#i miss that feeling

[xy75]

i miss having a Person so bad

#even when it was a man who quitely broke my heart every time i talked to him #i miss that feeling #of Wanting someone

[theehorsepusssy]

Exactly 10 years ago

And about 60 to 80 mg OxyContin

#I miss that feeling

[jellyfishjams]

.

#personal #i fucking hate me #im so tired of fucking up and making other people suffer #and i hate that im aware enough to know im doing it but now actually fix it #like it should be easy!! be nice!! be loving!! respond to peoples messages!! its not that fucking hard!!!!! #hey how would you like to meet someone you see living the rest of your life with and slowly chip away at their happiness #because youre kind of a shitty person and dont make an effort to change that #and they used to love you so much and now they fucking hate you #why am i like this? why cant i change what im doing? #i make promises to be better and dont do it so why should he believe me #i miss that new years where i felt so much love and knew i wanted to be with him forever #i miss that feeling

[sailoralchemist]

i miss having a crush and it being reciprocated.

#it's been awhile since i tried and I'm going work on it #i miss that feeling #definitely will wait a few more months but dating sounds fun

[idontknowhowtodothis]

I hadn’t brushed my teeth that morning. I had fries and milkshake but you still said I tasted good after kissing me. I can still feel your tooth on my top lip. And no, I wasn’t scared of those old drunken men. I just pretended to be so I could get closer to you. I felt safe. I had to take your hand because you were too shy, but when I did, the world stopped. Your face dropped, and I swear, just for a split second I could see the hearts in your eyes. When I hugged you, you tried your best not to let go and I promise you if I knew it was the last time we saw, I wouldn’t have let go either

#actually bpd #bpd #bpd feels #self destruction #i love his smile #i miss u #i miss this #i love them #i miss that feeling #i want to cry #bpd things #bpd thoughts #sadcore

[potahun]

One of the experiences i rly enjoyed having while watching lhl was reading fang duobing’s name as romanized in gifsets first, before seeing that his name is written 方多病 （Fang Many Illnesses) in the c-subs when i started the drama, and realizing that omg that’s a terrible name

#and then i got to the end of the drama when they explained and thought aaaaa #fang duobing #lhl #son #i love him #i miss that feeling #the feeling of realizing that this adorable pomeranian is called something like ‘sick ball’

[winterwrites23]

Omg I'm having a burst of inspiration and it feels amazing😭😭

#I miss that feeling #when you're finally in the mood to write something #it also helps that I'm emotional for destiel reasons and it put me in the right mood lol #tomorrow guys... it's november 5th... 3 years omfg

[mossheartz]

so smad, I miss being confident enough in my writing and creativity to have fun with it and actually think of and work on ideas. nowadays I can't even think about any of my ideas- fanfic or original- because I just. am convinced it's not good enough to put out there, everything I make is just ideas I picked up from elsewhere, that nothing touched by me is something anybody will want.

I miss being able to sit down after school or work and just have fun writing. I miss being able to make pinterest boards and playlists and silly little memes for my ocs and aus. I miss being able to actually talk to people about my ideas, without this mental block.

Even when I try to get started, I just run right into it and fall onto my ass.

#when it comes down to it I miss being able to be me without being scared lol #my ocs were so cringy when I was 15 #had that red eyed black haired quirked up white girl oc #but by god I was having fun #I miss that feeling

[nellasbookplanet]

A fun side effect of me starting up drafts of my book rec posts (I currently have 10 drafts. Normally my drafts folder is empty. Its current state is giving me nervous twitches) is that I'm feeling a sudden urge to read a bunch of books that’s been on my tbr for literal years so I can ascertain whether or not to include them as recs. I so rarely have the urge to pick up physical books or ebooks these days, 99 percent of what I 'read' is audiobooks. My brain doesn’t have space and focus to just Sit And Read anymore. I get bored. I get distracted. A single book takes me months to finish and a lot of time I don’t finish it at all even if I'm enjoying it because my attention wanders to other things and before I know it I haven’t read for weeks and at this point I might as well put the book back in the shelf. And I've just gotten kind of desillusioned about reading, and often straight up force myself to do it because I Like This Dammit. Man I miss being a teenager devouring multiple books a week without issue.

But I'm feeling a bit of a spark at the moment! I've almost finished Octavia Butler's Dawn (it’s definitely going on the alien rec list) and it’s so good! I'm frantically trying to decide what to pick up next so I don’t overwhelm myself by Not Chosing and just trying to read five books at once. Let's see how long I can ride this high.

#it probably helps that my uni semester is over and I've finished several freelance deadlines #so i don’t have to spend as much of my limited reading focus on academic papers and proof reading #but yeah. i really miss the way i used to be absolutely absorbed while reading as a kid/teen #i'd read while walking home from school (the one kind of multitasking i ever mastered; i wonder if i could still do it) #when i was really little i used to hide under a kitchen shelf at home or under the stairs at school so i could read undisturbed #one book once got me so obsessed that i brought it with me into the stable #in case i could sneak some reading time between caring for the animals #i miss that feeling #wonder if losing it is part of growing up and getting different priorities or if part of me got a bit burned out #anyway. thank god for audiobooks #the only thing that still allows me to get through a frankly obscene amount of books #rambles #(next rec post is going to be scifi worldbuilding btw. it'll probably be up either this weekend or sometime next week)

[skinzchoerim]

I learned the term alterous attraction today and man that sounds... accurate. It would be nice to have someone I'm a little in love with, who's a little bit mine, and go out on something that's not quite dates, but special outings that make us both feel comfortable in a way we've never felt with another person, and learn more about each other, hold hands occasionally and hug often, care about each other's opinion and have long, peaceful discussions, and experience beautiful things like nature and art together, and just finally get to feel like having all of this and not "more" is possible, and there are people out there who'd be okay with this.

#i once went out on a ''date'' with my friend and my favorite part was a walk in the park when we talked nonstop and held hands nonstop #i miss that feeling #also when i say i want a summer romance this is exactly what i mean #personal

[clonazepamkisses]

Oh to be drunk in bed while on an imaginary roller coaster when you close your eyes

#I miss that feeling #now liquor barely touches me

[fortnightthere]

i got out my old phone and read our texts and i remember why i was so hurt now

#elyn speaks now #it felt so real and i was so happy #i miss him #i miss that feeling #j

[sarasa-cat]

Ended up meandering and orienting myself all evening (when not cleaning up in the kitchen or doing random chores).

Active prompt for fanfic? Well, I had an IDEA and I did some research for it but wrote nothing.

Moving my playing-with-mods explorations forward in CP2077? Ended up looking at a zillion different mods, bookmarking a few, and downloading nothing.

Making graphics? Going through my existing (vanilla) photomode shots? Anything? **crickets**

And------ some evenings are just like that. **shrug**

#I actually dislike very much this sense of needing to do something #PrOdUCTivE when I'm just taking some time for myself to play with my toys #once upon a time I remember not watching the clock at all like I do now #i miss that feeling

[polyphonic-prairies]

Missing how rdr2 filled a certain hole in my heart for a good 2 years

#one of the best hyperfixations ive ever had #i miss that feeling #rdr2 #personal possums

[mountaincryptid]

tbh i miss the years where my top 5 songs were all or mostly one artist or my top 5 of both songs and artists was dominated by hadestown & the hadestown cast... like i wanna get obsessed with a musical/artist/album like that again

#spotify wrapped #i miss that feeling

[usermarquez-moved]

u know when a race is sooo good u don’t care who wins like yeah you’ll be disappointed that your fave won’t win but also there’s good racing sooo

#i miss that feeling #nadya.txt