#it might make u too sad :

[ghostbustermelanieking]

i hope HBO gives ofmd season 3 a huge budget and like fifteen episodes with no time restrictions to make up for how bad they screwed them for season 2

#it makes me so sad knowing how much stuff was probably cut or rewritten... season 2 jim arc i mourn u #ofmd #our flag means death #you might say this is too MUCH time. i say they need more episodes to close out the season 1 arc's (like jim's) that didnt get addressed #plus the season 2 stuff set in motion

[silenthillbunni]

🌧️🫧💭

#i shouldnt have fav mutuals bc i get sooo sad when they soft block me #which *always* happens like im not joking the day will come when they're just like nahhh bye #🥲🥲 nd i cant help but get sad #nd i dont even agree w that anon who said that 'no wonder everyone blocks u' bc im never mean to anyone #i think it's just bc im fundamentally unlikable and unlovable and the time will come when smth abt me #ticks them off nd nothing abt me is ever tolerated i always have to be perfect for everyone so then i just get cut off like dead weight lmao #also it shows that i get attached so easily but in reality ... ppl are not at all as attached to me 💀💀 #like i care abt them but they dont care abt me nd it makes me feel so stupid #why do i so easily care for ppl?????? why do i have to care nd like ppl when it's always gonna end the same way #me being me is bad nd wrong and nobody could ever truly know me nd still like me #i have to live my life constantly hiding parts of myself and making sure im not too authentic or too open bc then i will make ppl dislike me #it rlly is that. im never mean. i never fight. ppl just see smth abt me nd go 'oh ewwwwww' nd then leave #nd if it hasnt already happened it will at some point nd im constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop #whenever i realize i say or did smth wrong im tense waiting for the moment where they'll leave me will arrive #ok this might sound silly bc i was like 'triggered' by smth small but like #all my life thats just how it's been. im not even mean or cruel. i just exist and ppl dont like me or who i am or what i think #i can never be truly myself anywhere. that is sure to result in being all alone 4ever. but i dont like hiding parts of myself #but i have to. but its hard when im trying to hide nd be lowkey but i still manage to make ppl dislike me T-T #idek what im supposed to do bc i just exist nd im not likable. i try to be that but im still not. idk what to do #anyway.. who cares.. j'appartiens seul #but yeah it is bc it's like this for me all the time nd ig that triggered me lmao #i mean just w my sisters.. their issue is just who i am. my personality. i havent been cruel to them. or bullied them. or put them down #they just get irritated from my personality nd who i am. thats what makes them mad. nd they kinda want me to just stop being me nd idk how #to do that and therefore we arent even talking. havent talked for a year #i wanna cry like????? what am i supposed to do??????? im so extremely fucking horrible that just by exisiting nd not being mean or cruel mak #es me unworthy of everything. idk idk like. omg i feel so stupid for being triggered by that #maybe if i had irl friends and a job and a life i wouldnt care but im a fucking loser failure worthless good for nothing idiot. ofc im this

[mejomonster]

I would like. To be in mutual love

#rant #yeah... #........................................................................................................................................... #look its like this. im chronically ill. i know its not totally up to me i cant go out 1-3 times a week trying ro meet ppl. i know i #cant even eat some days my tummy too upset. cant work some days cant even sit up. can barely keep up witj friends i already have #and i know the being drained wont get better. i might be this sick forever. and i know im prioritizing my own art over #meetjng strangers. thats a choice. i know its my own fault im lonely. i also just. i wanna build a relationship #that long term where u meet and become friends then best friends then fall in love and hey if ur lucky marry ur best friend #and i know that wont come from forcing myself on dates w ppl i dont like. i know no ones ever liked me before #i know i havent felt attraction in years anyway. i miss having a crush. but i suppose itd be sad anyway. to crush and not be liked back #to feel ill need to wait another 5 years for another rare crush. i dont believe in fate i dont think. so i might not ever #kiss someoje i like. i might not get lucky and hold a crushs hand. spend months or years with someone like that #i just. i hate so much romance isnt like skills. i cant just date 1x a week until i run into love #i cant even find 1 person a month to crush on let alone ask out. cause the feelings are luck too #luck of who u run into even if u go tl events. even wuen i had 10k tinder matches the only date #the only person who respjded. was someone with a gf who didnt have much in common with me and me not mucj w them and it #was just not enough click to even make a friend #god it makes me sad. id like to kiss someone special. hold their hand. hear em talk hours #i have friends and love em but i dont wanna kiss a friend. i just dont feel romancy very much.

[franeridan]

that one panel when rayleigh meets teach and he's like it might be childish of me but I really hate you so you better run I'm perfectly normal about that panel what are you talking about

#yes he might say so because of luffy or newgate but the man was also the cause of death of his best friend's kid he didn't even know existed #im so abnormal about that #actually rayleigh makes me so sad i can't think too long about him or i start crying #he lived a good life all in all actually which is great and I'm not saying i think he spent his life in grief #he's probably pretty satisfied with it #and i also understand why roger would entrust his son to garp and not him like #he was trying to keep him safe giving him to the most wanted man alive probably wasn't a good idea i get it #but imagine finding out ace existed two days before his death im SO sad for him he deserved the godchild he DID #ace could have been raised with he and shakky as parents can you imagine........ 😢😢😢😢 #i love u ray-san #i hope you'll survive the whole of op and will see luffy become king 😢😢😢

[sanchoyoscribbles]

Redesigned all of my (main) tmm ocs weapons! + little blurbs about them :)

#tokyo mew mew #im p proud of these since mg weapons isnt my usual Thing so...tossing it in the main tag for once >< rare... #tm2 #tokyo miracle #ocs #original #mira aoyama #aqua shirogane #persimmon #cara #sapote #also only mira has a nice clean render of her new weapon HAHA sorry to everyone else! those sketches might be finished...eventually! #anyway pour one out for poor mira! she has donkey dna which makes her kicks way stronger #BUT SHE HAS...AN HANDHELD WEAPON...the donkey dna does NOTHING for her ARM STRENGTH. sad #not that sad bc she forcibly injected herself w random dna but STILL. wont u pity her. spare pity for the pitifulest girl in the world #this post isnt even touching on the fun group attacks/duet attacks but it would be LONG long if i did. jkadsfkj #also in the works: more oc room designs...i never showed off sapotes or caras or yue-bings! #technically cara has two #OR MIRAS BROTHERS APARTMENT bc a portion of the story DOES happen there when mira visits or whatever #if i do his ~general apartment~ ill end up doing . parts of the spaceship too #and get carried away and do the entire aoyama house. the whole ass cafe layout bc that STILL BOTHERS ME. it would be TOO much effort BUT... #anyway thank u to the friends who helped me pick elements and gave feedback and the followers on my main who voted on that poll #to help design the harp #was a tough one…lots of fun options….

[archerism]

mash episodes that aired in 1978 + the 1978 pride flag by gilbert baker

#mash #beejhawk #shout out to not-trustworthy for having a bunch of screencaps tagged by episode. i owe it all 2 u #also sorry these are. not great. i did them on my phone </3 #txt #also i might make more of these at some point but im too lazy to like. go back and look for proper caps #if u want me to make something specific . i'd do that. #1978 had episodes from s615–s7e14 #also yknow what sucks. that one scene where bj snuggles into hawkeyes shoulder literally missed being in 1978 by ONE DAY #it aired on 1/1/79. #so sad #i could just do it anyway but alas ive set my constraints. it had to air in 78 #ok im done talking in the tags now sorry

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#my dads back in ohio again so im back on my own. i still feel terrible but at least i have a plan #i have 2 weeks of this semester left. so i have to not fail my genomics exam and work on a group project plus grade a bunch #shouldnt be too hard but everything makes me so tired rn and i just feel this barrier between myself and everything else #even when my dad was here. i just dont kno how to feel happy. just varied levels of stress #but after the semester is over ill have to find a job for the summer. which super stresses me out bc i havent really had a real job outside #academia and im worried about how stressful ill find it bc im sure its gonna suck but at least i wont have to work on my project #i just think if i had a normal job that doesnt dominate every aspect of my life id feel a little less terrible. or at least i wouldnt send #myself spiralling so much. if i stay here i might not survive it #but what if ill just make myself miserable wherever i am? i dunno. but im gonna try to find a non academic job this summer with the epa or #maybe the usgs. i mean ive gota a bachelor's and a masters in environmental topics. that's gotta count for something #just get a government job. pray for a not terrible set of coworkers. and build something from there #it just sucks bc i feel like everythings falling apart and like i kno if i gave it my all i could pull thru and get my phd but im just so #tired of struggling against something everyone else can do. i just cant read at a level appropriate for what im doing #ugh. i dont wanna study for genomics. i just wanna sleep. i just wish i wasn't in this position #and now i a baby about it. i mean my sisters r in similar positions bc the youngest is currently looking for a teaching job. and my middle #sister is looking to move to new york city in the next 6 months and she'd be quitting her job for that. so we're all sorta in flux #i just wanna not be flailing. not watch my hopes and dreams collapse. be excited about anything. im just sad bc i have to make hard choices #even if i know theyre the right ones to make if i want to continue to exist. sometimes u cant have the things u wany. #and that sucks and i hate it. theme of the year: sometimes life sucks and theres nothing u can do abt it #unrelated

[wiinterbunny]

💒🧸🎀🐇

#i've been so so scared and anxious and worried for the future for a while now #everything's changing #my mom is talking about moving (without me lol rip) #i have to become independent now #i fucking hate myself bc im almost 25!!!! and im still a pathetic loser who is dependent on her mom #but ofc i cant be #even if i've thought a lot abt myself and my personality disorders and i think this is just who i am #i need and want to be dependent on someone. to be taken care of and someone to make choices for me #but my mom just dont want to do that which i ofc get sksksk #and idk i dont have a dream. i cant imagine myself capable of any job #but i have two ideas of occupations i might be ok at #buuuuut i have no fkn idea how u get an apartment??? how do u get money? how do u do this and that #i know NOTHING abt being an adult or independent and im so fucking scared #dying seems so much easier and more tempting #i cant do.. cant do it to my mom #also it's sad bc recently a dream has formed in my mind #it's including another person tho. and i dont have any control over that. i cant force someone to choose or want me #so that dream is the least realistic of everything. even if this person really is my dream.... bit i cant count on it #and i have to build a live for myself. even if its not the life i really want #im scared im too dumb and childish and worthless to do so tho

[mooodyblue]

tags again. ignore me 🥸

#hello venting again #i have not been doing very well #and i am very sad that i can't ever fully regress n have to just put it all into my writing #and i want a cg !!! i want to ramble abt my interests to someone n show off my pretty little pictures !!!! #and it also sucks because a few weeks ago i lost everything i used for my regression forever and starting over sucks so bad #all my plushies r gone and i only have a few now and i don't have many coloring books anymore which is the worst part of it #n i've been like ... considering joining that side of tumblr too but i rly can't be bothered to make another blog :( #i am just #vvvvvv sad #i always have to be big cuz i have to check on ppl or someone might need me for something i can never be fully tiny n i hate itttttt #n i know i need this badly right now cause my brain has not been treating me very well recently and i'm trying to not Do Bad Things #but i'm grateful for this blog cuz i can ramble abt elvie n my love for him without feeling like i'm annoying anyone but #i still feel so aloneeeee #nobody is gonna read this but if u do that's my bad #ty for listening to my vent #sometimes i have to wonder if being here is a curse or a blessing bc writing is what made me feel more comfy abt my regression but #now im sad bc i can't even be little majority of the time #ok i will stop talking now #lily.txt

[harrylights]

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#ok so reflection time #i’ll be honest i didn’t listen to fitf right away bc i had just gotten out of treatment and i was scared to listen to ANY new music that #might trigger any sad emotions and send me spiralling lmao but ! #this time last year i was just starting to settle into myself #i went on a great first date and to my first mosh pit (even tho it was an indie band?) #and even tho i don’t rly talk to the person i went on the date w anymore that night will always be so special to me #i went w my bestie too and it was just such a stark reminder of the beauty in life #and when i did finally listen to fitf #it honestly changed me #i was so overwhelmed w pride for louis #like he’s come so far and the music he’s making is not only amazing subjectively #but feels so authentic to him (as much as i can tell that from not knowing him personally anyway) #and like genuinely i never could have guessed how great this album would be if you’d asked me to guess what his solo music would be like #when 1d ended and just #so so grateful for this album and the people it’s brought me closer to #hearing most of it live was insane and amazing and i’ll never forget it ever ever ever #thank u louis for making music ur way and blessing us all w it #the community at large is obviously not perfect but there are some parts of it that just take my breath away #the sense of belonging i felt at his show #unparalleled #he has a way of making ppl feel safe enough to just be themselves #and i admire that so much #when i think about the kind of person i wanna be that’s the first quality that comes to mind #so so grateful rn #ty universe ily #rowyn rambles

[hatake]

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#very sad i can't see my therapist today bc i might have been exposed to covid 😭 #been having a depression flare up for the past two weeks or so #and therapy feels like my only place of peace and sanity given the dysfunction of my fam #been handling the flare up much better than i would have in the past so that makes me feel better #just been super sleepy and a bit sad & stressed is all #and not having that time when u need it sucks 😭 #not trying to risk anyone's health tho #esp since my therapist is old & just had it not too long ago #hate how careless ppl are about covid now tho it's very frustrating #i'm like one of five ppl in my town who still wears a mask in public spaces #😩😩😩

[1o1percentmilk]

im so doom aspect coded

#sorry. homestuck post #i just #guy who deals with computers/programming but also rules and laws #obsessed with endings and 'death' #kind of sad and apathetic #u can throw in some life aspect too i might #think that doom is cool but im not a pessimist. i always think that theres room for growth and change and making the best of things #also healthcare and medicine guy #id pick seer/mage of doom or bard of life for me. maybe mage of breath

[angelsdean]

i know we were talking abt ppl being shitty abt fics earlier and making stupid unnecessary comments but i'm still thinking abt that time recently when some random blog (not in the spn fandom from what i could tell) reblogged one of my dean arts just to do a whole ha-ha i'm so witty and funny bit by commenting "why is tumblr recommending el*n musk fanart to me" and like. bro. wtf. rude

#like i knowww they were just being shitty and stupid but it made me feel so ??? bad ? in the moment #i even went and fixed a few things and replaced the art bc i just felt so bad abt it i was like. what abt this is giving el*n musk ?? #i'm also like. usually insanely confident and do not care what ppl think so if *i* got a little sad abt a silly comment like that #just think how other ppl might feel when u make unnecessary critical comments abt things ppl make !! for free !! for fun !! #also crucially. it was saying 'el*n musk' that made me feel bad dkjfdjk #like someone could say my art is bad or they don't like something i write or w/e and full stop i will just be like. no ur wrong<3 #but saying what i drew looked like that gross man. that was a step too far lmao #vic.txt

[toastsnaffler]

i keep getting irrationally miffed at ppl 😐😐

#'impressed by how much u can talk abt this considering youve not played either game' #fuck off. as if im not just trying to show interest bc u + another friend are both into them + constantly talk abt them in our gc!! #i mean since u guys talk abt them all the time + theyre huge on tumblr like. it would be hard for me to not know anything abt them at all #literally what else can i talk to u guys abt anyway. i dont think there are any interests i personally have that they both gaf abt #if anything they actively dislike most of the things im hyperfixated on. or at least she does so like i cant bring that up can i. #all i did was share a post i saw on tumblr that i thought was funny. its not like i had some negative/controversial opinion #i just saw it and thought hey that makes me think of my friends bc they like those things maybe theyll find it funny too!! #dog sitting outside the door with rly big sad eyes offering them a stick i found in a puddle #i like listening to them talk and i will eventually play some of the games theyre into myself cuz they make them sound rly cool #and even if theyre not my kind of thing i like sharing interests with other ppl and sometimes thats enough for me to be able to enjoy it #i literally own some of them already but im just not in the mental space to start smth new right now. which i have SAID!!!! #why do u even care girl. as if u dont already have a ton of friends playing it that ur talking to abt it???? i wont have anything to add #and thats not gonna stop u from being able to talk to me abt it anyway????? like 2/3 of our conversations atm are abt bg3 #man. i know its not that deep but it makes me kinda sad for some reason. im just trying. i guess next time ill just let u guys talk- #to each other or at me and not comment or say anything so u can pretend im not here or whatever it is u want #ughh. she probably didnt even mean it like that and ill feel stupid for getting annoyed and delete this later but whatever. #might work out early today and then i can like draw or play a game or smth the rest of the day. alright lets go #.vent #listening to my silly little jfunk/jazz/soul playlist and i already feel over it. healing

[britneyshakespeare]

So I was back to subbing at the elementary school today, which as I've mentioned is my favorite place to work. In some ways it's just the most comfortable to me; this is now my fourth year in a row I've had some kind of job associated with kids of that age group who attend that school, so I know a lot of the students and faculty. Actually, a lot of the faculty who work there today have been working there since I was a student.

Most of them recognized me immediately when I started showing my face there, like I didn't graduate from there over a decade ago, age 11. There was one para, who now works as a library assistant, but who used to monitor lunch and recess. I didn't remember her name but I knew her face. The first time she saw me subbing she was just like "oh, hi Diana."

I was talking to her this morning before school started because a first grade teacher unexpectedly called out, so I filled in for her for the first hour of the day before I started the job I clocked in for and a replacement could be found. But this library assistant usually leads the morning meetings with this first grade class and would help me with attendance and all those other beginning-of-the-day responsibilities.

She was saying to me "You know, why don't you work here full time? You're good with kids. You'd be good at it." In other small talk we'd had last year she had asked me similar things, like if I'd ever consider taking up a steady job at the elementary school, how my school was going, etc. I'm in between college right now but currently not taking classes. And I mentioned how I'm trying to take more sub jobs at the middle and high school so I get more well-rounded—that actually is the age group my education major is in. I've been working with the preschool-to-fifth-grade age range but my plan has always been middle-to-high school English.

And I was telling her about that, and I was like "You know what? When I tell people I want to teach older kids, some say to me stuff like 'oh you never know, you might change your mind'—and only recently I've been wondering if I really would. But I hate it when they're right!"

And that made her laugh. But it's true! I do really love working with the littles, as it turns out. Been doing it several years now. But in terms of anyone who's ever mentioned that to me unprompted, I wanna be like... hey, what do you know?!?!

#i have complicated feelings about it #my elementary school is a good place to work though. maybe i would be a para or smth full-time. id consider it #tales from diana #it's just. actually no one would ever say that to a man lol. that's probably why that bothers me #altho. i did actually get my one friend to start subbing in the district too. #male friend. my age. does other stuff for work so he doesn't sub as much as i do. #has the same level of education as me but has considered becoming a teacher someday and i was like 'why not try subbing?' #so i sent him the application and then that was that #and he. like a lot of men. doesnt primarily WANT to teach elementary or early childhood. #great news btw. a 5th grade teacher retired at the end of last year and one of the new hires is the first #male classroom teacher this school has had in YEARS. the only other male teacher is the gym teacher. thats SAD #but yeah so i was telling him 'i know u might be intimidated by working w kids but you should really try it' #'you might like it more than you think' #what's funny is tutoring and working in childcare didn't make me feel like i wanted to start teaching younger. at ALL #but subbing around has made me rethink it. but then again it also might just be #i get the most boring ass shit to do when i sub at the middle or high school. #subbing at an elementary school is so much more involved no matter what youre doing #with olders it's like. ok here's your assignment your teacher left you. sit at your desk and shut up #i realize the bias that is at play here making me reconsider my future path lol.