there's something sooooooo heartbreaking about quests as a narrative piece. you set out on this journey to rescue someone or defeat a great evil and along the way you face hardship and horror and you grieve and fight and love and lose and then when it's all over you come home. everything is the same as when you left, but you're so irrevocably different that you no longer fit in the one place you used to be truly at peace. you're tired from your journey but you find no rest or recovery, only ghosts. and you almost wish for another quest, another dangerous mission, because at least then you know your purpose.
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no bc people are actually fucking disgusting abt will
if i see one more mfer call him a��‘predator’ for having a crush on his best friend i will lose my absolute shit. HE IS A CHILD. his crush is super innocent and some people in this goddamn fandom act like hes going to use his evil gay powers of seduction to ruin milkvan.
like its giving unhinged its giving in need of therapy its giving pls what the actual fuck is wrong with some of you.
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head in my hands. well. no more accordion for me. i picked my beloved up off the ground to do some practice and accidentally banged her off the piano keyboard and now theres a constant bass C droning but the button isnt stuck so it's something internal that's gotten bonked out of wack. and unfortunately accordions apparently need experts to even just do a simple tuning, so I'm certain this isn't going to be fixable for me unless i can both find someone who knows accordions AND be able to afford the fix, both of which are incredibly unlikely. so ... no more accordion :[
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ah, the ever-more-frequent Urge To Explode My Brain from unending migraines. a migraine that just lasts the day already sucks so bad. whole day is gone in a blur of pain and misery, right ? a migraine that lasts multiple days is sort of like if hell was real and you were in it. time has no meaning, only pain, etc.
months of migraines... with no break or end or effective treatment and also you still have to work and behave like a normal person because you cannot lie in bed for months not paying rent. well id describe it you but ive fucking lost the plot. its gone on so long and its so bad that when the migraine ISN'T at its peaking on the pain scale and making me feel like if i was hit by a truck that would be an improvement, i start to feel like my head is a vestigial organ that has been removed. cant access sensation in my head and it feels literally disconnected from my body. meanwhile the pain is still there (along with the brain fog, vertigo, nausea, etc) but it feels like its happening to somebody else.
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MAC MAC. SORRY I GOTTA RANT IN UR INBOX I’M HAVING MAD AT GENLOSS THOUGHTS. BUT THAT POST ABT THE BACKROOMS/POOLROOMS AND UR TAGS ABT WHAT YOUTUBERS DID TO IT GOT ME THINKIN. THIS IS THE EXACT PROBLEM WITH GENLOSS. ranboo took an already potentially scary concept—the deterioration of something when it’s been recorded over and over again until it’s incomprehensible, which could have been really cool if he had done it as an analog horror and made it so reality itself was deteriorating around them—and just fuckin. put Ooh Spooky Scary things in it and completely botched the concept. the fuckinggg. hey heres a big scary corporation CLEARLY WATCHING THE CHARACTERS!! ISN’T THAT SOOO SCARY AAAA!!!1! and the wire monster. and the “twist” villain hetch. the deaths. like. do u know brian david gilbert’s video Teaching Jake About The Camcorder??? that’s similar to what i wanted from genloss. if genloss was like some old video or show LIKE A SITCOM!! OR A GAME SHOW!! OR A HOME VIDEO!!! and the first season was was like almost completely normal and the second one was like a replay of the same episodes but Just Slightly To The Left and it progressed until it turned into something horribly irreparably distorted THAT WOULD BE COOL. THAT’S WHAT I WANTED. AUGH. PAIN. backrooms 🤝 genloss: oooh spooky scary monster makes things scary right??? ok sry i’m done i just HADDD 2 RANT. OK BYE
GODDDDD NO WHISKEY COME BACK UR SO SO SO SO RIGHT. I THOUGHT ABOUT GENLOSS AS I WAS WRITI G THOSE TAGS. actualy i was really thinking about the charlie/tommy/ranboo youtube vids where they just say "we're in the backrooms!11!1!" over and over again. like. aughghghhhg. god. genloss rlly is just ooooo let me shove this spooky scary thing in your face with 0 subtlety. there u go i have made horror. like thats NOT HOW IT FUCKING WORKS.
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i passed out and woke up again to see that they lost the match fucking wow world can i catch a fucking break for once jfc
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i made a list of all the steps for my time sheet, and by all the steps i mean NOT all the steps, just the ones that will take at least an hour. i tried to break up the ones that would take multiple days, though. there are tons of small steps not mentioned bc i bundled them into larger tasks that i will do all at once (so, lashing the warp to the beam, for example, isn't its own step as it'll only take maybe 15 minutes to do a whole panel, if that, so it's just under step two--threading the heddles)
all this to say, there are 39 steps. and a good chance i will need to break it up further if some steps end up requiring their own section.
its. so many steps.
STEP ONE--MAKING THE WARP
warp 1: 6 hours
warp 2: 4 hours
warp 3: 2 hours
warp 4:
warp 5:
warp 6:
warp 7:
warp 8:
warp 9:
STEP TWO--THREADING THE HEDDLES
warp 1:
warp 2:
warp 3:
warp 4:
warp 5:
warp 6:
warp 7:
warp 8:
warp 9:
STEP THREE--SLEYING THE REED
panel 1:
panel 2:
panel 3:
STEP FOUR--TYING TO BEAMS AND WINDING ON
panel 1:
panel 2:
panel 3:
STEP FIVE--WEAVING
panel 1:
panel 2:
panel 3:
STEP SIX--CUTTING CLOTH OFF OF LOOM AND UNDRESSING
panel 1:
panel 2:
panel 3:
STEP SEVEN--TRIMMING, BASTING, AND WASHING PANELS
panel 1:
panel 2:
panel 3:
STEP EIGHT--HEMMING PANELS
panel 1:
panel 2:
panel 3:
STEP NINE--SEWING PANELS TOGETHER
panel 1 to panel 2:
panel 2 to panel 3:
STEP TEN--FULLING
time:
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