened here." He points to where Nezumi bit me. His voice is really serious and he glares at me.

"Someone bit me." My voice barely comes out to the point even I strain to hear it.

"What happened. Tell me now." He's even more angry at me. His glare intensifies.

"Someone bit me." I'm absolutely terrified as to what's going to happen now.

"Who was it."

"···" The longer I remain silent his glare intensifies even further. He wraps his hands around my wrists.

"You belong to me now." He starts to nibble at my neck.

"Ah! Stop it." I uselessly try to move my neck around but it doesn't work.

"···" His nibbling soon turns into biting. At first it's a bit ticklish but then pain starts to spread around my neck when his biting becomes stronger.

"Stop. Please." I desperately struggle against him once more, but it's as futile as the other times.

"···" His biting starts to hurt even more now. Even when it was Nezumi it didn't hurt this bad. And it hurts even more because he's biting me multiple times. He finally removes his mouth from his neck, and he raises his head to face mine. He gives me a wide smirk. He removes his hand from my wrist and he harshly caresses my hickey. He brings his face down to my neck again and he bites at my hickey.

"Stop! That hurts." With my left arm finally free, I punch him in the face.

"What do you think you're doing!?" His voice is so harsh compared to how it was when we were first talking.

"That hurts! Please stop."

"I would. But I don't want to."

"I said stop it."

"No." He grabs my hands to make sure I won't stop him and he continues to bite my neck. Awhile passes before he stops, but at that point the pain is insufferable. I'm crying heavily from how sore my neck is. He once again cups my chin in his hand. "Don't cry. I just want people to know that you belong to me. They shouldn't take what isn't there's. Now let's go to sleep. Even I won't force you to do that until you're ready." It seems that he still has some sanity left but he still terrifies me.

"O-okay."

"Don't be scared." He wipes my tears away, and he tries to sooth me. It doesn't work and instead makes me more afraid of him at how his attitude changes quickly. "Remember when I saved you at Yggdrasil?"

"Yes"

"You were unconscious when I first met you. You're daemons were carrying you and I thought they were kidnapping you. I fought them and won. When they were tired I took you from them. "

"I know. When I woke up I was scared of you. But you treated me kindly and I trusted you. You didn't act like this back then."

"Don't be scared. I love you. Now let's go to sleep." I don't understand how he thinks love would include forcing yourself on that person, but I don't voice it knowing he'd get angry.

"Okay." He gets off of me; then he pulls me closer to him. "Can I change first please."

"You look so much better like this though. I know what will make you feel better." He gets up from the bed and I hear some rustling. Knowing that's he's undressing and not wanting to wait to see what would happen I immediately get up from the bed and make a beeline for the door. With my hand on the knob, Hercules grabs me from behind and covers my mouth as well. It somehow manages to be even more suffocating than before. He holds me tightly against him as he takes me back to his bed.

When we're finally on the bed he starts to cry. "Don't ever leave me again. I don't know what I would do if you left me." He's holding me extremely tight. I can't even move at all. Neither can I sleep from how afraid of him I am; at how quickly he changes emotions. My neck is in a ton of pain and I can't even do anything to ease it. Finally realizing the futility of it all, I start to cry. "What'd I say about crying? Cheer up. You shouldn't be sad now that we have each other. If you don't stop then I'll cry."

"What's wrong?" Does he honestly not know. "Please tell me. I can't just let you cry."

"···" It's creepy how fast he can go from crazy to loving. I need to get away from him as fast and as far as I can.

"If you don't want to talk about it now we can talk about it later." He brings me right next to him. I can feel him entirely, now that's he's only in boxers. "I just want you to know that I'll love you forever and I'll never leave your side. We'll always be with each other. Goodnight."

"I'm sorry." That's the last thing I hear before losing consciousness.

When I wake up, I notice that I'm back at Yggdrasil. I slowly stand up and notice that I'm near the top of Yggdrasil. I start to check my surroundings and seeing as how no one is here to stop me, I start to achingly run down Yggdrasil. When I go down a floor I see Hercules coming my way. I look around hoping to find a spot to hide, but I find nothing. Before I can go back where I was, Hercules spots me. He drops all of his stuff and he comes running up to me.

"What are you doing down here? Were you trying to escape? Do you not want to be with me?""Answer me!" He embraces me in a ridiculously tight hug and he looks about ready to break down.

"I was looking for you." I force myself to cry to make it more convincing. "I couldn't find you so I thought something had happened." Whether it was because i was convincing or because he's unstable, Hercules believes me.

"Don't worry. I'll never leave you alone." We go to where Hercules dropped everything and I help him carry the stuff. When we arrive to where I was earlier Hercules starts to set up camp.

"Why are we here?" Right now I need to not sound afraid of him.

"This is where my country is. You're going to live with me now. You're going to be my king."

"Wait what!" Just how insane is he? His face changes from happiness to confusion yet I can see a small trace of malice so I quickly change attitudes. "Won't people get upset at that though? The fact that first of all I'm not a bug and second of all I'm a guy?"

"If anyone tries to stop me, then I'll cut them down." He quickly embraces me in another hug. "I won't let anyone separate us. But right now hold on a minute. I still have to get the rest of your stuff. Stay here. Okay." His last sentence is said with such severity that if I disobey it then serious repercussions would happen.

"Okay."  Hercules starts running back down. Taking his warning seriously I patiently wait for him. A few minutes have passed when I hear some rustling from some bushes. I stay quiet, waiting to see what is causing it. The rustling dies down only for Yggdra Leaf to pop out. 

"Yggdra Leaf!" I'm so happy to see someone that isn't Hercules.

"Alex? What are you doing here?"

"Hercules-" I stop when I hear footsteps once more. "He's coming! You have to hide!" Yggdra Leaf looks at me confused. "Just hide! Quickly!" Yggdra Leaf gives me one final look as she goes back into the bushes.

"Who were you talking to?" Despite Hercules saying it kindly, I know the hidden malice behind his question.

"No one. Why?" I put on an innocent face.

"Okay. Let's go." Hercules grabs everything and he starts to head for the bushes.

Why are we going there?"

"This is where my kingdom is." He kicks away the bushes and nothing is there! He presses a button and suddenly an elevator appears! "Come on." I slowly walk behind him when I hear some more rustling from some other bushes. Dread starts to slowly well up in me "Who's there!" Hercules drops everything and puts himself in front of me. He quickly unsheathes his sword and points it towards where the noise came from

"The person who will end your insignificant life. You cockroach. "

#random #do i even wanna tag this as my writing??? #i guess #but old ass writing #my old writing

[firecrackerroot]

Dear DC3, here’s the answer you deserve....

Once again, my friend, once again you manage to make me tear up at work and spend an entire day thinking about how to reply to you. But I’m going to try. AS best as I can without starting to cry again ahahaha everything you said is in bold and my answer will be bellow each part. Here we go....

Your mind? Unmatched. Your writing ability? Flawless. Hotel? Trivago.

Okay, so two three things first:

1. I’m not sure if you can see my email (I had to put it on the form to submit this), but just in case you can I want it to be known that middle school me did not know how horrible a person real life Randy Orton is. I have since come to my senses and no longer stan.

- I completely understand because I too have an embarassing email and it’s too late to let it go ahaha

2. I’m sorry this took a century to get to you. My only excuse is a winter storm that the States had wrecked my internet connection (and my will to do anything productive, tbh). To make up for it, I shall share my thoughts on both chapter 10 and the epilogue at the same time so it doesn’t take me another hundred years to message you about the last chapter.

- I would’ve waited another century, don’t worry :) as for the storm, I hope the only thing it damaged was your internet connection and that other than that, everything else is okay. And just like your internect connection, I hope your will to do anything productive has been restored!

Sidenote: I’m finishing writing this at 4:30am where I live, so I’m going to go ahead and apologize if most of this has spelling errors or doesn’t make sense. I’m going to try and go back over this before I submit it so you don’t have to read a whole mess………. but also I’m tired so….. sorry :D

- 4.30am??????????? On a week day?????????? Holy shit! Thank you for your bravery, truly ahahaha 

Anyways, onto my favorite fic ever…

- *blushes*

I love how you were able to explain The Marine 6’s plot in a way that didn’t take away from the story you were telling. I believe that even if I never watched the film, I would still be able to understand what was going on… but since I did watch the whole thing, I greatly appreciated how you structured this chapter in a way that you didn’t explicitly need to recap everything that was going on in the movie. It made for a much smoother read, so thank you.

- Phew! I’m glad to know that, both those things. The structure and the plot. Because I struggled a little bit with making sure everything would fit and make sense and I had to keep thinking about the movie and plot holes where I could fit my story so.... It was a lot of juggling. And fun fact: I tweeted the director of the movie about how long he thinks the action of the movie took, just to be sure my hours were correct but he didn’t get the questions and told me how long it took them to shoot the movie so I just went with my calculations ahahahaha

“In fact, had Maddy stayed in their apartment another minute or two, Cassie would’ve been on her knees pleading for her not to go.” I love this sentence because of how easily you were able to express Cassie’s love for Maddy in four short words: “on her knees pleading.” Picturing tall, strong Cassie so willing to show that type of vulnerability to Maddy is just so… i can’t think of the word… idyllic? idk… it was just a really gentle moment between the two. I genuinely enjoyed that simple sentence.

- Now that you mention it, I’m actually picturing tall strong Cassie on her knees begging Maddy not to go and it hurts. But I get what you’re saying. Is a type of vulnerability not everyone is willing to give/feel and we don’t get to see every day. But those two? They’re on that level.

Also, I love how you were able to insert your own universe in actual movie events without it being a reach. For example, having Cassie be the reason the boat and Cat showed up was a really nice touch and such an effortless way to express how much Cass looks out for Maddy.

- Cat actually shows up because Maddy asks one of the guys to ask her to return and bring the rest of them but, while Cat is driving there, she can still tell Cassie what’s happening. As for the boat, it felt so random in the movie that I had to explain it. Like......... She’s supposed to hold Sarah hostage in the building and then leave so why would the boat be there? Makes no sense ahahaha

I’m not sure if I’ve ever properly addressed this (and I’m still not sure how to word it correctly), but I love how your foreshadowing(?) comes off almost offhandedly? Like, you mentioned once about the significance of Cassie’s name in Greek mythology and then you subtly had that theme pop up in Maddy’s musings about her in past chapters… and if you weren’t paying attention I feel like it’d be easy to overlook those little tie-ins you so seamlessly include. I think it’s referred to as a motif? I’m not really sure, though, I never really spent time trying to understand that stuff in school and now I’m kinda regretting it lol. But anyways, I believe this is the first time you outwardly used that mythology connection to Cassie’s “predicting” an event in this chapter à la the drowning nightmare she had after watching a scary movie before bed. And that’s not the only thing that you would reference to in a past chapter and then repeatedly tie into something going on in the current chapter (like the life-changing car ride moments, the knife, etc.)… This story was so connected and thought out it blows my mind because I feel like that’s the type of writing I usually see in actual books and not fanfiction.

- Tbh I have no idea what it’s called either ahahahahaha but....... I truly like full circles. In shows and movies and books. And when they’re, like you say I do, easily overlooked, it makes everything more awesome because whenever you go back, you find something new. And I like that so.... I write that................. One thing about Cassie’s predictions tho. The mythology about her said no one believed her predictions and Maddy didn’t believe she shouldn’t go and, well, look what happened.

You’re such an intelligent writer and I’m not sure if I just never paid enough attention to other fics before or what, but I feel like I haven’t seen the same amount of time, dedication, and thought you put into your work be replicated in the same success in anything else I’ve read on ao3. And that’s not to say that other stories I spent time reading on that site weren’t good or the author didn’t spend as much time as you did on their story… but idk dude, there was just something so special about your fic that I had to say something. Honestly, I think that’s what made me reach out to you, to begin with. I just needed you to know how fantastic this story was because it touched me in a way other fics haven’t. But lemme stop this ramble here because we have more of the actual story to discuss…

- *insert photo of Becky, crying, holding her title close to her chest after the Last Woman Standing match* 

I’m not sure if it was how I was reading it or if you meant it this way, but once Michael helped Cassie provide Maddy another means of an escape through water, I feel like Cassie’s panic over the situation skyrocketed and that feeling was replicated in the way you wrote her thought process. I even started to read the chapter a bit faster to find out what was going to happen next, which caused me to miss things; I had to go back and force myself to slow down and absorb your words properly- something I feel like Cassie was also doing as to not prematurely freak out over a situation that hasn’t happened yet. So that was kind of cool “bonding” moment I had with Cassie there lol.

- I love that you bonded with Cassie for all the wrong reasons ahahahaahahahahahahhahahahahaah but yeah, I meant it like that. The fact that Michael sent the boat didn’t help Cassie calm down. It only worsen the situation for her because all she could think about was her dream and it was suffocating her.

“This time, Cassie’s heart was sinking lower and lower in her body. To a depth she had never reached.” STOP WITH THE DROWNING REFERENCES IT HURTS MY HEART!!!

- I’M. SORRY.

“IF YOU DON’T CALL IT, I WILL PICK UP THAT PHONE AND I WILL MOVE HELL IF I HAVE TO.” I imagine if this was a movie that this would be the part where the audience would cheer the main character for not sitting idly by and letting the love of their life die and also where the gays would weep because "they love each other so much” 😂

- True and every true ahahahahahaahhahahaha

“I’m not going to lose the love of my life because of someone who never loved her enough.” Okay, wow, the power of that statement hurt but also YASSSSS CASSIE. It’s ridiculous how much you’ve made me love these characters. Like I feel actual happiness that Maddy has someone like Cassie to love her that perfectly (and i’m a lil jealous because why can’t I find my own Cassie?)

- Confession: I had to stop writing after that line because I started crying about it. And that was one of the lines I didn’t have planned. I was doing my thing, thinking about that dialogue and suddenly I hear Cassie’s crying voice say that in the back of my mind and I had to sit down because well, shit. (you’ll find your Cassie unless...................... you’re Cassie!)

Also, it is so refreshing to have a healthy parental relationship being shown here. Honestly, the fact that Michael, without question, gave up a favor with the coast guard all based on Cassie feeling that something was wrong is HUGE. Michael could have used that favor if something went wrong in a deal and they had to hide evidence in the water or something… like it could have been a “get out of jail free” card and he didn’t even blink when deciding to use it on Cassie’s whim. I’m so, so, so happy Maddy found the Knox’s. She deserves this level of  love after the bullshit her father has put her through… When you expand this universe into little one-shots, I would love to see the Knox family dynamics where Maddy is concerned. Like the process of how each member fell in love and accepted this broken Irish girl into their family and the maddening moments where they could tell Maddy didn’t understand how important she is to them. I can just imagine how many headaches her obliviousness gave the Knox’s throughout the years.

- Michael might be a mob king but he’s a very Soft man. And not only did he knew how much Maddy meant to Cassie, he also wasn’t willing to lose Maddy. Which means that if he could do something to save her, even if it meant giving up a “get out of jail free” card, as you say it, to help? Then so be it. Also isn’t it painfully interesting that Horus destroyed Maddy’s life in more ways than one but at the same time, he was the one that gave her the Knox’s? Makes you think.......................................... As for your wish, consider it granted. Title of the story? “Michael and Beth: 2 times they realized they loved Maddy and 2 times they wished she understood.”

When you switch back to Maddy’s POV and she basically says she deserves to die because of the choices she made, I wanted to grab her out of the water and strangle her myself for being so DUMB to believe she deserved it and for how SELFISH she was by giving up because Cassie doesn’t deserve a dead girlfriend!!!! Ugh, I love her so much but sometimes I really want to ram Maddy’s head against the wall lmaoo.

- Same, my friend, same ahahahahaha when I imagined the scene and proceeded to write it, I remember laughing because c’mon Madssssssssssssssssssssss, the girl is waiting!

“Beth, her mother, was waiting by the hospital door and no one seemed to be around. Strange for that time of the day.” Ah, I see the “great lengths to protect” Maddy conversation we had on tumblr came to play here. Again, I’m so glad she has this family in her life.

- That’s exactly it. Michael emptied that aisle of the hospital just so Maddy could be taken in without being seen.

Also, did the importance of the mausoleum ever come into play? Maybe I’ll answer my own question when I reread the epilogue to write my comments on that… Speaking of, I can’t believe how long this post already is and I’m not even on the epilogue yet.

- Not explicitly, no. Since the Hayes left when Nora was killed, her body was left behind for others to bury. Others being her family that never approved her marriage to Horus. So, obviously, they’d bury her on their terms, with her name. It was also a little bit of foreshadowing that Maddy too wouldn’t be buried in the mausoleum.

“To know it was real and that she hadn’t been fed false hopes only to crumble to her knees by a hospital bed.” Hmmmmm, is this a subtle nod to earlier in the chapter where Cassie was going to drop to her knees and beg Maddy to stay? ‘Cause then you do the same thing with the, “Everything was calm. The storm had already passed. And they both reached the shore. Safe and sound.” lines. Tying it back to the beginning of their relationship where a storm was roaring until they stopped being stupid and gentle rain awarded them after they finally embraced. It’s poetic really.

- I didn’t meant that kneeling to be a subtle nod to the beginning of the chapter but I did mean the storm passing one. Good eye!!!!!!

I don’t even want to talk about the following paragraphs that lead to the end of the story. They’re too perfect and heartbreaking and there’s nothing for me to say because you already have. Brava, my friend.

- I feel you but let me just say that I felt a little bit of pride with the last two lines Michael and Beth said. The whole “we’re asking you to marry our daughter”.

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Onto the epilogue…

Honestly, I’m not sure I’m going to have a lot to say on this because this whole chapter is just so perfect to me. You couldn’t pay me to come up with a better ending than this… Everything just came so full circle, it’s beautiful. I can easily picture the epilogue being an end credit scene of the film where you think the hard parts are over and haynox is living an idyllic life out in Ireland, just for the ending seconds of the film to close out on the two kicking ass and being the badass partner in crime duo we know them to be. I love it, I love it, I love it.

- Yeeeeeeeeeees, that’s what I meant for it to be. End credits, wrapping up everything. And when it all looks nice and smooth, the fire starts to burn and our partner in crime duo start to be badass again!

“But you love and respect your wife so…” Ahhh!!! it’s so weird seeing them call each other that, but (if you couldn’t tell) I love it! It’s what these dummies deserve. Also, I have a feeling it might have gone over my head, but is the necklace metaphor about their love/Maddy not being able to slip away? Like the necklace is tying down the ring so it can’t do something stupid like, say, DROWN IN THE WATER? 😂

 - Huahahahahaha Maddy feels the same way, she’s also not used to the new term but they’ll get used to it. They have a lifetime to do so after all. As for the metaphor, it’s two things actually xD The first one you’re very close. I don’t know if you watched Jennifer’s Body but the only reason why Jennifer doesn’t die when Needy stabs her is because of their friendship necklace and when Needy rips it off, she dies. It’s like she’s tied to life by it. And the same can be said about Maddy and her necklace + ring. (it also means Cassie has Maddy by the throat which relates to their bedroom shenanigans but lets leave it at that ahahahah)

Also, the whole funeral scene was gold. From Cassie wanting to burn Horus alive and then realizing Hell will do that for her to Maddy being an idiot for considering leaving the car but allowing Cassie to have the control in confronting her father and finally ending her story with the Hayes. Ugh. Genius.

- Initially, I had planned for Cassie to set his car on fire and then drive away but as a I was writing, it sort of happened this way and I like it much better ahahah And we all know Maddy is an idiot but Cassie avenged her properly so it was all good.

Speaking of, you handled the time jumps so effortlessly and I could see you going back to certain events in your side stories- like Cassie helping Maddy through her fear of water, their first Christmas together as a couple, Maddy realizing that she was wrong before and that warm home she didn’t believe she could have again in Ireland was always possible with Cassie by her side… so many possibilities. (Also, I’d 100% be content with just playing them out in my head, so don’t feel obligated/overwhelmed to write them!)

- All of these have been added to my to-do list ahahahaha but I’m on vacation right now so unless you want to talk about certain parts of that before I start writing, we can. If not, starting February 22, I will HOPEFULLY make it rain again.

Okay, so the reasoning behind Maddy’s new name is perfect and everything I never knew I needed. And I totally see Maddy in you with the “…was more than what you thought you deserved. And more than you could ever thank them for.” bit. Newsflash, my friend, you and Maddy both deserve what this story has given you. I hope that one day you both can accept how wonderful you are and how much you deserve the praises you get on the world’s you create.

- All I can say to this message is thank you and I truly hope you’re right because in this moment? I can only vouch for Maddy when I say she deserves the world. Can’t say the same about myself. But I appreciate your words, all of them and I’m forever thankful for them. I hope you know that.

Weird coincidence, but I recently stumbled upon the song “Call Me” by Shinedown and have been kind of obsessed with it so when I found out that the pub and shop are called Sinners and Saints I was shooketh™ because that’s literally a line in the song… Anyways, I love the name of the buildings. I feel like that fits who they are so perfectly, you know? They are not one or the other, hot or cold, in or out, they’re always a perfect mix of both.

- I just heard that song and it’s preeeeeeeeetty cool and can actually fit Maddy, if you think about it. The names of the buildings actually came from the song that names the chapter because I feel it perfectly recaps the story. But yes, they’re a mix of both and isn’t that the best place to be?

And my god, we do not deserve Cassie. Her buying the shop? Painting the door green? Doing the research to find out the name of the pub that Maddy herself forgot? Having an auto shop be RIGHT there????? It’s fate. The red string theory. All the people and events they had to go through brings them right back where it started because that’s where they belong. It’s beautiful, so, so beautiful.

- When Cassie bought the shop, she asked for the history of it, previous owners and all that to get the information about it. And the auto shop was built from scratch because it wasn’t there. The red string theory always comes into play and especially here because, if you think about, they would’ve met at the pub even if Maddy’s left hadn’t changed. Think with me. Maddy would keep working at the pub, unknowing about the rest and one day Cassie and Michael enter to greet Horus and say their brewery is branching into Europe. It would’ve happened anyway.

I love that you showed Maddy calling Michael. She finally has a father that not only cares about her but is someone Maddy feels like she can go to and express herself to. And I love how you wrapped up her life in America. I can’t remember what chapter it was in, but I know you mentioned that even though Maddy does bad things, she always tries to make sure the innocents are spared so they don’t have to experience what she had to. So to see Neptune, the shop, and the rest of her employees being taken cared of instead of just forgotten after her “death” is perfect and such a Maddy thing to do. I’m thrilled you included that small bit.

- She could’ve called Beth but she wanted specific information only Michael could give. And yes, she finally has A Father. That’s her motto. That and the fact that it was never about the money. So she always paid her employees handsomely and if they needed help with a children tuition of something, she’d gladly pay for it. Knowing about that dependency, she would obviously leave them her car shop money if anything was to happen. Which she did.

I also love that haynox didn’t have to give up everything they wanted to be safe. In fact, they got everything they ever wanted- they’re married and in love, Maddy has her car shop she worked so hard for, Cassie has the brewery that she gets to build from the ground up, they’re both still involved in the crime business, and they both get to live in a place they consider to be “home.” You could not have written a more perfect ending.

- Everything they ever wanted is their, so long as they work for it. And they did. And now it’s time to enjoy every second of it. Together. 

You gave them paradise.

- And you gave me many reasons to smile. I’m beyond thankful for the day that you decided to follow my story and felt so............. compelled by it............... that you decided to reach out and overwhelm me time and time again. Thank you. So much. For everything. I hope you stick around for more and I hope you know how awesome and kind and giving you are :)

#dc3 #my friend you overwhelm my heart with positivity and i'm not used to it #still so thankful #haynox paradise

[royallyprincesslilly]

I hope it’s okay that I send multiple lol. 3 & 4 for Late and King’s Orders

Hi. Yeah it’s totally fine. Thank you for the question. I love writing King’s Orders and Late.

KING’S ORDERS: Wow, this was tough. I couldn’t choose 1, I have a few but I did narrow it down the best I could.

Dialogue:

“If you ever touch her, come near her or speak to her again I will find you, I will hurt you, I will kill you in the most gruesome way imaginable. It will not be quick and you will not enjoy it.

AND

“Or I could I could say on your knees, open your mouth and lick. Or even face down, ass up, hands on the headboard.”

Narration:

He simply stepped closer to you, pressing his body to yours. The action took you off guard, it had been a while since you were this close to another man. You felt every hard muscle, smelled his delicious intoxicating smell that had to be more than cologne. You could see the dilation in his eyes and feel his strong hamstrings pressing against your thighs and your mind went a little crazy. It battled for common sense. You were furious but your body being in this state of arousal you wanted him too. His skin was beautiful, smooth chocolate without 1 wrinkle. Your nipples beaded underneath the smooth material of the dress and you wondered if he could feel them against his hard designer suit clad chest. You felt a soft twitch on your inner thigh, just slightly above your knee and your nonvirgin mind said he felt your nipples and that was no gun in his pocket.

AND

He groaned and took a deep inhale. He felt his blood heat and knew he was on the brink releasing the panther. He rolled his shoulders and closed his eyes. He focused on his breathing and calming slowing his heart rate. It was the middle of the day he would not release him. He felt it claw just below the surface, it wanted out. He’d held it at bay for weeks since he saw her. Even the panther agreed, the panther wanted her just as badly. It was coming to the point where the panther’s patience would be exhausted before his. Yes he was sure, they were both sure. He would have her!

LATE: Oh my goodness this is going to be hard and because it is I apologize in advance because I CHEATED. LOL I added more than 1 fave because how can you choose a favorite among all your children and my words are like my children. LOL

Dialogue:

“I have wanted to kiss you or 6 years. I have wanted to touch you, bast, it’s been torture.” T’Challa admitted.

“I will take no more torture y/n. Do you hear me?” His voice was so deep, so sinfully delicious sounding.

AND

“He has spotted you and he truly looks like the black panther with the gazelle in his sights. I see his predatory instincts taking over as he begins to stalk his prey.” Shuri’s commentary was hilarious but it somehow was also turning you on. You had to get a grip.

AND

(THE LETTER T’CHALLA WROTE TO Y/N IN (16). IT’S TECHNICALLY DIALOGUE

Y/N, My father told me once, the true measure of a good king turned a great one is his ability to do the selfless thing, the thing that will cause him the most pain but will be for the greater good. He told me it is easy to be selfish but a king cannot be selfish. I’ve been a selfish man and I am sorry. I did not have the courage or the strength to cause myself pain, I still do not but I would rather be in pain then risk your life.  I accept your resignation. I am sorry for the pain I’ve caused you, I am deeply, sincerely and wholeheartedly sorry and I wish you every happiness in this life and the next.  The Wakandan Embassy will have your recommendations for the next employment you may find. Please accept this severance package which I hope will aid you until you find new employment. It has been a pleasure knowing you and working with you. Wakanda thanks you for your service, I thank you for your service and friendship.  With all my love for all my days, T’Challa King Of Wakanda

Dialogue Runner Up 1:

“You are in Wakanda though and you signed a contract. If I understand correctly and I do, the contract says that the only way you are to vacate this position is if the King is displeased with your service and voids it and your services, or death. Otherwise this contract is standing for it’s duration which I am sure the black and white says 10 years.”

“Seeing as you are not dead and I have not voided the contract you are still contractually bound. You are a lawyer I am sure you know you are legally bonded to.” He added.

“I am the king, you serve Wakanda and me at my pleasure. Therefore that means you are going anywhere.” He finished.

Dialogue Runner up 2:

“Love is complex, it’s difficult, it’s hard. That is one thing no one’s mother ever warns them of. I know I am not your mother but I think of you as a daughter, I think of you as my responsibility and I love you as if you were part of the family, you have been for 6 years. I will warn you now. Love is complex, and difficult, it is hard. To love a King is not any easier and to love the Black Panther is an even more complex and difficult task, it is an even harder love. It is not for the meek, it is not for the sensitive, or the flighty, none of which you are. You are strong, courageous, and withstanding, resilient. No man, King or not reduces you to anything, no man, King or not is above you.” Ramonda drilled with force in her voice. You nodded. Ramonda nodded also and kissed your forehead before standing.

Narration:

He kissed you deeply and passionately. There was something different about this kiss though. It was still amazing but it also felt like goodbye. The thought brought tears to your eyes and you cried while you kissed. You felt your cheeks were wet and opened your eyes to see his cheeks were wet as well…with his own tears. The kiss slowed and stopped with your foreheads pressed together. He opened his eyes and you both stared, no need for words. He wiped your cheeks and kissed them.

AND

The gentle breeze blew through the sea of wild flowers. The reds, yellows, purples, and oranges swirled around each other and carried their sweet fragrance through the air. You stopped, closed your eyes and took in a deep breath allowing the smell to envelop your senses. You raised your hands and felt weightless. You felt as if you were floating in the air, high about everything and everyone. At this altitude nothing bothered you, nothing. You stood there for long moments just allowing the warm sunshine to seep into your pores hoping the increase in Vitamin D would heighten your spirits.

***DAMN THIS IS LONG AND I’M SORRY BUT YEAH…THERE IT IS.

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