#ill make you wish you did

[chrissy-kaos]

You set me up as the villain

But you never mentioned the root of the problem

Took what you wanted and flipped it

But you won't be draggin' my name to the bottom

So much unsaid

Left me for dead

I won't forget

And now you're next

Well, everyone's listenin'

And they know the difference

You're not failin' our senses

If you're throwin' me to the lions

You should know I'm not scared of dyin', I wouldn't take back

One thing I did, one word I said

But I'm gonna make you wish you did

Jump to conclusions, they fall for illusions

But you wouldn't dare try to stop them

You're going low at the end of the road

But that won't be the path that I follow

#never again #you won't break me #ill make you wish you did #i though you we're different #i thought i was over this #i though i was ok #fucking kill me #transgender #trans #trans pride #transisbeautiful #mtf #mtf hrt #transgirl #girlslikeus #maletofemale #mtf trans #trans community #help me please 🙏🏻 #im dying

[canisalbus]

i've returned for 2 seconds to tell you that they're not leaving my head. (sort of unrelated but i've been thinking as well. what if vasco died before machete ? what would go down)

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#ah this is so terribly cute #makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside #“possessed by the vaschete spirit” you and me both #their expressions are so sweet #couple of dorks #and I like the dusty desaturated color scheme! with pink and darker brown accents #gift art #insect-shenanigans #own characters #Vasco #Machete #as for what would happen if Vasco died first #and I'm assuming of natural causes like illness or old age #I suppose Machete would try to sneakily sponsor his funeral #throw the fanciest burial possible #and maybe add some kind of anonymous half hidden obscure tragiromantic inscription on the grave #about wishing to see him again one day #and then either go on to do what Vasco did and commission art in his honor #or get a bad case of widowhood effect and go downhill quickly after his passing #oh yeah he might start to financially support Vasco's widow so that there was a little less pressure on her to get remarried #as you may remember she's a lesbian and one lavender marriage was probably enough for her #I can see that being a thing in certain circumstances

[a-walking-fandom-reference]

why do so many non-chronically ill people not comprehend that chronically ill means exactly what it says!! an illness that is constant, continuing for a long time, always present.

so yes that does mean it is always affecting me, yes i am still sick/feel bad, yes i am sick/feel bad all the time

#this one goes out to my parents #who you would have thought would have learned maybe something from their first child but they have not #everyday it’s like guess what you’re kids are still in fact chronically ill (+ have developmental disorders) #they make me so frustrated because not only do i have to deal with chronic illness but also unhelpful people who create a negative #environment which guess what worsens chronic illness #rey actually speaks #actually chronically ill #disabled tag #everyday i wish they would not traumatize my sister like they did me and yet they don’t learn

[fried-manto]

🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

#SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE ONE AND ONLY!!!! #we thank shuichi for existing everyday (praying hands emoji) #HAPPY BDAY TO THE MAN WHO GOT ME INTO THIS HELLHOLE #THANK YOU FOR BEING SO HOT AND CUTE AND SMART AND HOT AND SO SO SOSOSOSOSO CUTE!!!!!!! #traditional art cuz i did not trust myself enough to be able to make anything good with digital #LIVE LOVE LAUGH COLOUR PENCILS #fuck my camera quality tho what the actual fuck #this is literally the best one i could use after like 10 takes WITH filters #alr wishing yalls can just come into my house to admire the real thing #ill get better at digital art and next year ILL CREATE SOMETHING TRULY OUT OF THE WORLD FOR HIM!!! #danganronpa shuichi #shuichi saihara #drv3 shuichi #kokichi oma #he's the hand in the upper left corner btw if you cant see it properly #kokichi ouma #kaede akamatsu #hand on the right but honestly you can just interpret that as anyone as well #ndrv3 killing harmony #ndrv3 kin #ndrv3 #danganronpa v3 #my art

[clovariia]

forever friends................dream team...............for all eternity...........

#the ghost and molly mcgee #tgamm #tgamm spoilers #scratch mcgee #scratch tgamm #molly mcgee #todd mortenson #thank you for everything tgamm 😢 #the series finale absolutely WRECKED me #i was BAWLING #what a perfect ending... #scratch is such a special character...the way this show depicts depression and mental illness really hit me so personally #it's really making me rethink my perspective on life...i'm gonna hold this stupid ghost man close to my heart for a long time #i've been watching this show since the day it premiered so it's crazy to see it end... #i wish it got treated better by disney but i'm so grateful for what we did get #also while i was coloring this i realized the shirt scratch wears at the end of the episode is the same color scheme as his ghost design... #😢😢😢

[pcktknife]

On a Genshin Poll from a while ago, you said that you could talk about Xinyan way more and it would be nice hear those thoughts! Xinyan is one of favorite Genshin characters (her design is so cool) so if you don't mind talking about her more, I'd love to hear it!

oh i didnt mean xinyan specifically in general i like talking about design (critiquing.nitpicking.praising.etc) so it really extends to most any of the characters. but you asked about xinyan so ill talk about xinyan. design wise shes very nice to look at for. her colors are all so warm with one of my favorite palettes (black/red/white). shes on the simple side compared to alot of other characters and i think its nice makes her alot easier to draw. pretty easy design to remember. for me anyway (big sleeves/braids.big collar. big hair.spikes) i dont really need to give specific reasons tbh her design is just really good. one of the pyro characters ever

#and shes brown always a huge plus for me 👍🏾 id be willing to say shes black coded whether that was intentional or not idk but the way they #did her thats how it came off. brown girl pioneering rock music yeah. along with other things but thats the big one #her designs just really solid its not too crowded and you can tell what shes supposed to be for the most part. u can tell shes punk at the #very least you may not entirely get rockstar without the guitar but she does have the drum #which makes noise as she runs. i love the sound design regarding the characters accessories i thought that was so cool when i first started #playing. i love xinyan alot wish she got more screen time #and wish the time she did get was alongside characters i liked better everything hoyo does is to spite me #sorry game opinions leaking in #most of the reason i like xinyans design really boils down to her being brown and rocker/punk ill always eat that up #asks #anon #oo also fun lil detail i think ppl miss w xinyan is that her eyebrows have lil slits in them some official art leaves it out too #i think it gives her character ^^ #mhy

[apotelesmaa]

> looking for a tenma siblings relationship study

> ask the op if the study is actually about the tenmas or just treating saki like an accessory to tsukasa

> they don’t understand

> pull out an illustrated diagram explaining the difference

> they laugh and say “it’s a good relationship study sir”

> click the post

> it’s treating saki like an accessory to tsukasa

#project sekai #listen I love tsukasa as I love all the wxs members but i also love saki and cannot stand u people #don’t even get me started on when people fridge saki for contrived tsukasa angst. I’ll kill you. #i could also go on a rant abt how saki is so disrespected in general by pjsk fans #& as sm1 with a (less severe) chronic illness I do not appreciate how her illness is only explored in relation to how tsukasa feels abt it #but I think I would get too frustrated #gripping ur shoulders. read the doll story again. #also if ur talking abt tsukasa’s character & don’t mention saki u have automatically failed #before any of his relationships saki is the most important like it’s not subtext it’s literally just text #did we forget the dazzling event where he finally has a breakthrough in his role bc he talked to saki. #or the main story where he’s like yea saki is literally the reason I pursued acting #or the doll event where he’s despondent bc he thinks saki is mad at him & then when honami comes to his school #his first reaction is to sprint over like WHAT HAPPENED 2 SAKI IS SHE OK (sprints home) #or saki canonically being his no.1 fan. smh. u cannot separate them. and why would u want to. they’re so funny. #+ saki saying he made her hospitalizations more bearable. picking up on his mannerisms. crying during the doll festival bc they had a fight. #the dolls being her favorite things bc of how it symbolized their bond. #the complex tenma sibling mental illness web in general makes me crazy. #saki is like I love u but I wish u wouldn’t worry abt me so much and rely on me more & then tries to hide issues to make him not worry #tsukasa is like I’m always worried abt u and I don’t want to burden u because I feel like I need to always be a rock for u #ough. love them.

[orpheuslament]

on the way back from the gym i saw two teenage girls on scooters in the middle of the road & they kept crossing each other & interlocking their feet & they looked like they were having so much fun i hope they have the best summer of their life

#it did make me fucking miserable bc i lost all my teenage years to crippling mental illness + being closeted so i never got to experience #that feeling of freedom. or at least i cant remember & i cant help but feel like something was stolen from me #i wish i could grab 13 year old dante by the shoulders & tell them to please please please make the most out of it #i know it feels like the world is going to end every single day but theres so many beautiful things to experience #& one day you will be 25 & you will miss yr friends & ask yourself why you wasted so much time #i know its not your fault you were just trying to survive & you did do beautiful things!!! but God #dante.txt

[puppydoggraham]

No frame will haunt me more than this.

Seeing Hannibal this fucking broken... Will Graham you’re a sick bastard.

#I’m going insane over mizumono again #fucking fuck fuck #FUCK!!!!!!!!! #listen I understand he couldn’t run away for yk reasons (THOUGH HE SHOULDVE) but fuck dude I wish he did god damn it will #incoming post about mizumono coming up I’m going insane #no but can I also say that I have never seen an actor…portray emotion THIS fucking good #Mads is literally the actor of all time #did he win anything for this scene specifically bc if fucking not that’s a goddamn crime #do you know how hard it is to make this expression like fuck this is insane it’s fucking insane #bro wasn’t even acting at that point he just became Hannibal dude #UGHHWJSKDJ I can hardly even look at the screenshot that’s how ill it makes me #ngl I will always have some beef towards will for not running away with Hannibal #this frame genuinely haunts me btw I’m so serious like #seeing Hannibal this fucked up…yeah #fuck #I. could write an essay on this frame and this frame alone #I think I will #maybe #mizumono posting

[elegyofthemoon]

can someone remind me to write up my thoughts about gallagher and the enigmata later or at least compile them somewhere i want to share it but also my Goodness i am sleepy as heck today and i have work tonight 😔

#and its a saturday so its gonna be busy asldfjkasdlkah #im just. im so sleepy man #and i have to wake up early too for work tomorrow so i just. Im going to Die between today and tomorrow count on it #but at least on monday-wednesday ill make myself catch up on sleep #love the work but on the downside MY SLEEP..... #i forgot if i said it here. idk where i was posting bro #but the other day i 100% the theme park and am close to 100% dewlight pavilion so i'll be nearly caught up with all information #that + still need to read #but im also nearly caught up with all the reading in penacony too so thats super fun and exciting !! #but because of that i have thoughts askjdfalh #most of it is towards gallagher and the past of penacony and the watchmaker but. you know alskdjfalskjh #avil plays hsr #hsr 2.1 spoilers #just in case o7 #i will say though #its wild i havent run into any information regarding the dreammaster at all really #the one who adopted sunday and robin #who is the dreammaster? why does the dreammaster and watchmaker have beef with each other? whats going on? #where did the shift come from between the watchmaker being the father of penacony to the family being in charge #since the family and the watchmaker are kinda against each other #(shakes the game) I WILL KNOW YOUR SECRETS SOON ENOUGH. AS SOON AS I AM MORE AWAKE ITS OVER FOR YOU. #i wish i had someone to ramble about ideas with and like bounce off of #WE CAN SOLVE THE MYSTERIES OF PENACONY! TOGETHER! #and then probably get our asses killed too by getting to close to the legacy 😔✌🏼 itd be the way of the truth

[fourx]

I like yhis guy a lot

#she just makes me really ill if i think to hard #i really like this show im sad this character is being reduced to ship fodder #hes so ill and insane #honestly took an aspect i wish was explored more with four and did it better ( #using media you like as a means of escapism #also this shows music choice is some of the best ive heard in an object show

[commander-gloryforge]

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#damn . if i like. ever did something wrong i wonder why they dont just talk to me about it #like idk i thought when they like. vagued about *someone* i had to convince myself that it wasnt me #like i literally went through our messages to make sure i didnt say anything wrong #but apparently it was me after all? i just wish they wouldve. idk. talked to me about it #it feels so hypocritical? why are you allowed to say what you think and im not #unless i actually did what you claimed but i cant remember this happening nor can i find messages where it happens #and even then instead of vaguing about me when you know im not doing well you can just approach me #or is there a whole different reason? do you avoid me because of something else? am i just not on your level after all? #if it was any other person i wouldnt have cared so much but they were one of the first friends i made there #we worked out so well in the beginning and now you realised im not who you thought i was and instantly replaced me #why does this shit ALWAYS happen to me? is there something wrong with me or is it everyone around me? #this is why i dont approach people. this is why im so intimidated by others. it doesnt work. ill always end up being less. #everyone always ends up being better and more and i am the replacable one. idk. just sucks

[sluckythewizard]

SHHH SH HEYYY HEY DONT TELL ANYONE BUT... ive been workin on smth since BITB came out..... itsa lil musical animatic involvin kian and becky.... ITS NO WHERE NEAR DONE YET but loooook look im puttin lil screenshots under the cut. its supposed to go along with Am I In Heaven? by King Gizzard n the Lizard Wizard. infact yknow what cmere come sit with be bc ALOT of songs from the 'IM IN YOUR MIND FUZZ' album makes me think about becky and kian. oh my god. those two make me so damn emotional. like Her and I was the first one to rly resonate with me, and EMPTY was another good one, all just stuff about. yknow LOVE!! doomed by the narrative yet burning SO SO brightly in its last moments, holding hands, playing music, THEY WERE SO IN LOVE WITH YOU THAT THE COPY OF THEM LOVED YOU, AND YOUR COPY LOVES THEM TOO. WHAT A BEAUTIFUL, CRUMBLING, BURNING, HISSING, SQUIRMING, MELTING, CLICKING LOVE STORY..

GET OVER HERE N SCREAM WITH MEEE I LOVE SCREAMING ABOUT THINGS

#THIS IS A DRAFT that i made like. months ago. woopsie. #BUT IM CHIPPING AWAY AT IT AGAIN. IT CANT STAY UNFINISHED FOREVER. ONE DAY YOU WILL ALL SEE! YOULL ALL SSSEEEE!!!!!!! #no reblogs either this stays between US!!!!!!!!!! #and if you guys like it enough i might post an old fuckin wip i have all packaged together on youtube. its a VIDEO it goes w the MUSIC!! #SOUND WITH THE MOVING IMAGE?? IVE ONLY EVER DONE IT ONCE!!! #ill post the Lord of Lightning animatic i made on tumblr when i get the chance. in the meantime i ahve it posted on twitter. GO FETCH #but THIS SECOND ONE is out there.. all synced together.. #but its a wip and its rough and old and scuffed and i HATE IT. my son whom i wish was dead #but you can see it. for the small small price of uh. begging. #also ouuhh my god i love becky and kian so much... they make me so emotional.. SOMETHING ABT DOOMED SHIPS... #even as the boat sinks these two clung together so tightly. they really really did love eachother so much. even after ten years of ROTTING #of sitting and waiting and wondering 'where is she?' is she lost? hurt? did something happen? is she okay? did she even want to be here? #does she hate me? did she leave because she hated me? she never wanted to see me again? where is she? where is she? guess ill write a song #FOR TEN YEARS. when i was just busy. i was distracted. so much came up. things got serious. my dream became clear and i had to chase it #i didnt know you were waiting. im sorry. i should have chased the thought of you more. but i was busy. i was just busy. #i wish that i could apologize with the throat that was my own. i hope this copy will suffice. i hope this copy will suffice. UGH

[thatfanfictionchick]

I would have Destroyed myself for You

or: you can't love the mental illness out of someone, no matter how hard you try

or: first love isn't always steeped in romance but it will rewrite you just as strongly

I wish there was a deeper sentiment than love for how I felt about you.

I wish I could meet you for the first time all over again, remember how a soul sparks to find its mate with terrifying clarity.

I wish men who professed themselves to God knew that they would never understand what it was like to stand in awe of Creation the way I did watching you.

I wish I could have swallowed your anger, put your insecurity to bed. Wrapped it all in a soft blanket and comforted it with the soft glow of moonlight.

I wish someone had told me it wasn't my responsibility to mediate your unhappiness.

I wish someone had told me I didn't have to make myself an island every time you chose offense over understanding.

I wish I could have held your hands more.

I wish someone would have told me to stop sifting through the rubble after every one of your storms trying to find an apology broken up amongst the justifications. There wasn't one.

I wish I knew then that toxic relationships aren't just romantic

I wish I'd known you were planning to leave. I would have asked you not to.

I wish driving past your old house didn't make me want to cry.

I wish I knew how to train my brain to unwant you after all this time.

I wish we were the same again.

#mental illness #first love #having a mental illness does not in any way make you 'bad' or 'less than' #but #i wish i'd been told sooner that loving someone with a mental illness wasn't an excuse for them treating myself or others the way they did #falling in love and falling apart

[ladystoneboobs]

House of the Dragon s01e05 We Light the Way // Game of Thrones s02e06 The Old Gods and the New // House of the Dragon s01e05 We Light the Way // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter LVI, Theon V // House of the Dragon s01e07 Driftmark // Game of Thrones s02e03 What Is Dead May Never Die // House of the Dragon s01e07 Driftmark // Game of Thrones s02e07 A Man Without Honor // House of the Dragon s01e07 Driftmark // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter LVI, Theon V // House of the Dragon s01e07 Driftmark // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter XXXVII, Theon III // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter LVI, Theon V // House of the Dragon s01e07 Driftmark // Game of Thrones s02e06 The Old Gods and the New // House of the Dragon s01e09 The Green Council // Game of Thrones s01e04 Cripples, Bastards and Broken Things // House of the Dragon s01e09 The Green Council // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter LXVI, Theon VI // House of the Dragon s01e09 The Green Council // A Clash of Kings by George R. R. Martin, Chapter XLVI, Bran VI // House of the Dragon s01e09 The Green Council // Game of Thrones s02e03 What Is Dead May Never Die //

#gotedit #hotdedit #asoiaf #theon greyjoy #alicent hightower #long post #(c)lsb #in the entitled quote ali's being somewhat irrational and unfair bc nyra did not take an eye she's not trying to keep it away #rhaenyra was only trying to protect her own little boy whose eye alicent felt entitled to #while theon thought asha wanted him dead when she came to wf to save him tho she didnt have to and hes wishing her ill #and then we don't have a direct reaction to 'now they see you as you are' but you can see the words before that getting under ali's skin #making her look even more hurt and bewildered by her former bff than she already was on this night when her son was maimed #compared to theon still hurt by robb's ingratitude months later and caring abt being liked in wf even after his men killed some of the folk #so that's more a vibes based thing but the rest should be self-explanatory #happy theon thursday! #the book citations are so detailed bc i had this fully edited almost a week ago scheduled for next theon thursday #so i kept coming back to the queue to look at my work and make small little edits

[flamboyant-king]

You know me. I like barely ever show any NOT SAFE FOR WORK drawings on here. So instead, I'm sharing drawings of my face AS I was drawing each NOT SAFE FOR WORK thing.

And the subject is right there, smack dab in the middle. Being tormented by the sins of the egg. (I drew him really cute but I can't share the rest.)

ALSO, I'd like to state that it's not corngraphic except like two maybe, it's more so like violent. We are all just having fun beating this guy up. Like, step right up and stomp on his face type shih. I never ever ever draw violent stuff, unless it's lewling related, so this is like cathartic.

This uhh feeling will fade after Halloween hopefully and we'll go back to our regularly scheduled wholesomeness and cammypus.

#i looked in a mirror 20 feet away as reference because im like NYAHAHA WHAT EVILS HAVE I COMMITED #and i see my own smug face in the mirror like 'yes this will get me hunted down' #sketches #i do comedy slapstick violence but ya know doing more darker jokes and adult humor feels nice like im not censoring myself #i mean i still am by not showing you guys a lot of the bloody or even H O RN Y stuff but ya cant expose everything #like for those of yall who have followed me for years id say were all legal here for more than my usual 13+ content #i just want ro be appealing to a broader audience IN CASE i ever did make it somewhere but haha its been what #8 years since i started this blog. any credit i had died off with teeny taku fhjdjsksajsk #ive got no image to uphold. i have nothing im trying to promote anymore. i do but ive lost the plot ya know #im just having fun and im glad you guys are just ...letting me? like i looked at my old stuff #with the cookies the pokemans the fehs the ocs. and yall just let me go freaking wild and thought #yeah ill give that a like. bless yalls hearts. bless ya souls. ive got thousands of posts on here and yall just let me run wild #and thank you for that. ya never pit pressure on me. kts me outting pressure on myself. #i do wish there were folks that did look forward to some actual tangible content instead of me shitposting with no cohesiveness #but thats just hard with adhd. and try as i might with medications and alarms and deadlines and what have you. its just. difficult #like even the tags here are derailing. but i hope that alongside me just having fun doing my thing. i hope i can get on course #where there is a clear line to follow in my life but i dont lose sight of it as i trail off #but for now. im just drawing experimenting and straight up goofing around. have fun you guys #i may not show you everything but just know im having fun too.