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rubberduckyrye · 2 days

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Okay in all seriousness. There's something that I REALLY want to talk about as an open discussion with the fandom, but. This is not going to be a very nice thing to hear/talk about.

It's about how Gonta is treated by the fandom.

As a fan of all the V3 characters now, and as someone who has always been a fan of Gonta, and as someone who has many mental disabilities and two diagnosed neurodivergancies... I'm tired of playing nice about it.

You all need to stop being ableist towards Gonta.

I've mentioned in the past that I don't like shitting on personal interpretations. I don't like saying something is or is not canon because narration is just a big web of text that you try to decipher with your own personal biases, experiences, and thoughts. That's why two literary analysts analyzing the same text with the same literary criticism rules can come to wildly different conclusions--why people develop different headcanons from the same canonical information.

But one of the things that challenged my integrity is just how many people view Gonta as this innocent, naive, ignorant, baby boy who can do no harm/never has a complicated/dirty/violent/sexual thought in his life ever.

This incredibly ableist interpretation of the character bothered me for, well, obvious reasons (See: It's fucking ableist, need I say more?) but I never challenged it as harshly as I am now because to be frank, it's not my place to tell people how to HC a character. It still isn't. But I've pretty much given up on my integrity on the subject and have decided to go all in on discussing why this interpretation of Gonta is just. Really bad.

First of all, not to promote my own analyses here or anything, but I think this analysis I did of Gonta explains a LOT in regards to the ableism the cast gives him in canon. I also think that this subtle ableism is why the fandom is so bad with Gonta's characterization in headcanons and fanfic--because they've seen how the cast treats him, and they think it's normal. They don't see the microaggressions, they don't see the subtle ableism in the cast--they just see this big giant idiot who speaks like Tarzan in the English version (which... I don't actually know why people assume Tarzan (Thinking of Disney's version) is stupid. Like as a boy he had to reinvent the spear with no one to guide him on how to do it. He was able to strategize and outsmart "civilized" men in the final showdown. Still I digress) and don't see the literal genius behind his social awkwardness.

There is also another very important point I'm going to make in addition to this, and it's going to be very uncomfortable to Gonta fans who insist he's nothing but a sweet baby who only has pure thoughts. Especially to the fans who insist he "can't be sexual" or think it's weird to ship him with his peers.

Sorry to burst your bubble, but... Gonta blatantly has sexual desire and gets horny right in canon.

This is further clarified here:

It wasn't a matter of Gonta didn't want to touch her because touching someone in their underwear was inappropriate, or being flustered because she was in her underwear which is inappropriate...

It was literally a "weird feeling" that made him unable to approach her or touch her. A "weird feeling" that Miu makes pretty obvious as to what it was--sexual arousal.

He literally was sexually attracted to and felt sexual arousal from looking at Miu in her underwear. He had sexual feelings and thoughts about Miu. Why?

Because Gonta is a young man.

Gonta is a brilliant, talented young man who has normal human thoughts for someone his age--sexual desires, upsetting thoughts, complicated thoughts, ectect. He is not a child, he is not mentally stunted (I've been informed that people have literally said this on Ao3 for the NSFW Gonta fics, please for the love of god stop that)

I think the reason why Gonta fans typically want to keep him as a "pure baby child who can do no wrong" is because treating him like the young adult that he is makes it harder for them to justify Chapter 4. Every time I've seen a Gonta fan that hates Kokichi, it's always followed by the sentiment of "Kokichi manipulated and abused Gonta into killing Miu, so it's all Kokichi's fault." They're afraid of nuance and liking a character with the grey morality of genuinely thinking Mercy Killing the cast is a viable option, because it challenges their own morals about the character they adore.

To those people who read this and are upset: You can and should like Gonta! Gonta is a magnificent character who showcases the subtle way microaggressions can manifest and hurt people, he's a good-hearted person and a literal genius, he cares deeply for his friends and loves everyone with upmost sincerity.

But.

You need to re-evaluate your stance on Gonta if you think he's a stupid, naive fool who Kokichi manipulated. You need to re-evaluate why you think those thoughts, why you think Gonta being shipped with anyone is "Kinda weird" or "has weird consent problems" or "give you the ick." You have to challenge yourself and ask yourself uncomfortable questions in regards to why you treat Gonta like a child when canon has proven otherwise, why you think he cannot have violent or sexual thoughts, why he can't think mercy killing his class is the only way to save them.

This isn't an attack on you--but understand that these specific takes on Gonta? They are ableist in nature. They belittle and dismiss him, they treat him like a child, an idiot who can't think for himself--and you have to come to terms with the fact that Gonta is a far more complex character with complicated thoughts and feelings who is a young adult. Not a child. A young adult.

So again, ask yourself this: Why are you treating this young adult like he's a toddler?

#Gonta Gokuhara #Miu Iruma #Kokichi Ouma #Danganronpa V3 #DRV3 #As an AuADHD individual who thinks Gonta is Autistic coded #do you understand how frustrating it is to see this shit #Do you understand how it feels to be infantized? To be told through the lens of a character “You're too stupid to be an adult”?#Worse yet is that I'm also constantly told that me being short and baby faced makes me “child coded.”#Do you understand how ableist this all is. Do you Understand?#Anyway that's one post down. Gonna go read a thing for Star #This does genuinely upset me though as an AuADHDer #Please stop. I am speaking on behalf of people like me--/Please fucking stop./#Tag Edit: Yes this is safe to RB and spread around #Please do RB this in fact

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eshithepetty · 2 days

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Ok. Watched dungeon meshi recently .... and why did noone tell me Falin is also autistic??

Like. Yes yes, all the mob vs laios autism polls are fun, but mob is so much more similar to Falin than Laios - not just in how their autism manifests, or their personality, but like..... they're even both extremely powerful in their magical fields!! They both see and communicate with ghosts!!! They both ride the line between human and monstrous!!!! I love them so much...

But. If we're talking comparisons, between Mob and Laios...

I really think they're two sides of a coin. None is better than the other, they do vastly different things and are great in their own rights because of it.

Laios is an adult with autism who is surrounded by people who are annoyed by his presence or generally find him strange or offputting. He highlights the struggle of that, how hard it can be to find and keep true friends that actually care about you and aren't lying about just tolerating you when you're neurodivergent - and how even when you have great knowledge or skill in something, just as often it helps you, it will also make people look at you weird. He's loud. He's unapologetic. He's passionate!!! And the right people will come to appreciate that. But it doesn't erase the struggle that being so open often comes with.

Mob's narrative, on the other hand, is a coming of age story. It's about a traumatized autistic kid who isn't open, isn't loud, who makes an effort to not stand out - because he got burnt in the past, and he himself burnt others in the past, as a result of how his autism manifests. And it's about how he comes to realize that coming out of that shell is worth it. That there will be kind people waiting on the other side, that you're not doing anyone any good by ignoring your own wants and needs. That you have good to offer to the world!! That there's good people to meet !!! That you have more strength in yourself than you think !!!! And how even at your most destructive, all your flaws and true colors revealed, mask finally off .... your friends will still love you. Because you were always yourself. Even when you were hiding.

They do different things.

Dungeon meshi is a more realistic story - there's no otherwordly psychic powers amplifying the autistic symptoms present. It's just a weird, wonderful autistic man with his encyclopedia of knowledge and his small gaggle of friends. And the autism may not be absolutely central .. but it's there. Following the story every step of the way, influencing it that way or the other.

Mob Psycho 100 on the other hand is a lot more fantastical, and a lot more idealistic. There's no heavy worldbuilding to dive into, and the monsters and antagonists they face aren't the main course - instead, the main focus is on Mob, and his inner world, and gradually revealing more of it. In that way - while DM is an 'outside looking in' kinda story, mp100 is an 'inside looking out' one.

And I love both of them.

(Keep in mind I haven't read the dungeon meshi manga yet, just watched the anime ;^^ so I'm sorry that there's probably a lot more to add to the comparison on that front. Please don't spoil in the notes tho!!)

#this is just a rant that i had to get out lol #me upon watching any media ever: hmmm how can i connect this to mp100.... sorry lol #dungeon meshi #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #meta #autism #ramble #laios touden #kageyama shigeo #my own post

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artisticallygay · 1 year

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Be sure to reblog so I can get a bigger sample size!

#artsy speaks #tumblr polls #poll #neurodivergent #neurotypical #carbonated drinks #soda #sparkling water #preference #text #i'm neurodivergent and i personally love it #i struggle drinking water because it's too plain for me #so sparkling water helps me stay hydrated with the flavor and texture

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chipistrate · 9 months

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The Wizards Favorite Apprentice

One more piece before the countdown 2 Ruin, this time featuring my favorite little dude; Gregory(fucked up edition)<3

RBs appreciated!

Also I hope you don't mind the tag but LOOK!!! THE LITTLE DUDE!!!!!!!! @astro-inthestars

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autistic-beshelar · 2 years

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rue is, i think, in love with the idea of love.

they set a wager. the lords of the wing will find true love in this romantic, ephemeral bloom, if they only seek it. they can win it, as though it’s a game.

they long to abolish the courts. their own court has never held any love for them - why would any other court be different? a court stifles, a court smothers, a court suffocates love. the courts must be abolished, so that love can bloom. true love, love that is unfettered by politics, or station, or duty.

they are the architect of the bloom. the hunt, the heart. the dance. the potions. they will pour love into a cup and the guests will drink their fill. fae from across the realms will fall in beautiful, perfect love at rue’s hand.

they have become the arbiter of love. when an engagement between a cruel prince and a wild goblin is set, what else can they do but judge it unfit? it was not love, it was not true.

they share a moment in a forest with a venerated captain. he is tall, as they are. he is clawed, as they are. he is a beast, as they are, and so beautiful for it. they fall fast, and hard, and heavy. and perhaps it is only the nature of queerness, of a life lived behind a mask, yearning for the faintest spark, that causes them to love so fast.

or perhaps they did not truly fall in love with hob at all. for they did not see him.

they fell in love with a reflection of themself.

except, of course, that hob is not a reflection of rue. hob is his own person, and like any real person, he cannot live up to an idea. and while rue is on a wonderful journey of revelation and self acceptance, it is baffling to them that someone else’s love does not always mirror their own.

rue, in an act of bravery and vulnerability and hope, removed their mask. and they long so very much to remove hob’s - but he has never worn a mask. he has always been exactly as he is - a soldier, devoted and dutiful. an outsider, used and abused by his court. rue’s true form was hidden by their court, while hob’s otherness has always been mercilessly exposed.

rue loves hob for the idea of who he could be, if he could simply unmask as they did. but hob needs, just as rue does, to be loved for who he is.

#this really went from 'rue doesn't truly understand love and is fucked up about it'#to 'rue thinks hob's story is one of queerness but it is in fact of neurodivergence'#and while rue could pass #hob never could #this hurt me to write btw.#a court of fey and flowers #delloso de la rue #captain kp hob #i see a LOT of talk about rue's story being a queer one #which it very very deliberately and wonderfully is #but i see the same being said of hob #and i'm not saying it's wrong to see hob's story as a queer one too #but to me hob's entire narrative is so clearly an autistic one #the abuse and manipulation and straight up gaslighting that he has received from his superiors #reads so clearly as authority figures taking advantage of a neurodivergent person #his whole... inability to accept that anyone could love him for who he is #the way he is othered not so much for how he looks #but for his BEHAVIOUR #for things that are blatant autistic traits #that's... that's an autistic narrative for sure.#not to say that hob isn't also queer #and of course there is so so much overlap between queer stories and autistic stories #but i think that #rue is only seeing their experience as a queer person #they aren't understanding that hob's experience is different than theirs #because he is autistic #also for many other reasons but like. look. we're talking autism babey.#and also i'm not saying rue can't also be autistic or neurodivergent in some way #but they don't have the same experience as hob does

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moonandris · 1 month

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#faye's polls #writeblr questions #writeblr polls #writing polls #writing questions #neurodivergent #neurotypical #neurodiversity #adhd problems #writers with adhd #writers with autism #just adhd things #adhd writers #i HATE having adhd yet also being a super creative person lmao it's like WHY did i get this super creative yet broken brain #i'm really curious to see the results because i love writing but it's so damn hard #i have adhd and it's SO challenging for me to even do tasks that make me happy WITH medication #so i am really hoping to connect with other writers who are going through the same struggles as me #and see if we can share tips and help each other out #because this world is NOT built for people with neurodivergent brains and it's hard out here! *cries in adhd*#so i think it's so important to interact with others and be part of a community that helps each other thrive #please and thank you if you reblog this i really appreciate it #have a blessed day my creative friends <3

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thefrogdalorian · 1 month

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Sometimes I find myself thinking about Din Djarin a little too much that I get concerned and think that I really should go to therapy...

Well, I'm finally doing that (again) tomorrow... :)

Feeling pretty nervous about it but hoping that because I now know I'm autistic it will help me understand/explain things a little better! Hopefully this is the start of a journey to finally become a healthier, happier version of myself :)

#the waiting list was surprisingly short so i'm excited i just hope that they understand neurodivergency #because cbt doesn't work for my brain and i hope they don't try and force a square peg in a round hole so to speak #i want emdr eventually but i have to go through several stages first it seems and it sucks i wish i could afford private therapy #but i also just wish the nhs just fucking functioned lol #anyway that was a lot of acronyms but there we go #having ptsd sucks that's part of why i love din a lot because i can weirdly relate to him. also mando came into my life when i needed it #and as corny as it sounds knowing i can make some silly little gifs and write about the tin can helps regulate me after a draining events #so knowing i can do that whatever happens tomorrow is nice :) oR TODAY it's past midnight here what is a sleeping pattern #anyway once again i just really love din djarin but now no one can tell me to gO TO THERAPY ANYMORE BC OF IT ALSSNJSSK #personal #text post #just autism things

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freckliedan · 21 days

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to contribute to the auDHD for auDHD discourse: almost all phils food dislikes being either textural or smell based is already 👀 👀 but the ep of tipsy talk when hazel asks phil about food and he explains that as a child his parents resorted to bribing him with watching the lion the witch and the wardrobe, BLINDFOLDING HIM and spoon feeding him to get him to eat anything other than his 3 comfort foods....... a sensory issues princess for real lmao

god yeah phil's eating habits are so autism forever and ever and ever and ever amen. i love him so bad

#personally i'm sensory seeking with food/on the adhd in need of variety side of neurodivergent food experiences #i love tallimg abt neurodivergence and food. it's so interesting to me #jam replies #anon #a?

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mxgoldenwood · 2 months

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I'm doing a little project on language development and it got me curious! (this poll is not for academic research purposes, it's just for my own personal intrigue. even so.) please feel free to reblog for reach because I want to KNOW

for purposes of specificity - this is asking about phrases that you enjoy hearing from friends, whether you add them to your own personal lexicon or not

#polls #language #slang #my personal answer is 'I do sometimes' (neurodivergent ofc)#because it's something my brain does naturally but also if I try to type it or say it out loud it often feels awkward/ironic #so the poll is prompted by a sequence of events like... I've been reading about slang and language development lately #caught myself thinking 'naur' in response to a minor inconvenience today #even though I've never typed it or said it out loud #but I love seeing friends type/say it #cue convoluted introspection that I'm now making everyone else's problem. ie I'm curious what y'all's experience is with this kind of thing

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the-annoying-mom-friend · 8 months

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to begin this I'm not trying to be a hater and I'm especially not trying to be a hater of the queer media that we have been getting this summer/will be getting this fall because it is really important BUT it'd be great if the queer media we always talk about would more often be about sapphics

#good omens #rwrb #heartstopper #ofmd #see once again i'm not hating! i love all of those or i think they are kinda cool if i havent seen them #but often they are about beautiful thin (mostly) young (mostly) white men #rich men #or heavily masculine-presenting people anyways #and i know it is greatly marketable to many younger fan(girl)s who feel #more comfortable in their sexualities if they can disassociate from the characters by at least their gender #and it is hard being a teenage girl and comfortable about your body and sexuality and mind and yourself whatsoever which i understand but #but sapphics deserve to be featured in media! they deserve to be seen and loved!#and not just as funny unimportant side characters with no distinctive personalities but as compelling and layered and fleshed out main chara #cters #and also i am focusing on like women/sapphics in this post but #we must be more diverse in the sense of gender race body types neurodivergency disability social status etc etc #and yall know thered be a huge fucking audience to love and support such books/movies/tv shows #lgbtq+#queer media

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keepthetension · 4 months

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i have no carnal desire and i must meme

so! i was trying to think of things closer to my own love/lust/squish/affection/¯\_(ツ)_/¯ language than "i want this character carnally" and the prompts i have so far are:

character/s i want to eat [insert comfort food here] with or make [insert comfort food here] for/with

character/s i want to burrito up in a weighted blanket

character/s i want to [insert hobby/activity here] with

character/s i want to bonk with a cardboard tube

character/s i want stick a gold star/fruit sticker on

character/s i want a bear hug from when i'm down

character/s i want to get tipsy and watch my shows with

character/s whose special interest infodump i want to hear

character/s i want to [insert self-care activity here] with

character/s i want to go thrift store shopping with

character/s i want to have an incredibly unserious debate with

character/s i trust to remember my drink order or make it correctly

character/s i want to bite/scratch

character/s i want to go on a car ride with on a rainy night

and not exactly in the same vein but it's on my mind

character/s that altered my brain chemistry the most this year

most importantly: i encourage everyone to customize these prompts, or simply ignore all of these prompts entirely and use whatever forms their own own love/lust/squish/affection/¯\_(ツ)_/¯ take

tagging the people who interacted with my feeler post but OF COURSE participating is completely totally utterly optional

@regulusmasamune, @jeffsatyr, @chessasincheshire, @baby-droll, @ch3rrysunbl0ss0mx3, @yitewewoteli, @corettaroosa, @pickletrip, @greatpiraticalrumbustification, @libricolaphysicorum, @aro-in-space, @artisannerd, @lyxthenjan, @thisnightsrevels, @simplyafanofmanythings, @le-velo-pour-dru @befuddledcinnamonroll, @bimedusalover pick one, or some, or DIY your own, and have at it if you like! if not, hi, have a nice day! <3

if i didn't tag you and you see this and want to do it, consider yourself tagged and go ahead!

💝

#tag game #blorbo prompts #2023 wrap up #bl series #yes i AM AWARE that 'i desire them carnally' is internet hyperbole AND i'm aware some aces do have carnal desires #but it simply didn't make my brain fizz #plus i saw so many people doing the meme say they're asexual! and i like the idea of more bespoke prompts #not sure if the unserious debate one is clear but it's like the 'oh you think a hot dog isn't a sandwich? here's why you're wrong'#type deal #where neither person actually gives a fuck and it's purely to be annoying #i was thinking of my own aroaceness when i made this but i feel like my fellow neurodivergents might get a kick out of these too #anyway make your own blorbo prompts! have fun! i love you!

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hongjoongpresent · 5 months

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Lonely dance is truly the most fucking song of all time because the lyric "one step forward, one step backwards" sounds so simple yknow oh hes describing the "dance" but that REALLY IS exactly fucking what social anxiety feels like. You take a step forward it doesn't work out and you take that step right back. It's such a simple line and yet it hits smth in me. It's so real

#''somedays I'm up some days I'm down some days the world is way too loud'' yeah dude #not to be neurodivergent on main but this song is. so fucking. yeah #sometimes I. a nd person w social anxiety. relate to a song written by a nd person w social anxiety sorry #midnight best fucking album but lonely dance specifically is so fuckhhfj. the way it builds up to the ALL I NEED IS ME MYSELF AND I #ALL I NEED IS PEACE. AND. QUIET.#dude. yeah #I know this song is 4 years old or whatever but I'm rediscovering my undying love for this album leave me alone #music doesn't have an expiration date. bitch

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bittersweetresilience · 5 months

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aspec characters on my character list: 73/96 arospec characters on my character list: 46/96 aroaspec characters on my character list if i wasn't repressed about it: 96/96

#🌃#the last one is a joke but also it's not i do think i interact with characters and their relationships in a fundamentally aroace way #HOWEVER #i hate headcanoning characters to be different than they are stated to be in canon i think it's incompatible and personally disrespectful #but with gender and aroace headcanons it's different because #the good thing is aroace spectrums cover such a broad range of experiences that it can be reconciled with just about any relationship type #aro people can date ace people can have sex aro people can have unrequited feelings #sometimes being aroace is that fundamental feeling of isolation and not quite understanding how #other people do it like they're getting love right and you don't know what it is or how to get there #sometimes being aroace is not being interested in all of that sometimes it's desperately wanting it and then realizing #what you want isn't exactly the same as what other people do #sometimes it's nonhuman coding sometimes it's neurodivergence coding sometimes it's a drive for knowledge or truth in place of Romance™#sometimes it's connection a bit to the left sometimes it's disconnection sometimes it's hunger sometimes it's looking through a window #reaching or wanting to reach or feeling like you should be wanting and not sure how to deal with the fact that you don't #for me always it's lonely #but it doesn't have to be #i can make these characters happy... like sisyphus and camus...#i don't know what i'm even going on about anymore 😂#THE POINT IS #if you are my favorite character you cannot escape the aroaceification 😘 love you queerplatonically

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wachi-delectrico · 1 year

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Gonna get spicy for a second and say that everyone loves spewing hate about narcissistic (NPD) parents and how awful parents with personality disorders are, but if someone were to make a post with the exact same cadence about ADHD parents they'd get shot in public at first sight