#i wish this was all just a bad dream

[shebrakesforrainbows]

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#i was so in love with you. so blind that i never realized you were never really here #you never loved me the way i loved you. if you loved me you wouldn't have left me to rot #left me to rot like a garbage bag of organs and tears #how could you do this to me #why would you choose my abuser over me #you saw the way i was afraid of her. you listened to me have a breakdown. #but it was entertainment to you. because of all the times you left me to suffer alone while i was screamed at and bullied #i don't want to wake up anymore #i don't want to live like this anymore #there's no point to anything #i wish my parents loved me #i wish i had friends #i wish you chose me #i wish this was all just a bad dream #please god. just make it all go away #i can't breathe.

[lotus-pear]

lore accurate chuuya canonically drives a 2006 sparkly barbie motorcycle

#for the love of god someone pls take away my artist privileges #this came to me in a fever dream except i wasn't actually sick just delusional #the pink leather jacket was a gift from kouyou for his sixteenth birthday and he's obliged to wear it everytime he takes the motorcycle out #dazai finds it absolutely fucking hilarious and probably takes blackmail photos except you can't blackmail a bad bitch like chuuya so #every time you open his photos he's probably the only one getting embarrassed bc it's all pics of his partner👹 #anyway he looks so bbygirl in pink i wish he changed his outfit for smth other than official art #but alas #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #lotus draws

[magnusbae]

On the rare occasions when Hob is actually mad at Dream— he refuses to sleep. Coffee, energy drinks and the God forsaken awakeness pills? All fair game. If he has to inject caffeine directly into his vein, he would. Hob doesn't often get mad, but when he does, he likes to make a point. Dream and Hob match in more than one ways, really, they do. And so it is that the Dream Lord must come out of his realm personally to sprinkle sand into his lover's eyes because he'd be damned if Hob refuses his gift for more than two nights in a row. Not speaking for 100 years? Easy. Hob refusing sleep? Unacceptable.

#Dreamling #Fixed tags: #Dream creating Hob an entire GALAXY in the Dreaming to placate him but Hob has none of this— he refuses to enjoy it. #Dream getting offended that his lover does not appreciates his good graces is like— Well I can also give you a nightmare :| #And Hob just: #'Maybe just don't say that I will eventually stop loving you 🙄🙄🙄 Hob about that- huh.' #Dream: I meant not to insult you— it is merely how humans /are/. Most entities cannot stay with me for long. (The will not is unsaid) #Hob: You're such an idiot. #Hob would cross his arms and try to stay mad with him but he simply CANNOT. #Dream is being genuine— perhaps a genuine idiot— but genuine nevertheless. #He would sigh and finally come over to Dream and he'd take his hands into his and pull him close to himself. #He has to stand up taller— because here in the Dreaming his lover is taller than in the waking. #It's nearly at his tiptoes that he lands a soft kiss at Dream's lips. #Hob: Just because you had /shitty/ exes doesn't mean /I/ have to be #For the matter— I rather not be your ex at all. #Dream attempts denying all his exes being bad but Hob just keeps on kissing him insistently #Like hell he's allowing his lover dwell in the feeling that no one stays— EVEN IF HE DID SPIKE HIS ANGER METER LIKE HELLA #Dream: You will leave me because you're human Hob's anger: 📈📈📈📈 #But he's not really mad he just wishes Dream to trust him is all. #I mean Dream is JUST the center of his entire world #but you know #anyways those tags are meant to be read separately I was just having some crack fun #the original tags gotten horribly out of order and were an absolute mess so I had to rewrite it for it to make any sense at all #so some of the chaotic insanity been lost XDDD #anyways yes XD #buns.hc

[thwackk]

something. eeugh

#halbarry #hal jordan #barry allen #my art lol #i was feelimg sad abt them okay #i wish i had more time on my hands to make things look nice and pretty school sucks so bad #euggh #they suck. #hal is kinda dreaming here i was gonna make it a mini comic thing but i gave up and just colored this part #i always draw shitty halbarry angst when i’m upset and i feel so fucking cringe abt it every time #LMAO #green lantern #the flash #all my art is so FUCKING BLURRY FOR SOME REASON

[charles-edwin]

Hi, it’s Force. I just need to tell you guys, thank you for watching the series and for letting me into your heart. Without you guys as my emotional support, I wouldn’t be here today. All the love you give me, I’ll keep it with me forever. I don’t know what the future holds, but you need to know that I love all of you.

Hello, it’s Book. It’s very nice to meet all of you, both those who have been here all this time, and those who have just met me. Thank you for all the love on both my good days and bad days, and thank you for supporting my dreams. So please don’t forget to follow your dreams too. Love yourself and smile a lot of days that the world isn’t too nice to you. I love you and know that I’m also here for you. See you.

#am i upset i didn’t get the abaab dvd boxset? absolutely #anyways. these messages are just. so them and so lovely #force wanting to tattoo his love for us into our brains #and book telling us to smile even on bad days when he and force have given us nothing but happiness and joy #despite the world treating them badly often #i always say that they take all the hate they get and turn them into love and kindness to give back to us and it’s not an overstatement #they always protect our smiles and i wish i could protect theirs too #i wish i could make all of their dreams come true :( #forcebook #a boss and a babe #mj talks

[dracaelus]

From The Uncanny X-men #200

This godamn issue, I swear to god- !!

I'm crying my fucking heart out. This was just too good. It broke my heart

#are you afraid? and with good reason #charles i'm not worthy-- of your trust of this awesome responsibility #please do not ask for what i cannot give #DAMN THE DIALOG IN THIS IS JUST TOO GOOD #THIS IS MY ROMAN EMPIRE #it will be hard. consider the alternative. well? I shall try #suppose I fail and betray your dream--?! OUR dream blast you! #I gave you my word charles come what may I will be true to it #all of this is rotating inside my head #kinda healing my traumas with how bad dc handled ghostmaker's redemption also #<- just kidding i'm still pissed #anyway this is a banger #issue 199 was also amazing #i don't think i'll ever be normal about this scene between erik and charles #i mean liked what they did in the x-men show but god- !!!!! wish i could have seen this #drac panels #marvel comics #magneto #charles xavier #cherik #x-men #the uncanny x-men

[wigglebox]

Suptober - Day 23;

Sleepless Nights

#spnfanart #destiel #destiel fanart #spn fanart #suptober22 #wiggleart #bad dreams and a comforting hug after! #these scenes always pull at my heartstrings tbh #also man trying to figure out Cas and his pose drove me nuts #but I feel good about it now #also I loved all the baby jack images and I wish I thought of that too! #but also these scenes like the one I drew always make me super emotional lol #idk who is comforting who here. maybe just both comforting each other

[terracyte]

"let the hunter be safe, let them find comfort. and let this dream, their captor... foretell a pleasant awakening. be one day, a fond, distant memory.”

“farewell, good hunter. wake, now.”

sandman x bloodborne rotting my brain-

morpheus feeling deeply for all the tortured souls trapped in this nightmare realm. for the hunters whom he grants waking from their horrific pact to the hunter's dream. for the once-been humans turned beasts whom he gifts a final, peaceful, dreamless sleep.

#i am not done here i have much to say abt this #this started as drawing morpheus as eileen....but then it devolved fr #opening line to bloodborne 'think of it all as a bad dream' #well. homeboy here is going to help u out you tortured unfortunate soul #the hunters dream is bound to you no more #also hi if u like sandman please talk to me about it im dying also bloodborne yes talk to me abt that too if u wish #anyway i WILL continue to be annoying about this just watch me #i need megasized matthew in this bloodborne style #alSO #darkbeast paarl im fuckinnnnnn #hes so cool #that skull???? #ITS ACTUALLY HIS SNOUT #SICK AS FUCK #bloodborne #the sandman #morpheus #dream of the endless #darkbeast paarl #eileen the crow #bro i simp so bad for her i love her #need to draw her too tbh #anyway #terra art #cw skull

[8rujaa]

i swear i have the worst nightmares when i feel my best mentally. what the fuck is up with that

#let me be happy u stupid fucking brain #i had so many weird dreams last night #one was kinda cool although the plot was weird and stressful #my mom lived in this weird old house which funny enough i’ve dreamt about this specific house before and it always belongs to my mom #she had filled up her shower all the way and i went to use the bathroom and she had two giant PINK koi fish swimming in there #like what the fuck 🤣 #she said they had gotten so big she needed a new aquarium for them #and then it got scary and traumatic and the rest of the dream had nothing to do with the fish #but it made me want an aquarium so so bad like ughhh i wish i could have a huge aquarium with pretty fish #it just makes me sad for the fish idk if they live happy lives in a box i hope they do maybe they don’t notice?? lmao idk nothing abt fish #brain vomit

[brookheimer]

what is it with this past 24 hours and absolutely baffling takes on the last episode

#like y’all think kendall had every right to ignore rome’s wishes to not have the abuse leaked bc roman is living in a dream world where #logan wasn’t abusive and needs to be brought back down to reality???????? y’all think he loses the ability to have a stake in this decision #bc his abuse is so deeply internalized that he excuses logan’s actions for it??????? it’s one thing to say ken made the smart move but it’s #a whooooole other one to act like he didn’t even do anything bad at all. you do realize they explicitly mentioned leaking the physical #abuse right? you do realize rome was the only one (we know at least) to have been phys abused? you think kendall is right to leak that info #to the masses?????? that would literally define roman’s life. like he’d be The Roy That Logan Beat. how the fuck is he supposed to grieve #his very-recently-dead father let ALONE heal from his abuse if roman’s forced to relive it in the public eye 2 days after logan dies #like the experience of having that leaked will be infinitely worse roman than for kendall bc he will be singled out as the only one logan #hated enough to beat and boy do tabloids love physical abuse and kendall is WAY closer to coming to terms w the abuse than roman who #really really needs to work through that shit before idk it becomes public domain #like idk if that’s what WILL happen but it certainly fuckin could. we have no rzn to think it wouldn’t!!!! #this isn’t like a Uniquely Evil Move from ken or anything it’s a pretty classic succession maneuver i’m not saying he’s the devil or smth #like… at all. but it’s still not a Great Thing To Do? especially to roman????? #seen this take multiple diff times now. insane <3 #it’s wrong to act like this is the single worst thing any character haa ever done (a take i have not seen but i digress) but it is also very #wrong to act like it literally wasn’t even bad #seen this take at least four times so i’m not talkin ab any one person or thing in particular just like… dude. cmon #succession #succession spoilers

[chloeseyeliner]

help, now that i have stopped tearing up at every mention of the series, the young royals forever documentary and the bts videos have brought my past obsession with film-making back-

#beware: rambling ahead!!! #so when i was in high school a secret dream of mine was to go to film school #because i was mesmerised by the whole process of writing and directing and everything the crew typically does during filming #and i was reading so much stuff about all the different angles and symbolism and the like #but of course my mother wouldn't let me #(very neil perry of me lmao) #and i mean i was trying to be realistic too #because i don't come from money and greece is not exactly a great place to be an artist #(since i wouldn't be able to go abroad and chase my dreams or something like that i am not the main character in a disney movie) #so like i threw this dream into the bin along with being an astronaut (i was bad at physics because no one ever explained anything to me- #-before last year of high school i still don't know how i technically aced my uni entering physics exam lol ANYWAY) #and don't get me wrong #i like the path i have chosen now (which was at the beginning at least also against my mother's wishes but she thinks it 'has money' so- #-she 'allowed it' as if- i won't say anything worse i'll regret later i'll just leave it be) #i like it very much because i can help people and maybe contribute to making this world a better place #i just... #i watched the documentary some days ago and it's all i can think about (along with the show of course) #like i LOVE the cast #but the crew is magnificent as well #what they create is like magic #anyway #young royals #filmmaking

[skunkes]

I mean this vent completely neutrally and as an observation rather than Woe is Me negativity but going ham in my sketchbook has been Fun but along with not really Learning anything (tho historically no art knowledge ever sticks to my brain) I'm no closer to understanding how I WANT to draw! if that makes sense.

I dont really identify with or want to continue any of the patterns I try (nor do they get any more muscle memory-y, in the fundamentals area).

Its fine as long as its Fun but I really feel the aimlessness. Like I'll keep going but I've also. Been doing that. All I do is Keep Going, when does it all tetris together!

#continuation of this is like. idk how to trust my eyes if im being honest! and im understanding rules but not how to break em #like how i understand that in realistic proportions theres as much space above the eyes than below them on a face #but obviously people draw characters with shorter foreheads/skulls all the time #ive done it too. but it looks Wrong when i do it on purpose. i feel everything i try to do looks unintentionally wrong #idk how to get to the intentional part or what i even want that to look like! #the permanent issue of not knowing what i want it to look like i just know i dont want it to look like this #which is bad bc you shouldnt qualify things by the negatives like that....wagh #im no good at making things from scratch i wish someone wld just draw in my ideal art style already so i cld study it #(jork) #technically i cld do this with urasawa bc like i said thats a dream style right there ill just infuse it with mine #but it Feels wrong #and i know u dont need to have 1 art style forever but i draw one way and forget all the previous ways ive ever drawn #i rly dont understand! i wish we cld share brains with each other so i cld gain understanding of what to do next ykwim #bc ill always keep going i just worry im never going to Get it #that there will always be that bizarre and extreme disconnect between eye and mind and hand #talkys

[jellyaibo]

*a horrifying green mist forms around me as i remember therewill definitely be a new wave of people saying loser is an asshole*

#KSJDFHJSDFH SORY IM JUST LIKE i already IMMEDIATELY saw a thing saying losers a jerk bc of the new scenes. guys its gonna be so ok guys! #ppl just want loser to be evil so bad like. no girl just made dumb choices to follow her dreams THERE IS A DIFFERENCE #she was clearly upset when winner said they didnt want to do the movie . also eEVEN BEFORE THAT #DID WE FORGET HER LITTLE SPEECH BEFORE GETTING ELIMINATED #SHES NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!JUST A BIT STOOPID OSMETIMES #loser justwanted to expand her horizons AS U CAN SEE bc of all the attention (SHE LOVES THE ATTENTION!) U COULD SEE HPW HAPPY SHE WAS! #and that singular crumb of a flashback we got too . clearly she hasnt had it the best always ! LET HER WIN OK #AND I KNOW THATS ALL WE GOT BUT CMON? CMON ! GIRLIE HAS PTSD #AND IN THE END WINNER STILL WISHES HER GOOD LUCK BC TGEY ARE HAPPY SHES DOING SO WELL! THEY ARENT MAD! they just miss her !!! #does this . make sense does it make sense #loser GET DOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #tpot 10 spoilers #i like rambling did u know that! ill shut up niw KJDFHSJKDF

[inventedfangirling]

ahhhhhh ive been writing my first ever patpran fic for the past 2 weeks and i was finally happy with the angst to fluff ratio but i had to go and edit it today and now there is a lot more fluff than before and it's feeling off to me cos there should be a balance and there might even be but i cant see it right now so i'll read again tomorrow but one of my numerous fatal flaws as a writer is that i find it really hard to delete things ive written, a sentence or two is doable but whole sections nuh uh no so idek what im gonna be able to do.....cmon universe grant me the strength...and gosh i hope i can post chapter 1 soon or imma just be editing it at my own pleasure for all of eternity. rethinking all of my life decisions as i type this

#WHY CANT I DO THIS NORMALLY UGHHH JUST POST IT WOMAN JEEZUS #its basically a canon 'fill in the blanks of episode 7' fic of my dreams #but will i be able to finally put it out into the real world is the actual question #bad buddy #bad buddy fic #if anybody ESPECIALLY fic writers are seeing this pls send me your love/good wishes/strength i need it all #havent published a fic in MONTHS #and haven't ventured out of my og fandom EVER #this a huge leap for me ahhhh

[soldier-poet-king]

WAILS

#it certainly is a monday..... #worried about [redacted] #brain keeps giving me the softest kindest dreams only to wake up and be like. well. time for work #its dark and cold and rainy #usual family bullshit. careee bullshit. etc #im MAYBE getting sick which cant happen i have tattoo work scheduled for Saturday #bro1 (aged 23) is getting his ears pierced and i was giving him advice #and he straight up was like oh im getting both done because just one ear is gay #He said that. to my face. im. #i need to move out. i need to get a s/o. i need to hold hands and go on cutesy little dates SO BAD #i love romance ok. im tired of pretending i dont #i don't really care abt the sex bits like sure itd be nice #but i dont yearn and pine for it like i do the casual romantic intimacy of it all im. im. #WHY IS IT NOT SOFT AND KIND. LIFE SHOULD BE SOFT AND KIND TO ME OK. I WOULD BE SO GOOD AT ROMANCE-FRIENDSHIP #just like. the gentleness. the kindness. the fun. im. going to be SICK #im also sosososo sleepy and sad. #oh the national on repeat for hours we're really in it now #wish we could invent a way to be lonely and wanting that isnt completely cringe!!! #and guilt inducing bc there's bigger problems and i should be helping and doing and not navel gazing about love #and yet!!!!!!!!!!

[ibrithir-was-here]

The closest Wish ever comes to falling back into Desire’s old patterns is during Daniel’s infatuation with Eulalie, they really don’t like her xD

#wish is fairly certain that Daniel is smitten with Eulalie in some sort of warped attempt to confront his fear of fire #her being a denizen of hell and all #but they feel bad just coming up and saying that #they could technically just make Daniel not feel anything for her but they definitely wouldn't do that #they've thought about it but they'd never do it #my art #endless heirs au #wish of the endless #eulalie #eulaile the devil's daughter #I realize ive spelled it wrong but its the tag now #daniel hall #desire of the endless #dream of the endless #sandman #sandman au