#im sick nd tired of it

[bunnihearted]

im the one society marked as avoidant yet im always the only one who wanna fucking talk things thru. y'all are a fkn joke!!! im sry but u rlly are 💀 im the avoidant one. the one scared of conflict nd afraid of talking.... yet im always the one staying and begging to talk while the other one just leaves or is a wall nd refuses to talk abt it 😹😹😹😹😹

#im sick nd tired of it #sooooo many ppl say they wanna talk #nd blah blah fucking blah #it's never ever true #!!!!! im so sick of ppl jesus fucking christ #im sick of society telling ME im the sick one the distubed one #im the one w a personality #w a personality disorder lmao*** #yet every one else are x100000 more avoidant than me #it's a joke!!!!!! absolutely fucking ridiculous #i barely have patience w ppl anymore bc all they do is blah blah blah but 1% of what they say is actually true #yeah yeah blah blah you're just wasting air atp maybe just stfu #dont say things u cant stand for #god im so fucking angry like????? why is it so hard for y'all to fucking TALK. say what u mean!! say what u wanna!!!! #talk things our instead of running away like a dumb fkn coward everytime smth gets a bit tough #or it's more like everyone have these extremely high nd uttainable expectations nd demands of u #nd if u dont live up to them suddenly you're trash nd they dont even want to talk abt things #bc you're not the perfect little thing they made up in their head #ugh fucking yikes people are so incredibly infuriating #i wish i could just find my ONE person nd then just go off nd be w them nd not bother w everyone else jfc #ok i obvi cant speelll when im angry whatever

[softshuji]

eldest daughter syndrome really do be kicking my ass tbh

#i just find it like so unfair yknow #im the only one who works in myhouse and full time #but i come home and the house isnt clean and i tidy up and sort everything out and tidy the kitchen anf living room after dinner and put #my sister to bed and yk if there was no one else to do these things id understand but #i have 5 brothers all of whom are adults and they dont lift a finger #its not as if any of them work bec they dont and neither does my dad #and im so so so exhausted yk? bec not everything is my job or responsibility #and i keep blaming other things for me getting sick but yknow what maybe i just dont rest enough #and the other day i was upset bec i'd had a tough day at work and i felt unwell and i cleaned up everything after dinner and my brother #said i didnt have a right to be upset bec i “chose” this. like as if i chose to work full time nd do all the chores for a family of 9 #and it just really upsets me bec no one sees an issue with it and im so mad at my mom at rhe same time #constant therapy sessions w her bec shes mad at my dad and wants someone to vent at and then he does the same abt her and my brothers #and im so tired yknow just sososos tired bec she'll complain abt how they dont do anything but then she wont ensure they do either #its just empty complaints whereas she thrust responsibility on me when i was 9 and yet my brothers are 18+ - all but one that is and they #cant even do their own laundry bec she just..... did everything for them all the time but now is mad that they cant do anything. #like yes i know my dad is a failure of a husband and a father i expected that i'll never be a good enough daughter for him and that the onl #thing he has to say about me is that im bringing shame on our family despite everything ive done but come on #im just tired and upset #its hard not to see yourself as a robot or machine when theres little room to be anything else. #and even on a day like today when i dont feel well it never stops and i just keep doing #im sad i want a hug from my gangster bf #oh god i am sorry pls do not perceive me for this #and yk what #thats why i cant stand when people are nice to me bec all i can think of is #i havent done anything to deserve this? i should have to give something in return #or if not #theres something this person must want because why else would they be nice to me when i havent done anything for them #i cannot fathom the concept that someone just wants me because its me #its literally just not possible why would anyone fo that for me

[kittyking445]

Hey portal Tumblr I made a connection. No clue what it is but it sure is a connection

#portal #portal 2 #glados #portal caroline #gove me a break im sick nd tired rn

[tianshiisdead]

Forget school actually please send hate to distract me from no money I'm so hungry o(-( dunno how much longer I can go with the 1 food item per day money saving scheme to attempt to afford rent

#diary #eating issues cw #not bc eating disorder for oncebut yk #mfw my periods stopped #idk if bc food or stress but wehhhhhhhhhhh hewp me #mfw ottawa unlivable rn #next sem student loans should save me for a while but they dont come till Jan... #like. ive been here before but im rlly sick this time (im usually sick but lol) and then exams on top of that and stress abt grandparents #im excited to see parents for xmas bc i feel like i cant continue on sometimes and i dont feel safe being alone in my flat #esp bc its so... like. dark aand small yk and i get claustrophobia but housing is so expensive rn so its the only place i could afford #idk idk its nothing new but im at the end of my line rn #ive been sleeping w the lights on despite cost bc paranoia and i think its fucking with me tbh tbh but again claustrophobia #like in general idk if i can go on like this 🗿🗿 #i feel so sick and cold every day and also tired nd its hard to study when im scared to buy water bc card may decline and my fridge is empty

[girlwithfish]

grocery shopped after work im the bravest girl eber

#why is walmart expensive too lmao #medicine is soo expensive even when i buy the cheapest optiok lol #i got this eucalyptus spray for the shower and cold medicine and #also treated myself to a body oil and sugar scrub i wanna feel clean and prettyy 👍skincare #making pasta tnte im cooking 🤷‍♀️too #Need the eneegy to shower #i also shld rest im so tired going to work sick sucks i wish i cld call out it just feels impossible nd hard when its a daycare nd if u call #out everyone has to get moved around and they will have.me skip lunch for like a week probably if i was out one day. lmao #its not too bad i just cant hear very well and my voice is weak and nasally im gross

[loversdomain]

yk what im gonna do it, BC NOBODY ELSE IS GODDAMIT DOING IT. im gonn attempt a joel x daughter or platonic!younger reader bc i am DONE.

#gonna write a joel w platonic!reader fic all for me #he wont be ooc bc what i say goes #its not ooc when i do it bc im right goddamit #me nd ellie r bffs 4eva nd we both just take the piss out of joel #I JUST WANT A JOEL DAUGHTER FIC PLZ FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS HOLY JESUS CHRIST #idec if its pre-outbreak or an au where it never happens or a cute little post-apocalyptic fic just give me something other than smut please #like i get hes attractive but omg where is the ANGSTY TEEN DAUGHTER VS DAD FICD #WHERE IS THE COMFORTING FICS #yall r not appreciating the fatherly qualities of this man and i am SICK #I AM SICK AND I AM TIRED #im on half term nothing will stop me #requests open #the last of us #mjl.speaks

[custer-mp3]

just remembered i have to go to a birthday party after close tomorrow

#REALLY LOVE THE ADDED LAYER OF HAVING TO NAVIGATE SOCIAL SITUATIONS AS THE ONLY CRIPPLE IN THE GROUP WHEN I AM ACTUALLY IN NO SORT OF STATE #TO BE GOING ANYWHERE MUCH LESS DOING AN ACTIVITY THAT REQUIRES BEING UPRIGHT #like it just makes me not wanna go anywhere like i'm already having a flare. i'm already miserable cuz of the brain fog + im in pain. and #now i'm expected to be FUN & ENGAGING???? WHILE ALSO BEING THE ONLY PERSON WORRYING ABOUT PERSONAL COVID PROTECTION. IN A GROUP THAT INCL #UDES SOMEONE WHO'S ON DAY 5 OF COVID. LIKE. COOL #i can't NOT GO it's my v sweet trans nd coworker like she would be crushed if i did not go cuz she thinks i'm so cool & fun but also #goddamn. i haven't even STARTED tmrw yet & i already wanna be home wrapped in blankies and heating pads like i'm already done w tmrw tonite #also like i'm getting rill sick of how all my coworkers decided PANDEMIC'S OVER!!!! and keep dragging covid into the store ecosystem #LIKE CLEARLY NOT IF A DIFFERENT ONE OF Y'ALL IS OUT WITH IT EVERY WEEK #meanwhile i'm still 24/7 hacking up mucus so hard i puke or brown out like i have been since DECEMBER when one of them gave me Not Covid DW #truly even that is like. debilitatingly exhausting. gasping for air all the time cuz i'm choking on wads of thick sticky mucus is SO TIRING #like it makes my job 2000% harder cuz it interferes with my ability to speak normally & trying to do my job generates these huge heaving #coughing fits i can't catch my breath from

[caruliaa]

ugh.

#IDK WHAT BEEN UP W ME RECENTLY. ugh #ive been so tired always i feel and like. easily distracted and i feel like im being a shit friend bc im so bad w messaging back and stuff #i havent seven been remembering to log into discord recently whats up w me #ugh idk. it just sucks i feel like im suddenly drained of all my energy and its affecting everything. ugh #and like i wanna talk more than i am to my friends i ike talking to them im just. idk im j too tired for anything somehow #and idek how and im so sick of this version of myself i become sometimes were i cant do the most basic of talking to people #even when i really want to. idk. #on that note im rly sorry for not answering sending asks nd sneding them i just. idk i have to go to sleep #or the problem of me being so tired is just gonna get worse im sorry. gn ilu<3 #(also j to clarify no one is making me feel tht way or anything i j kinda do. el oh el)

[simonstamenovic]

well that's the worst dreams I've had in forever. i feel worse than when I went to bed. by far. by so so much.

#outgoing transmission #gets assaulted in my dreams nd has several panic attacks as well as adolin stuff and im just sk tired and um #vulnerable i guess. it felt bad ! snd now I'm think ing of a lot. I'm tired. my eyes hurt. snd i wnt to scream and cry #this really is. this sucks so bad i feel really awful and sick now.

[kulliare]

everytime i hang out w my friends i feel sooo depressed after its like

#i feel like its what masking feels like lmaoo #i don’t even know if i like these people i just kind of hang out w them #tbh im starting to feel like all i want to be is lied to LMAO #like im aware this art piece is messy but there was no way i could make it look good in 1/2 hrs like 😩 im baby #they didnt mean to be rude i think its just what we do but im so tired of it #like sometimes i just feel sick after nd im like ok well. wats up w u lmaoo #at least i could talk this time bc last time i couldnt and it was messy #also i swear these will be my last few personal posts in awhile lol #1 or 2 hrs not like 1/2 lol :(

[bunnihearted]

🪦🩹

#it's so mentally draining nd taxing for me to live w my family... #they are never considerate towards me and always treat me like a bother #even after my surgery my sisters kept making sure i knew i was a burden and took up too much space #i could tell how sick my mom is of me too #it's just so exhausting #bc like now when i only slept 3hrs bc of tooth pain nd then couldnt sleep more #nd now still have tooth pain nd im rlly tired nd need to wake up early tmrw to call the dentist #my mom nd sister r in the living room watching tv #so i asked if they could plz be mindful of the volume #nd they sighed nd rolled their eyes nd said yeah yeah whatever #like im an awful demanding person for even daring to ask them this #it's just not fun to have to deal w constantly #sorry im in pain nd i wanna try to sleep as much as i can but i cant even try when i can hear u laugh nd talk etc etc #just rathet be alone :(( #but yeah idek if i'll be able to sleep bc the pain isnt fun #im trying to just breathe nd accept that it is there nd that hopefully the dentist can help T-T #am i bad for wishing to be shown consideration nd sympathy? sometimes i even wanf them to feel sorry for me

[skeletonmaster69]

im goign to be honest i am so tired of the fucking needle thing

#post with picture of needles. not real needles like heavily stylized needles. #made me breathe harder nd now i feel very weird and bad and upset #todays been a bad day so this isnt like Normal but im so fucking tired of it #literally like the days before i have to get a blood draw every single time im filled w constant anxiety #i feel sick rn just thinking about them cuz im writing this #google search how to get over fear of needles #i am not going to block images of needles im not letting myself do that i understand why someone would but for me for this thing no thankd

[ace-with--a-mace]

im so sick snd tired of my school

#gifted kid burnout/mental exhaustion whtevr you wanna call it sucks but also the racism o my fuckin god #not only do i habe to deal with regular student shit cuz rhe school system sucks but these mfs are jus shoutin the n word #and then in the year of our lord 2023 unless its a mandatory elective im the only black kid in my class (1 of 2 if im lucky) #so im sittin there in algebra and these kids make jokes ab sayin the n word or go oo oo ah ah and look at me like i can do anythin #cuz the teachers let it happen nd if u report them to my 'very accepting' school they get a slap on the wrist if ue blessed #and then you gotta deal w the rest of their group hatin on you and peers sayin that your soft or this or that or #im sick snd tired of it AND THEN EVN THE PPL WHO ARE “CHILL” DO IT SO YOU CSNT ESCALE #this shit pisses me off so bad i swear the next nonblack person to call me the n word is gettin whipped since they wanna be black so bad #l speaks #shut up l #keep talking l #ranting in the tags because i can #its admin its students its teachers its fuckin everyone and im so tired of it ion evn cry ab it anymore its just fucked uo

[girlwithfish]

having horrible self image i just have to deal w it cuz like hwen am i ever happy with how i look or my body i just want to stop being at war w myself or at least w my looks cuz it just is such a downer always being unhappy with my physical self like im already unhappy w who i am as a person cn i at least be satisfied w how i look😔☹️idk i never grew out of the self hatred phase it just sucks. very ed sh tw in tags i guess

#spent my childhood hating my body too all of middle school and hs basically like how did this happen lmfskdkd #id limit what i ate track calories i would take ice baths cuz i thought id burn calories all of this stuff it was so stupid and idk sad i #guess #no one rly cared either ig cuz my health wasnt in danger but i was so unhappy w myself and always tired and sad and just mde me more depres #depressed #now its like ive never been happy w myself i tried to be satisfied w my face after yrs of hating my looks and e asian features #and my facial deformity lol loke yeah #Ok #so i still hate that . sometimes i can tolerate my face but its not like i love myself or think i look good cuz #i feel like im just objectively ugly and i hate my face and i hate my body usually #unless if i see i lost weight or in the morning when im m*rnjng sk*nny its so gross like lol i need to stop #i hate it sm and i just feel like cutting myself out of my body idk like a lot #its like smth i just have to get over i guess idk what else there is Lol #i try to have a healtby relationship to food nd soemtimes i even like cooking and i dont fast or anything anymore cuz like i hate #feeling sick from hunger nd being tired im already tired in general so i need energy so yeah but #idk </3 #It just sucks idk how to dsal w it lik i just have to be satisfied and accept myself fro who i am #and all my looks and features and everything on my body #i guess #It just sucks cuz i think im the most ugly repulsive thing sometimes and wish i coukd disappear or cut myself away like.

[fagutt]

sigh

#i m so fucking upswt that killing myself didnt work i spent all week only able to get thru it bc i was gonna kms i was going to Be Dead #nd now what . can i convince myself of it again this week? even if i attempt again ( which i suppose i am planning ) its not rly motivating #failed attempts are the most disheartening thing to ever fucking happen and im sick of usinf such ineffective methods #i want to get this life over with so i can move on to the next destination i dont care wherre i wind up anymore #imvso tired of it all i spend all ny alone time crying

[homo-house]

Me trying too hard and making a fool of myself at every opportunity of interaction with another human being! Silly me! Hope I get hit by a bus

#social anxiety #im tired of this shit every dsy #every time i decide to come out of ny shell i inevitably say something stupid and embarass myself #i wish i could be quiet but lo #being nd and super anxious i cant stay still and not talk #im sick of this #can i just BEHAVE #LIKE AN ADULT #for ONCE. #ok to rb #ramble #anxiety