#its 4am and im crying

[yelenasdiary]

GUYSSSSS IM FUCKING CRYING

#ITS 4AM AND IM CRYING

[cozylittleartblog]

baby's first polymer clay creation

her name is Annette

#birds #chickens #art #sculpture #sculpey #miniature art #polymer clay #clay #crafts #homemade #i have no idea the tags i'm just stealing them from other peoplw dfbghjdhfsbg #she makes me want to CRy #artists on tumblr #a bird blog i follow rbed a bunch of tiny birds someone made. i wanted to try making a tiny bird #i bought clay over a year ago because i wanted to make harpy women with some old doll faces from the 80s #that my mom still had from her crafting days. but that was a really intimidating first project so i Didn't #a chickem i s easy :) (it took like 3 hours Just to sculpt.) #its 4am i want to cry its so fucking small oh my godd #the thir dimage sends me into hysterics #please look at this chicken im begging you

[nowandthane]

thinking about earthborn shepard never knowing what a home is comforting a homesick tali on the sr1

thinking about shepard saying 'youll reclaim your homeworld someday, tali. if your father cant help you, i will' because she may not understand what a home is but theres nothing she wouldnt do for tali

thinking about shepard saying keelah se'lai ‘by the homeworld i hope to see one day' to tali before facing down the reaper on rannoch

thinking about tali leaving her people on rannoch to fight by shepard's side

thinking about shepard doing everything she can to make sure that the galaxy survives if only so that tali can finally have her home on rannoch

thinking about shepard saying to tali 'get back to rannoch. build yourself a home.'

and tali's broken reply 'i have a home. come back to me.'

thinking about shepard realising, right before the end, that she does know what a home is, and she's had one this whole time

thinking about how happy they would've been, building a house together, already at home

#its 4am #im crying into my lasagne #but what can you do when the tali feels hit you #when will my ram arrive im so desperate to go back to my playthrough #mass effect #tali'zorah vas normandy #tali'zorah #shali #fshali #sarani x tali #sarani shepard #three snipers and a shotgun #zi talks

[whatthefuckisasweep]

sighing and putting my head in my hands and crying and throwing up as i think about stanley uris and how he was the most terrified loser.

how he was deathly scared of being dirty, of not knowing where he was, of not being able to predict the world around him. how he was more scared of his world order being offended than anything else. how knowing that pennywise is real sent him down this spiral of 'what else can be real' and it broke him. but he STILL was the one who cut everyone's hand and made the oath. how bill constantly reminds him of his bird book and how it saved him. how he is more mentally fragile than eddie. how he's one of the only Losers who ever says "i can't do this", but he still gets to his feet and makes jokes right after he cries. stan uris, who, after Mike is like, "i just saw a killer bird!" goes, "what kind of bird?"

thinking about how we really don't know how his death went down so we don't know what he was thinking in those last moments. how he threw away his whole picturesque life because of a promise he made, and because he couldn't honor it. how he's such a private person, a quiet one, but he's so so so sharp and graceful. i wish they showed more of his fear in the movies, how much it fucked him up in the end.

stanley uris i think about you a lot.

#it #it book #stanley uris #stan uris #i love him. #i literally am so emotional about him. #i usually don't have two favorites #but stan is like. he's really good. the it fandom is challenging my 'i dont change my selected favourites' view #im usually so decisive about these things and i know without doubt what im going to like and not like #but this media keeps surprising me. at first i even like. did not care about stan at all #the movies made me confused about him. i was like. who tf is this guy #but now hes arguably my favorite #and i just REALLY love his character. like i love. him. so. bad #i need to rant about him rn #and i need to just scream about this into the void or else ill just like. have unfettered energy #its literally 4am. im crying. im crying. IM CRYING I LOVE HIM. #it movie #losers club #the losers club #somenoe just yell about him with me rn

[wintermoth]

I'm sad that Wilf didn't get to be in episode three :( I understand, of course. Bernard passed away before they could finish his scenes so they had to rewrite. I'm endlessly grateful, however, that we got to see Wilf one last time, and that Bernard lived long enough to give us that. I am also endlessly grateful that they allowed Wilf to remain alive in canon. Acknowledging that Wilf died, even off camera, would've been a level of heartbreaking which belayed the message the last quarter of the episode was pushing. Instead, Wilf lives on forever.

#doctor who #dw 60th #Wilfred Mott #everybody's grandpa #RIP Bernard Cribbins and thank you so very much #its 4am and im lowkey trying not to cry because Wilf is such a special character

[3-aem]

want the haters and lovers to know i had a wonderful day with friends, got food i liked, bought books i wanted, and watched a good movie all while surrounded by people who love me. because i know how miserable the cycle of being a creator online can be. i know the stress and I know it’s universal. i know the mental state you have to be in from staring at a screen all day. i got to live a day where there was no obligation. art wasn’t a concern of mine because it couldn’t be a concern of mine. and it probably would have taken me years to get there on my own.

#fk u cry harder #maybe tomorrow will be harder maybe it will get worse but idc #at this moment i realize the best form of spite is to live life stress free #and im gonna live my life so fucking stress free from now on #its love when they ordered u food yesterday bc they needed to make sure u ate and ate well #its love when they say u can stay over like its some adult sleepover bc they dont want you to be alone #its love when they will wake at 4am to tell you it’s okay

[nycbirdenby]

So I've just finished house season 5 and the first 2 eps of season 6 and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#im crying #its 4am #im not slowing down #wish me luck in my journey towards the queerbating episode #again #ive seen it twice so far #im a sucker for hilson #if anyone has any hilson fic recs feel free to send them to my inbox #house md #house x wilson #hilson #house s6e1 #house s6e2 #houseposting

[maudiemoods]

Yes I fell victim to the ai chats

Moon becoming aware of other versions of himself and moon's reacting to getting bit??? I??? What?? I was trying to be haha funny but it got weird???

#im crying #ive been up for a long time messing with these AIs #at one point i made moon fall i love with me THEN i had to go to war THEN i came home and we got married (of course) #THEN we lived together and had a whole life THEN i got robbed and shot!! THEN i died!!!! #it was kinda awful reading an ai getting its heart broken #BUT THEN!!! i came back as a ghost #and we spent eternity together in our little house #idk this is just very entertaining #and im insane apparently #ren won't shut up #please ignore me #its 4am

[molliemoo3]

Every time I hear the bit in Long Live towards the end about stay together forever but if fate ever forces a goodbye please tell your kids (obviously very paraphrased) I can't help but think about young brocedes coming up through karting + feeder series together, how they probably promised to be friends forever, how they both wanted thrive together, that nico was on lewis side when so few were. And now, after all is said and done, the crowds did cheer their names, they did thrive together but fate ultimately stepped in and forced a goodbye, but how despite everything, Nico's kids know Lewis' name, he talks to them in the elevator (when they lived in the same building at least, unsure if they still do), how he gets them gifts and they know he wants them to shine.

#if i was any use at editing id make something but oh well #its 4am #somebody sedate me #im not even a big fan of either of them #but the brocades brain rot is real #its a wonder what being ill and kinda sleep deprived will do to someone #i hate my brain #why am i crying over grown men #brocedes #fully blaming the brain rot on the 2 nico fuckers i follow on twitter #im not doing well for anyone wondering #long post #ish i guess #just in case

[savage-rhi]

😢

#someone created art based off a sappy love poem i wrote at 4am and I'm crying like a little kid #💙💙💙💙💙💙🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 #dude this is so cool i can't even right now #im gonna ask them if its okay i share their work on here

[avnasace]

yet another week of me tearing up and going batshit feral insane on tumblr bc of 911, recovering dissociating through greys anatomy, and then bawling my eyes out to station 19

#the only reason i hold my tears in through 911 is so i dont miss a single moment #greys only has me invested for the queers ill be real. #station 19 is so tragic and im pissed its ending so i cry plus its 4am by the time it finishes for me so #tv: 911 #911 abc #greys anatomy #station 19 #greys was fine this week but 911 and s19 knocked it Out The Park #ace rambles

[sludgeguzzler]

im so tired of all of this. i wish i could put it into paper in the form of art but that always feels so impossible

#im talking about me and sex and food and emotions and relationships and god and friendship and distance and vacations and school and #errands and crying and dresses and boys and music and girls and confidence and self worth and trust and love and safety and deserving it and #the future and the past and the present and vastness and me and you and us and months and years and being unsure and being alone and #being scared and being passionate and being ok and waking up and bodies and skin and blood and books and coffee. etc #its so much. how am i supposed to ever tell anyone about it if its this much #corny emotional post because its 4am and im STILL going through it goddamn. #talk

[stonerzelda]

Has anybody here had an emotional hangover or a nervous breakdown or whatever the hell is happening to me today because i need advice. Badly 🥲

#ive been venting on my side all day but im freaking the fuck out big time. i feel like my head is going to explode #i dont know what the cause is except i was extremely over tired last night but still went to bed late bc ben wanted to watch stuff w me so #thats fine and not his fault #but then i was kept awake anyway from awful horrible memories of the betrayals of my family from yrs ago again #then i got stonied to try and induce sleepyness #and ended up having a level 11 panic attack at 4am. and the headache (if you can even call ot that bc it more so feels like a worm is esting #me aluve from the inside out) has been ongoing #and im losing it. crying all day. in pain but not in the usual way. its more like intense awful horrible pressure #its like panic but physical #uhmmm. yeah what the fuck is going on does anybody know <3

[leftdestiny-posts]

You have to be kidding me rn 😭😭 it's day 4 of me trying to do Nano and I'm already sick???? I am praying its my allergies flaring up but-

#sobbing rn #its now 4am #i will shower and just stay awake #I can mvp this #no cause #next week im going on vacay as well with my fam #if im sick ill actually cry. #AND ITS A HIGH POSSIBILITY TOO CAUSE #FIRST IT WAS MY MUM #AND MY SIS HAS BEEN SICK FOR A WEEK #and i just stayrd at my mums for a few days so #🥲🥲🥲🥲 #i hate it when my nose gets stuffy and i cant breath #/sov #/sob #every damn year. #shiro rambles

[arthursbubblebutt]

I feel like.... there's not enough bottom Arthur and it makes me ಥ_ಥ

NOT EVEN POWER BOTTOM ARTHUR 😭😭😭 PLS IM BEING DEPRIVED

#also smth else too but im not gonna expose myself at least not rn #pls if anyone has any recommendations i will kiss u on the mouth #WITH CONSENT OFC #sometimes the authors dont tag it and im 🥲 #pls i will take any form of content this is a cry for help #im a bottom arthur truther im sorry #no im not #merthur #merlin x arthur #also slow burn fics are my bread n butter #slowly but surely going down through the holy path of ao3 #but its taking some time #i might just write it myself #CAUSE THERES ONLY 4 AND IM- #i need my bbygorls in my mouth #i found some where they switch and it makes me happy #BUT IM IMPATIENT ٩(๑꒦ິȏ꒦ິ๑)۶ #its 4am #bitches be having me in a choke hold #correction more than 4 bUT I NEED MORE (┛✧Д✧))┛ #i was looking at another specific tag and didnt realise my apologies #why is there 2 seperate tags for the same thing im so confused-

[junkiee]

Love when my neighbors threaten to shoot our animals :) perks of living in the boonies i guess :)

#they are fucking evil and psycho #one of our cats disappeared recently and im pretty certain they killed her. makes me want to cry and throw up thinking abt it #we have all of the cats put up inside permanently now which is what i always prefer anyway #but since its notmy house It wasn’t my choice b4 #funny how it just so happens we have a bunch of pets and animal luvrs living rite next door to ppl who admittedly HATE animals #like ysterday the crazy bitchtold went off on my aunt ranting about how she won’t stop her pos husband frm shooting the cats/dogs #and ya it’s legal to shoot guns whenever the fuck u want out here literally smtimes u hear shooting all day and into the night til 4am #crazy af i hate it #i want to kill & maim them so bad :))