#i wish that could be real so badly

[smiggles]

.

#hfff.. #rrrffff... #nnmmmgg.. #that one made me really REALLY want to rp with you uufff... #i wish that could be real so badly #i want to feel that #rfff... #///// #ill think of u next time #and hope i dont hurt myself again LOL #rrff.. #smigglesask #butterflyask

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman. #there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind. #the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

[the-prussian-nap]

Day 23, Dreams

Emmet dreaming of his future friend and dream job!

#monthofemmet #submas #subway boss emmet #emmet #kid submas #eelektross #Emmet was probably one of those kids that knew exactly what he wanted in the future #which good for him #It’s good to have something to work towards #I am verry late and behind #i haven’t skipped day 21 and 22 I just bit off more than I could chew and tried to make a comic strip type of thing for the first time #so im just failing behind lol #anyways #I remembed those old post from a year or two ago where emmet had the Eelektross equivalent of Blåhaj #which I wish was real because I want one soo badly #so I thought it’d be cute if the reason Emmet had an Eelektross was because of his childhood toy #truly best friends forever #Naps art

[elusiveclownbox]

SOME ANDREIL/NEIL/ANDREW CODED SONGS (in my humble opinion)(with links to listen)

(because i have the biggest brainrot, they’re also just great songs so please give them a listen!)

Neath The Grove Is A Heart

Yaelokre

“Home is where we are now. Home is where you are. Home is where I am standing. Where I'Il be staying forever now”

this entire post is just gonna be my biased interpretations of songs but honestly the entire song gives vibes to me…the places that one would refer to as “home” being a constant ever changing cycle of different places, never being able to stay and settle in a physical place. but finding a home in someone else.

Room By Room

Shayfer James (I’ve almost exclusively been listening to him, so the rest of the songs are his oops)

“If the keys in my hand turned a lock of your hair I would walk through the glance, but I'd stop at the stare. And I'd follow it down To the very last step and I'd wait by the room where your secrets are kept”

THOSE ARE THE FIRST LYRICS cmon mannnn,,,learning the brutal past of someone you love as they allow you in, do i even need to say it?

First Date

Shayfer James

“Tell me your story, and I'll tell you mine, I think we will get along fine. Tell me your riddle, I'll tell you my rhyme, I think we will get along fine. And if the rules change, don't hesitate to say you've had enough of me”

It’s literally the whole beginning of their relationship, a truth for truth, trade for trade. The game of, maybe not necessarily originally trust, but of mutual understanding that grows into trust and respect.

Your Father’s Son

Shayfer James

“So if you're any good at bluffing, I suggest you do it quick 'cause everyone is next to nothing, and every tock will have a tick. It fits so well. What you've become is your father's son which will never be much of anyone”

Oh Neil, you poor boy cowering in the shadow of your father, his legacy locked within your image and the face you share with him. No matter what new name and identity you create, you know your father will never be far behind, you will always be his son. At least, that’s how it used to be.

Learning to Be Lost

Shayfer James

“I am a plagiarized autobiography of wreckage, a shipwreck in sheep's clothes. Be patient with me, I am learning to be lost. Don't be gentle. Never gentle. Be mindful of me, I will sink at any cost”

This I feel resonates more with Andrew, but one could argue resonates with both. They both have tortured pasts that are unspeakable to almost all but each other, but Andrew shoves that past and those memories behind a face of calm indifference and apathy. But they are both navigating a relationship with each other that they are unfamiliar with, and didn’t necessarily intend to enter. As they reveal bit and bit of their pasts, they don’t want pity or sympathy, their pasts are what created them and they refuse to be treated as though they are broken, especially Andrew.

Lullaby

Shayfer James & Kate Douglas

“People can't be trusted and we have to fight to stay alive. We'll always be the enemy, oh. Eye for eye and limb for limb, The blood that I've been swimming in, oh. Mother, I've grown tired of this. Mother, I've grown tired of this. There's beauty and there's empathy, some people might've cared for me. I hid my heart, and stayed inside, instead of moving with the tide”

THIS IS ALLLLL NEIL BABYYY. Blindly continuing to follow his mother’s words and advice, she kept him safe for so long after all (in her own way). He trusted that she loved him, wanted to protect him, but he missed out on so much because of her. Missed out on friends and life in general, people who might have been able to actually help him. If it wasn’t for meeting people more stubborn than him, for wanting to just exist for once, he could’ve been on the run and never settling for so much longer. Or have died.

Carve A Smile

Shayfer James

“And with every kiss you make a better man of me. The safe disguise of accidental lies won’t hide us here, no more, my dear. And I would sacrifice the air that makes my body breathe, if it keeps you safe”

They are both so willing to put themselves in harms way to protect the other, even before they came to realize just how much the other meant to them. Andrew with the intention of winning, and Neil half the time not caring if he ends up dead as long as Andrew is alright.

PLEASE DROP YOUR OWN SONG REQS i love good music.

anyway if anyone has actually made it to this point thank you for listening to my babbling. I can associate any and every song i listen to to whatever i am currently hyper fixating on and i need to express it outwardly. Hopefully yall like the music at least, even if you disagree with my interpretations!

#I cannot express how badly i wish i could animate or make comics so i could really show people what i see when i hear these songs #pls give me song recs #i see and hear them everywhere #i cant escape #i love them #the brainrot is real #andreil #andrew minyard #neil josten #aftg #neil aftg #andrew aftg #all for the game #the foxhole court #music #aftg trilogy #nora sakavic

[roomy-ghosted]

hey, don't cry, blood in the bayou video game okay?

[read tags for actual info]

#technically not real; it's a mod for a different game called 'World of Horror' a friend and I are working on for ourselves. #so note: the only art that's really mine is the rand art and the bugged person on the last picture. The rest is the game's framework. #but i am very very obsessed with my silly rand sprites #as well as the bug event i coded; aough #jrwi bitb #bitb #blood in the bayou #just roll with it #timothy rand #jrwi rand #jrwi blood in the bayou #And yeah! I like them a lot- Playing as Rand with Eternal web is SO much as its the closest thing you can get to the bugs #i know my friend's making a mystery based around becky or an event around her; i REALLY wanna make a full mystery set for bitb #like the full 5; maybe some more #then i can LITERALLY play through galloway. #it'd be hype. #i so badly wish you could make custom gods and items though #and the home screen #id replace the plant with a bong for rand #I also REALLY wanna code milo and bizly into it

[lanternlightss]

if we ever get nameless bard’s model, i really, really hope at one point we get him framed in the lighting like this (a call back to him surrounded by light in the boy and whirlwind? put upon a pedestal? or the bard, a guiding light from past...)

#HYV I BEG !!!!!! #the brainrot is real bc this was indeed my first thought upon seeing this 😭 #me seeing a character with a halo of light around them: (POINTS) JUST LIKE THE BARD IN THE BOY AND THE WHIRLWIND CUTSCENE TIMESTAMP 0:50 #or !!! or. hear me out here #yknow how in vens story quest when .. honestly im assuming ven opening up one of his domains?? #how the light shines on him ?? #hyv ….. you want to parallel these bards soooo badly. listen ……. #spreading seeds of hope for a better future … a gentle hand forward #a bard who so wished to see his dreams come true. to see them /tangible/ #you’ve succeeded! look how you succeeded! is it all that you ask for? (what more could you want?) #why do you tremble? why do you hesitate? #look at your painting upon the wall. centuries pasts. the sun is now painting you the same way #hrm #thoughts. Thoughts. #lantern says stuff #sorry if this doesn’t make sense it’s like 1am for me dhdjd #lantern talks about the bard and divinity being cast upon him via idolization part 33

[eggmeralda]

2013 was so cool

#i'm still not over it ending tbh #2022 me peaked in life but she ended badly and wishes she was 2019 me #2019 me was so happy but she wishes she was as genuine as 2015 me #2015 me was having a good time but she had to rely on sleep deprivation to be happy and wishes she could be as naturally happy as 2013 me #2013 me thought she was so cool. and maybe she was right #this isn't even me depressing timeposting i'm just listening to my 2013 playlist #so many bangers so many shit songs. her music taste. her mind... #but yeah i remember getting such a vaguely weird but negative feeling on 31 dec 2013 bc it was ending. so real tbh #ramble

[theeultimatelifeform]

I love you Pride flag with the Diversity, Sex, and Magic stripes, I love you Gilbert Baker.

#fuckkkkkkk i'm thinking abt this flag bro its so good #i love you Gilbert Baker i'm so insane about this flag #i wish i could email him and tell him how badly i love this flag. rest in peace Mr. Baker #tearing up over this flag it's so real I love you 9 striped Pride Flag i love you i love you #keep talkin miles

[suuho]

🐰

#he cannot be REAL #like i met him but he cannot be real 😭 #god he looks SOOOO good #i wish i could see mozart so badly 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #kaz talks

[chaosduckies]

Would you rather be four inches tall, or 50 feet tall? And why?

Oooo easy answer

Four inches tall obviously. Mostly because I’m already short in real life, but also because like, could you imagine a four inch tall gremlin just throwing herself at dangerous situations?

Oh you put me on top of a counter? Im just gonna try and climb back down on my own without any sort of rope or safety equipment. I LIVE for the adrenaline rush.

I guess I would also love for someone to hug me close or help me stay asleep by holding me or something since I have really bad insomnia. I’m just one of those people who likes being hugged. I would pretty much be like a therapist tiny as well. You need something to hold? I got you. (Or you got me :D)

Just so you know, if I’m four inches tall and you’re the person I’m hanging out with, expect to have some heart attacks and good times :D

Thank you for the ask anon!

#g/t #Duck asks #thank you for the ask anon! #But yeahhh four inches is my answer #I’m just a little adrenaline junkie #Even my real life friends are scared that I might hurt myself badly #And I’m not even four inches #Ahhh #i just wish it could come true #I would give so many people heart attacks #Then again it would be so funny #The NEED to be held close is just aghhh #At four inches tall I could do all of that hahaa #Little bit of a ramble #But thank you for the ask again! #love you guys ❤️

[the-way-astray]

holding out hope . . . don’t act like it’s set in stone . . . it’s not . . . yet . . .

(much ranting in the tags)

#kotlc #yes this is about the POSSIBLE keefe short story collection or book or novella about his time in the forbidden cities emphasis on POSSIBLE #i can’t deal with anymore keefe content guys i can’t do it anymore there’s already too much #let me OUTTTTTTT shannon i just wanna be done with this series stop holding me hostage let me FREEEEE /hj #if it's keefe-centric and away from the main story why can’t she just release it AFTER the series is finished? like this is SOPHIE'S story #obviously with the baby and whatnot i’d be cool with her not releasing a book for another year but releasing extras IN PLACE of a REAL book #i don't understand /gen #if she has the energy to write a book why doesn't she just write the next one #it might not be that tho that's just a possibility obviously i'm just curious #in the case that this extra is going to be released in the place of book ten this year it's like well. why doesn't she just do book ten #i wish i could say 'i'm not a keefe hater but this is too much keefe content' but i am a keefe hater so #IT'S FINE IT MIGHT NOT BE THAT MAYBE WE'RE ALL SUPER WRONG AND SHANNON'S JUST HAVING A SILLY GOOFY TIME #also even if this IS a special announcement we could still get book ten news? along with the announcement? mayhaps? #manifesting book ten news along with the special announcement please shannon #sigh hoping praying manifesting anything not keefe #if it is a short story collection i cannot tell you how BADLY i want it to be the adults' backstories #like i'm rereading unlocked rn and grady edaline alden and della all have so many blank spots in their registry files??? #an extra could fill those in . . . just saying . . . #also the ancients #the ancients are super interesting . . . just saying . . . #luzia's pyrokinetic friend! fallon and luzia's mom! fintan (possibly) throwing vespera in the dungeon! luzia and vespera light experiments! #fallon and the other two on the original council! bronte and fintan's relationship! fintan and luzia's relationship! #bronte working under fallon as an emissary! them going to meet the ogre king! luzia and orem's relationship! why orem doesn't like his mom! #so many possibilities . . . come on shannon . . . please . . . #give us this . . . just this . . . #throw a great gulon incident short story in there to keep the keefe stans happy and then get into the juicy stuff #begging pleading imploring shannon to hear my prayers #anyway #if we manifest no keefe content there won't be keefe content <- lying

[naamahdarling]

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#real sad about a trivial thing #and unable to seek emotional support right now because the only person who really understands is currently Experiencing Bad Things #and needs to not be subjected to my sadness #but man it fucking breaks my heart #there's a showing of CATS the musical here on new years eve and the nosebleeds are not sold out and i want to go so very badly #but so much in the house is broken and I can't justify it #and i want it so much #i love the musical you guys #and what a way to close out s tough year and bring in something better #i wish i could #i wish i could so much #damn this hurts a lot worse than i thought it did #oh man

[skunkg1rll]

i cant stop thinking abt him... have been doing that all daynd i feel so sad nd my heart hurtsso bad nd i long for him sm it's just a bad day :((

#it's bc i saw that he #uploaded his background which was just nothing. and said that he feels empty #and a couple of months ago before i ruined it all #he said that he had me as his background #so now i feel so fkn sad #i dont know why im like this but i feel so crazy about him i wanna die #i think about him constantly and i'venever ever wanted to be with or know someone this badly #and to know that he sees me as a disappointment... and not good enough for him... and that he doesnt love me enough to wanna fix it #or even have a 'it' with me #hurts so bad #so now im just in an awful headspace... #i hate myself so much #i wish i could go back and not do what i did #i did it bc i thought it'd bring me closer to him #but i was wrong and i didnt understand that until now #and instead it caused him to think im not what he thought i was or what he wants me to be #and no matter how much i try to explain i realize thatonly i understand #bcmy brains broken and no one could ever understand why i do what i do #i am alone. always and forever i will never know closeness or intimacy #the thing is thatbefore i met him i was fine w that #i kinda longed for it but i had resigned myself to a life without it #then i met him nd it felt real nd like it could bereal for me #plus i genuinely like him sm i feel sm for him so i desperately want it w him #but then..... it turned out that im not good enough for him #it just rlly hurts that the ONLY time i've ever wanted someone #and it started w them wanting me back #who i am was a disappointment nd i fucked it up bc of a misunderstanding #that i cant clear up bc i cant make anyone understand my fucked up broken reasoning #i will bealone forever and i just wanna die

[skenpiel]

wish i was a witch for real that would be so badass. god i would do anything for a magic broom

#legitimately my biggest wish like if i found a genie thatd be the first thing id ask #id be like ok make me a witch i have to be able to use magic wands and make potions and have flying brooms and talk to cats #god. god. god. god. god. god. god. none of you understand how badly i wish i were a witch. #i wish i had a flying bbroom so bad like the rest of the stuff would be awesome too but magic broom is like number 1........... #god i want it so bad. i want it so bad im tearing up /srs #waaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh waaaaaaaaaaaahhhh waaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahahaahahhhhhhhhhhhhh #i dont care about anything else i had a dream the other week that i had a magic broom #and what i did was fly out at night and overlook the forest where i grew up and then smoked hella weed up there #i was getting LITERALLY wizard high #i wish so badly i had a magic broom none of you could even understand how badly i want it #in the dream i also snuck out by just opening my window and taking flight........ #i wish that was real. i cant leave the house undetected anymore i used to be able to in my old house but now i cant #i dont need it as much anymore so it isnt a very big problem but it still bums me out #if i had a magic broom none of that would matter........ i want one SO BAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i wish i could lucid dream and then i could fly on a broom everyday all the time. UGH!!!!!! #seriously i want to be able to lucid dream...... if i could do that whenever i wanted i would be unstoppable #and also unwakeable. lol #i would never want to do anything else but at least i wouldnt need booze to make me not feel like shit so itd be better still -_- #me and madotsuki r holding hands btw were like the same exact person

[infiniteseriesofhalfways]

Hey, I know the fandom's long gone now and you're not on here as much, but I just wanted to tell you I'm really glad I got to meet you through AH. Your writing for fahc stuff always made me smile and I still have a bunch of it saved in my drafts cause I used to go back and re-read it so much, every so often I think about the think about the writing prompt you did once for Michael, Gavin and Jeremy with "the happiest we ever were" and it makes me feel some sort of way I can't even describe. Anyway, you're really cool and an amazing writer and I'm very lucky I got to share a fandom space with you <3

First, thank you so much, this is incredibly sweet (and flattering) and although I know it might be lame to say back at you, I mean... back at you. I'm pretty sure I'm the lucky one here, because I'm just some guy who wrote some words one time, and yet it introduced me to some of the best people I've known, yourself included.

I think back on that time so often, and I'm always wishing to go back to it, to not have let myself lose it. It was so much fun and it brought me so much joy I can't even begin to put it into words.

I could go on and on about how much the fandom means to me, but suffice it to say I am forever grateful to have shared the space with you, and you're in my heart always 💚💚

#this is less sappy but as I'm typing this 'stressed out' by 21 pilots is on and it's like... #'wish we could turn back time/ to the good old days' yeah man I feel that. #also in case anyone wondered #yes I am still as awkward as I've ever been. #for real though I think about this stuff...constantly. I miss having that connection. #and whenever I write stuff that's like... tangentially related/inspired by the fahc writing we all did #I want so badly to have someone to share it with like I did then #apologies that this became me rambling but some things never change you know?

[citrus-soda]

#professor layton #hershel layton #I so badly wish there was canon photo of Layton playing basketball so I could do a real ‘never be ballin’ meme #guess I’ll have to make do