#i mean u could try to guess

[obsob]

peace n love on th planet cat (all are prints! for ur loves! link )

#mine #huhuehee...crochet cat print is like. not th paper i thought i selected its like. so soft. #will probably do a big update ina couple months. gna try n get sm stickers !!!!!!!!!!!! #i did look into cards but theyre so EXPENSIVE!! i might jus do like. real postcards u can actually mail #i think im jus gna. make pritns of drawings as i do them. doing drawings specfically 2 make prints of them makes brain melt #anyway ive had a good day. finally managed 2 mail stuff aaa!!! #im not 100% if im meant 2 yet but i mean. i could purchase th postage so i guess its fine ? who knows #im gna play sm rain world now >:) i hope u hve a nice evenin

[nohshinwoos]

LIGHT ON ME (2021)

NOH SHINWOO IN EVERY EPISODE » EP.1

#light on me #light on me ep.1 #lightonmeedit #kdramaedit #noh shinwoo #kang yooseok #kiwitracks #userlotad #* #*nohshinwooeveryep #i haven't giffed on this blog in over a year omg... this feels odd but.. HELLO!! #i've been meaning to rewatch this drama ever since it finished.................. skjhsjlkdfgkl #and now i'm FINALLY doing that so.. bear with me while i try to gif shinwoo in every ep 😭 #(emphasis on Try bc i might give up after just one gifset) #i don't watch much dramas these days but i still think about this drama so much.. #and shinwoo the reason my url is still what it is... u could say i love him a lot i guess #anyway.. forgot how much this drama makes me feel.. even just the first ep.. i still love it so much :(

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#had an interesting conversation with my sister the other day. odd i guess bc my sister is pretty smart #on paper shes smarter than me. or at least less dyslexic than me #but she didnt seem to kno what cancer is. i mean like how it works. i mean. cancer is a mistake. a confluence of unfortunate accidents #leading to unrestrained cellular growth. when it metastasizes. when it moves to other parts of the body. those same cells continue growing #if u have smooth muscle cancer and it moves to your kidney. you body is trying to grow more smooth muscle on your kidney #at least as i understand it. and she asked why it wants to kill you. it doesnt want anything. it just is. its not a thing of malicious #intent. its neutral. it grows. it takes up resources. it takes up space. and it grows and grows until the organ it grows on stops #functioning properly. like a parasite she said. but no. not like a parasite. it grows like an empty space. a mass of flesh. a constant #obstructive pressure. it grows like only a tumor can. i dunno. it didnt seem to connect with her that this thing didnt want to kill our mom #but it did anyway. and she felt weird about how long she lived after they took her off any support. but thats how cancer kills #it stops an organ from functioning and most of those r important so it only takes one. so her heart kept beating for 12 more hrs bc it was #meant to beat for 40 more years. but not much it could do without working kidneys and without working blood #but that's life. that's death. that's nature. its all nutral even if it feels horrible to the individual. #i dunno. i thought it was interesting. shes 25 and her mother had cancer for 10 years so id think shed kno more #we're at a weird phase now bc its been a week since she died and everything feels normal. we'll see what happens at the wake this week #its been interesting for sure bc she was sick for 10 years but my parents didnt prepare at all for her to die #so my dad is scrambling to put together the pieces shr left behind to make sure that all the bills r paid and whatnot. he had to guess her #computer password. she didnt tell us what she wanted us to have. she didnt tell us the importance of her jewelry and who it belonged to #before her. i dunno. we're seeing the outline of my mothers Pathology in what she left behind. both in the physical objects and in the #feelings she imparted. i dunno. its been weird #unrelated

[dandyshucks]

blinks tiredly. i decide "hm maybe i should try to expand my circle and step outside of it a little, lets go look at the main community tags" and im just greeted with a bunch of edgelords who think saying "fiction doesn't affect reality, don't like don't read" is peak activism and "fighting censorship". head in my hands. this is partially why i do not ever go into the community tags, my nervous system cannot handle blocking fifty weirdos every single day just so i can have a normal experience in the community tags hfdsjkl

#I HAVE SO MANY PEOPLE BLOCKED ALREADY. i am TRYING to curate my experience 😭😭😭 #and i have so many tags blacklisted fjdsjkl like. so many. every single variation of tag to do with those chuckleheads #which helps avoid them a lot of the time tbh bc it'll flag posts that ppl rb if the original post was tagged w any of those #so i can avoid rbing posts that have chuckleheads as the op most of the time #i also usually double check OP's blog before i rb stuff now bc man this place is rife with these weirdos #ANYWAYS. yes i want to try to engage w the community but i do not think i can handle it if theres gonna be so many edgelords jkdslfl #the only way i follow new ppl now is when yall do promo hour and i sometimes see a new face pop up fdsjkl #every now and then i have energy to try to engage with new ppl but its so difficult when so many ppl are such insufferable edgelords !!!! #''im the nasty pr-sh-pper your parents warned you about 😎'' cool man you sound like the most insufferably obnoxious person ever. :/ #''if you like CENSORSHIP-'' i am hitting block immediately bc u have a fundamental misunderstanding of what censorship actually is 👍 #I'M TIREDDDD WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DUMB ABOUT THIS STUFF. ''fiction doesn't affect reality'' I GUESS PROPAGANDA DOESNT EXIST THEN ???? #what a strange world they live in honestly. they dont understand how stories have served humans since the dawn of time. sighing loudly. #vent // #SORRY FOR THIS ONE IM JUST. ARGH. ppl talk abt encouraging community but i think maybe im not cut out for community #i want desperately to partake but i cannot handle it if it means dealing w all these bozos #it frustrates me to no end fdhsjkl and it upsets me so much and i wish i could deal w it better but. my nervous system is broken fdsjkl #i will try to expand my circle every now and then but i cannot do it often bc of this 😭 im not going to give up entirely though fdsjkl #(also this is partially why i dont tag my posts w community tags anymore bc i am just. so scared of these freaks getting their hands on it) #(the most i'll do is s.afeship or variations every now n then bc supposedly they're not in those tags fdsjkl) #delete later #dandyshucks

[deadlittledogs]

I knew you were a weeb (when it was degen, not “cool” like it is now)

OH YEAH, I GOT BULLIED RELENTLESSLY FOR IT LOL. I was pretty autistic about it though, so….. I was maybe slightly asking for it lel.

I admit, it’s still a little confusing for me that normies all like anime now, even though I don’t really like it anymore. Anime was better when it was like this slightly niche autistic interest that only really cringy ‘outcast’ teen girls liked….. it had such a bizarre lil community of gross girls. Nothing will ever beat making eye contact with some bucktoothed shawty in a hetalia shirt from across the room and instantly knowing you’re both fucking insane in the same way. I WANT THAT BACK, EVEN IF NOW AS AN ADULT I THINK MOST ANIME IS RETARDED AND UNWATCHABLE LMAO.

#I still enjoy consuming manga though. manga is swag af. #I have been trying to watch a bit of anime again tho… *cough* black butler *cough* #most anime is just. bad though. super bad. #I MEAN EVEN BLACK BUTLER IS MOSTLY BAD but somehow that makes it better…. #book of circus was good…. i did enjoy that one…. #mostly because Ciel was dressed as a little orphan paper boy and threw up everywhere but. I digress. #sighhhhs I just miss when there was a decent community of weirdos and u could feel free to be cringe #cons used to be like. a safe haven of nerds. #now I’m like TERRIFIED of going because you see all those stories online of like #“’yeah I mentioned yaoi once online and someone showed up and fed me glass shard cookies’ #it seems the environment now is maybe… a little hostile…. #well I guess I will find out because I am going to an anime con next winter #my brother and I are going as Luther & Randal :3 #we are going to……. gulps…… be SUPER fucking annoying

[rosykims]

i do have to commend some peoples bravery posting takes on here that they surely must KNOW are going to get them blocked by several dozen followers and possibly some mutuals like goddamn i have to respect it yknow

#this isnt serious drama btw just a harmless take that is completely ok to have but also enraged me to the point of madness 🥰 #and not abt any of the moots btw love u all mwah <3 #i cannot believe how much time i waste trying to be inoffensive and palatable to everyone when i could instead be dropping #casually the most angry pitchfork mob inducing combination of words ever penned by man #for a laff #i mean godspeed i guess soldier o7 but goodness gracious

[reineyday]

i was thinking about a reverse todosibs au where shouto is the oldest and touya is the youngest but like... would there even be more than shouto and natsu if shou was born first? would they have the rest of their kids exist out of happiness?? would there even be family angst if shouto was born first, or would shou just hold up enji's expectations all on his own? bear the brunt of the weight of his dad's legacy and keep it away from his other siblings?

enji seemed like a pretty good dad till touya's quirk started failing on him, so if he had the opportunity to train shou's "perfect" quirk then would things have ever snowballed into being that bad?

#rei rambles #bnha #todoroki family #todosibs #shouto todoroki #touya todoroki #dabi #i love when the robins get reversed and the todosibs are another favourite group of kids for me so u was like 'hm what if?' #expecting there to be a different kind of angst #but im not sure there WOULD be family angst???? #would enji even suck if his first kid met all his expectations? #these are all genuine questions lol if someone wants to give me some headcanons :0 #maybe there wouldnt be any angst. maybe they'd just be a good family. #that's kind of depressing in its own right tho l o l #i mean yeah there'd be the usual 'golden boy' sort of angst i GUESS but even then i feel like #touya wouldnt be so put off by everything if he had shou as a guiding figure in his life #like i dont think enji would expect his other kids to try to live up if shouto did fine but even if he did #and touya disappointed him and got 'thrown away' i think shouto as an older brother would 100p catch him #i guess mb enji could get greedy about his legacy but... hmm... #maybe if in high school shouto decides to turn on his dad cuz his obsession is fuckn stupid and so enji starts focusing in on his youngest #cuz touya's quirk hasnt manifested yet but then it does and it's bad for him and enji gets frustrated about it #and tiny touya finds it unfair that shouto has this PERFECT quirk and he's not even GRATEFUL that dad is looking at him!!!! #but honestly i think shouto would end up fixing this lol and touya would end up extremely attached to his older brother #but i think that's just one take. i digress+

[dykekakashi]

it is very hard for me to come to terms with the idea that like. actually people can't just be whatever they want to be. like as fantastic as the idea of shedding whatever habits u have and ur way of thinking and replacing it with something new is like i have found that to be like. literally. impossible for me. like sometimes i wake up like maybe i can become the sort of person who actually believes in these self-help books or like is very passionate about science. or whatever. i'll be the person who makes small talk with others at the grocery store line. and i've tried. sometimes i've tried rly hard and those things always felt like a particularly difficult performance as opposed to things i'm more "naturally" drawn to. idk. tbh. maybe i'm just overthinking a lot of things atm.

#i don't think it's a matter of time or intentionality either which people always try to say #like i tried to be the person into biochemistry rly hard for like. 4yrs of my life actually #and i was intentional about it and learned everything and got so much experience in it and found things within it i liked. but never #rly loved? idk. as opposed to kind of falling into history. like not to be cliche but it rly felt like. smthn i fell in love with and didn' #have to force? #i've tried rly hard these past 3 months to become the sort of person who could like this job. which is why i'm having this crisis lol #like i just can't. and part of me feels like? kind of upset about it. i guess. what do you mean i'm not a machine and i can just #clean up a few files and start over? #i know that sounds insane but it's the way i've always thought about myself. like u can edit and overwrite over and over again. to make #smthn new but that's not rly true.

[prylc]

Also, just popped up in my mind but for the raffle,

The people who are tagged can still win if they tag someone else and do everything

That just means they have a double chance at winning! 👀

#Pls try not to retag the person that tagged u tho LMAO. Not that I don't allow it but #I'm trying to reach more ppl too sooo XDDD #I mean. I guess you could tag others to join by their own while tagging the person and their ref to have double chances for the both of yall #Anyways. Have fun with the raffle and I appreciate everyone who has reblogged it even if you're not participating! #prylc talk #art raffle

[sanstropfremir]

Hey! I hops life has been treating you well! And warning for a long and convoluted ask incoming (which is pretty par for the course for me). I’ve been going down a Yunho (U-Know Yunho to be precise lol) rabbit hole and I’m curious how you think he compares to other male SM solo artists especially Taemin (though I think it would be interesting to compare all SM solo artists like BOA or Taeyeon and Hyoyeon for the purpose of this ask im just thinking about the dudes). Cause I feel like him, Taemin, and Kai all fall on different ends of the same spectrum that’s distinct from some of the other SM solos like the other Exos (except I might add Baekhyun in there but I’m just not familiar enough with him) as they tend to tackle that darker sexier sound. I’ve been thinking about how when people say a male solo artists is making taemin lite music it’s usually actually closer to Yunho’s more recent stuff. Like taemin has kind of become short hand for dark male solo concept especially if it’s on the sexier or high concept side when that’s not always an accurate comparison. I’ve seen this especially with Wonho which is really interesting to me cause in my mind he falls way more on the Yunho end of the spectrum than Taemin (by like a long shot). And this could also be cause the kpop circles I run in are way less familiar with Yunho to make that comparison in the first place, I was just wondering if others like you that knew Yunho would agree with me. I also found it interesting that Taemin went solo before Yunho even though TVXQ are the older group so I wonder he affected Yunho’s music at all. Cause Yunho kind of seems like a more, I don’t want to say masculine, definitely more of a player, conventionally sexy foil to taemin’s more unhinged (satanic?? Fantasy? Horror-adjacent? I can’t really describe it accurately but I mean TVXQ has down their share of that too) sensual side and I can’t tell if it’s cause of the age difference between them, their group concepts (I mean TVXQ are the grown men of the kpop industry in my mind and I have no doubt they play a role in inspiring any “manly” or mature concept and Yunho’s concepts seems to follow pretty closely to TVXQ’s image in a way that Taemin doesn’t at all with Shinee), or their own artist personas and careers- taemin has always been viewed as the “feminine” one and you’ve talked a lot about how he’s both rejected and embraced that image overtime in his career. And to further complicate this I don’t really know where to put Kai between them cause he has the more overt sex appeal in Mmmh, and in his image over all, that Yunho has but also is more sensual and softer (subtle?) dance style that seems closer to taemin (or at least taemin’s image I’ll be the first to admit that my understanding of him as an artists doesnt always align with his actual output and the expectations I project on him) so I guess he goes in the middle. But peaches does really stand out as a sort of softer lighter storybook concept (which I love cause I feel like we don’t see traditional concepts that are more feel good) so that kind of throws a wrench into my theory and I guess thats what I get for treating artists’ output as a monolith and for comparing them😅. This ask is getting very very long and I’m late for class so I won’t continue but I did have some idea about where Xiumin’s recent comeback fits into this roster of artists but I’ll save that for another day lol. As always thanks for your input and I hope this makes at least some sense to you!

i stopped photo editing to answer this lmao bc i think this a very interesting question/thought experiment etc etc

firstly, most people will make the taemin comparison for male soloist because he is significantly more well known as a soloist, and part of that is that he's famous for being a soloist; an extension of which is the disparity between his solo work and his group work. now there are two points i want to fork off into from here:

-> the first is that it's a flawed comparison to place yunho, taemin, and kai on a spectrum because they're not derivatives of each other in the way that a spectrum would imply; what they all are is derivatives of rain. every dance-based male soloist is, via some lineage, a descendant of rain, whether it's through the skills line (taemin) or the 'masculinity' line (yunho) or a mix (kai). baekhyun doesn't factor in here because he's almost purely rnb based and therefore a kangta derivative.

-> the second is that it is valid for people to be making that comparison to taemin because most younger idols are going to be using him as reference, and because a lot of these younger idols are following his method of creating a separate solo persona from their group. yunho does not have that distinction. he is quite literally the face of tvxq, and therefore inextricably bound to the group's identity because there are literally only two of them. if they were, for example, still a five member group, he might have had more a chance to diversify himself a bit, but that's a bygone point because we don't live in that world. the reason tvxq made it through the split and maintained being an extremely successful group is very likely because of yunho's singlehanded determination. obviously changmin does care about the group, but as we've seen with his solo work, he's much more of a musical chameleon; he's more focused on dabbling in widely different genres that interest him. yunho's solo music however, is pretty consistent in sound and also not all that surprising of a leap from who he is in tvxq. so by that observation, i would say there isn't actually a difference between uknow yunho and uknow the soloist. his artistic identity is tvxq, in a way that he can't separate, unlike how taemin can separate from shinee. and following that point through, no younger soloist can really be compared to him because his history and group image are so integral to what he does. that's why there's like a negative number of young idols that every attempt to cover a yunho song, bc the vibes of something like follow or thank u would OBLITERATE anyone under the age of 30.

if you were to look at just aesthetics and music styles, sure on the surface there are some younger idols that unintentionally skew more towards some of the stuff that yunho has done, but in the end that's because they're all under the rain umbrella.

#kpop questions #tvxq w #tvxq #yunho #taemin meta #i know i've talked about this before in a post somewhere. but yunho's only comparable peers are literally like. junsu and rain #both them COULD cover a yunho song if they wanted to. but again. their vibes are wrong. they don't have the same desperation #to be completely honest i actually think it's unimportant to compare the literal aesthetics/music style of solo artists #and instead you need to compare HOW they approach those aesthetics styles etc etc #like you could say that taemin kai yunho and baekhyun have all done dance based 'dark sexy' concepts within a relatively close timespan: #criminal (sept 2020) mmmh (nov 2020) thank u (jan 2021) and bambi (march 2021) #but that doesnt take into account the fact that all of them approach the concept of 'dark sexy' totally differently #and each according to their own contexts #i dont think you can put all of sm's soloists on a big scale of similarity of music and aesthetic #i mean. you can bc duh theyre all gonna look and sound similar bc they share resources #but that's not seeing the forest for the trees in terms of actually analysing and understanding a soloist's work #this is basically just a very longwinded way of me saying that i dont think there's anyone that makes solo work like yunho #i guess you could argue that kai is actually the most similar to yunho since he doesnt have a real distinction between solo kai and exo kai #but again its different bc he's got a wider array of genres he's willing to try and exo is not the same as tvxq #but again again its not about relating them to each other. its about relating them in comparison to rain #answers #text #like when i say taemin is more popular i mean like. 1.2 million monthly spotify listeners vs 30k. its not an insignificant difference

[darlingbudsofrae]

about the pro-allison thingy...

I am one of the firm advocates and believers that Allison Reynolds would either go pro or do both (fashion and exy) but recently, I’ve been thinking about her ec and I think I’m beginning to see where Nora came from.

The short summary of the argument for the point of Allison choosing to go pro is this: Allison gave up her millions of dollars of inheritance for exy, got disowned for persisting to play it, and pretty much chose a bastard sport over her privileges. She fought tooth and nail to be a part of the court and despite her looks, she brawled with the best and the best. Therefore, it’s only natural that she pursues it in the future, right? Right??

That’s what I thought too, but then that leaves a new question unanswered: why is it given that she pursues it in the future? Does that mean an effort of fighting for something you love is futile unless it’s the end goal? Does your passion for something need to be your destination for it to be a worthy dream to fight for?

And I will be completely contradicting my prior Allison-centric posts but no, I think the answer is no. Because the truth is, Allison didn’t fought for exy. Exy was the thing that made her fight back from her controlling and overbearing parents, it was the thing that made her feel alive and free. And while she chose to play collegiate exy over her millions of inheritance, it isn’t something she necessarily see pursuing in the future and I think that’s okay. It doesn’t make her fight for it worthless and it wouldn’t render that choice a downgrade to her character because the fight wasn’t about exy at all. It’s about what she wants and exy just so happened to be the catalyst at that moment. She didn’t gave everything up for a sport she ended up not pursuing full-time— she gave it all up for control of her life. And if what pushes her to do so is not a dream she plans to pursue full-time but a mere hobby that she could come back to from time to time, something that gives her a short thrill but not the thing that she can see herself doing for the rest of her life, the stop point or journey along the way but not necessarily the destination— is that really so wrong?

#i had a point and i'm pretty sure i can articulate it better in my native language but u'r stuck with this and maybe that's okay too <33 #all for the game #aftg #the foxhole court #the raven king #the king's men #nora sakavic #allison reynolds #i guess what i'm trying to say is that is it really a waste to fight for something if it's not the thing u'll pursue in the future? #like can't we just fight for what we want now regardless if it's a forever thing?? #does it need to be a lifetime pursuit or can't we just fight for what we want without catering to anyone's expectations?? #idk i'm just saying can't we be passionate just for the sake that we love it #i swear i could articulate this better in my native language y'all english is hard #give it a few days i'm sure someone in the fandom could articulate this better than i ever could lol #i still like the idea of allison going pro but i don't mind now if she pursues being in fashion full time #like good for her whatever makes her happy u go girlboss #also in another edition of me reaching cuz i'm pretty sure nora didn't thought this deep abt it but if she ever did honestly respecc bruhh #also supplemental: in the chance that what she is fighting for is actually exy it still doesn't mean she has to go all the way #your passion is still valid regardless if you go full-time or nadda #this took a peachy preachy turn lmao i'm leaving if u'r reading this hi ily <33 #bye #raeraegoaway

[munamania]

something that makes me feel guilty is the fact that seeing that persons face rn literally makes me angry. they walked into class and i nearly winced. and in all fairness they were quite kind to me. outside of the several kind of odd red flags. girl whatever. to be quite frank i am a horny bastard and vocal proud etc but few people interest me enough to actually want to hang out with and get to know And i have deep seated intimacy issues so it's like. we really dont have a shot unless the circumstances r exactly right on a full moon perfect thursday of a month etc like. well and tbh i probably would have fucked around with this person but i dont... care... about some big relationship w them.. and i know i could be a relationship girl like eventually i have it in me to have a muse that's what im built for i think idc but not rn... rn i need to hang out with my friends and do my film stuff and have people that maybe wanna make out sometimes is that so much to ask for. for a lesbian at a bar to want to make out perhaps. ** for there to be lesbians at the bars to potentially make out with.

#and i am quite lonely yes thank u for asking. yeah someday id love to get to know someone again in the context of falling in love #what about it. so what now. i dont think im meant for our understanding of romantic love but boy do i crave it #why am i having this moment rn. well ok consider im on my period all i could think about this morning was [redacted] and both parties #of my dyke drama were back in class today. and the one gay person that i think has a crush on me but we dont see each other super often #so im just. guessing based on the way awkward lesbians communicate. idk #and i feel really just mean but i quite literally dont have it in me to pretend to be nice to this person anymore #i wasnt like. some villain for realizing we were acting really coupley and being like oh shit because i didnt want to hurt them #. and trying to communicate and put some distance between us when i thought they were probably in too deep. it's unfortch it took me a sec #but jesus christ yk i cant walk around and feel awkward about it forever. and im frustrated by the fact that we're just acting so odd #but again frankly i think it's largely bc they have an unhealthy relationship with dating. THROWING HORIZONTAL PUNCHES HERE. #OK. STONES FROM A GLASS HOUSE. IM AWARE. REAL RECOGNIZES REAL. #and YET. despite my past insanity. ive been kind. i can understand disappointment and a little awkwardness #but jesus would you rather i pretend to be in love with you for months and then really break your heart. #this is where i get mean and make a joke like well hey if we couldve had weird really mediocre sad angry dyke sex abt it #that would have been cool with me. but alas. we're here instead and it's fucking with my friendships too #and like we were kind of ok friends too. what now. its just u me and this brick wall u built between us bitch #now was EYE not answering texts for a minute. we dont need to get into it. #because the thing IS if i dont play things exactly right. and im not good at that without prior planning. i will accidentally say or do #something that i know. again. from being insane myself. would be just enough for them to hold onto hope #and im not trying to do that to them you know. i was trying to help with the detachment. shitty as it may be. i dont fucking know dude #this post is going to make me look kind of. well. whatever u guys have seen me at my worst. mostly. and post #ok one last thing sorry if this makes me sound like i have a giant ego. like wow heres this person who really liked me and im just shitting #all over them. not what im meaning to do but whatever

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#shout out to my nana for saying my dad spends money like water #my dad who struggles with the idea of spending money bc of obsessive compilation thoughts but is making an effort #bc whats the point of saving up all your life just to die. nana? my dad whose wife is literally dying of cancer and is beginning to circle #the drain so hes deciding he wants to start spending his retirement money now while shes still alive. u old witch. Jesus christ. my mum #isnt gonna live forever. shes getting her bladder removed in February i think. imo ill just b happy if she lives past the end of my 5year #program. like holy fuck. i mean. its not really nanas fault. she probably has 0cd and probably has 0cpd. but like this is y u wanna try to #get better. so you dont grow into a miserable old fuck whose family hates u bc ur awful and killing ur husband thru ur illness. just saying #as someone whose can see their own behaviors mirrored in her. this is y i cant go on like this lol #hopefully i hit my rock bottom last year. ugh. i just wish i could sleep. when im not super depressed i cant seem to get a normal amount of #sleep and im exhausted all afternoon. im awake at night and early in the morning. it makes me nauseous too. insomnia i guess #but ive always slept rather little. maybe it was compulsive and now im just old and cant take it #hate it. wish it would stop but at least i dont feel like dying anymore i guess. im guessing the meds r exacerbating thr sleep issues if not #causing it. ugh symptom management i guess #unrelated

[bloggirl8842]

I feel like one of my friends is being weird with me but I’ve got no proof all I know is I asked her for another friend’s number (someone I haven’t spoken to in 4 yrs 😟) and she stopped texting me back and liking my posts. Which could be entirely incidental like it should just be entirely incidental but I am getting a weird vibe

#i had a massive crush on the other friend for awhile. that could be it? but she didnt know abt that so idk. im reaching out to him bc im try #ing to text a bunch of artists i grew up and he was like the main one for a bit so avoiding him would be way weirder than just being normal. #also ofc i got over the crush years ago. i regret it a bit i mean not the feeling i guess bc u cant regret honest things like that but i #regret the way it made me act i couldve just been normal! i didnt learn how to do that til after #i think i just had a lot of shame around existing like i didnt enjoy my personality i didnt socialize well i wasnt pretty i had no real pass #ion for anything so i felt like a burden whenever i liked anyone and got REALLY weird about it. like stop talking to them start memorizing t #heir hallway routes weird 😭 anyways im mostly worried like girl please dont be weird w me i value our friendship and also directness #though i do think it must be incidental. but the little possibility that its not…. #it bothers me bc shes like niku ur so real and its like ok b real w me back. but im guessing shes just busy or distracted or something like #ive got a lot of people lm supposed to write who i just havent

[fruitsyrups]

u ever think like what if there is someone out there who is exactly like me. or close enough. pornbots please leave me alone.

#least suspicious bot i have seen yet it's really a stretch to call this one a pornbot #no link no posts followers & likes hidden. however. pfp of a real normal looking woman who isn't a celebrity #not exactly a selfie because it's a bot but clearly intended to be perceived as a selfie #<- we don't do that here u can't fool me #although i really do have to wonder what the point of these ones are. are they just trying to lure people into a false sense of security? #also i have some followers with empty blogs which sets off all the bot alarms but they have their likes/following public #and it seems all normal? #like. theyre only following a handful of blogs (bots tend to follow a whole bunch of blogs with no clear link between them #as far as i've noticed) #and their likes are all consistent & seem normal too #i guess it could be just a very elaborate bot scheme but like. i doubt it. #<- guys pls stop having totally empty blogs . ur literally only hindering ur own experience #the artists you're trying to follow think ur a bot and they are going to block you #i mean keep at it if u dont care but personally when i follow an artist it's because i actually want to. yk. see their art ???

[simmonsized]

the thing about being "bad at math" is that like,

yes i mean i actively do not like doing math, but i also recognize that yes, i am taking and doing fairly okay (so far) in physics with calculus. the difference, at least for me, is that i personally feel like it takes me 2x as long as it might take a fellow classmate to solve a problem, because my brain just straight up does not function the way math likes to function. and i’m okay with that! and it would be fine, were it not for the looming nightmare of timed quizzes lol

#i guess what i am saying is that like #when i say ''i am bad at this'' i don't mean i'm going to give up or write it off bc u know how else could u learn but #i DO mean that i struggle even when i'm trying really really hard #this is brought to u by someone who is ready to bite and destroy (insert whatever here) vs time graphs