#i was already boiling over it

[screwpinecaprice]

Karaoke date!

🎤 song playing 🎶

TBH I'm really just procrastinating. Not even 50% in a commission I'm already stuck on a part and it's been days now. (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) Just wanna turn away from that for a bit.

#Oh the doodle requests haven't been posted all by the way! Just doodling this because I just wanted to get this out of my head. lol #connverse #steven quartz universe #connie maheswaran #steven universe #my shiz #su #skedoobles #karaoke #Send Love Through #Oddly. When this song plays in my randomized playlist. Usually 'Constellations' by The Oh Hellos plays after. #Oh holy crapppple it's already 4 in the morning?????waht #It was really today I learned the lyrics is “Under pressure. Boiling steam. On the edge you'll bust your dreams.” #And I've been singing it out loud “Under pressure. Born in steam. On the edge for us to dream” for over a year. Lol

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

i don't know maybe it's the translation i read but i guess i always thought it was made fairly clear that shuro never legitimately hated laios so much as he resented him for being able to be the way he was. much like laios (albeit for very different reasons) shuro's affect is frequently commented on by others to be strange and at a mismatch with the prevailing culture around him, being very reticent to the point of the part where he tells the girl he likes that he likes her being when he Proposed. quite a few characters say something to this effect! shuro was raised in formality and stoicism and i think has a tendency towards not rocking the boat even besides that, and now here's this guy who breaks every one of his rules and he makes it look so easy. it's like a two-pronged frustration of "doesn't this guy understand that you can't just do that" and "fuck, what would it feel like to be able to do that." of course he gets mad! it's frustration, but it's also envy.

#the nemesis speaks #after their fight they're very chill/friendly and in the nightmares chapter laios literally says something to the effect of #''i thought we worked this out already!'' when dream shuro shows up. so he does consider that fight to be Working Things Out #&that like. imo makes it pretty clear that shuro's dislike of laios was never like inherent? it was just another product of him not- #-being able to say clearly when he likes or doesn't like something. trying to keep a lid on that pot until it boiled over #once the air had been cleared and laios was aware of it- i mean the relief of that honesty must have been- #-kind of fresh air to shuro atp regardless after not saying anything for so long. #& i think you can't bare that much of your soul to another person without becoming friends at least a little bit #plus all of shuro's actions after that chap and his demeanor towards laios are much warmer in general #idk where i'm going with this i guess tl;dr it's not even that shuro hates laios' autistic traits it's that they're like- #-out of place socially in opposite directions and shuro dislikes how unfamiliar laios is but also kind of wants to be more like him #this is beyond just the fact that the final line of their fight (in the translation at least) was quite literally #''that's the part of you that i envy''

[godofstupidsentences]

Sometimes it’s just you and the character hated by the whole fandom against the world

#y’all already know #gale hawthorne #eli ever #(tbf people started to like him after Vengeful) #rory gilmore #lord henry wotton #sge japeth #(still not over him STILL NOT OVER HIM) #ron weasley #(no he’s not hated by the whole fandom but the sole fact that Ron haters exist make my blood boil) #damn the next one is probably my problem y’all right to hate him #charles macaulay #(I hate him too but he’s also my favorite character) #ohoo how could I forget #mike wheeler #shame on you guys #honestly #and obviously #nancy wheeler #wheeler siblings apologist first human second #elena greco #allison argent #reid mactavish #alright he’s mildly disliked at best but I haven’t talked about him in too long #alright that’s a longass list sorry

[messiahzzz]

usually i’m more of a lurker when it comes to fandom spaces, but for some reason i find myself having strong opinions about a certain wizard.

at this point i am very hesitant to follow any g@le themed blogs (or write posts about anything else other than his romance) cause imo a lot of people miss the mark when it comes to their interpretation of him. either reducing him to his domestic side/being the “perfect husband” or putting the focus on his hubris and thirst for power alone… and sadly a lot of his nuance is lost in the process.

#it speaks #ironically it all boils down to him fulfilling some sort of fantasy #you don’t have to gloss over either of these aspects #he already IS complex #all of these characteristics can co-exist and it doesn’t make him any less kind & good-hearted #every so often i scroll through his tag and think to myself ‘nah that’s not it’ #(​i also wish we’d put more focus on his vulnerability in general but hey)

[buriedabove]

not a long while ago,  i posted about wanting to explore dynamics more and build more long-lasting connections between the muses,  but as of late there’s also been another related thing circulating inside my head,  which is the topic of romantic shipping.  i always say i’m open to considering those and people should always feel free to approach me about it and then we can discuss whether it makes sense or not,  though something i’m not particularly a fan of is devoiding a dynamic between characters for the sake of shipping.  romance is not my priority and even when it happens,  most of the time those relationships still will be difficult because this is how i write and interpret leon and his approach towards it.  all i’m asking for is some more depth.  otherwise,  simply speaking,  it’s hard for me to stay excited or interested.

#where’s everyone going? ❯ ooc. #i really don’t mean to sound like a cranky party pooper #but shipping for the sake shipping isn’t for me #especially due to past experiences over the years on different blogs #when people would interpret my muses on their own so they would fit into their shippy shippy kissy kissy narratives #like... it’s just boring to me to focus a dynamic solely on romance #not to mention when said shipping is just boiled down to f*cking #i write usfw stuff once in a blue moon anyway #and it’s also not my intention to police others on how many people they should romantically ship with #because you do you be wild & have fun #but i am less likely to ship if i see carbon copies of dynamics over and over again #well and this kind of applies to both romantic and platonic ships #which i already talked about in some other post #but without digressing #yeah #nothing personal against anyone; just putting it out there for future reference

[labyrynth]

“shen jiu flung BOILING WATER over the FACE of a CHILD—“

so…luo binghe tried to serve him boiling hot tea, or…?

#moi #salt is salt #svsss talk #answer: no he did not. #pouring the tea over lbh’s head was rude enough #he’s already a shitty person #and that’s IT. he’s a shitty person and NOTHING MORE. he’s not horrible/evil/rancid/irredeemable/whatever #he’s just a guy with shit social skills and even shittier coping mechanisms #you don’t need to make up new things to get mad at him over #god i swear some of you stopped reading after the TITLE #you’re not supposed to take the ‘scum villain’ in the title at face value #that’s like. what the whole goddamn book is about. #i mean come on this claim is just stupid #do you know how long it takes for boiling water to inflict third degree burns? #like a second. a single second. #if that tea had been boiling hot one of them would have ended up seriously hurt #and yet 🤔 there was nothing of the sort

[gibbearish]

ik i talk abt high control groups kinda often but i do encourage anyone involved in discourse in any capacity to watch folding ideas' "this is financial advice" video, because a lot of what he says about the gamestop apes being a self-organizing high control group imo also explains the more toxic discourse tendencies, and i feel like most discussion around high-control groups on here focuses on the tradtional kind that has one or a few distinct leaders which makes it harder to draw parallels between the signs. so i think its important to point out that these kinds of groups can still create that same energy as a unit even if there isn't one specific person calling the shots

#origibberish #namely the signs ive noticed most over the years are obviously internal jargon‚ thats kind of a given when working with microlabels #but see also transmed/truscum/trender/tucute/acey/theyfab/transandrophobia truther/etc etc etc #ideas being boiled down to short gotchas that just get ping ponged back and forth #see The Entirely Of Any Ace Discourse Argument for that but again see 'theyre just trans mras' #and the tendancy for members to turn on anyone who steps out of line even a little #omg i cqnt believe i forgot pro/anti discourse too theyre really bad about all of these on both sides #oh or another example would be steven universe discourse #like 'it endorses letting fascists off the hook' would just get thrown around as if it was undisputed fact despite there being MILES #of shit going on in the background to get to that #anyways. yeah 👍 keeping this in mind has already made a huge difference in how i engage in online discussions #and has also been a good rule of thumb for when to Stop engaging with someone #where if theyre displaying these signs thank you i do not want to be part of this #and like yes that goes for people youre arguing with but it obviously /ESPECIALLY/ goes for people you like #if you have a friend who you feel like you cant say anything that disagrees with them or theyll freak out at you. you dont have to keep #being friends with them. if being around someone makes you uncomfortable and you constantly find yourself making excuses for why #they treat you the way they do then thats a bad sign #and like with that i really hope ive managed to yknow. create a nice space here where ppl feel safe bringing stuff up? #idk

[onceuponamillennia]

bolton freeman

🤝

being rlly mean to someone and

pretty much pushing them over the

edge till they almost die

#boiling point #boiling point bbc #boiling point series #boiling point fandom #bolton #freeman #jamie #its the same concept yk. #what happened between freeman and andy is a parallel to bolton and jamie. gosh what bolton did still makes em really mad. like wtf he's #already bullying himself in his head its obvious #no need to fucking encourage it. and the mockery for stuttering WHAT was that now that was #fucking horrible #i have family who stutters and should anyone bully them for it i can and will punch them no one is to be made fun of for #stuttering under my watch. so yeah that rlly makes me mad. this might sound kinda morbid but i headcanon that when jamie was in the #bathroom c__ boltons words played over in his head and i mean hey its not a long shot yk it makes sense. when your peers say horrible stuf #to you it sticks and replays over and over and no doubt about it it replayed in jamies mind in ep2. #so yeah thats my essay yee.

[hotdadlicense]

tomorrow's gonna be 42c (107f) and we have like over 120 people booked in and only like 5 tables available in the aircon and i just know i'm gonna get yelled at and ppl with short tempers being passive aggressive to me about being seated outside. whatever jokes on them tho becos they're the idiots that went out to a garden cafe and expected aircon available. we have to laugh. someone tried to book with me on the phone yesterday and i was like 'okay before i get anymore information i just want to tell you that the weathers meant to be extreme and we only have outside seating available, would you still like to book?' and then she was like 'but we want to sit inside' well so do 120 other people. next question. fncndhdhdv literally hilarious

#my boss being like 'be sympathetic. but Firm. outside is the best we can so for an outside garden cafe. if theyre mad about that then thats #on them.' dbchdgdvdvvx god #it was only like 38c today and we already had complaints and that was from ppl sitting inside IN the aircon #apparently sitting there in these conditions were 'foul' fnfbdhfbfg girl u chose to sit there! and for over two hours no less!!!! #anyway i accidentally spilt boiling oil all down my bare leg today and now its been a few hours im like wow that actually hurt huh #m #text

[vodid]

ok i keep seeing awfully targeted vagueposts about me pertaining to my silly idw-exclusionary prowlsweep campaign — which i didn't expect to have gained so much traction and negative reactions — so, while yes, i understand lighthearted jokes may still hit home a little too closely, i'm not responsible for your feelings /neu. but i get it. we're protective of our blorbos and i have a hard time with the jokes too. especially about prowl and especially especially about idw prowl, believe it or not. i do get upset over them, which i suppose was why i ran my campaign like that. many of the polls (from what i could see, i probably missed a lot) were just "my blorbo is so sweet he deserves to win" but swervesweep was solidly "do not vote for prowl he is a shit man" you can't tell me there wasn't some sort of bias because of idw prowl. there's a difference between lifting up a contender and slandering another so horribly. voting because you hate, not because you love.

so yeah, just like some had gotten upset over my campaign (even if it was a joke), i got upset upon seeing all the negative tags (even if they were jokes). i admit to getting defensive and decided to run a funny campaign focused on g1 and tfa, because there was more love for them and i wanted to try to make something a little silly but positive out of it. like "hey, ignore idw for just a second because i promise there are husband-material prowls." i do admit i may have let my saltiness show through that campaign too much, so this is a bit hypocritical of me and i fully acknowledge that.

i got more to say tho shdfdsfs this got long and messy, sorry. i'll put it under a cut. i don't usually talk this in depth about my opinion of idw prowl (or just. any opinion.) ironically for this exact reason but,,

i so desperately want to like idw prowl. i really do. and in some way, i do like him (surprising, i know). but i can't look past the way the writers and the fandom treat him. that's what i truly hate. he gets insanely (and imo undeserved) bad rep and i was just sick and tired of seeing all the unreasonable hate for him from cherrypickers. so if idw prowl is going to severely /neg affect people's opinions of prowl as a whole, then i'd prefer he didn't exist. that's my harsh and albeit a bit childish truth but i'm not sorry for it.

i dislike his portrayal for a number of reasons in that it's just not him to me. i can certainly acknowledge a character doesn't have to be consistently the same every time, and that idw was meant to be an expansion of these characters and what they can be. but it doesn't mean i like the direction they took with him. what they did to him/had him do. it was like they took his core being, what made his character solidly his, threw it at the mirror to reverse it and wondered why it shattered.

if it weren't prowl, i wouldn't have as much of a problem with his character in idw. but unfortunately, he is. in concept, he is a very interesting character with a beautifully tragic story and maybe i would've liked his skrunkly ass /affectionate. but he's just not my rodrick.

also i can't get past the ableism of his portrayal 🫶 that's not a page in my book i'd like to add besties. and not a page i'm getting into in this post.

it goes so much deeper than "wahh big titty cop man is so mean" like cmoooon. i'm not a coward for asking people to look past his wrongdoings in idw they unequivocally hate him for when literally everybody else in idw has in some way done equally bad or worse things ...but are still unconditionally loved? nah. if they can stop their bias for one (1) second, maybe they could see more. thus, idw-exclusionary campaign. in an attempt to get people to stop seeing every prowl as bad. because like i said, idw taints the fuck out of non-idw prowls. how is that any fair? (and how are we prowl lovers supposed to feel seeing all that?)

these are entirely my opinions. i'm entitled to mine just as you are yours, and i am entitled to spin the campaign in any way i want. idw-exclusionary, pro-jazzprowl, boob-loving 💖, what have you. if you didn't like it, then you were more than welcome to start your own campaign alongside me! you didn't have to leave it to me. should i have maybe tried to convince people why idw prowl's wrongdoings don't make him deserving of such hatred? sure, that'd been nice. but i'm not well enough equipped for that. you can do that tho, i'd love to see it

i can't stop you from vagueposting and i won't tell you your opinions are invalid. but if you get to share your thoughts, i'd like to as well. we can both be critical of these topics in our own way and it'd be nice to come to an understanding instead of having to resort to blocking and vagueposting. (me? the coward? /j) you have every right to do that though, especially if its for your own comfort, and i really can't stop you. but it'd be real nice if we didn't outright attack the person and call them names. this problem is bigger than me. i just happened to speak on it.

all in all, it's not that serious of a situation — or rather, i wish it wasn't and i'm upset that i'm even writing this. i shouldn't have to write this, but you guys cannot for the life of yourselves understand the basic reason behind the campaign. or do you just refuse to? did you think to ask why?

we're both protective of prowl. idw or not. we were on the same team and it's not an awful thing to want to encourage people to consider other prowls before idw. i want them to see he can be good! i want them to see what i see in him. he's just a little blorbo man and it's funny in a bit of a sad way that i'm getting so heated over a fictional character and a silly poll.

sorry to poll ops. i didn't want it to spiral like that. i truly did have a lot of fun running my little campaign, even if it looked a bit (lightheartedly) aggressive. i just wanted my blorbo to win fandom favor for once 💔 jazz vs prowl would have been absolutely hilarious too. even as a non-j/p shipper, i hope you'll agree it'd have been funny to see us losing our minds over having to choose but that's besides the point!

in the end (it didn't even matter) we're all robot lovers. and it's sad we tend to have such a difficult time getting along. i'm here to make art and it's all supposed to be fun and games.

sorry to my many new followers too, this isn't the best first impression. i try to keep this stuff off my blog. i hope u like my art and thanks for sticking around — yes, even u swervesweepers (you absolute TRAITORS /lh /lh 💕)

take care of yourselves

#prowlsweep #tf tumblr fandom is massively idw leaning i shouldnt have expected this to turn out any other way 💀 #i just saw the opportunity to try to get him to win since he got demolished in the first husband poll over on twt #long post #whoops #honestly idw as a whole isn't for me. not just because of the writing but i also hsdfsdfs struggle with comics in general #they're very difficult for me to parse. so i rely on word of mouth and that mouth paints prowl in a horrid light like makes me go :( #and (tldr) i get upset over it #i'm very over prowl being seen as inherently bad and now i'm already very over being called a coward for a joke LOL #i was just gonna let this whole thing boil over but idk. i think i need to talk about it. therapy 🫶 #somebodys gonna find something wrong with my post but at this point i don't think i care. it's not my problem anymore. #u get a cookie and a smooch from prowl if u read it all

[daz4i]

i know aging isn't the end of the world and 24 isn't that old and life isn't a race etc etc etc. however,

#i think a big reason i feel so bad abt being this age is ppl told me this is when things start to get better #and i still feel the same way i did as a teenager so. well. is it really 😐 #(being on t probably isn't helping but it's been over 3 years already so... not an excuse i think) #but I'm also physically aging like the reason i barely upload selfies anymore is i see myself getting uglier every day #despite fighting for my life to at least take care of my face and hair...... can't fight the passage of time 😔 #+ ofc. my (younger) friends being way more sorted out than i am on every level #again ik life isn't a race but. it can't help but hurt to know I'm still behind literally everyone i know #and my excuses for that aren't even good. bc other disabled ppl my age are also more sorted out than i am #other depressed ppl other borderlines other autistics etc etc. hell these are also my irl friends 😭 #and it's dumb. bc feeling like i wasted my life isn't really pushing me to change that now. just makes me want to die even more #(bc i mean what's the point. i will never catch up. I'm still at the starting line AND i move so slow it doesn't even count) #(i don't have a single milestone ppl my age have not even finishing high school which is like. the bare minimum) #(and it sucks bc i also know i have potential i KNOW i can do shit in theory i know I'm smart and got skills. but i can't put it to use) #(and now this is turning into less of a thing abt age and just generally me talking abt how i wasted the last 24 years) #this was more of a stressed rant abt how I'm turning ugly and feeling super old but well. it all boils down to self loathing at the end 👍 #vent #negative // #ask to tag #sorry for being so depressing all day oof ik i already said it before but it's been a rough couple of months #(nothing happened my brain just needs to get flushed down the toilet ^_^) #edit: i think. part of my panic about aging. is bc as a kid i was used to being the youngest everywhere #i was the youngest in my class bc i started school a year early. i was the youngest in acting school bc they don't normally accept teenagers #and in addition to that as an adult but before starting t i was always told that i LOOK young too #but now ik i look like I'm in my 20s. and it's killing me that i aged this much in so little #i wonder if shaving my beard will help but i don't wanna get misgendered 😐😐😐 and rn it's the only thing guarding me from that

[cruisingheightswithdragons]

I love being unemployed I don’t have to work.

I hate being unemployed I have no source of income.

#cruising says things #haven’t heard back from a single job I applied for no interviews no nothing #the frustration I feel is starting to boil over augh just give me a job already!!!!!!!!

[damazcuz]

saying this as a doormat but SOME OF my coworkers treated me really badly today =_= and im mad and i want to tell our boss. i went in in severe pain on four hours sleep because i didnt want my team to be down a person. and then i had to send two other people home for medical related reasons. and we should have been fine with the remaining five people, but of the three of us meant to do a certain set of tasks today, the other two just bailed on me and let me drown. one of them said that "there's no point" in her helping take some of the workload to at least START doing anything to help. because she has part of tomorrow booked for volunteer hours. i don't know what she did other than crochet today and delegate tasks SHE should have been doing to ME. while i tried to keep up with dozens of new requests. the other person also just didn't do any new work. i have no idea what she did for her shift. like i can't stress enough that i've been in really bad pain for over 19 hours now since i woke up and i feel like i just got kicked around all day. by my own team. it just kind of sucked a lot. not very niceys.

#the one who said 'theres no point' in doing her job is also trying to get them to let her go work from home unsupervised. #🧍‍♂️ whatre you gonna do from home that you dont already do at work miss knitting. miss crochet. miss doesnt do her job. #sorry i had too much time to think about how upset i am and it boiled over

[theygender]

Catch me in the kitchen at midnight fighting for my life trying to open a jar of goddamn pickles bc my femme already went to sleep so I can't ask her to open it for me

#let me tell yall i came THIS 👌 CLOSE to just fucking smashing the glass open #i may have sprained a muscle in my arm #the battle was INTENSE and i was already weary from rushing through my final exam 10 minutes prior #but i came out VICTORIOUS with the help of near boiling water #splattered vinegar all over the counter in the process like it was bloodshed #unhinged and growling #anyway ive got the pickles now #rambling

[orcelito]

Ykno the common critique I've seen around is that trimax fights r hard to follow & such. And I've always had the kind of thought of like "I mean sometimes it can be confusing, but if u stop to study it it's really not that bad"

Having a fight analysis post kinda blow up tho I'm seeing ppl comment over and over in the tags about how hard it is to keep up with the fights... and I'm just like. Is it really that confusing? Like genuinely. I thought it was one of those overblown fan critiques but it seems like a Lot of people agree with it.

#speculation nation #in the original manga Yea fights were pretty hard. took me a Lot of squinting to figure out what actually happened with the Nebraskas #but idk most of the fights r just vibes. u follow along and feel what the characters r feeling and the fine details dont matter. #a lot of times i do end up flipping back and forth between pages bc there r details revealed later on that make earlier things make sense #or just looking for clarification. that kind of thing. #so yeah it kinda does take some work to fully understand it but i kinda figured that's like... how manga fights go... #i much prefer this over the common shounen trope of stopping the fight to explain every single move that's done #so im just like 'come ON i already understood it!!! can we keep going already????' #is it the fact that nightow doesnt do this that makes it so confusing??? so ppl dont get the play by play as it happens??? #this all probably sounds obnoxious but im just genuinely trying to make sense of it. #i guess im also just a perceptive person when im paying attention to smth. maybe that's what it ultimately boils down to. #one person commented saying theyd kill if i did play by plays for all the trimax fights lol #i probably wont for All of them bc that sounds like quite a project #but if another catches my attention in this same sorta way... then maybe. #i guess understanding nightow's fights is a skill. probably at least partially assisted by being able to read the sound effects. #oh yeah. that's another thing lol. i can read the sound effects. and that especially helps with knowing how many shots there are #stuff like that. 🤔 yea i dunno. i wasnt expecting that post to get so many notes. #but it's well over 400 now and still counting. waking up to 99+ notifications is... an experience lmao

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#holy fuck. i dont think ive ever been so angry for so long #i got the email abt the change to the end of this experiment at like 7.30am and i was like crying while i was watering #and that dispair consolidated into anger over the course of the day. by like 2pm i was like possessed #by the spirit of a angsty teen boy and wanted to punch some holes in drywall. i was so fucking angry #and the 1st email i got back was like: well u can do sunday/monday for extra measurements if u want #and i was like fucking WHAT? why the fuck cant i just start thr fucking dry down tomorrow? #literally why??? fucking why????? the other half of the experiment is drying tomorrow so what the actual fuck??? #and apparently it just didnt occure to them that we could do both at once. and they wanted to give me the option of a break #which. i appreciate the sentiment but jesus fucking christ u have no idea the atrocity we just avoided #if i had to drag this out until Wednesday i genuinely dont know what i woulf have done. if i had to drag this out until Wednesday only to #find out i didnt have to. i dunno. i would probably have thrown a tantrum like a child. god. ive been here like 10.5hrs now and 1 more to #go. fucking editing and emailing and fixing stupid shit. and my boss is like: email the editor both proofs so he can show reviewers the #changes. as he stated in his email. and im like fucking: ok. ok. ok. ill fucking do it but he has the 1st fucking proof already and the #fucking production office just asked me to send the 2nd proof which i already fucking sent. so maybe its just i cant fucking read #ugh. im not mad at her. this isnt her fault. im just unwell. ugh. i dont wanna b around ppl this week. i dont wanna have to pretend to be #a person. just leave me alone to cry in my freezing apartment as i let all my problems boil over #unrelated