#it just wasn’t my day man. | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

zeb-z · 6 months

Text

I just think Tallulah gets to be upset about this. “It’s not Wilbur’s fault” “He’s not a bad dad” “He loves his daughter so much” yes! These are all true! And it’s not his fault! But he’s still not there. And Tallulah has gone through so much and still hasn’t seen him, the one time he was around was the one time she wasn’t, and all she has are letters and “I’m thinking of you always” and things that used to be theirs together, but he’s still not there. She’s waited and she’s been patient and she’s loved him all the same, and he’s still not there. Like yesterday, and the day before, and the day before, from the happy milestones to the traumatic events, he’s still not there.

She knows that it’s not his fault, but it doesn’t change the fact that he’s absent. That in and of itself just adds to the sorrow, because she knows why he’s gone, and she’s been told time and time again it doesn’t mean he doesn’t care, she knows this - it doesn’t mean it doesn’t sting, that it doesn’t hurt, that she doesn’t yearn for her father to be there more than anything in the world, and he’s just not there.

So yes, she gets to be upset, and be caustic, and stomp her feet and write bitter messages, and be angry and vitriolic, because she’s a little girl missing her father, who feels things with her whole heart and soul - and that means she gets to feel the ugly parts of it, too.

#it’s like no wilbur isn’t at fault. especially if we’re talking about cc wilbur. but fuck man of course she’s gonna feel like this #this doesn’t make wilbur a bad person! he’s just a missing one. and Tallulah feels all the misery and bitterness as a daughter left behind #where is her father kissing her injuries and reassuring her? where is her father protecting her? hugging her at the end of the day?#Wil isn’t around to do this and she wants him back and he’s not going to be back. not for a while. and it’s not his fault but it doesn’t #stop it from being upsetting. she’s a little girl #and at least she has phil. her dad. who’s there time and time again. and it doesn’t make him somehow morally better or wtevr. he’s there an #Wil is not. and he’s going to continue to be there as a solid figure in tallulahs life that she needs #idk man like. fuck #lmao relating my own experiences from here below in the tags ✌️#as someone who’s been in that position? a parent absent for reasons outside of control? yeah it’s sucks. and I love them and they love me #*with a parent I mean I wasn’t the parent lmao #and it will never be the same. and when they were gone and missing things I was furious at them #that resentment grows and then it fades and sometimes bitterness strikes again and it’s how it goes. love is still there #and it’s no one’s fault. it just is. and what is is messy #anyways #mcyt #qsmp #q!tallulah #q!wilbur #z speaks

156 notes · View notes

carefulfears · 11 months

Text

one of the few moments between them where they threaten to break the act down.

he knows the answer to the first question; do you believe that? have you ever believed that? all she can do is stare at the floor, almost like she’s been caught. because she doesn’t. and he knows she doesn’t.

her role in this thing that they do is to not believe in aliens. she answered him on that first day, does she believe in the existence of extraterrestrials? she had to say no.

she can’t answer him this time, though. she stares at the floor. but he knows.

he knows the answer to the second question too, though. what do you think happened to her?

scully can stand in front of him and tell him that he’s just being emotional all she wants. tell him that it’s manipulation, that it’s impossible.

but her role in this thing is that she is the rational one, and he knows what the rational thing to think about 8 year old girls who disappear from their homes and don’t come back is.

even if it’s not this killer, even if it’s not this man, the rational thing to think is that it’s another.

so after four years of seeking and chasing and following after as he walks into the same room every day, as he wants to believe, what does she believe? what is she really saying when she says no, she doesn’t believe in the existence of extraterrestrials?

and can they keep the act up, when this is what it means?

#paper hearts #my forever favorite episode #the deepest of the series in my opinion #but god this scene is so palpable #goddd it’s the way he’s CHALLENGING her #normally her role is to say it IS a murderer #that whatever crime has been committed WAS just a man #she’s been saying that every case for years #it wasn’t aliens. it wasn’t XYZ. it’s a serial killer.#until he says ‘maybe it wasn’t aliens. maybe it was a serial killer.’#and she FREEZES #it’s almost like he’s throwing their entire dynamic and their entire lives in her face in this moment #and he’s not doing it to be cruel he’s just like…so what now then? isn’t this what YOU believe?#but if she doesn’t ever think it’s aliens and she always thinks it’s a murderer then WHAT DOES THAT SAY about samantha!!!#what is that REALLY saying every day for years to the person who HAS to believe it’s always aliens/etc and not people #talking in circles but it makes me crazy bc they live so comfortably in their roles but you can tell he thinks about this #and he’s just like. okay then. so come out and say it.#and she can’t because she needs him to believe it’s aliens #because it’ll fucking break him if it’s not #it’ll break him if she’s right #so she won’t even say it out loud and she prays to be wrong

208 notes · View notes

wavesoutbeingtossed · 2 months

Text

The whole discourse about the privacy/secrecy/support thing has been sitting with me for a few days (I mean other than it always does to a certain degree) thanks to all the excellent discussion happening and I know I'm not saying anything that hasn't been said a million times before, but I think what we're seeing and what we're going to learn (e.g. from TTPD) is that it wasn't just the support issue, but how it was shown/handled.

We've all gone out of our way to show that introversion =/= lack of support. Someone can be shy, reserved, etc. and still show up for their partner, whether in public or at home. To chalk any of the differences up to the clash between introversion and extroversion is unfair to folks who count themselves among either tbh.

@thisisctrying said something the other day that hit the nail on the head about how if that support had been offered in private, there very well may not have been a Joever to begin with, or at least not at this point in time. (Sorry for loosely paraphrasing, and for namedropping you! Long time listener, first time poster.)

If this were a case where the "shy" partner said, "I am really uncomfortable with the spotlight personally and do not want to court it, but I will support you in your ambitions and offer you whatever you need to make them happen and make the glare bearable," I suspect that would have gone a long way to making Taylor feel seen and comfortable in pursuing her goals in the way that she now has. Again, that might have been more akin to the balance that seemed to have been struck around 2019 from what we can see, but even speaking in a general sense, there are lots of couples out there, celebrity or not, that have similar approaches where there are highly driven people and busy careers involved.

(A famous example being Dolly Parton's marriage. Tbh I know next to nothing about her and Carl, but she's always heralded as an example in this regard, because her husband is famously uncomfortable with the spotlight and hasn't accompanied her to public events in decades, but she's said that she never minded that because that was always work to her, and what was important was that he supported her in pursuing all her career goals and basically ensured she had a place to call home to return to at the end of the day.)

We're kind of in a brave new world with her current relationship because it felt like, at least at the start, we were maybe watching her figure out her boundaries in real time as to what she was comfortable with or not and adjust accordingly. Like so many have said, I fully believe the extreme privacy thing was initially driven by herself and her experiences in 2016, and she needed that quiet time to recover from all of the things and figure out how to exist in the world again.

Stating the obvious, it seemed like eventually privacy was equated with secrecy, turning the relationship and the celebrity into the elephant in the room and something to never be spoken of to the outside world. People are free to choose whatever works best for themselves and their relationships, and for some the separate public lives might work, but the “kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath” theme is all over her work and it’s clear that it’s a sore spot for her, because she’s been made to feel shame just for the life she leads so many times in the past.

What I’m trying to say is that it’s pretty obvious something Not Great was happening behind the scenes, which didn’t just amount to “she wanted to be a public celebrity and he wanted to be a private hermit.” (Also, in case anyone forgot, this is a person who also chose a public-facing career who also has to engage in press for it, but I digress.) As her career reached new heights post-folklore, if she had the support at home to do all the things without judgment and with encouragement, and in turn offer the same support to her partner, she may have very well lived just fine with that, not unlike Dolly Parton’s case.

By reading between the lines in all the press since, as well as comments on tour and general ~vibes~ with TTPD teasers, it seems like one of the issues was that that was likely not the case. There was all the stuff that we saw — the reticence to acknowledge each other in the media (particularly on one side), the lack of public support even at events at which they were both in attendance for their respective jobs, the great lengths they went to not to be photographed together at events they attended yet no problem taking pictures with other friends and coworkers, the jobs that separated them, the withdrawing from the public even for work accomplishments, etc. Which could all be manageable if a couple chooses to do so together and are not inherently a sign of trouble in themselves.

But what we’re seeing now I think is a reflection of the things we weren’t seeing then, and it seems to indicate some very deep hurt. (I know, call me Captain Obvious.) And like so many have been saying, it feels likely that that part of that hurt is rooted in that very lack of private support where a person would expect it from their partner. Obviously as a Taylor fan blog I’m going to be more inclined to understand her side of a story, but tbh, it’s also because… this is sooooooo common, and something I’ve experienced in my friend group. (@taylortruther is right when she says most breakups are the same one way or another lol.)

One partner is resentful of the other’s success, or resentful that the other’s priorities begin to evolve as new experiences unlock new goals, or feels the other’s ambitions are not worthy of pursuit, and coupled with perhaps their own struggles in the same domain, it’s easy to see where that can chip away at the other partner’s morale and faith in the relationship. I know I’m just speculating here, but I also don’t think it’s totally unfounded. (Again, because a) I’m picking up what she’s putting down and b) it happens to sooooooo many women even among us dull normals.)

With all the pointed mentions about how much Taylor feels supported in her current relationship and how she in turn loves to offer the same show of support to not only her partner but other loved ones, how she’s stepped out more in the last year to a whole host of events, how she’s mentioned feeling like she locked herself away for years and she’s just proud of her partner and happy she can show up for him even if the chaos around it is unsettling, it paints a picture of what perhaps was happening before last year.

To feel like you’re all alone in carrying the weight of the relationship (or burden of it), of twisting yourself into knots to accommodate the other person’s boundaries (or insecurities) but not feeling reciprocity for your own has to be so painful. (The idea that it may have been even darker and to have a partner not only be unreceptive to your own needs but even perhaps resentful/dismissive/belittling of them is even more painful to think of. I guess we’ll find out when TTPD comes out if that was the case, too.)

At a certain point, that lack of acknowledgement will force your hand to be able to reclaim yourself. And it feels like the further removed Taylor in particular is from it, the more she moves from being sad about the life she felt she gave up by leaving, to angry at the life she felt she was giving up by staying. Especially being in a relationship now where it seems like everything comes much easier, where she can be open about the person she’s with and show up for them, all the stuff that seemed as challenging as climbing Mount Everest in her past is nothing more than a molehill at best in her current life.

TL;DR: I don’t think it’s privacy that inherently spells doom for a celebrity relationship like this; it’s the mutual support and respect that does. If Taylor had felt that in the later years of her previous relationship, I think we could be seeing a different, though not necessarily unfulfilled, person right now in 2024, who’d be happy on tour but whose personal life would look a little different. But it seems like by losing that support she lost parts of herself, and we’ve seen her reclaim that in spades in the last year, and perhaps to degrees she didn’t even realize she could from before all the Bad Stuff started happening in her young adulthood.

I know this was extremely long-winded and unnecessary, especially about total strangers we only know through scraps fed through the media, but I just always bristle at this idea that issues like these boil down to “personality differences,” as though one person wants to live in a city and the other on a remote island, or some shit like that. The whole support (and gender tbh) issue is one that’s just very close to my heart because again, I have seen it play out with so many of my friends in long term relationships and marriages and I just think people in relationships (and women in particular in some circles) deserve better than to feel like they’re being, well, tolerated.

#thisisctrying and taylortruther sorry for tagging you two!#can remove if needed!#but you guys made me think a lot #this was inspired by a conversation i had with a friend the other day #where she relayed an argument she had with her partner #who basically felt slighted that he wasn’t getting acknowledgement for all the housework he does — which is. just. the dishes #and she was like ‘wow congrats you’ve done the dishes — i do every other fucking thing to keep this household afloat in ways you see #and don’t see and i never ask for praise because it’s just stuff that needs to get done because that’s how you support your family’#and it just reminded me that some partners (and a certain kind of man in particular) just… think their struggles take precedence #when their partners drown in them everyday but keep things afloat out of necessity and are never recognized or supported for it #(my friends have shitty husbands/boyfriends can you tell lol)#long post #again the way i just feel like i know the vibes of ttpd in my bones are 😵‍💫#i feel like i have a lot more thoughts but I’m trying to be more gracious and less parasocial so #also just want to again defend the introverts of the world by reiterating that being introverted does not mean unsupportive #being a shitty partner does though!#writing letters addressed to the fire #it’s also just like… i feel like if Taylor had had even a modicum of the support in private and even public she needed #she’d probably still be with you know who and wouldn’t have considered leaving let alone doing it #because it would have felt like enough and like it was what was needed for both of them #whereas we’re seeing a completely new side of her open up now because this is the first time she’s ever had that support from a partner #in her adult life at least #and it’s like it’s opening up things she didn’t know she needed or wanted

43 notes · View notes

goldenhypen · 16 days

Text

guys i was so fortunate and lucky to get to see enhypen irl tonight :’) sooo grateful omg it was so good and i’m going coocoo bonkers crazier than ever rn

#hoping everyone here one day gets the opportunity to see these boys irl cuz omg it’s just unreal #it’s srsly only now hitting me that i actually did indeed see them irl #cuz i just never thought i would ever get to #i would share pics but tbh my seats were not v good and i couldn’t afford vip so T-T #my pics are horrendous (i’m actually just gatekeeping my jake pics /j)#anyways maybe i’ll share some once i go through all of them #for now i have to sleep and recover from everything tonight cuz omg #i’m actually losing it jake omg what a man #it was jay’s night (cuz it’s jay’s hometown - welcome back jay 🥹) but i’m sorry whenever my focus wasn’t on jay for 80% of the other times #it was on jake #probably more but i WAS PAYING ATTNETION YO THE KTHER MEMBERS #i’m not just a solo jake stan ok #also jake came to our side THE LEAST SO I WAS JUST STARING AT HIS BACK THE WHOLE TIME #yet ig he just has that strong of a hold on me that he’s the only one on my mind since the concert #and before the concert let’s be real and during the concert let’s be real #i’m so delusional rn u guys it’s actually insane #ok sorry i actually gtg now ok gn byee #em speaks

25 notes · View notes

shima-draws · 6 months

Text

I just finished Skypeia AGHHHFJHHHH it was so GOOD

#One Piece #My favorite arc BY FAR #It was really long! But it wasn’t Alabasta long!!#Also Noland’s backstory deadass made me tear up that shit was so sad #Idk this arc just really kept me hooked. Like there wasn’t really a point I got super bored #Even with all the fights going on #Also just realizing they mentioned Noland in OPLA too. Nami read Zoro the book while he was totally conked out #Anyway ANYWAY I really enjoyed it. Lots of fun character interactions #And Usopp actually getting to do stuff too?? MY MANS #Oh and Zoro’s look this arc. God he was STYLIN. I’m so weak for a man in goggles shut up.#Logically that should apply to Usopp too and you know what. Yeah.#G8 is next and I know it’s filler but I’ve heard nothing but praise for it #So I’ll probably watch it instead of skipping :’D #Shima speaks #Also I find it stupidly ridiculous and funny that YET AGAIN Oda said ‘Lol you thought x character was dead?? SIKE’#Wiper got electrocuted and died like eight times but he’s fine actually. Also Sanji and Usopp got electrocuted too and were out #for like a full day. And then Enel zapped them AGAIN and Usopp was back on his feet like two minutes later.#Silly anime logic. It doesn’t make sense and I love it

30 notes · View notes

madzillus · 7 months

Text

“Izzy you can’t go. You can’t leave me”

“I wanna go”

Like he still doesn’t think he’s worthy of the crew’s love. Like he thinks they love Ed and he doesn’t see that for himself

#izzy hands #ed teach #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #ofmd s2 spoilers #edward teach #I can’t do this on this day #I did not ask for this at 9 in the morning #I… I just don’t really know what to do now??#I’d really started to think that *it* wasn’t going to happen as well #bc when the season started I was picking up on a vibe for Izzy #when he started to find his people. his family #and then I started to drop it like ‘nah they won’t actually do it’#and hello hello look where we are #that was my emotional support trans man. bring him back #right now. I am asking nicely :’)

29 notes · View notes

random0lover · 6 months

Text

I hate men and their need to act like any emotional reactions you have while you’re on your period is just you being “hormonal” and “not yourself”

(Rant in tags)

#like sorry I’m actually defending myself rather than just letting you talk shit about me directly infront of me??#when I’m on my period I tend to show more of my real emotions rather than what people want to see so yeah #but the conversation I was having with my brother was fine- I wasn’t talking to him in any way #he asked me about the monster that I had because like an hour or two ago he asked me not to throw it away since it’s one with the cod #qr code thing on it and he asked me if I threw it away and I said “no it’s not empty right now it’s infront of the microwave” and right #after my dad jumps in saying nobody needs to take offense to how I’m talking or how I’m being? when I didn’t say anything in any way? like #my brother didn’t even have the time to respond to me before he jumped in and started indirectly talking shit #I’m so done right now- all he’s done the last few days is nit pick at me about stupid shit like yesterday we missed the our bus stop and we #get off and this man starts yelling at me that now he doesn’t get to eat (mind you he never explicitly said he wanted to get off at that #stop I thought we were just going directly home)- he constantly says shit on purpose to get a rise out of me and now for some reason my #brother (the one that is 17) has been budding in and telling me to stfu and all this shit and my dad feeds off it and uses it as more of a #reason to justify how he’s treating me and it’s just so upsetting cause he does know I’m in a more vulnerable time right now since my period #is always really difficult anyways really sorry for the rant don’t have any friends I can talk to irl about any of this so to the internet #it goes 🙃#random0lover emotional dumps #random0lover rambling ♡

20 notes · View notes

seventh-district · 19 days

Text

so uh. that 2.2 Special Program, huh

#hsr #honkai star rail #hsr 2.2 #hsr spoilers #hsr leaks #the body of this post reads as far less enthusiastic than i really am #i just don’t know how to casually return from my latest 2 week hiatus only to gush abt a game i’ve hardly blogged abt before #but i’m not making a whole ass sideblog for it like i did for Genshin. nah y’all r gonna bear witness to my fixation with this one #so anyways don’t mind me. vibrating into another dimension with anticipation for the next 11 days #it’s insane man. a year ago i Never ever woulda thought i’d be so invested in this game. and it took Months for the game to really grab me #but i’m v glad i kept coming back even when i was struggling to really get into it. like i just had this feeling that if i stuck around and #gave the game a chance to really like. come into its stride. i just always felt like there was Something there and i just hadn’t found it #and holy shit i finally found it in Penacony. the devs really truly outdid themselves with this region and these characters and this story #not to discount everything that’s happened prior. like i was genuinely Liking it all before now but i wasn’t Loving it y’know #but that may be more a ‘me having to fight tooth n’ nail to force myself to consume new media’ thing than it is a matter of the actual game #anyways i came here to talk abt the program! bc since i’m not filming my HSR stuff i’m gonna be insufferable abt it on Tumblr instead ! :)#and i’m probably not filming any more Genshin stuff. or anything else at all for that matter but let’s not talk abt that dead dream #pun not intended lmao. Anyways let’s return to the subject at hand while there’s still room left in these tags shall we #i’m so fucking glad they had Aventurine on this program man. especially since he’s leaked to only have 18 lines in 2.2… it was nice to see-#-him here at least 🥹 i’ll take what i can get. his unenthusiastic little bird noises at the beginning.. him being reluctant to come out..#the way one of the first things to come out of his mouth was ‘y’know DR RATIO once told me…’ like boy we get it ur in love with him 🙄 (/J!)#i love how they can’t go on these programs w/o talking abt each other it’s adorable. AND THE WAY HE WAS THE ONE TO EXPLAIN BOOTHILL’S KIT!?#they can’t just fuel my crackship like this… god and his whole ‘muddle-fudger.. son-of-a-nice-lady?’ thing had me wheezing #Aven mocking Boothill’s inability to curse was not on my special program bingo card but fuck i’m here for it #and Robin being all curious abt him was so cute.. ‘who /is/ he? … does he order milk at the bar?’ i’m crying she’s so sweet #also the trailer was fucking insane. which feels redundant as hell bc all of HoYo’s version trailers go hard but like. still. wow.#that millisecond long shot of Boothill surveying the skyline is so fucking good. also what the fuck is Jing Yuan doing here!!#not complaining at all tho. we’ve got JY & DH(IL?). Argenti(?). Boothill. Sunday. Aven. all my men r here and i am eating so fucking good #Seven.txt #viddy game stuff

10 notes · View notes

arihi · 7 months

Text

The difficult thing about openly blogging about healing and going through a long period of growth publicly is the feeling of “I’m not doing super great, and it’s worse than it has been before” springs to mind, but for the X number of times you’ve said it in the past, it feels more trivial. And maybe that’s a sign that things have always been an up and down sort of pattern, and that it will pass again, but maybe it also serves to feel more isolating in not having the words or energy anymore to describe how it is *this* time. And it is a position that changes day to day, and on better days it feels more passable, and on worse the void feels more vast. The mere fact that it changes is probably a good sign, that nothing ever has to be set in stone. But boy are some days so, so dreadful.

#I guess a measure would be this feels like pre-move out times right now #when I was (physically) in a bad and unsafe place #and moving out has had its own stressors and anxieties #but the dread I feel is very reminiscent of another older time before then #I recently visited Texas with Spider and Sarah and Doc #we stayed at my parent’s place so it was definitely a mixed bag #I wish I wasn’t so messed up after every visit there #I thought it’d be better or easier with company after this time #but due to a variety of factors I’ve left the experience more tattered than I’d like #they had fun and it wasn’t a bad trip #but it wasn’t a great trip for me personally for loaded reasons #Spider knows to check in on me more in the coming days and weeks so that is good #FUCK man also I love this new song that came out but I CANNOT listen to it anymore and had to remove it from my playlist #because I kind of associate it with the trip now and it makes me cry every time I hear it haha #second song I ever had to do that with!!#I’m okay #just so very tired.

16 notes · View notes

pretentiouswreckingball · 2 months

Text

WHAT DO YOU MEAN LOGAN LERMAN IS ENGAGED?????

AND NOT TO ME???? 😭😭

#this is a terrible day for all of us*#*us as in the hopes and delusions I had about this man inside my head #can’t believe I find out because of a jimmy fallon tiktok interview 😭😭#you know that scene of confessions of a teenage drama queen when her idol dies??? and she wore a funeral outfit and cries to a poster????#yeah…..maybe not that bad but if it wasn’t so hot where I live I woud wear something black just for kicks #but anyWAY real sad day everyone 😔😔😔

8 notes · View notes

ragingdumpsterfire · 2 months

Text

Delsin Rowe x Juno Moore | infamous Second Son OC | 18+ ish, implied smut

____________________

Juno gazed for a moment out over the city, as lights began to twinkle in the rosy sheen of the sunset, sounds of busy people heading home in the distance. Delsin happily worked on his burrito, foil wrapper crinkling with each bite, feet swinging over the edge of the billboard ledge. Juno was too enraptured with the sunset to notice the way Delsin’s gaze darted to her, then back to the sunset. She sighed happily as she leaned back, resting her arms behind her head.

“Gorgeous, isn’t it?”

“Yeah”, came the reply, soft, hardly above a whisper.

Juno glanced over, meeting Delsin’s gaze directly. Somewhere deep inside ignited as she fell into the way his eyes burned in deepest shades of chestnut and cinnamon, shades of home. They were the first tinges of autumn wind after the heat of a never ending summer sun, the warmth of a cup of her favorite tea, the way his touches trailed waves of heat wherever his skin met hers, something raging and burning behind it. The way he was touching her now, shoulder brushing against her, body heat mixing.

“You’re staring,” Delsin murmurs, the corner of his mouth betraying the beginnings of a grin.

“So are you.”

His gaze falters, and he turns to look at the sunset, smiling to himself. There was something devious in that smile, something dangerous. The way he glanced over at her from the corner of his gaze, eyebrow cocked as he mindlessly ran his tongue over his pointed canine.

“So, you see something you like?”

Juno rolled her eyes, resting her hands on the billboard’s ledge and leaning forward to look down on the city, trying to hide the creeping flush on her face.

“Wouldn’t you like to know, weather boy.”

There was a stillness punctuated by a car horn or the passing train, people strolling along to a restaurant, seagulls off in the distance somewhere, a dog barking in some park. Quiet enough to hear an amused snort from Delsin.

“Yeah, actually, I would.”

Juno glanced back at Delsin, and that gnawing, glowing feeling returned. He was so close to her, right there, leaning in towards her, just a breadth away. His eyes darted down to her lips, back to her eyes, dark and fully blown, anticipation written in his gaze.

“I think,” he breathed out, eyes narrowing, “that you like it when I stare at you.”

There was no denying it, it filled Juno with a burning thrill knowing that his eyes followed her as she walked away, putting away the memories of her curves for later, or the way she’d catch him softly staring across the coffee shop as she chatted with customers. She knew those brown eyes would be always be there, a constant in the flowing pass of time. And now he was here in front of her, fingertips brushing against hers,

the only thing holding him back a thin, wavering sense of hesitancy. And that was rapidly washing away. She could see it in his eyes, the temptation of the feelings burning between them proving to be too much to bear.

“And what if I do like it?”

Her reply was soft, barely a whisper, but it was more than enough for Delsin. Lips crashed into lips, his kisses needy and hungry as he gave in to the game of chase that they had been playing. Juno ran her hands up Delsin’s neck, fingers tangling in the hair sticking out from under his beanie, pulling him into her.

A growl rose through Delsin, and he pulled away for air, leaving Juno panting, foreheads touching as they let their hands wander each other’s bodies. Delsin moved his hands to her waist, fingers brushing up under the back of her shirt, eliciting a soft gasp from Juno, her back arching under his touch.

“Then…maybe we should do something about that.”

Delsin moved his lips to her neck, planting slow, tortuous kisses around the point where her pulse raced, where streaks of pinks, reds, and lavender blossomed, an unconscious side effect of her conduit abilities. She didn’t care, at least not right now. She softly moaned out an affirmation, lost in the way his hands burned hot against her back, the way he always smelled like he had spent the night at a bonfire. It was intoxicating, clouding Juno’s mind and flooding her senses.

Delsin murmured something soft, something about his apartment being nearby, lips pressed under her jawbone, fingers reaching upwards, causing her shirt to ride up with them. The contrast of the chilly Seattle evening and his warmth caused her skin to prickle, and she wanted him closer. She wanted him all over her now.

Delsin’s fingers move dangerously close to slipping underneath her bra, sliding forward over her ribcage. Hesitation, or maybe the need to torture her slowly, was keeping him from moving further, and she needed him, she needed so much more.

“What about—what about right here, on the roof?”

Juno’s words come out like a gasp, pleading and needy. Those dark eyes pull back to look at her, a flicker of understanding passes, and he grins—that crooked, knowing smile that would get him anything or anyone in the world, anything he wanted, and here he was with her, all hers for tonight, all hers—and without a moment lost, Delsin has Juno in his arms, her legs wrapped around him, hands holding her up by her thighs as they melt into one another again, mouths frantic to forever write the taste of the other into memory, as they lose clothing to the night, and themselves in each other.

#man this beat me up #did not have a good day yesterday and it just wasn’t working #today is better and I feel better about this now #anyway here’s wonderwall #Juno Moore #infamous second son #infamous oc #Delsin x Juno #my writing #this is canonically after the last thing I wrote about them flirting in the coffee shop 😂#they never made it to the apartment

7 notes · View notes

giddlygoat · 10 months

Text

it’s so funny bc i’m homeschooled and i avoided like 90% of the Average Kid childhood trauma bc of that and when ppl ask about my education i’m just like. look buddy. i can attribute an astonishing chunk of my good attitude, adventuresome spirit and kind heart to having watched my little pony instead of doing homework.

i know it sounds silly [because it is!] but i’m not kidding. being able to choose what i pursued was EXACTLY what i needed growing up, so i didn’t have to waste any extra time on subjects that didn’t appeal to me, worry about bullies or awful teachers, AND i had heaps of free time to spend doing what i pleased [almost entirely drawing]. i learned to write a check, order and shop for my own food, care for farm animals and pets, ask for help, speak my mind, dress as i like, and foster an outgoing and hopeful outlook on life that school would not have taught me.

my mom is incredible, and she has taught me countless invaluable things about life. but as a little kid, your parent’s lessons tend to bounce right off. the very same lessons from my favorite characters however, typically didn’t!

watching my little pony reinforced everything my mom stands for: kindness, reaching out and helping others, and looking out for and encouraging your peers, to name a few. good news - these very values are portrayed in flawed and deeply relatable pastel ponies with catchy songs full of heart and joy! watching my little pony prepared me for far more than i could have imagined in life, sometimes with something as simple as asking myself “what would rarity do?” in a situation i’m not confident in, for example.

i like to joke about how they should play my little pony for the kids in school, but i think it really does teach many things that aren’t inherently reinforced in the school system [although, i am only speaking on what i’ve heard from people who weren’t homeschooled. i have been inside a school only once for a short time].

anyway, this is all to say that it saddens me a bit when people casually reduce my little pony to something of little significance. mlp obliviously isn’t going to be everyone’s thing, but the positive impact it has had on me and countless others is undeniable, and it’s my hope that we soon live in a world that proudly encourages more media like my little pony for not only kids, but people of all ages to enjoy unabashed, no matter their story. every time i hear a friend say their parents didn’t let them watch it because it was ‘too girly’ or whatever nonsense, i become increasingly determined to make that world a reality.

long story short: i hold my little pony close and i am very grateful for what it’s taught me and continues to teach me, even all these years later. it’s good to be earnest and love as much as you can.

#my little pony #greenie lore dump ig LAWL #idk man i just watched oppenheimer and it got me thinking about my personal philosophy a lot #and i started thinking of all the reasons i always felt i had to seek joy and whimsy in my life no matter what #bc this world is in a bad way [as usual] and i wanted to know why the inherit terror of living wasn’t killing me already #and like. in the absolute most simplified terms possible. at the very root of it.#for me it started with taking mlp to heart and modeling myself after those characters #and really all i want to say is that i’m proud of people for trying. all i want to share is the delight i find in each day #and i want to acknowledge that the awful terrible everyday horrors of this world are very real and very certain #but for every demoralizing sorrow in this world there is always an equal if not greater love #that’s how i see it anyway #mlp #thoughts

24 notes · View notes