#i’m totally fine! not crying at all!

[mushlooms]

i really thought ah yes another episode! more ellie and joel and zombies! and then they gave me a heartbreaking short movie about two gays finding peace & happiness as they grew old alongside one another in a world that at first made them think life was no longer worth living haha hahaha im fine! i’m fine. i’m fine

#bill my beloved #thank god i have therapy tomorrow #they were each others will to live…. ahahahahahaahaha this is my joker #they grew old together… #i was not ready for this #i loved this episode a lot #like the whole setting #the tone the way they gave us more depth of all these characters of joel AND tess as well #and the underlying msg that joel will grow to love ellie as a daughter and fight to protect her #that she will become his purpose #i’m totally fine! not crying at all! #the window scene didn’t destroy me! #tlou #tlou spoilers #tlou hbo #the last of us #the last of us spoilers #og

[fulcrum-art-fox]

The Mandalorians were so hopeful this episode it breaks my heart. They’re hyping themselves up and getting excited - they’ve come together and there’s still kinks to be ironed out and trauma to deal with but they’re together and they’re going home. They’ve got a plan. They’re gonna find the Great Forge, the heart of their world. They’re going to bring down settlers. It’s not going to be easy but they’re going to rebuild. They’re so hopeful and then they find out the Empire Remnants are already here. Coiled right inside one of their most sacred sites. The Empire has been here ever since the genocide of their people and now they want to finish the job. They were so hopeful and they get punched in the face with this horrible discovery and it’s heartbreaking

#I’m fine totally fine not crying over this nope not at all #star wars #the mandalorian #the mandalorian spoilers #the mandalorian season 3 #mando spoilers

[naxinesketchbook13]

Geno!

Totally didn’t do 50+ attempts on drawing him hahahaha

#geno #mario rpg #nax.doodle #pen sketch #I totally didn’t break my hand during all this #or cry myself to sleep over this #nah I’m totally fine

[jemmo]

so this was just… emotional trauma the episode

#kinnporsche #vegaspete #I’m not ok #I’ve never been ok #and never will be ok #man vegaspete are so many layers of fucked up and it’s so difficult and heartbreaking to watch #I’m a mess #I’m in bits #that scene right after all the kimchay angst of them both just crying #and that whole scene outside the bar holy shit oh my got #they both outacted this ep #the way they were both absolutely distraught #the way Vegas was totally broken #and the way Pete is so uncomfortable with how he feels #god his whole monologue about being a human with feelings that was horrid #I felt so much watching him #be so messed up by how he’s been treated #knowing he can’t be the same #in the bathtub how he desperately defaults to that smile and being fine #begging porsche to not make him say it #bc he also wants to protect Vegas #and he hates that he wants to do that #hates that he’s been irreversibly changed #and hates that he can’t bring himself to completely hate him #that he feels so much for him and it’s so much love and hate #it’s every emotion directed at him and it’s so much it’s impossible and he can’t cope #and yet he just wants #outstanding

[anachronistic-falsehood]

Do you have a doctor relative or enough money to go to a doctor?

i live in canada so like it’s free i could go any time at all but the problem is that i don’t feel like it’s a big enough issue to bother anyone with. if i go in there and say “hey occasionally i have weird pains that only last less than a second what is it” they’ll say “you’re probably fine, do you think it might be anxiety?” because that is ALWAYS WHAT HAPPENS

#whiskey yelling into the void #like the occasional pain is normal but if it’s consistent over a week then usually that might be something???? #the pain lasts literally a second or less and the rest of the time i am totally normal and functional #and even right before and after the pain happens i’m literally just normal. like this random little pain i get sometimes is the only sign #that something MIGHT be wrong at all and i don’t know what it IS #i’m known for overreacting and shit so it’s probably fine #maybe it’s like?? the way that i’m sitting?? just pulling on a muscle in there or something #i don’t know and i’m gonna cry over it #i get little pains elsewhere sometimes that last less than a second that’s just how it be #this is just new and i don’t know if it’s normal or not

[milo-is-rambling]

I am so high I love you dabs I love you big bong rips I love you huge heavy bong I love you only having 20 dollars to my name and no plans but getting high and ignoring it I love you oh no I’m thinking about it

#I want to take an ice cold shower and scream and smoke a whole pack of cigarettes and lock myself in a closet for 72 hours in the dark with #no distractions to figure out what I actually want to do with the rest of my life and to face every bad thought I have and struggle to #ignore even years later like ugh I just need to be at the bottom of the ocean floating sinking alive dead in between for like a month and #then pull me back up and either I’ll be normal or I’ll be so fucked up they just put me back in there #like either way I am vibing at the bottom of the ocean (I have been desperately imaging a sensory deprivation tank all day) #(put me in a fucking sensory deprivation tank until something in my fucking brain rewires and I get worse or better than I am now this #inbetween stage is fucking killing me like what do you mean I’m not a horrible person but also what do you mean I struggle every day but I’m #normal but I have things about me other people don’t and alienate me to the point of near total isolation but also this is just how humans #are and I need to take meds and actively struggle to fit into a perfect little box of what a person should be like god damn I am so tired of #getting better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and I’m miserable and I’m happy and I’m sobbing and #I know a month from now I’ll be depressed again or I’ll be the best I’ve ever been and it’s so fucking horrible to be in the middle stage #where I actually have to step up and admit shit is wrong and face it like why can’t I just lay in bed forever until I become the bed and not #like get a job and have a future. ugh. depression is so fucked esp bc most things in my life are normal I guess or like easier than my #friends like we all have seperate challenges but I’m the only one still living off their parents (ha. parent. forgot for a second.) and the #only thing wrong with my life is the mental health issues but I won’t step up and deal with it bc I feel like I’ve been depressed for so #long I like fucked up the foundational shit and like I know it’s fine but also I feel so behind and I feel like I’ll be behind and unhappy #forever even when im happy I know the next depressive episode is right around the corner and I give up again. ugh. I hate knowing that’s #what’s wrong with me but still not having the energy to step up and fix it. im so pathetic I want to cry. my brain is me but my brain is #destroying my life. anyways. im high and now im sad and have dry mouth. I think im gonna drink ice water and change into shorts+lay in bed)

[peapod20001]

LMAO QUICK. WIPE YOUR TEARS BEFORE SOMEONE SEEEESSS YOUUU

#vent #:) !! dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!! #I am in my feelings and I am feeling so many feelings like my heart being torn from my chest and pounded into the floor #and a rage so sickening that I can only get rid of by mutilating someone’s flesh with my teeth and nails #fuck fuck fuck man fucking shit everytime I start to open myself up to someone and share what’s at the core of my being #I let my guard down and shit happens!! why can’t I be normal!! why do I get so attached!!! so fucking needy!!!!!! why do I CARE so deeply #when I’m so easy to be ignored? honestly what am I doing here!! I’m forgettable!!! honestly!! #why talk to me??? what am I contributing AT ALL to the conversation?? I’m not interesting. I have no ideas. YOU have a hard time under me? #how do you think *I* feel?? do you think I know who I am?? what I believe?? what I desire?? #why even BOTHER wanting for anything!! I dream of the absolute bare minimum life for myself!! I want to not die and live with my friend!! #maybe even MULTIPLE friends if I’m so lucky!!! do you know how much I’ve thought about it? how stupid of a fucking dream really truly #what are the chances of that coming true? who would want to spend more than a few hours. with me? #and so what?? if I can’t even achieve the bare fucking minimum dream ever then??? what’s the point??? what am I then??? if you think I have #ANY skills. you are mistaken!! I don’t know how to do anything!!! except cry over no response to my messages for TWO FUCKING WEEKS #I’m fine and cool. absolutely fucking DANDY #I’m totally not insecure about my place in the world and my place in peoples lives!!! noooooooo #I don’t need the bare minimum level of attention. I made it 13 fucking years having never truly connected to another human being. #I can handle. whatever the fuck this is. haha how pathetic. shitty shitty bang bang #nooo I’m a grizzled fucking soldier I don’t reread positive words directed at me like I have an addiction #I’m not replaying the top happiest moments from my life over and over again trying to ride a high from something that expired LOOONGG ago #I’m not fucking!! crying!! what do I have to cry for?? aww little piss baby DIDNT get a reply :( aww shh shh #your feelings are sooo valid don’t you worry!! it’s not like you’ve gone most of your life with the ability to get things you want!! GASP.NO #you didn’t have to struggle with food or money or housing!! nobody’s even HIT you before!! but even so your cries are valid!!!! #SIKE. NO. IM AT THE ABSOLUTE BOTTOM. MY PROBLEMS DONT MATTER #so WHAT if you’re longing?? doesn’t matter how hard you THINK or DREAM or WISH. NO ONE. NOT ONE SINGLE. FUCKING. PERSON #will EVER. see you as more than the fucking checker piece on the chess board!! #you want to be someone’s muse huh? don’t even CARE about their interpretations. or how they see you. all that matters is that in this moment #they’re stuck with you. they’re watching you. for at least a moment you can pretend they are yours. #god.... if only I could get myself to write my actual essays with this much passion haha #haha...a hh h..

[arthur-r]

finished the silence of the girls. crying for a combination of the book and the rest of life

#i started keeping track of how many times i cried today after it had happened twice #not counting book-related i cried seven times #and if you count crying at this book i cried ten times total #i dont know what all it’s been. a lot of things. the stupid national debt was one of them. i’m on my period #i cried about the national debt and how my friends don’t love me and how someone important was absent from school and how no one is serious #and how my dad couldn’t help me and how my mom is on an airplane and how i can’t fix anything for my sister until it’s too late #and maybe i cried eight times because i know too that i cried at the idea of my teacher calling home and my dad taking away the door #and how even though i would do anything for that not to happen again i still couldn’t make myself submit what i had #(it’s okay now. the teacher says it would be a shit AP essay but fine for this class. so i’ll be okay) #i also skipped two meals today. part cause i had a stomachache but mostly because i had the excuse of saying i had a stomachache #i dont know if i would have been able to eat anything but i do know it was on purpose that i didn’t try #but hey. everything is supposed to be fine. i’m going on a date (kind of maybe) next week. my band is doing my stupid trans period song #the play i co-wrote will be performed on stage next weekend. i’m sleeping in a real bed this week #but everything feels a little hollow and fake. and somehow i have enough tears to last me to the end of the day

[an1malcannibal]

My dad is such a guy one moment he’s the only person in the whole world who’s there for me the next moment he hates everything I do and is telling me to take my heater out of our room because we accidentally left it on in the morning and when he turned on the toaster the breaker tripped. Just gonna go ahead and kill myself methinks because I think that’s the only solution that makes any sense.

#I’m lying im not gonna kill myself. #im going to cry and clean and pretend I have any hope of ever making him happy #fucking hell #then Im going to rehearse the same lines over and over in my brain till im calm while I imagine my own dissection #then i’ll feel better #to be fair #im a total fuckup and loser #so I understand why he hates everything I do #it’s understandable im not a very likable person I guess #im annoying and I think that I should do everything my way when I should be doing it his way #because that’s what he wants and if I just did that he wouldn’t be so mad at me all the time #which is fine #I just wish he didn’t take his normal shitty moods put on me just cause im there and he’s upset #I shouldn’t have to deal with that I don’t think #at least I hope so

[f4rlands]

I almost, almost unfollowed you again, but I managed to use my excellent navigation skills to make my way here and ask you about men.

So,,

Thoughts on men?

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#this is actually a complete lie i’ve never experienced attraction in my life #i think if someone tried to kiss me i would cry a lot #i just like to play up the fact that some dudes are nice to look at sometimes #i’m the man-lover supreme (fake (only sort of fake (maybe a bit real though)))!!!!!!!!!! #my sexuality is a mess one minute i’ll be talking about how pretty someone is and how i want to hold their hand and go on soft dates #and the next i’ll be saying that i’ve never liked anyone ever and i’m actually totally fine being as isolated as i make myself #who knows sexuality is a mystery all this shit is fluid and tricky sooooo whatever #maybe i’m lying when i perform my man-loving ways!!!! maybe i’m telling the truth!!!!!!! #who knows! not you not me #and that’s all cool #having it all figured out is pretty eh anyways #ANYWAYS good job making it this far wowowowow!!!! #that’s a long fuckin answer when my predictable response is simply ‘SHHDHDHDHDUDKSK’ #also GOOD JOB ON MAKING IT TO THE ASK BOX PROUD OF YOU BESTIE #raven ^*^ #answered

[rosicheeks]

Rosie darling yes I do DARE or actually I do DOUBLE DARE to be so fucking sweet to you. How could I not when you are such a sweet and spectacular princess yourself? Rosie darling I have secretly planned our wedding many times. It is in an enchanted forest surrounded by lovely woodland critters with you in a gorgeous gown while wearing a tiara on your lovely head. ❤️😁 You are such a bright light in this world that you could be nothing but my favorite person. ☺️ I receive your return air hug with open arms and it warms my heart. Oh and you get back rubs in return. ❤️ I am happy to have made your night better even if only slightly. I will always be here send you love. You are such a wonderful person (oh and I always love reading your tags as you can see). ❤️❤️❤️

#hahahah I’m fine??????? I’m totally fine 😭😭😭😭😭 #the thought of someone secretly planning our wedding is actually making me sob #this entire ask made me cry actually #I’m such a baby lately #but WHY ARE YOU SO SWEET TO ME #i don’t deserve this omg #fun fact since I’ve worked in bridal I’ve thought about my wedding wayyyyyyy too much #and enchanted forest is definitely on the list #but then I wouldn’t be able to wear my huge ballgown #or maybe I’ll just get the cute woodland creatures to hold my train for me 😂 #but seriously? #this is fucking precious ❤️ #also the line ‘you are such a bright light in this world’ #honestly that is my main goal in life - to spread as much light as I can #so truly thank you so much that means the world to me #i held onto this ask for a few days cause I didn’t know how to reply #and I still don’t tbh #all I can say is when is the wedding 🫣 #I’m going to need to start looking for a dress! #random fact lmao - I saw a flashback from a year ago when I left one of my bridal jobs and I tried on my favorite gowns #fuck I miss that and I wish I could show you guys cause ahhhhhhh I look so pretty in a wedding dress 🥰 #if I do say so myself hahah #but now I’m getting distracted- can you tell I love love love weddings… I can’t WAIT until I find the loml and have a beautiful wedding #guess I’m going to be thinking about that all night now #thank you so so SO much for all the kind words #i seriously can’t thank you enough 🥺 #cute asks #fav asks #ask #anon

[xekstrin]

One of the most memorable interactions was Saturday. Into our booth strolls a small family, tempted by free samples of freshly brewed tea. We chatter and give them the spiel, that the tea is character merch and we’re a cozy health-based app called Forage Friends.

The young girl zeroes in on our pride pins.

“They have my pin!” She says excitedly. “They have my flag!”

The dad blinks. He is surprised, but also calm and positive when he sees it’s the lesbian flag. “Oh. That’s… different from what you told me.”

“That was months ago, dad.” And she rolls her eyes. Definitely a teenager.

I turn to him and say, “Yeah, dad.” And we share a little laugh about it.

He says, “No, it’s great. That’s amazing, honey. It was just news to me.”

“Well, I guess I just decided to stop lying to myself. About liking guys. Like right now.”

A little lesbian just came out to her dad and he was super cool about it.

I’m standing there in my tie-dye mask and my cheery blue apron pouring tea and making small talk and I’m trying really hard not to cry or compare it to my experience, the fire & brimstone, the disgust, the conditional acceptance as long as I never bring it up.

So as this beautiful bonding is going on, the girl’s even younger brother turns his gaze around. He’s in a snorlax hoodie and bored and wants to go look at the swords across the hall. But on the other side of our booth….

“WHY DO PEOPLE DRAW THAT?” He asks loudly, and we all turn to our neighboring booth.

Our neighbors were extremely lovely people. Every time we had a break we would talk, and we became good friends over the weekend. They kept apologizing that their booth was next to ours and we kept repeating that it was totally fine. Their booth was great. I even bought their merchandise.

The thing that was so contentious, that they felt the need to apologize for, was that they were selling explicit titty hentai stickers of popular characters. They were censored with little yellow R18 labels but the content was very clear.

So back to the family: I freeze and immediately go somewhere else to let dad handle this question. With adult customers I’ve been loud and positive about our neighbors. (“Man, how has it been boothing next to them?” It’s been great! They bring a lot of foot traffic and they’re kind and wonderful professional neighbors. If anything it’s a fun juxtaposition. We believe in artistic freedom. I bought a sticker too!)

But this is a kid, it’s not my place to explain anything…. But I was extremely curious about what this chill dad would say.

“Well,” dad says with a long measured silence between each word. “Sometimes people are horny.”

#IT WAS SO FUNNY #the kid was like GROSS #and dad was like its art :) #maybe one day you will feel that way too son #and he was like NO NEVER GROSS #and the dad was like you know what thats true :) not everyone feels that way #but maybe some day you will and you’ll see it’s totally fine and normal #A+ dad #dad of all time #dad champion #forage friends

[utterlyrandom123]

Short life span for sims isn’t a joke 🥲 Alfred’s gonna die soon 😭😭😭

#I’m going to cry #Aelswith will be heartbroken and therefore I will be heartbroken and I’m not ready 😭😭😭 #I say this as if I don’t have five different save files going on for them and in all of the other ones they’re totally fine and happy #and like I’m not going to bring them back to life and place them in a little house while I play out the rest of the short life span #I’m insane #it’s fine

[safetypin-louis]

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#i will not cry #it’s actually not a big deal at all #i’m Totally Fine Person #i will have fun #i will not say mean things #and i will not longingly look at him #i am strong and i can do hard things #i am strong #sam rants

[agents-are-dicks]

You ever take a quick break from your crying sesh just so that you can go back to crying full force 5-10 minutes after

#I’m totally fine #definitely haven’t been crying on and off the past three hours #definitely won’t be up all night crying some more

[milo-is-rambling]

Thinking a lot about how the end of the year was my favorite forever with all the holidays and school starting back up and I loved Halloween and Thanksgiving and Hanukah and Christmas and now my dads dead and I’m trying to balance my love for the fall and winter when I’m in Florida where the seasons aren’t the same as they were in New England and everything feels wrong and weird and I’m locked in a strange grief land where it’s always the same hot sunny with rain in midafternoon weather that it was when dad died and it’s just so hard cause even the comfort of the seasons changing is missing here

#my favorite thing to do in New England was drive around though the leaves changing and the snow starting like driving through all the roads #don’t normally drive on and just finding the most incredible colors and there was always local apple cider and homemade donuts being sold #I just miss New England so much I based a lot of my brain on fall in New England and now I’m not there and it’s happening without me #nothing will ever be the same as when I was a kid even if I go back ahhhhhh #thinking about my dad never being at a thanksgiving family dinner again and I just don’t know what to do with myself #I don’t have to really think about that for two more months so it’s fine I’m gonna go back to ignoring it and totally not crying over it