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purplestars222 · 11 months

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Insomnia part 2

part 1 part 2

(miguel x gn, plus size reader)

summary of part 1; Miguel has always had a thing for you, even though you won't admit it, so when he found out you hadn't been at work for a week, he came to check up on you. When he got to your house, he knew something was up, your house was a mess, it normally was pretty clean. After holding you while you sobbed on the floor, Miguel helped you have a shower, he also cleaned your room a bit and made your bed. You ended up falling asleep in his arms, feeling happy for once.

sorry in advance for my spanish

cw; slight mentions of an eating disorder, smut, mirror sex, breeding kink, unprotected sex (wrap it irl guys :))

a/n; unedited! will edit it tmr after i finish ren faire, this will be removed when editing is finished

my first time writing smut :)

You sigh as your alarm goes off, no miguel in your bed, and no trace of him. Last night was just a dream, unfortunately, but at least it had you feeling okay enough to shower. You strip off, and put a red, silk nightgown on, and head for the bathroom, as soon as you step out of your room, you see Miguel o'hara. In your kitchen. Cooking homemade pancakes

"Sit, they're nearly ready"

You silently walk up to the kitchen bench, and take a seat on one of the stools, The food smells absolutely amazing, which is actually making you wanna eat again. Miguel serves some on a plate, with strawberries, whipped cream and maple syrup, he sits next to you, with his own plate

"Sleep okay, princesa?"

God. hes so nice, which is weird for him. You start to wonder if he wants something.

"Yeah fine.... why are you here miguel?"

"To make sure you're okay. Clearly, you aren't, so i'm staying until you are."

"Please just go, i'm really not worth it." you struggled to hold back your tears

“Excuse me?" his eyes darkened, he sounded offended

"I'm really not worth it, i appreciate it, but just go. I'll be back at work as soon as i can."

He grabs you by the chin, making you look up at him "Don't say that."

"And why not?"

"Because you are worth it. Do you really not know how pretty you are? do i need to show you, cariño?"

You felt your face heat up, You've been waiting for this.

"Y-yes?"

He connects your lips within seconds, not giving you a chance to protest. You melt into his arms, it felt like they were made to hold you, and only you. He scoops you up, as if you weigh nothing and takes you to your room, plopping you down on the bed, you notice his sweatpants have formed a tent, you go to reach for his pants but he stops you

"Shh, not yet cariño"

you whince as he undoes your nightgown, the cold morning air hitting your nipples

Miguel wastes no time , starting to lick and suck on one of your nipples while he massages your other tit. You entangle your fingers in his curls, slightly pulling whenever his fangs grazed your tit. After a few minutes of you whimpering and moaning he starts placing kisses down your belly, till he gets to your heat. He spreads your legs, groaning at the sight " tan hermosa.. "

he licks from your hole to your clit, groaning at the taste

"So wet for me, conejita"

"Mhh- miguel, please, i need you..."

He starts attacking your clit with his tongue, inserting a finger and curling it upwards

"Fuck-! " Your soft thighs squeeze his head, he grabs onto them so they cant move

He eventually adds a second, then a third, stretching you out to prepare you for his cock. Your thighs start quivering "M-miguel- gonna cum-"

He lifts his head up, not even bothering to wipe your arousal off his chin. You whine at the loss off contact. He stands up and takes his shirt off, then his pants, he lifts you up, and sits you on his lap, facing your mirror. You turn your head to the side, not wanting to look at your body, He grabs your chin and makes you look

"I need you to see how pretty you look cariño"

"But i-"

He shoves two fingers in your mouth, you can taste your sweetness on him. You wrap your tongue skillfully around his fingers. After another minute he pulls them out, using that hand to lube up his tip a little

"Are you ready, conejita? Go at your own pace, i don't want you to hurt yourself"

You nod, being slightly nervous, his cock was huge. about 9 inches. He lifts you up and lines his tip up to your entrance. you slowly lower yourself down onto him, taking in the first 4 inches, it feels amazing, so you lower yourself all the way.

Miguel groans and starts bucking his hips up into you

"M-miguel- feels s'good"

He lifts you up and starts fucking into you at a steady pace, already on the brink of orgasm from before, your pussy clenches around him

"F-Fuck, cariño gonna cum for me like a good girl?"

You scream his name as your walls clench even more around him, He guves you a couple of seconds, but then continues to fuck into you, faster than before

"Keep going for me princesa, i know you can do it" he places some soft kisses on the back of your neck, his fangs grazing against your skin. He suddenly bites into you, it dosent feel as you expected, its blissful. Its amazing. Nobody has ever made you feel like this before, and miguel wasn't gonna let you forget that.

His pace starts to falter, you can tell hes getting close

"Cum in me, miguel. Breed me like the slut i am" That drove him over the edge, you felt his cock twitch inside of you as he shot thick ropes of cum into you.

You had no idea why you said that, You did have a breeding kink, but you werent sure if you were ready yet

Miguel pulls out, you whine as your pussy clenches around nothing

"Did you really mean that? You wanna have my child?" he whispers, biting your earlobe and pulling it slightly

"I'd love to." you smile and rest your head against his back

#x chubby reader #plus size reader #chubby reader #miguel o'hara #miguel o'hara x reader #miguel o'hara x gender neutral reader #miguel spiderverse #miguel x reader #miguel o'hara x plus size reader #miguel x chubby reader #miguel spiderman #spiderman 2099 #spiderman atsv #atsv x reader #atsv x you #atsv #atsv miguel #part 3 when i get 100 likes

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zamjd · 5 months

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Happy new years everyone!! :DD (def not 3 hours late)

And with that ima just slide this in

Lovely boy!

So some ideas, this guy can change to which ever side it feels like one command- just imagine them as like character skins than the whole Sun and Moon idea. They are basically the manifestation based on balloon world eclipse :> (dw I'm gonna continue the scuba Y/N ref tmr dkkshchhds)

Traits of version and extra undercut

The purple ver.

- Usually out the most when conversing with someone

- has an asshole attitude and mean vocabulary

- will speak in cryptic to piss you off If you ask smth (but like it's still helping?)

- is actually a good listener and critique

Red ver.

- Usually out when idle

- stares a lot.. lot lot

- Does body gestures more than speaking (ex: shrugging, waving, tilt head to side etc.)

- the aggressive one <- it has the ability to kill you (in it's brain, if you run away from it for no reason it will think you did something guilty that is related towards it and think you are a possible threat if you are escaped(<- I like to call this shark behavior bcs sharks tend to have a natural instinct to hunt if it feels like something is swimming away from them)(also also, the purple ver. can also kill you it just that it's more rational))

- the wholesomest version ironically

In other words: same person, has two main moods ^^

This will hopefully be the last au I'll make since. I'll focus on refining the story for this and both Clockwork mekas and mer Au <- and I def need to change that name to smth else 😭

Edit: FUCK I forgot to add texture to my shadows??? AAAAA

#fnaf dca #fnaf sb #dca au #fnaf eclipse #dca fandom #shit idk what to call this AU #uhhh #how about #Cryptic Ciphers of The Plex #yeah that sounds cool!#Cryptic Ciphers of The Plex AU #CCTP AU #<- omg it like saying cctv #Zamjd's Art

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rowlet-man-spam · 3 months

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Articles that have helped me further understand the Palestinian genocide:

Somehow, I missed that Israel killed hundreds of people in the West Bank just 11 days before the October 7 attacks.

I also failed to look into Nakbar. 750 000 people were cleansed in 1948-49 to make way for Israel.

and a quote from Abu Ali I liked:

https://www.jstor.org/stable/48664822

Above, there is an essay analysing James Baldwin's changing stance on the Israeli occupation. It was mind-blowing and is a must read (as well as the other article by The Maple).

the following are quotes and ideas that stuck with me:

- pg 4 - "...there is a tremendous gap between a Jew from Russia or France or England or Australia and a Jew but lately arrived from the desert."

- pg13-14 "he saw Israel as a Western invention and a symbol of the West, a symbol of the colonial and imperial status quo. Palestine thus became its antithesis, representing the colonised peoples of the Third World."

- "And, of course, any real commitment to Black freedom in this country would have the effect of reordering all our priorities, and altering all our commitments, so that, for horrendous example, we would be support Black freedom fighters in South Africa and Angola, and would not be allied with Portugal, would be closer to Cuba than we are to Spain, would be supporting the Arab nations instead of Israel would never have felt compelled to follow the French into South-east Asia

- pg 15 "but the state of Israel was not created for the salvation of the Jews; it was created for the salvation of Western interests. this is what is becoming clear ... The Palestinians have been paying for the British colonial policy of "Divide and Rule" and for Europe's guilty Christian conscience for more than thirty years"

it's late. I'll fix the messiness of this post tmr lmao

edit: I said 750 000 Palestinians were killed. this is false. they were ethnically cleansed

#Palestine #free palestine #free gaza #history #israel is a terrorist state #israel #james baldwin #author #writing #black panthers #black power #antisemitism #islamophobia

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imtomiee · 21 days

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Me personally I think gun has too many playlist on spotify 😭

Edit: i posted the gitae one already but in some magical case where gun wins tmr I'll make one for him

#lookism #gun park #lookism jonggun #park jonggun #kim gitae #lookism webtoon #gitae kim #lookism gitae kim

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studentbyday · 11 months

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day 21-23 // 100doc && day 33-38 // 100dop

sunday: i finished filter less but it seems a waste of a post to just post that so i'm compiling several days into one post (also hopefully this way i'll spend less time on social media lol edit: idk how well that worked...😅).

monday: read + studied some chemistry

tuesday: more chemistry (didn't get to finish all the chapters for this week ofc 🙄)

wednesday: finished 1st chem chapter. halfway through the 2nd.

thursday: slowly getting through the 2nd half of the last chem chapter for this week. finally got recover to return actual images. but valgrind is still throwing errors so gotta fix that...

friday: fixed valgrind errors. 1 and 1/2 sections of the chem chapter left to go and then i'm done with the readings. i hope i'll be able to finish them tmr as well as the quiz and lab report AND start that data structures lecture... 😬

saturday: finished chem chapter, quiz, and started lab report

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shinsou-rii · 1 year

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HE GETS ME SO HIGH - lee heeseung

summary! it was hard being with heeseung, especially when no one was allowed to know about it. it was even harder to realise that really you didn’t mean as much to heeseung as you thought you did, and it was just embarrassing to know that he had you completely hooked with there being nothing you could do about it.

warnings! toxic!heeseung + probably over use of commas, not completely proof read - let me know if there’s any mistakes

authors note! first and longest fic of the series, i think this one might be my fave? :) for jays tmr i'm actually out during the day so i'll either edit it today + schedule for post tmr or it will be out a little later than intended dependant on what time i get back <3

Hanging out with Lee Heeseung and his friends was said to be a dream come true for many, the seven boys were loved throughout the entirety of the school. Teachers and students alike all had a soft spot for the boys - whether they admitted it or not was a different question. They were all just so charming in their own different ways it was hard not to and really, you were no different.

Well, maybe there was a slight difference between you and the rest.

Lee Heeseung.

It had all started when he approached you one day, claiming he wanted to hang out so that he could ‘get to know you better’, if you knew it was going to end like this you would have never agreed that day.

The days you spent with Heeseung were fun, they consisted of quite literally everything and nothing. Some days you would go out with the boys and do whatever came to mind at the time and other days you would just spend time with him at his house, watching movies, taking naps, playing games, anything along those lines really.

You weren’t really sure what it was about heeseung that really drew you in, was it the way he smiled so softly at you? Or was it the way he always made you feel as though you were floating whenever he looked at you? Whatever it was, it was addicting.

The only problem was, apart from his six friends, nobody knew that you and him were close.

He refused to even acknowledge your presence during schooling hours. During the day if you even tried to look in his direction to catch his eye, the boy already had his back facing you. He made it quite literally impossible for you to get close to him at school, to ensure that nobody knew about the two of you.

You couldn’t even tell your friends about the time you spent with him, with the way he avoids you like the plague there’s not even a single chance that they would ever believe what you had to say.

It was almost comedical how every single time you brought this up to him, heeseung would shut it down straight away with a simple, ‘don’t worry baby, you know you’re my closest friend’ and just carry on with whatever he was doing prior. You knew it was a lie, you knew it was too good to be true, so why every single time did you nod your head with a big grin on your face and leave him be? Why did you let it slide, knowing fully that later on when you’re alone in your room, you were going to sob, realising he doesn’t care about you the way you thought he did?

Your cries weren’t going to change the fact that Lee Heeseung was a pain in your neck when it came to everything apart from the time you spent together. Every time he ignored you it really was like a punch in the gut - he may as well just physically kick you in your side, maybe that would hurt less.

But even so, he was always on your mind. There was no way to explain why this boy was always up there, his name always in your head. Just seeing him could make your mind go blank, only thinking thoughts of him. It was enough to make you zone out whenever he got too into your head.

You needed a break from him, and so you took one.

“Are you okay?” he had asked when you were laying with him on his bed, just staring up at the ceiling, thinking about how you had even ended up here in the first place as he traced shapes on your arms. “No, I think I'll just come back when I need to see you again, okay?” you had said as you got up and started to collect your bag, “ y/n, you should just pretend everything is fine.”

You sighed as you turned to face him, “I need to know that I actually want you, Heeseung.”

“You know i’m right, y/n” and he was. You should just pretend everything is fine. It’s not like it would make a difference, he had you hooked on him from the start and you didn’t even realise.

He would never leave your mind, and you still didn’t know why. You didn’t know what it was about him, and you never would. Him as a whole was addictive. He was right, you should just pretend because you know, and he knows, that you would always go back to him.

The crush you had on him was addicting, even if you couldn’t quite understand it. You just get so high off of him.

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no-saints-around-here · 1 year

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Feet Kink

Yandere TR Boys

Masterlist

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if there is anyone as depraved as I am take this as me calling you out directly but also calling me out - but after that one episode where Taiju had his bare feet on the table...aksjdnaskjdn considered me sold hmmmmhmmmm feet feet feet

p.s. not edited cause its 5am here, i'll go through it tmr

tw: feet kink, all things feet and toe related, oral, nsfw, save yourselves it’s too late for me

Izana would be the most accepting of his latest kink, and also the most blatant, because it would make perfect sense to him in his head. Most likely already in a relationship with you, and you were his and only his and he was only yours, so it would be little surprise that this boy would fall heads over heels for any part of you. This boy had always been a huge fan of you in socks; would do anything to convince you to wear his favorite pair of thigh highs that cling to the meat of your thighs ever so wonderfully and serve to highlight every contour of your foot. Quickly discovers that your feet triggered something primal in him when the two of you were fooling around on his bed and he playfully asks you to rub one foot on his crotch - a logical step forward all things considered. Definitely a foot fucker: sure Izzy likes to be inside and finish inside you as much as any other guy, but its those times when he catches a glimpse of your socks-covered feet peeking out from the blanket or when you wear his favourite heels. Makes him feral, doesn't matter what you're doing or what time it is, his pants are coming down and he'll be rutting his dick against those lovely feet before you even know what's happening. Doesn't keep his latest kink from you, just tells it as it is - not like you can get away from him. Can cum whether its against the sole of your feet or when he's sticking his tip between your toes, or the best, when you're jerking him off with your feet - really doesn't matter. But if you're not there in person for him to satisfy himself, Izzy feels fine making do with either your socks or shoes - they do smell like you anyway. Never bothers cleaning up though, this baby boy wants you to know he was there. But it's not just his feet that he liked worshipped; Izana 100% thinks his feet are equally perfect. Would make you worship his feet like he does yours, maybe you could give it a quick kiss now and then? Definitely frequent pedicures where you two take turns filing and painting each other's nails, because no one else was allowed to touch your feet ever again. And afterwards no doubt it would be alternating between giving you oral and then licking your feet and sucking your toes while he fucks you into the mattress. This delinquent would start becoming especially fussy with the state of your feet (like he does your hands really) and with the type of shoes you wear: makes your wash your feet everytime you come back from the filthy outside. Throws out any shoes he disagree with immediately (even against your will) because Izzy doesn't want you to wear any old pair - doesn't want you to hurt or wear out your feet. Now any brush of a shoe against your own is taken as a personal insult to Izana, and an accidental step is a death warrant. Will not hesitate to send his gang out to punish anyone who thinks every step you take is not the next coming of Christ.

Next in line would be Koko, who catches you fooling around and trying out Inupi’s heels just that one time through a crack in what should be a closed door and can never get the image out of his head after that no matter what he tries. Doesn't help that you already remind him so much of his one that got away or that your feet and ankles looked as dainty as Akane's when you put some high heels on. It would take time for Koko to come around and accept that he had taken a particular interest in your feet, not to say accept that he had a brand new spanking fetish. Likes to think of himself as a arbitrarily normal dude with normal taste, but finds himself increasingly looking forward to seeing what kind of shoes you were going to turn up in next. Finally caves and accepts whatever depraved soul he had left when you leave a pair of your bedroom slippers behind in his place so that its easier for you when you want to sleep over. One sniff was all it took to have him already ready to blow a load, and imaging your feet sliding into the slippers has Koko tipped over the edge, his dick in a vice grip as he cums. And then a second time just minutes later after this boy very tentatively licked the insole. No amount of money can buy what he just experience, the mind-boggling orgasm or how much this boy submits himself to the worship of your feet. Don't be surprise if one fine day Koko suddenly turns up out of the blue to clear out your shoe cabinet of all the footwear he deems below you - anything that this baby boy thinks doesn't suit you goes straight out the window. And then its out to shop. Constantly brings you out to boutique luxury-brand shops to try shoes of all kinds and materials, eyeing not only what kind would show off your perfect feet in the best way, but also mentally calculating if the material would hold the smell, or if it would be too difficult to clean after he licks it. Money is not an issue with pampering the fuck out of you and your feet - he has to have them in the best possible shape. Koko does think about what it would be like to have you pressed your socked feet against his cock from time to time, but his main focus are your shoes and socks - easy to take, easy to replace, and exactly what he needs to get off. Don't mind having others touch your feet, but only when he is there to personally supervise and drag you off if he doesn't approve. Otherwise Koko is happy to do it himself, and you for him. Can be coaxed into admitting his fetish to you, especially if he judges that you would be more than willing to indulge him.

And on the other side of the spectrum, Taiju had an absolutely rude awakening to his feet fetish, and this boy was not very pleased about it. With how Christian this boy is, it's no surprise that Taiju would take it upon himself to wash your feet every time you return home after an outing with him - thinks of the whole ritual much like how Jesus would wash the feet of his disciples. Plus he just likes you to be clean from the filth of the outside world in general - who knows what kind of germs people carried? As time passed, slowly but surely, Taiju would find himself taking more and more note about your bare feet and how much he liked the shape and look of them. From the curves of your calves to the way your dainty ankles led down to nicely shaped feet. But he would just brush it off as normal - it is normal to love and appreciate every part of your darling. But then you'll have an especially difficult day that had you in tears, and Taiju leans over to plant a kiss on your foot after his usual washing, and boom. Hard on. This boy doesn't understand what just happened, so suppresses his sudden urges and instead bundles you into his arms and carries on. Then it happens again that night - while fast asleep, you toss and turn in his arms, Taiju still awake watching you mumble, and your feet accidentally rubbed up against his crotch. He almost creamed himself, startling awake in an instant, releasing you to roll onto the other side of the bed. What just happened? Denial denial denial, not sure what else you expected from him - to Taiju, it starts off as constant mental accusations. You did something to him, because he's normal. Having an attraction to feet is not normal, and he is a good man. Liking feet was sinful. Then it turns into: it's because it's your feet, and you were wrong for tempting him. And that's what this boy ends up sticking with, this sorry excuse for his newly found feet love. Would never show it outwardly or when you're awake - this is the sort that Taiju would only indulge in in the cover of night when you are already fast asleep. Especially fond of licking your feet and between your toes, which he tells himself its less sinful then going after your shoes because your feet are connected to you, and you are his. Becomes a habit, a necessity even, for him to be a stable or even good mood the next day - this boy can be very grouchy when he wants feet and doesn't get any. Starts becoming very protective and controlling over your footwear, because he can't show any outwardly desire due to your temptation. No more open-toed slippers/sandals/shoes of any kind, only covered footwear that didn't show off the curves of your feet. Keeps your shoes in a special cabinet under lock and key that only he has access to, and you have to ask him to take a pair out for you to wear. Makes you model those sinful kinds of shoes for him at home in the privacy of the bedroom, but pairs it with lingerie or a nice dress so that Taiju can tell you its the clothes that pulls him in. Washes your feet with more fervor that usual till you can't stop giggling cause it tickles, and starts hinting at you to do pedicures so they look good. No admissions ever - admitting its him would mean he was sinful, so it would always your fault for having such good looking feet. Yuzuha and Hakkai guess that its something at night that gets their older brother in a better mood but can't be sure what, so they start putting sleeping drugs in your food.

Kakucho would be the one to fall over himself scrambling to have anything to do with your feet I would say, but as much as possible he keeps his love of all things feet on the down-low as much as possible due to just how conscious he is about himself. This boy would never admit to anyone just how easily your feet got him off, not even to himself, but no matter how hard he tries, can’t peel his mind off how nice they are. You were absolute perfection in his eyes, and of course that extended to your feet as well. Discovered his attraction when you accidentally slipped in front of Kakucho when he was over at your place and your feet landed straight on his face - you were of course extremely embarrassed and apologized countless number of times, but the Tenjiku second in command was too busy trying to hide his blushing face and his raging hard-on from when your toes pressed against his lips. Would be in denial for as long as he can take, but every time he thought he forced himself to forget about it, one sighting of your feet in open-toed heels would send him reeling again. From then on, you would be surprised to find this delinquent suddenly becoming so helpful - Kakucho had always been helpful of course, but never this much. Helps you lace up your shoes whenever you need, trips over himself to help you take off your shoes whenever you go shopping or whenever you come over to his place or him to yours, offers to give you foot massages after a brutal day on your feet. And then when you stay the night at his place, he steals your shoes away after you’re fast asleep to sniff and jerk off. The smell of you having worn the shoes the whole day is strong, and usually thinking about your delicate feet in them is enough to get Kakucho off, though if he is being especially daring and the pair is easy to clean, he’ll cum directly into the shoes while ever so gently pressing his lips to the top of your feet, taking great care not to wake you, before proceeding to hastily wash all the evidence off once he was done. Pretends to be asleep the moment Steals your worn socks for especially desperate days. Feels super shy for having such a weird kink, but you were angelic, and how could he resist? Dream about one day being able to suck on your perfectly manicured toes while you either praise or shame him, but knowing this baby boy, Kakucho would be stuck on the side lines for a very long time. Because even if you were the sort to be willing to help him fulfil his fantasies, Kakucho has that underlying anxiety that you would find him weird and leave him. He can't live without you. Never dream about you touching his feet though, oh no - he wouldn’t be able to live with himself if someone as perfect as you stooped to having to touch his feet.

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areislol · 3 months

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i'll begin writing tmr!! feeling a bit better..

edit: im really looking at the chapter and wow i need to get a move on cuz wtf

#—✧ · . areis rambles

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railingsofsorrow · 1 year

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Anti-Hero

[jj maybank x reader]

SONG INSPIRATION » ANTI-HERO by taylor swift

[ part of the “taylor swift anthology”]

summary: with summer comes changes and you all for it. except when those changes brings a truth you don't want to accept. and your best friend is responsible for leaving you intrigued.

or, in which you and jj have become closer during summer, but growing feelings make you push him away. it might take a storm for you to figure out what you really want.

pairings: jj maybank x kook!fem!reader

w.c: 1.9K

warnings/content: insecurities; self doubt (conversations about not deserving someone); mataphors about drowning (nothing bad happens!); a storm™; sarah cameron gives great advice <3

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A/N: found this in my WIPS and thought it fit anti-hero pretty well. this is my interpretation of the song which I relate a lot. + we got obx s3 being released tmr and this is kind of a celebration to it (I miss my boys and my girls). good reading!

A/N²: poorly edited. I'm sleepy.

-ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈

❝ it's me, hi, I'm the

problem, it's me. ❞

➶ ➷

“I see what you do when you get attached, you know?” Sarah broke the silence after a few minutes. Her hair had gotten a lighter shade of blonde over the summer, you noticed.

It wasn't the only thing that changed in Sarah Cameron during the summer. Your best friend had gotten stronger, much different from when she was last year, less judgemental about certain subjects her dad brainwashed her with.

You were proud of her. So incredibly proud for what she had become.

One thing, however, had not changed at all: how well she was able to read you.

You changed as well. For the better? For the worst? You weren't sure. You just know that your friends had become your family more than anyone else in your life. And you were grateful for that. Maybe, they were a big part of your change during the summer, too.

The dirty haired blond with toned body that surfed the harsh waves in front of you was definitely responsible for those changes, too. You couldn't deny it; you just didn't say it out loud.

“Attached to what?” You replied after a while of observing the boy. He hipnotized you some times. JJ Maybank had a way with you you'd never understand fully.

“Attached to someone, romantically.” Sarah specified, giving you a look to let you know she knew you weren't paying attention. “You're doing it to him.”

You shifted on the towel, feeling apprehensive. Sarah had become fucking bold, huh?

No. She had always been like that.

“I don't even know what you're talking about, Sarah.” You said, playing dumb.

“Yes, you do. I can see it in your face. You venture with someone new, have fun, and as soon as your heart gives that little jump you run away.”

You rolled your eyes, turning to look at your other friends who were engaged in a calm conversation. You watched as John B. pecked Sarah's lips and sprinted towards the sea with his board.

“He cares about you. More than you see,” Sarah's smile died down as his boyfriend dove in and she turned to you again, nudging your thigh with hers. “JJ is a good guy, you know? Which, of course, that does not give anyone a hundred percent certainty of no heartbreak—”

You groan, burying your face in the towel as you spun on your back to the sun.

“Sarah—”

“— and if he does break your heart I'll murder him—”

“Sarah!”

“—but you have to think about trying before giving up, alright?” That caught your attention so you lifted your face to stare at her bewildered. She had a look as if she knew something you didn't. “If you don't try, you'll never see if it will be worth it.”

You knew she said it from experience. Her relationship with John B. had been a shot in the dark. Before they came to know each other better. There were hardships, there were bad moments. But there were good ones. A lot of those; you saw it. And the way they looked and cared for one another... It was all worth it.

A shaky sigh left your lips as you say down again. The sun was gone and the clouds painted the sky a dark shade of gray. A storm was coming. You could feel it.

“I don't even know if he wants a relationship with me, Sarah,” you blurted out, pushing your hair back. “And—and even if he did. It would never work out. We're completely different people. Polar opposites. JJ deserves someone that is worth his time.”

The boys were surfing together, now. Hyping each other up. Kiara scolded them because of the storm and ordered them to come back.

“You're blind as fuck to not notice the way he looks at you like you're a fallen star or something,” she rolled her eyes as you started to play with the hem of your bathing suit. “You need to let yourself feel happiness. I like seeing you happy, it's an amazing sight to see my best friend happy, do you know that?”

Laying your head on her shoulder, you let out a long sigh.

“I like seeing you happy, too, Sarah. I love you.”

“Thanks, I love me, too.”

You slap her thigh, gaining a pinch in your arm. Making a face, you retracted your hand to massage the spot. Sarah grinned at you.

“And who the fuck told you you're not worth JJ's time?”

You gave her an eye-roll as your cheeks heat up. You weren't, you knew it. How could you be? You weren't half of the person you wanted to be and he deserved a hundred percent. Of everything.

JJ Maybank did not deserve halves. He deserved the whole fucking sea. What good would it be for him to have someone wearing masks because the skeletons in their closets was too much to bear?

He already had too much on his plate. You wouldn't add to it. You were the problem, not him.

Looking up at the horizon, the clouds were a deep shade of grey. You could hear the soft patter of the rain against the sand. You raised your palm to feel the tears from the sky.

“Hi,”

Sprinkles of cold water landed in your face interrupting your inner monologue. You flinched when it hit your bear back, too. It wasn't the rain. Lifting your sight to glare at dirty blonde hair and a killer smile, your eyes softened without you noticing.

“A beer for your thoughts?” He offered, plotting down next to you. Seems like none of you were bothered by the coming storm, everyone else was either still swimming or splattered around in the sand.

“Thanks,” you accepted the cold bottle with a smile, taking a sip. “Won't share anything, though.”

JJ gave you a pout, “That wasn't the deal.”

“Tough life, baby.”

His lips stretched in a soft smile. It had been a while since you said the petname. It had been a while since you've held a conversation with him, to be honest. For weeks, JJ had been trying to figure it out what he had done, how he attempted to mess up his relationship with you. It would eventually happen, he knew it. He fucks everything up at some point. Blame it on genetics.

Was it something he said? An action? Had he made you uncomfortable?

He didn't know. He just wanted to make it right again. He felt like you were slipping through his fingers, like the drops of rain falling into your hand. And even if he only were able to have your friendship, that's alright; he didn't want to lose you. Never. You were the stable path he had searched for his whole life. he couldn't miss the trail. Not again.

“You alright?” you asked, noticing the small pinch in his eyebrows as he stared unfocused at the sea. Sarah had abandoned you for John B and Kiara, they were racing each other like children. You hadn't seen when Sarah left her spot, only who took it. You haven't decided if you should be happy or frustrated. JJ seemed to show up every time your thoughts reached his persona. Leaving you unprepared.

The rain was starting to pick up. Maybe you should head in to the Chateau.

You didn't move. Neither did him.

“Yeah. Are you?” He threw the question back at you. Tis tone made you drift your attention back to be beer. You glared at it. And you also mentally glared at Sarah and her stupid words that wouldn't leave your mind.You're blind as fuck to not notice the way he looks at you like you're a fallen star or something.

“Why wouldn't I be?”

“I don't know. Can't read your mind.”

“What's the fun if you could?”

“Then I would know what I did wrong.”

You sucked in a breath, meeting his eyes without meaning to. “What?” You knuckles turned white as you held the neck of the bottle tighter. JJ didn't wavered. He was always the brave one. You were always the coward.

“You've been distant,” before you were able to protest, he rushed out, “Maybe I'm reading too much into it, maybe you really are. I don't know. Did I do something to upset you?”

“No,” you said without hesitation. Because he hadn't. What was happening wasn't his fault. “I— I'm sorry. I didn't mean to.” It was yours. So for the first time —blame it on Sarah-Motherfucking-Cameron—you chose to own the truth instead of offering the easy lie.

His eyes softened. He could see the struggle in your eyes. “Are you sure? 'Cause I can handle it. You don't have to pretend I didn't fucked it up for my sake,” JJ knew you too well to know you would rather be silent than to hurt anyone with your words. Even if it would hurt you. He didn't want it with him. He wanted you to be okay. Truly okay. No masks or lies needed.

“JJ,” you whispered. “You did nothing wrong. I'm just— I'm confused, it's all. It's not your fault, if anything, it's mine.”

He frowned, “Why would it be your fault?”

You sighed, “I distanced myself. from you. I didn't meant to, but I did. It wasn't anything you did. At least not like you think.”

“Not like I think?”

You chuckled at his puzzled look.

“I care about you, JJ. So we should give up from this and just, move on to another subject. An easier one.” You pleaded.

He rasied his eyebrows, “I don't want to move on from this yet,” he felt a bit bold. “Why did you distanced yourself if it wasn't something I did?”

You stayed quiet, watching his fingers pull his now-wet strands back. Your own hair was starting to stick to your shoulders and back because of the rain. It was getting stronger. But your body was frozen because you were caught off guard. You weren't expecting this conversation to arrive today. Or ever. You would never be prepared for this.

“It was easier.”

“Easier?”

“Yes.”

“Why was it easier to be away from me?”

“Because I was drowning and even if I know how to swim I'm not sure I want to.”

Oh.

JJ was in desperate need of your full attention now. But you wouldn't meet his eyes as hard as he burned his onto your face. He was searching for answers.

“That's fine,” he said carefully, scared to drive you away again. “You don't have to keep swimming. You can just... stay afloat for a while. Rest your breath. You won't drown.” The water of the sky tasted salty in his tongue. He observed your profile paint with drops and refrained from brushing a thumb against it.

I've been drowning since the first moment I laid eyes on you. You thought, blinking fast when the rain started to lnd in your eyelashes.

“I can't stay afloat,” you croaked out softly.

“I can help you with that,” you gazed up at him. “It's not hard,” he said with a soft smile, his palm capturing a bit of the storm like you were doing previously. “You just have to believe for a second and relax. Let your mind free, you know? I'll be there the whole time, if you let me.”

Please, let me.

Please.

“What if I drift from the shore?” You frown when his hair fell right into his eyes, drenched. Holding yourself back to not push it back.

“I'll swim and bring you back.”

I'd dive into the end of the ocean to find you. JJ thought.

“I could be too far gone, Maybank.”

Because you're the antihero in your story. You sabotage and you bargain your love life for the sake of being lonely. Simply because you couldn't handle being out of control. Or being reciprocated. It was terrifying to not be loved back. But it was even more terrifying to be loved.

“Never.” he shook his head. “Only if you want to be. Do you want to be?”

Too far gone from you? No.

Never.

I can't. Not anymore.

“No,” you admit after a while. Gaze glued to his. “I don't want to be too far.”

He hums, “Then I won't let you drift away. Do you trust me?” He asked, brushing a stray strand behind your ear.

“I do,” you feel a smile creeping in your face. “Of course, I do.”

He was grinning, a happy glint in his blue eyes. Even with the rain brushing against his face like tears. He was beautiful. “Well, then we don't have much to worry about, do we?”

“No, I don't think we do.”

The storm didn't diminished. And you didn't move. Maybe you could swim close to the shore, after all.

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A/N: part two?

#jj mayback imagine #jj mayback x reader #jj x reader #jj x y/n #outer banks fanfiction #the taylor swift anthology

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harringtonstilinski · 10 months

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requests; open (s.h. & e.m.) / new guidelines

so, i literally just got done with writing always the babysitter. it's bittersweet that my second series is done being written.

my requests are now open until about the beginning of november, where i'll start the proofreading, doing edits and posting of always the babysitter.

the characters that i write for are ;

steve harrington (henderson!reader)

eddie munson (newest addition) [henderson!reader]

stiles stilinski

dave hodgman

stuart twombly

thomas (tmr)

mitch rapp

richie boyle

joel dawson

sam taylor

stuff i won't write ;

unaliving one-self

kidnapping / trafficking

stranger things kids (el, max, lucas, mike, will, and dustin. they will be included in the story if the request is for steve.)

stuff i write if asked ;

a certain character (oc's [emma, and olivia{more background; pre atb}], sibling!reader, smut, fluff, angst, etc)

aged up characters (ex: college!steve & reader, dad!stiles)

au's (soulmate, modern, best friends to lovers, fake dating, break up;back together, secretly dating, enemies to lovers [will try my best for any other au's y'all request])

i do also write stilinski!twins, but those take more time to think about.

rules;

please stay within these newly found guidelines

if you don't see your request within 2-3 days, please let me know which one you sent and i'll do my best to get it out asap. if you don't see it within a week after that, it's because i've gotten busy with my hubbs, kiddos, and the kids i babysit mon-fri from 3pm-5:15pm, est.

reblog, reblog, reblog. i know you've seen this from every other content creator here on tumblr, but it really helps us out. this isn't tiktok where you like something and it shows up in the algorithm.

likes and comments are welcome! i love it when y'all like and comment on a fic i've written.

i am a mama to a 7 & 2 year old, as well as a wife of almost 10 years. please be patient with me. we're also in minor softball season as well.

please have fun!

REQUESTS ARE OPEN AS I AM POSTING ALWAYS THE BABYSITTER. if you still send one in, i will still write and post it for you within 2-3 days after a new chapter has been posted!!

edited to add: anything with an asterisk is just the working title, and is subject to change at any point during the writing process before or even after posting.

#harringtonstilinski #guidelines #requests ; open #stiles stilinski x reader #stuart twombly x reader #dave hodgman x reader #mitch rapp x reader #richie boyle x reader insert #joel dawson x reader #sam taylor x reader #dylan o'brien x reader #joe keery x reader #steve harrington x reader

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lazar-codes · 4 months

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01/02/2024 || Day 11 (dop)

TLDR:

🔸 added last class' ASL words to my program

🔸 worked on toggle for Frontend Mentor project

🔸 started and finished an illustration for fanart

🔸 started and nearly finished editing and rendering my recording of my illustration

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I can't believe I'm sick again. I've gotten sick for 3 out of the past 4 months, and I'm annoyed. Luckily this is the mildest illness compared to the other 2, but it's still not fun. All my symptoms have been spread out, so the past 3 days I've had one runny nostril, yesterday I was completely exhausted, this morning I lost my voice, and now the other nostril's runny.

Work

Frontend Mentor - I've been slowly chipping away at this project but now I gotta get my butt into gear because I wanted to finish this in January, and it's now February and I still have a lot left to do. Today I worked on the implementation of the toggle between the "monthly" and "yearly" plans, and I got it to work by changing the display to either the "monthly" or "yearly" cost to be either "none" or "block". This is basically what the HTML looks like, and below's the functionality for the toggle.

Basically, I get all the elements that have the term "plan_cost" as their class name and for each element, depending on what the toggle is on (i.e. monthly or yearly) I change their display property. I can fix the code to make it not repetitive, but for now it's fine. I've been doing this project using TypeScript and some of my errors are a little confusing, but Google is a good resource.

Anyways, here's what I have so far. It ain't much, but it's honest work;

Art

Ok, I'm gonna do a bit of a ramble here. I've been replaying The Last of Us Part 2 throughout all of January and I finished it last week. It's still an emotionally heavy game, but it did the trick and motivated me to want to draw some fanart. I've been sketching random stuff in my sketchbook almost every day (not lately now that I'm sick but whatever), but there's one idea that I had that I kept on coming back to, and today I had enough energy to sit down, open up Photoshop, and just draw it. And oh man, that felt really good! I haven't drawn in Photoshop in a while because I've been forcing myself to use Procreate, but it's just not the same. I feel like PS allows me to draw with more control of my lines and details and such, and my image just looks sharper than on Procreate. So I actually managed to pump out a piece that looks pretty much how I imagined it would look, and I didn't get frustrated like I would on Procreate. I also recorded my process and was working on making it a speedpaint, but nearly 4 hours of raw footage was rough on my PC and it's already super late at night, so I'll finish up that process tmr. I love making speedpaints and watching them afterwards. At least that'll count for my days of productivity tmr.

#studyblr #100 days of code #codeblr #programming #coding #lazar blogs #100 days of productivity

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