Replay
Taehyung's your roommate - you get along fine, you do your own thing and stay out of each others' way. Your relationship works perfectly the way it is, you don't want or need anything more out of it.
Pairing: Taehyung x F! reader, Yoongi x F! reader
Word count: 11k
Genre: College AU, smut
Rating: 18+
Warnings: Smut, swearing
You’re standing in a corner of the kitchen of the house party you’re at with your roommate Taehyung.
You’re aware of the looks you’re attracting. Taehyung’s hot when he’s lounging around half-dressed in your living room, but fully dressed? When he’s made an effort?
He’s devastating.
Dark hair, dark brows often drawn together when he’s looking at someone, like they’re a puzzle he’s dying to work out, lips curled in a smirk.
He dresses carefully, even for hastily thrown together house parties, but even the loosest of shirts don’t hide his broad shoulders, the lines of his torso tapering to hips that he knows how to move.
Your roommate’s a sexy man.
You’re pretty easy on the eyes yourself, especially today, when your hair’s doing what you want it to and your eyeliner’s sharp enough to cut glass.
Together, you draw attention, and you’ve taken full advantage of it in the past.
Your shared apartment with Taehyung has two bedrooms, set on opposite ends of a hallway with your living room in between, which is just as well. You’ve got no desire to hear your sexy roommate’s pillow talk, nor for him to hear you getting off with your man of choice.
Taehyung sips his drink and tilts his head at you.
‘I might go early,’ he tells you. ‘I haven’t even started Monday’s assignment.’
‘You’ve got the weekend,’ you say, easy.
‘I don’t want to lose tomorrow too,’ he says, shrugging. ‘You don’t need me, anyway.’
You’re distracted by the arrival of the basketball team. ‘Hmm?’
Taehyung dips close enough for his breath to tickle your ear. You lean back, startled. You rarely touch each other, you know some friends do but you’re not a touchy person and you didn’t think Taehyung was either.
‘Now that I have your attention,’ he says pointedly, rolling his eyes, ‘I’m gonna go. Say ‘hi’ to Yoongi for me. Don’t fuck in communal spaces.’
‘Stay for a bit,’ you plead, grabbing his shirt as he turns away.
Taehyung looks down at your hand. ‘Pick up brunch for us tomorrow and I’ll wing you.’
‘Deal,’ you say.
You both turn as you’re approached by Kim Namjoon, basketball captain and the most promiscuous man you know.
‘Hey,’ he says, leaning against the counter, dimpling at you.
‘Hi Namjoon,’ you say.
Taehyung raises a brow as Namjoon acts like he’s interested in your drink.
You’re about to offer Namjoon a sip when there’s a huff of breath, then a gravelly voice.
‘Y/N, Tae,’ Min Yoongi says, nodding to both of you in greeting.
‘Hi Yoongi,’ you say. You smile at him, and he gives you a long look that makes you feel flushed, warm.
Kim Namjoon captains the basketball team, but Yoongi’s the only person you ever watch on the rare occasion you find yourself at a game.
He’s ethereal, with his beautiful skin and dark eyes, and his hands and forearms have featured in all your nastiest fantasies.
You have needs, and tonight, you want Yoongi to see to them.
Taehyung’s already hustling Namjoon away, throwing you a smirk over his shoulder as he leaves you with Yoongi.
Yoongi watches you take a sip of your drink.
‘Want some?’ you ask, tipping your plastic cup towards him.
Yoongi says, cool, so confident you can already feel yourself melting at his feet, ‘yeah.’
He downs what's in your cup and sets it down on the counter.
‘Let me get you a better drink,’ he says, hanging his head, looking up at you, lips curled in a smirk.
You wonder what his lips might feel like on you.
‘I have wine at mine,’ you say, bold.
He keeps looking at you, smile playing on his lips.
‘Yeah?’
‘Yeah,’ you say.
Yoongi tilts his head. ‘Lead the way.’
***
Yoongi’s got your skirt hiked up, panties by your ankles, and his mouth on your cunt.
He licks another stripe along your folds, slow, deliberate.
You reach up, grasp his forearm.
He snickers, following it up with another long slow lick.
‘You want my fingers?’ he asks.
‘Yeah,’ you plead. ‘Want you.’
You’re arched back against your headboard, trying not to scream when there’s a knock at your door.
‘Hey,’ Taehyung calls through the door. ‘You ok?’
Yoongi looks up from where he’s poised over your cunt, sees your hands covering your own mouth.
‘We’re good, bro,’ he answers, sliding his fingers into you.
Your mouth opens to moan, and Yoongi’s other hand comes up to cover your mouth.
Taehyung knocks again, more insistent this time.
‘I want to hear you, Y/N. Are you all right?’
Yoongi’s fingers start moving in and out of you as he shrugs and uncovers your mouth.
‘Yeah,’ you say, trying not to moan again. ‘I’m good, Tae, thanks for checking.’
Taehyung says, ‘Yeah. I’m in my room if you need anything.’
‘Damn,’ Yoongi murmurs as you hear Taehyung walking away. ‘You guys look out for each other like that a lot?’
You whimper as Yoongi shoves his jeans down, moves on top of you.
‘Can’t be too careful,’ you say, breathless.
Yoongi’s unrolling a condom on his pretty dick, nudging into you slowly.
He groans as he eases into you, letting out a breath when he’s all the way in.
You clench around him helplessly, the stretch of him’s so damn good you could come from this alone.
Yoongi rolls his hips, grinding, hitting you so deep you see stars behind your eyelids every time he thrusts.
‘You good?’ he asks. He’s genuinely waiting for an answer, and your heart flutters a little when you realise.
‘Yeah,’ you affirm, smiling up at him.
Yoongi stares at you for a moment, mutters something that sounds like ‘so fucking pretty’, that you would ask him to repeat if he wasn’t fucking you so well.
You cry his name as you come, tightening around his cock.
‘Good girl,’ praises Yoongi, the gravel in his voice somehow both sexy and soothing.
His thrusts slow, his rhythm changes, and he groans ‘baby, fuck, fuck!’ as he comes.
He pulls out, ties off the condom and tosses it with a careless flick into your bin.
‘All in the wrist,’ you comment.
Yoongi, now flat on his back on your bed, arm over his face, chuckles.
‘You’re an idiot.’
Then, he sits up, scanning your face like he’s worried he’s upset you.
‘I’m just teasing you,’ he tells you.
You’re already getting up to use the bathroom.
‘I know, Yoongi,’ you reply. ‘Want some water?’
‘I should get going,’ he says.
You shrug. ‘You can stay if you want.’
‘I’ve got basketball in the morning,’ he replies.
‘Sure,’ you say.
You walk him out, bid him goodbye at the door.
There’s crockery rattling in the kitchen, Taehyung’s smoky tenor caressing the notes of a jazz classic.
You stop in the doorway to listen.
Taehyung’s got a stunning voice, the first time you came back early from classes and heard him, you’d thought it was a recording.
He turns his head, spots you, doesn’t miss a beat.
You pour yourself a glass of water and take a seat at the kitchen counter.
Without asking, Taehyung lays a bowl in front of you, chopsticks together angled at a skew.
‘Thanks,’ you say, gratefully.
You eat quietly as Taehyung sings. The song segues into another, words crooned low over the tinkling of an accompanying piano.
He joins you at the counter eventually with his own bowl.
‘You good?’ he asks.
You have a sudden flashback to Yoongi buried inside you, asking the same.
You give Taehyung a half-smile.
‘Yeah good.’
‘How come Yoongi didn’t stay?’ Taehyung asks.
‘He said he had basketball in the morning,’ you reply.
You don’t want it to sting but it does.
Taehyung shrugs. ‘Maybe you’re just not that interesting out of bed,’ he says, deadpan.
‘Yeah,’ you agree, just as deadpan.
‘It’s probably more that he’s an idiot,’ Taehyung continues.
You shrug.
‘Wanna watch TV, Tae?’
‘Yeah. Go set it up and I’ll bring us ice cream.’
You’re curled up in your corner of the couch, blanket pulled over you, when Taehyung enters.
He hands you a tub and a spoon and settles in his corner.
‘Are you really ok?’ he asks, not looking at you.
‘Yeah.’
You wait for him to say something else, but he just hums.
Predictably, he’s asleep before the opening credits have even finished, but his presence is comforting all the same.
***
You’re at the diner with Taehyung the next morning when he says, ‘don’t look now, your fuckboi’s here with his teammates.’
You grimace. ‘Think they might not see us?’
Taehyung says, ‘he’s heading over here.’
You don’t have time to ask who before Min Yoongi’s standing by your booth.
‘Hey,’ he says, tilting his head at you.
You smile at him, grateful you’d at least taken the time to do your skincare this morning before coming out.
‘Hey Yoongi.’
‘Can I get your number?’ he asks.
You reel off your digits, voice steady even though your heart’s beating triple speed.
‘Ok,’ Yoongi says. The tip of his tongue pokes through his lips briefly, and your phone vibrates in your pocket.
‘Can I call you later?’ Yoongi asks.
‘Sure,’ you say, light, casual.
Yoongi nods at Taehyung, and then he’s off.
You pick up a forkful of pancakes to give your hands something to do.
‘Guess you’re not that uninteresting after all,’ Taehyung teases.
‘Yeah, and guess he’s not that much of an idiot,’ you agree.
Taehyung laughs. ‘At least now you can stop sulking.’
You’d deny you were ever sulking but Taehyung knows you too well.
***
It’s another Friday night, and you have a date with Yoongi. It’s only a movie, but he’s picking you up and you’re excited and there’s that.
You’re pouring yourself a glass of water in the kitchen when Taehyung walks in.
‘Wow,’ you say, impressed.
Your roommate’s sharply styled tonight, his hair away from his face, shirt falling perfectly against his lean frame. The chain around his neck glints in the light as he moves. He smells good, fresh.
‘Wow yourself,’ he replies. ‘Date with Yoongi?’
‘Going to the movies,’ you tell him. ‘You?’
‘I’ve got a dinner date,’ he says. ‘We’ll probably come back here after.’
‘I’ll be out late,’ you say. ‘No sex in communal spaces.’
Taehyung laughs at the mantra you’ve got into the habit of tossing at each other instead of a goodbye, and waves as he leaves.
When the doorbell rings you hurry to open it.
Yoongi’s standing in your doorway, all longish dark hair and silver earrings, smile crooked.
‘Hey pretty girl,’ he says, like he practised it, and butterflies flutter in your stomach anyway, because you’ve always been a sucker for a compliment from a gorgeous guy.
‘Hey,’ you say. You grab your keys off the hall table and step out. He doesn’t move back like you expected him to, so you end up pressed against him as you shut the door behind you.
You look at him and raise an eyebrow.
He smirks at you.
‘I’d like popcorn,’ you say.
Yoongi slips his arm around your shoulders.
‘Yeah? I’ll get you some,’ he promises.
You lean into his chest as you head for the lifts.
‘I heard the movie’s scary,’ he says, as you get into the lift. ‘Are you gonna hold my hand?’
‘I like horror movies,’ you tell him.
‘But what about me? I might get scared,’ he says.
‘Don’t worry, I can hold your hand at the scary parts.’
Yoongi says, ‘yeah?’
‘Promise,’ you say.
Yoongi grins at you. ‘We’d better practice holding hands now.’
You have to laugh at his expression. You push at his chest lightly, but when his hand comes up to grasp yours, you don’t pull away.
***
By the time you and Yoongi get back from the movie, the living room is dark but the kitchen light’s on.
‘Want a drink?’ you offer. ‘I have beer.’
You enter the kitchen and are confronted with your roommate’s bare chest, sweats slung low around his hips.
He mumbles a greeting, turns to grab a cup, revealing scratch marks all over his back.
‘Fuck, are you ok? Your back.’
Taehyung’s grin is boxy, wide, reminding you why he has the reputation he has around campus.
He passes you a couple beers, cracks one open for himself.
‘Gigi’s still here,’ he says. ‘I’ll see you in the morning. Brunch?’
‘Brunch,’ you agree.
He tilts his beer at you in a toast, and saunters out.
You can hear him greeting Yoongi as he heads back to his room.
Yoongi raises a brow at you. ‘Is he high?’
‘Possibly,’ you reply. ‘Are you still scared from the movie? Do I need to hold your hand again?’
Yoongi nods so seriously you’re almost fooled.
He takes your hand and tugs you into your room, onto your bed.
‘What should we do now?’ you ask, feigning innocence.
Yoongi laughs, tugs gently at the strap of your dress with his teeth.
He pulls down, letting the strap fall off your shoulder, exposing the top of your left breast.
He brushes his lips over your rounded flesh, tongue flicking between to lick, and you shiver.
‘Cold?’ Yoongi asks, watching you intently as he blows over your exposed nipple.
You can’t stop the moan from spilling out as he flicks your nipple with his tongue.
Yoongi’s breath is warm on your skin, like his palm as he slides it over your bare thigh, under your skirt.
The tips of his long fingers brush between your legs, and you let out an involuntary hum.
‘Yeah, you’re cold,’ Yoongi says, confident, decisive.
He leans over you, pushing you down on the bed under him. ‘Come on, I’ll warm you up.’
Fuck, he does.
***
You and Taehyung are halfway through your breakfast plates at the diner before you even speak to each other.
‘If this place ever closes we’ll be fucked,’ Taehyung says, mouth full.
‘You’ll be fucking regardless,’ you say, unable to resist. ‘But yeah, we need this place to stay open.’
‘Why does fucking make me so hungry?’ wonders Taehyung. ‘I don’t feel this hungry after the gym.’
You snort. ‘When do you ever go to the gym?’
‘Jungkook’s been dragging me there.’
Taehyung flexes his arm. ‘See? This definition isn’t just my natural shape.’
You pretend to squint. ‘What? You mean being a noodle-armed weakling isn’t natural to you?’
Taehyung looks at you, mouth in a straight line. ‘You mean being a short ass isn’t natural to you?’
‘Ha ha ha ha,’ you scowl.
‘Gigi says she likes your style,’ Taehyung says, shoving another forkful of sausage into his mouth, chewing open-mouthed.
‘Yeah? I like hers too, apart from her taste in fuckbuddies,’ you retort.
‘She says you have a great ass.’
‘Oh my god, can you shut up and let me eat in peace,’ you grumble.
‘Does Yoongi say anything about me?’ Taehyung asks.
‘Yeah, he’s always asking if you’re high.’
Taehyung snorts. ‘Rich coming from a scrappy athlete with a bad reputation.’
‘He doesn’t have a bad reputation.’
‘Please. If he wasn’t the biggest fuckboy around you wouldn’t even be interested.’
‘What? I don’t just date fuckboys,’ you protest, weakly, trying to remember the last boy you actually dated.
‘You live with me,’ Taehyung reminds you, rolling his eyes.
‘You don’t have a bad reputa –’
You cut yourself off midsentence. ‘Yeah ok. And?’
‘And nothing. I like living with you. You’re easy.’
Your eyebrows lift and you toss a napkin at him.
‘Easy to live with,’ Taehyung amends.
He laughs. ‘Can you get the waitress’ attention, we’re gonna need more potato waffles.’
‘Get her yourself,’ you say.
‘Don’t be mad,’ Taehyung coaxes. ‘I’m easy too.’
You look at the way he’s sitting, leaning back, legs spread wide in his grey sweats, the neck of his t-shirt so wide you can see all of his collarbones, and your fit of pique fades.
‘I like living with you too,’ you say.
You tip your juice towards him, and he brings his own drink forward to toast.
‘To cheap breakfasts,’ he says.
‘And easy lays,’ you reply.
Taehyung’s grin flashes at you, the wide boxy grin he reserves for when he’s genuinely amused, and you can’t help but smile back.
***
The thud that comes from the living room is muffled, like whoever made it is trying to be quiet.
You’re only half awake, and falling back asleep again when you hear another sound, the thump of a knee against the edge of the sofa.
You pick up your phone, squinting at the time.
3am.
You sit up.
‘What are you doing, Tae?’ you mutter to yourself, getting up.
You stumble to the living room, eyes trying to adjust to the dark.
You can see him standing in the middle of the living room, and have a sense of unreality when you can hear a key in the front door.
Realisation pierces through you, and you turn back to the intruder in your living room.
Your mouth opens, and the intruder flees, heading straight for your balcony doors, which you’ve just noticed, are ajar.
Taehyung walks in, startled to see you.
‘Tae! There’s a man in our apartment!’ you blurt out.
Taehyung and you rush for the balcony but by the time you get there there’s no trace of the man.
‘Shit, the lock’s broken,’ Taehyung says.
‘I’m gonna call the police,’ you tell him.
‘Are you ok? What happened?’
Taehyung takes your arm.
‘Shit Tae, you smell like —’
Taehyung grimaces. ‘Yeah, sorry. The guys were going hard tonight.’
By the time you’ve made your report, Taehyung’s showered and made you both tea.
‘I don’t think anything’s missing, all our stuff’s still here,’ you say.
‘Yeah,’ Taehyung agrees. He shivers. ‘Sorry I wasn’t here.’
‘Fuck, that was scary,’ you say. Now that the adrenaline’s wearing off, you’re starting to feel sleepy.
You glance at the balcony door. ‘What are we going to do about that?’
‘We should set a trap,’ Taehyung says, authoritatively.
You glare at him. ‘Are you still high?’
‘Shit, not when you look at me like that,’ Taehyung replies.
You sigh. ‘Go to bed, Tae.’
‘No, I can fix it,’ Taehyung insists. He goes to his room, and is gone for so long you’re about to go and check on him when he returns.
‘What the fuck, Tae?’
Taehyung just raises an eyebrow at you.
He walks over to the balcony doors, snaps them closed, and ties the handles together with the red silk ties he came out with, deftly.
He tests the knots with an expertise you’re almost afraid to ask how he acquired.
You find yourself smiling, reluctantly, for the first time since you woke up.
‘Fucking hell, Kim Taehyung.’
Taehyung turns to you, completely straight-faced, apart from a tell-tale quiver of his lips.
‘I have some left over,’ he tells you, feigning innocence.
‘Fucking hell, Kim Taehyung.’
‘If you’re not feeling safe, I can sleep in your room with you, for tonight,’ he offers.
‘Get the fuck out, Tae.’
‘I don’t have to bring my ropes.’
‘Shibari.’
‘Actually, it’s Kinbaku.’
Taehyung drops the ties on the couch and walks carefully around it.
He puts a hand on your back. ‘Come on. I’ll walk you to your room, ok?’
Against your better judgement, you let him lead you to your bedroom.
Taehyung pulls the covers back, helps you get settled in and rearranges them over you.
Fully dressed, he lies on top of the covers next to you.
‘Go to sleep,’ he says, rolling on his back, closing his eyes.
His quiet, easy breathing fills the silence, and before you know it, you’re asleep.
***
The sun’s setting, so you go out on your balcony to watch. It’s chilly still but more spring than winter.
Your heels rattle against the grate as you make your way to one of the garden chairs you and Tae picked up at the flea market when you first moved in together.
Yoongi’s coming to pick you up in a half hour, a proper date you think, you’re going to pick up food together before a house party.
The front door to the apartment opens, you can hear Taehyung humming to himself.
A moment later he’s peering out the balcony doors at you.
‘You look nice,’ he tells you.
You’re surprised by his compliment. ‘Thanks Tae Tae.’
‘Hot date with a fuckboy?’ Taehyung asks. He takes the seat across the balcony from you, long legs stretching out in between. He tilts his face up to the setting sun, and for a moment you admire the beauty of his profile, cast in rosy golds and brilliant orange.
Your roommate is genuinely one of the most beautiful men you’ve ever met.
You realise he’s looking at you like he’s waiting for you to say something.
‘Sorry,’ you say, smiling. ‘I got distracted by how pretty you look.’
Taehyung snorts. ‘You look pretty too. Your legs look as long as mine in those heels.’
You scoff. ‘Yeah, I’m as tall as you.’
You stand, and Taehyung stands too.
For a moment you look up at his face.
Your hand reaches up to touch his shoulder but you veer off at the last minute.
You never touch him, really, but for some reason you want to, now.
Taehyung’s standing with his hands behind his back, face tilted down to yours.
His voice, when he says your name, is that low baritone you hear rumbling though the walls sometimes when he has someone in the bedroom with him.
More vibration than words.
Taehyung’s gaze is intent on you.
The doorbell buzzes, and you step back, spell broken.
‘It’s probably Yoongi. Have a good night, Tae Tae.’
He’s already turning away.
***
Your friend Dahyun nudges you at the house party you ended up at.
‘How are things with Yoongi?’
You shrug. ‘We’re still seeing each other. We just went to dinner before this.’
‘He took you to dinner? Good Christ, you’re practically married,’ Dahyun teases.
‘Got me dessert and everything,’ you deadpan.
She laughs.
‘How’s Hobi?’ you ask.
‘He’s good,’ Dahyun replies.
Dahyun’s been dating Hoseok on and off since first year. Personally, you’ve always liked him, he’s always treated her well and he’s always seemed kind hearted to you.
Speak of the devil.
Hoseok walks up to Dahyun and slides his arm around her waist with a possessiveness that makes you feel a pang of envy.
You can’t imagine Yoongi ever doing that to you.
It’s not that you don’t think he’d be proud to be seen with you, but he’s just not the kind of guy who’d want people to know his business.
You sip your drink as Hobi and Dahyun excuse themselves, probably to go make out in a dark corner.
It’s only when you get to the last mouthful that you realise how strong your drink is.
Shit. Why did you decide to wear these heels?
You teeter your way to the kitchen and nearly trip on a step.
There’s a warm hand on your arm, steadying you, Yoongi’s voice in your ear.
‘You ok?’
‘Yeah,’ you reply.
‘I’m gonna go grab some food with Jimin and Namjoon, Jimin’s going through some shit.’
It takes you a moment to understand.
‘Oh, ok. Sure.’
‘Can you get back home ok?’
‘Yeah,’ you say. ‘Sure.’
Yoongi looks at you a moment longer.
‘I saw Taehyung here earlier, want me to see if I can find him for you?’
You straighten up. ‘Nah, I’m fine.’
Yoongi’s still got his eyes on your face. You’re glad it’s dark enough to hide how warm your face is.
You wave a hand, careless. ‘Don’t baby me, Yoongi.’
Yoongi snorts, but he leaves, casting a final glance at you before he exits with Jimin.
You wait a beat, then decide to look around for your friends.
You wander through the living room, spotting Hoseok and Dahyun cuddled up on one of the couches.
Near the stairs you spot Taehyung, leaning against the wall with a very tall girl with gorgeous hair draped over him.
He sees you, tilts his chin, his dark brows in a straight line, his expression unreadable.
You’re heading over to him when the girl undrapes herself and slinks towards the bathroom.
You stumble a little, and Taehyung reaches out to steady you.
‘Tipsy?’ he teases.
‘A bit,’ you confess. You slump against the wall next to him, trying to ignore the way the room’s spinning lazily.
‘I’m going home,’ you tell Taehyung.
‘Sure. Who’s taking you?’ Taehyung asks.
‘Taxi,’ you reply, waving your phone.
Taehyung rolls his eyes. ‘You can barely stand. Here, wait a bit, Tina and I will go with you.’
He pushes off the wall. ‘Stay here.’
‘Nah, I’m ok,’ you reply.
Taehyung just gives you a look.
‘I’m getting Tina, wait here.’
As soon as he disappears you look down at your phone. The screen’s all blurry. You swipe at it and give up, deciding it’s not your fault the screen’s wavy and swirly.
Shit.
You press back against the wall as some tall guy walks past.
You vaguely recognise him as one of Yoongi’s teammates. Wonho?
He stops next to you.
‘Hey, you’re Y/N, right?’
His voice is deep, not as deep as Yoongi’s or even Taehyung’s, but it’s got a pleasing mellow tone to it you like.
‘Yep,’ you say. You wish you could see his face better, but your eyes don’t seem to be working that well right now.
‘I like your dress,’ he says.
‘I don’t think it comes in your size,’ you tell him.
He laughs. ‘Can I get you a drink?’
‘Nah, I’m good,’ you say.
‘Want to sit with me for a bit?’ he asks, leaning so close you can smell his shampoo. He smells good, but you think you’ve had enough.
Time to go home.
‘I can’t sit in this dress,’ you inform him. ‘It’s too short.’
‘Shit, come and sit with me, I won’t look.’
He sounds like he’s flirting but you’re not really interested right now.
‘My roommate’s here. I need to find him,’ you say, apologetic.
You push off the wall and go off to search for Taehyung.
You just catch sight of him being dragged upstairs.
Damn.
Sighing, you try and pull out your phone, only to not be able to find it.
Double damn.
You find yourself at the door of the house, and decide there’s nothing for it.
You’re going to have to walk home.
***
It’s still dark by the time you trudge the last few blocks home.
You’ve sobered up some from walking around in the early morning chill, at least the pavement isn’t wavy anymore.
You pull your key out of your bag with cold hands, and are trying to get your fingers to work enough to unlock the door, when it opens on its own.
‘What the fuck!’ Taehyung says. He grabs your arm and drags you inside.
You stare at him, uncomprehending.
‘Where the fuck were you?’ Taehyung asks.
You realise he’s angry.
‘Uh?’ you mumble unintelligently.
You lean down to undo your heels and nearly tip over.
Taehyung catches you, helps you straighten up.
‘You walked home like this? Are you stupid?’
You’re hurt at his tone.
‘What do you want, Tae?’ you ask tiredly.
You sit on the floor and start unbuckling your heels.
God, you’re sure they weren’t this difficult to get on.
Taehyung makes an impatient sound and pushes your hands away.
You sit as he undoes your heels and pulls them off.
‘I told you to wait for me,’ he scolds.
You glare at him, hoping the feeling returns to your feet soon so you can get up.
‘It’s dangerous to walk alone —- wait! Where the fuck are you going?’
You turn your head to look at him as you crawl away.
‘Stop scolding me, my head hurts,’ you complain.
Taehyung sighs.
Then he holds out a hand. ‘Come on, I’ll help you into bed.’
You give him your hand and nearly fall onto your face again.
Taehyung swears, then pulls you up.
He’s stronger than he looks. Maybe he wasn’t lying about going to the gym with JK.
You mull this over as he helps you to your bedroom.
Taehyung deposits you on the bed. ‘Stay here.’
‘Ugh, get out,’ you complain as he heads for your dresser.
Taehyung rummages through your top drawer and turns to you, holding out a soft tee.
As he walks towards you there’s a soft thud on the carpet.
You give him your best innocent look as your purple bullet vibrator rolls on the floor towards you, stopping at the foot of your bed.
Taehyung ignores it and hands you the tee. ‘Can you get changed on your own?’
You shrug.
He rolls his eyes. ‘Get changed. I’m gonna bring you some water.’
You decide it’s not worth the energy arguing with him.
By the time Taehyung comes back with a glass of water, you’re in bed.
He sits on the covers next to you and hands you your phone.
‘Where did you get this?’ you ask.
‘Some dude, Wonho had it,’ Taehyung says. He runs a hand over his face. ‘Fuck! I nearly got into a fight with him, I thought he’d done something to you.’
This is news to you.
You frown at Taehyung. ‘I saw you going upstairs with Tina.’
‘Fuck that, you’re drunk as fuck, you should have waited for me,’ Taehyung scolds. ‘I was only a few minutes.’
‘Two minute man?’ you ask. For some reason this strikes you as hilarious.
‘Obviously,’ Taehyung says, like he’s reaching the end of his patience, ‘Tina and I didn’t fuck because I l knew you were waiting for me.’
You’re still giggling.
Taehyung stares at you, then he scoffs. ‘Are you hungry? I can fix us ramdon.’
You fall asleep considering his offer.
***
You’re looking up train times when there’s a knock on your door.
Taehyung pokes his head in.
‘Going somewhere?’ he asks, raising a brow at your overnight bag.
‘It’s my dad,’ you tell him. ‘My mom called, he’s in the hospital.’
‘Shit,’ Taehyung says. ‘Is he ok?’
Concern’s written all over his face as he steps further into your room.
‘He’s had a heart attack,’ you say.
You’re trying to stay calm but it’s hard, your nerves have been shot since your mom called.
‘Can you drive me to the train station?’ you ask.
‘Yeah, sure,’ Taehyung says instantly. ‘Give me five and I’ll take you.’
Taehyung loads your bag into the trunk along with his and gets into the car.
‘What’s the hospital address?’ he asks.
You stare at him blankly. ‘Tae, it’s hours away.’
‘So I’ll drive you, you shouldn’t be alone,’ Taehyung tells you. He looks oddly serious.
‘Thanks,’ you say finally.
Taehyung just nods. ‘Get your belt on.’
You lean back in your chair as he pulls out of the space.
Outside, a light rain starts to fall.
***
It’s still raining when you get back home after seeing your dad at the hospital.
Your mom fusses over you and Taehyung, probably because of how incredibly kind he’d been at the hospital.
Your roommate’s showing a side to him you’ve never seen before.
You’ve seen glimpses of him being nice, of course, in the months you’ve been living with him, but you’ve never thought about him as anything more than a casual friend.
And here he is being so supportive you could cry.
Your mum’s gone up to her room when he catches you looking at him over your food.
He raises an eyebrow at you but doesn’t stop eating.
‘Thanks,’ you say, feeling like you need to say something. ‘Thanks for driving me here, and being so nice.’
Your throat closes on the last word, and you take a sip of water, trying to hide the prickle of tears behind your eyelids.
‘You’re my friend, I’m just doing the same as you’ve done for me,’ Taehyung says.
His voice is so warm, quiet, that it’s getting harder to hold the tears back.
‘Yeah?’ you ask, voice trembling as you try valiantly to pull humour in. ‘I don’t even have a car, and you don’t fit on the back of my bike.’
You cast a glance at him, but he’s not looking at you either.
‘You made me soup when I was unwell earlier in the year. You always cook extra for me.’
Taehyung’s big hand reaches out, plays with his glass. ‘You don’t mind washing some of my clothes when they accidentally get in your wash.’
You snort. ‘I knew it wasn’t an accident.’
‘They’re always so much softer when you wash them,’ Taehyung says, on a pout.
Your eyes meet.
‘It goes both ways,’ Taehyung says.
‘Like your dick?’
‘Shut up, your mom’s upstairs,’ Taehyung retorts.
‘She knows about the birds and the bees,’ you say.
You both laugh, and for the first time since you found out about your dad, the tightness in your chest eases a little.
The tears that threatened to fall are long gone, which is just as well.
You feel like you’re on the edge of a precipice, like you’re barely a step from big feelings about Taehyung that you don’t have the headspace to unpack right now.
You glance at Taehyung, and realise he’s looking back at you.
‘It’s a lot,’ you say.
‘Yeah. We’re tired.’
He seems to understand.
***
When you wake, Taehyung’s buried under the covers, the second duvet you’d grabbed from the linen closet wrapped snuggly around him.
You’d known he was a blanket hog. You’d called it.
You don’t have an excuse for the way you’re looking at him right now whilst he’s asleep, and you know you should stop.
But his face, like this, is so beautiful it makes your heart flutter. His eyelashes are so long you wonder why you never noticed them before.
He stirs, and you avert your gaze as he opens his eyes.
He’s the first to speak.
‘I like –’
You wonder how he’s going to finish his sentence.
He clears his throat.
‘I like your bed.’
‘Yeah?’ you ask. ‘You hog all the blankets.’
Taehyung turns over, onto his back, so he’s no longer facing you.
‘I’m not wearing a shirt,’ he announces.
You stare at the ceiling whilst you process this.
‘I’ve seen you shirtless before,’ you point out.
‘I’m not —’
He stops.
‘Christ, Taehyung, you’re not naked under there are you?’
Taehyung starts humming as he uncovers himself, and it takes you a moment to realise he’s parodying a striptease.
You burst out laughing.
‘Stop, stop. I’m not drunk enough for this.’
Taehyung stops with his hand over the sheet covering his waist and waggles his eyebrows at you.
You roll your eyes. ‘What do you want for breakfast? We’ll go and pick up something for my mom.’
You end up at the bakery near your house.
The woman behind the counter, Mrs Jeong, is a friend of your parents’. She presses a box of fresh pastries on you, waving you off when you offer to pay.
‘I put extra in there for your man,’ Mrs Jeong says, nodding to Taehyung.
‘He’s not my man,’ you reply, automatically.
‘Thank you, auntie,’ Taehyung says, beaming as he takes the box.
‘You’re such a slut for a bun,’ you complain, as soon as you’re out of the shop.
Taehyung shrugs as he sips his coffee. ‘I drove you here, I’m looking after you and your mom. I’m your man.’
You sip your own coffee and adjust your sunglasses on your face. ‘Ugh. Come on, we should pick up some fruit too.’
By the time you get home, your mother’s up and preparing breakfast.
It’s weird seeing your roommate like this, fully dressed and sitting up straight on a Saturday morning instead of shovelling pancakes into his mouth, slumped and hungover.
You wonder if it’s weird for Taehyung to see you like this too.
After breakfast, your mother heads to the hospital whilst you see Taehyung off.
You pack him some pastries for the drive back and watch as he loads his overnight bag into the car.
‘Hey, drive safe, ok?’ you say.
He snorts. ‘I’ll definitely be safe, unlike you stumbling home drunk the other day.’
‘I didn’t want to cockblock you,’ you say, shrugging.
Taehyung opens his car door, turns to face you.
‘I can get laid anytime. It’s not everyday I find a roommate who has the same taste in food and shit TV as me.’
You furrow your brow. ‘You’d better wait until I get back to watch the next episode.’
Taehyung pretends to consider it. ‘Yeah we’ll see.’
He smiles at you. ‘Are you gonna be ok?’
‘Yeah,’ you promise. You almost feel like hugging him, but you never touch.
It would be weird, right?
Taehyung’s turning back to his car, anyway. He gets in, rolls down the window.
‘See you in a couple weeks?’
‘Yeah. Don’t fuck in —’
‘Communal spaces,’ he finishes. He laughs softly, and then he’s rolling up the window.
You watch him drive down your road, until he turns the corner and you can’t see him anymore.
***
You nudge the front door of your apartment open with your foot. Your mother had insisted on packing food for you and Taehyung when you left the house. You’d had to convince her you couldn’t possibly carry any more on the train with you.
Your father’s back home and on the mend.
You’ve got finals coming up soon, and although you’ve been keeping up to date with assignments whilst you’ve been at home, it’s good to be back.
The apartment’s dark, you’re not sure if Taehyung’s home.
You put your food down in the kitchen and head to your room.
It’s exactly the way you left it.
You pull off your coat and head to the bathroom to take a shower.
You’re back in the kitchen, heating up food, when you hear a key in the door.
You step out to greet Taehyung, and realise he’s not alone.
A pretty brunette in a green dress is standing next to him in your entryway, holding on to his arm as she slips her shoes off.
‘Hey,’ Taehyung says, warmth in his voice.
You smile, not sure why your heart feels like it’s in your mouth.
‘Hey.’
You share your smile with the girl, and Taehyung says, belatedly, ‘This is Kira.’
‘Hey, nice to meet you,’ Kira says. She grins at you, and dimples pop in her cheeks.
Damn, she’s cute.
‘My mom made food for us. You guys should help yourselves,’ you say.
You head back to the kitchen.
Taehyung wanders in behind you with Kira.
‘You want to eat something, babe?’ he asks, and there’s a pang in your chest at the endearment, a feeling you can’t name.
You need to change the subject.
‘You kept the place clean whilst I was away, I’m impressed,’ you say lightly.
Taehyung looks pleased. ‘I’m glad you noticed. I even did some of your laundry.’
You feign shock.
Kira giggles.
Taehyung hands you a plate, and you sit to eat.
‘How’s your mom and dad?’ he asks, quietly.
‘They’re good. My dad’s back home. My mom’s feeling better about it all,’ you tell him.
‘What happened?’ Kira asks.
You explain as Taehyung heats up food for him and Kira.
Your phone lights up on the kitchen counter.
Taehyung glances at it.
‘Yoongi was asking after you,’ he says, ‘last weekend. I told him about your dad.’
‘Yeah. He texted me a couple times.’
‘You gonna meet up with him?’ Taehyung asks. He’s looking at you now, an unreadable expression on his face.
You shrug. ‘Maybe?’
Taehyung changes the subject.
‘I was thinking we should have a party here next month,’ he says, sitting down opposite you at the kitchen table, next to Kira.
‘Yeah. Right after finals?’
‘Yeah.’
‘Sounds great, Tae.’
Your phone lights up again. Taehyung raises an eyebrow at it.
‘Looks like Wonho’s really trying to get in touch with you.’
You roll your eyes. ‘I don’t even know how he got my number, honestly.’
‘Probably from that time he found your phone at that party,’ Taehyung says.
‘He’s cute,’ Kira says.
‘I don’t like guys with muscles,’ you say, dismissive.
You flick your eyes at Taehyung. ‘Just noodle arms.’
Taehyung laughs so hard he snorts broth through his nose.
‘I’ve missed you,’ he says.
‘I’ve missed you too, Tae.’
It’s the truest thing you’ve said today.
There’s a fizz of something in the air between you as you lock eyes with Taehyung.
Kira’s looking at you and Taehyung thoughtfully.
You get up. ‘I’m gonna go to bed. Nice to meet you, Kira.’
***
You’ve been busy the last few weeks, with finals and year end assignments.
Taehyung and you have organised a schedule between you, there’s always food and you know when each other’s exams are so you can make sure you wake up on time.
You haven’t seen Yoongi since you got back, which is just as well.
Once the semester ends you’re moving to another city, joining a publishing firm.
It’s the end of an era.
Honestly, you’re more than a little apprehensive about moving out of your place with Taehyung, moving on with your life, but it’s starting to feel like it’s the right time.
If you never go to another club night in some dive with sticky floors, you think you can live with that.
You’re sitting in someone’s backyard at some house party, ass on the grass, with Taehyung sprawled out next to you.
Taehyung reaches out, flicks your bare thigh.
You ‘ouch’ exaggeratedly, move your leg away.
‘What are we gonna do when we’re not doing this every Friday?’ Taehyung asks.
You sip your drink, look up at the stars.
You realise he’s waiting for an answer.
‘Not sure, Tae. We can do this on Friday nights if you want.’
‘Yeah I’ll come to your new place and we can drink together.’
He pokes your leg again, and you nudge his hand with your thigh.
You glance over and catch him looking at the hem of your short skirt.
‘You horny, Tae Tae?’
You expect him to make a joke of it, but he asks, voice low, ‘have you ever wondered what it might be like if we slept together?’
Your eyes meet, and he still seems completely sober.
‘I know you have fantasies about me,’ you say carefully, giving him another chance to make a joke of it, to stop before he crosses that invisible line between you that you both have always toed.
Your roommate traces his finger along the line of your thigh, and your cunt tightens.
You let out a breath.
‘I do think about you,’ he says. He turns on his side on the grass, facing you, turned away from everyone else.
His finger strokes another line down your thigh, then travels up, over the front of your thigh, stopping at the hem of your skirt.
You look straight at him as you let your thighs fall apart slightly.
Taehyung moves his hand, off the taut hem of your skirt. He bites his lip, and then reaches under, sliding between your legs with a confidence that makes your cunt tighten again.
The tips of his long fingers brush the fabric of your panties.
‘Are these those pretty purple panties?’ he asks.
‘You like those?’ you ask.
He moves a little closer, pulls your thigh closer to him to make room for his hand.
It’s dark in this backyard, you doubt anyone can see anything.
As long as you can keep quiet.
Taehyung dips his head, brushing his lips against your bare thigh. You have the barest instant of warning, a flash of teeth, before he nips at your flesh.
‘Fuck, Tae,’ you breathe.
His hand between your legs has moved up so that his thumb can slide along your slit, his fingers braced on your upper thigh.
His face is so close to your cunt you can feel his breath on your thigh.
‘Not here,’ you say, grabbing his arm.
Fuck are you really doing this?
With Taehyung?
Taehyung gets up, adjusts himself and takes your hand.
When he looks at you, his eyes are dark with intent.
Unlike you, he seems pretty sure he wants this.
When your roommate commits to anything, he goes all in.
You guess you’re in too.
You follow Taehyung around the side of the house.
He stops by the wall, backs up against it, pulls you to him.
‘Should I kiss you?’ he asks.
It’s enough to snap you out of the lust and booze fuelled haze you’re in.
The words come out before you can stop them.
‘Don’t you want to, Tae?’
Even you can hear the hurt in your voice.
It’s wrong, it’s too much.
Sadly, it’s not nearly enough.
Taehyung holds out his hand, says your name, but you’re too drunk and too raw to even look at him.
You stumble away, and Taehyung doesn’t go after you.
***
You wake in stages.
Blink.
There’s bright sun shining through the crack in the curtains, so it’s daytime.
Blink.
There’s the silky dress you wore last night draped over the chair, your tiny underthings laid carefully across it, so you got undressed yourself.
Blink.
Your head is full, your mouth dry, your stomach already growling its discontent, so you’re hungover.
You groan and sit up.
Blink.
Taehyung and the events of last night come back to you.
You nearly fucked your roommate, would have fucked him, if he hadn’t made it so obvious that you were just another body to him.
The only girl on campus he hasn’t fucked.
Blink.
Wincing, you swing your legs onto the floor and get up.
Your head throbs.
You pick up the glass of water by your bed and down it.
By the time you’ve showered and done your skincare, your stomach is making it impossible to concentrate on anything.
You step out your room and are startled by Taehyung standing just outside your door.
‘Shit,’ you say.
Taehyung says, ‘let’s go to brunch.’
***
It’s weird, to think that this is one of the last times you and Taehyung will do this.
You use your hunger as an excuse to avoid talking, and Taehyung doesn’t seem like he’s in a rush to say anything either.
‘It’s not that I don’t want to kiss you,’ he says, muffled over a mouthful of pancakes.
You grimace and spear a bite of sausage.
‘It’s fine, Tae, I was drunk and emotional.’
‘Don’t hide behind it, you weren’t that drunk.’
His voice rings out, clear as a bell.
You look at each other. There’s frustration in his face, in the way his brows are drawn together, in the way his lips are in a straight line.
‘What are you saying, Tae?’
Your voice is soft, a vulnerability in it that you tend not to show.
You think Taehyung notices, because when he speaks again, his voice is soft too.
He sounds like when he speaks to you sometimes, when you wake up in the middle of the night still on the couch, the TV still on and he tells you to go to bed.
He sounds like when you’re out on the balcony some evenings after a tough day when only nicotine and talking shit will ease the tightness in your chest.
You’re so fucking fond of Taehyung, you realise now.
He lives his own life, separate to you, but he’s always been there when you’ve needed him.
You don’t spend that much time talking, but you know him intimately all the same.
You know he likes when you look after him a little, putting out food for him.
You know he hates leaving washing up for the next day and that he’s got a secret love for sports films and anything where the underdog triumphs.
You know that although you never see him go to the gym, he loves a team game.
You know he plays jazz when he’s sad and that his eyes look like wet velvet when he cries.
Taehyung’s opening his mouth to speak, but he stops when you get up and slide into the booth beside him.
You have no words left, so you kiss him instead.
It’s chaste, the way your lips touch, but then his arm slides around you and he tilts his head, and a thin line of heat unfurls inside you.
You never touch, and now he’s lighting little fires under your skin wherever he touches you.
Taehyung says your name on a breath, like smoke.
When you finally pull away, he dips his head, steals another kiss, before he’ll let you go.
‘I’ve been thinking about this for a while,’ he says, face still inches from yours.
‘Me too,’ you admit.
‘Yeah?’
‘Yeah.’
‘Fuck, I’m embarassingly hard,’ he tells you, shifting his hips.
‘Let’s go do something about it,’ you say.
***
When you and Taehyung reach your apartment, there’s half a basketball team waiting outside.
Yoongi steps forward. ‘We thought you might need a hand carrying things for the party later.’
You’re surprised, but you rally quickly.
‘Yeah, we need muscles,’ you say, glancing at Taehyung, wondering if he’s organised this.
Taehyung looks as surprised as you do. ‘Yeah ok, let’s go pick some stuff up.’
He adjusts himself again, and for a moment the outline of his erection in his sweats is so clear you have the sudden strong urge to drop to your knees and worship his cock.
Yoongi’s got his head tilted, he’s looking at you, and you wonder how much of your filthy imaginings show on your face.
Then he gives you a half smile.
‘Y/N, you can ride with me.’
***
You end up alone in the car with Yoongi.
You watch idly as he drives, forearms flexing, big hands hooked over the wheel.
‘You look good, Yoongi,’ you say.
He casts a glance at you. ‘Yeah, you too, pretty girl.’
He raises an eyebrow at you. ‘So you and Taehyung?’
‘Would’ve fucked if you hadn’t turned up today,’ you confess.
Yoongi looks amused. ‘Shit, yeah?’
‘I don’t know how I feel about it,’ you tell him, looking out the window at the buildings flashing past.
Yoongi shrugs. ‘You’re hot, he’s hot, you’re moving out soon. Sometimes sex is just sex.’
‘Like us?’
Yoongi says, teasing, ‘when did you get so needy? You barely even say hello when I see you these days.’
He signals, turns into the store car park. ‘Anyway, you know that’s not true, I take you out all the time.’
You climb out the car, wait for him to walk to the store together.
‘Wanna hold hands?’ you ask.
Yoongi laughs. ‘I want to turn around and take you back to bed right now.’
You lean into his side. ‘Might take you up on that.’
‘Yeah,’ Yoongi agrees. ‘Wear those silk panties for me tonight.’
‘And Tae?’
Yoongi looks down at you, that familiar smirk on his face. ‘He can join in if he wants.’
You consider this.
‘Shit, you dirty girl,’ Yoongi says, but he doesn’t sound mad about it.
He squeezes you into his side as you walk into the store.
***
You catch Taehyung in the living room before the party.
He looks stunning tonight, his hair styled, his skin glowing.
His beautiful face is as perfect as it ever was.
‘Like my shirt?’ he asks.
He stops in front of you, closer than he usually stands.
You wonder how many other norms are going out the window tonight.
You’re wearing the silk panties Yoongi requested, a silky dress that barely covers you.
‘Like my dress?’ you ask.
‘You’re perfect,’ Taehyung tells you. He smiles at you affectionately.
You say, ‘wait, I have something for you.’
You go to your room, pull out the record you picked out for him.
It’s a jazz piano piece that had played a lot in the coffee shop you spent a lot of time in when you were back home for your dad.
It’s sad, the notes drawn out and stark. It’d reminded you of the many nights you’d spent, on your balcony with Taehyung.
Taehyung puts the record on.
He doesn’t ask you to dance, not verbally anyway, but he holds out his arms and you step into them and he holds you close as he sways.
You lean your head against his chest, and his breathing stays slow, even.
He feels warm, and safe.
He feels an awful lot like someone you’re meant to be with.
You wonder why it’s taken you the whole year to realise.
Next week, you’re moving to another city.
It’s too late for regrets now.
Taehyung’s body moves with yours. He presses his cheek to your head.
The notes surround you, plaintive and wistful.
You wish there was more to say.
Taehyung holds you until the record plays out.
***
Your and Taehyung’s party is teeming with people, half of whom you don't even know.
Jimin and Jungkook have done something to your sound system, the music’s playing loud enough to raise complaints from half the city.
You don’t give a fuck, not today, when the bass fills the void of longing inside you.
Yoongi’s leaning against the railing of your balcony, facing out.
You’re facing the opposite direction, pressed close to his side.
Taehyung’s against the wall across your living room, looking straight at you as Yoongi drapes an arm around you and pulls you between him and the railing.
He kisses you. He tastes sweet, you wonder what he’s been drinking.
He murmurs, close to your ear. ‘Did you get dressed for me, pretty girl?’
‘Yeah,’ you tell him. ‘You gonna undress me?’
‘I’ll undress you,’ Yoongi promises. There’s a glint of something in his eyes. ‘Is your roommate going to watch?’
You say, ‘ask him yourself, he’s coming over here.’
Taehyung approaches you and Yoongi. He takes his time, a deliberate languidness to his movements that reminds you of a panther stalking its prey.
Yoongi doesn’t move as Taehyung slots himself in next to you.
‘Hyung,’ Taehyung says. ‘Can you give me and Y/N a minute.’
Yoongi eyes him. ‘Don’t 'hyung' me now. You can say what you need to say with me here.’
‘Come with me,’ Taehyung says to you. ‘If this is the last chance we have then I want to take it.’
Both men look at you.
Your heart’s beating, fit to burst, in your chest.
You take both men by the arm and lead them to your room.
***
The lights are low, the thumping bass vibrating through the wall.
In contrast to the rest of the apartment, your room is cool, the hallway leading to it long enough to put distance between you three and the crowd in your living room.
Yoongi, with the easy confidence of a man who knows exactly how this goes, takes your mouth. His kisses are designed to tease both you and the man watching, open-mouthed, tongue openly licking into your mouth.
‘Want to watch how I please her?’ Yoongi asks, directed at Taehyung. He slides his hands over your bare back.
‘She’s beautiful, isn’t she?’
Yoongi’s speaking to Taehyung, but he’s looking at you.
He turns you so your back is to Taehyung, who’s sitting in your chair.
He lifts the hem of your slip dress, the silken fabric rustling against the silk of your panties.
He cups your ass as he kisses you, long fingers tracing the cleft of your ass.
He’s lifting your dress higher and higher.
‘Arms up,’ he tells you, and you comply.
Yoongi tosses your dress onto the floor.
He admires your bare tits with a flattering intensity.
He wraps an arm around you, cupping your breast as he turns you around to face Taehyung.
You cast a glance at Taehyung, and you’re transfixed.
His eyes travel from Yoongi’s arm across your chest to your face.
He says, quietly and with feeling, ‘you’re so fucking pretty.’
His voice is hushed, reverent.
Yoongi’s thumb flicks over your nipple, and Taehyung bites his lip as Yoongi lets go of your breast to cup the other.
His other hand kneads your ass until you’ve moving your hips against him.
You’re wet, and as Yoongi slides his hand between your legs to cup you, he grunts his approval.
‘You like that, pretty girl? You like how we’re both so hard for you? My dick hurts, and I’m sure Taehyung’s does too. Look at how he’s touching himself.’
Your gaze flies to Taehyung. He’s stroking over the clear outline of his erection, grinding against his own palm as he watches Yoongi touching you.
Yoongi hooks his fingers into your panties.
‘Wore these for me, didn’t you?’
He tugs them down, and you step out of them.
‘Go give them to Taehyung, baby.’
You turn your head to look back at Yoongi.
He’s looking back at you, cool, expressionless.
‘I’ll give these to Tae, then can I come back and suck your dick?’
Yoongi grins at you. ‘All yours, baby.’
You walk over to Taehyung, his eyes following your every move.
He takes your panties, then asks, ‘can you kiss me?’
Your thoughts flash back to when he asked if he should kiss you.
Taehyung doesn’t wait for a response this time.
He tugs your face down to his, and he kisses you, warm and sweet.
It’s the first time you’ve kissed, and as first times go, it’s perfect.
Taehyung’s lips mould to yours like he was made to fit against you.
You forget that you’re completely nude, that Yoongi’s watching, and you kiss him back.
You drown in him.
By the time you pull away, you’re both breathless.
‘Why did we wait so long?’ he murmurs, face pressed to yours still.
‘You’re an idiot,’ you say, but you feel so much affection for him you’re giddy with it. ‘I’m an idiot.’
Taehyung tweaks your breast, and you cover yourself with a squeal.
He sneaks a hand around your hip to pinch your ass.
‘Show me how you suck dick,’ he says. ‘I’ve been fantasizing about it.’
You can’t stop your smile as you turn back to Yoongi.
Yoongi gives you a cocky half-smile. ‘Come get comfortable, baby.’
He’s manspreading on your bed, hand curled around himself. He strokes his cock as you position yourself, even though he already looks plenty hard.
He pats your hip. ‘Ass up, let’s give Taehyung a show.’
You kiss the head of his cock and take him in. He grunts his approval as you suckle him. He’s thick, hard like velvet over stone, and as he glides into your throat he moans.
You tug at his balls, and his hips move.
‘Fuck, you’re good at this,’ he groans, voice a rasp, muscles in his thighs taut under your hands.
You press your tongue firmly to the underside of him, and Yoongi groans again.
‘Come ride me,’ he says.
He curls his hands around your hips, helping you balance on top of him.
You slide his cock along your cunt. You’re so slick with arousal now the slide is easy.
Yoongi says, ‘want to give us a hand?’
Taehyung climbs onto the bed behind you. He must have taken his clothes off along the way, because all you can feel is his bare chest pressed against your back as he curls an arm under your breasts, his bare cock nudging the curve of your ass.
Yoongi’s flat on his back but somehow he still has complete control.
‘You’re a dirty girl aren’t you? So greedy.’
He grunts as you grind against him. ‘Go on, pretty girl, put it on me.’
You unroll a condom onto his length and line him up.
Taehyung’s nibbling along your shoulder, touching your breasts as Yoongi’s cock fills you.
You moan when he’s in all the way.
‘Fuck, you feel so fucking good,’ Yoongi tells you. There’s a sheen of sweat on his brow now as he helps you grind on him.
His cock’s angled so beautifully you gasp with each thrust of his hips.
Taehyung’s stroking his thumbs over your nipples, moaning as he rocks his cock against your ass.
You don’t realise you have your eyes closed until Yoongi says, voice strained, ‘open your eyes, baby, look how well you take me.’
You’re panting now, every movement sending waves of pleasure through your core.
‘Fuck fuck fuck fuck,’ Yoongi chants.
He bucks his pelvis under you, squeezing your hips hard as he comes.
His deep groan pulls you over the edge with him.
You’re coming, fuck, and it’s so good you’re blinded.
Behind you, Taehyung’s moaning, grinding into your ass.
Someone says your name, but you have no idea who.
***
Yoongi’s murmuring your name into your ear.
The lights in your room are low now, the music fading out.
You don’t know how much time’s passed since you fell asleep between Yoongi and Taehyung.
Yoongi says, ‘I gotta go, baby. Taehyung’s getting people to leave.’
You try to sit up, but he stops you. ‘Just rest a bit. Everything’s handled.’
He passes you a glass of water.
‘Heard you were moving out next week,’ he says, watching you drink.
‘Yeah,’ you say.
There’s a sort of wistfulness in his tone. ‘I guess I’ll text you if I’m ever in your area.’
You put your hand over his. ‘You know how to get hold of me,’ you remind him.
His half-smile makes your heart burn bright in your chest.
‘Answer your phone,’ he says.
‘You answer yours,’ you retort.
You both laugh. He pulls you into a half hug, and too soon, he’s pulling away.
‘See you around, pretty girl.’
He gives you one last smile, then he’s leaving your room, closing the door quietly behind him.
You lie back down, but the urge to speak to Taehyung’s too strong.
You don’t want to wait.
You slip on clothes and step through your now empty apartment.
Taehyung’s standing on the balcony, looking out.
‘Hey,’ you say.
His smile is brilliant, beautiful, perfect.
He’s everything you want, and you’re sad it’s taken you this long to realise.
‘Hey,’ Taehyung says.
He reaches for you, and you slide into his arms, like a key sliding into a lock.
It feels right.
Taehyung buries his face in your hair.
‘Feels like a lot,’ he says.
‘Too fucking much,’ you agree instantly.
He’s looking at you so intently you feel shy.
‘Let’s not talk about it,’ you say, tipping your face to his, putting your finger across his lips like you’re shushing him even though he hasn’t said anything.
Taehyung dips his head to kiss you. It’s even better than the first time.
***
This time, Taehyung and you take your time.
You’re in his bed, lying on your back, giggling as he blows raspberries on your belly.
He hooks a finger in the waistband of your panties, tugs playfully.
‘I once used these to jerk off,’ he informs you.
You stare at him incredulously. ‘These? They’re not even a sexy pair.’
‘It was when you wore these with those low waisted jeans,’ he reminds you. ‘I spent the whole day staring at them.’
You put your hand on his cheek, rubbing against the stubble on his jaw.
‘You didn’t,’ you whisper.
Taehyung nudges closer, lips against yours.
‘Did. Came so hard thinking about you wearing these with my cum in them,’ he tells you. His voice is so low it makes you shiver.
He’s kissing down your neck now, making small rumbling noises as you press yourself to him. You can’t get close enough, his skin’s so warm.
He pushes closer, hand under your thigh, making you open up for him so he can fit in between.
His cock, deliciously hard, nudges between your legs.
‘Take these off?’ you ask, and he nods.
You slip your panties down past the curve of your ass, but when you try to move your leg off his hip, his grip tightens.
‘Stay,’ he says.
He nudges forward, and the head of his cock pushes into you.
He feels so good you’re biting your lip, trying to move, to take more of him in.
He clutches your thigh, tight, and you both stop as your panties rip at the seam.
‘Shit, Tae,’ you gasp, giggling.
He’s already pushing into you, stretching you on his cock.
‘Ah, fuck,’ he groan, voice thick, slurred with want.
He grasps your hip, and pulls you under him. Sinks in all the way.
He fits between your thighs so beautifully you’re halfway to coming even before he starts rocking into you.
‘Taehyung,’ you gasp.
He’s still holding your hip, holding you down so he can slide his cock into you.
He’s so hard and heavy you’re lost, opening yourself up to him.
There’s nothing but the sounds of your breathing, jagged and irregular, the slap of skin against skin, the weight of him on you, the smell of his shampoo.
His hair’s so soft, why have you never touched it before?
Taehyung’s dragging his mouth over your skin, holding you tight, and he groans, deep in his chest, as you come.
He circles his hips, grinding against you, grunting.
He says your name, a shout, and then he’s pulling you closer, arms around you, face in your neck.
It’s a while before either of you can let go.
***
When you stir, wriggle a bit, Taehyung’s big hand tightens on your ass.
‘I’m kind of hungry,’ you confess.
‘What time is it?’
You roll over, grab your phone and tell him.
‘The diner’s probably open, we can get breakfast,’ Taehyung suggests.
You look at each other.
‘For old times sake,’ he continues.
You’re distracted by the flex of his arm as he puts it behind his head, props himself up.
You think you have enough memories of you and Taehyung getting hungover brunch in the diner on your road.
You think it’s time to make some new ones.
‘Or we could just fuck instead.’
Taehyung laughs, slaps your hip.
‘Come ride me then.’
You don’t make him ask twice.
***
Your things are packed up, every physical trace of you removed from this apartment that you’ve shared with Taehyung for the last year.
Taehyung’s loaded the last of his things into his car, and in an hour your parents will be here to help you move too.
You’re on the balcony, watching Taehyung as he shuts the trunk, locks his car. He looks up at you, then he disappears into your building.
Then he’s back in the apartment, standing in the doorway, head tilted as he looks at you and the empty space between.
You’ve said a lot of things to each other in the last week, and now all that’s left is an odd kind of longing for what might have been.
You don’t want to romanticise it just because it’s ending, but fuck, you’re going to miss him.
Taehyung’s holding you now, you have no idea when he closed the gap between you.
There’s sadness in his eyes, but a smile on his lips and it’s enough for you.
‘Don’t fuck,’ he says.
‘In communal spaces,’ you finish.
Neither of you laugh, but you can feel his lips curving against yours.
It’s still the sweetest kiss you’ve ever had.
***
A year later
You’re frowning at an email you’ve just received when your colleague stops by your desk.
You look up.
Jihyo says, ‘these are the new members of the design team who have just been hired.’
You smile automatically as you greet the three people standing in front of your desk.
You make eye contact with each person in turn, and when your gaze falls on the last person, a fluttery heat starts in the middle of your chest.
Dark brows drawn together like he’s trying to work you out, a husky low voice that you know as well as your own.
Kim Taehyung steps forward, hand out.
‘I’m Kim Taehyung,’ he says.
Your smile is brilliant, a match for his.
‘Y/N L/N,’ you reply, clasping his hand.
‘Are you free for dinner tonight?’ he asks. ‘I’ve just moved to this city and would love for someone to show me around.’
‘I think I can help you with that,’ you reply.
He still hasn’t let go of your hand.
‘Yeah?’
‘Yeah,’ you say.
You’re aware the others are staring, but you can’t find it in yourself to care.
Taehyung smiles at you, lazy, devastating. Perfect.
‘Ok,’ he says. ‘Let’s try this again.’
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if ur still taking them #13 with supercorp for the prompts
It’s just past five in the morning when Kara blinks awake without knowing why.
She has become used to the sounds of early-morning commuters pattering through the halls, the rhythmic beeps of cars being unlocked downstairs, the coffee maker in the kitchen hissing like it always does when Lena uses it; at first she used to resent her roommate and all other early risers, but now she’s been able to sleep through it like nothing. So it puzzles her now, to be awake for no reason, and especially this time of morning.
“Kara?” comes a sudden whisper, and okay, that makes more sense—Lena sometimes has to wake Kara up whenever Kara accidentally blocks her car, and at this point Kara has maybe-sort-of become attuned to the sound of Lena’s footsteps. Even subconsciously, it seems.
Kara immediately sits up, unsuccessfully hiding a yawn behind her arm. “Hey, sorry, give me a second,” she says. Sometime during the night she’d swept the blankets half off the bed, and as a result she all but tumbles out of bed.
Lena is biting back a smile when Kara catches up to her in the doorway; her hair’s just a touch wet the way it always is after a blow-drying session, her makeup soft and pretty in the light of the hallway, the one that only has two bulbs instead of the usual four because the landlord keeps on making excuses not to come by.
“What happened to being up in time for a drive before the sun rises?”
“Did I say that?” Kara’s head slowly begins to clear, and it dawns all at once; it’s a Saturday. “Oh, shoot. The traffic!”
“Somehow, I think we will survive,” Lena says, and she brushes aside her damp hair and tilts her head down the hall. “I just wanted to make sure you were up. I’m going to pack for the ride if that’s okay?���
“Yeah, of course.” Kara reaches to adjust her glasses but realizes she’d forgotten to grab them in her haste to get up. “So is that a definitive no to the—”
“Nope, absolutely no flying,” Lena calls over her shoulder without so much as a pause, and Kara grins.
Kara has brought Lena to Midvale with her every holiday since they were roommates in college, and even though it’s been a few years since they graduated, the tradition has stayed—and so has Lena’s insistence that she will never, ever allow Kara to take her flying. (She cites a fear of heights, but Kara will forever argue that if Lena hadn’t been drunk the first and only time they tried, she might not have thrown up quite so much).
Today isn’t so much a holiday as it is her grandma’s birthday, but Grandma Danvers loves Lena more than half the family anyway; Lena had been the one to even receive the invite, and Grandma Danvers had lovingly penned at the bottom “bring your roommate if you want, I like that Kara girl” with a smiley face that Kara had taught her how to draw.
In any case, it’s still early enough to beat the morning rush, and Kara uses superspeed to cheat in getting showered and dressed. She also finishes packing everything into the car before Lena even has time to ask, including the half-packed snack bag that Lena is filling. Lena gives her a flat, unimpressed glare in response like she does every time Kara shows off, and Kara laughs because she knows Lena really doesn’t mean it.
They’re on the road before the streetlamps are even out, and as easy as it would be to fly to Midvale, Kara also really likes their drives—Lena plugs in her phone and makes Kara listen to whatever she wants, and she’ll idly tap along on the seat while Kara belts out her best Stevie Nicks impression. And as the drive gets long, Lena will dutifully hold a bag of chips so Kara can drive with one hand and snack with the other. It’s a system that just works, and one Kara would be content with for the rest of her life, probably.
(Not that she spends a lot of time thinking about that. Or anything.)
“Oh, Alex is calling,” Lena announces as they’re nearly halfway there; she’s been playing whatever games Kara has, while her own phone remains faithfully cycling Fleetwood Mac’s entire discography. “Hey Alex. Yeah, we’re on our way, sorry we didn’t come up last night but I was working late. Yeah? What about?” A pause, steady nodding, and then a sharp scoff. “Shut up, no she didn’t.”
“What?” Kara asks, but Lena pays her no mind.
“You are a liar,” Lena says. “Do you have me on speaker? What sick, twisted bet do you have running?”
“What’s happening?” Kara tries again, admittedly a bit more concerned now, and Lena does not spare her a single glance before she smacks Kara on the shoulder. “Ow.”
“You did not feel that,” Lena spares a single ounce of attention to say. “And focus on the road, please.”
“I am,” Kara grumbles, but she stays quiet as Lena finishes the conversation she was meant to be having with her sister.
Lena hangs up without so much as a goodbye, which must mean this is serious. “Alex says hi,” she huffs.
“…and is that all she said, or—?”
“And she’s being an ass,” Lena adds, as if that clarifies anything. “Apparently, your grandma was talking her ear off last night about us.”
“Us? You and me, us?” Kara casts a quick glance in Lena’s direction to gauge her expression, but it’s hard to tell; Lena has an uncanny ability to appear stone-faced, a habit she’s developed in order to keep her sanity whenever it comes to work.
“It’s my fault.” There’s a crack in demeanor there, not visible, but in the softening of Lena’s voice. “I was talking to your grandma last week about a surprise we had for her birthday.”
“Her present?” Kara and Lena had decided on a joint gift: a certificate naming a star for the Danvers family. It was the kind of gesture Grandma Danvers would adore, and it’d been a stroke of genius on Lena’s part. “What about it? Don’t tell me Alex had the same idea.”
“She wishes.” Another tell of Lena’s mood is the way she begins to fidget, the sound of the drum of her fingernails against Kara’s phone case ringing clear as “The Chain” fades out. “I guess your grandma is expecting the big surprise from us to be that we’re together. Like, as a couple.”
Kara has always prided herself on being a rather unfazeable person, but that—that is enough to make anyone choke on air. “Uh,” she stammers, “and is that—that’s something Grandma wants?”
“The way Alex said it, she’s about to throw a wedding on the spot,” Lena grimly replies, and Kara pales.
“Oh.” She mechanically switches lanes as they merge onto the final highway of their journey, mind racing all the while. And as if compelled, her eyes keep drifting back to Lena, who has turned to face the window. Lena’s jaw is set tightly, her shoulders tense, and Kara doesn’t understand why. Is Lena—repelled at the thought? Is she annoyed by Kara’s meddling family? Both answers are disheartening and she really, really hopes it’s neither.
Because, well, of course Kara’s thought about it before. Many times, even. She already loves Lena as a best friend, as a roommate, and there’s been moments when she smiles at Kara while adorably half-asleep and Kara wants to kiss her. Like, in a normal, not-crushing-on-the-best-friend-she’s-ever-had kind of way.
Kara clears her throat. “I’m sorry,” she breaks the quiet. (Or, more accurately, the opening of “Landslide.”) “If her saying that made you uncomfortable.”
“What? No, it’s not that.” Lena reaches across the seat to quickly rest her hand on Kara's shoulder in a silent apology. “I just, I don't want to disappoint her with our actual surprise.”
“I didn't even think of that,” Kara sighs. “Okay. Well, um…” She gnaws on her bottom lip, trying to form thoughts, and is distracted by the dumb bumper sticker of the car in front of them which reads I ❤️ my girlfriend but my wife hates her. And suddenly, that's when it hits. “Wait. What if we did tell her we're dating?”
“What?”
“Think about it,” Kara hastily continues. “I mean, she loves you so much, it makes sense why the two of us being a couple would make her happy. So what if we pretend we're together? That will make her day, and the next time we see her won't be until Thanksgiving so we can just make up an excuse for why we broke up or something then.”
Lena twists in her seat to face Kara, and there's no mistaking her disbelief. “You want me to lie to your grandma?”
“Not in a bad way,” Kara is quick to reassure her. “Just, in a, what-she-doesn’t-know-can’t-hurt-her kind of way.”
“That feels like the opposite of a birthday gift,” Lena says slowly. “For the record.”
Kara's eagerness deflates as quickly as the idea had come. “You're right,” she says, feels her face grow hot in embarrassment. “It's dumb, I don't know what I'm thinking.”
“I didn't say it was dumb—don't put words in my mouth.” And Lena rests a hand on Kara's wrist, skin soft and too warm because she always holds her hands right in front of the car vents while the heat is blasting. “I suppose if she doesn't find out it's a lie, well…it would be harmless.”
“Right,” Kara agrees automatically. “And she wouldn't find out.”
“Because you’re an absolute master of fooling people?” Lena has the ability to quirk an eyebrow, and she always, always, does it whenever there’s even a hint to the whole Kara-having-powers-and-being-an-alien thing. She takes way too much pleasure in teasing Kara over the fact that, well, the fact certainly was never a secret for long.
“I feel like you’re making fun of me.”
“I would never,” Lena hums, all too pleased, and she cranks up the music and gets that distant, faraway look to her eyes as she gazes out of the window. “It's your call, Kara Danvers. If you want me to be your fake girlfriend, then I'm in.”
“Why do you do that?” Kara wonders aloud before she even realizes she’s speaking. “Um, the whole…’Kara Danvers’ thing. You always have a habit of calling people by their full names.”
Lena shrugs. “I don’t know,” and she kind of smiles over her shoulder, a shy smile just hovering on the cusp of amused. “Is it weird?”
“No,” Kara says, and she feels her whole chest ache with the word, because what she means is I like it. And, maybe in the strangest turn of events, she understands what she really means is I like you.
By the time they arrive in Midvale, it’s bordering on noon; Kara stops to put gas while Lena insists on running inside the gas station for a soda, and she emerges holding a new pair of sunglasses and about three sodas too many—at least for her. Kara gives her grief over the fact that she buys all these sodas to taste and abandon, while Lena just rolls her eyes and points out it’s not a waste because Kara will drink them anyway.
(And she does, but not without having an internal freakout about placing her lips on the same can Lena did.)
“You know,” Lena says as Kara pulls up to her grandma’s house after a million Lena-requested stops, “we should probably have a story before we go inside.”
“Huh?” Alright, maybe not all the stops were Lena-related. Kara is currently four bites into a burger from the diner down the street and her attention’s pretty much laser-focused on how much she’s missed the food here.
“Of how we got together,” Lena clarifies, and Kara almost chokes.
“R-right,” she manages—coughs—out. “And we probably have to seem…couple-y.”
“Right,” Lena echoes, voice sort of tight, and Kara nervously adjusts her glasses.
“We can do this,” she says, more to reassure herself than anything. “It can’t be too different than being friends, can it? We’re good at that. Being friends.”
Lena awkwardly clears her throat. “Yeah,” she says. “Best friends.”
“Okay, then, how about we were hanging out—as friends do—and then…” Kara kind of trails off; it’s harder than anticipated, to spin tales about the entirely hypothetical situation of asking her best friend out. And it’s especially hard when Lena is looking at her, biting her bottom lip in a way that has Kara zeroed in on her mouth. “No, scratch that. We need a real story.”
“What do you mean?” Lena frowns. “The whole thing isn’t exactly real, so…”
“It still needs to be believable.” Kara sits up straighter, the perfect image already forming. “We can say we started dating two months ago, when you went on a blind date with Victoria-or-whatever, except in our fake story we say that I got jealous and blurted out I had feelings for you. And obviously you liked me back, or else this would have ended very awkwardly.”
Lena shoots her a very fond, and very exasperated, look. “I know you know her name is Veronica.”
“—and,” Kara goes on, ignoring the comment, “we kept it quiet because we wanted to take it slow. Since, you know, our friendship comes first.”
“Obviously,” Lena says. “So we have the story, but what about the…acting?” She grimaces slightly. “God, it sounds so sketchy the more we discuss it.”
“Only if you make it that way, Lena,” says Kara with a straight face, and Lena balls up a diner napkin and throws it at her. “Hey!”
Before she can initiate a proper war using whatever tools are at her disposal (a Slim Jim being an especially enticing makeshift sword), Kara’s phone starts ringing again; it’s Alex, and Lena answers because of course she still has Kara’s phone in her hand and not her own.
“Hi, Alex.” A pause. “Yes, we’re outside, how did you know?” Another frown, this time deeper. “Ew, why are you watching us? That’s creepy. Tell—tell Maggie I can hear her. And is that—” All at once, Lena bursts into a laugh. “Hi, Grandma Danvers. No, Alex is a liar, you know she is. Kara is just pretending she isn’t eating lunch for the second time before she comes in to raid your pantry.”
“Hey,” Kara repeats, and Lena crinkles her nose at her and just keeps on smiling.
“Okay. Uh-huh. Bye.” Lena finally passes her phone back. “Looks like it’s showtime. Are you ready for this?”
“Yes,” Kara says firmly. Then, “Wait, let me finish eating first.”
Afterwards, as they stumble out into the dust and dirt, Kara watches Lena—Lena, who wears Kara’s flannels with the sleeves rolled up, who insists on a full face of makeup even when it’s just Kara’s family she has to be with, who consciously reviews every step carefully so she will not step on any bugs. She gives a frightened yelp as a bee flies past, stumbling back automatically, and Kara is immediately there to steady her.
“Can I hold your hand?” Kara finds herself asking, and Lena’s face turns a soft pink when she says yes, and Kara doesn’t even know if it’s due to the heat or some other reason.
Suddenly it’s like she is a teenager again, all fumbling fingers and sweaty palms, but Lena is remarkably unfazed. She just squeezes Kara’s hand tighter, allows Kara to grandly sweep open the front door, laughing at the way Kara trips over the loose porch step as if absolutely nothing is different.
Grandma Danvers is all over them in an instant. “I knew it!” she crows. “You two have been keeping this from me, haven’t you?! Oh I’m so happy for you both!” She’s hugging them before Kara can even drop their bags, and from over her head, Alex is mouthing you motherfucker because she most certainly must have placed some sort of bet about this.
“Grandma,” Kara whines, as is her obligatory right as a grown woman being smothered. “Who says we’ve been keeping anything from you?”
“It’s one thing to be keeping secrets, child, but another to lie about it,” Grandma Danvers huffs. “Lena, you’re sure you want this one?”
“Grandma!”
Lena does not bother to hide her blatant amusement. “Unfortunately, yes,” she says, making a show of batting her eyelashes up at Kara, and Kara swallows hard because she’s just—very close. Close enough that she could almost kiss her.
“Gross,” Maggie chimes in, and Lena flips her off behind Grandma Danvers’ back (because as far as she knows, Lena Luthor is the saint among their group). “But I totally called it. Alex owes me twenty bucks.”
“You’re betting on my love life?” Kara asks, half-scandalized and half-unsurprised. “Does Eliza know about this?”
“Eliza also owes me twenty bucks,” Maggie says all-too-proudly; now Kara finds it in herself to be a tad concerned.
“Well,” Lena cuts in, “this is a very…touching reunion, but not why we’re here.” The Lena Luthor that Kara knows has always been able to charm anyone, and she can commandeer a room without trying, but this is the Lena that Kara likes the best—the person whose face practically glows as she hugs Kara’s grandma. “Thank you for having me, Grandma Danvers. Happy birthday.”
“Oh, you know you’re always family, sweetheart,” she replies. “Even if you and Kara weren’t dating, you know I’d pick you first.”
“I’m still here,” Kara is sure to remind her, and Grandma Danvers just laughs and shoos her off to carry Lena’s bag upstairs. This, of course, is what causes her brain to start snowballing. If they’re “dating,” the family will undoubtedly expect Lena to sleep in Kara’s room tonight. And then they’ll have to share the bed. Together. Very close to each other.
(And together).
Lena comes to find her eventually. “I can’t help but notice you didn’t raid the fridge yet,” she says. “And we’ve been here almost half an hour, so…you must be sick, or possessed, I’m assuming?” Teasing as her words are, her voice is decidedly gentler, an unspoken question held in the way she waits patiently at the doorway.
Kara sort of blinks back. “Yeah, no, I—I’m getting to it,” she says. I’m okay is what she means, and even as she’s sitting on her childhood bed and clasping her hands too tightly between her knees, she hopes Lena gets it.
She must, surely, because Lena’s shoulders relax. “Okay,” she says, and takes a seat beside Kara. “Do you feel weird about what happened?”
“Not really,” Kara says. Pauses. “Maybe? I don’t know. I don’t know how I feel right now. I thought we could just come in here and pretend and we would all laugh and move on and—and nothing would change. I mean, nothing has changed,” she’s quick to add.
Lena rests her hand on Kara’s thigh. “I get it,” she admits. “It’s weird. I never thought your family would like the idea of us dating so much.”
“Right! It is weird!” Kara laughs a little too loudly. “Um, not the idea of us dating, just that they’re really on board. With it.”
“Exactly!” And Lena’s—looking right at Kara now, green eyes framed in mascara that’s a little smudged from falling asleep in the car, so beautiful that it makes Kara’s heart skip a beat. “So, um, are you ready to keep on playing along?”
“Definitely,” Kara promises, and she feels the itching need to brush a flyaway strand of hair behind Lena’s ear, and so she does it. “Thank you, for this. You’re…a really good friend.”
“Your best friend,” Lena corrects, not in the usual smartass way that she would say it, but quietly—quietly, like a reassurance they both need, and even as the space between them seems to grow smaller and the air feels heavier on their shoulders, they don’t look away.
“Yeah,” Kara whispers. “Always.”
(And she knows—she knows—that it is definitely not just friendship they’re talking about here.)
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