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prettieinpink · 8 months

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Being that girl once again- back to school!

It’s back to school season everyone, and my favourite times of the year. In this post im going to give you stuff to do for back to school + advice in specific areas of your school life! I hope everyone can take away something from this post <3

THINGS TO DO BEFORE BACK TO SCHOOL <3

Revise your past term content in your core subjects, ensure there’s nothing you do not understand(it’s better to understand now than have to understand later)

Review what you are going to be learning for this current term in your core subject, you don’t have to study it, just familiarise yourself.

Catch up with your friends- hang out, call or text before the new school term. My favourite thing is to create predictions of drama, couples etc in the upcoming term w my girlies!

Create SMART goals for you to achieve that term, in any aspect you want. I say; 1 goal for academics, 1 goal for social and 1 goal for extracurriculars/sports.

Clean your room !! do a deep clean and declutter. E.g wipe down all surfaces, hover pillows, vacuum floor, clean mirrors, take out any clothes you dislike

Do an everything shower + face masks!!

ACADEMICALLY

Everyday afterschool, revise everything that you’ve learnt today + the things that you struggle on

Anytime you get homework, complete it as soon as possible. Most of the time, it’s easy and non time consuming.

Create study guides for exams/tests while actually learning instead of when the assessments are actually coming up. It saves you a lot of time, which you can use for studying effectively.

If you don’t already, have a specific learning/studying style that works for you. E.g flashcards, blurting, mind map, spaced repetition, the feynman technique. (ofc you can have multiple). Just know the pros and cons of each studying technique.

Or, what I do is that I assign specific studying techniques to different subjects e.g science - blurting, HASS - flashcards, maths - the feynman technique. This may be different to what you have the most success learning.

Have a place, time every day or at least most days, where you can study without distractions. I like to study at the library afterschool, it’s chill and literally void of any distractions.

The only advice in which i’ll say is not optional– do practise questions under the said test conditions. Stop using websites, listening to music, being on your phone etc. Get in the zone and transfer the environment.

SOCIALLY

Make an effort to say hi or goodbye to some people, even if you do not know them that well. If you’re up for it, ask them how they are going or how their day has been.

Start remembering names and birthdays. This will literally make people like you so much more, it’s so simple but people swoon over this. Process names in your mind and write down birthdays in your calendar.

Don’t be afraid to talk to others. Most people do not care if you talk to them, and some are glad that you talk to them. This is how people become well-known or well-liked.

Watch videos on how to converse with people you do not know well effectively and become close with them. TED x has a lot of videos on this, and are usually helpful.

Don’t try to fit in with the crowd. It’s so draining, and even if you think they do, they most likely dislike you(sorry!) . Instead, find/be with your people.

Join a club/extracurricular. You meet so many like-minded people this way, while still developing your own skills. I say everyone should at least have one solid extracurricular.

If you are in a talking stage, three weeks is enough time for him or you to decide if you’re willing to date them. It’s not the 1920s anymore, we have imessages, facetime, skype and others to communicate and get to know each other without contact

Call out your friends if you notice them doing something toxic or generally anything they shouldn’t do. E.g gossiping, getting mad at others, bullying someone. If they continue, it will influence you in the long run.

MENTALLY

Reframe your mindset. I know most of us do not favour school, but do not dwell on negativity and find ways to be positive/neutral about your circumstances. You’ll feel so much better.

Detach. Detachment is literally essential in highschool, there’s so much drama and most likely you will somehow get tied up in it. Stop absorbing what happens and let it influence you, observe what happens and learn from it. I have a post on this here.

Start saying affirmations everyday. I know affs are usually viewed as a manifestation thing, but it doesn’t have to be. It can be a simple one minute way to cultivate a neutral/positive perspective of yourself.

Journal. Things will happen, so journaling is a great way to discuss your circumstances, feelings, trauma, relationships etc and develop a sense of identity at the same time. I have a post on this here.

Meditate. It can be go-go-go constantly, but just take a break and gain some mental clarity and see how much better you feel decluttering your mind.

Embrace a change and growth mindset, especially in an environment where we are constantly required to adapt.

PHYSICALLY

Start stretching.. seriously. You sit at a desk for like 5 hours a day excluding lunch and recess, everyday, which is of course going to do a number on your body. It can relieve pain in many different areas.

Have at least 1 form of exercise you do everyday. I know being students, we have to sit at a desk constantly. But, do not give up on practising good exercise habits. Not only can it help with results, it’s good for you.

Get the recommended sleep of 6-8 hours per night, which is good quality sleep without disruptions. It helps with long term memory and you’ll feel better.

Start packing healthy but tasty lunches to school instead of buying. You’ll save so much money in the long run, and it’s better for your body.

BEAUTY

Get your uniforms tailored just a bit. Not too noticeable, but enough that it fits better on your body. Especially for button formal shirts, as they make you look 10 times as bulky than what you actually are.

Buy new jewellery, earrings, necklaces or whatever you’re allowed. Subtle but noticeable jewellery makes girls look so pretty.

Learn new hairstyles!! Don’t just wear the same hair everyday, mix it up, it’s fun and makes you look attractive.

Get a good eyebrow gel + clear mascara. Legit life changer, I look so much better everyday because I look put together without make up.

apply vaseline on areas you would apply highlight, but avoid your eye area.

Have a good skincare regime!! Being a student is stressful, getting pimples is a sign of stress.

Okay that's it. Happy back to school everyone! Here’s an affirmation for you <3

I am intelligent and capable. I am skilled and confident in my abilities. I am perceived well by others. I am healthy. I am wealthy. I am looking for this term to be full of good grades, vibes, friends, growth and fun.

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hp-hcs · 6 months

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yanxidarlings here~ literally screamed when i saw you followed me because your writings were the direct inspiration for my latest post 💖 but im curious to see your take on yandere! poly! mattheo and theodore with m! reader or just more poly headcanons because i am never. going. to. get. enough. of. them

OH MY FUCKING GOD UR KIDDING I WAS THE ANON WHO REQUESTED UR LATEST POST

IM FEELING STARSTRUCK RN 🙇‍♂️👑

requests open, please dear god

Yk, reader is (lovingly) so fucking oblivious

Like, his friends will be like “hey you’re getting pretty close with like, the two most obsessive and violent guys at this school aha”

And reader will be like “lol they’re so silly goofy aren’t they 😌”

Inspired purely by your “you know people think we're gay and dating, right?” “aren't we?” I present:

“you know people think we’re gay and dating, right?” “aren’t we?” — yandere! mattheo riddle x oblivious! male! reader x yandere! theodore nott

completely unedited cause i gotta sprint to my lecture broski

TWs: possessive/obsessive behavior, brief mentions of violence, one instance of slut-shaming (?)

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Honestly, you thought nothing of it when you were informed that due to “space issues” you were being moved to room with The Theos™. You just shrugged and followed the very anxious house-elf who had informed you of the switch to your new room.

Your trunk and belongings were there already, waiting to be set up and organized. Mattheo and Theo were hovering in the doorway looking a bit too pleased with the situation for comfort.

You just quietly said “hi” and moved past them, dumping your school bag on your new bed and flopping down next to it.

Theo and Mattheo practically trip over themselves rushing to “befriend” you. (Their words, not mine)

You all share a dorm, so it wasn’t long before they realized the other was obsessed with you.

Then, it’s all out war.

I’m talking mysterious falls down the moving stairs, getting locked out of the dorm all night, randomly being chased by bludgers—even when they aren’t playing.

Random fistfights between them whenever they see each other in the halls.

That all goes out the window, though, when reader is asked out.

Reader comes back to his dorm after a long day and finds The Theos sitting side-by-side on the edge of the his bed.

“When were you going to tell us that you became the class whore?” Mattheo drawled, his lips thinning in disapproval and disgust.

“W-what?” You ask, completely taken aback.

“We heard that little Y/N L/N’s got himself a date to the Yule Ball,” Theodore adds. “Who is it? That Parkinson girl? The Diggory boy?”

“Wh- no. I said no anyways.”

The boys scrutinize you, exuding an air of judgement.

Finally, Theodore pipes up. “Good boy.”

😳

“Aww, what’s this? Look, Riddle. Y/N’s blushing,” Theodore teases.

They make a quick mental note of that 📝

Anyways, they eventually find out who asked you out. They call a ceasefire on their own personal war, and team up to beat the shit out of the poor guy/girl.

After that, babycakes, if they didn’t already know before, everyone at Hogwarts now knows that you are TAKEN. (Even though you don’t.)

They tolerate each other, but just barely. They can really only stand each other when you three all curl up in one of your beds or on the common room couch.

Then, they’re the clingiest mfs you’ve ever met.

They have absolutely no sense of a personal space bubble. One of them is always touching you in some way, whether it be holding your hand, resting a hand on your hip or shoulder, putting their hand on your lower back…

Theodore charmed your chair in History of Magic to be impossible to move, so you can’t scoot away from him.

If you’re relaxing on the couch in the common room, Mattheo will move to sit right next to you (like r i g h t next to you) and put your legs in his lap. He tried once before to get you to just sit in his lap, but you told him no (like an idiot) and avoided him for the rest of the day. That is, until you woke up to him in your bed next to you.

Homeboy was not happy about that.

He is manipulative as fuck and will gaslight you to no end. He uses his shitty childhood and bad father to get you to pity him.

(It works.)

It’s obviously disconcerting for you when your boyos go from ‘actively out for each other’s blood’ to ‘eh, you’re fine, i guess’

You guys were watching a movie in your dorm one night, all piled onto your bed, and they accidentally fell asleep there. They woke to you already gone for breakfast and them with their arms around each other.

“If you ever bring this up again, I’ll kill you.”

“Oh, believe me, they’d never find your body.”

They become way more open about their attraction to you, everything from kissing your cheek, to making you wear their clothes (esp their jerseys with their last name on them), to asking you your ring size.

I completely agree with your headcanon of Mattheo neck kisses 😩🤌

Eventually though, because you are an oblivious gay disaster, you’re just chilling on the couch and you’re like “Hey guys, you know everyone thinks we’re gay right? And like, all dating each other?”

“What, like we aren’t?”

y/n: 😳🤨☺️🏳️‍🌈👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨

#harry potter #fuck jkr #hp #hp x male reader #x male reader #gay #x reader #theodore nott #theodore nott x reader #theo nott x reader #theo nott #yandere theodore nott #mattheo riddle x reader #mattheoxreader #mattheo riddle x male reader #mattheo riddle

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ghost-proofbaby · 16 days

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I would love a Getting to Know Eddie with your coffee shop blues Eddie. (I’ll let Abi ask for Maroon). 😘

(oh i don’t think i could tell abi much more about maroon eddie than i already have. the space under my desk when im writing maroon literally has her name on it <3)

alright. so. COFFEE SHOP BLUES EDDIE. first and foremost, that eddie is from my purely self indulgent barista!au for those of you who don’t know. for legal reasons, it’s totally not based on true experiences or a very real company. totally not. for legal reasons. but, the entire premise is this eddie entirely untouched from the upside down — non-canon compliance so we can be happy for once baby ! — and just playing around with who he is without all that. he gets the job as a barista, he’s a damn pessimist, and- well, i liked to play around with what would happen if he was the grumpiest barista to ever exist and got reality checked by a sunshine-incarnate barista. and, spoiler alert, the boy would probably melt. he does melt.

my inspiration is drawn entirely from uh… well… can i have a lawyer if i admit this? nah im just kidding he’s based on my own experiences! and contrary to what plenty of people have said to me (if i had a nickel every time said they imagine me as reader i’d be far richer than i am which makes me so 😭), eddie is the character based around me. i think he’d react very similarly to how i do most of the time at work. being grumpy, being so easily inconvenienced by every small thing, always huffing and puffing and wanting to be better. and i think reader is what i’d like to be. at the end of the day, it’s just a nice way to romanticize life, i guess. <3

my favorite headcanon that i’ve never shared in the story is that everyone actually finds that he’s very good at his job. it’s emphasized he isn’t necessarily friends with the other baristas, and there’s a whole lot of him internally comparing himself to the people he thinks do the job better (*cough* reader *cough*), but that whole “i can do better. i have to do better” mentality has led him to being quite good at the job actually. he puts himself down, says he isn’t that good, etc. but he is. customers like that feline grumpiness (the girls that come in regularly for frappucinos in the afternoon are always secretly hoping he’s there, definitely living their ‘i can fix him’ fantasy despite reader already having set sail on that boat), his coworkers admire him albeit they get a lil scared of him due to resting bitch face, and all that. he makes a mean fucking cappuccino. his drinks always just taste better. he’s just good. he’ll never admit it, but damn is he good at his job.

on a casual day, this man is living in comfy clothes. big band tees, plaid pajama pants or sweats. the only time he puts on jeans these days is when he works. which, i mean, listen — he works often. he lives his days by what shift he has, not by days of the week. weekends are nonexistent to him. he’s earned some damn comfort when he’s just at home, ya know? (also, most of his clothes that aren’t graphic tees or comfy pants just stink of coffee these days. ugh.)

his favorite food is probably the cake pops at work. he’s a sweet tooth fiend with them. someone accidentally breaks one when opening the packages? oh no !! he’ll take that off their hands. all of his free food mark outs? 50% cake pops. he’s on food? he’s definitely accidentally bagging and slipping one or two off to the side for himself. sometimes coworkers will try to convince him when he’s on the food position to slip them a free cake pop as well, and every time, he’s flipping them the bird and a quick “steal on your own time, bud”. (unless it’s reader. unless it’s sunshine. then, he’s caving, handing over the birthday cake pop he just marked out for himself without second thought. even if he rolls his eyes as he does it — he’d give her the world if she just asked).

his family situation is pretty close to canon — wayne. and obviously he has hellfire, he has corroded coffin, but all of those are just… small things. he’s finally graduated in this universe, so hellfire doesn’t meet as often. corroded coffin’s members are still in their senior year, so sometimes studying for a calculus test is overriding band practice for them. which i mean, was a bummer and led to him needing a distraction like a part time job (also — money) but it’s all good now, cause he gets to bug Sunshine on his days off when he’s bored. they’ve definitely exchanged numbers, and they’re definitely sending each other an obligatory dumb meme a day. sorry, i don’t make the rules.

he likes pop music. don’t ever ask him about it, he denies it, but Sunshine got him into all those radio hits. he’ll find himself humming along to the radio at work constantly too. and, the one time he and Sunshine worked a very rare, LITERALLY only happened once close together, they definitely were belting out britney spears’ “hit me baby one more time”, dancing around the closed stores and eddie using the mop as a mic while Sunshine tried to stock up all the cups. the shift on duty was unamused, to say the least.

he’s pretty pessimistic in all avenues, but there’s something deep inside of him that’s just a bit hopeless romantic. especially after meeting Sunshine. he listens to her prattle about her romance books all day, and he hates the fact that he finds himself smiling at some of those different scenarios she’s gushing about. but it’s cute, okay? besides, it’s only giving him more ideas about how to wow his favorite barista. sex, on the other hand, he’s still pretty bland on. he’s had one or two one night stands, names he’s forgotten at the Hideout after shows, and he’s not really got the energy to be some sex-crazed fuckboy. listening to his coworkers’ hookup stories and relationship problems work pretty well to remind him he could be doing far worse (but if anyone were to ask him what he thought of Sunshine in that context? oh. oh the poor boy. the scary dog facade fades, and his ears have never been pinker as he’s stuttering about having to grab something from the back that he just stocked. he’s just grateful she never seems to have her own escapades to talk about — he probably wouldn’t survive the world-ending jealousy that would cloud his vision.)

pessimistic. so so pessimistic.

a couple months ago, he would have said his room. alone. or practicing with cc, on his guitar. or behind his dm screens, watching as his little sheep panicked over the latest twist he’s revealed for his current campaign.

but now? maybe he’s just gone soft, but the first place he thinks of is a rainy afternoon in the back of his van, his head in Sunshine’s lap as they listen to the slight drizzle bounce off the roof. he swears if he closes his eyes, he can still feel her fingers against his scalp.

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JO. JO. I DON'T HAVE THE ORIGINAL POST FOR THIS. I DON'T KNOW WHAT PARAGRAPH IS ANSWERING WHAT PROMPTS. but honestly, even now that i'm free of the siren, i wanna post this. i love prattling on about our little grumpy barista. i luv him.

#tumblr keeping THIS ONE in drafts has to be grounds for fighting right?#like?#it's BARISTA EDDIE #how dare this not post? or maybe i wasn't done answering??? i don't even know anymore #thank u ily <3 #jo <3 #coffee shop blues #eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #still laughing at the way i insert the under the desk joke any time i can

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alexanders-pokemon-adventure · 5 months

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A little rain in every life must fall

Trigger warning themes of depression and themes suicidal

Derek Dagda

In the hospital Alexander was being cared for at Derek sat in a Secluded hallway and thought. Sera tarot reading had no been a clear and undeniable sign that they would succeed he wonted and alexander continuing to worse state was … deeply apparent to derek. Alex is wasting, derek could feel it . Sense a steady waning in for lack of any other Terminologies Alexander’s life force , knew sera and the professor could feel it to in their own strange way as Well. Derek Understood undeniably that the situation was bad but A selfish and unreasonable part of himself felt resentful of Alexander’s family for coming. Their large family have been coming in shifts for the last week. Derek felt it was like they were saying goodbye like they were saying it was already over. it made some Incoherent raging part him want to scream “ ALEX IS NOT DEAD WHY ARE YOU CRYING LIKE ITS OVER , WHY ARE YOU CROUNDING THEM , ALEX DOSENT LIKE BEEING CROWDED”

But…he wouldn’t .Maybe 19 year old Derek Fresh out Of their apprenticeship and angry would have but 28 year old Derek would not. It was the truth that alexander may die soon and their family has the right to be here .

“Needed some space ?” Sera ask as she leaned against next to him

Derek side and nodded”yes , I wanted to think”

“ anything specific” she prodded

“ I don’t know” and A soft sigh was all Derek could muster , there was so much to think about. Their plan to help Alex was still painfully theoretical, Victoria, we’re still out there doing gods know what, alexander’s family had questions that none of them seem to be able to answer satisfactory and then their was Nimbus alexander’s Castform that while they had not been rendered comatose in the greenhouse incident had clearly suffered some kind of damage to their cohesive energy matrix that remained abnormal even weeks after the fact . And then there was. Sara didn’t allow him to finish the thought

“ thinking about the card, Derek ?” Sera asked handing him the The seven of cups

her uncanny ability to hit the nail directly on the head was some thing that used to shock Derek. But after a few years of being friends, with a psychic, the novelty of such things, begins to wear off.

“ it didn’t go unnoticed by me that your face Took the place of the oracle or the lover “ she said “ so i know you two have been a thing for a while bbuuuut I’ve noticed you two have never made it official ?” She said more as a question. Than a statement

“Hmm have you now , didn’t you also say that the images might not be literal , that they may just represent alex imagining the future, not the actual future” derek was deflecting . And he knew it .

“ your going to make me ask, aren’t you” sera said as a statement

“ Someone less nosy wouldn’t ask at all” Derek responded also as a statement

“ Well, Alex and I are best friends and you and I have been friends for the better part of a decade. Also, I’m psychic nosiness comes Prepackaged with all my relationships, unfortunately . So im asking why Aren’t you and alex together ?”sera said

Derek knew the answer “ because alexander doesn’t want to, I’ve asked they said no “ . Sera seam Genuinely shocked by that answer “ they said no ?”

“Not in so many words but it wasn’t yes , Sera “ derek answered “ i dont think alex want that kind of “ he paused Searching for the right words “ i dont think Alexander want a serious romantic relationships anymore ,not after Antonio”

Sera was Silent for a long moment after that and derek wondered if she too remembered the day the Titan slayer killed alexander Five closest friends, and lover , Remember, the weeks that followed when she literally found Alex on the ledge of the starlight tower ready to jump. How when we and their family got them to the Mental health facility ,alex looked so hallow ,so lifeless. Derek knew alexander treatment at that Facility had help them grieve and work through the pain and trauma. help them decide they no longer needed and it was no longer healthy for them to be a Ranger. That it help Bring them to a place where they can feel joy again…but

“ i dont think after Antonio died and Alex stated getting better that they want that kind of relationship again”

“Hmm i had hoped that after four years , that after all this time … that maybe you two would be able to make it work “ sera said

Derek knew because it was sera that her comment was not meant to hurt him or question his Resolve but an actual hope for his and Alex’s happiness. After all, she was one of the few who knew that before there was an Alexander and Antonio, there had almost been a Derek and Alex. But that was along time ago What they had been then in their ranger Apprenticeship days was in the past No matter how much Derek wished it could be his and Alex’s future. Alex would have to want it to and he did not believe Alex Did.

“ you don’t think Alex doesn’t want to because of Antonio do you? . Alex has know that Antonio would’ve wanted them to be happy and to find someone else?” Sera ask

“ I dont know Sera, i think they know logically that Antonio only ever wanted them to be happy . But knowing in your mind and knowing in your heart are not the same thing . Besides alex may just not want or Prioritize that aspect of their life anymore poeple change “ derek said

Sera and Derek stayed silent for long moments in that quit hallway

“Derek i don’t think your face being on the Seven of cups was a coincidence , just like I’m certain our presence on the five of wands wasn’t one . I think your presence in alexander life acts as a nexus of possibilities just like all the other symbols on that card you draw them towards different paths. I think you should tell them when they wake how you feel and what you want and even if alex says no at lest you both will have your Answers and will be able to make choices from there.”

“ but what if they say no?” Derek ask a hint of desperation in his voice

“ then you’ll know alex cant give you what you want and if they cant , you deserve more than an Unfulfilling Situationship with your best friend of over a decade Derek. It’ll suck for a while but it will pass and you both will be better for it.

Derek thought it was terrible to hear unasked for advice that was completely correct , but what did he expect being friends with a Nosy psychic.

#a little rain in every life’s must fall #pokemon #pkmn #alexander’s pokémon adventure #pokemon art #pkmnart #pokeart #pkmn fanart #art #tw sucidal ideation #tw depressing thoughts #cw high stakes pokeblogging #high stakes pokeblogging #high stakes pokereality

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scattered-winter · 9 months

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Say, what are some characters you feel like had a metric ton of potential that was completely scrapped by the writers?

i feel like it would be cheating if i said all of them so. ill try and be more specific lmao <3 i was gonna show restraint and only do a few but FUCK IT you're getting the entire essay

coran. i know he's meant to be the Comic Relief character but idk. its possible to have a comic relief character who also has gravity and emotion, ykw ??? like idk i feel like all the show/fandom ever talks about is how allura lost everything (which is TRUE. SHE DID. IM NOT TRYING TO MINIMIZE THAT AT ALL.) but idk. allura was young enough that she probably didn't really have an established life on altea yet but coran??? he was an adult. fully grown, probably had friends or coworkers, even a partner and family. idk idk he lost as much as if not more than allura did and the writers barely ever acknowledged it. he isn't allowed to connect with any of the characters or have any actual genuine moments because he's supposed to be The Funny One. idk if the writing actually aknowledged his grief and trauma more, but still made him so lighthearted and goofy, that would be FASCINATING. HE STILL HAS HOPE. HE CAN STILL LAUGH. ET CETERA. but noooo he's just Silly with nothing deeper to it. sigh

in that same vein, hunk. again, he's often comic relief (and that comic relief is usually a fat joke

lotor. ik a lot of ppl have mixed opinions on the guy (fair) but like. he had SO much potential to be so many different things but i think the writers just. had too many things they wanted him to be. so his writing was all over the place because they couldn't make up their minds

haggar......again. i had SUCH a hard time pinning down any of her motives or characterization when she was the Main Villain (which to be fair might have been due to the fact that i was Mentally Checked The Fuck Out by the time s7/s8 rolled around) but like ??? i still have no idea what she was trying to do as the main villain in s7/8. she was such a menacing villain in the first few seasons but then the writing got soo confusing and needlessly complicated and i completely lost interest in anything about her character

shiro. the fact that he went through So Much but still gave the blade of marmora enough hope to risk everything to rescue him and kickstart the events of s1 ??? the fact that he Continued to go through So Much but was still a rock for the team and was still goofy and fun and dorky and lovable ?????? and ALL THAT to not even be in the show for the next 5 or so seasons and then be permanently sidelined when he DOES come back. what the fuck. like they tried to have an atlas metaphor later on to try and bring him back into the narrative but it was MEANINGLESS. sooo much wasted potential. a narrative about healing....finding love + family + connection......ending the war that has caused so much pain for Him Personally......man. we could have had it ALL

keith. i legiterally don't even recognize keith after s3 like !!! who is this man !!!!! he had abandonment + anger issues from being alone his Whole Life and instead of finding a close-knit family in space, he was isolated again and again and again, and shoved into a role he didn't want and wasn't meant for, and by the end bro was UNRECOGNIZABLE. in theory i LOVE the concept of keith learning to rely on his team more and take more of a leadership role as he grows as a person + teammate, but they had the PERFECT opportunity to do that already with keith being red paladin!!!!!!!! the red paladin is voltron's right hand!!!!!!! if the black isn't there, then red steps up to take charge!!!!!! idk. it would have been so so so so cool if shiro was only missing Temporarily and keith had to work through his own grief/fear/etc and take up the mantle of red paladin to keep the team together just long enough until shiro got back because he would NOT want that shit long-term. idk. i know keith literally got most of the storylines and arcs in the show but i still think he had wasted potential because most of those arcs fundamentally misunderstood him as a character and turned him into something he wasn't. idk

allura. she lost her ENTIRE FAMILY her ENTIRE CULTURE her ENTIRE SPECIES and it doesn't stop there lol !!!! over the course of the show she lost LITERALLY EVERYTHING. the castle of lions (the last remnant of her home), her tiara thingie (last thing she had left of her family), AND her life. what the fuuuck what the fuck. EVEN WITH the other alteans w romelle's group, allura still got discarded. like idk. she grieved her whole people and tried so hard to lead this resistance and then after she's grown so much and become a powerful leader and warrior she becomes queen of new altea. that would have been SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

matt. he was alone in space for YEARS. like its unclear how long it was between shiro saving him from the arena and pidge finally finding him, but it was at LEAST a year, probably longer. he was a prisoner for most of that time, separated from the only two people he knew, and likely thinking they're both dead. no way to be rescued. no way to escape. and THEN when he IS rescued by the rebels, he's alone still because he's the only human!!! none of them can speak his language!!! he can't go home!!!! and ofc he fights the galra as part of the resistance and is this badass rebel leader but the show doesn't shed ANY light on how he got there. how he turned from nerdy little scientist to badass rebel leader in a space war. and just. idk. there was barely ANY matt screentime and there was so much wasted potential there

and i could keep going. i could have an essay for every single character. but alas i am sooo fucking sleepy so i must cap it here </3

#sigh. they really did every single character so so so so so so so dirty #i literally cant decide who got it worse because they all had it SO BAD.#anyway uh. there may or may not be some slight spoilers for quintenary stars in here. because that rewrite is fixing everything i hate #and much of what i hate is in this post godbless <3 #anyway TY TY i do love rambling about things i hate. i <3 being a hater #voltron #quintenary stars series #xpegasusuniverse

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do you have a preferred favorite method of pk torture or do you just want to do anything you could possibly think of

is there one singular thing that you want to do most or consider/think of most, or is it a free for all for whatever you're in the mood for, an all you can eat buffet of options?

if there were a table full of weapons of average and unconventional variety ranging from guns, to knives, to sharp scalpels and dull blades, scissors, cheese graters, potato peelers, toothpicks and pencils, staplers and syringes, or simply your bare hands, and a pitifully present pale king was quivering before you, what would you do? be slow and merciless? or quick and right to the messy parts? a bit of both? play with his mind until he begs for death?

would you stop at simple weapons or would you use other methods? Would you use anything to promote illness, disease, or infection? With that, would you keep him alive to let him deal with festering wounds and parasites? would you give him burning or freezing pain? torture of other sensory and cognitive functions? could you keep him in a room and leave him alone forever in solitary darkness and watch as he loses his mind? are you in favor of something that takes sweet time, until he becomes a zombie of a being he used to be?

this is a deep question here, this king of bugs provokes curious thought for torture. what do you see most fit for him, as if you were a personally assigned demon to torture him for all eternity, over and over, what would his inescapable fate be?

okay before i elaborate , i love this ask so much i want to hang it on my wall .

this is all assuming hes somehow human sized or im bug sized to compensate :^)

dont think i have a favorite torture method . all that matters to me is that he suffers as much as possible

i always like the torture methods that promote a slow painful agony, to make sure he suffers as much as possible . the idea is to completely mentally destroy him from how much pain he is going through .

and yes, something that promoted infections and diseases is a go-to . there is literally nothing better than causing an infected wound that collapses into itself which basically prolongs the torture just by existing .

i have consistently mentioned the idea of peeling off the plates of his exoskeleton piece by piece, agonizingly removing other tissue along with it every now and then for some flavor .

i want to shove things in his eye sockets, more of a forcing them in kinda way, its best if i tilt him upside down stretching him out . leaving him like that for a good while with things in his eye sockets would be pretty good I'd say . adds character

the best thing about guns is that it can cause a mini explosion , and also gunpowder is versatile . i consistently think about blowing his mouth off or even his whole head completrly destroyed . it would be pretty nice to have the fresh shrapnel go everywhere mostly

the idea of having him incapable of escaping and putting him in a completely empty dark room sounds good but considering hes a weird little bug freak i feel like it would be difficult to get him to be mentally fucked up from such a thing, same applies to putting him in a tight space... normally id love it but he might he immune to this

so i really like the idea of him overworking himself to a lack of sleep already, but imagining how he wishes to rest so badly kinda gets me going . this is mostly outside of the torture scenario bcz even if i made him not fall asleep ever its just not the same so im mentioning it

another good thing is having him be slightly poisoned or drugged at all times . if i was eternally torturing him i would constantly make him experience the horrific things substances can show him , yknow how fucking awful something like a bad drug trip can be . theres so many options !! and the best part is that its all just his own mind creating its own hell !!! that is amazing is it not !? aside from that its best for him to be constantly feeling sickly ill , whether from the infections and wounds he suffered beforehand or due to me giving him mercury poisoning or something ?

not sure how possible it is, but, have him constantly be reminded of how much of a failure he is . always wave around the fact that he fucked up . make him feel miserable more than he already does and fuck him up into completely believing no matter what he does or did hes a useless fucking thing

something fun is to inject highly corrosive things into him, have him be melted from the inside . ideal if it turns his insides into soup slowly and agonizingly and he realizes his organs are collapsing into a nasty sizzling mush . points for if he throws up his internals .

yknow when i imagine a pk torture scenario i mostly imagine just being cruel as fuck to him in general . like aggressively shoving him and forcing him around, holding by the horns and bending his body n whatnot . its the little things that make it count and its important af to me because if i cant even touch him violently with the intent of painful death whats the point ? there is a lot of enjoyment in him being in distress overall and anything to enhance that is great <3 i want to get horribly up close right before i crush one of his limbs under a heavy blunt object . its the labored breathing and suppressed twitching from the pain that makes it . what i want to do is to give him a tight hug and then bash his head in . hold his hands and disembowel him . hold his face gently and shove a huge plank of wood in his eye .

his inescapable fate at my hands is quite blurry, i like change and i like trying new things . i think there is always something different and fun to embrace . so he is fucked

#hexatxt #ask #anonymous #gore #torture

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incarnateirony · 2 years

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god. its kinda funny watching the way 2p0 is trying to manipulate the new winchesters fandom flow. esp with scripthunt and Winupdates and everyone he's trying to pull into his server while tearing at and tearing down other hubs.

like oh that's cute, you think you can spread misinformation for the next 15 years, instead of you wiping out in less than 6 months. that's. adorable

dude's building himself a fucking bomb thats gonna blow up in his face with a few hundred folks realizing he not only had them attack/unfollow the person who knew what was going on all along, but that it was all one machiavellian attention seeking game designed to undermine destiel, while certain bitter hellers banned from their origin servers sit there protecting him.

sdfsdkfjsdf

yall

literally thats it thats whats happening he's working SO HARD to try to become king of the fandom and all he's doing is suicide bombing in front of an audience he collected. honestly those other hubs like winupdates need to learn to get far, far the fuck away from him or he's gonna take yall down with him to the new audience watching his severe lying jackassery be invariably called out in [checks notes] 6-9 weeks, depending on how willfully ignorant fandom chooses to be for a few episodes first. which is definitely the entire reason he wants to get up in there spreading confusing horse shit, because it hasn't occurred to them this is a short run. then we get to have christmas break and then come back and have several more weeks of 2p0 imploding on whatever new terrible set of excuses he cobbled together from the space in his own head and whatever corncob he pleasures himself with, probably already used.

he doesn't realize it yet but that is 1000% what's happening, i need the popcorn

not from his used anal corn. he can keep it. maybe take a picture of it. higher value content than the complete horse shit he calls intel all day currently.

thisfandom still hasn't processed the grumpy old bastards are gonna be obsolete. it was cute him trying to hoop then to winupdates since he can benefit by proxy. thinking, oh, everyone will follow that or w/e. uh. lmao. theres a bunch. new fans are gonna scatter. and they're not gonna have this fucked up mental dialogue old fandom does. and within a literal handful of episodes, they'll just know 2p0, and frankly any hub that associates with him, is full of horse shit so. if everyone wants to REALLY bury your relevance. just. keep following yall current path

like. im layin on my back here enjoying the sun and rewards fully aware that millions of new viewers are going to be watching, a good portion engaging, and drowning out the couple thousand old fandom accounts at largekjsfdjsdjf 2p0 baby please i'm begging you for your own sake. you don't comprehend the like. historic levels of fandom failure you're teeing yourself up for. and i don't mean in like. spn fandom history. like. this is gonna be some fandom wiki history piece level of fucking embarrassing. it's gonna be so embarrassing you're going to embarrass not just yourself and your followers but the entire fandom for even being connected kind of bad dude. i'm not kidding and i'm not speculating and it's not a fuckin joke dude. like. please don't embarrass fuckin humanity on your behalf by doubling down

but on the other hand

that little demonic part of me? please don't stop dude oh god i feel horny just thinking about how bad you're fucking yourself right now.

#apollo's curveballs

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skadren · 1 year

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I keep seeing a bunch of live and let go, boundaries are personal and not moral stances posts about writing and i largely agree ppl should be able to explore what they want in fic but also. Is there a way to balance or talk about "hi um white author so you kinda reinvented racism/blood eugenics and unilaterally present sex work as inherently degrading and etc etc etc for Shipping Angst Drama fodder, when the text is like. None of that" in fandom or even just in like. A server community. Maybe I'm a bit sensitive bc i feel constructed/projected misery is kind of tacky to begin with and i wouldn't do it with a complete stranger but idk my guy. I don't want to alienate myself but it's weird to go completely uncritical here

i think there are a couple items you need to check off the list before you can go "yes talking to internet stranger #37461239 about a highly sensitive topic is a good idea"

is it tagged appropriately? if it's tagged trust me the writer knows. they have probably gotten way more unsolicited feedback than they would really like

is the portrayal you're concerned about reinforcing an unhealthy or discriminatory predominant social narrative? if it is and you think the writer is genuinely unaware, then yeah, it might be worth bringing up. the emphasis here is on predominant please i am begging on my hands and knees

will this result in a productive conversation? if the intent behind this is to get people to reconsider, it isn't helping anyone if you know it will just lead to them doubling down and doing it even worse. at that point you're only making a performative statement to validate your own stance

if it really is bothering you that much, is there a compelling reason why you can't just block and move on? it isn't your responsibility nor is it feasible to fix how a fandom is doing things, especially if it's a group of people you don't really know. your own mental health always comes first, and a bit of salty venting in private with your friends never hurts anyone

if it IS a friend or acquaintance who is doing this and you think they would be open to discussing it with nuance, then you can probably bring it up. if that person has a basic level of consideration and respect for you it tends to go well, but i've also seen people double down because they already know there's something wrong with their attitudes but get mad at you for wanting them to change, and then it creates a whole ton of drama and people get hurt and it's not pretty. so. ymmv

ultimately, someone's views on racism or sex work or whatever is reflective of a broader social norm, and fandom is not the best space to try to fix that through confrontation-- it's usually someone's "safe space" where they want to retreat from the world, not come face-to-face with any sort of personal reckonings. do i think it's a mark of privilege that some people have the luxury of ignoring these issues when they "just want to have fun"? yes, but again, this is about being able to have productive discussion, not about what's "fair". unfortunately.

my two cents: if you're in a server community or some other space that makes you uncomfortable there's really nothing wrong with going "hey, we have fundamentally different standards when it comes to [x], and i don't think i want to be here" and moving on. the best way to challenge these things is quite literally to make your own food. there's a much better chance of the people you're worried about coming across it and realizing they like it than magically being able to argue them down with well-placed logic and reasonable points or whatever

EDIT: OH ALSO IM STUPID if you mean talking about it in general. not naming writer names but trends in the fandom. yes absolutely-- not in a public space like social media but definitely find a group of people who you trust who you can talk about these things with!! it is good and healthy. just make sure it isn't just a discord server open to the public or smth tho so you personally know and trust everyone who can see it (and you don't accidentally shit talk someone who is in that space lmao)

#skadren rambles #long post #tldr; fandom is allowed to be your safe space too and you dont need to cater to anyone. or fix them. or whatever #it's less that 'people writing these things is okay' and more #starting drama is never a good look and it shits on your mental health and the internet is not a good place for nuanced discussions anyways #if you're planning to take on a whole community you will NOT be able to win i promise

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wait am I the only one who really wants to know more about your tlou dr...

im currently trying to shift there and I didn't knew about the letter thing so ofc I'm gonna start doing it but there's something I didn't understand.. do you ask ellie things in the letter? or did i misunderstood...

you’re not the only one dw ! i had an anon ask to hear more about it, so im going to link this post when i answer them :)

as for the letter thing…boy do i have a few stories to tell you. first, though, we’ll start w/ an explanation.

basically, you write to a person in your dr. the letter doesn’t have to be long, but you need to talk to them as if you’re already in the reality. i ‘act’ as if i’m just on a trip or out doing something. the most important thing that you have to do to get results is, after you’ve said what you’ve wanted to say, ask for something in return. examples include strawberry mochi, a mushroom, or a penny. BUT these items/things have to be things that you don’t normally see. and when they are ‘delivered,’ they don’t necessarily have to be material, they can be a picture or simply just mentioned. afterward you’ve signed off on the letter, you can rip it up, burn it (SAFELY), or simply forget about it. the idea is to not think about it. let it go. most importantly, HAVE FAITH THAT YOU WILL GET WHAT YOU ASKED FOR !

i’ll provide some of my own experiences below :) please keep in mind, though, that i have done this before my tlou dr. i have plenty of other desired realities that i do this with.

— the first time i wrote a letter to ellie i asked for a snake. it was simple and i never saw them in my every day life. WELL fast forward like a day, when i’m in the cafeteria at my high school, and my friends are playing this game on their phones. i was busy talking to my other friend, so i wasn’t really paying attention. at least that was until they were deciding which colored snake avatar they wanted to be. as they decided, my head literally whipped in their direction to see what they were looking at, and, low and behold, there were two blue and red snakes on the screens. i was SUPER excited, and i kid you not after that i saw snakes EVERYWHERE.

— okay, this story occurred like last month. after careful consideration, i decided that from now on, i would work on a theme. everything that i would ask for would be in correlation to tlou/ellie. so, i asked her for a dinosaur. no specificities, just a plain old dino. babe…she sent me SO. MANY. DINOSAURS🧍‍♀️it was constantly one after the other, and when i went to a local craft store to buy yarn the same day, THERE WERE A SHIT TON OF DINOSAUR FIGURINES 😭😭

— this one is super short and simple, but i asked for a space ship (for obvious reasons hehe). this one also occurred at my school, but an organization was hosting a small booth and spreading awareness on mental health in teens and young adults. they were handing out pins and when they gave one to me IT HAD A SPACE SHIP ON IT :,)

— i saved the best for last ✋ THIS ONE MAKES ME SMILE CAUSE IT HAPPENED LIKE LAST WEEK BUT i was writing to ellie and telling her to listen to some lana del rey songs that make me think of her. in return i asked for a guitar. after i had put my journal away, and i put in airpods to listen to music, i clicked shuffle on my ‘ellie’ playlist. THE SONG THAT PLAYED WAS DARK RED BY STEVE LACY !! AND, IF YOURE NOT AWARE, THE COVER HAS A GUITAR IN IT 😫 i literally couldn’t stop smiling, and now every time i hear that song my mind instantly goes to ellie. it’s like she sent me a song in return for sending her some :)

well, ig that’s a wrap on the whole letter situation and my experiences with it :D i hope this helped and gave you some motivation to shift !! <3

#luvsellie :: mailbox #luvsellie speaks :3 #luvsellie :: shifting

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hi yes hello your fic so far is quite lovely and a welcomed surprise with accidentally reading part 4 first and going back to the beginning. been trying to avoid the asks you post as spoilers hehe. been trying to savor it as mutch as i can because how mutch of a special treat is it to have my first fic that im sitting down and investing time in in- god knows how long im dislexic, its been a possess practicing reading enough to handle it long term but im finally at the point i wana be hehe. and boyhowdy is it a breath of fresh air to be so mentally entwined with strangers on the internet i knew where shit was going when going back and hearing the bickering about yellows head being soft, that i felt it was going to go THERE but then i put it down and came back and nearly did a spit take of my hot coco with how the next few sentiences went and im just fucking here for it gosh am i here for it. but what a great time it was to have the nightmare sequence first, covid was the hardest time in my life and going through trauma resurfacing through peace time is sutch a specific thing that you nailed perfectly and im just so impressed by every second of it. please please keep doing what your doing and i hope to muster up enough focus and time to draw some things enough to do your words justice. im still thinking about how funny "used a taller voice" is and how absolutely silly them wearing chefs hats for cooking was god this appeals to me in every fucking way dear god

Just to start off: sorry for not answering this last night but I was already moisturized and in bed when this popped up so there was no hope of me waking up enough to answer this coherently 💖

I just want to say it's a very lovely thing to have my writing be described as something to be invested in, doubly so that you're doing so despite of dyslexia! My father has struggled with dyslexia his entire life and only just got diagnosed (hooray to the '70s US public school system for absolutely dropping the ball forever 🙄) and I know how frustrating it can be, so I'm absolutely touched that my writing is something you're interested in spending your time on 💗

And you're very right, there is something wonderful about being 'mentally intwined' with people over something as silly as a horror puppet show for adults. There's a lot of jokes to be made about calling online interactions 'the people that live in my phone' but it really is nice to have a space like this online where interaction is easy and the people in that space are all so interesting and kind!

Covid really was such a nightmarish time to be alive, not knowing if the people you cared for would get sick and die in an absolutely horrific way, not knowing when it would end. I think writing is a good way to air some of my personal demons I have with time periods of my life, and I'm glad you're working through your own as well.

Promise me if you do feel the urge to draw anything that you'll tag me in it!!!!! There's something so amazing to me about people that feel impacted/inspired by my work and then draw it, like its crazy. You have the ability to literally draw anything and you're using your talents to make scenes from my silly little puppet fanfics real. It's literally unreal to me after all this time that this fandom has so many amazing artists and they follow me and like my stuff for some reason lol

And yes, the silly hats, a very important part of the cooking process. The most important part some may say, Yellow definitely. Duck as well but he doesn't want to admit it I don't think.

#literally such a beautiful message to receive I hope I didn't ramble too much I just wanted to be able to address everything!#anonymous #my askbox

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audball · 1 year

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This Is Gonna Make Me Sound Ungrateful But Idc. (Long post).

Two people in my family are major gift-givers. But the problem is, its to a fault imo.

For YEARS I have complained that I never have any room for the shit I Already Have. I am currently in the process of gathering up a bunch of shit to give to goodwill or whomever because i literally have NO place to put it. I do this every so often and every single time these two just completely undo it with their gift-giving no matter how many times I tell them not to.

My family, also, tend to keep a lot of pointless shit. I’m NOT calling them hoarders, thats an actual major mental illness which I don’t think they fall under. what they DO do, however, is they are the type where as long as you shove everything under a bed or in a closet, its “clean”. very “out of sight, out of mind” mentality. well, we’ve been doing that for so many years now that we no longer CAN put shit under our bed, we no longer CAN put shit in our closets. But every single year my father AND my brother, even tho everyone is ACUTELY aware of how i feel about this type of shit, gets me these Big gifts that take up all this space. OR its a bunch of Little shit that does nothing but sit on a shelf. like I appreciate the thought, its really nice, but at the same time i have had MULTIPLE meltdowns, M U L T I P L E, over how I NEED to get shit out of this goddamn house because my tiny-ass room is just covered in useless figures and items that do not Have a place to go. And don’t get me wrong, I Do get rid of stuff! Problem is, Christmas will come around again, and now all my progress was for Nothing while I get gifted all these giant video game pre-order figurines or special collectors edition whatevers or Another Gundam. None of which is asked for by me. And I’m not allowed to get mad!!!! Any attempts to tell these people “I JUST WANT MONEY OR GIFT CARDS PLEASE” is either disregarded Entirely, or is taken as a joke (usually taken as a joke no matter how much I basically Plead with them to not get me anything). Hell, honestly I don’t really want ANYTHING for christmas or birthdays or whatever. I’m a big girl, I make my own money, I can buy my own things. But if I get upset at the fact that I’m getting more shit thats just gonna get put on a shelf and forgotten about, I’M THE BAD GUY! I don’t care if I sound ungrateful or whatever. I Really, REALLY wish this shit would fucking STOP. I’m sick of having to play fucking Tetris in my tiny-ass little fuckin room that I’m in in this god-forsaken house just because if I decline or get rid of some big-ass knick-knack gift I’ll hurt someones fee fees. :( They always fuckin say too! “I have no idea what to get you anymore!!! :)))” HOW ABOUT PLEASE DON’T. IF I HAVE SOMETHING I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS I WILL LET YOU KNOW. YOU ASK ME FOR A LIST AS IT IS, WHATS THE POINT OF GIVING YOU THAT LIST IF UR JUST GONNA OVERLOAD ME WITH SHIT ANYWAY!!!! MAYBE LISTEN TO ME WHEN I SAY “I HAVE TOO MUCH SHIT ALREADY”. PLEASE. FOR THE LOVE OF FUCKING CHRIST. I SWEAR TO GOD THESE PEOPLE IN THIS HOUSE DO NOT FUCKING LISTEN UNLESS IM ACTIVELY THROWING A TEMPER TANTRUM LIKE A CHILD!!!!!!!! AND I FEEL SO TERRIBLE CUZ IM YELLING AND SCREAMING OVER BEING GIVEN GIFTS!!! I DONT MIND GETTING GIFTS BUT WHEN I HAVE NO ROOM: I. HAVE. NO. R O O M. AND ME DUMPING A BUNCH OF SHIT TO GOODWILL DOES *NOT* FUCKING MEAN I WANT MORE FIGURES THAT WILL JUST SIT THERE! I’M TRYING TO GET RID OF THIS SHIT SO I DON’T FEEL LIKE I’M CONSTANTLY LIVING IN A TRASH HEAP.

#idk #idc #i feel like such a spoiled brat but idgaf #we're not even upper-middle class either so its also kinda scary wondering how they're getting the money to pay for this shit with #cuz none of its cheap

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ohh so i began paying more attention to nct bc of taeyong’s rap part in limitless (like that weird gargling noise he makes is just ahhhhhrrrfbbf) but sicheng in touch made me an nctzen (HES SO CUTE I 💖CANFHFH) i started with 127 and got attached to dream and wayv along the way <33 but !! i’d say that my ult unit is nct dream ahahfdh wayv is like a super close second (the hoe anthems >>>) but i just vibe better (?!) with the dreamies’ music.

OH YANGYANG IS MY WAYV BIAS <33 AND HIS INTERACTIONS W RENJUN ESP ARE SO CUTEE I CAN'T nct china line superiority <33 i love his raps as such but nectar is a fave !! omg do you have a fave nct u lineup ?? i love the 90s love, ok! and from home lineup mayybbee the misfit lineup too

jkghdfg slowburns have so much scope and space for character development, thicker plot (*coughs* the drama) and multiple genres so since i love stuff like that i adore slowburns. but it's been so long since i read or kept tabs with nct's writeblr bc of school 🤧 so just saying was really refreshing to read (like yangyang + comedy + college au with sprinkles of angst and loads of fluff = user jaynaur bait)

and i've been listening to 5sos on an on and off basis ever since my friend introduced me to youngblood back in 2018 and OOF I LOVE THAT SONG TO DEATH THE WHOLE ALBUM INFACT so it's no surprise i'm obsessed with just saying rn omg i can literally picture scenes from the fic in my head as the song plays out what have you done to me 😭😭 (also i'm v slowly getting into waterparks thanks to this playlist so will they be the next thing i obsess over?? hmmm)

and i personally love listening to a fic's playlist while reading bc songs have their own stories to tell and they help me relate with the fic a little better dkfj idk they just seem to enhance the whole reading experience for me so i get your obsession <33

p.s. this ask became a little too long 😭😭 do take your time to reply dfhhg have a good day/night !!

SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY i kind of forgot about this and then i got busy :(( im adding a read more bc my reply got LOONG hh

sicheng is so cute i totally get you being an nctzen because of him<3 i started with wayv, surprisingly. i dont think a lot of nctzens start with wayv AHAHA but my ult unit is definitely dream :)) im really emotionally attached to them LMAO even though i had a slight falling-out with kpop during exams and shit and my mental health, they are still very very close to my heart. then wayv is close second as well for me,, their sound >>> no skip discography for sure. and 127 as last, i dont think i ever really got into them if i must be honest. i love some of the tracks for sure, but they're not my go-to :)

YANGYANG IS MY WAYV BIAS AS WELL SDKLAF and renjun is my ult bias so their interactions make me so happy you cant even imagine. that feeling when your ult biases are besties? yeah. unmatched. truly amazing. ALSO my fav nct u unit might be misfit? or 90's love. i LOOOVED that shit. also faded in my last song. one of the best nct u songs of all time change my mind. and you're so right with ok! lineup they have me in their chokehold. who's your bias from dream and other units?? :p

I ADOOORE SLOWBURNS. i used to not be a fan of them bc i was always so impatient but recently, i love to both read and write them:) i wrote a 40k vernon from svt fic earlier this year on my other blog and bro that... that was a ride. the character development? the mood? the atmosphere?? it was also totally unplanned and only sparked as my love declaration to this man (he's my other ult bias lord help me.) but it's one of my most, if not my most loved fic of mine i've ever written.

i don't read much fics either bc i was busy with school as well, and as i already mentioned, i kind of fell out of kpop for a while, but it makes me happy to hear that you found my fic refreshing and liked it so much :)) my other yy fic is gonna be more angsty then comedy (also i have like 3 more parts to write so im gonna be done soon :p) so i hope i don't disappoint if you decide to read it! i also have another wip with yangyang in my drafts but its been so long since i thought of that idea and i still havent managed to create a whole plot around it, so idk if i'll ever manage to actually write it.

YOUNGBLOOD >>>> that album means so much to me. truly. i'm still sad that i didnt manage to get to their concert bc of exams and just not being able to travel there and find some sort of housing for the night haha. AND YOURE GETTING INTO PARX????? THEYRE MY CURRENT HYPERFIXATION AND THE NEW YY FIC IS LIKE 90% INSPIRED BY THEIR SONGS AAAAAAAAAAAAAA this is so exciting hhhh if you wanna talk abt them (or anything else) more my inbox is always open!!!

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hi! what about

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im not mentally prepared for angst so here you go! spence/fem!reader

Thank you my love! This tapers off a little at the end as I was concerned it was getting too long again.

Send me emojis and I’ll build you a blurb.

💦 sleeping together for the first time

😬 confessing feelings

🛏 only one bed

A/N- I picture baby Spencer (s3/4) but that’s just me.

CW - swearing, mild dirty talk, oral (m receiving) and allusions to sex but no detail because it was too long already. minors DNI

WC - 1.8k

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Let Me Be Your Fantasy

Spencer Reid was not your first choice of a roommate.

He was far too chatty sometimes for your liking, especially late at night when he’d had too much coffee. He made small talk for the sake of making small talk because he clearly didn’t like silence.

You enjoyed silence. You didn’t feel the need to fill every void with pointless chatter.

He was practically nocturnal by his own admission. The substantial amount of caffeine he consumed meant he rarely fell asleep until the early hours of the morning.

You loved to sleep. If you didn’t get in your eight hours you were groggy to say the least.

At least when you roomed with Morgan or Emily or JJ, you just slept. Sometimes with the girls you might watch a movie if it was early enough but it was easy, it was chilled.

Chill was not a word that had ever been used to describe Spencer Reid.

But probably the main reason you would have roomed with literally anyone else on the team (aside from Rossi and his snoring) was because of how ridiculously attracted to him you were.

Spencer was categorically not your type. And it wasn’t as though you’d been instantly attracted to him when you met because you hadn’t. But somewhere over the course of the years you’d worked together, you’d started seeing him in a different light.

It had happened so gradually you’d barely noticed it happening. One day you’d thought he looked kind of cute but you’d thought the light had just been hitting him the right way.

A few months later you had an out of control crush and on more than one occasion had imagined him bending you over the nearest piece of furniture and fucking you dumb.

It had been your own fault you’d ended up in this situation. You’d been in the bathroom when Hotch had been allocating room partners and you’d been stuck with Spencer.

And to make matters worse, you’d arrived in the motel room to find there was only one freaking bed.

“It’s a big bed and it’s only one night.” Spencer had shrugged, not seeing the big deal.

“I like my own space.” You grumbled, tossing your go bag in an armchair.

“Well, I’m certainly not sleeping on the floor.” Spencer huffed a little.

“Neither am I.”

“I guess we’re at a stalemate then.” He smirked at you. “It’s one night.”

“Whatever.” You rolled your eyes trying to ignore how delicious he looked at that moment in time.

His hair was incredibly messy and you could almost imagine it would look that way right after sex. His eyes were heavy with what was probably sleep but you couldn’t help pretend it was lust.

The top three buttons on his shirt were undone and his tie hung loosely under his neck. He had his shirt sleeves pushed up to his elbows and for some reason his forearms were particularly inviting.

You imagined them either side of your head, holding himself up as he fucked you.

You hadn’t had sex in a long time, that’s all it was. You were abundantly horny and Spencer was just an attractive male in close proximity.

That was all it was.

You both used the bathroom and changed into sleep attire, Spencer a pair of flannel pajama bottoms and t-shirt, you in a pair of shorts and tank top.

You forced yourself to opposite ends of the bed, leaving as much space between you as physically possible.

You shared barely more than a handful of words with each other. Perhaps Spencer sensed your reluctance to talk for once and he left you be.

Spencer read for a while and you scrolled on your phone on various social media sites until you fell asleep.

***

When you awoke it was still dark and you blinked your bleary eyes a few times before rolling over.

You forgot where you were for a moment, it happened a lot when you were away as much as you were.

It was dark and so you didn’t realise you weren’t in your own bed, alone, until you started spreading your limbs out on the mattress only to come into contact with something.

“Ow.” Spencer whined as you kicked him.

But you barely heard him over the sound of your heart beating in your ears.

You might have kicked him with your foot, but it was where your hand had ended up that threw you through a loop entirely.

You’d yet to bring yourself to move your hand away, completely tensed up, so Spencer knew exactly what was going through your head.

“Is there any chance you’ll just roll over, go back to sleep and pretend you didn’t notice?” He croaked, laying perfectly still.

Your wandering hand had somehow found his crotch and his very hard cock.

“I…uh…sure.” You finally withdrew your hand and rolled onto your back.

The two of you laid side by side staring at the strip of light on the ceiling coming from the moonlight seeping in through the crack in the curtains.

You were both silent for a very long time but you both knew the other wasn’t asleep.

Eventually Spencer sighed.

“It’s perfectly normal.” He said and you weren’t sure if he was telling you or himself.

“Uh huh.” You croaked, still reeling a little.

“It happens to all men. I don’t have much control over it.”

You could hear the embarrassment in his voice.

“Let’s just forget about it, like you said.” But really, the last thing you wanted to do was forget about it.

“I wish it were that easy.” He mumbled but you heard it.

You rolled your head to the side on the pillow so you could look at him. The moonlight illuminated his hazel eyes in the most stunning way it tugged on your heart strings.

“What do you mean?” You whispered.

He turned to look at you too and there was something unreadable about his expression.

“It’s not exactly…going away.” He swallowed and sank his teeth into his bottom lip.

“Oh.” You squeaked, feeling a heat spread between your legs. “Can I do anything to help?”

His eyes widened at your words and you instantly blushed.

“No, not like that! I just mean…I don’t know what I meant.”

He sighed again, rubbing his eyes with his palms.

“As long as I’m sharing a bed with you Y/N, it’s not going to go away any time soon.”

“Huh?” You frowned at him, head spinning with confusion and sexual frustration.

“Don’t play dumb.” He rolled his eyes. “You know I have a crush on you. And this close proximity to you is…it’s…I’m just a man with urges ok? Just because people don’t see me that way doesn’t mean I’m not just like every other guy ok? And being in bed with a woman that looks like you while you’re wearing next to nothing…it does things to me. I hoped you wouldn’t notice because I don’t want to make things awkward but…fuck!”

Somewhere during his rant you’d made a decision. And that decision was that Spencer Reid was going to fuck you tonight.

So you’d rolled onto your side again and palmed him through his pajama bottoms causing him to trail off his ramblings.

“W-what are you doing?”

“I told you, I can help.” Your eyes were dark as you looked at him and Spencer was at a complete loss for words.

You manoeuvred yourself in the bed, pushing his legs apart and kneeling between them, keeping the duvet around your shoulders.

His breath hitched as you toyed with the waistband of his pants.

When you simultaneously pulled the waistband down and disappeared under the sheets, he audibly gasped. But that was nothing compared to the feral moan that left his lips when you took his cock in your mouth.

You didn’t waste any time in taking him to the back of your throat, gagging slightly due to his size. Spencer rocked his hips lightly into your mouth, mumbling and moaning incoherently.

You ran your tongue up his vein and swirled it over the head of his cock, causing his hips to buck a little more violently.

“Jesus Christ, Y/N.” He panted, shaking hands finding your hair and instantly getting lost in your tresses.

You smiled around him as you took him all in your mouth again, burying your nose in his pubic hair.

You were wet and seeping onto your shorts, desperate to be touched by him, to be fucked by him.

You squeezed your thighs together as you took his balls in your hand and started playing with them, quickening your pace on his cock.

Spencer was wriggling beneath you, panting loudly and pulling a little on your hair.

“You gotta stop…” he breathed, tugging your hair more firmly.

You brought your lips to his head and swiped your tongue over it once more before coming off him entirely.

“You weren’t enjoying it?” You asked, wiping the back of your hand over your mouth.

“I was enjoying it too much. I was gonna come.” His chest heaved up and down with his deep breaths.

“I thought that was the point of what I was doing?” You raised an eyebrow at him.

Spencer smirked at you and it was dizzying.

And then shy, awkward Spencer Reid surprised you by grabbing you by your neck and pulling you down to him so he could crush your lips together.

He kissed you passionately, rolling his hips against yours whilst holding you a little roughly by the neck.

“Y/N,” he spoke into your lips. “Your mouth isn’t the hole I want to come in.”

You moaned viscerally, grinding against him. You were so hazy you barely registered that he flipped you over so you were beneath him and those damn forearms rested against your head like you’d imagined so many times.

He got rid of his pajama pants and his fingers edged up your thigh and up the leg of your shorts.

You were soaking wet and Spencer hissed as he ran his fingers through your folds.

“Jesus fucking Christ.” He gasped a little.

“You’re not the only one with a crush, Reid.” You wiggled your shorts over your hips. “I need you, Reid. I need you to fuck me like, yesterday.”

“Fuck,” he moaned, kissing you again while you wrapped you legs around his waist, pulling him closer.

Sex with Spencer was not a disappointment. You worried you’d built it up in your head too much over the years, maybe the reality wouldn’t live up to the fantasy.

It more than lived up to the fantasy.

Sex with Spencer was like an out of body experience. You’d never felt pleasure like it and you knew for certain that it would never be able to be a one time thing.

Now you’d had him once, there was no going back.

That was only solidified after when he pulled you into his arms and still panting, whispered into your hair, “I don’t have a crush on you, Y/N. I’m in love with you.”

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