#i’ve never been this busy in my life

[idsb]

I do want to go home to my boyfriend and I do want to like, get to whatever my life is gonna be but the idea of hitting stop on my life here is making me feel sick. I have to quit my job in the next few days and after the birthday I’ve had I just. I don’t know. Like I do know but I can’t face it. And I also don’t know.

#didn’t really talk a lot about it because I was busy having fun #I just got so many gifts from my work and everyone that works in other bars on the street all made me a card #the owners of the bar got me stuff and like #idk. I’ve never felt like a key component of a workplace before #I’m always something on the side you know? #and that’s not guaranteed wherever I go #I have it here #I have so many people who love me here #I am integrated with LIFE #in a way I never have been in New York #I don’t feel like I’m living life trapped inside my own head #I want to be with my boyfriend I want to see what’s next #I can’t bear to let go of that #I can work in a bar anywhere #I can’t work in THIS bar on THIS street anywhere

[izukuszn]

trying to finally get into makeup… wish me luck i have no idea what i’m doing

#i never learned how to do my makeup because i’ve struggled with bad acne for basically my entire life and i didnt want to make it worse #i admire everyone who knows how to do their makeup pls teach me it always looks so nice #i only do eyeliner mascara eyebrow gel highlighter #lipgloss #i bought some basics today and got the wrong foundation shade because i was too scared to ask for help😭😭 #but i’m so excited to try bc my acne is probably at the best it has been in years #so i’m giving it a chance #with me luck #also i’m very sorry for randomly popping in after weeks i’ve been very busy #but i love u all always #- noelle talks

[odetolovers]

hello 💃

#hi hi i am never on here anymore tumblr my tumblr i miss you #tbf it’s because my life has been so crazy busy #i am no longer unemployed and am in fact in the career i wanted. YAY! #also i love my girlfriend and my cats and my life and healing and growth #and also…self worth question mark #something i have historically struggled with but am now getting less mentally ill about #HALLELUJAH! #i can never quite wrap my head around how lucky i am #and how fulfilled i am #this much happiness feels like it shouldnt be real but. i am actually deeply known and loved through my worst moments and my best and it’s #the most healing thing i’ve ever experienced #shoutout to my girlfriend (sooner rather than later wife) for being just. the most perfect person for me and the best person ive ever met #she’s my best friend fr #eek. life is good and love is good and we both have colds that are going to last through christmas but i know it will still be the best #christmas of my life because it’s with them #life is looking up :) #craziest concept to a very traumatised girlie is that life can actually be good and happy but im slowly learning to trust it #<3 #valentina talks

[filmforwomen]

it’s officially spring!!!!!!!!!! And I want to d*e

#I’ve never been so busy in my entire life #I’m miserable lol #dont you ever work in food service you guys it’s a SCAM

[anpanmann]

hi 👋🏻

#i know i’ve been mia but i’m on a business trip #lmao #never thought i’d say that #thank god i’m going back tomorrow #shut up vanessa #hope i can take the weekend to catch up on content #omg what my life has become

[charlee-morningstar]

"Why hello, my dear ole friend!" The Radio Demon loomed over the other

- @alerstor

“Oh!!! Hi Alastor, what’s up?!” Charlie exclaimed, looking up at him.

{ @alerstor }

#so sorry for such late responses I feel like I’ve never been so busy in my life

[chanstopher]

guys my birthday is in a few days i’m soooo pumped 😭

#this weekend can’t come fast enough #i’ve been so damn busy but this weekend i’m gonna just chill #and do stuff that makes me happy 🥹 #sorry i’ve been mia life is insane #i’m trying to book a tattoo that i haven’t even finished designing 💀 #and my brother has been on my ass about hanging out #cause our birthdays are so close and we never see each other #(it’s his birthday today 🖤) #and he’s so fucking excited i’m gonna finally watch one piece he’s been so obnoxious about it for years #anyway i know i have a bunch of asks i will try to come on tomorrow and get through them #i hate being so mia but i love that you guys still care 🥹🖤🩶🤍

[theskywaslookingback]

My dad: *texts my mom the day after Father’s Day to see if I was mad at him because I didn’t call him*

Also my dad: *sends me a text on Easter and then radio silence for months* *does not call to ask if I have plans for my birthday* *does not text to check in on me* *does not invite me over to his house for anything ever* *allows my stepmom to use his money to prioritize her kids over me* *literally doesn’t ever act like he wants anything to do with me actually* *cancels or changes plans at the last minute because he decides he wants to drink instead* *offers to help my mom pay my car payments and then never does* *gets us gym memberships and then cancels them without warning because he didn’t have the money and just doesn’t tell me* *cannot hold a thirty second conversation without mentioning ‘the Chinese threat’ or ‘Covid was invented by democrats to replace Trump in office’*

My dad: Why doesn’t my child call me? I am the specialist most important person in the whole wide world. What could she have to be mad about?

#angy #sweepy but angy #he told my mom the other day that he wished I’d gotten a real job instead of playing around like I am currently #like with zero awareness that I tried desperately for six months to find a job and literally no one would hire me #and now I can just kind of do my own thing BECAUSE my mom takes care of me and helps me financially #and that we have an understanding that I will absolutely look for a job if she ever asks me to #like we have talked about this multiple times #my silly little business is allowed because my mom makes enough money to take care of us both and invest in the business #if she were to say ‘i need you to find a job to pay for your car payment’ I’d start looking again that very second #we’re both adults like #im literally turning 30 in a few days #and he’s still running his mouth like im 16 and stupid #ignoring the fact that I’ve been sick a majority of my adult life and that it’s gotten significantly worse the last couple of years #to the point that something as common as my period will have me writing on the floor in pain for days and sick to my stomach for weeks #this man has a wife that has NEVER worked a day in her LIFE and he wants to tell ME to get a job?? #anyway she told me about it when she got home and i had to stop myself from reflexively going to set his house on fire #that man better send me fucking money for my birthday it’s all he’s good for

[honeynclove]

idk ik people don’t like valentines bc corporate holiday rahahhah but i just like it as a day to love my friends and love my family and love my fictional characters and wear cute pink and red outfits and skip around giving red velvet cookies and be happy idk

#:D #☕️!- clove speaks #like Martha speaks #Idk I was in a relationship for one Valentine’s Day and it sucked bc I wished him a happy Valentine’s Day and he ranted ab how it was a #scheme for corporate business to make more money and YEAH #Ik it is but we were long distance and he didn’t have to get anything and all I wanted was to be told I was loved #and tbh after getting out of the relationship idek if I loved him in a normal way I don’t think anything about my attraction to people has #been necessarily normal and now I don’t really think relationships are something I even want anymore #But idk #Valentine’s Day as a day to appreciate things I love #I LOVE my friends I love my family #I love I love I love and none of it is wasted #romantic relationships will never be more important to me than platonic I think #especially after being in a toxic/abusive “romantic” relationship and the only thing that helped me leave it was help from my friends #I’ll never have a friend I regretted loving they were all important to me at some point and helped me grow #it’s hard bc I’ve always felt idk… aceflux? aroflux? And it was very hard to explain to a partner HEY sometimes my love for you isn’t #romantic sometimes it’s platonic sometimes I don’t know how to explain it but I still love you I still want you in my life #Idk none of this matters #If u read this SMASH THE LIKE BUTTON AND HIT SUBSCRIBE

[alphasesh]

Wait, the other left? What happened?

eh, nothing much happened, the person who originally created the blog (mark) just wasn’t interested in fandom or social media any more and left the blog and server to be run by other people

#there wasn’t any drama or anything just normal boring life circumstances #mod zero #server has a new admin too #i was never officially handed control of the blog but yknow. my city now. kept the queue going while i figure out what to do with it #i’ve been too busy to do much of anything lately and for that i apologise. i’d like to start it up again soon though

[just-rogi]

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#listen I know this is insane and parasocial and crazy #right? #I’m aware I’m in the wrong here #but #I’ve loved Taylor swift since I was like ten years old #and during her 1989 era she did an interview where she said if calories didn’t count she’d eat chicken tenders #years later she came out and said that during that time in her life she was struggling with ED and was miserable #and was recovering #and has been open about the fact that she’s continued to struggle but is choosing to heal #and she’s been like one of the only public figures to actually talk about ed in a way that actually meant anything to me #and it’s not my business it doesn’t matter ok it doesn’t fucking matter and I wouldn’t say this to her or anyone or w ever #but she was just at a football game eating chicken tenders #and man #it’s not about me it’s not my business and doesn’t effect me in ANY way #but GOD I wanted to cry #bc I feel like sometimes it’s not ever worth it and you never really recover and no matter how hard you try #recovery is unobtainable in any permanent way and you can be clean for days or weeks or months or YEARS #but it never really goes away not really you just kinda have to decide one day that healing is worth more now than how painful #and difficult and humiliating recovering is #and MAN it’s NOT about me and I shouldn’t care about what a billionaire is eating for lunch because it doesn’t effect me #and it’s invasive and parasocial and kinda gross to even know that shit about her #but god idk why her stupid chicken tenders and semingly ranch are making me cry #I hope she loved her chicken tenders I hope they were amazing I hope she didn’t even think twice about eating them #but if she did - because I feel like I always will- I’m glad she chose to get them anyway #it’s so hard to explain bc it feels so stupid lol #fuckin ranch too goddamn lol

[lavenderjewels]

I’m too busy rn to write a whole thing on my thoughts on this jjk chapter (now it’s officially translated and out) but it’ll be good to have more time to sit on it

#soooo busy but having real life be so hectic actually helps lol bc I’m not too sad or angry about the chapter #maybe I would’ve been a few years ago when I. cared more about media in general but school and life is too much to add that on top haha #saying this as if any chapter w yuuji focus won’t crush my heart completely :( #buuuuut thinking about the chapter rn #don’t like how we got to gojo dying. or how the time skip is placed. bc those questions have to get answered #but I would’ve preferred some to be sooner than later. or at least more time w gojos internal thoughts that aren’t fight related #I do love the actual airport state of death scene. those in between states are my FAVORITE in jjk #and imo nothing seems ooc I like how the scene can be interpreted in many ways #love that nanami gets to be so prominent too. it’s fitting #I don’t really care about gojo being ‘offscreened’ since the flashback was him dying #but yeah all my issues are things that I think could’ve been solved in previous chapters but this one in itself is fine #also how I view all this depends on where the story goes ofc but I’m just here for the ride #jjk spoilers #jjk 236 #need to reiterate this but mark my words that next chapter is just kashimo fight #I’ve known jjk long enough to understand there’s never breathing room when it comes to any deaths 😭

[fakeoutbf]

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#lately i’ve been thinking a lot of what my life and just general wellbeing would be like if i didn’t have to worry about money #like if i would just be traveling all over or having a space that feels more appropriate for my needs and likes #or just doing things that just make me happy?? #like ngl i never go to the ‘downtown’ area of where i live where there’s like a lot of local businesses selling cute (and cheapish) stuff #and i feel like if i had more time (and money to spend) i’d be there all the time just looking for things #idk this is a weird rant but i just keep wondering how much my life would be different if money wasn’t an issue #i feel like if i had a year where i didn’t have to worry about money and could just do whatever my mental state would improve soooo much

[mars-ipan]

i sometimes think that in spite of my mental stuff i have a very good handle on myself and especially my impulsivity and then i look at how i consume media

#marzi speaks #for the past few months i have looked at nothing new. none of the things i love took up a huge space in my mind #earlier this week i decided i was gonna start listening to wtnv again #i also decided i was finally ready to watch qsmp #so i am now doing both. at the same time #my desire to create has come back with a vengeance as well. i do not normally make 2 pieces in a week #and now i’m brainstorming on a 3rd! #my strat has been watch as much qsmp as possible while doodling to maintain attention span #then work on whatever art i want to make and use wtnv as background noise #i have gone from Nothing to Turbo mode #why? i legit think it’s the anxiety. also maybe the adhd i still think i might have #i’ve been busy all summer and thinking abt college bc i move out in like 7 days #so i haven’t had brain capacity for this stuff #now though? with it so close? i’m antsy #i’m restless constantly. i don’t even wanna go to bed i wanna Do Something (nothing to do) #so i’m giving my brain as much to chew on as physically possible so it can not panic about a maior milestone in my life lmao #it’s working! it’s enough for my brain to juggle so i don’t get bored and start Thinking too much #but damn. funny how this little mind works #sometimes i do not feel fully in control lmao. i usually do but sometimes #escapism. my true vice <3. i could never hate you but damn. like damn dude

[queerhoodies]

this year was inarguably the worst of my life yet i’m so scared of actually letting go because every year it just keeps getting worse

#i guess after you’ve hit rock bottom you can just go uphil from there so that’s something #it’s so scary to go into a new year alone after you’ve lost the most important person in your life #and i don’t want to exist in a new year when they won’t #but also i’m looking forward to some things so it’s not all awful #and i’ve been so busy and tired lately i didn’t even have time to unpack all of that and now i’m panicking #i’m very torn rn #or just high #al rants #my new year’s resolution is to come up with a better personal tag #also i want a tag for my queue #like a fun pun or wordplay that a lot of people have #i think that i’ve actually never used the post queue in all of my time here #there’s many things i’ve never used here before and at this point i’m just too scared to ask #like side blogs #they always confused me #i used to just have multiple different blogs and log in and out of them #wait how did i go from a grieving depressive post to this #maybe i am high yes #to the new year !

[milflewis]

so turns out i do have a broken bone in my foot and when the doctor found out i’ve been walking on it for the past five days. he basically called me a messy bitch

#like. rudeeee. i’ve been busy ! #i am small n poor what do he want from me #also told him i’m trying out peace n kindness like he told me to and he laughed. i have never seen this man smile in my life ! and he full #on giggled :/