#im so sorry that the world was cruel to you

[luckyrocky-mp3]

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#my shining star... #im so sorry that the world was cruel to you #i hope youre in a better place #im so sorry that i failed you #i have so many regrets #but also so so many beautiful memories involving your smile #i know i never truly knew you. but you will live on in me forever. #i will never forget the time we shared together. #i will never forget what you and your members did for me. #rest in peace my love. everytime i look up at the stars #and the moon. #i will think of you.

[chryblossomjjk]

just found out that jungkook interacts with people who aren’t me

#cold cruel world out there tsk tsk #also lil life update friends ! #working full time n going to school full time n also doing extracurricular activities is really not the move #i struggle w toxic productivity and it’s really really destroyed my mental and physical health #so ive busted my behind to save up enough money #to be able to support myself on a part time work schedule until i graduate woohoo ! #hoping to have more time to indulge in hobbies #which includes being on here and writing and interacting #i miss you all dearly #ty for everything #like the fact that yall still send sweet things in my inbox when ive been p inactive for like this whole year is super nice and sweet and ye #im sorry i haven’t been responding #but i read them and they do make my day and i love you #and i hope to pick things up again soon #glimpse of us is going to be a banger i fear #ive sat on it for so long that ive perfected this storyline #from metaphors to small details to foreshadowing to non linear storytelling that all forms together in the ends yep #just need to write it which is the hard part 👉👈 #but im excited #this the type of story to leave you in a funk for a few days lol and im so excited to share #hope you’re all doing well #and you are also prioritizing your health and well-being #you deserve time for yourself #not even deserve tbh #it’s legit a necessity like pls #you deserve it

[calitheheart]

"Everything up to now, it's no more"

NYNA BLAST

wanted to try out textured brushes so. here we are. <:

#fire emblem #nyna #cali art aw yea #rare moment where instead of a chronic homosexual woman I draw a tragic straight girl #im so sorry nyna fire emblem the world has been too cruel to you queen

[ozzieinspacetime]

Something about the CF arena seeing so much bloodshed on the first day that the seawater turned red with blood. Something about stabbing a man you knew since childhood because you had to, about stabbing a man you knew for three days because he killed someone that you knew your mentor loved. Cycles coming to an end and beginning again in a clock that won't stop ticking. Singing as hope, silence as a warning. Something about turning around to see the people you love even if it's to put a knife through their stomachs. Something about the small mercy of death at the hand of someone who loved you & couldn't in good conscience ask you to survive this new horror. Or whatever

#do you think the victors killing eachother was the closest thing to love any of them could muster #do you think that their deaths were the closest to district unity anyone ever got? #killing because the world has been cruel and I love you enough to lay you down by my blade #it will be quick and sharp and you'll be gone by the time its through. this is defiance now. their death is the rebellion #killing people deprived of death for so long as a kindness. killing your friends because death will be nice to them in ways life never was #im. sick actually. DW mutuals i am sooooo sorry the brainrot has me now #so this post is from a month ago but it fucks hard so im posting it anyway <3 #thg #catching fire

[caurcaur]

Seeing them as innocent children is giving me tremendous chip dam.age to my psyche.

#LOOK AT THEM #SO BABY #IM SO SORRY THAT HAPPENED TO YOU #SOBBING #THE WORLD IS SO CRUEL #ryujin kang #sayeon lee #handjumper #hand jumper webtoon #look... how chubby their cheeks are....

[dent-de-leon]

Listening to "Bedtime" from the Little Mermaid soundtrack and just,,,, thinking about how Taliesin said Molly was based on mermaids and not having a soul but Ariel gets her happy ending in the disney version and Kingsley gets a happy ending with the Nein and just,,,,

Taliesin Jaffe how dare you do this to me on this, our pride month

AH yes I love that Mollymauk is Taliesin's interpretation of a mermaid so much, it's so fascinating and tragic and bittersweet. Also, I just listened to the song and it's lovely. Makes me very nostalgic.

But yeah, that clip of Taliesin explaining his initial pitch for Molly still just breaks my heart. His acknowledgement that, "Mermaids are fucked," because they supposedly exist without a soul, "Empty" and eternally doomed from the start...it's just so tragic. "I want a body where the soul left, and the body just kept moving. Whatever was in there got pulled out, and went to the Raven Queen. And they just kept walking, like a mermaid--no soul....just someone who was a total blank slate."

And while he does get the fairytale happy end and get to live on with his loved ones, I think Tealeaf's narrative very closely mirrors the darker aspects of Hans Christian Andersen's original version. Especially given the premise of a being without a soul--someone who was supposed to be forever Empty, yet still became whole--

And one of my personal favorite mermaid parallels: A deal made with a witch for an impossible dream. Offering up a vital part of yourself in exchange for a false hope that can never truly be. To me, it echoes both Lucien's own family bargaining away their child to a hag--as well as Lucien later offering himself to the Somnovem. He might not have known Azrahari always planned to keep him as one of her puppets--"My beautiful boy...I had hoped to make you mine one day. What a perfect specimen you would have made. Oh, how you would have been merry with laughter and dance..." But he always lived in fear that it was a possibility.

His parents abused both him and his siblings, were willing to offer up one of their two remaining children to a witch for some fantasy; they passively stood by while they forced Lucien to lure victims to a deadly hag as a mere child--marks who were often bandits, murderers, and monsters as surely as the witch. Abandoning Lucien to them and Azrahari both. Azrahari, who promises she can finally make Lucien happy, return him to those childhood days of song and laughter and dance, if only he would let her carve out his soul--

Again and again, Lucien is promised happiness and safety at the cost of his own freedom and autonomy. The witch can take all his pain away, he just has to surrender all his willpower to her. Exist forever as a hollowed out, Empty shell, her glassy-eyed cadaver of a doll to puppet and put on display.

And the Somovem can make all of his dreams come true, can make his fairytale Once upon a time and happily ever after a reality, he just has to submit to their thrall completely. And, like with the Little Mermaid, it will also come at the cost of unimaginable pain. A girl who can dance beautifully, but every step feels like shards of glass in her feet. The pain of her transformation never leaving her. The Somnovem promising Lucien the whole world, and when he asks what it will cost, they decree, "Pain and pain and pain. A dear price for a man, a pittance for a king, and nothing to a God, cosmically ordained."

And while the Little Mermaid longs to meet her love, she also mourns the fact that, while mermaids live far longer than humans, they have no immortal soul. No eternity or gods or heaven awaits them. They merely fade away, dissolve into seafoam and cease to be. (Just a body without a soul, an abandoned vessel. Hollow. Empty.)

I don't think it's a coincidence that's the fate that awaits all mermaids--and that when Lucien dies, his soul is scattered into dust across the Astral Sea. "It's one thing to be in a different body, it's another to have your very essence scattered. Your very immortal soul divided into pieces, like so much confetti. I believe you seemed to fall for one of those pieces that stuck behind..."

To me though, a parallel that really stands out is the narrative culminating in a decision where you have to either kill someone you love or turn that blade on yourself. Hans Christian Andersen's Little Mermaid is granted a last gift at her darkest hour--a way out where she doesn't have to fade away into nothingness. A chance to live on with her family beneath the sea--a family who loved her enough to barter with the sea witch for one last chance at her freedom. And all it will cost is a dagger through the prince's heart.

But of course she can't bear to go through with it. She tosses the witch's dagger into the sea and falls after it to her death, choosing to sacrifice herself instead of the person she loves. And Mollymauk? When faced with the reality that he could only save the Nein by tearing apart Lucien--and himself along with him--he doesn't even hesitate.

He digs his claws into his own wound and lets himself fall to pieces. He never once thinks of self preservation, tries to barter or plead or find a way to save himself at the last moment. He knows either the Nein will survive or the Nonagon will--and perhaps through him, a part of Molly, even just a piece--but he chooses a painful, agonizing death over Lucien's warped perception of godhood and eternity.

All Mollymauk has ever wanted was to live--in spite of how harsh and cruel the world always was to him. He still wanted nothing more than to walk Exandria and fill that clawing Emptiness with joy and love, have just one more day out of the grave to live and feel and be almost real. And still, he chooses to offer up himself if it means sparing everyone else. When Matt narrates Kingsley's nightmares of Cognouza, he emphasizes that to Tealeaf, "It was worth it. It was worth it." As long as it's to protect the people he loves, letting himself pay the blood price will always be worth it--

"Looking out from within your prison, pushing against your invisible bonds--when your heart found the strength, giving all that you are to help those who gave you purpose in return. It was worth it. It was worth it...The moment you gave yourself and broke your prison. The lights, so many around you free to move on. The warm catharsis of letting go..."

Like the merfolk of the original tale, when Mollymauk sacrifices himself, it's not just death that he faces. It's total oblivion. Offering up all that he is. And he does it gladly.

But when the Little Mermaid sacrifices herself, she is welcomed by warmth, and light. Given a chance to earn an immortal soul through good deeds. And by the same token, when Mollymauk tears apart both the Nonagon and himself, he falls back into the Moonweaver's welcoming embrace. Given another chance by both her and the Wildmother--divine, higher powers that looked at this supposedly "Empty" vessel and saw a warm, bleeding heart. A "forgotten fragment" that was loved so much--and loved so fiercely and selflessly in turn--they became real and whole.

“Light gathers around the body, the magic attempting to reach out into whatever space holds the souls here in the Astral Sea, as so many go scattering outward now to search for one. A fragment of one. Or is it a whole one? If souls can grow from but a piece…”

I think it's both terribly tragic and heartwarmingly bittersweet that Mollymauk's ending echoes the Little Mermaid's own--a gutting sacrifice that leads to hope and a new beginning. A second chance and a soul made whole. Being saved and held together by the very love you sacrificed yourself for. It's also suitably a very romantic end to me, which fits Tealeaf perfectly. And the fact that the character who was inspired by mermaids goes on to become a pirate king...I do wonder if Taliesin did that on purpose, because I think it's adorable--

Anyway, I love Mollymauk, and all the Little Mermaid parallels, and wish we could listen to Taliesin talk about mer inspired Molly more. Also, this bit of character building makes mer widmauk one of my favorite au's--

#mollymauk #lucien tavelle #im so sorry this got so long but!!! #thank you I am now having lots and lots of mermollymauk feelings-- #any sort of velveteen rabbit story about being loved so much it makes you real and whole and gives you a soul just melts my entire heart #anyway wow #can you believe that molly is so full of love and compassion and so willing to sacrifice himself because as much as he loves #life--in spite of how cruel the world always was to him-- he loves his dearest family the nein far more.....

[b0tsbby]

Sorry to make LR the moment of Trimax (I have a lot of feelings about Knives, but his story kinda speaks for itself imo. I don’t know how you’d ever mischaracterise him sorry😭😭. And literally 89% of the fandom has Vash/Vashwood/Polygun covered so idrc /hj) BUT I will never get over Raz hyping Liv up during the Elendira fight like he really cares for and loves him (not romantically! Obvs) EVEN after Liv was so quick to tell his ass to sit down for Vol 10

Like I don’t think anyone even understands the HEART Razlo has like that shit was the most beautiful, earth shattering moment in Trimax for me. And I’m not shitting on Livio obviously man like LR is so important and their (specially Razlo’s) mischaracterisation is my 9/11 sorry 🙏🙏🙏🙏

#LR SWEEEP #I SAID LR SWEEEEP #Trimax spoilers #Trigun maximum spoilers #razlo the tri punisher of death #livio the double fang #RAZLO COME BACK TO MEEEEEEE #ILL BE YOUR SUPPORTER FOREVER #SOMEONE OUT THWRE LOVES YOU SPECIFICALLY AND ITS MEEEEEEEE #MY POOR BOY IM SORRY THE WORLD WAS SO CRUEL AND LOVELESS TO YOU #Let’s make popcorn and watch Fantastic Mr Fox together boy #EDIT I DIDNT REALIZE I SAID SORRY SO MUCH

[pigeonneaux]

Peter ftw

#Me : the world is a cruel and cynical place . #Me after seeing the peter pan ride at disney land : actually happiness can happen and love is real #Anyway #Disneyland changed me or whatever #myart #Peter pan #Disney #Fanart #Sketch #Why did i make the bg so dark? Idk my eyes hurt #Squint !! Squint you peasants !!! (sorry ) #29/01/2023 #artist on tumblr #Digital art #Drawing #Art #Sketch between the work™ i have found a new wave of inspiration #Bref uhhh gn it ks 2am when im posting this

[remylong]

ventposting with a character url is so funny like she would not be saying all that

#i guess it's also because of this particular fandom #bc i associate it so strongly with my friends/writing/blog & most of the cool fun things that have happened to me/that i have accomplished #which are i guess like. the good parts of me? #that like writing for it/thinking about it/having a fandom url for it when im treating the people around me so horribly #makes me feel like. idk. a little bit sad and a lot bit sick #like i'm ruining the last good part of myself #which is insane because it's a not-that-great podcast from 2020 it's literally not that deep but 2 me it's always been more abt the ppl #like. i dont know. i hope i haven't ruined this place yet. i hope i haven't hurt the people here as much as i've hurt others. i hope #(and this is going to sound stupid because the people in question will probably read this entry but it's true) #that the people here still have reason to like me. #even though i don't really deserve it #i guess i just want there to be some place in the world where i can pretend not to be selfish and cruel and sinful and pathetic #a chronic liar a worse procrastinator a corny writer a terrible friend a worse student/employee/whatever #which is of course undermined by the fact i am writing this on this blog! online! publically! instead of in a diary no one will ever see #but i feel like my blogs have always sort of been an extension of myself? more now that i have my irls/name/face on here and the whole #I Prommy I Won't Ditch This Friend Group This Time(community note: she is going to ditch the friend group as soon as it becomes inconvenien #sometimes it feels more real than my actual body that exists in the world #so i guess if i put it down here it makes it. like. real right? like it makes it carry a little bit of weight that spiralling doesn't #whatever. this is going to make me unemployable for the rest of forever LOL #also the autocompleted tags r going to jumpscare me forever #sorry i couldn't tell any of you this to your faces btw and had to like. myspace 2008 vaguepost it #what can i say i just love to yap

[gifti3]

If solomon asked me to be a defender of humanity, i dont think i could look him in the eye and say yes

#talking about obey me once again #hmmm....its like asking a gnat to be the defender of bug kind or something #or maybe a fly #like sorry solomon but...dont have that type of grace in my body #mc is supposed to be a character that sees the good in everyone so ig it makes sense in their case #but at the same time i feel like this conflicts with the way they behave sometimes #when i think of someone who always sees the good in ppl #tohru honda is one of the first ppl to pop into my head #and shes very VERY kind #and very very forgiving #to the point of being a doormat #not to say that u cant be an assertive person and also see the good in people at the same time #but u cant be unnecessarily cruel u know #and mc sometimes is an asshole just because #so thats where im like...contradictions #ANYWAYS i just always thought about that ever since solomon asked the mc to help him defend humans #and i was just like...idk man #and it didnt really have to do with me wanting to always be on the brothers side or anything #its just......can i care about people at a regular human level??? #i dont wanna make 500 pacts and play mind games with demons to help lmao #it feels like im sticking my neck out for a world that would most likely not do the same for me you know?? #maybe if i were immortal like sol then id sing a different tune? #i feel like if u live long enough u youll either really like humans or really hate him

[tennessoui]

thank you so much for all the birthday wishes!!!!! yall are so amazing and sweet and not to get soft and mushy in my hungover state but the year ahead feels less scary with yall around :) 

#just got back to my place after a night out so long i should have been making hourly #but fun :D #but now hungover and craving a salad more than anything else in this cruel world #too much drunk pizza was consumed #but fun :) #but anyway thank you to everyone who sent me birthday asks!!!!! im sorry i did not get to them in time to respond #but i saw them and read them and theyre so sweet

[gooopy]

Song that fits my oc event 1000000 injured 9000 killed

#sorry im so fucking normal about my oc whos bad. #i love making character that are tragic in some manner #anyways someone ask me how to fix sterling #the answer is you cant hes not fixable not in this world but sometimes you will look at him and glimpse a world #a world where he had less money or had more hardship or anything changed to make him normal and not cruel and cold #sorry i dont know why i am so caught up on him i hope to god i dont sound like those people with like. #nazi ocs who go 'hes my blorbo' (real thing that happens btw) #he sucks he is a bad person and uses his privilege to hurt people in order to get some gain #but knowing there could be a world where hes fixed does something 2 md

[evening-bat]

what a cruel fucking world we live in.

#friends get murdered !?! by their HUSBANDS !!! #and you can never play board games with them again #and shes never gonna finish stormlight archive and know how the cosmere turns out. #and i will never hear her play piano ever again why is life so cruel #im gutted a real life on earth angel was killed and there's no good left in the world #my post #venting sorry im v v sad and upset

[churchandstateofbeing]

you know what they do to guys like us in the dungeons of fear and hunger 😔

#fear and hunger #funger #mcr reference #sorry everyone #making my way through my funger 1 playthrough rn and couldn’t stop thinking about this song #like. you know what they do to guys like us in prison is SUCH a fear and hunger song #its about being trapped in an awful and inescapable prison filled with nothing but torture and suffering #its about missing the outside world but beginning to forget it because you’ve been in this endless hell for so so long #and most importantly it’s about gay sex #but as an act of desperation and survival more than anything that could ever be love #because love could never exist in a place as cruel as this one #(plus. the “im gonna set a motherfucker on fire!!!” part is just nas’hrah)

[transalfredpennyworth]

[NORMAL GUY VOICE] Yeahh no im so normal about that fictional character who doesnt exist . Anyway can you shoot me in the head real quickly. no itll fix me

#IM SO FUCKING. IM SO GODDAMN INSANE #itd be so fucking over for all of you if i could articulate my thoughts on choice and control in woe.begone. ALAS! the world is cruel #I NEED TO BE EUTHANIZED PLEASEPLEASPLEASE ITLL FIX ME ITLL FIX ME #IM SO. GODDAMN SAD OVER HIM. SORRY TO TOBYS DMS I WAS UM. VERY ANNOYING. #its even worse in my notesapp if u can believe it #mike walters #skrunkly tag

[bylertruther]

mike would bite y'all for comparing him to steve 💔 he will NEVER be michael wheeler ✋

#pls..... the rain fight line was out of pocket yes but DID HE LIE? #he wasn't saying it in a bad way #he was just saying 'DAMN bro lay off me' in a knee-jerk way bc #1) it's LITERALLY not his fault tht will doesn't like girls and as such cannot get a girlfriend like them and #2) will has been bottling this all up and just exploded on him so it's not like he could've prepared a way to word that better beforehand #and 3) he says 'it's not MY fault' because will is pinning the breakdown of the party on HIM as if he can control other people and #4) mike has NEVER been homophobic he literally pushed troy down for what he said and clearly does not ever like any of the homophobic #things anyone has EVER said about will and he makes him feel like he's not a mistake and like he has a place in this world and like he's #/BETTER/ for being different so literally how on fucking earth are you going to say he's being homophobic for being blunt ONE TIME #meanwhile steve was a punk ass bitch for what? clout?! cos he felt emasculated? bc he was being a follower? #it was mean of mike to point it out bc they were talking abt friendship not That specifically but it feels a little um . #odd to act like he's calling him a literal slur and bringing up sexuality in a cruel way like how steve did to jonathan. #sorry it's literally a gif set but can we PLEASE not act like mike called will a fucking slur and is homophobic like are you kidding me. #(tiffany pollard voice) STEVE?!?! mike sweetie i'm SO sorry tht someone would say tht to u #and steve clearly did love nancy btw. they're just not compatible and he doesn't see that bc he doesn't see the entirety of who she is now. #srry tht rain fight is NOTHING like the steve n jonathan fight sorry but it isn't. it isn't!!!!!!!!!! put some respect on mike's name!!!!!! #ok im fine. im gonna eat my cheerios now bye waving emoji etc